#but like kinda relevant rambling

[cowboy-anon]

A whumpee begging for the pain to stop—but it’s their own body they’re begging against. “Please don’t spasm again…”, “Please don’t pass out right now,” “Please.”

Bonus points if there’s nothing caretaker can do to help them.

#inspired by me at 1 am. suffering some of the worst pain of my life #highlights include ‘please. please don’t. i-i don’t wan’t this. no’ #*smiles like i'm not feeling TRAUMATIZED* lol #feeling better now tho for legal reasons <3 #whump #whump prompt #begging tw #whump writing #my whump writing #maybe inspo for later #rambling? #but like kinda relevant rambling

[reborrowing]

a couple people mentioned dolls/figures for the uncommon prompt and I also saw horror

so now I keep getting an almost idea for a living doll who belongs to a collector/customizer. She’s generally passive and not over eager to reveal that she’s alive to the collector, instead taking in the idea that she’s most beautiful when she’s dressed and well posed. She has no nerve endings and learns that the frequent adjustments to her limbs or face are an expression of love. She feels close to the collector, like she’s bonding when she’s being held and prodded and posed and photographed.

It’s a very warped view of love, but she’s not really supposed to be alive in the first place. Maintenance and customization and display are signs that you care for a decorative object, so it mostly works out for her. (But it does feel incomplete, somehow?)

It does not, however, work out great when she comes across a tiny half her size and tries to show she cares with the same methods

I’m not sure who I’d want as the tinier tiny though—another doll who’s just a litttttle more alive? Borrower who was pumped to get some scaled tools? Doll customizer who’s been shrunk somehow?

Whoever it is they’re about to have a bad day

#g/t #g/t idea #giant tiny #g/t prompt #gtwac #<- like its not but it feels relevant enough to tag #would love to see someone do something with a doll collector tho #kinda rambly and disorganized sorry

[umeji-writes]

Why the manga Mairimashita! Iruma-kun is a masterpiece, part # (idk at this point)

Spoilers for the latest M!IK chapter (332) under the cut ♡

Okay, I was loving this art-focused arc already, as someone who after... several years (hi I'm old)... decided to learn illustration for good. But unholy shit I wasn't expecting an actual storytelling lesson from Nishi-sensei!!! I'm specifically referring to these two pages:

..........do you see what Nishi did????? See, I always found the characters in M!IK to be exceptionally alive, as if they had independent lives outside the pages we can read. Basically all named characters are consistent and three-dimentional, even if they appeared for a couple of chapters at most. And there are LOTS of them, I tried to compile a spreadsheet for personal use and we are well beyond 100 at this point (I'm not done yet). This is most likely Nishi's writing method. It fits: "when it comes to terror designing characters, what's important is the foundation. When, where, from whom, and from what was that terror were that character's motivations born? Without that, art doesn't live". See all the crumbs of information Nishi left along the chapters, in text or drawings, or in the Q&As. M!IK's characters are alive, like the Bowing Palome. Clearly this is not new when it comes to storytelling in general, and to manga specifically. As an example, there's a whole chapter dedicated to character design in Hirohiko Araki's Manga in Theory and Practice, The Craft of Creating Manga (most recommended read btw), that goes over the data to collect even before drawing a character. I imagine that's among a mangaka's best practices. But that's the point, Nishi actually follows the rules of the Golden Way*, and created a work which is nearly perfect from any point of view: the four fundamentals (characters, story, setting, and themes), and even rhythm, art, comedy... I'm in awe. I know I sound like a smitten fan, and I am at this point, but seriously, this manga is qualitatively great, and it's a pity it's so underrated. *The set of rules/tips Araki compiled, which if followed would lead to a manga being successful, according to him. I guess there are other sources as well out there, like illustration schools? But this what I can tell you, as an outsider :D

#mairimashita! iruma-kun is seriously underrated aaaaaaa #i wonder if bim is a sort of nishi self-insert #oh and i wrote “bim” not “beem” because it's an alternative spelling for bune #another demon from the ars goetia #who btw is able to move the dead so kinda relevant to the bowing palome? #it's funny how the wikipedia page for “list of demons in the ars goetia” looks more and more like a list of M!IK characters #i love it #m!ik #mairimashita! iruma kun #mairuma #iruma kun #welcome to demon school iruma kun #iruma #manga analysis #m!ik analysis #manga #anime and manga #thanks tumblr for reading my ramblings

[lady-harrowhark]

Hello! I saw you mention that Pyrrha remembers pre-resurrection, and I totally missed that!! Do you have any theories as to why?

