#but okay my attending today

[betweenblackberrybranches]

Also turns out my artblock or whatever it is is mostly doing its thing with digital art.. i can still doodle on paper sooo have a cute automaton au moon

#fnaf moon #moondrop #dca #daycare attendant #dcamv #my art #automaton au #i made apple pancakes today #and i glued my shoe back together #and yesterday i did the dishes #beating depression one chore at a time #very proud of myself actually #but yea i am not doing too well and i dont think im gonna be okay at work tomorrow #but im gonna be fine in the end

[gemkun]

everytime sinday rolls around i would love to shower the dash in delicious thoughts but there are simply only mothballs and lint. i guess veritas would be the type to ask his partner(?) to read to him and not fumble on any words , since it would be a desecration to the granted knowledge , while he goes to town.

#* ✦ 𝐈. ❮ ooc ❯ ⸻ ❝ #* ✦ 𝐕𝐈. ❮ muses ❯ ⸻ ❝ 「 veritas ratio 」 #that's my single offering today #now i have a shower to attend #oh yeah and if you drop the book then he's going to be disappointed #probably leave you right then and there aha #okay bye #suggestive tw

[callouiee]

🌻

#im so frustrated with the amount of vacant time i have #especially as someone who's not dorming #like #today i'll be attending the fair with my friend right #my last class is at 1pm #hers is at 530 #what the fuck am i supposed to do until then ?! #okay i know my college building is very accomodating #we have a learning commons area where we can sleep etc etc #but thats not the point 😭😭 #if only i didnt have ONE face to face class at 10 #i wouldve just left the house in the afternoon #in time for my friend's last class #u know what #maybe i should just skip this class lmao #uni diaries

[february-academia]

04.09.2023

Yayyy 🥳 dissertation draft is sent to supervisor for a similarity check and i feel so lightweight rn. Now it's time to see Alex and Henry ( again)🥹🫠

#she was lying she stopped the movie midway Nd scrolled insta to watch edits of brightwin and alexhenry #wowow this dissertation is almost done i feel so proud of myself #still thay abstract is left to review once more i did it yesterday but all the excitement is gone bcs I won't be able to attend the #conference in perosn #it's okay tho #i also watched heartsopper s2 and I'm just so jappyyyy uff they're all so cuties #i also look cute today #i swear this is a studyblr #study study #studyblr #february academia #studyspo #studying #study blog #alex henry #they so cute #i love my boys so much #red white and royal blue #that's it #bye

[le-velo-pour-dru]

GUESS WHO'S STAYING HOME FROM SCHOOL FOR TOTALLY LEGIT NOT FAKE REASONS 😎

#dru speaks #LOOK I HAD NO CHOICE IN THE MATTER OKAY MY MOM CALLED THE ATTENDANCE OFFICE 🤭 /j #SHE TOOK THE CHOICE AWAY FROM ME THERE'S NOTHING I CAN DO AT THIS POINT X3 🩷 /j #i'm so excited to get more rest i only got 5 HOURS OF SLEEP LAST NIGHT 😭💔 #i kind of would've liked to go to school today but. c'mon. i get to stay home. that's pretty cool X3 🩷

[rabbigfirlee]

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#so today my attending was a very pretty pakistani muslim woman #(mashaallah) #and I’m not sure why but for some reason she just absolutely refused to engage with me 😅 #like she would completely avoid making eye contact or having any convos with me #which okay it’s fine not everyone is going to like you #but we have never met and we don’t even know each other 😅 #and it made it kind awkward while rounding on the patients because I’d be standing across from her and she’d just completely shift her gaze #just to avoid meeting my eyes #it’s crazy to me because wallah every other doctor both residents and attendings were soooooo kind and engaging #like if anything I’d expect this treatment from a racist old surgeon or something #but it’s crazy when it’s coming from your fellow female Muslim doc #this reminds me of the time when the female Muslim surgery resident made an issue about my hijab in the OR while the nonMuslim attending #had said it was totally acceptable #I’m so surprised that the only time I have issues with my hijab or being muslim is when it’s other muslim women #make it make sense

[cosmojjong]

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#okay anyways i guess i will sleep after this post #but my mind is full of thoughts and worries #머리가 복잡해 #that's how i really feel #it's 3 am but i can't seem to relax and sleep #i need to attend my grandpa's funeral in a few hours and i am scared because it'll be overwhelming #and i still feel bad i couldn't go to my other grandpa's funeral #i wanted to give my farewell to him properly but i ended up staying home #and didn't fly there with my family #it was excruciatingly emotionally painful to be so far away and alone #so i feel even more guilty that i am attending this funeral #i loved and i love my grandparents equally #i just hope tomorrow (well today) flies fast because i can't take it #the idea of letting all these loved ones go especially during winter is unbearable #ehh.. ok didi time to shut up #goodnight i love jonghyun

