#but no i just have the worst luck with it and i hate it so much

[tsireyqs]

mass disappointing my friends by texting my ex situationship who literally caused me to hit peak insanity and depression that took me months to heal from 😝😝😝

#it’s a bad idea right? #but he’s just so cute #i hate him #RHABSBAKD #my feelings have been all over the place lately #i’m fine 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼 #literally how do i have the worst luck ever #ari screams into the void

[junkdyke]

tattooing at lesbian and women centered events, yes, really great crowd of people to tattoo, lively but non-stressful environment, fun, will 100% continue doing

hollywood market event that doesn't pick up until midnight, attached to a regular club with a rave-centered crowd where people are visibly fucked up and smoke cigarettes while you are tattooing them in close range? 2/10, the tiny bit of money i made is going towards the parking ticket i got and some guy tried to mansplain my business model to me while i was in the middle of tattooing someone. right at 2am, they cut the power, so if i hadn't had my headlamp i would have been tattooing in actual PITCH BLACK. absolutely not again.

#personal #tattoo stuff #so much happened this is just some of it #any space that has straight men is just a NO i am coming to find #gay men that don't have an acrylic coke nail maybe would be okay #but overall everyyy event that has been women exclusive has always been near perfect and every event that hasn't has had some shit #i've been having the worst luck with parking tickets lately i fucking hate la #anti men #wlw

[byanyan]

me: byan deserves better

also me, shoving them into worlds where people can have extraordinary powers and giving them none, making their inferiority complex even more intense: they don't get to be special tho

#me giving them a vampire verse but they're not a fully fledged vampire and are instead still pretty mortal all things considered #the closest thing they have to a superhero verse is being identical twins with one so they're the normie sibling #idk it just. suits their overall themes in like the meanest way possible to not let them have those perks #always having to fight and claw and use their own skill to get things #never getting to be as unique or special as they want to be #having the worst luck possible and always feeling like the universe just hates them #never good enough never special enough #inadequacy!!! jealousy!!! if I can make those aspects of their personality worse I jump at every opportunity #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[what-are-even-humans]

So the biggest exam of my semester is in 59 hours and I'm too tired to do any kind of work. Please send help. This is fine.

#sorry for spamming on here but im too tired to care #chronic illness is so funn yall #ive gotten through 66% of my preparations/the curriculum so this is shaping up to be my worst semester result wise ever #which is fine. i mean it is what it is but i had a full on week long break down a year and a half ago for getting a c so this might be fun #gotta love gifted kid syndrome #what do you mean i cant just get straight As now that im only able to do like 25-30 hours work a week and also had major surgery #this semester 😲 #i mean itll be fine. unless i have spectacularly bad luck i wont be drawn both in orthopaedic and kbp #and barring that i really probably wont fail or anything #i might even get lucky and get drawn in like SCa and oncology or pain conditions in which case i might even get an a but like... #im probably realistically speaking at like a D. which is fine. its fine. really. #ill just have to get comfortable with the idea and also maybe if im not too sick work some on kbp #orthopaedics can suck my dick honestly. except fractures. fractures can stay theyre alright. #fucking knee and shoulder pathology in orthopaedics however is the fucking worst and i hate the existence of both shoulders and knees wirh #a burning passion atm #he said having been unable to study for like two days and needing a 5 hour lie down after attending a 3 hour seminar earlier in the week #surely that has nothing to do with my current condition #or predicament rather #anyways yeah i love rambling in the tags when im too tired to function properly #not space

[waugh-bao]

"I've never been told [by the others], EVER, You did a great set tonight. I've only been told, 'You were out of tune tonight. If I play great, it's accepted, and it's the same with Charlie.”-Bill Wyman, 1978

“When you’re playing with somebody like Charlie Watts where else do you want to go? Because the guy is incredible.”-Keith Richards, 1978

