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urdepressedslut · 8 months

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The Collection

♡ Pairing: tfatws!Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader

♡ Summary: Bucky arrives home and panics when he notices you calling for him from your room, but upon entering— he realizes what you have been getting yourself into.

♡ Warnings: superrrrr fluffyyyy 🥹, slight panic, hints to paranoia, hints to PTSD, hints to bucky’s trauma, overall a comfort drabble

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A/N: i have been adding to my own squish mallow collection and thought of this 🥰 i’m unhealthily obsessed with squish mallows

Arriving back at your shared apartment, Bucky couldn’t help but notice the amount of time xtra large bags on the kitchen counter. He furrowed his brows in confusion and wandered to the fridge. Opening it in inspection, he didn’t see anything new or added.

You hadn’t gone grocery shopping…

He could hear faint shuffling from your shared room, and he couldn’t help but panic. His mind was brilliant at creating a problem from nothing. He was a professional over thinker— and sometimes it threatened to make his heart give out.

“Baby? I’m home!” He announced, shimmying off his jacket and making his way to the bedroom.

“James! Come quick— you gotta see something!” You said urgently.

He automatically thought the worst and all his suspicions were suddenly coming through. Visions of you hurt came to mind and he practically sprinted and busted through the door. The knob slamming into the wall with a loud thud.

“(Y/n)? You okay?!” He asked panicked.

His body relaxed at your calm state, only the look of confusion on your face. With a quick scan— he noticed there was nothing wrong with the room or you. In fact, if anything was different— it were the many new plushies on the bed.

Releasing a breath that he didn’t know he was holding in, and ran a hand through his hair.

“James honey— you alright? Just wanted to show you my new squishmallows.” You asked him worried, walking over to stand next to him.

Truthfully, if anything he was embarrassed that he’d let himself get in his head again. But after finding you perfectly fine, and organizing your plushies— which he found adorable— he felt fine. He was only happy that you were okay.

“M’fine baby, just thought you were in trouble is all.” He told you honestly.

You softened your gaze to him, grabbing his hand and hiding him to the bed. You gently pushed him down to sit, and he did so willingly.

“I didn’t mean to sound all panicky— was just excited to show you the new ones I got today!” You told him, smiling like the cheshire cat.

He chuckled, leaning back on his hands as he looked down at the medium sized squishmallows.

“You know— this is considered an addiction.” He pointed out.

You scoffed, waving him off like it was no big deal.

“Some consider it a hobby actually.” You defended.

He raised his brows in amusement, chuckling again when he saw you being so defensive. He thought you were adorable.

“You’re so cute.” He said out loud, causing your face to grow hot.

After all this time— he was still easily able to make you blush, flustered from his compliments.

You shook off the flush in your face, choosing to pick up a new squishmallow to show him. You held up a medium sized seal squishmallow, to which Bucky smiled at.

“This is a seal one, his name is Remmy.” You told him.

Bucky grabbed it from your hands, giving it a test hug and holding it while you grabbed another one. Next was a longhorn squishmallow, with a ring dangling from its nose.

“This is a bull one, his name is Shep.” You told him, giving it a hug and then passing it to Bucky.

You held back a giggle, Bucky holding the plushies to his chest an adorable sight. Such a tough man with these cute stuffed animals.

“I like his horns.” He noted, fiddling with the plushie.

You picked up the last one, being a bird squishmallow. You smiled wide as you looked at it, this one being your favorite.

“This is my favorite of the three. I think he’s a hawk or something, and his name is Sam.” You explained.

Bucky’s eyes went wide and he started laughing, dropping the other plushies on the bed, he reached out and grabbed the hawk and inspected it.

“Sam, really?” He asked chuckling.

You nodded your head with a sly smile.

“Does our Sam know about this?” He asked again.

“Definitely not— but I’m sure he’d appreciate it.” You told him.

You two laughed at the goofiness and you ended up being pulled by Bucky into the bed. He wrapped you up in his arms and the two of you started cuddling— just melting into each others embrace. The squishmallows surrounded you two while you both drifted off to sleep.

Nothing felt more perfect, nothing felt more right than being in his arms.

“Love you baby.” He whispered, kissing the top of your head.

“Love you more James.” You mumbled into his chest.

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aestariiwilderness · 2 months

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Thoughts:

Omega must be the only child to ever be kidnapped and quasi-experimented on in a secret lab by an evil fascist regime to emerge no worse for wear like six months later WITH A PET (that isn't Crosshair)

The Batch, patiently searching an entire sector of space: Omega must be here somewhere Omega and Crosshair, zooming by: hey I wonder where our fam is

That had to be the most anxiety-producing visit from the Emperor for the least actual consequence I have ever seen. The man wandered in, took a look, patted Hemlock on the back, took the time to gently warn this bouncy evil scientist that "my dude, I know you and I love what you're doing here. And I know you want to post it on Spacebook. I totally get it! But uh. Just a heads up -- most people will think your work is an abomination, TBH, so I'm gonna need you to keep it quiet. Kay? K. Thanks. See you bro, let me know when you need to evacuate an entire base again, I'll foot the bill" and left.

Everyone is sleeping on the fact that Palpatine and Hemlock's relationship (such as it is) is weirdly adorable and honestly. Hemlock, my dude. He really took to heart the whole "if you love your job you'll never work a day in your life". Man is living his dreams

Yeah fine Emerie gave her a doll back. I still don't like you

Why does no one (looking at you Saw) ever just...shoot the Emperor's shuttle down.

Would have been hysterical if Omega and Crosshair just nicked the Emperor's shuttle.

Palpatine: this project must adhere to the utmost secrecy. No one must know. No one must ever leave. *Omega and Crosshair tiptoeing past in the background*

*Palpatine's shuttle lifts off ground* Clone commando: uh sir. Those, uh, pretty important prisoners have escaped. Hemlock:... Hemlock: bless you for waiting to say that till after my boss left

Hunter still sucks at technology.

It's been like half a year and they still haven't bothered to check the recordings of Tech's goggles. Color me unsurprised.

Also unsurprised: we dropped the brain cell on Eriadu. it hasn't grown back yet

FOUND THE CLONE CADETS!

Phee and Shep, back on Pabu: HUNTER WE'RE NOT YOUR CLONE CHILD PANTRY STOP DROPPING OFF ALL YOUR SPACE ORPHANS HERE. WE TOLD THEM TO PLAY AND THEY HAD UPPER AND LOWER PABU IN THE THROES OF A CIVIL WAR BY LUNCHTIME. HOW WERE YOU GUYS THE WELL-ADJUSTED CHILD SOLDIERS???

Maybe-Eh-Possibly Imperial Tech, watching the shuttle zip off without him: YOU TOOK THE DOG??

#the bad batch #bad batch season 3 #spoilers #star wars

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lost-in-fiction-like-ur-mom · 2 months

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Can I get a Crosshair x Y/N comfort fic please ?

He’s my comfort clone … I love my toothpick chewing man

Okay Again

Crosshair x Reader

Summary- After spending months on Pabu recouping from the Empire, Shep gets under your skin. You blow up at the unfair treatment, and Crosshair helps you calm down.

A/N- MY FIRST REQUEST!! Thank you so much! I wasn't sure who you wanted comforting who. If you want something different or specific, feel free to send another request! BTW- I kinda changed Shep Hazard into a villain. I NEEDED IT FOR THE PLOT, SORRY!

Word Count- 2,127

You woke up in a bad mood.

That seemed to happen a lot on Pabu.

Working late helping citizens and the burning sun that shines through your blinds, waking you up at the crack of dawn- was not a good combination.

You threw your arm across your face, groaning. You haven't gotten a good sleep in weeks. Not since the decision to stay on this island. You understood perfectly well that it was good to recoup, sort out the fine details, and grieve safely over Tech. That did not mean you had to like it.

It also happened to be that Crosshair hadn't woken up yet. For half a second you were thankful for the sun. Crosshair always woke before you. This was a rare opportunity.

Your plan was to kiss him or possibly snuggle him awake, but all plans were lost in your mind at the sight of him.

The room was mostly lit up by the damned sun, but you could see Crosshair perfectly. His relaxed face was a rarity that no one was able to see but you. And when you saw it, you had to savor it.