I have a few thoughts!

Just for context - because I didn't catch that on my first read either until I started going back through! - there are a few instances that seem to suggest Pyrrha remembers at least some of her life pre-Resurrection. Off the top of my head, I know there's one point where she refers to G1deon as G--, just like John does. Nona also says that Pyrrha calls her "Hairy Maclary", which is referring to a series of children's books by a New Zealand author. Here's a link to a picture and some info about Hairy Maclary... I can definitely understand why Pyrrha would call Nona that lol. This one's super interesting to me in that it's such a fantastic example of the way Tamsyn uses memes and references so skillfully! In the previous books, most of the references are fairly organic in that they're things that could conceivably be, you know, just things the characters say; the readers catch it (if they also know the reference! otherwise they're fairly unobtrusive) but the characters themselves aren't intentionally making a reference. This would be the things like "You can't just ask someone why they want to be a Lyctor" and "a hunger that only thumbs could satisfy," etc. The exception, though, is John. The "none Houses with left grief" particularly is SO fun from an exposition perspective (but if I start on that one I'll never stop), and then of course we have Commander Wake Me Up Inside. The implication here being that John remembers these specific things and is intentionally making those references within the context of the story. Pulling that same expository trick with Pyrrha sets them up as both remembering... at least to some degree. The hints that we get from Pyrrha are such that it's pretty unclear to what extent she remembers, leaving a lot of room for juicy speculation :)

I initially touched on it over on this post where I rambled about names, memory, and the Eightfold Word, but I'm copying over the Pyrrha-specific paragraph so that you don't have to dig for it:

When assisting with Harrow’s lobotomy, Ianthe tells her, “If you push your brain too hard, any surgery could simply heal over.” And in NtN, Pyrrha tells Palamedes, “You should be draining and replacing her fucking brain fluid... When Gideon and I designed that trial, I used to crack his skull and sieve it myself, just as a control variable... The only other people I put through that damn trial were Mercy and Cris, because only Cris didn’t mind being trepanned on the regular.” I don’t know exactly where the threshold is for pushing one’s brain too hard, but I suspect frequently draining and replacing one’s brain fluid is in that ballpark. Which is to say, it’s very possible that Mercy and Pyrrha (and potentially others) could have healed over from anything John had done to their brains.

Also, I don't know why this didn't occur to me as I was writing up that other post, but when Pyrrha's telling Palamedes about how dangerous their uhhhhh living arrangements are, and how they're risking brain damage... Pyrrha and G1deon were operating under somewhat similar circumstances for thousands of years. Cumulatively, it's possible that G1deon's brain was racking up damage that eventually eroded away whatever John had done. Another thought is that maybe the fact that G1deon died and Pyrrha didn't is at play here.

It could very well be less dramatic than that, though. We don't know much about how Lyctorhood impacts the brain, although to be completely fair, we also can't say for certain how a typical human brain would function after ten thousand years of runtime either. Our brains are constantly wiring new neural pathways and rewiring and revising old ones. After thousands of years, might we be reaching a Ship of Theseus situation with regard to the neural circuitry impacting pre-Res memories? Which is a fancy way of saying, "Maybe it wore off."

It could be all of the above, too. Assuming that Lyctor brains retain plasticity like we see in typical human brains (and I'm not letting myself think too hard on implications either way, because in sci-fi/fantasy make-believe land, neuroscience can be whatever you want it to be), we'd probably see that effect happening with the other Lyctors at roughly the same rate, but at least as far as we can tell (and that wording is intentional because I'm not taking anything off the table with this series), the others don't seem to remember. So that might be contributing, but not sufficient on its own. BUT perhaps ten thousand years of rewiring PLUS ten thousand years of cohabitation PLUS however long of being "trepanned on the regular" PLUS G1deon dying might override John's meddling.

We've still got so many open questions here regardless of what the specific mechanisms are. Like, I'd love to know when Pyrrha started to remember exactly. And did G1deon remember anything, then? It seems like he was Straight Up Not Having a Good Time so if he did remember, he might not have been relying on those memories much. Whatever's going on, I'm sure it's just as bonkers as the rest of the series!

