#but neither are the wolves!

[montereybayaquarium]

Just a wolf-eel ready to howl at the moon jelly 🌑

#monterey bay aquarium #monsterey boo ascaryum #beware the were wolf-eels #wolfeeling the halloween vibes #a reminder that wolf-eels are neither wolves nor eels #theyre just really long fish and we love them

[charmtale]

Shameful secrets cause a person to become haunted. She cannot sleep, for a shaming secret is like a cruel barbed wire that catches her across the gut as she tries to run free.

(Clarissa Pinkola Estés, Women Who Run With the Wolves)

the fact that no one* knew about akio's abuse of anthy is far from the only thing wrong with it, but the inherent shameful secrecy of it was an integral part of her abuse, something that significantly served to isolate anthy from her peers.

it was definitely akio's plan for utena to see anthy and akio at the end of ep. 36. (anthy's hands disappear into her hair = she had no hand in this. + the way the scene lights up like how lights come on at the beginning of a new scene in a play (anthy's previously black silhouette gaining color and features) = it was staged. not to mention her bleak expression) akio thought that utena would just be disgusted by her, and/or feel betrayed, and that would be that. however, he sealed his fate (anthy being able to ditch him) with this action, because utena offered anthy compassion and understanding instead of condemning her.

utena acknowledging anthy's pain as a result of being abused by akio touched anthy more than any of utena's other actions up to that point. while utena says a lot of stuff in that scene about utena's ego and being a prince, anthy only has visible reactions to two of utena's lines until utena is completely done speaking.

"And the night I learned about you and Akio...!"

the camera focuses completely on anthy, nothing else shown, as anthy slightly tilts her head up. there is no dialogue while anthy makes this small movement; anthy is listening intently for what utena will say next, and the show wants us to notice that.

"I thought that you had betrayed me. Even though you were suffering so much...!"

when utena talks about suffering- acknowledging that akio's treatment of anthy caused anthy pain- anthy uncurls her body significantly. a visual indicator of feeling less shame, immediately in that moment.

anthy does not move in reaction to anything else utena says until utena is fully done speaking, when anthy and utena are now shown kinda-holding eachother. utena may or may not know the full impact of her words, but it is clear to the viewers what moved anthy to say:

"It doesn't matter now. Just leave this school. Forget about everything that happened here!"

in anthy's opinion, this has to be the kindest, most honest thing she can say in this moment. utena leaving would ruin akio's plan and anthy would be the obvious reason why (likely leading to punishment), not to mention how anthy would obviously miss utena. the fact anthy said it anyway shows how impactful utena's statement was

it's good to talk about utena's obsessive girlprincing and how it was damaging. it's good that utena acknowledges it herself. but i think the fandom commonly overestimates how much that mattered to anthy, especially in relation to this scene. i feel that people sometimes abbreviate it as 'utena apologized to anthy for her egotistical behavior, and that brought them closer together!' like yes, she did and that was positive and indicative of utena maturing. but i do not think that was the most important aspect here

#rgu #anthy himemiya #women who run with the wolves #*(nanami and touga knew eventually but that's neither here nor there #if anything nanami knowing and treating anthy like even more of a weirdo for it would reinforce anthy's shame #not that i blame nanami. she is 13 and in hell)

[pommunist]

unstoppable force (qtubbo’s self sabotage tendencies and his nihilistic belief that everyone is doomed to leave him behind)

vs

unmovable object (qfit’s emotional walls and automatic denial of his own feelings making him physically unable to admit he misses qtubbo)

#inside morning crew there are two wolves #neither will take the first step towards reconciliation #we need a miracle to force them together #and by miracle i mean a good ol pac kidnapping #qsmp #qsmp morning crew #qsmp tubbo #qsmp fitmc

[nostalgicfun]

