#but loads of ppl talk abt their deformity

[goldfizzle]

You know what’s rly shit? I feel super uncomfortable talking abt my sexuality to my friends, even though they know I’m asexual and aromatic. bc when I first came out, if someone asked abt my sexuality one of my closest friends would say “oh they’re an eglantine” bc that was another ace aro. And I got added to this lgbtq+ group chat bc and I quote they “felt they were lacking aces” and I just felt like I was only being included to up the diversity, which is shit. Then I’ve noticed my bisexual friend tends to talk abt all the biphobia (which is perfectly valid) but never in my entire time hanging out w this supposedly “woke” friendship group have I ever heard someone mention aphobia. And I’m scared to start talking abt it myself bc one of the things I hear the most abt aces and aros on the internet is that we’re not oppressed and shit, so now I feel like if I talk abt aphobia it’ll be like I’m trying to be oppressed and I don’t want that bc I hate ppl who r like that.

#so yeah #that’s where I’m at rn #it’s not fun #and all my friends ever talk abt is their crushes #and then they’re like #oh well u wouldn’t know #and idk it just makes me feel so left out #I feel like ive got some kind of deformity that’s so rare #and bc it’s so rare no one rly takes it srsly #and then when someone has the same deformity were grouped together #and the only reason ppl hand w me is so they can act woke #cuz oh look here’s my friend with a deformity #but when it come to actually talking abt the shit I put up with bc of my deformity #they just don’t give a shit #and they want to talk abt their deformity which is fine #but loads of ppl talk abt their deformity #and they’ve never rly experienced anyone being mean to them bc of their deformity in person #they’ve just seen it happen to other ppl w the same deformity on the internet #meanwhile they’re making subtle jokes abt my deformity #and saying shit like #oh you wouldn’t understand what it’s like to bend down bc your deformity doesn’t let u #and then they continue to talk abt bending down and how great it is but also how bad it is #and then they say shit like #I wish I couldn’t bend down #you’re lucky your deformity doesn’t let u bend down #and it’s like then why don’t I feel lucky #why do I feel like a fuckin freak #anyways #sorry needed a bit of a rant