#but mainly just. overwhelmed.

[awakenthebeing]

(Mainly leaving this here for storage per usual!! Don't mind it too much) (Do not worry Fake Peppino is okie. The grab is firm but not with intent to harm)

(The words at the last image btw are "that is enough")

#mainly made this set of interactions bc i wanted to orchestrate Piepoe Social Uncomfort Levels #with some signs she exhibits when particularly getting overwhelmed! :3 #dw tho theyre both fine. im sure piepoe lets fake peppino continue to be silly if he doesnt cause any harm and such!!! ^^ #wouldve attached this to the big piepoe reblog post but like. its too big already this might just be a new one for now :>!! #Piepoe arts #this also was just an excuse to draw fake peppino not knowing the Concept of Personal Space whatsoever <:]

[crowskullls]

Thinking about Minute’s insane morals and how he doesn’t have a single genuinely bad bone in his body. He gets confused when he’s betrayed, he begs for explanations when people are cruel. He would rather make amends than hold onto grudges. He forgives and forgets. He teams with the same guy (Wemmbu) that’s betrayed him countless of times, and still trusts him anyways. Even if a bit reluctant at first. Even if he knows he’ll still end up betrayed.

Like this guy has PROBLEMS. He so morally… Good. He can stoop down to other people’s level, he can play dirty, he can be intimidating. He doesn’t really let himself get walked all over. But he’d MUCH rather just hang out and have peace. He gets upset when people are negative because he’s just SO optimistic. He always has to see the Good side of things, even when it’s a horrendous situation.

Even when he has reasons to be angry and upset and spiteful, he still chooses to hold his head high and STICK to his morals. He’s Stubborn. He tries so hard to see Why people are evil and hurtful, but he can’t personally understand. He needs to be the hero. He needs to save others. Because who else is going to do it? Who else has the resources, the strength, the backbone, the reputation? He gives items out to people with no expectation for reimbursement. He’s always saving other server members, even his enemies, from tricky situations.

He tries hard to remain all mysterious and brooding. He tries to seem calm and collected. But he wears his heart on his sleeve. You can hear every emotion in his voice, in the glint in his eyes. The way his smile upturns when he finds something amusing, or how his eyebrows furrow when he’s trying to piece something together. He’s an incredibly emotional guy, and he’s not good at hiding it. He’s notoriously a bad liar. He gives himself away every time he opens his mouth. It’s WHY he’s so genuine, so easy to trust.

It’s easy to get under his skin, but he still holds his ground. Because he has to. Because the world is cruel and brutal, and everyone is out to get him. Killing is second nature on most SMPs, especially on Lifesteal. But he can defend himself. Most other people can’t. He’s paranoid, and watches events from the sidelines (even if it annoys other players.) He always has extra food and fireworks to give out. Despite covering himself in dark colors, and hiding from large groups, he’s still looking out for others. He’s still the beacon of hope people need. He’s so annoyingly optimistic and cheerful that it’s sickening to most. He refuses to let himself become bitter and pessimistic.

Anyways bro thinks he’s Batman.

#I do NOT want to see a minutetech villain arc I want him to suffer through always playing the Hero #minutetech #PLEASE CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #DOES THIS MAKE SENSE #His hero complex is so fascinating to me #he isn’t doing any of this out of personal gain either #he’s just Genuinely trying to be a good guy #dare I say #In Over My Head by Grandson #I associate that song with him a Lot #he gets overwhelmed with this position he’s put himself into but he can HANDLE it #he HAS to #he has to endure it because nobody else is insane enough to be so stupidly Good and Optimistic #this is inspired mainly by the aftermath of the election results stream #and also the recent Nations event he was in #because wow he really can’t comprehend people Genuinely being evil JUST to be evil #basically Minute has to help people out all of the time or he dies #lifesteal #lifesteal smp

[stealingpotatoes]

HOW DO I MAKE ART AS CONSISTENTLY AS YOU DO?!?! MY ADHD IS JUST AS BAD AS EZRA’S IF NOT WORSE!!! I ALSO AM TRYING TO JUGGLE WRITING A BOOK!? BUT THE URGE TO DRAW THE GHOST CREW IS UNREAL?!?! LIKE HOW DO I MAKE COMICS AS FAST AS YOU DO WHAT IS YOUR SECRET???!

also happy new years lmao

being a mentally ill insomniac is the pathway to many abilities some might consider... unnatural

#idk i think its the fact i always have to be doing smthn w my hands at all times #mixed with my overwhelming love of efficiency + a lot of youtube + years of experience #mainly the I Have To Be Productive At All Times Or I'll Die thing tho LOL #thanks for the ask! #also just. not bothering too much about getting it Perfect just bothering about getting it Nice

[lesmiserablol]

beginning my student teaching tomorrow uhhh pray for me

#overwhelmed as hell 🙏🙏🙏 but excited too. mainly overwhelmed #also if you see me on here between now and april 1st just kill me #i’m kidding i can’t stay away that long but i’ll certainly try

[lit-in-thy-heart]

been trying out a new writing technique recently and it's called chilling tf out and reminding myself that fic is written for fun.