#there are so many reasons to hate Bill #but personally #for me #his weird need to constantly drag down Charlie’s relationship with the others #and say that they didn’t praise or appreciate him and just wanted to exploit him #is one of the worst #he KNEW how much Charlie struggled with self-worth and confidence and simply finding a reason to love or even like himself every day #that he felt he was no good and only got to where he was based on luck and that he could be abandoned or fired any minute #even though he valued Mick and Keith’s loyalty immensely #and Bill somehow still thought this was okay #the rolling stones #charlie watts #keith richards #bill wyman #meme #my edits #I really think if Mick heard him say this or the thing last year about them abusing Charlie #he’d have totally let (probably encouraged) Keith to go fight him #if not done it himself

[chisatowo]

I just realised that I have 4 stars of every sekai character now.... Poggers

#rat rambles #sekai posting #ena was the last one I needed and I got her so. guess time to pray for more variety with my vocaloid 4 stars since my luck with them sucks #this is abt miku and luka I only have unitless versions of them 😔 #wait I lied I have a l/n luka sorry luka #what I rly need is a 25ji vocaloid specifically 25ji lens initial 4 star its so good best card from that event by a landslide #but ibstead I got mafuyu 😔 real reason why shes the worst character /j #I also need wxs and mmj vocaloids but Im not as desperate for em #I just want sekai to stop giving me vbs vocaloids I have 4 of them at this point I think and 2 of them are meiko #WAIT THIS POST IS A LIE I AM MISSING SOMEONE #FUCKING AN. IM STILL MISSING AN. FUCK YOU AN /j #Im beconing homophobic I hope she dies /j #the fact that shes the one Ive been wanting most since I first started sekai. this is an actual hate crime #god fucking damnit post canceled

[cheekblush]

what really sucks about traveling alone is that there's no one to take cute pictures of you :(

#and no one to put sunscreen on your back 🙃 #i'm at this castle rn and these 2 girlies are doing a whole photoshoot the pictures will turn out sooo pretty!!! #i've been wearing all these cute outfits and i have no good pictures of them 😞 #i hate taking selfies and i'm too shy to ask a stranger to take my picture shshsjjs #well it's my last day anyways i literally have no good pictures of my trip </3 #also the festival i went to yesterday turned into such a disaster i had to be carried away to the doctor it was so embarrassing 😭😭😭 #festivals are definitely not for me it was way too crowded there was no space to move i was barely getting any air i was drenched in sweat #the worst was my stomach ache tho i ended up missing most of the concert... i literally have the worst luck all the time 😔 #and mind you i experienced all of this by myself.. that's on having no friends </3 #i thought this trip would be a great experience for me but tbh i just want to d word :) #☁️

[heavierthanlaila]

هو الناس اللي معاها بكالوريوس احياء المفروض تعمل بيه ايه؟ ؟؟؟؟؟

#I don’t even want to work #I hate going to work #most of the coworkers always turn out to be snakes #I’m so tired of trusting people and forming some sort of bond and then turn around to them lobbying for you to get fired #yes that’s exactly what happened to me in my last job #it just hurts and I can’t take this anymore #why do I have the worst luck with people? no matter the relationship

[mashmouths]

so bullet train is not a bad movie actually but oh my god brad pitt is so annoying in it

#like he just complains about his bad luck the whole movie when he's the luckiest motherfucker there i hate him so much #at least the soundtrack fucks #the way they use the set is very very cool and the humor isn't the worst but i have to say i'm a little confused by the cameo casting #also some of the deaths are so camp <3 #a post

[iloveyouitisruiningmylife]

maybe someday you'll realise where you are rn and who you are is enough and maybe then you'll finally calm down

#you is me #ventpost disguised as shitpost #i hate that nothing is just the perfect amount it's too less or too much #like five new people wished me luck (college friends #cool writer on twt etc) and still i keep staring at this one person's chat hoping something will magically appear #idk what tho? do i think it's gonna be hey i miss you? can we talk? best of luck? #like it's insane why is it not enough to have these many people care for me and still feel sad like 5 person caring thoda thoda should make #up for one person who cares a lot right #and #my mom was like i won't come to drop u the exam centre bc if something bad happens your mental headspace will be fucked #i mean obvi she didn't say those words but like the gist was that #and i hate that my first thought immediately was oh really? just say you don't care and go #like do i have to assume the worst out of people all the time??? maybe they're just being genuine and not manipulative #but just i keep going in circles like if u care so much why don't u just fix it you have to power to do it when i don't #like i feel like that fucking kid in young royals #the guy's sister who kept hating her mom and kept saying if u cared enough you would've left and her brother explaining to her that it's no #that simple and that she's being immature and rude #like ofc i understand that it's not simple but like are good things so simple? u have to fight for it otherwise how can u earn something #that is important that matters #i just hate that all this makes me feel so #like i can't trust anyone is saying ever #like if a new person i like talking u too im like do u really or are u just putting up with me #like ffs just believe them how tf can u build relationships without trust #all my college friendships have fizzled out bc of this like i got the vibe one time that oh no they don't actually like me i ran away in #the opposite direction faraway from rejection #or is it failure? #ugh i don't even know where this is going #mes