#'in sci-fi/fantasy make-believe land neuroscience can be whatever you want it to be' i whisper repeatedly to myself #after spending like two hours this afternoon formatting datasets from the neuroscience lab i work in #nah but for real i have zero issue with that kinda stuff being. you know. fictional. i just need to not go down that rabbit hole lol #also sorry about sneaking a little bonus ramble about meme usage in there #believe it or not i had more about that but took it out because it wasn't directly relevant lol #also to the other anon that's sitting in my inbox: I PROMISE I HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN #it's just... you opened a hefty can of worms and it's gonna take me a while lmao #ask #anonymous #tlt meta #pyrrha dve #nona the ninth spoilers #tlt #long post

[boysborntodie]

So like one thing I'm afraid of is for when the musical comes out and we (hopefully) get new fans, is fanon!Johnny. Like Johnny often infantilized in fanon which is annoying as fuck and I despise it, but a trend I see with these type of characters like that is that all of the sudden the fandom will be like 'omg why is this character being to woobified' which is good, but then they'll take it to the next extreme. Like in the ST, Will Byers is the sweet and sensitive character (he's also canonically gay) but in order not to fall into the 'feminine gay' stereotype, a lot of the fandom would make him hypermasculine (emphasis on him being muscular and broad, make him more sarcastic and done with everyone's bullshit, making him over-competent) which completely changes his character. Like seriously there's got to be some nuance here. Some middle ground maybe?

#this isn't about genuine headcanons like johnny being strong or growing taller #only when the basis of these headcanons are to overcompensate yk? #like making johnny taller just to go 'omg he's tall now so now he isn't a uwu soft boy like some fans make him 🙄' #it sounds so stupid but it happens #(also personally i think it's kinda relevant to his character for johnny to be tiny like him being unable to conform to the standard of- #-masculinity that he sees in dally and wishes he could achieve and it adds to his entire 'kicked down by life and everything about him- #dooming him to fail in life' but tbh I don't really care either ways) #i know i sound so bitchy and petty here but I've seen fandoms do this and it's always so annoying #babygirl who are justifying yourself to? #the outsiders #johnny cade #se hinton #evie rambles #i was half scared to post this but whatever ig

[silverware-is-interesting]

I literally NEVER do asks but I have to,

As predictable (being his number one fan ever) I really want anyyyy tidbits about Sonny,,, I need to know more about the beloved, i need to know,,,

anyways, is it okay that I made a band au version of my recently made oc? An idea just sprung into my mind and I can't get over it. Already drew it n everything but I wanted to double double check.

Band au my beloved <3

so, there's not all too much i can really say if i ever do anything, since most of the things i've thought about are pretty plot-relevant. i can try to put a couple things

so, he still dies but he's not quite as, well, helpful. he kinda fell into a slump sine he worked so hard on everything with the band and, in his lifetime they weren't really all too popular. so he's been in some piece of tech, a computer still, and thinks things over.

oh, he's been almost erased from company history, not in like a gaster way though, more like the company blacks out any images of his face

i'll make him a little bio once i have enough n decide if i'll actually make a story of this or kinda just release little tidbits little-by-little. what i could tell you is the songs in the playlist i had added because of sonny's involvement in the story though

i have a few little sketches of his (concept) design so here, have a concept (not great quality screenshots)

they'll probably change but y'know. it's somethin' though

as for ocs, yeah. that's perfectly alright. band-ify your little guys if you want! basically the only guideline is that they can't have an instrument that someone else in the band has (though, a guitar or different type of drum are both alright) and kinda have a rock-esc aesthetic to them OH! and tag me! i'd love to see them!

yeah,, my beloved too

#silverware's shenanigans #good god i have to not write paragraphs on paragraphs of poorly punctuated rambling- #least i don't have to go to school though. storm day i guess. so i'll probably work on sonny and maybe that other ask i answered last night #hm. sonny is kinda like. plot relevant near the later parts of the story so. :/ both heaven't really thought about every aspect and well. #it'd not be a surprise if everyone knew a week after the au was made-

[lover-of-skellies]

I wanna make a poll for something, but it's not for my primary demographic here. And people don't like to actually reblog stuff anymore. And I'd wanna share the poll on discord but the server it's for doesn't allow links. I'm just gonna. Sit in the corner and weep on the inside

#not skeleton stuff #rambles #/joke post #kinda sorta #i wanna do this so bad #but like #how??? #I'd want it to reach people #but people on tumblr don't reblog much anymore and i can't share it on the server it'd be relevant to #i have no idea what to do about this

[findafight]

Putting out into the universe Demi romantic Steve. He likes flirting and physical stuff but he also wants a Real Connection and for him it takes a seemingly too long time. He wants the Spark he talked about for more than just physical chemistry. That's why he's struggling with second dates. He WANTS to feel romantic attraction but doesn't realize that he's not operating on the same field as most others and doesn't want to date if he doesn't really know them.