#making a little joke but also being genuinely serious #with my merwaincelot wip i've embraced having little overviews in brackets for what i want to happen #but idk how to write it just yet #if i'm feeling stuck or bored #and if i'm getting tired or the idea of writing an ending is getting overwhelming then i just call it a day and do something else #and yeah it's taking longer to write things (perhaps gone are the days when i wrote and posted a fic in the same night) #but it's working wonders with my brain #and it's amazing how as soon as i relax i get hit with several new ideas #just trying to adjust my thinking in that projects over a long period of time are not something to worry about #like i'm also planning a knitting project that i'll be doing well into september #(mainly bc yarn is expensive and my needs are hella specific) #but that's okay! #not everything has to be done and dusted immediately! #i'm glad i took a break from writing and i think it did do me good but damn i'm happy to be back #and enjoy still learning how to get even more out of my hobby #but anyway i'm just feeling a lil proud of myself today so #lit talks #personal

[gojoest]

he hugged him :(

#jjk leaks #jjk 226 #am i reading too much into this or... #it's just.. this panel is shattering my heart </3 #im sorry i've been mainly posting leaks today but i just can't #i feel so miserably overwhelmed like.. even still HOURS LATER im still here mentally #replaying scenes in my mind #off to shower now and cry and then sleep sob #oh my god gege what have you done

[maplefield]

finally started honkai impact 3rd. can someone please explain to me how anything works. i'm confused

#i mainly play for the story but id still like to understand what im doing #also ig stigmas are like relics/artifacts #weapons i understand although the lvl up system kinda confused me at first (it still does) #how do you do team comps. is 8t the standard main dps buffer sustain or like can you survive without a sustain if you can dodge #i believe im still too early to need a healer (i only did the first 4 chapters and the everlasting memory story stuff) but still #send help #honkai impact 3rd #hi3 #hi3rd #hoyoverse #also how tf do banners work. can you even check who/what can you get on each banner. am i just stupid #what is the dorm used for #there is so much stuff i dont get #i can read i swear!!! there is just. so much stuff. im overwhelmed #one more not minor thing. generally just. how does character building work. #i also appreciate any tips #honkai

[quicklyandrogynousfox-blog]

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#on their socials #2023 #the second gif i mainly made for #the height difference #and because dec presses his arm against ant #they look so married in the first gif like wtf #(i think it's because i've binged two many videos of a gay couple) #also i'm currently feeling super overwhelmed with just everything #even things i enjoy #but at the moment everything just feels like it's too much #so i'm logging of for a week #to hopefully calm my brain a little and be fully ready to enjoy iac!!! #and to hang out on here with all you lovely lovely humans!!! x #🦊.gif

[worm-in-a-trenchcoat]

No wayyy, it’s me back again with another animal update 💃🏾

This time I didn’t get them from work lol.

These are my newest babies, a pair of female (mostly) hairless rats! They are so teeny tiny and sweet and I love them sm 🥹

I want to learn their personalities before I name them so they don’t have names yet. But so far one is super shy and timid, and the other has insane crackhead energy and gets the zoomies every 10 minutes lol.

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Also that’s just their travel cage I used to take them home in!

This is their current cage with the one who gets the zoomies, zoomin lol

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Also in case anyone was curious, I now have 14 pets all together (not counting our two family cats). I have 5 snakes, a mouse, three betta fish, a green anole, a crested gecko, an African fat tailed gecko, and now my two rats!

Yes, that is a lot, but I’m more than able to care for all of them and love them all.

