#but it used to be so reflexive

[wearepopcandies]

GOTCHA!

wanted to do some limit palette, since it's been a while since I did one :D

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The palette used in the first one is from @shima-draws called aqua burst ✨

Wanted to see how it would look with orange, so I changed the tone a bit for the second one

#wearepopcandies art #kamen rider #kamen rider gotchard #houtarou ichinose #hopper1 #kr gotchard #gotchard #the palette was so fun to use! #but houtarou kr desing is pretty hard #although i loved the reflexive look it has

[bamsara]

Accidentally drank floor cleaner. It does not taste like the lemons it smells like

#for context i have one of those small plastic bottles of orange juice #and the floor cleaner im using has a very similar look and cap top #so not looking at what im grabbing since its the same color and reflex unscrew the cap and bring to drink #taste bad #also im deep cleaning my room at 1am rn ive been going for hours #sara shush

[s0fter-sin]

soapghost

#i love repressed ghost as much as anyone but i also love ‘thinks hes straight’ soap unknowingly getting a crush on out and proud ghost #and metalhead ghost?? #punk soap and metalhead ghost??? #fuck yeah gimme #ghost whos been in pits since he was a kid and is now a veteran of the scene and the self appointed look out #he keeps an eye out for anyone falling or passing out #kicks the shit out of anyone crowd killing or being creepy #and hes been keeping an eye on soap since he saw him throw himself headfirst into the wall of death #thinks hes either going to start something or end up hurting himself #and if he does he needs to know if he did it on purpose #he uses these places as an escape and he knows all to well how easily an escape can be self destructive #so when he sees him sweat his mohawk off he has no issues with pulling him out of the pit and telling him to open his mouth #at first the glaze the falls over his eyes concerns ghost #along with the colour of his tongue and gums he half thinks the guys about to drop #but when he reflexively tightens his hold on his jaw soap shivers and he smirks #soaps dropping alright just in a completely different way #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #john soap mactavish #soap cod #we’re a team. ghost team #save post

[hajihiko]

Violent Impulses

#Fuyuhiko kuzuryu #Hajime hinata #Sdr2 #Super danganronpa 2 #Danganronpa 2 #Kuzuhina #CW self harm #Self harm cw #Self harm #Its vaguely implied so I gotta ake sure #Blow cw #CW blood #Lmk if theres other tags I need to use #Sometimes your life of anger issues and exposure to severe violence manifests in unhealthy ways who knew #(Reflexive scratching and biting can be a thing it's not hurting (others or not) on purpose. Totes unrelated but I need a pack of bandaids) #An art #K bye

[kazbiter]

just. neil reaching for a gun and hitting andrews hand beneath the pillow. i could write essays about it but really what more is there to say. he reached for a gun. he found andrews hand. i'm thinking and thinking and thinking abt it in fact I can't STOP thinking abt it

#being alone and on the run and having nothing to depend on but the weapon you're used to keeping so close you reach for it on reflex #for so long #and then instead it's the hand of another person and not just any person but the one you KNOW you can depend on above all else #and you don't need the gun anyways. you're in a bed that warm and soft in a house full of people you love and you don't need to run anymore #oh oh oh I love u andreil I do #all for the game #andreil

[hamletteprinceofdenmark]

Oh Around the Pomegranate fucks

#wilbur soot #mammalian sighing reflex #around the pomegranate #*tucks hair behind ear* #oh you’re exploring burnout through the concept of death and the afterlife #not fully dead but not fully alive? #ha haha wow #oh and you’re also explicitly using pomegranate imagery #yeah wow that’s so cool man

[m1d-45]

kaeya having his mandela catalogue moment seeing the copy of his brother… can’t wait for him to meet shade! that definitely won’t fuck him up at all! - teddy anon

oh he’ll totally leave that interaction 100% sane (lying)

brief note, diluc and shade would be over in .2 seconds. putting aside the impossibility of shade leaving your side willingly, diluc has long since memorized the microexpressions on kaeya’s face, and knows that he isn’t him.

brief note two, shade is much better at passing as kaeya than red is diluc. aside from the very obvious detail of red borderline growling at people all the time, red carries himself differently. diluc, while often awkward and sometimes unintentionally cold, is still approachable, a trait that red could never manage. shade, however…

shade is a bandit. a master of disguise mixed with kaeya's already clever personality, able to mask himself as kaeya—and has, on occasion, to lead a patrol away or to snatch some medical supplies from the city for you or nikki. the difference is that he has a diluc to fall back on, one that he can trust with his entire self. kaeya can't let himself be honest with diluc and vice versa, but shade and red can. who better to tell your homicidal urges to than your fellow reflection?

imagine with me. post hunt. you're entering mondstat, without red at nikki's request. you, nikki, momo, and shade, making your way toward the gates. everyone knew about the old copy of diluc you had made, about the mirrors your friend taught you to use to summon the archons of old. even night, elusive as she was, was known throughout the knights.

but shade was new. shade was quick on his feet, always swift to pull you through the impossible tangles of forest, into thickets that would knit behind you so the patrols couldn't follow. shade was a well kept secret, only glimpsed in rumors throughout the city that the cavalry captain was occasionally seen in a new set of formal wear.

kaeya had heard these rumors. he'd also known that your 'diluc' was your closest guard, and had himself witnessed him going into the city. he'd thought nothing of it, assuming the people had simply seen someone that looked like him. they hadn't.

once youre close enough for him to actually recognize shade, its like his whole world falls apart.