[raeofgayshine]

Headaches are objectively awful for a lot of reasons, but the worst one is that the best way to cure them (or at least the bad ones I get) is to lay in a dark room for hours on end with literally nothing (maybe quiet white noise, as a treat) but of course my brain would rather die than do nothing and be quiet so I wind up just having to suffer and do things that make my headache actively worse until I either feel like crying from the pain or like throwing up in which case I then I have to stop and take a break and maybe sleep until it gets a little better, rinse and repeat until the headache goes away or I finally fall asleep for the whole night.

#ravenpuff rambles #by headaches I mean I’m pretty sure it’s a migraine and I have chronic migraines but #you know my brain hates claiming words without confirmation because what if people get angry #anyways having a headache is probably the worst thing for my adhd ass and there is a reason I just push through them so often #a lot of times they’re just headaches that if I don’t move my head or have too much light around I can minorly do things so I learn to deal #the shitty part is the fatigue without the ability to sleep that just kills my thought process #because I could write without looking at the screen but no forming words that require thought like that is hard #can’t even daydream when my head hurts enough because the pain is distracting #anyways guess who has a headache today I’ve just kind of been pushing through #i wish I could just take the time to relax but my brain says no #but you know I’m fine and there’s nothing going on with that Nope #anyways wish I could see a doctor to talk about my headaches among other things but #good fucking luck finding one that has a spot not four months from now that take insurance and also won’t be gone in a years time #i do not live in the best place for medical care that’s for certain #I’m lucky I got a dermatologist and it took me about four months to get an appointment with him #and that was with a recommendation from my doctor who has since left #at least I got those problems under control though one thing about me is semi stable and that’s my skin #i mean it’s a nightmare but at least I have treatments and names for what’s wrong

[miserye]

the more i use the school website the more i hate the school

#wish me luck for my chem final I’m taking it rn #rye’s q #untoasted rye #it's just so #AHSFJHSJKF #frustrating #like they couldn't have made it worse OH MY GODDDDD #the WORST UI i've ever used #i'm gonna miss my current school's UI because it's better than this ones #i actually hate this school so much why am i going here #AHHHHHAFSJKSH #context: i'm transferring colleges :') #I have used it more and I hate it more now too 🥹❤️ #it sucks ass like seriously so bad I would recode it for them if I could #one of the websites they use for refunds doesn’t even work properly #like you’re telling me I’m supposed to trust this bitch w my card info? #i’d literally rather trust tumblr

[be-good-to-bugs]

maybe i am cool and fun to be around. i feel like people dont like me but ive hardly been around anyone in so long so i have no proof of that.

#the bin #there have been some people who seemed to wanna be friends. i wish it couldve happened. #there was one of my sisters old coworkers who said they wanted to be friends. i really wanted to get to know them and hangout but i didnt #have tbeir contact info and my sister kept randomly having falling outs with them bc shes the worst #they stopped wanting to be around my sister. apparently they still wanted to be my friend but i never got her contact info #she seemed so cool. she showed me her los and monster high collection one of the few times we hung out. i wish we coulda watched #barbie movies together or smth. but no. #how do you meet people? where do you meet people who like the some kinda stuff you do? is it all just luck based? #ive been thinking music shows might be a good idea to try n meet people. that seems to be where a lot of people meet their cool alt friends #i wish i wasnt so lost on how social stuff works. others seem to just make friends wherever. but whenever i talk to people it ends quickly #how do you turn an acquaintance into a friend? some people will meet somone once in a circumstance where theyd never run into them again #and theyll become friends. how do they do that? i know its not luck. how do people have conversations in ways that lead to that? #how do you even learn you have these common interests or that you just like their personality? i hardly know what to talk about that isnt #immediately relevant. i do pretty well socially in work settings bc i can make some casual conversation but its all pretty enpty #i feel so awful every second of the day. nothing distracts me from it. i just wanna talk to someone. watch a show with someone #hold soneones hand. not be alone all the time. #i miss telling jokes. its like such a big part of me and how i interact with people. i have bareky gotten to joke around with anyone in #months. i think that especially is crushing me honestly #i just. i feel SO BAD. every day feels so long and horrible. its only one more month and then things will change at least somewhat but #everyday is so hard to get through. every hour feels like forever. i hate it. i can do anything to feel better #i feel empty of everything besides horrible feelings