And I do not plan on getting more anytime soon lol

#personal #pet update #rats #hairless rats #having so many animals is definitely not for everyone #I’m definitely not planning on getting anymore any time soon #but most of my pets are ‘look at pets’ and don’t really like to be held #so it’s mainly just making sure they’re fed and have water and such #which isn’t a lot really #it sounds a lot more overwhelming than it is is what I’m trying to say 💀 lol

[moreaugriffins]

you know when you have a headcanon that like, you came up with because you thought it made sense but weren't that serious about nor really truly hc it then as time goes on, you realise that oh, yeah no, that headcanon is there to stay. that is forever part of your thoughts

that's been me with the idea of Nigel being autistic

#cbs ghosts #nigel chessum #idk how to describe my reasoning beyond waving vaguely at him and going “just - *him*” #but idk - him with the ants (and roaches and ducks) #him really not wanting to change the path he and isaac takes (before he clocked that isaac was actually talking about something else) #him literally vibing to spice girls as isaac is sitting next to him getting guilted by sas and hetty (they were talking loud enough for #nigel to hear - the dude was just too invested in the music) #but it was mainly the scene with thor (when they were watching tv) that first made me think #because yes nigel is scrunched up but also it looks like he's scrunching up more to avoid physical touch #and his face when thor does pat him on the shoulder/back #and also him not being able to deal with thor's loudness (and everything) to the point where he almost jumps out of his seat and makes a #swift exit - to go back to a quiet less crowded familiar place (the shed) #like - nigel was overwhelmed and probably overstimulated #(he was me.. him in that scene is just me) #im not sure if this is at all explained well #or makes sense #but damn this will forever be in my head for nigel

[tuituipupu]

i made it back home from liverpool late this afternoon 💚

… and as soon as i arrived home i only went and burst into floods of tears lmfaooo

#i’m absolutely emotionally overwhelmed. #and run down lmao I have caught something #hopefully just a cold but i feel yuck so that’s mainly why i just broke down in relief and tiredness lol #also the feeling of like my dreams becoming realised took over me - i haven’t had a chance to breathe and think #… about anything that has happened since monday. #& it ends tomorrow. #but first I’m going to try and get a long sleep and a shower to prep for #… tomorrow night. #personal

[puthyflapps]

That unrequited au’s got me in a gotdang chokehold. Not the sweatshirt! 😭 The description of Regan vs. Shelbyyy help. Wake up Toni baby wake uppp!

If I have to be in my emotional devastation era then so does everyone else x

Toni has no choice but to wake up when this whole situation finally comes to a head during a drunken confrontation at one of Fatin's notorious house parties. Shelby had spent another evening going out of her way to avoid Toni and, subsequently, Regan. Her evasive behavior, combined with Toni’s penchant for picking fights, had culminated in this late-night showdown of sorts.

The two find themselves sharing hard stares and even harsher words. Questions seem to morph into accusations that are a clear result of the last name Shelby bears and the god-fearing reputation that comes with it. Truthfully, it was naive of Shelby to think she could continue to get away with dodging the other girl like this, and it was wholly and entirely ignorant to believe she could survive the ensuing interrogation. Especially knowing how Toni’s always prided herself on her ability to easily get under her skin. Steady cracks begin to appear in her veneer as Toni throws shot after shot her way. Launching question after question at her. Creating a dangerous minefield that Shelby’s not entirely sure she can continue to navigate much longer.

With each passing moment, Shelby can feel the heavy weight of her pageant queen mask slipping further and further down, revealing the raw and vulnerable truth underneath. Slowly, the carefully crafted facade of perfection cracks and crumbles, giving way to the messy and embarrassing reality she's been so desperately trying to hide. 

"Why is it so fucking hard for you to be happy for us?"

Toni lobs the question her way in a fit of frustration, and God, the question stings. It feels as though the words themselves have reached out and slapped her with all their might. Every syllable of every word burns at a brutal temperature. Invisible blisters are already steadily forming across the expanse of her cheek. Bubbling painfully. Flesh sizzling silently.

The question hurts. The insinuation hurts. The idea that Toni believes Shelby cares so little for her happiness fucking hurts. However, it’s still not enough to make her admit the truth and she can tell her silence is only upsetting Toni more. Her jaw is clenched and her chest is rising and falling rapidly with heavy breaths. It’s unsurprising when she yells out at Shelby once more:

“Say something!”

Her voice is desperate, trembling with fear and heartache. Shelby can hear the pleading in Toni's tone, her words spilling out with an urgency that cuts deep into Shelby's soul. She can feel the weight of Toni's expectations pressing down on her, begging for an explanation, for any shred of hope that this isn't what she thinks it is. The tension between them is palpable as Shelby struggles to hold back a flood of emotions threatening to overwhelm her. But with each passing moment, it becomes harder to contain the torrent of feelings churning within her.