With Nancy he was low-key going through the motions and legit wanted to like her and they got closer before they were "official" and he fell really hard because Nancy is Nancy. When he confessed to Robin and then immediately changed gears it was because those crush feelings were stemming from his big fat (like absolutely MASSIVE) squish on her because Robin is amazing, and so cool, and obviously he wants her to be in his life, so it wasn't hard for him to go into supportive bestie mode and not get romantic feelings.

Idk I want arospec Steve I think it fits him and his frustration in his journey and search for (romantic) love.

#steve harrington #stranger things #platonic stobin #this could be pre #steddie #listen. he was so jealous of the guy his nuggets idolized but also who sounded like a good dude and then UD stuff #and then DEALING with the upsidedown with eddie?? shared custody?? steve is like wow why cant my dates feel like this...wait a second... #hes like yeah id make out with eddie but could we build a home? *proceeds to live in domestic bliss* oh shit yeah ok #also LISTEN. LISTEN. steve had the stupidest squish on robin he was like a kindergartener asking to be friends. #he wanted to be her bff and was like what is a gf if not a bff that you kiss? do i have a crush on robin? and when she shut it down he went #into FULL bestie mode. he was so ready. possibly even releaved. because sometimes he gets squishes and crushes mixed up. bc 80's #and amatonormativity. stobin's greatest enemy. #finda's rambles #yes maybe i do put steddie tags on these so ppl will see them hehehe but also its kinda relevant! #demiro steve

[the-squiptionary]

Squipiverse - noun. The universe in which squip technology exists.

#squiptionary #new squipfinition #another word i found from the og sites that hasn't been defined! #anyways this one feels relevant to this blog. #this blog is in a quantum state of being either in the squipiverse or our universe #its mostly in universe though i think. sometimes tho i /will/ ramble about the actual musical/book/sites #kinda like how in-universes vs not the sites are lol

[tinyangrynerd]

it's funny to me that i changed Cy's color years ago, but i still catch myself instinctively going to color her purple sometimes.

#cobalt speaks #my ocs #cyberia #i mean the purple color was a consistent part of her design through it's many.. many...... MANY iterations she's been through #as my oldest oc #but that's kinda what makes it so funny #idk it just kinda jogs my memory back to those days #like all the old versions of cy' trying to break through #(sorry for more rambling. but this IS relevant to what i'm working on atm i promise) #(also i just like having an excuse to talk about my favorite daughter)

[cowboy-anon]

Still in a kidnapping kind of mood (the writing kind lol-). Anyone got any advice on writing that? Straight up anything helps lmao

#i just- i go feral over a well-written kidnapping #but at least with the beginning it is. SO hard to write #i’ve tried before and it lowkey comes off as my middle school writing lmao- #so i think i’m just starting wrong but idk! #kidnapping tw #whump #whump community #whump advice #rambling? #but like kinda relevant rambling

[bonestrouslingbones]

why do people keep asking about his brother, this happened with the official papyrus Q&A too

honestly there've been more rodent-related asks than sans asks, so i'm not too bothered! it's just people being curious and playing into ebony's caginess regarding all that, especially since it would make sense to assume he's closer with his brother than the other characters he's talked about. i think most folks are generally understanding the This Aint About Him vibes i'm putting out, but they're also just responding to some of my own cues which i certainly can't find issue with ;>

after this next one that's just gonna be a funny lil one-word de-escalation i'll probably still dial back on answering the ones that aren't relevent to ebony specifically, just to try to move The Lore along more smoothly. same with all the rodent talk lol

also its important to remember that even tho it probably looks like i'm getting a lot of things about the same topic, i'm still the one choosing which questions to answer! i have other options, but i generally go for the ones that I can make interesting via worldbuilding, Funny, or story/character hints. i only bring this up because i imagine the official Q&A likely had similar logic- god KNOWS toby got wayyyy more questions for that than i have within the last two weeks lmao (also there was only 1 question about sans in that anyway???)

#also there's already somebody in the inbox who thinks ebony slamming on the desk was hot so . nature is healing? #anyway yeah with this kinda thing it's important to keep a bit of a balance between “relevent” and “irrelevent” questions #i COULD just stick to the ebony-only-Find-His-Secrets questions but that would be a lotta stuff to establish really quick #and it would def make it harder to communicate his whole Thing about being here fully by choice when he's being interrogated like that #the less-relevent-to-him-specifically questions help me pad out his personality & dynamic with all of you so he feels more “real” #and can also help build a lil more intrigue over what the hell he's doing here in the first place #AH i started rambling anyway my point is people ask about his brother because he is a freaking weirdo about it!!!!!!!!

