#but omg im not the same anymore

[lethxia]

guess my favourite character you guys

#aizawa shouta #aizawa shota #eraserhead #shouta aizawa #shota aizawa #mha #bnha #art #hes like #the only thing i draw anymore #i say im going to doodle some stuff #and its just the same three angles of aizawa #like its not my fault hes so drawable in general #people go ‘omg can u draw character x’ and i answer. no. sorry. #i only have a single character design memorised and its This Guy

[worldsquietestjojosfan]

#maybe i wont be fucked in the ass if i try to draw real people stylized #this isnt too bad ngl #word of honor #word of honour #yeah idk anyways #me and my roommate got into an hour fight because i deadass couldnt recognize zzs without the tan #i was like bro thats a different actor and shes like bro youre actually insane its the SAME GUY #she says im faceblind #i could be ngl #dont even get me started on wkx when hes not smiling #there was this scene and she was like omg its wkx and i was like WHERE #she doesnt want to watch dramas with me anymore

[silenthillbunni]

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#sooo now when the surgery is 3 days away im starting to get very nervous nd anxious T-T #i know it's like a minor surgery nd i mean im gonna get to go home the same day so it's not supposed to be super bad #and the recovery time isnt supposed to be that long either. so like i know this is an easier surgery #im still sooooo scared nd nervous omg. i've never even broken a bone so this is like crazy for me sksksk #but i try to think positively #and i try to focus on the positive: many ppl say that they 'get their life back' after gallbladder surgery #so i can hopefully start feeling better and more normal again. nd regain my physical health #i miss going for long walks everyday. i miss being able to eat. i miss not being scared of the pain nd feeling uncomfortable everyday #so yeah.. trying to focus on that instead of being scared of the surgery itself. but i cant help it im just an anxious person #i just rlly wanna live normally again. i wanna go to the gym. i wanna eat well nd also yummy nd healthy. i wanna go for walks. #i wanna not be depressed anymore nd start writing again nd reading more nd watch shows nd be able to work on functioning as a normal person.

[insert-neologism]

paper doll by flower face

#yellowjackets #jackieshauna #i started making this. like right after i uploaded isobel (finished yesterday but it was too late to put in on here lol) #meaning in not much time (so that's why it's probably not my best work) #realized i used the same scenes like too often on the third rewatch which is the rewatch i do on here #n i dont want to go back and change it the save it and upload in on here. sorry #tbh im REALLY not sure if anyone is even watching those. mainly doing this for my code of honor #(<- thinking to myself 'omg im gonna edit the whole albim the shark in your water by flower face to jackieshauna #and then acting like I swore my life to that cause) #(more like code of HOMOr amirite) #anyways. considero g how not much time i took in this im still proud of it #mitos incredible life #mine art tag #also I just realized this (or my edits in general) might not make that much sense withiut my thoughts? #like (most of the time) i have MANY thoughts abt the lyrics and I could analyse i think all of my edits very in depth #and it IS THAT DEEP bc im the creator and what i say is true fr #might do an analysis. if anybody likes this i see that as confirmación that ppl want it. #and if it's for the imaginary person thatll find this in ca 5 years (named him jesú.) #anyways jackieshauna brainrot REAL i cant listen to baby teeth anymore withiut thinking sbt them and violently feeling a lot of things #jackieshauna: The Shark In Your Water

[4giorno]

i got the cutscene <3

#its actually crazy that there was even more content i missed that impacted the story this much #like this rlly illustrated how even tho my character and astari0n have both become better people astari0n is still so behind in that #(we know why ofc. hes still acting like a feral cat trying to self preservere with teeth and nail and all until the very end; the ritual) #my character had his most obvious 'shifting point' at the transition from act 2 to act 3 #like he fully realized that this is now truly bigger than himself. he has left marks on the lands and he has to go all the way #he has made true friends. one of his best friends is the kindest most compassionate person in the world #and very importantly he loves astari0n and THAT is the reason he now feels this actual compassion towards the other spawn #hes so personally invested in this issue now #and he can say that 'the world can be a wonderful place if you find your home in it astari0n' bc its something he has just recently had #a personal revelation abt #and astari0n deflects it and describes my character as someone who now 'spends their life sorting out other peoples problems' #and it rlly brings it to focus that he just cannot meet him where hes at anymore #just great conflict that feels actually meaningful and perfectly fits into the roleplay storyline ive made for my character #and omg the line 'im doing this for you too you know. to make sure were both safe. forever' from astari0n is just AAAAAAHDJJDJD. CRAZY #bc we know how toxic he becomes towards you if he completes the ritual!!!!!! #HHHHH this character!!!!! hes just MWAH. perfection #i cant wait until i get to doing the szarr palace again bc this added conflict will make the conclusion of this quest even more satisfying #anyway TOTAL tonal shift time. in start of the cutscene astari0n is standing next to the bed my character was sleeping in #so i can now have the hc that some nights they sleep in the same bed <3 #(WELL. you know. my character sleeps while he meditates)