[longroadstonowhere]

okay so there is such a fine line between 'not doing my job' and 'efficiently doing my job' and i tap dance across that line so fucking hard sometimes

#we have this big meeting that i set up that has like... fifteen different attendees #all with very difficult schedules and travel and all such things #but i find the perfect day the perfect time it's all gorgeous and done #and then i get told one of MY managers (like the person i'm an admin assistant for) is out of town that day #probably still working? but not in the office so wouldn't be attending this meeting in person #so okay i guess i have to reschedule even further out bluh fine but i don't want to do it so i haven't yet #and today i learn that that manager may in fact be in the office after all on that day #so the thing that i've been avoiding doing? i might not have to do it at all #and like...... i should not be rewarded for this behavior ahahahahaha

[tidytrash]

"Hello Sunshine~"

#Sun #Sunny #FNAF sb #Daycare attendant #OKAY OMFG SKDBSKFB #YOU HAVE #*NO* IDEA #THIS CAME TO ME IN THERAPY TODAY #WE WERE DOING THE TENSE UP AND RELAX #AND CALMING MUSIC WAS PLAYING #AND ALL OF A SUDDEN I HAD THIS IMAGE IN MY HEAD #a much better image but I can't draw lifelike details #Yet #Oh oh I'm so proud of how this turned out!! #//smol scream #I seen it in third person btw #Just like this #So if it's not MY face #//wink wink hint hint nudge nudge #Anyways #That's enough tags #This shit gonna end up in the most random heckin places- #Tidytrashbin

[rackartyg]

what frustrates me with a lot of the takes on jod is that they keep trying to flatten him into just a remorseless megalomaniac, and it feels like such a … self-interested interpretation? because the point of jod is that he knows that, how, and why all the things he did were wrong, and the entire time he’s been jod, he’s felt the emotional turmoil of that — but he keeps making excuses for himself.

you don’t need to excuse an action you think is actually good and correct. he knows he’s done bad things, but he thinks he had good reasons or at least the circumstances were such that no one could blame him. and that’s what his nona chapters are — his confession. he saw himself in harrow, so he thinks she’ll agree with him, and he wants her to know what he did and then tell him ‘it’s okay, i understand why you did it, you did the best you could’ because he knows he’s done atrocious things and believes there can be no forgiveness.

all he can do under that belief is double down and hope to be excused, so of course that’s what he does. owning up to his own actions would involve admitting he did something wrong, and if forgiveness is impossible, then there’s no coming back from that, and even if nobody can impose external consequences or punishment on him, he’d feel it internally and punish himself with guilt. because his moral compass is actually working fine, he’s just convinced himself that it’s okay he isn’t actually going north because 10,000 years ago, someone made him so angry that all the needles looked red.

which, ime, tracks much better with how real people behave than the classic villain act. most people know what they’re doing is wrong on some level, they just feel like they have a good enough reason to flaunt that moral rule in that instance. they’re not right. they’re excused.

#‘it’s not okay to hurt people in general BUT in this instance this person is being enough of a freak #that it’s necessary #y’know #for the health of society’ #she speaks #arctic reads the locked tomb #rn i’m dealing with (this is absurdly lower stakes lololol) a couple people in a group project #that repeatedly no-call-no-show meetings (occasionally they do say they’re not coming before not coming #but they’re still NOT attending) #and we’re going to have a talk about that today and i bet you my ridiculously heavy calculus textbook that they have some STELLAR excuses #one of them got absurdly defensive in our discord server yesterday so he definitely knows what he’s doing isn’t okay #but is that guilt motivating him to actually do something about it? no! #he just tries to get away from it by excusing himself! #because living in a world where you’re excused rather than forgiven is easier because being forgiven requires admitting wrongdoing #and that is aversive enough to most people that they just don’t do it #hell *i’m* not good at that either. it’s really hard #the difference is most people don’t get made into god by mother earth #and can at most be annoying to the other people in their group project. also john is fictional