[widevibratobitch]

turns out that when they tell you some meds have side effects it's actually like. true sometimes?????? weird

#christ the anxiety is fucking unreal i literally cant breathe what the fuck #ive had countless panick attacks in my life but this is Different. #is this what you guys with anxiety disorders go through regularly???? jesus fucking christ this is unreal #aaaaaaa im the worst person ever and everyone hates me and it takes one mistake on my part for all my friends to leave me forever one by one #which is totally valid and they have every right to do so and id prolly deserve it too ig but still. not a fun thought #and i do think these things on a daily basis but they're never accompanied by THIS. im going into fucking cardiac arrest what the fuck lmao #and the worst thing is i dont actually feel much better on those meds at all lol #its like im only getting the side effects but the main intended effect is absent. just my luck ig #christ i really cant breathe this is insane

[allofuswantgwinam]

i am literally longing for hands on me and messy kisses and intimacy period

#it’s annoying #my life is so boring rn #at least that part of my life #i don’t even feel like trying is part of the problem #I have the worst luck fr #relationship wise or even just like fwb #it’s terrible #the universe hates me i s2g #it doesn’t hate me #but rn i feel like the universe hates me and wants me to be alone for all eternity 💀

[trashbaget]

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#yknow this has easily been the worst year of my life i think #i can confidently say this has been the most isolating painful and shit lucked year of all 21 i’ve had (and ive had some fucking bad ones) #i was finally fucking getting somewhere with my life and then it all just flipped on me and suddenly everything was just worst case scenario #i was out of my toxic home situation and doing well in school and i made so many great friendships i really thought were set to last and i #had PLANS!!! i had plans dammit!!!! i was gonna get out of my hometown i hate and be on my own #i was gonna graduate i was gonna focus on myself i was gonna be happy #I WAS GONNA BE FUCKING HAPPY GODDAMMIT!!!!!!! #and ive lost all of that #i had to drop out of school because my mental health has never been worse #i couldnt get a job #my mental health tanked because i couldn’t get a job and i didn’t know how i was gonna pay for my apartment while i was a full time student #and i couldn’t get a job #i couldn’t afford to keep my apartment because i didn’t have student loans to pay rent with because i dropped out #and i couldnt get a job #i lost all my friends because they all started fighting with each other and i dont even know why because nobody was talking to anybody about #anythinf and especially not me because they stopped feeling close to me and didnt try to keep in touch #and now that ive had to move across the state ive lost any meaningful connection with the one or two who actually tried now and then #i’m in another toxic household situation that i desperately need to get out of #my relative who was going to get a place with me so we could both get out of our situations is backing out on our plan so im stuck here #i still can’t get a fucking job!!!! #i can’t even drive and there’s no public transport here so i cant even go anywhere #and realistically how would i get to a job if i could even get one?? #i have no friends out here because my only friend from home just moved away when i moved back and cant drive #(yet!! the fact that she’s gonna get her license soon so we can get together soon is my saving fucking grace) #i am so so fucking lonely #i am so so fucking tired #i am so so fucking scared i’m gonna lose it completely before anything gets better #GOD I WANT MY FUCKING LIFE BACK!!!!!!!! #i am nothing but a square foot shelf and a hamper. an air mattress that sinks to the hard floor after an hour. #i can’t make my bed and lay in it because it gets tucked into a closet every morning