[hella1975]

life’s falling apart except im being very howl pendragon about it in that im keeling over and becoming a giant goo monster and my hair changes colour and im sobbing inconsolably

#I hate my degree I’m this fucking close to transferring #just spent two hours crying and doing integrals #like literally sniffling as I took notes it was acc pathetic #if I fail these resits then that’s it im done i quit #im already shit compared to my sister and I’m already fulfilling every small town stereotype despite fighting it #which is almost worse than the people who didn’t fight it and just embraced it despite hating it #bc that means I literally just cannot escape this fucking town and it’s mediocrity #but I just actually don’t care anymore #I’ll be a drop out if I have to #I’ll do an english degree despite having no clear career path in mind #I’ll stay at the same uni if I can so I still have all my mates #and I’ll pretend the future is not a looming inevitable thing out to get me #im very aware that a lot of this thought process is coming from a place of immense dread and stress #and I’m also due on #so I probs WONT drop my course lmao #but omg I’ve never properly considered it the way I am rn im acc so miserable with it it’s killing me #hella goes to uni

[moond0wn]

Omg this........ Thats what comes to mind everytime I think about rw....... Like what do they really think about them?? What's the relation between an average, pebbles city citizen and pebbles himself? i dont think they would actually care about him, like at all, but then what about the ancients who designed him? Man like what was happening inside their silly heads what were they thinking........... Like they said the iterators were their children, they were responsible for them but this all seemed so...superficial? Like this reminded me of a weird example, like the way some people treat their pets. You bought it or adopted it or whatever, this makes you responsible for it so you need to provide it with food and water and nourishment but besides all of that... Do you really care about it? The ancients built them so, technically, the iterator are their children, and they're also solving the ancients' silly puzzle for them! And they're also taking care of feeding all of their cities! You need to keep everything in check to make sure they're still functioning, doing their homework, and not trying to starve an entire population, but besides all of that, do you have an actual reason to care about them? Enough to think about them on your way to your death? Also. Unfortunately I don't think people with the the knowledge and power to make entire ecosystems from scratch would really care about all the critters they made, big or small. I dont know if all of this made any sense but i read this tag and it made me so sad actually!!! No wonder why they're all either dying, frustrated, mad, or everything at the same time. It would suck so hard to be treated this way. but also I want sooo baaaad more dialogue or pearls about this.... Tell me more about how the iterators are doing. What they think abt the ancients. Actually give me more pearls in general with more useless info inside them and random lore relevant ones please im starving for ancient content

#well lets make some very tiny box things to shelter them from the rain! #now we're going to die! goodbye and good luck ✌️ have fun #they suck SO HARD but i need to study them #theyre sooooo silly imagine repurposing an entire factory to produce ash for your city-sized machine god #but at the same time not caring enough about them and leaving them behind after you die #for them to slowly decay and rot and still try to find Your solution. a solution now useless #because the ones who needed it gave up #i have very little thoughts abou them actually im so normal #forgot how to tag this #forgot all my tags actually omg #FUCK THEY LITERALLY LEFT EVERYTHINGG EVERY SINGLE THING THEY EVER MADE THEY LEFT BEHIND WITH ALL THE UNDYING AND RIVER DRINKING GODS AND #AND THE LITTLE CREATURES AND THEY LITERALLY THOUGHT #i cant do this anymore #tumblr scrambled all the tags ........my god #rain world

[lemongogo]

if i post legato sketch will the world explode ans crumble into one million billion pieces be honest w me

#tht knives is me uploading and deleting the same twt in indecision #yeah ill do it.ill do it 2 show myself see its fine and then a meteor will rocket down and squish me like a bug #and all will be right with the world again #guys im like so like (throws up) ab my art it needs 2 stop i need to like sever the artery that connects the two of us #so that i dont care anymore and i just kick my feet and giggle and draw my space western guys in peace #duality of liking it and wanting 2 hold it up like soo fun omg u see and cower over it and hide it from any prying gaze so that no one #but me knows it exists #trigun spoilers

[pepprs]

idk how to reconcile my new self with my old self. also i fucking hate waiting. GRAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