His eyes closed oh-so delicately, breathing in softly. His eyebrows weren't furrowed. There was no scowl. He was at peace. A peace that could only be found within a dream. As your lives were far too gruesome to be at any peace now.

He looked so soft. If anyone knew you thought that, they'd laugh. 'Not Crosshair. He's so gruff. He's always mad and mean." Well not to you. not to the people he loved most. He was mean at times, yes. He was also thoughtful, caring, and will come running to help if you called. All you had to do was say the word, he would be at your side.

The thought made you smile. How did you get so lucky. He was all yours.

You gently reached out your hand to trace his tattoo. A pastime that soothed you. Something about those lines and circle that comforted you. Just before you could get any closer-

"I can feel you staring." So he was awake. That peaceful face you longed to see dissipated. His eyes scrunched before he opened them, squinting at the sun.

You moved your head above him, looking down at him, blocking the sun.

"There's lot's to stare at." You remarked with a smirk.

You leaned on your knees to hover over him, but soon you felt a foot kick them away. You feel face-first onto Crosshair, head barely dodging his own and meeting the pillow.

He had his own smirk now, arms moving to hold you against him.

You gave a playful groan. "You almost made me hit my head" You said, no real threat to your words.

"No, I knew what I was doing. I'll always take care of you." He mumbled back, a hand rested on your back.

You laughed, turning pink.

His playful attitude slowly left with his next breath. He held you tight, soaking in the moment. The kind of moment he thought he would have never seen again.

He used to take for granted the moments you two shared, that was before the Empire. It showed him exactly what he wanted, you.

Tasks of the day flooded your mind, reminding you that you weren't on vacation.

"We have to help Shep Hazard today." You told Crosshair. Shep seemed to think that Clone Force 99 was on Pabu to do all the heavy work for the island. This included transporting crates of fish, fruit, and other supplies to the top ring of the island.

You couldn't see his face, as yours was still in the pillow, but you swore you could feel him roll his eyes.

He gave out a grumble, acknowledging he heard you. At this, you lifted up, hands propped on his chest. The blanket pooled around your waist. His own hands went to your sides, feeling just under your sleep shirt at your hips. They rested there.

The two of you sat in silence for a moment, he looked at you before closing his eyes again, getting in his last ounce of rest. After a minute, he patted your hips and sat up as well.

You let out a frustrated sigh and started to get ready.

The sun's heat pounded on you, moving the crates up and down was not fun. You resented the morning you had, wishing you were back there.

You swallowed hard, taking a minute to catch your breath. It would have been much easier to load the packages onto the Marauder, but Shep insisted on doing it 'the natural way.' Apparently the ship scared some of the elderly citizens.

Now, maybe you were just spending too much time with Crosshair, but you tended to have a sour face when Shep was around.

You didn't even get to see Crosshair for most of the day, as Shep had him managing another group of volunteers. Hunter also had his own group to manage, but you and Omega were stuck with the physical labor.

The thought made you agitated, you festered the anger into your work, and the hours passed quicker. It must have been just past mid-day, because you saw a lot of passing citizens eating lunch. Including Shep.

Your face scrunched up. Lunch wasn't offered to your group. Poor Omega was in worse shape than you, sweating profusely, red in the face. She at least, still carried her happy attitude.

For the natives of the island, food was shared freely. For the newcomers, it was a 'work for your share' kind of deal. A crappy one if you ever heard it, Clone force 99 had done more for this island than all the natives combined.

You took a moment to stop and stare at Shep. Gluttony was all you saw.

With a puff you dropped your crate of fruits down. Fruit you were ordered not to eat, mind you. Sheps gaze turned to you, as he continued to eat.

"I need some water, Omega does too." Shep just looked at you.

"Once all the crates are gone, there will be plenty for you and your team." He stated, thinking he was smart by the smirk he gave himself.

"Shep, we are dehydrated. Just look at Omega!" You gestured to her. She had her smile present, but a droopy and exhausted face.

"She looks fine to me." He claimed, turning back to his own plate. You swear he laughed when he took a drink of his own water. If Hunter had seen the exchange, you were sure Shep would have answered differently.

Rage bubbled up, and deranged words left your mouth. You weren't even sure where most of it came from, you just opened your mouth and the words flowed. Derogatory words to Shep, listing off what force 99 had done for Pabu, never getting any rest, how you were forced to labor endlessly, amongst other themes.

You were just as shocked at your own words as everyone in earshot was. Though, you spoke truth through every syllable.

Seeing everyone's eyes on you made you sheepish after your rant. You stepped back, not remembering where you were- the top level of the island.

You did however, remember immediately when you didn't feel ground beneath your foot. Your eyes barely had time to shoot open in fear. You were falling back, presumably to your death. A single breath left you.

Just as fast as it happened, it ended. A painful yank of your arm grounded your reality.

You looked down, hundreds of feet beneath you. No ground under your feet. Your head shot up to see who was grabbing you.

Crosshair, with a toothpick rested between his lips.

Another breath, this one of relief. You don't think you could live it down if it was Shep who saved you.

"Cross!"

"I gotcha girlie." He said, smugly.

If the two of you were alone, that comment would have lead to more than an eye-roll from you.

He pulled you back up, with help from Omega who had rushed over.

The added embarrassment of falling had refiled your rage. Shep came up, false concern drooping form his lips. With all the commotion Hunter had arrived at the scene.

"Are you okay, you must have slipped!" Shep rested a hand on your shoulder, moving it to caress your upper arm. You shoved his hand away. His touch was like fire to your skin, you forcefully pulled away.

When anger flashed Shep's face, Crosshair stepped forward. He flicked his toothpick down. Cross made sure you were behind him in case anything went down.

"Hey, what's going on!" Hunters voice rang out, his commanding tone grabbed everyone's attention.

Before Hunter could scold you, you took off. Storming down the stairs of the levels on the island. From what you could tell, no one followed you.

Except Crosshair. He was hot on your tail, and eventually reached out. A hand on your shoulder. This one you'd never push away.

His grasp pulled you back, and if he wasn't as attentive as he was, you'd have fallen. He caught you, again.

"What's wrong with you?" He exclaims, seemingly rude- but you knew his true intentions.

"Everything! I'm hot, i'm hungry, i'm thirsty! We have earned our place, and Shep wants to try and convince us we haven't!" You huffed out, rambling as you got angrier. You threw your hands up, frustrated.

"I thought you hated this place." He questions, both hands on your shoulder now. He tried to reason with you.

"I do! There isn't a single thing I like here!" You felt angry tears start to flow, your mind was clouded and you were overstimulated.

You started to hyperventilate and grabbed at your hair. Something you had never done before, but you also don't think you'd ever been so upset in your life either. Your scalp burned as you pulled handfuls of hair.

Crosshair immediately pulled your hands away. His gaze turned more worried. You looked up at him, tears flowing faster. All he did was pull you into his chest. He was never one for many words.

Him, being ever-so tall, loomed over you. You rested your head onto his chest. You melted at his touch, especially when one of his hands came up to pet your hair. Things seemed okay again.

You took deep breaths, and Crosshair led you to The Marauder.

You heard the door close with a steam sound, as you huffed into the co-pilot seat. Cross was at your feet the next moment, crouching down to look up at you.

He held your hands in his, his eyes never once flashing with judgement, shame, or anger at you.

"I'm sorry. I over reacted..." You looked bashfully to the side, but Crosshair spoke firm.

"You have nothing to apologize for. Here." He handed you a canteen full of water.

He was so thoughtful when he wanted to be. With your emotions still high, you teared up again.

"Hey, hey, it's okay. We're going to sleep here tonight. Take a break from everything and everyone." You hung on every word he said, they grounded you.

You nodded after he finished, grateful for him.

"Shep just gets under my skin..." You were upset just thinking about him.

"You don't have to worry about him now." He said, soothing. He caressed your cheek with an ungloved hand. You nodded again, lost for words. You leaned down into his touch, he pulled you into his chest.

You felt much better, but still held onto him.

"I've been talking to Hunter." He started. "He agrees that this isn't the place for us. He said the people were much more accepting the first time you visited, with Phee?"