[desiredcrescent]

contemplatin and havin thoughts. do i giggle and talk abt a super protagonist flavour text aspects i project onto my guys. Do i discuss this on my blog?? Is is ok to???

#like of course it is but idk theres smmn funny abt saying “well my guy gets THIS” to a technically public space of a private diary u knoe #like its nbd #but my fic i write does include these aspects!!! #like Farryn's scars parting and eyeballs emerging when his wild magic goes off because that's direct Savras influence baybee #like yeah its unnecessary!!! but also isnt a display of how out of control a magic user is of their own power kinda hot #like theres more and i might make a post abt it with snippets but like yea. #same with daeris and his perception and relations to Ilmater u know. it's not just prayer it's something yummy #cress glows when they're casting like a halo of spores its cute. #like!!! flavour!!! #idk it just protags them up #i have a funny dnd character that I've made a relevant guy to Farryn too and im like. huh get hit with beams #rambles #farryn (tav) #cress (tav) #daeris (durge) #im getting USED to talking abt my ocs properly its a journey and whatnot

[tacit-semantics]

Deeply embarrassed every time I mess up the gauge on my net a little like good luck getting a woman to even LOOK at you after this one buddy

#lord!!!!!!!!!! no coming back from it #I do still like the color which I wasn’t exactly EXPECTING to change because I’m not entirely sure why it would but regardless. I like it. #when I got the thread I also considered getting a green that I liked but I. didn’t. there’s really not much to that story it’s not even #really a story nor particularly like relevant man gimme a sec. #well it was a nice shade of green. for those curious. #lord I feel like I’m back on campus trying to talk to my roommates friends. y’all like. coffee???? heats been crazy lately. my professors #kinda SUCK dude. got so much homework. you been to the dining hall yet???? Jesus christ #tacit rambles: fiber arts

[dilutedbeanibeans]

Yee. Felt like a powerhouse before I took a 5-year hiatus of my own (Work on more original stuff before coming back, as the love still burns stronger than ever)! And sure, you can! It's always nice to have something that inspires others! (^^) I may do Terramix as either a full-on comic series or talk like this in catalogue (Or maybe even Storybook or PowerPoint) format, with some pictures to show for it!

Was there anything else you had in mind that you planned to implement with Terra, God, and Co.?

oh well!!! honestly like I said in my past tags, a lot of my focus is the x-zero series (ignore that I barely draw them they’re just. hard to draw😞) so I have a Lot more ideas for them but!!!

I am trying to figure out a sunstar backstory (kinda like. 60-79% ish done) if that counts

also trying to figure out some stuff for the other droids!!!! just. tackling one thing at a time and starting with my favs first😭

I plan to do more ra moon and stardroid stuff in the future though!!! they’re rlly interesting and it sucks they barely have any canon content :(

#I’m trying to think of anything else I’m gonna do with them #ummmm #probably make some silly aus or something after I’m done thinking abt all their stories #OH YEAH #the kupierdroids would still be relevant #I do believe mars and jupiter would get along best with them #I kinda see the the stardroids as some weird found family type but like. #slightly dysfunctional yeah #and then they have a whole buncha kuiper droids they have to look out for😭 #oops rambled again #but. in all honestly kinda wanna focus on sunstar and terras dynamic #they r very neat 2 me #asks

[localsleepwalker]

HDAFJJFHKKDSDF K L OKAY SO

Sozo was originally named by someone else after (if I remember correctly) the Japanese words for imagination.

Stay with me, I posted this wip in a discord server and someone mentioned mistaking Sozo for the cult of the lamb follower instead of my actual character.

Now, I hadn't heard of it so of course I had to look up Sozo.

BUT I WASN'T EXPECTING TO FIND THIS?!

That's so ironic and beautiful to me, I can't. Sozo, you poor sweet baby boy.

Oh yeah and that other ant guy is cool too I guess.

#my art #oc art #what on earth #doodle #so that's a thing #cotl #cotl sozo #random find #ironic #oc rambling #sketch #art #wip #kinda feel bad for plugging those cotl tags but at the same time i feel like it's kinda relevant? #cotl Fandom please don't hurt me