#delete later #im getting a taste of my own medicine bc when im overwhelmed depressed etc i don’t even open emails or dms or whatever and then ifeel guilty #and let them build up and run away from them and literally do not reply for years. but ive been waiting for like 5 different but related #replies for 3ish days at this point and im soooooo impatient omg i want to bash my head into the wall.. and afaik no one i messaged has #opened the message despite being active online elsewhere which is EXACTLY what i do so i have no right to complain at all. but still. omggg #i just have a simple question (me and the ps5 voice) reply to my message boy #purrs #also.. ok yeah im gonna be honest about it even if there are consequences lol. idk why im on such a mission to get back all my old #characters but if i don’t i can and will go crazy. i don’t even do that kind of thing anymore and d*viantart is an irreversibly warped #landscape due in part to capitalism and in part to own mistakes and selfish actions. and i truly feel like my tumblr mutuals are the only #ones who understand me and feel safe and cozy on here. but i miss my old internet home. and i really miss my old internet friends and seeing #all the jokes we had and how we were all like interconnected w the same adopt groups and stuff and now we don’t even talk… it makes me so #sad and i feel weird messaging them just for the purpose of asking if they can give me back characters i gave them 4 years ago like a) you j #just don’t do that kind of thing i don’t think but b) it feels so transactional and would make the part of saying hey our friendship was #important to me when i was a teenager and even though we don’t talk anymore i think of you fondly and wish you well. like lollllll. and i #feel cringe even tracking them down / messaging them bc we are all jn our 20s now… embarrassing. but i am so mad at myself for letting those #friendships wither (not that i have the spoons to sustain them these days anyway but still) and for not keeping bettr track of my characters #when i sold them and for giving them up in the first place and for letting my old internet life just fall apart due to neglect bc it puts me #in a bind to try to piece it together again no matter how i try it and i shouldn’t try anyway. but i am so tempted to rn. lol #* itd make saying stuff abt appreciating friendship weird bc there’s a transaction tied in (source: i did this and feel weird and bad) #like the way i want to SCREAM seeing that dA ate all of the journals i made when i was a 14 year old and turned them into glitched polls. th #the way the wayback machine has terrible unreliable records of everything and i can never get some stuff back / track some stuff down. pain #anyways it’s stupid bc i feel cozy and listened to and as connected as i have the energy to be to all of u guys so why am i doing this. but #i miss the dA stuff too and i wish it wasn’t cringe and i wish i could have everything that’s ever been part of me all in one place. lol #also this doesn’t even take into account my poetry community on dA on my other account who i also felt so safe and cozy with and i abandoned #that too and lost touch with basically everyone even though we all knew each others deepest secrets for years.. the heartsickness of it all #anyways mutuals who knew me on deviantart i am clutching both your hands with impassioned urgency and kissing u on the cheeks. that’s all

[technicolorxsn]

okay seriously Simon sucks in this

#i also find it funny just how different winter king is lol #but man im kinda sad with how simon is now... i rly liked him before and he just... isnt great anymore #i think that's the main reason he makes me sad is like... this isnt the same guy #i do see how he got here but still idk.... #personally i think more people would have supported him and noticed rather than just finn once #idk #i dont like this simon very much hes just kind of a mopey asshole #wah wah my gf became god so im gonna be an ass to everyone wah #i LOVE fionna now though omg #i didnt like the AT fionna and cake at all but i love them so much now #fionna ily <333333333

[caruliaa]

obsessed w looking at the old discord gc that everyone else left so its jsut me (+their old acct that got deleted) that i shared with my old best friend and since it became just me i used to send so many messages about how i felt abt her that were. mostly sad and angry and stuff etc but a lot of them are also like "well guess who has friends so much fucking better than you now loser >:>" and also a lot of song lyrics.

#“sokka is a MUCHH better character that weres blue and represses their emotions SO TAKE THAT LOSER” real quote. also real quote in the sens #its very real. sorry patton iluu still i prommy<//3 but sokka the loml sokka !!!!! <3 #idk why im thinking abt her tbh . actualy ik why i put on the new masie peters song and was kinda like omg #bc it is like. yes its kinda sad to still think abt her (which tbf i dont that much anymore) but i mean like !! #instead of her who just genrelly didnt appriciate or care abt me the same that i did for her i now have so many incredible freinds who #are so much better to me and actually care abt me back when i care abt them andd im still a v much like. not to brag but a v caring kind #friend imo or at least i try to be lol and now instead of her the people that get to have that in their lives are also the same to me and #make me so much happier than she ever did and actually remember my bday and oh shit ! i won the breakup !! #flappy rambles

[sassy-assassin]

Buddy Daddies episode 12 WAS SO GOOD WTF IM SOBBING I CANT EVEN WITH THIS BEAUTIFUL FAMILY. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!