You nodded in his arms, Shep was much more inhabitable when Phee was there. He was just putting on a show.

"In a week, we're leaving." You looked up at him, eyes wide.

"I know you're miserable here... And the island is not as welcoming as Hunter once thought. I convinced him that we take on a few more jobs. Nothing crazy, just enough to finish repairs on the ship. Then we will find a new place to settle on." All you could do was kiss him.

Words were besides you, you didn't feel like you deserved this.

"Cross... I don't know what to say.." You pressed your forehead to his, a hand cupping his cheek. The other on his burn scar.

"I told you i'd always take care of you..."

You truly felt okay again, even after almost falling to your death, dehydration, arguing, and a miserable month.

All you ever needed was Crosshair. He was all you needed to be okay.

A/N- Thank you so much for reading! Not sure I like this one too much. I will probably come back and make some edits. Please LMK if there are any improvements I can make to any of my works!!

Tags- (lmk if you want to be tagged as well!) @thethreeeyed-raven @knight-of-flowerss

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falloutjuli · 1 year

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juli!! do you have any headcanons of what johnny is like in bed?

maybe... how big he is? how loud he is? what does he like and dislike? 🤤

SHEP MY BELOVED💕💕

I certainly do so oh boy, *cracks knuckles* here I go simping again.

Warning, I'm unhinged, typing this on my phone so be prepared for spelling mistakes ✨ they add flavor)

MDNI

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Johnny NSFW Head-canons 😩

NSFW warning duh

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Man's pretty well endowed, nice length, and a nice girth. He ain't got nothing to be ashamed about certainly.

Johnny is pretty loud, he likes to try to hold back but half way through he won't be able to hold back his blissful moans, cry's and screams.

Back in the day he was a selfish lover, only caring about his own pleasure, but after the accident he becomes more of a giver. Loves to spoil his partner rotten with praise and loving nicknames.

He gives me hella switch vibes. He likes to dominate, but also loves to be dominated from time to time.

He certainly cries from joy during Sex and his accent comes out full force when he gets close.

Absolutely loves having his partners play with his upper body. Touch him, lick him, he loves it all, since his upper body has become so sensitive.

Probably doesn't like to be restraint but loves restraining his Partners. (I'm sure he knows some fancy technics! 👀)

Has the mose lewd/sexy faces imaginable. Like come on. Don't tell me he wouldn't look hella fine while coming undone.

#THIS MAN HAS MY HEART IN A CHOKEHOLD #ALL BASED ON MY OWN IMAGINATION OF JOHNNY #YOU ARE ALL WELCOME TO DISAGREE #EXCEPT LAST POINT #THAT ONE IS 💯 REAL #jjba x reader #johnny joestar x reader #johnny x reader #jjba johnny x reader #moots <333

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katara-stan-club · 26 days

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Talking over the Ventress episode with my mom has (I think) solidified that as much as I liked Ventress and love the fight sequence, it really felt like the middle of the season got derailed just to have Ventress show up and maybe tease a Ventress show? Whether it be how she survived as part of Tales of the Jedi s2 or in a new spinoff show about The Path or something, this appearance didn’t feel natural for TBB to us. Granted, maybe by the end of the season we’ll feel differently and be eating humble pie, but that’s where we stand right now.

More rambling under the cut, you have been warned.

Like it really feels that they specifically had Rex not know what an M-count is just so Ventress could show up and say it, which feels a little :/ come on now. Between Rex possibly having contact with Ahsoka and being the Captain under Anakin “The Chosen One” Skywalker, it feels very odd to have him NOT know what the hell M-count could be.

It’s also frustrating from a narrative perspective to have 2 episodes dedicated to the gang finding out what M-count means, when we the audience have known what it meant since it was first mentioned! I would’ve been fine with Fennec saying at the end of last episode something like “All I know is M-count is something to do with the Jedi, so good luck with whatever you need that info for cause the Empire will never let it go”, and then the Ventress episode could have instead been “well is it safer to stay on Pabu and hope the Empire doesn’t know where we are, or are we endangering all these people’s lives by being here? Can we ever have a stable place to live, or should we constantly be on the run from the Empire, thus painting a bigger target on us by giving us more opportunities to run into them?” But by having both episodes be “what could M-count mean for Omega?” and basically tell us what we already know: they are never gonna be safe from the Empire because they will never stop looking for Omega, it feels like a lot of ground was lost that could have been dedicated to other things, like letting Omega interact with characters other than Crosshair.

Also it’s such a weird episode cause they kinda had to avoid the whole Ventress died thing because that would bog down the episode by confusing people who hadn’t read The Dark Disciple, but it leaves people who know about it hanging with how the hell it happened?? Like there’s that one line about many lives but it doesn’t really answer anything, which is whatever but at the same time super frustrating cause it feels like such an unnecessary can of worms to open? Especially in the last half of the last season of a show that’s already got A Lot going on.

I do wonder how different I would’ve felt about this episode if it had been Quinlan instead of Ventress, because A) he’s not dead and B) we already know he’s got Stuff he’s doing (The Path) so it’s not unreasonable to see hints of it early on in the reign of the Empire. Also having another character of color come back would’ve been nice, since we STILL haven’t actually seen Phee outside of one singular holocall this season, let alone any sighting of Shep and Lyana.

#me #star wars #the bad batch #the bad batch spoilers #idk man it’s wild that this show has me kinda upset they brought Ventress back #it just felt like an unnecessary detour into Hey We’re Doing More Ventress Stuff In A Different Show Soon! Stay Tuned For More!#again maybe by the end of the show I’ll feel different but that’s how I feel right now #we could’ve had the batch talking their fears about staying on Pabu with Shep man! we could’ve had Omega and Lyana interacting again!!

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i-dont-know-how-this-site-works · 1 year

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Tipping Point thoughts and commentary!

This episode gave me emotional whiplash, I was smiling, I was laughing, I was crying and concerned.

-HOWZER!!! It's been 84 years, buddy!

-Echo!!! It's been 84 years, my love!

-Damn, you can really see how superior clones are to normal recruits. A tiny bunch of them managed to infiltrate a ship full of regular troopers and didn't even break a sweat.

-Echo, Tech rubbed off on you too much. When the empire is showing up, you don't dilly dally with the data terminal, you dally your ass out of there.

-Crosshair! It's been like, 2 weeks.

-That music was eerie as hell

-You are a smart cookie, Cross.

-He's been a real asshole, but please, don't hurt him!

-"You know how they operate", bitch, the last time Cross saw them they were dead set on being soldiers, now they are chilling on a Mediterranean island and eating sushi, he doesn't know anything

-Why did they have to include that meaty sound when they stabbed Cross with the needle

-Coruscant! It's been 84 years, you beautiful, filthy thing!

-Ryo Chuchi! It's been 84 years, my queen!

-"I know someone who can crack it" Yeeees, the reunion!!!

-Why would you lay your weapon by the prisoner's hand. Why. God, you stormtroopers are so useless.

-Lay your ass down Cross, a shitface-drunk British tourist would outperform you

-Cross, no. Just no. Listen to her! You are walking straight into walls, how are you going to get out of there

-He is warning them, my heart T_T he wasn't trying to escape at all

-What it feels like to walk be a group of smokers

-Wrecker fishing! Forget what happened, I am happy now

-"Is that all you are? A soldier?" yeeess, Shep, you tell him!

-Ohh, Tech, my poor boy. Do you need a barf bag?

-"The collision alarms haven't gone off once" Omega, you pure, innocent thing

-Tech has really been stroking his ego lately, I love a confident king

-Tech screaming in terror

-I don't think the ship was designed to bear this much g-force

-Aww, she is so happy to hear him <3 I can't deal with it

-Echo definitely told Omega to race him just so he can mess with Tech

-dazed Tech stumbling off the ship

-Awww, she launched herself at Echo!!! She loves him so much <3

-Shit, we are back at Tantiss. Happy times with episode 14 are over

-"Hunter, look at them playing together! Your kid must be so happy here!"

"Yeah, Wrecker is really enjoying the island."

-Echo wants them to engage more, while Hunter is just concerned about his squadmates. The way Hunter asked what will be Echo's final line. He is worried about Echo, and rightfully so.