[thedreadvampy]

mad about work but nobody to vent to 🥲

#red said #i said a week ago 'hey we have staff at multiple locations should we run this celebratory lunch as a hybrid event'? #no that would be too hard #we'll do it in person only and record the presentations #so uhhhhh that event is on Thursday and as of today oops no don't bother with catering we'll do it online to make sure everyone's involved #which means no we aren't offering our staff a free lunch to celebrate their work. #instead we're asking them to spend their lunch break at a teams meeting. which is obviously the same fucking thing. #so a) once again i am forced to ask Okay Well Why Have I Spent A Week Preparing Stuff We Aren't Using #and b) in a period where there's mass dissatisfaction and 16 people just got laid off without warning #leadership are making the decision to substitute 'we will buy you lunch and give you the chance to hang out and celebrate' #with 'stop what you're doing so the CEO can talk at you for an hour'? #i mean it's like they WANT to help my organising efforts. which is appreciated i guess. open union meeting this month 😘 #OH also it's bc 'attendance wasn't high enough' when 40 people have RSVPed yes in the last week which is 1 in 5 of the org #i don't know what numbers she was fucking expecting given that we have a bunch of staff who don't work Thursday #or who work out of office

[m0e-ru]

"you thought I was going to say four wheel drive weren't you?"

#p4 #gsa sl au #moel gas station attendant #⛽️🌫 #souji seta #arttag #boot.tingting #komikku #// giving him the most stupid cis guy trait. car guy #// yeah okay maybe not in the superlatives but it's there #// sorry i was looking through my notes from like a few years ago i really wanted mim to like read a bunch of car magazines while working #// and i want souji to humor them like okay lets see how human you are today lets prove adachisan wrong

[dr-lizortecho]

me: wow, I might be semi-interested in pursuing something romantic for the first time in four years. Like it’s something I might actually consider cause I’m feeling a particular kind of lonely, and could feasibly have the time and energy to dedicate to another being

God: … yeah. no.

#as in I literally said these words aloud #and was all ‘I guess if a half palatable and semi interesting person asks for my number at work today I minus well agree’ #and the. for the first time in months not a soul approached me #but three different ladies invited me to their church’s #asked if I had a home church #me the girl wearing the cross necklace #and then to top it all off for the first time in months my manager was like ‘would Sunday be okay for you not to work’ #so guess I’m going to attend a Sunday morning service for the first time in a minute instead of self studying #or whatever #sorry guys #it was too coincidental

[el-im]

watching you fall in love in real time is sooooo cute

:') i'm in it up to my ears.

#asks #i swapped a class for another in the same time block and today was the first class i'd attend of it and lo and behold guess who walks in ! #so now im seeing him 3x/week instead of 1x/week for 3 hours in our lab class #i'm just so nervous and so flustered in our lab class because i'm really out of my element (which i said to him--and he said 'i have twelve #reasons i want to jump off a bridge right now and that joke is three of them') #so i feel like he's seeing a version of me lacking any confidence/seeming like a total airhead but. #he just kept saying to me. i like listening to you talk. and. that i'm something else. #anyway. then he asked me my name again because it's... a hard one to pronounce. and he says. ohhh okay i was calling you something else #and i asked--did you just have it wrong? or did you make up something new entirely just for me? and he said it was new. and i asked if he #cared to share. and he absolutely refused. #anyway i am. so smitten. #he forgot his calculator today so mid-quiz i cleared the RAM on mine so it wouldn't be considered sharing information and slid it over to #him and he took it wordlessly--without so much as looking up from his paper--then gave it back and ohhhhhhhhhh boy #oh boy #said me being a bio + english major was like adding zero to any integer (being derisive about my english major) and i just thought #that was so clever and funny and so... teasing. #there's quite a bit of teasing going on. i feel like a little kid ?!

[princedrewwrites]

i always feel bad when i can’t properly help the kids who need extra support... like dudes i get it but i’m not you and there’s only so much i can do cause we need to keep you in a school routine best we can :((

#a lot (most) are likely going to be filtered out by secondary and attend a specialist school #case in point: my lil buddy today was upset that she couldn't keep playing with pompoms #and i would love to let her keep playing with pom poms! #but it was time to go in for her #so i had to carry her and i kept apologising and telling her she's okay #but she was so upset :(( #another kid hit her with a hula hoop by accident too #she didn't rlly have a good lunch time and i feel bad

[keep-this-all-in-mind]

What time is it? Time... For another Redemption Arc chapter, apparently!

#announcer voice: do you like heists? do you like the batfamily? do you like the batfamily doing heists? #attend your local redemption arc chapter drop today! #other tags to get them out of the way so i my blog wont eat this post later: #birdflash #dickwally #batfamily #batsiblings #dc #leverage au #leverage #the batfamily leverage au #redemption arc #stormyskiesahead #OKAY that's everything i think #this is the one with the ridiculous wordcount for the record. do not expect 8k in the future #6 is much more reasonable #ghhh next chap is The Birthday Job yall i am SO excited for that oneeeeeeeee