Spoilers (and my unhinged thoughts) in the tags just fyi

#i loved the action of the full-on assault on the mansion #and like yess get Ogino's bitch ass #that whole fight in the mansion was pretty gayyy no lie #rei in his suit with his hair down was HOTT like wtf #that xmas photo of them all just makes me wanna cry it's so adorable #poor Miri when they told her her mama wasnt gonna be able to make it to the concert like my heart #wish rei's dad would've got taken out but i kinda get why rei did what he did #as in the long run that was prob better for getting the organization off their backs fully #since simultaneously proved he was serious about leaving and that he couldnt be an assassin anymore #tho he looks like he can still use his arm pretty well in the future tho #and im sorry DID REI TELL HIS DAD HE WAS SLEEPING IN THE SAME BED AS KAZUKI AND MIRI LIKE OMG WHAT A FUCKING PSYCHOLOGICAL POWER MOVE #he really was like FUCK YOU DAD Kazuki and Miri and I are a real family #i started bawling when they showed Miri older like the fact that they all got to grow up together and be a family im so happy #but also like a lil sad bc does that mean there is no hope for a season 2? Like pls i need to know what happened between the times #i wanna see her growing up and them two managing to make a real family #ahhhh i love how kyu is still clearly a part of their lives by the photos #i wholeheartedly believe kazuki getting drinks with a woman was him drinking with Carol & Dorothy while complaining (in a loving way) #about how Rei can only make french toast loll and just like Dorothy listening with this completely knowing look on her face #and the photos of Karin from France like she looks so happy! #@kazuki's goatee whyyyy lolll #FUCK I JUST HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS ABOUT THIS SHOW AND LOVE THEM SO MUCH #buddy daddies #buddy daddies spoilers #buddy daddies episode 12 #daughter daddies #i want to scream into the void about how happy i am they all got to be a family together #idk what to do with myself now like the past few weeks have been so wrapped up in this show idk who i am anymore #fuck pls i NEED A SEASON 2 #OR LIKE A MOVIE

[sonarsunbeam]

going from a tall girl to an average height man was the biggest whiplash of transitioning

#for reference im 5'10 #i see so many dudes be like 'im so short lol' and theyre fuckin #same height as me #people used to see me and be like omg youre so tall and now that im a dude i dont get that anymore 😭 #the sam speaks

[biohazrd]

for the love of god stop recommending me posts about the pirate show. nobody has told me anything about it other than it's gay nobody has posted anything about it except it's gay. good for them but what's the fucking PLOT all i know is the terrible kiss. literally all i've seen and that doesn't bode very well in my mind

#it was the same w good almonds for a while but i did eventually watch bc friends told me id like it #and i trust them saying its something id like for more than them being in love like. im sorry but im not 12 anymore. #one gay kiss isnt really enough to draw me in. ive heard its GOOD but nobody has been like omg ur gonna love this #and so i will wait to watch until i see fit. #clown 2 communication

[train-inthedistance]

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#omg sb i follow just rejoiced in d*pps ‘’freedom’’ and i went to their blog and ………… #literally baffled with the arguments ….’do you realise that by siding with h*ard you’re siding with t*rfs’ like ?????? #do people actually think before they speak anymore like first of all in what world is that an argument at all and #second of all oh my god. just bc you want the same thing doesn’t mean you want it for the same reasons ??? #yeah im actually against unconditional basic income now bc the neolibs also want that but bc out of diametrically opposite reasons🤡🤡 #but I’d side with a neolib so what can you do like ??!!!??!?!?!? #i am literally SO tired of this dogmatic moralising on the internet like people please !!!!!!!! you have a brain!!!!! #the way the post was answered w dude he’s literally a tr*nsphobe like ? ?? crying w frustration over here #*sb i followeD lol

[eulchu]

i missed you :( i feel like i haven't seen you on my dash in forever. how have you been? anything interesting happen in the past week?

miss u guys so much 🤧😭 ivw been going through a very bizarre tumblr experience

#ive also been so busy this past week so it's been like. weird moments in between periods of nonstop work #I DONT KNOW! like i guess. that when i decided to take a step back from the fandom i envisioned it to go in a different way #and im a little bummed at how lonely it feels in here #and i get it to some extent because it was my choice to leave but at the same time idk this was my home for four years #but i dont matter anymore 💀😭 #qhateveberrr im being a pussy about this im just disappointed in some people #SORRY FOR THE VENT OMG #tjanks for the ask sorry you miss me im always around if anyone wants to send me whatever