-Tech's face when he told them Cross was on the transport :(

-Hunter doesn't trust him. Not entirely unwarranted, considering what happened the last time they were all together, but knowing what's happening to Cross, that hurts.

-"How do we find out" Hunter looking at the pic of Dr.Hemlock with that look in his eyes...you are not suggesting actually going there, are you?

-"She means nothing to you." Knowing he saved her life last season and sent out a transmission to get them to hide Omega, I think he does care in some way.

Hooo boy, what a great episode! I just want all of them back together and feeling fine, is that too much to ask, Filoni and co??

#the bad batch #the bad bad spoilers #tbb echo #tbb crosshair #tbb tech #tbb hunter #tbb omega #tbb wrecker #tbb space greece #f you hemlock

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crazyf0rswayze · 8 months

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Mean!Steve x Fem!Reader

When we're done making love and you give me those eyes

warnings: smut, cursing, mentions of an abusive household, mentions of hickeys. last warning is that this might be bad. idk lmk tho

@angelaa-shep here is the final part!!!

Y/N POV

It was about a week since Steve and I made up and started dating. It was our second date tonight and he was bringing me to a nice restaurant. I was finishing getting ready. I was wearing a skin tight black dress with no straps, so I didn't bother wearing a bra. I had relatively simple make up on, some blush and some silver glitter on my eyelids. I added some red lipstick, and slipped on a pair of black heels. I waited about 15 minutes for Steve to knock on my door. He was right on time, I was done getting ready early. That's all. I hear a knock on my door and spring up from my seated position on the couch. I open up the door to find Steve in a black button up shirt and black dress pants. God he looked beautiful.

"W-wow I-...you look...you look stunning" Steve stutters out

"I could say the same about you" I say, stepping outside and closing my door behind me. I stand facing him and his mouth is agape and his eyes are looking everywhere. I feel a blush creep onto my cheeks and I bite my lip trying not to smile. Steve's kisses my cheek sweetly once he's down taking everything in.

"C'mon. Where gonna be late" Steve says as he walks towards the car. He opens up the door for me and closes it as I sit down. He walks around the front and then gets in his side, starting up the car.

"I'd like to let you know if were late it's your fault because you just stood there and checked me out for at least three minutes." I say looking at him.

"Whatever. You shouldn't make yourself look so damn sexy" Steve says teasingly, looking in my eyes.

"Oh you wanna skip dinner and get to it?" I tease back

"No...I can wait" He says, leaning over and giving me another sweet kiss on the cheek. He starts driving and in about 20 minutes we arrive at the restaurant. Steve gets out, walks around the car, and opens my door, offering me his hand as I step out. I take it and smile as we walk in together.

"Hi how can we help?" A kind woman asks as we walk in.

"Um I have a reservation under the name 'Randle'" Steve answers.

"Right this way" She says leading us to our table. It's a nice little booth. Steve sits on one side and I sit on the other.

"How was your day hun?" He asks as the woman walks away.

"Good. Lots better now that I'm with you" I say, flirtatiously

"How was yours?" I return the question

"Good. 100 times better with you around" Steve says, flirting back. I giggle a little. Steve just smiles at me

"What do you think your gonna get?" Steve asks.

"Probably the fettuccine alfredo. My mom used to get it when she went on dates with my dad. She really liked it" I say. Steve looks at me a little sadly

"What?" I ask

"If it reminds you of your mom you don't have to get it" Steve says with concern. My mom wasn't good. She hit me more than my dad did and that was saying something. We argued way too much as well.

"I don't know. I mean it does sound good" I reply looking down. Steve reaches over the table and lifts my chin

"Then get it darlin'." He says smiling at me. I smile back. Our waitress comes over and takes our orders.

"I'll get that in for ya!" She says with a kind smile.

"Everybody here seems so kind!" I say.

"Yea" Steve says looking at me

"I love you. A lot" Steve blurts out.

STEVE'S POV

Y/n looks at me with shock in her eyes. Neither of us had said it yet. I immediately regret it because it was too soon in our relationship.

"I-I love you too Steve" She says blushing.

"Sorry. That was stupid. I shouldn't have said it" I ramble.

"It fine! Did you not hear me say that I love you too?" Y/n says with a light chuckle

"Well yea I heard that" I say.

"Good." Y/n says with a smile. God that smile. It was more beautiful than the nigh time sky. The waitress comes with our food as Y/n finishes speaking.

"Can I get you two any refills or anything?" She asks.

"No thank you" Y/n says looking up at her and smiling.

"Alright! Let me know if I can get you anything.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"We're ready for the check" Steve says

"Ok! I'll grab that for you" She says. Y/n reaches for her purse

"No! I'm paying!" I say

"A-are you sure?" She asks

"Yes I'm sure" I say reassuringly.

"Ok" She says. Just then the waitress came with the check. I pay and after I do we leave.

Y/N POV

"My parents aren't home if you wanna have a little fun" I say with a smirk. Steve smirks back at me and brings me over to the car opening the door, walking around, and open his door. He gets in and starts the car. He drives to my house and in 20 minutes were inside with you lips connected and hands all over each other.

"Mmmm" I moan out as he starts to leave a hickey on my neck

"Steve...we should go to my room" I say as he lifts his head from my neck.

"Ok..." He says. He picks me up throwing me over his shoulder earning a small yelp from me. He reaches my room and opens the door. He throws me on the bed and goes to the door to close and lock it.

"What do you want baby?" He asks as he starts to unbutton his shirt.

"For you to please me...." I say shyly

"Good girl" He says in a deep seductive voice. God that was so hot. He lets his shirt fall to the floor and comes over to the bed and climbs on top of me. Steve reaches for the top of my dress, and pulls it down. I lift my hips up so he can slip if off. He gets it off and throws it to the side.

"No bra?" He says. I whimper because if I was being honest, he was making me wetter by the second. He reaches a hand down to my clothed heat and rubs it. I buck my hips up at the new feeling

"Steve" I say

"Yes darling?"

"I haven't done this before. B-but I want to" I explain.

"Ok baby" He says. He tucks some hair behind my ear and kisses my lips. His tongue lips my lips asking for entry, so I open my mouth. Our tongues explore each others mouths. I moan into the kiss, loving the new feeling.

"Mmmmm Steve" I moan out, knocking my head back. Steve stands up again and takes his wallet out of his pocket before taking his pants and boxers off. He pulls a small packet out of his wallet. I watch him as he opens it revealing a condom. He rolls it on his cock before walking back over to the bed and crawling on top of me.

"Can I take these off?" He asks, reaching for my panties. I nod my head quickly, excited for what was about to happen. Steve slowly takes them off, throwing them to the side. He rubs his tip back and forth through my slit earning small little whimpers from me. He lines up with my entrance and slowly pushes himself in inch my inch letting me adjust. I wince a few times at the small bit of pain because of it being my first time.

"Shh baby it's ok. You'll feel better soon ok?" He coos. He brushes some hair out of my face and pecks my lips.

"I-I think you can g-go now" I stutter out. Steve slowly starts to push in and out.

STEVE'S POV

Her little moans and whimpers as I went in and out were beautiful....

"It feels s-so good" She moans out.

"God baby...you feel so good around me" I say in a barley auditable whisper.

"Can you go a little faster?" She asks sweetly.

"Of course baby" I say. I kiss her lovingly as I start to go faster. She moans and whimpers into my open mouth. Y/n knocks her head back in pleasure moaning loudly

"Fuck...fuck it feels so good!" She says. Her hand reaches down between us rubbing her clit for added pleasure. I go a little faster and Y/n gasps.

"Are you ok hun? Is this ok?"

"Yea...fuck so good" She whispers.

Y/N'S POV

We continue for what feels like forever. And trust me that was a good thing. I felt like I would cum soon. And just thinking about all the pleasure made me want to.

"Baby please, just a little faster...so close" I whisper. Not a single coherent thought was going through my brain right now. I only thought about how nice I felt.

"Me too baby...me too" He responds before starting to go faster. He goes down to kiss my collarbone. He nibbles and sucks leaving a dark hickey. The feeling was enough to send me over the edge I had be bordering. I shake as I cum and I feel my walls clench tight around Steve's cock. I felt a sudden warmth up against my walls as Steve fills the condom with his seed. All I can do is moan and whimper as my orgasm comes to an end. It all felt so damn good and I couldn't even speak.

