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merakiui · 2 years

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After finishing Itto's character story, I came to the realization that we might be a delusional type of yandere!

If you haven't played the quest, slight spoilers ahead of things he said (not word by word tho, my memory will never allow that haha)

Well, One of the things that reall stick out to me was the "Oni pride" all of his kind has. When he was telling the traveller everything that had happened so far, he said that Takuya (the blue oni) must have been acting up on orders or had a really good reason to steal and kidnap families, as Onis will never do such things to harm others. That means, while having a heavy consciousness, they are capable of doing bad things.

Hence why he would be a delusional type: He will come up with anything just as long as it justifies his intentions; You were being harassed by someone? Well, he can take you and you will never have to bother about them ever again, you are just a little angsty and that's why you are struggling so hard in his arm, screaming for him to let you go. Hmp, poor thing, abused by the others until this point, but fear not! The great Itto will provide for you from now on...but of course, he is no rich man to cover all the expenses, so be patient with Him, okay?

That actually might lead to him stealing too. But only what you need, he won't benefit from the things he stole in your name, just to make you a little more happier in your new environment. I can also see his gang members help a little bit; Even if at times they caught a guilty shine over his eyes whenever he has a moment of self introspection, but just a glance at your form and all the stuff he got you, and those doubts are gone just as fast as how they came. They know how prideful their boss is, and how much He values his Oni heritage, so they comprehend the pain he must be feeling at doing things that go against his kind's laws. And since boss dearest have always being so good to them, they will help maintain the delusion their boss created to cope with everything, so you won't be able to fool them If you ever try and drop Itto's name, that he said it was fine for you to roam around a little bit, while one of the boys is on guarding duty.

That simply won't do.

Yes, your thoughts are perfect!! I agree that he'd be delusional and would come up with all sorts of ways to excuse his behavior. You're so fragile compared to him, so you need to eat three meals a day to get nice and strong like him. And if not don't worry! He's strong enough to protect you! And you deserve to be warm and comfortable at night, so he has to make sure he gets you clothes that are suitable for the weather. If his actions start to weigh too heavily on his conscience, he might attempt to find more legal ways at helping you. He might not be able to hold down a steady job, but he'll take up commissions and other quick gigs in order to make enough money. He also introduces you to the members of his gang and informs each of them that you're one of them now. So they better treat you fairly and nicely!

Itto's gang has a lot of respect for him and they really do like him as a leader, but when it comes to you and your own interest in escaping... Well, they don't want to upset their boss. He's a good oni at heart, truly! He's doing his best, so just hold on for a little longer, okay? You'll see that it's not so bad here.

#genshin chit chat #yandere #yandere itto #itto's darling gets better at card games each time they play with the boys on guard duty #then again... it's not that hard to beat itto at those types of games ^^;;#he says he's just letting you take the win but is he really?#at least his gang is nice and willing to entertain you

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fiveisnumber1 · 3 years

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Ok so I listened to the song, both versions! I actually hadn't heard it before. I actually liked the KHS version better for this one too. Maybe it's the piano, or maybe the singers just feel more emotional in their performance but I do tend to be biased towards KHS covers in general xD

As far as the song goes. I feel like some lyrics are very spot on. The "earthquake" being the time travel cuz it literally shook both Five and the Readers entire worlds. I feel like the first verse could very easily be contemplating Five and regretting that he stranded reader. I can see him thinking of her spending time with her parents "watching television" and going out to Griddys etc and feeling guilty he took her away from the familiarity of her life. He stranded her and he doesn't even know where in time she is which would weigh on him because he loves her and he'd feel that if he deserves to get stuck in the apocalypse as punishment for his hubris, reader didn't deserve to be stranded and it would eat him up inside.

The second verse is reader's. I can imagine her remembering the memories she shared with Five and the fact that she trusted him meant that she didn't feel scared of his time traveling when it happened and even though it uprooted her and she had to rearrange her entire life, she still settled down relatively easily. Her "trying to imagine (his) reaction" could be a reference to her fear that he's still mad at her. And the last lyrics of the verse, of course, as time goes on and she makes friends she learns how to cope with the pain of losing him but she feels it all the same and misses him extremely even if she's learnt how to swallow that pain. It still "rips her heart out" but she learns how to tolerate it.