January 1999

#inside of me there are two wolves. one wolf wants this icy cold salty Pennsylvania experience #the other wolf was just amazed by how good mentally I felt visiting florida where everything is green forever #neither wolf is getting what they want (North Carolina is a cold brown snowless wasteland four months of the year) #crying sobbing flinging myself down on my bed seeing my dad's old truck #life #photos #photography #memories #pennsylvania #mine #original

[svtskneecaps]

here's how it goes:

everyone spends valentine's day in DEEP denial. tubbo isn't dead, he CAN'T be. when they die they come back, that's how it is, how it's ALWAYS been. the island is hell but at least fatalities don't stick, except in specific cases and all of them in the same white shells. of course philza jokes, he's thinking about tubbo, he can't stop. he's expecting tubbo to jump out at any moment, he's expecting to go to fobo and see tubbo hidden in the basement throwing darts at a picture of fit and pac looking at each other, he's expecting to go back to the dungeon and the body is gone (he hopes). tubbo's not dead. he can't die. none of them can, just the eggs.

(it never takes this long to come back; he knows something is wrong)

here's how it goes:

tubbo tells the kids "i'm on my last life." the eggs have always had lives. i don't think some of them have ever understood that the players have infinite chances, with their insistence on protecting their caretakers from deaths like their caretakers do for them, charging back into the eye worker war, refusing to back out of a dangerous dungeon before their parents do, wanting to protect. i don't know if they understand that to the players, death is like spit in the face: unpleasant, sure, but no big deal.

tubbo tells the kids "i'm on my last life" and of course they believe him. death is their constant companion, no more than two doors down. some eggs are used to it being a breath away.

here's how it goes:

tubbo is dead. the children mourn him. the players are scared. defiant. they always are. who among them has died? dan, missing; spreen, gone; maximus... well there was no body, no announcement, surely-

(how long did it take pierre to accept it? to realize it? to take down the missing person posters? not a day. not a day.)

juanaflippa died and there was a court case to save her. bobby died and the whole server journeyed to save him. when is the last time the players have taken death lying down?

here's how it goes:

tubbo dies, and he dies unloved (fit's arm is stretched out to save him). he dies without purpose (sunny is there, she's waiting, she knows he won't move). he dies and no one cares (chayanne refuses to leave, his godfather, he failed his-)

here's how it goes:

the valentine's party is so loud but too quiet. there's a name in the air, even when no one is saying it

"wow sure is good tubbo isn't here" phil says (he's said this before, he'll say it again, but isn't it strange how many times? perhaps even he doesn't believe it. perhaps he's trying to convince himself.)

here's how it goes:

a creature with too many faces comes. it tells them the truth they won't face. tubbo is gone.

quesadilla island says, "not for long"

#qsmp #shut up vic #block game brainrot #idk not fully satisfied w this but it's 1:30am where i live and i have work #just had some Thoughts. if you're curious this isn't intended to bash any character #i'm not putting character tags on it bc i don't feel like throwing it to those specific wolves idk how this is gonna go over #just it bothers me how people are acting. wanted to throw some cents in the ring #i feel like people are focusing hard onto their fav's lore and missing the other side so. #tbh was a half attempt at throwing what i got out of it which is hopefully close to both #or at the very least it's Equally Neither Option :) #anyway goodnight from me sweet dreams #if you hated this don't tell me lmao #((yes i tire of angst; woe hope be upon ye)) #((me: i'm tired grandpa; the qsmp angsting further: THAT'S TOO DAMN BAD!')) #((maybe i LIKE hope qsmp maybe i LIKE defiance)) #((catch me hoping all over the place smh))

[grandwretch]

hunter Steve and vampire Eddie who somehow end up in join custody of a werewolf pack bc Hopper got made into a wolf last week when he was trying to help the orphaned witch he found on the side of the road and no one knows how he fell into a pack bond with four shithead kids least of all him

#shut up az #imagining Lucas and Dustin going home and their parents being so confused and slightly horrified #is so funny to me #also Steve and Eddie trying to teach this 45 yo man how to be a werewolf when neither of them are wolves themselves #Max Will Dustin and Lucas causing problems on purpose and Steve being like wtf Eddie it's your weekend to watch the kids #Eddie is like of course they're acting out you don't spend any time with us as a family :( #anyway he doesn't know Steve is crazy about him so he flirts to upset him and Steve is dying bc he wants to kiss so bad #Robin is trying to kill Eddie with her brain #until they become besties and Steve is like NO PUT IT BACK

[highlandwhackamole]

wait wait wait

has anyone actually seen Michael Sheen and @neil-gaiman’s dog in the same place at the same time?