"I have to pull out baby" Steve says. I whimper.

"I don't want you to...I'll feel so empty..." I mumble out.

"Babe I have to. I have to clean you up" He says sweetly. He slowly pulls out of me and plops down beside me. He lies there for a few minutes before standing up and pulling his boxers on. He walks out of the room and soon comes back with a small towel in his hand.

"Here, I've gotta clean you up ok?"

"Ok" I whisper. I slowly open my legs back up and I feel the warm towel go up and down slowly through my slit. I buck my hips up at the feeling.

"Good girl" He whispers. He kisses my head and stands back up. I get cozy under the blanket and wait for Steve to get back in. I feel the mattress sink a little as he lies down behind me.

"You did great baby. So good" He says as he wraps his arms loosely around my waist. He pulls me closer to his body and rest his head on mine.

"Thank you..for giving me a good time a-and being my first" I say. My eyes are closed and I can feel sleep coming quickly.

"Can I tell you a secret?" Steve asks in a whisper

"What is it?"

"You were my first too" he says with a little chuckle. I let out an airy laugh and smile to myself

"Why didn't you tell me?

"Because I wanted you to think I had experience, and I was scared, and I thought you wouldn't make love with me if you knew"

"I would do this with you anytime no matter what baby"

"Go to bed" He says with a laugh

"Fiiinnneee" I say. I knock my head back looking up at him. He pecks my lips and kisses my forehead before I lower my head back down and fall asleep.

#the outsiders #the outsiders 1983 #fanfic #greaser #steve randle x reader #steve randle #tom cruise #kks writings

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tealenko · 9 months

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After defeating Saren...

I'm always amazed by the little time it takes them to assume you're death at the end of ME1.

I mean, they don't even search for you lol.

Anderson: Where's the Commander?

*Your squad looks to the pile of rubble*

Everyone: Okay, let's go.

ehehehehehehehehe

I sometimes imagine my Shep limping in the background as she yells: "Wait for me, you wombats!!!"

Ayyyyyyy... Bah, it's fine. You get to do the *i'm not dead* walk with epic music in the background, which makes Kaidan super happy and proud and that's more than enough for me <3

But it's still super funny how little they wait for you lol

#mass effect #commander shepard #kaidan alenko #shenko #shepard x kaidan #tea playing mass effect #captain anderson #me1

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genericflower · 2 months

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Something took over and I need to rant about Steven Universe.

Mainly Peridot.

I was thinking about how when a characters is canonically aromantic/asexual it's exciting and nice to see

But I don't feel that way about Peridot. I've now realized my problem is less about the character and more with how they handled it

Factor 1: They choose to represent her being aro/ace by having her not take part in fusion

Implying that fusion is in some way sexual (or at the very least romantic) Meaning all of these are sexual or romantic acts:

(Stevonnie is fine if it's only romantic) So what they're saying is fusion is not just a reflection of connection in their varied relationships or even just a magic space power holding no strong meaning

I think worse is that Peridot not wanting to fuse/not liking fusion could have been used to show how autistic individuals don't connect with people in the same ways as neurotypical do

Factor 2: And this one is admittedly much more shallow but I think it help explain why her canon sexuality got ignored so hard by the fandom

Peridot is one of the only gems who gets screen time and gets to interact with other gems who isn't Steven's family/family coded

Like Garnet acts like a mom or aunt to Steven (and is technically spoken for) Pearl acts like a mom or aunt to Steven Amethyst acts more like a sister to Steven Lapis basically hates most of the cast Then most of the other gems are isolated/don't get enough screen time to develop much of a personality if any And almost every time a human shows interest in one of the gems they get shot down so there's that

Basically Peridot is set up to be the only strong character for shipping without splitting hairs on "is that actually okay?" - until they said 'actually she would never date anyone, not even smooch'

Like what was to stop them from making Amethyst the aro/ace character? They shot making Lapis one in the foot with the whole forced fusion plot point. They still could but with how asexuality gets associated with trauma it wouldn't look good OR make more than one main cast member display this sexuality - not everything has to be romantic driven (just seems weird that a show about relationships only show two romantic relationships develop)

(all other romantic relationships were already happening/happen off screen: Sadie and Shep, Garnet (Ruby and Sapphire), Rose and Greg, Rhodonite and Fluorite)

My man problem is the crew tied Peridot's sexuality to fusion which for me makes it feel like I'm in the trolley problem with: A. accept Peridot as aro/ace and that Steven who is a child did a romantic/sexual with most the main cast who are his family (outside of Connie) or B. ignore Peridot's sexuality and see fusion as a non-romantic/non-sexual act that could be romantic (like an embrace) I know that I can see Peridot as aro/ace without seeing fusion as sexual but the hoops I have to jump through to reach that makes it feel more like a headcanon then actual canon so it's just frustrating

THE ONLY REASON I FEEL THIS WAY IS THEY ACT LIKE HER NOT WANTING TO FUSE IS IRREFUTABLE EVIDENCE THAT SHE'S AROMANTIC AND ASEXUAL (They 100% could have just said "Peridot is aro/ace because she is." Instead of linking it to fusion directly!)

#steven universe #su #peridot #steven universe peridot #steven universe fusion #like boo-hoo whatever on the shipping part #they should have set hard rules for fusion if they were going to say things like this #it's insane that Steg happened AFTER Peridot was confirmed as aro/ace #like what did the crew expect people to think after saying fusion was romantic/sexual???

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queen-scribbles · 4 months

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I saw the post about the big Bioware sale and figured you're a good person to ask since I've seen you posting about Mass Effect/Dragon Age a lot. The games look fun, and I'm a sucker for complex stories with customizable protagonists, but I am a complete weenie about the more, uh, mature stuff when it comes to romance and the 'M' rating keeps scaring me off.

Like I'm over 18 and I'm fine with the violence/drinking/most of the swearing listed with the M rating, but I just get deeply uncomfortable with the other stuff. I'm just weird like that, I guess.

Is it really a lot? Or is there like a skip option, or some kinda setting that'll just have it be a fade-to-black sitch like SWTOR? I won't be too disappointed if there isn't, I kind of expect that really, but I figured it was worth an ask while the sale is on/to keep in mind for the next sale.

I have major social anxiety and am kinda embarrassed about all this, so sorry about the anon-asking. :P

No, no, you're fine, I understand completely. (I can take or leave a lot of the sexier stuff myself) Now I will try to remember romance scenes bc I haven't played some of these games in 4-5 years, and some of the romances I haven't gotten to yet. 😅 (if you don't mind spoilers you can always look up the romance on yt to check for yourself if it goes past your preferences. but if you do wanna avoid spoilers I will do my best) P much all the romances there's only even potentially anything that might be a problem in the Culmination Scene.

(If I got anything wrong anyone please feel free to correct me)

I know in ME1 the romance scene(with Kaidan for f!Shep, Ashley for m!Shep, Liara for either) there's sideview but shadowed nudity for f!Shep/Ashely/Liara(with Arm Strategically Placed to block boobs so all you really see is a little bit of butt) and Kaidan/mShep is shirtless.

ME2.... I think there's 0 nudity and ftb for Garrus, Thane, Tali, and Jack(ftb on tenderness, comes back in to fully-clothed snuggles in bed), Jacob's shirtless, and Miranda you half-unzip her catsuit uniform so you can see her bra. Oh, and there's a mini-romance-y thing with Kelly and she wears something really skimpy if you do that.

ME3... I need to caveat I've only actually gotten through ME3 with my Kaidanmancers + the Jackmancer, but I watched p much all the others on yt to hurt myself. Also it's been a while. I don't thiiiiink there's any full nudity, when it gets to the big sex scene toward the end, the furthest it goes is cuddling/foreplay with underwear still on, then cuts to waking up still just in underwear, and not all the romances get that. Some of them, ah. end prematurely for different reasons, or the romance isn't an actual companion in this game, so there's less content(Kaidan, Ashley, Garrus, Liara, and Tali get the most, since they join the team + have been established longer). There are new m/m and f/f exclusive option in ME3, but it's been long enough I don't rememberrrrrr if there's anything risque for them. I don't think so.