“Because I love you!”

The declaration fills up the space around them, leaving no room to move. There is nowhere to run; nowhere to escape from the rubble of this crumbling friendship. It’s finally out there. These words, this thing that she's been so petrified to speak of is now out there for Toni to see, to dissect and pick apart. Shelby's soul lay bare in the confines of a bedroom that belonged to neither of them.

With a harsh swipe, Shelby banishes the hot tears carving tracks down her youthful face. She swivels abruptly from Toni, the air cooling where their bodies were once in proximity. Exhaustion-wrought legs buckle under her as she slumps onto the bed; an unruly cocktail of alcohol and fatigue renders her form heavy and unyielding. As she releases a shaky sigh permeating with undertones of regret - it sounds like waves reluctantly crashing onto a deserted beach. Gathering herself, she starts to explain:

"I spent years praying that one day you would wake up and just see me. You would see that I'm here, I've always been here, and you would finally love me back."

"Bee..." Toni's voice cracks. Raw with emotion and tinged with confusion.

Shelby pays no mind to the interruption, however. Instead, she presses on, ignoring how intensely pity-filled brown eyes watch her.

"I know how stupid and pathetic that sounds, but I really thought," her voice trails off momentarily as she tries to swallow the lump in her throat. "There were these moments where I swear it seemed like…like maybe you did love me. Then you met Regan, and I saw the way you looked at her, Toni. I saw it-"

"Shelby, please," Toni begs.

She pleads, for what? Shelby isn't sure. Does the thought of Shelby being in love with her make her skin crawl? Is Toni so disgusted that she can't bear to hear any more about Shelby's sick feelings? Perhaps she wants Shelby to stop, to save herself the embarrassment. Maybe she's simply trying to help Shelby retain what little is left of her dignity.

But Goodkinds aren’t known for being quitters.

So, if she's going to ruin the one good thing in her life and make a complete fool of herself, she may as well go for broke.

"It became painfully obvious that you would never love me the way that I love you. So, I'm sorry if I upset you. I'm sorry that I've been distant and closed off lately, but I am trying my best to learn how to not love you."

Toni's heart feels like it's being mercilessly wrenched from her chest, each beat causing a physical ache that seems to radiate through every limb. She knows she should say something, anything, to make things right, but her mind is foggy, and her tongue feels heavy with the weight of unspoken words. She can feel her knees growing weak with each passing moment. A tightness grips her throat, almost suffocating as a lump forms, making it difficult for her to even breathe. Despite the tears brimming in her eyes, she keeps them locked away; too ashamed to let them fall in front of her best friend.

Trudging forward, each step feeling more burdensome than the last, Toni makes her way over to the bed. Her eyes are transfixed on Shelby's form, as though she's just now seeing her for the first time. The air in the room is charged and tense, thick with unspoken emotions. "Bee," Toni says gently, barely above a whisper, only making Shelby want to hide away from her even more. She buries her head in her hands, unable to handle the softness in the brunette's tone. It feels too delicate, too careful, as if Toni is handling a fragile piece of glass that may shatter at any moment. Shelby's breaths come out in short ragged bursts, her head feeling light and dizzy as if the room is spinning around her. She feels exposed in all the wrong ways. Suddenly, there is a dip on the bed beside her and strong arms snake around her form. In this moment of vulnerability, Shelby can't help but lash out in the most pathetic way she can muster up - pushing weakly against Toni's chest like a petulant child. But Toni persists, ignoring Shelby's halfhearted protest and simply tightening her hold until they meld into one another. Shelby can feel puffs of warm breath tickling her ear as Toni whispers over and over again, "I didn't know." 

For what felt like hours, Toni and Shelby remained tangled together like the branches of an old tree. The soft pads of Toni's fingers traced soothing patterns over the expanse of Shelby's back as sobs wracked her body. Two girls, once inseparable, now finding solace in each other's arms amidst the ruins of their friendship. The aftermath of drunken confessions hung heavy in the air between them. As sleep slowly overtook her, Shelby couldn't help but wonder how they had ended up here - lost in each other yet worlds apart. When she wakes the following morning, she knows she can't linger a moment longer. She can't bear to face the harsh light of day and another inevitable rejection from Toni. With a heavy heart, she carefully untangles herself from the sleeping girl and mourns the thought that this will be the first and last time she ever shares a bed with Toni Shalifoe. 