#michael sheen #neil gaiman #striking resemblance #probably neither are wolves even if they do turn out to be separate creatures

[eleayzar]

you know, you really gotta hand it to smeyer for writing a 'happy ending' that literally has every character worse off than before edward met bella

#⧽ ⠀ ⠀ ── ⠀ ⠀ ooc : saw a snail ... effervescent. #bella and edward are forever teenage parents of a super-fast growing genius child neither of them really wanted #rosalie has to live with a couple that got everything she ever wanted but doesn't really know how to appreciate it #all those who showed up as witnesses? they’re gonna be hunted down by the volturi #caius is definitely gonna go after the wolves at some point #tanya and kate are deep in grief for their sister and eleazar is definitely getting killed for spilling closely guarded volturi secrets #everyone is fucked :)

[wambs]

The ring will start making public appearances soon.

#inside me there are two wolves #neither wanted this to happen #succession #shivorce #i cannot tag it as tomshiv bcs i simpky dont want it to resurface #succession spoilers

[belethlegwen]

You are so wonderful and I hope things smooth out for you sooner rather than later. Obviously you should prioritize yourself first (god knows we all have sooo much good fic of yours to reread), but it leads me to a question I’ve been too shy to ask 👉👈 how do you feel about recursive fic about your fics/characters? Would you be ok with us sharing it with you/others, crediting you for the creation of such good characters of course? I have serious Stranding/Rescue brainworms and it’s making me want to write drabble & fluff for the first time in a long time 💕 of course it’s fine if you’d be more comfortable with me not posting it — either way, thank you soooo much for sharing this lovely world & worldbuilding & all the characters within. I will be rotating them in my head for years no matter what 🙇

Hello and good morning! Or afternoon, I'm not sure. I'm drafting this answer over a late breakfast because I got a precious day of sleeping-in and I'm still thinking deeply about it.

Firstly: I want to hug you so tight (if you were down) because this is wildly sweet and flattering, thank you so so much for reaching out at all even just about the works, but the wishes that things smooth out are highly appreciated ;-; We're looking… solid? Right now? But there's still so much up in the air and hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I won't bore you with it, it's not the reason I'm drafting this out.

ABOUT RECURSIVE WORKS [very long, read under the cut, tl:dr summary at the end]:

I would love it. I would genuinely, honestly love it, with the caveats that you laid out that proper credit would be given (thank you so much you lovely beautiful soul), that it be clarified wherever it is shared that it's based on characters/settings/storylines of the current works, but truly importantly that it would clarify that the works are actively still being written at this time.

That's my biggest hesitation, if I'm being honest. The stories are both at this time unfinished (they are all unfinished, I am a creature with heavy need to process things through writing and, quelle surprise, I am never truly finished processing anything, new shit just needs to get processed, wheeeee) and being that they're unfinished, there's a chance that any recursive work could hit on a scene/plotpoint/moment that I've already got plotted out for the future. I'm not Neil Gaiman or anything, I'm not planning to make money off of this work, so it's not my concern that you or anyone else is gonna turn around and try to sue me for stealing something or whatever-- that's not the problem. I just don't want you or anyone to feel at that point that the effort you put into something was then copied and put in the main work or something.

It's an odd situation. The odds of it actually BEING a problem I know are astronomically low, but I didn't get to where I am today without chronically overthinking everything.