Andromeda I've only done Liam's romance and I don't think there was much in there(you can get him to stop wearing a shirt on the ship about halfway through and there's a makeout session on the couch that ftb). I think Cora's and Jaal's involve male and female shirtlessness, but I'm straight up blanking for the rest of them.

FOR DRAGON AGE

In Origins, the "big scene" for the romances does involve "sexy" movements, but the characters still have on underwear, so no nudity, and tbh with game engine/graphics advances that have been made a lot of people find those scenes cringey/silly more than sexy now. I think you can skip those, maybe, but if you can't there's dialogue after so you can just look away til you hear your chosen sweetie start talking and the conversation takes place fully clothed.

DA2 they did ftb for the four vanilla game romances. Love interest shows up, there's cutscene kissing fully clothed, ftb, wake up in underwear at worst. (Sebastian MY BELOVED is romanceable with a f!Hawke, but since he's a) chaste and b) a DLC companion, there's absolutely no sex scenes with him, you can get chaste married on his friend path and he'll talk about the two of you getting married to reclaim his homeland on his rival path).

DAI is... simultaneously best and worst in this regard lol Josephine and Solas there's nothing. Sera and Cassandra you see boobs and enough leg to hint at full nudity without actually showing it(Sera's might get a little more explicit, it's been longer for her so I don't 100% remember). Dorian's has... full rear nudity, but I think that's it. Blackwall's I don't remember, Cullen and Iron Bull both have scenes where you can tell they're naked, but the Inquisitor or an object is strategically in the way of the naughty bits.

OH AND not romance related, but possibly an issue, there are demons in the DRagon Age canon known as Desire Demons, who look like practically naked purple ladies(they have, like, an even skimpier version of the SWtOR Slave Girl outfit and are fond of caressing themselves seductively). They aren't in DAI, but do show up in the first two games for a few quests.

#queen rambles #i really really hope i'm remembering things right #there are many romances and i have not done/watched them all #some day i will escape the magnetic draw of raphael sbarge's voice and romance someone OTHER THAN KAIDAN with fshep #(tho points to him for being literally the only video game romance i can't skip if playing a gender who can pursue them😂)

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sifinspace · 21 days

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“So you actually said I could go?” Sif teased.

“Of course. I can handle the ship for a couple hours.” Joker said.

“Great. I just need a night away. It’s felt like an eternity since I’ve done anything fun.” She paused and looked at him. “I think the last time I had a good time was when we were on Tiptree together.”

“That’s sad, you need to get out more.”

“I would, but then who would take care of you?” She laughed.

“Are you sure though? Shepard, you know his track record?” Joker tried to feel her out.

“I mean, yea, but Jeff, I just, I need to feel special. To someone. It’s been so long.” She pleaded.

“You’re special to me you know.”

“So you say, but not in the way I’m special to Shepard.”

“But why the Commander, you could do so much better.”

“Seriously? You want to take me out instead?”

“I never said I was better than Shepard.”

“I asked you a question.”

“No. We talked about this a long time ago. Go have fun. Just don’t come crying to me when he hurts you.” Joker mumbled.

“You say that as if it’s going to happen.”

“Well, when hasn’t it?”

“Alright - it’s fine. I can handle it on my own. Like always.“ she said, laying down in bed.

Joker sat down next to her, and hung his head.

“I’m sorry. I’m such an asshole.”

“Yea well, I’m used to it.” She said rolling away from him. “Your pre-apology really is useful.”

Joker laid down next to her and turned her back to face him. “I just don’t want to see you hurt. Ever.”

He was inches from her face. His eyes meant what he said. Sif crawled up next to him and put her head on his shoulder.

“I know. I’ll be okay, you have to stop worrying. I can kick Sheps ass anyway if I wanted to.” She smiled.

“Yea thats not the point. I just worry. We’ve been friends a very long time, and ever since Nate, then Kaiden, I just hate seeing you in pain again.”

Sif hadn’t thought about Nate in years. Kaiden she thought about more often.

Her heart ached. “Yea I guess that’s true.”

Joker wrapped his other arm around Sif like he did when he’d say something that would hurt her. He did

it all too often. A coping mechanism for his insecurity. “Just don’t, make regrets.”

“Only memories.” She said as she laid quietly next to him. Her smooth legs running under her blanket, and his chest slowly going up and down. She put her hand on his heart.

“Well It still beats.” She laughed. “You can say nice things.”

“So long as it beats, I’ll protect you as best I can.”

Since the Kaiden died, Joker came to bed more often, he also started to hold her close every night since then. His way of saying ‘it will be alright’.

She was happy.

——-

Everyone had disembarked the ship for the mission. Joker sat in the cockpit waiting further instructions.

Nothing. Radio silence.

“Sif -“ he shouted over the com. “Sif!”

“What?!”

“We’ve got company.”

“Shit, get out of there!” She yelled.

“You too - make your way to the helm

.”

Silence.

Joker watched helplessly on his screen his ship being boarded by Collectors.

“What the hell am I supposed to do?” He tossed his head back .

“Joker - you need to crawl through the vents to access the system override. If not, hope may be lost.” EDI buzzed.

“I’m not going to let you

out. That would be chaos.”

“Then you will die. Give me full control of the ship. I can save it.

“Shit shit shit!” Joker got up and started down to the

vents. .His body limping and the speed hard to keep up.

He made his way to the Main frame. “Don’t let me down EDI.”

He activated the override protocol.

“Did it work? Can you see Sif?”

“Sorry joker she was taken off the ship. There are no life forms on board other than yours.” EDI said. “Prepare for vac locks open.”

Joker put on his head gear and strapped himself down. The rush of air whirling past his head and the providing of regret as he realized his friend was gone.

——

“They took everyone?” Shepard questioned.

“Everyone - the collectors have returned to their ship.” EDI said. “I was able to track them - you need to go after them.”

“Obviously. Joker, fly us in close. No way I’m letting those bastards steal our crew.”

Joker looked backwards toward Shepard. “Get her back.”

Shepard nodded.

——-

Shepard ran around the corner of the escaping

ship.

Pods, so many pods, on this small ship. The collectors had a plan.

“How the hell am I going to find my crew with all these things?” He thought.

“The probability of finding anyone is 1 in”

“EDI just don’t tell me the odds. Start scanning for life forms.”

Shepard, Tali and Grunt scanned the pods.

“This is hopeless!” Grunt shouted.

“Without hope, you give up on the future.” Tali said.

“It doesn’t matter, we have the fighters let’s forget

about the rest.” Grunt ordered.

“Grunt, the crew is my clan. Would you give up your clan!?” Shepard said forcefully as he got in his face.

“No, I suppose not.” He backed down.

“Look!” Tali pointed to a pod that

was moving.

The three of them walked up to a pod and sliced it open. Out fell Dr. Chakwas.

“Thank heavens you showed up.” She said getting to her feet. “I’m alright I’m alright. But you need to get the rest of us that are still alive.”

“Where are they?” Shepard asked.

“Around the corner, there’s a pile of bodies. Thats where I was brought in from.”

“Hold tight, we’re going to get you out of here in a minute. Have you seen Our co-pilot?”

“Sif? No. I just know they took everyone else through that corridor.”

Shepard, Grunt and Tali ran to the corner. As soon as they turned they saw it. A pile of bodies. Half unrecognizable. Tali bent down and took the tags off of one of the corpses.

“Mess Sargent Gardner.” She said sadly.

“Shit.” Shepard’s own heart stopped in his chest. “Anyone else in there?”

Tali ran her Omni tool over the pile of unrecognizable corpses.

“There are vital signs. You must dig.” EDI said.

“ Grunt let’s go!” They dug through the pile of charred remains.

One after one they checked the tags, and took the ones they knew. They’d honor them when they had the chance. They kept digging, and as they moved the last body, they were greeted by a surge of biotic power that blew all three of them back.

“What the hell?” Grunt moaned as he got up.

Shepard walked over and reached down. He felt something different.

“This is it!” He pulled out a pale body. Not one that had been burned, but it had been so badly bruised you’d never know otherwise.