#if puthy flapps ever cracked out a third installment of this highly unanticipated story/thot/idea i think it would be mainly Toni's pov the #morning after when she realizes shelby left and that she was a fucking idiot for not jumping at the chance to explain to shelby that she is #in fact in love with her she was just being an idiot who couldn't believe what she was hearing and who was overwhelmed bc pretty girl #unrequited love au #you see what i did there with the whole reference to s1 shoni and the 'i see you' moment from ep 4? am i a literary genius? perhaps #we really really really don't need to talk about the fact that this has been sitting in my drafts for five years just waiting to be posted #me reading about shelby getting her heart broken: i h8 it! i cant handle seeing my baby down and out like this!! author ur going to hell!!! #me writing the most painful and gut wrenching moments that leave shelby in nothing but pain and anguish: mmm mmm mmm this is delicious!! #ask #shoni #shelby x toni #shelby goodkind #toni shalifoe #the wilds

[spaghett-onaplate]

Dudeee I was terrified to come out to my extended family as trans but they're all so nice about it? Particularly the grandparents I'm seeing for the first time since I told them in April,, I was worried but they are SO nice 😭♥️ I can talk about my experiences with it, my choice of name, the epic highs and lows of high school football transness. And they're trying with my name and I just ♥️♥️♥️

also my grandpa figured I named myself after Oscar Wilde and included two quotes from him in a letter he wrote me about this whole thing <3 I didn't actually name myself after anyone in particular but hell yeah Oscar Wilde I'm glad my name carries his legacy

#feeling overwhelming love and joy #but also a little gremlin in my head is jumping from foot to foot and flipping off my dad #'people are not unsupportive unlike you thought they would be!! you are the most unsupportive person in my life! bitch' 🖕🖕 #but mainly just. ♥️♥️♥️💞💕💕💕💞♥️♥️♥️💕💕 #t stuff

[territorial-utopia]

Timelapse of this piece posted alongside with Armas’ character introduction.

I might have to include these two as a storybook or something within the world I’m currently working on-

#niart #timelapse #tuulikki #armas #like look #their story is mainly inspired by count of monte cristo #so makes for a perfect well-known novel within the world of dragon's lair #i've come up with so many lil threads here and there #okay they're much more than threads #but also less than full stories or finished media #i just want to incorporate as much of it into this one thing #make most of my fruits of creativity useful and bring them back in a less overwhelming form #anyway #it's almost midnight #i'm tired #and rambling #i've just been polishing the family silvers for several hours #only finished now #remembered i had to queue something #the silvers are coming along nice though #they been sitting in the cupboard darkening for years #i say no more

[in-death-we-fall]

Another thrift store trip, another all the leather jackets are ugly, not black, too big, or womens

#i was mainly there cause a friend needed a ride and boy is christmas music + energy drink + overwhelming array of Stuff super not the vibe #we also had to get a christmas tree from walmart and they all have awful led lights that flicker #and we went to the dollar store which is also just So Many Things #bro i have made a mistake i have so much else to do today

[arcaneyouth]

started making a power point presentation about my ocs, made 2 slides, and then just stopped. i <3 creativity

#vent post #negative #mainly for the tags. heres your warning i got sad #to be fair. MOST of the problem is i want to make a power point presentation studying the themes of the story and every characters arc #which is a lot of fucking things! and i don't know how to organize it at all. and it of course has to touch on spoilers #but the other problem is overwhelming thoughts of 'nobody wants to see this' 😔 #which is so frustrating cause i have so much proof its not true #people tell me they love my stories and characters all the time. i'm so lucky for that #oh wait lol figured it out. i don't want to make a power point presentation actually #it just feels like the only way i'll ever be able to get across all the thoughts i have without being a bother #but i have a difficult time actually working with power points so it's not actually that fun to make #so i'm not even doing this for my sake i'm doing it for everyone else again god damn it #huh. i don't even really want to ramble about The Themes and the character arcs #i think i just want someone else to do it. to prove that i'm not the only one that sees it or something #to engage with my story and show me They Get It #it feels unreasonable to want but i do want someone to point at the themes and point at specific panels and give me their ideas on it #so we can bounce back and forth discussing the meaning and how the story functions which is my favorite thing ever #but i can't ask people to do that. that takes a lot of effort especially Right Now when everything is awful all the time #and i accept that cause jesus christ everything is awful all the time #but boy can i yearn #hyperfixating on my ocs is very cool. i do love it. i love caring so unbearably much about some guys i made #it does get lonely sometimes tho