I love that you have a desire to create, and I do not know who you are-- I don't know if you already have projects and characters of your own and just want to branch out with something familiar-but-new, but I want to encourage you to use this energy and focus for writing all the same. If you can put it into your own works, hell yeah, but also: yes I would be flattered if you used my dorks and their silly little worlds. It's just the concern where I'm not finished with the stories yet. I just am, again, overthinking and overworrying, likely, but if I could stop doing those things then life would presumably be easier.

I would be absolutely down for like, experimental works I believe is the best term for what I'm looking for. Characters and stories based off of my works that are wholly new. Want to write a refracted AU about Melinda and Hank in Space? Fuck yeah, yes. Though I mentioned this to Zip and they immediately told me No, We're Doing That One and we laughed about it for a hot minute, so maybe not exactly those names hahaha

I guess another question here is, if you were to put in the effort and the focus and the pride of writing something based on my characters, of a scene you had in your head, and got through the beauty and pain of creation to get it down and then put it out there, how would you feel if something similar then happened in the main work? Not the same, not based on what you did, but that similarity still there and still noticeable at least to you. Like if someone had written (before I had posted them) something similar to Melanie being involved in a Naval battle, even though I have the receipts that that arc was written in November of 2022 and only finished posting in September 2023, I don't know how they would feel to still see that like, a similar idea had been there.

On one hand, personally, I love being in the G/t community and reading other people's works when I have the spoons and focus and time to do it, because I love that something as simple as "small person falls and big person catches them" permeates the ideas so often, and what that can mean to dozens of different creators. Refracting the same light through a diamond and watching the facets all scatter it differently, etc etc. It's beautiful. It makes me happy. But that's a personal thought, and I know how deep and personal writing can be. I know how much the process of creation can mean to the individual. I don't want you to go through that, to write something beautiful even if just for yourself, and then think in some possibility later that because I did something similar I was trying to do it 'better' or whatever. It's not the case, it's never the case.

So, after chatting about this with people I love in this community (I love you Zip and Kelly <3), I think the solution is: If you want to chat with me about the like, basic bare-bones of the ideas you might have just to give me a heads up, and I can let you know if it's something that'll be in the main works soon and if I'd rather you wait on something, or if I'd go 'oh fuck yeah, go ham', I would adore to chatter away with you about it all regardless. I'd love to chatter with you about writing in general! My characters, your characters, whatever. I'm down. Please feel free to hit me up and I'll get back to you whenever I can <3

Let me know what you think! Thank you so much for the sweet message and the ask!

Cheers,

~ Belle

[TL;DR]

When it comes to recursive works I'm interested and open to them provided they're not something major/heavy I'm planning to tackle too soon in the future canon, as the works are still being written and posted. I am always down to receive DMs about writing, and would prefer to get messages about the recursive fic ideas (as vague as you'd like them to be!) just so I can give a quick yes/no on if it's something I'd rather you wait on until I can get it out myself, or whathaveyou. I don't see this being a huge problem, and if you're good for chatting then I'm positive we'll have a good time with this <3

Writing recursive fics for my existing, in-progress works means agreeing to the caveats that credit be given to me and the existing works, and clarifying when posting that the fic is not canon and the works they're referencing/possibly based on are still in progress/being written. It also means accepting that there is a chance that things tackled in your fics may be similar to things that have not yet been posted for said works.

When it comes to experimental fiction based on my characters, settings, or plot: hell yeah go full 50 Shades if you want to. File the serial numbers off of it and/or write something New Enough. It's what I did to Jonathan Swift, please feel free to do it to me hahaha.

Shortest answer: Yes, just send me a quick message first <3

#g/t #giant/tiny #giant tiny #g/t author #g/t writing #gtauthor #author thoughts #gt #asks and answers #For real I am extremely down for messages about this kind of thing! #And would love to yammer with folks about it if they wanted #Sorry about how long and rambly this was but inside me there are two wolves #and neither of them will shut up #Having issues posting this for some reason so I'm gonna try again

[onewomancitadel]

I partly dragged my feet finishing my fic because I was so certain the new volumes would ruin the canonical adherence of it (a matter of deadly importance to me), which was obviously a vicious cycle, and I am writing out of love, so I want to actually watch the show. Consequently this feels pretty strange honestly

#I'm neither pessimistic nor optimistic. I don't really know what to think about [redacted] topic #there are two wolves inside you. and one of them is that The Expanse got renewed and then it was finished properly #I don't want to talk about the other wolf. but it involves a fandom being sponsored by AstroGlide lube #we're not doing that do you understand me?