The chorus, cuz im a sucker for angst, I can imagine Five thinking in his most vulnerable moments all alone, wishing reader was with him. The world has ended and on especially lonely nights when he's sick and delirious, he's extra selfish and wishes he had brought her along for the final jump so at least they'd be together. He'd probably immediately feel guilty for thinking so but that's why "would you love me for the hell of it". He knows he already stranded her in time and feels sick he's wishing she witness the apocalypse with him when there is nothing to live for but his worst fears are asking the questions he's always longed to know and that is if she loves him and would be willing to suffer with him like he would for her (cuz the only reason he'd keep going after witnessing his family and readers death is the promise that he wants to save them).

And from the chorus from reader's perspective: I can feel her wondering if Five would come back to her and she'd "hold him tight" even in extreme circumstances. Maybe she wouldn't think of the world ending but I don't doubt there would be times she'd be so miserable she'd wish something, anything, would happen to her or her life in general so that Five would come back for her. She's no damsel in distress but I think the exception can be made here because Five and Reader are pretty much both wishing the other would save them from their loneliness and the ache they're feeling.

The only part I feel that doesn't fit is the pre-chorus of the song says they both believed they weren't "down for forever" or "meant for each other" cuz I feel like it's inaccurate to their relationship as we know it. But I can also feel it as a sort of self loathing or self blaming tactic they occasionally take on. Sort of like bargaining that "I know they'd never feel the same way. Its ok if he/she doesn't love me, I just want them back in my life".

Anyway, yeah you asked for my thoughts and I delivered an essay xD i wish I could help it but I'm an English major so... It very much gets out of hand very easily 😅 what do you think? (Also i decided to go ahead and come off anon for this altho im still quite shy so most of my other asks will probs still be anon if it's not in DM 😅)

I totally agree. In the first verse, it’s definitely Five looking back on what he had done. Especially since he didn’t mean it. Like the lines “I was distracted...I didn’t feel it when the earthquake happened”. He was so distracted by the anger at his father that he didn’t realize he had brought her through time. And he didn’t feel or know about the effects of what he’d done until it was too late. And with the lines “It's been a year now. Think I've figured out how. How to let you go and let communication die out.” It’s definitely him coping with being in the apocalypse alone but more so him trying to cope with being without her. She died in his arms so he’s trying to figure out how to live with not having her around or to talk to.

Your take on the second verse is spot on but I also think in addition to her not being afraid of his time travel, with the line “It didn't scare me when the earthquake happened” she was so focused on making sure that Five was okay that she wasn’t afraid of anything else going on, she was just scared about what was going on with her friend.

For the chorus I love your interpretation, I am a big sucker for angst too. I also think that the line “All our fears would be irrelevant” could mean a lot. Like in terms of Five, the fears he experiences in the apocalypse, the fear of thinking that the reader still thinks he’s upset with her, and then the fears of those questions like you mentioned. If he was back with the reader all of that would become irrelevant, it wouldn’t matter if they were back together again. And for the reader, her fear of him still being mad at her and her fear of not knowing what to do without her best friend also wouldn’t matter if they were back together again.

Also, I can see where you were coming from with the pre-chorus. I think the pre-chorus though, “I know, you know, we know, You weren't down for forever and it's fine. I know, you know, we know, We weren't meant for each other and it's fine.” I think not only is it a blaming tactic like you said but also it��s a coping mechanism to minimize the hurt of their feelings. By thinking oh it’s not forever oh we weren’t meant to be they’re trying to eliminate the heightened feelings of hurt that come from losing someone you loved and cared for so much.

Also, I am a journalism major so I totally get that thoughts on the meaning of things can get very out of hand haha. Language is so deep and everything becomes an in-depth analysis and an essay.

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