#but literally i haven't been able to focus since the weekend for reasons you may know about

[born-to-lose]

I'm too smitten and anxious to function ugh

#writing? idk her. i prefer indulging in fake scenarios and then worrying about the tiniest things #i know i said i wouldn't go into detail but i'm terrible at hiding this kind of stuff #and most of y'all probably know who i'm talking about #deleting later because what if they read this ugh their sleep schedule is off the charts #i even went back to writing love songs so you know this is bad cause i only do that when i start bottling everything up #but literally i haven't been able to focus since the weekend for reasons you may know about #i'm vagueposting so hard now i'm sorry #i'm just kinda happy i'm not too depressed anymore and i haven't felt like this since my asshole ex and i broke up #i'm giddy and all and get super excited when they show up in my notes #am i in too deep? probably #but also i'm too scared to get straight to the point because i've done this many times and it always failed #i don't think i've had such a huge crush on anyone in like a year #and idk how to handle this #i went on a trip down memory lane today and read old chats and my god i fell hard #i'm definitely misinterpreting a lot of things here but i can't help it #fuck fuck fuck #i'm going to cry bye #ok one more thing i know i shouldn't be too worried about someone not replying because they haven't really been active on tumblr today #but i kinda am?? like shit tumblr let me delete messages i think i said something wrong #aaaaa damn #congratulations you have just witnessed a whole ass mental breakdown #sorry you had to read all of this #my heartbreak playlist is on why do i do this to myself #mel talks