[nerime]

"my art needs to get prettier and more vibrant" vs "my art needs to get uglier and weirder" at a constant battle inside my brain

#there are two wolves inside of you etc but neither is DOING SHIT!!! #-_- #neri stfu #boys all you are giving me is anxiety and inability to just draw

[damagedintellect]

💌 New header - Damaged_Intellect 💌

#there are two wolves inside you and neither want to shut the fuck up #i wish i could be head empty bc they are so loud sometimes #damaged art #im fine but sometimes it do be like this 😤 #vent art #nvm im not okay im having another episode

[manulpika]

Okay tumblr do we believe Jekyll that his pre-Hyde vices were just some “undignified” “irregularities” or is he unreliable narrating to avoid taking responsibility?

Because we were introduced to Utterson with his gin drinking and non judgmental nature!! Jekyll would not lose his friends over some irregularities. I’m kind of mad thinking this was all because he likes gambling or the tawdry musical theater or something

#jekyll and hyde weekly #inside you are two wolves #neither of them had any coping skills #jekyll and hyde

[applejee]

the thing about work is that when it’s good u have a great time but when it’s bad i want to blow up the whole building

#there are two wolves #and neither want to work

[northern-passage]

If the ROs could get a (new) tattoo, would they? What would they get and where?

Merry: she would get a new tattoo just for fun. i like to think she has a few funky stick and poke tattoos that her and Mal have done on each other, and other crew mates, too. otherwise Merry tends towards more traditional tattoos that are symbolic of her favored gods as well as old seafaring superstitions & traditions. a few tattoos for her that i always envision (but haven't drawn bc i'm lazy) are an anchor, a noose, a sparrow, a few mermaids/sirens, a ship's wheel, a couple of runes and sigils here and there, a few dates that are significant to her, & a wolf representing one of the wolfmother's children.

Lea: i've actually gone back and given Lea some alchemical tattoos though I have yet to edit some of the scenes in game where they would come up... but Lea has a few, mainly on their hands and arms specifically for transmuting and potion-making. Lea doesn't really do a lot of transmuting but it's mostly for working with specific ingredients and conjuring the potions themselves. they would not get any kind of "fun" tattoo, their tattoos are only for their work.

Clementine: they would love to get more floral tattoos. the wings they have on their back & arms was a huge piece that took them a few years to finish, but they would get a few smaller flowers here and there. they have a few already on their hips and a bundle of wildflowers on their thigh.

Noel: the only one that doesn't have any tattoos!! xe would love to come along with you but xe would be nervous getting one xemself. i do think xe would go for it though, and get something really small and in a place where only xe would see it (like inner forearm or inner calf kind of place) but i also think xe would still want something really vibrant. maybe xir favorite fruit, or favorite flower, or a butterfly with wings that are all xir favorite colors.

#merry's sigils and runes are for show/tradition (think like prayers) whereas lea's are for function #but clem and noel don't have any of those kinds of tattoos #clem doesn't really have a connection with the gods and noel actively avoids it lmfao #and neither of them have functional use for them like lea does #but runes and sigils like that are a pretty common tattoo subject #along with flora and fauna and wildlife #and other imagery associated with the gods #like wolves and sea lions and jackals and crows etc #tho crows can also be bad luck depending where you are and ppl with tattoos of them could be considered cursed.... #anyways. bye #merry harlowe #lea chen #clementine #noel lykaon #ask #anonymous #wow i messed up noel's pronouns so bad if you saw that no you didn't