“Sif!” Shepard laid her down gently and started to scan her with his Omni tool.

“Her vital signs are weak, but she’s alive. Get her back to the Normandy and I’ll run a full diagnosis.” EDI said.

For the first time since hitting that ship, Shepard felt a sense of relief. “EDI, tell Joker we have her.”

“I took the liberty already. Joker will meet her in the med lab.”

Tali gently held Sifs hand as Shepard carried her back to th e transport.

“She’s a special woman to all of us. I had no idea she had biotic powers.” Tali said thoughtfully.

“Sif is a private person. As much as she is, I don’t think anyone but Joker actually knows her.” Shepard said.

“I like a good surprise!” Grunt laughed.

Shepard smiled and loaded Sif into the transport.

————

“Joker, Sif has been transported to the med bay. Legion is watching over her and Dr T’Soni is with her.” EDI said. “You must focus on the current mission before you can see her.”

He sat back in his chair and sighed. He ran his hands through his beard, and rubbed his eyes. ‘She’s back.’ He thought. He wasn’t an emotional man, but he smiled in relief.

The time it took Shepard to get back to the SR2 felt endless. Joker wanted to see his friend. As soon as he was on board, and the Normandy was safely away from any danger, he got up and limped to the med bay as fast as he could.

He stopped at the door, and composed himself. For a guy with brittle bones, he moved quickly when it was for her.

When he walked in, he saw her laying on one of the med bay cots. Her hair was wild, her clothes were ripped and the spots on her limbs he could see were purple and blue.

“Oh shit Sif.” He walked up next to her. “Dr T’Soni, how is she?”

“Her vitals are coming back, but she had severe bruising. I’ve done what we can for helping her heal, but she will take time. She has some amazing resilience. How she wasn’t killed is going to be an interesting story.” She smiled, “I always knew she was more clever than most.”

Joker was relived they had picked up Liara when they did, even if she was only there briefly. They couldn’t have chosen a better time.

“Hell ya she is. When will she be waking up?” He pushed.

“She should wake up anytime now. Her vitals are all stabilized

. She’s probably just exhausted.”

“How about her bones?” Jeff asked.

“We were able to heal most of them. It’s just the bruising and a few broken ribs. Other than that she should be able to help you fly whenever.” Dr. Chakwas chimed as she walked up behind Jeff. “Always this poor girls ribs. We should give her titanium ones.”

“I’m glad to see you too.” He said. “How did you come out of this less scathed?”

“They took me out in a pod. I don’t know what happened to her. I just saw them taking bodies past my pod and that’s why I knew there were some ahead.”

Jeff knelt beside Sif. He touched her arm gently and then held the tips of her fingers tenderly.

“Legion, come on, let’s leave them for a while.” Liara said and made an exit.

Jeff watched the three of them leave, then he turned his attention back to his friend on the slab.

“I never wanted to ever see you like this. I’m glad you’re alive, but Sif you idiot, why didn’t you just come back to the cockpit when shit started to go down.” He said quietly.

He placed his hand on her hair, with his thumb on her forehead. “I promise I will never let this happen again.”

He kissed her cheek.

Jeff sat there for as long as he could, and then Shepard walked in. ‘Great, the hero.’ He thought.

“How is she? I saw Dr. Chakwas outside she said she’ll be fine.” He asked.

“She’ll mend. She’s bruised up pretty bad, broken ribs. All that.” Jeff replied.

“Didyou know Sif is a biotic?” Shepard asked.

“Yea. I swear no one ever looks at our files. They just assume all we do is fly the ship.” He said sarcastically.

“So she is biotic?” Shepard asked surprised.

“Yea, she had L2s implanted and eventually and underwent L5 upgrades when we hooked up with Cerberus. So Sif underwent the retraining for it, and it showed that because she had these extra

abilities, it made her an even better pilot.” He explained. “Kaiden and Sif would practice their skills all the time before…” he trailed off.

“They don’t usually do upgrades on biotics by implants.” Shepard said.

“No, but she did. She’s got a way about her. I’ve never seen her not get something either her and I needed at some point.” Jeff smiled.

“Did you actually just smile?” Shepard asked

“What? No. Definitely not.” Jeff shifted and got up. “I’ve got a ship to fly.”

“Hey Joker.” Jeff paused, “her biotics knocked Tali, Grunt and I on our ass. Thought you enjoy that.” Shepard said.

“thats my girl.” Jeff nodded and walked away.

————-

“Okay, wake her up Doctor.” Shepard said, “I need some answers.”

“Shepard, I know you’ve been waiting” Dr. Chakwas said.

She swiveled her Omni tool over Sifs battered body.

Her eyes opened and she started to glow blue.

“Wait wait!” Shepard said.

She turned her head slightly to look at him.

“Oh, sorry. I thought you were a collector.” She said shakily.

“It’s just us dear.” Doctor Chakwas voice was soothing and tender as she reassured Sif she was safe.

“That’s a relief. I didn’t know how much longer I was going to survive on that ship.” She said. Then she looked around. “How bad am I? Where’s Jeff?”

“Sif you’re bruised and broken but we have slapped you with so much medi gel you’re going to be fine. Sore, but fine.” Liara reassured her.

“Excellent, I’ve got a ship to copilot.”

“Not just yet, we have to talk about a couple things.” Shepard said.

Sif sat up very slowly. “Is there something softer to sit on for the moment then? These beds are designed for the dead.” She laughed. Then winced.

Shepard helped her off the med bed and to a chair.

“Still not soft enough but that’s alright.” She looked around. “Alright, what do you want to know?”

Liara, Legion and Shepard exchanged glances.

“OH right how I ended up in a pile of my comrades remains. Good story.” She started to trail off, and took a shallow breath - her ribs ached. “I was down in engineering when EDI and Jeff alerted me to what was going on. So I ran up to the med bay as fast as I could and grabbed the only thing I could think of, Beta Blockers. They slow down your heart rate and can fool people into thinking your dead.” Sif sat back and shifted her weight. “So I took a calculated amount. I figured if They thought I was dead, they’d leave me here. So I gave myself a hyper injection of them and waited on the floor. The Collectors walked in, saw me here, took my body and then I ended up boarding their ship.”

“Even though they thought you were dead?” Liara asked.

“I suppose, but maybe my heart was still beating. However by the time we got to the ship the injection must have really kicked in, and from what my Omni tool tells me I had a heart beat only enough to keep my brain alive. That’s probably why I’m so bruised. No blood flow, so it pooled.” Sif shuddered.

“What about the bodies?” Shepard asked.

“Right so as they realized I was dead, they put me on the ground and started to load bodies on top of me. I activated my suit with my biotics. Mask, everything. I’m always prepared.” She smiled. “Anyway once they kept throwing bodies on me, eventually they lit us on fire. I used a biotic field to keep myself from burning. Once they left, I passed out completely.”

Sif looked from Liara to Shepard. “The smell …. I will never forget the smell.” She took a deep breath. “I knew you’d come save us. So I just waited. After being thrown around so much I couldn’t really dig myself out. So thanks for that.” She smiled “but I’m not sorry for knocking you three on your asses.”

“Why didn’t you tell anyone you are a biotic?” Shepard asked.

“It never came up?” She replied. “It wasn’t important. It’s not like I do a lot of combat missions.”

“But you have gone on missions and you never thought you should mention it?” He asked.

“I’ve used my biotics on missions, but no one ever noticed.” Sif said.

“Are you saying I don’t know my team?” Shepard pressed her.

“Not at all. I’m just saying sometimes we don’t notice things we don’t need to. As long as something works why worry? Besides the only missions I go on with you require my brains, and since I’ve been shot too many times and Jeff refuses to let me set foot off the Normandy, it wasn’t important.”

“I guess that makes sense.” He said.

“Don’t worry it’s not a commentary on you Shep.” She smiled.

He smiled. “I know, I just feel like you…” he trailed off. “Actually this isn’t a conversation I want to have in front of everyone. Will you join me in my quarters for further discussion?” He asked.

“Yes Commander. I’ll be up shortly.” She replied. Doctor Chakwas gave Sif an injection of pain med and told her it’ll wear off in a bit. So she made her way to Commander Shepards Quarters.

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Shepard had questions. He understood her faith in him for saving her, but why was she so mysterious? This intrigued and yet bothered him. Why was she so hard to understand, to read?

“Commander.” Sif said as she entered.

“You look better than you did 10 minutes ago.” He smiled.

“The doctor shot me with enough morphine to keep me standing for a bit, but she recommended I lay down in a short while and get some proper rest.” She said.

“Come and sit, do you want anything?”

“A glass of water please.” Sif sat on the end of Shepards bed.

Shepard poured one for her. “Take it from me.”

“Seriously?”

“Yes.”

Sif shook her head and pulled the glass to her easily.

“Happy?” She raised her left eyebrow at him.

“Yes.”

“Yea they come in handy when I forget to turn a light off and I’m in bed already.” She grinned. “So what didn’t you want to discuss downstairs? If you’d have asked I would have said.”

“I asked Joker about going out with you for a drink. He told me ‘Sure, I didn’t know you dated married women though.’ What does that even mean? You’re married?”

“I would have told you on that date you know.” She had a hurt look on her face.

“Then why not bring it up before?”

“Did Jeff tell you who I was married to?”

“No he said you would.”

“Of course I will. But there’s a lot that people don’t know about me - I mean I barely know myself. Didn’t you read my background report?”

“I did, years ago, but I still don’t recall seeing anything.”

Sif took a deep breath. “Can you let me explain the whole thing before you ask questions?”

Shepard nodded.

“Please understand - I was engaged to a man named Nate. He was handsome and charming. We had been together for 3 years and were starting to plan a life together.” She took in a deep breathe. “We were supposed to get married the day after graduation-the wedding was planned and everything. Then a few months before, I went to visit him and Jeff let me in. They were roommates. I guess he didn’t realize Nate was home, and so I did what I always did and walked into his room.” She hung her head. “I caught him, fucking some woman from the pep squad.”

“What?” Shepard looked shocked.

“Yea, either he wanted to be caught or he was just annoyed with me. I took being faithful very seriously to him, and I wasn’t going to just hand over my ass whenever he wanted to get off. So he had been screwing her for months. He said ‘you wouldn’t give it to me.’ So he found it elsewhere.”

“What a dick.”

“Yea. I think Jeff knew it was going on and just wanted to protect me. I’m not a prude, I just, didn’t feel safe sleeping with him anymore. He has a side of himself that shook my core. He hurt me. Emotionally, physically. One night he locked me in his room. Jeff had to help get me out. So I withheld. I should have just dumped him long before then.”

“Why didn’t you?”

“I was scared. I didn’t want to be alone again. I didn’t want to have to be a no one again. A Jane Doe in the world. I just wanted someone to be mine - so I didn’t have to navigate life alone. I was scared. He told me I could never find anyone who would be as good to me as he was. I know that’s a lie now.”

“Then what?”

“Jeff kicked him out, I moved in and we became even closer - he is my best friend. We’d just hang out, and talk, and whatever. Nate graduated then ended up on Virmire. You wouldn’t have known but he died there. He was stationed at a plant.”

“Okay so you weren’t married to him. Who then?”

“Since the wedding was still planned, Jeff and I weren’t going to let it go to waste. The day after graduation, we took shore leave to celebrate, and you know eat all the food and party all night cause it was all paid for. So we had drinks and he suggested “let’s just marry each other”. We have been friends for so long, we went through school together, he helped me through my breakup. I have no family Shepard, I have no history - I was found abandoned as a child with no memory of them. I didn’t want to loose my best friend too. Jeff said I could share his life.” She sighed. “ We were best friends who made a deal, so they wouldn’t separate us, we didn’t want to be assigned opposites because we work so well together and this was a sure bet they’d keep us together. The perks, like a cabin of our own, more money, allowances that kind of thing, were nothing more than that. A perk.”

Shepard looked at her with a blank face.

“It’s okay, it’s why we don’t tell people. Some just don’t get it….. I’ll let that sink in.” She took a sip of her water.

“Do you, love him?”

She sipped her water. “I have always loved Jeff-even when I was with Nate. I tried to get Jeff to date me, but he told me no, and introduced me to his roommate. Jeff doesn’t love me the way a husband loves a wife. I’m his friend.”

“You honestly believe that? You really think you’re just a perk?” The honesty of the question dripped from his lips.

“Why not? Hes never indicated he loved me in that way. We’ve never had sex.” She sighed. “I tried in training, and I do bring it up occasionally but even now he gives me the ‘I can’t give you a life or future you deserve’ line. I don’t even know if I can have kids Shep, I’ve been experimented on a little too much for that - and that’s fine. It doesn’t bother me. It’s not my goal I life really like people think it is.”

“Experimented on?”

“I did a lot of experimental testing for cash when I was young, I needed the money. Either way, I’m not baby crazy, nor do I dislike them, I just don’t see why that’s the biggest hurdle for him to get over when it comes to he and I becoming an us.”

“I didn’t know.”

“It’s fine. I just want you to know - where I stand.”

“Sif, you stand in a marriage that’s built on an agreement, with a man who can’t admit how much he cares about you.”

Sif paused, “I mean, I know he has to feel something, but that much, you actually think he does?”

“How many dates have you been on since you two have been married?”

“With anyone I thought it might be fun to go with? One. With losers? Probably four.”

“And the Kaiden scenario?”

“I mean that made me question everything but even then he said no.”

Shepard laughed, “you’re sweet, but so blind. He stops the good ones from asking you out with the line he used in me.”

Sif stopped. She thought back to a few days before the Collectors attack, he wants to be near her when he sleeps, holding her.

“Friggen Jeff.” She got up. Then fell back down.

“Sif.” Shepard grabbed her and laid her down on his bed. “Your meds are probably wearing off and this has been a lot to sift through since you have just gotten back.”

“Yea it’s a lot. Shep can you help me to my room? As much as I’d love to rip your clothes off, I can’t do that if there’s a chance with Jeff.” She laughed.

“My pleasure. You really are a good woman Sif.” He lifted her in his arms and she laid her head on his shoulder.

“Can I try something?.” She asked.

“Anything.” He said.

“Put me down.” Sif held on to Shepard as he put her feet on the ground. She turned to him. “I am curious - just kiss me.”

“My pleasure.”

Shepard walked Sif to the wall of his cabin and kissed the top of her nose. He gently placed his hand behind her head and let his lips slide onto hers so gently. Her hands went numb and her knees went weak.

The firmness, the stubble. It all reminded her of Kaiden. She missed him. She let out a small moan.

“That’s good enough for now. It was an honor to share something so simple with you.” Shepard smiled.

“I want more, so much more Shepard. I want all of you, I want to wake up with our clothes thrown in the floor and you smiling, but, you’re not Jeff.” She said quietly.

Shepard kissed her again, then rested his forehead on hers.

“You won’t have to wait much longer, I’ll make sure of that.”

Shepard picked up her again, and carried her to her cabin.

The door opened and Joker was inside reading in the chair next to the bed.

“Is she-“

“she fell asleep in the elevator.” Shepard put her down on the bed. “Do you know what you have here Joker?”

“I have my Best friend back.”

“You have so much more than that. You have a woman who wants no one else more than you in the universe. She really wants to be your wife.”

“Ah she told you. Nate was a dick.”

“Joker, Sif wanted to kiss her me and when she did, all she said was ‘you’re not Jeff’. Really think about what you have here, because if you don’t want it, I’ll take it in a heartbeat.”

Joker stood up. “Take her then.”

“You don’t mean that. I saw how you reacted to her and Kaiden, and that was mild in comparison as to what I’m planning on giving her.”

“I want her to be happy and safe. If that’s what you can offer, you can have her.”

“Joker, don’t be stupid. You might not make it obvious, but you have feelings for her. Tell her, show her. The end of the damn universe is at steak, do you want to miss the one chance you have if we fail?”

Jeff saluted him. “Commander. It’s not as simple as you make it. I can’t give her what she needs.”

Shepard saluted Jeff. “It really is. Not everything is about you in this situation.” He turned on his heal to leave. “You’ll regret every second when she’s mine.”

Joker knew Shepard would take her.

He didn’t stand a chance.

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