"divine one..." jean, at his side, likely also recalling the rumors. "your company..."

"this is momo and nikki," you introduce, "and this is shade."

shade. some part of that feels ironic.

hes not surprised by the talking cat, barely registering nikki's polite hello as he locks eyes with shade. same height, same hair, same patch over the eye and sharp smile when he knows he's won.

"shade, say hello."

shade blinks, then flashes a fake smile. "greetings."

the meeting is a blur for kaeya. all he can see is shade, shade and how clearly you and him are attached. his hand held in yours, the adoring look in his eyes as he watches you speak-

he'd passed as kaeya. his mask was so paper thin someone he's never even met could imitate it flawlessly, putting on his identity like a costume on the world's stage and doing it better.

shade was the one at your side. shade led you away with a polite smile—you didn't see the way it dropped so he could shoot kaeya a glare—and a hand around your waist. shade was the one that believed you, that kept you safe.

kaeya had invented the frostwind swordsman. he'd crafted his persona by hand, making a shield out of his words and behavior, and yet it was somehow shade that had perfected it.

#m1d : [chats] #teddy anon #the shining nikki saga #sailwind shadow #i wanted to include shade last post but ran out of time #unrelated but holy FUCK is driving so scary #my teacher had us go on the interstate today… YIKES MAN #55 on highways. fine. we ball. the SECOND i hit sixty every nerve in my body enters fight or flight #the human body is NOT meant to operate something going that fast #thank the lord it was only for a brief stretch of time any longer and i honest to god would have had to pull over #you can’t handle the uber reflexes of my uber autism. observe: [has to engage manual breathing once i reach 65mph]

[its-rat-time-babey]

My theory on Miko’s apparent electrical powers, made into a 2-ish minute video.

I didn’t count a moment in Ping where Miko’s eyes spark after using a speed boost because it’s shown that the exact same thing happens to other characters after they use speed boosts.

#glitch techs #miko kubota #theory #she’s a glitch I know it #one thing I’ve noticed so far with analyzing Miko’ feats #is that the more focused she gets on a single thing #the less human she becomes just for a moment #like the more she hyperfocuses on a task and acts on pure instinct without thinking the more ‘glitchy’ things she does #Like her mind believes she’s human and limits her to stuff that a human can do #but once she’s thrown thought to the side and is acting more on impulse and instinct she moves more like a game character #or at least like she’s using a TAS in real life #Like the second she’s hyperfocuses on something to the point of tuning out everything around her #her reflexes and speed go through the roof #plus the electrical stuff starts happening #like she’s pushed out all thought besides ‘’I need to do this one single thing no matter what’’ #and mind stops subconsciously holding her back because her focus on this one thing is too overwhelming

[jmdbjk]

Phases

Life with a significant other has its phases: the new relationship phase (so exciting), the honeymoon phase, making a home (getting settled), juggling career/relationship (so busy), settling into a rhythm (getting resettled), the kids grow up and leave (a new freedom)... the ebbs and flows of relationships as time goes on. 

Life flows from one season right into the next without you even realizing it, or sometimes stops you in your tracks. When you or your s/o start a new job or lose a job, or you move to a new city for whatever reason, or you have kids, or deal with serious health issues, all of these things are disruptive. A new job or a new baby will move to the forefront of our attention and our relationship with our s/o hopefully enters the building and supporting each other phase. It can wear you out.

Sometimes the ebbs and flows do not go smoothly because we are all human. Throw in family dynamics, deeply embedded cultural and societal traits and norms, our weirdo personalities and that makes each of our experiences and how we cope individually unique. 

But a strong relationship finds its way through the rough spots if two people are really committed to the relationship and to each other.

Growth, expansion, evolution... important in sustaining relationships because if we don’t change as time goes on, we have trouble adjusting to what is happening in our lives. 

2022 was a year of disruption for BTS and the guys individually. We all felt it big time. But that doesn’t mean anything fell apart. Our normal was disrupted. Now growth is happening. Evolution and all those other deep thinking words.

When you think about the dynamic between Jungkook and Jimin, remember that JK is/was a little possessive of his Jiminie. He’s not letting him go, remember? Be jealous and all that...and Jimin has a heart as big as the universe and turns things around and around to see all sides of a matter. 

So when we think about Jimin roaming the planet working with producers, artists and other idols here and there... we as fans feel some kind of way about it. Of course Kookie is going to feel some kind of way about it too. 

Between them, their relationship has no other option now but to grow. What people are wanting to describe as “distant” is inaccurate. A better word would be to call it maturing. Maturity in your relationship is being ok with your partner freely pursuing their individual interests and friends. 

We know JK is not the constant self-reflecting type but at some point in the future, our live-in-the-moment Bun Bun will realize he had some personal growth during this time. It’ll be good for him. 

And our precious Jiminie will also realize he’s grown professionally and personally. I am so thrilled for him. And we have the privilege of watching this happen in real time. 

And now they can watch and support each other doing things they’ve not had the chance to do yet... like when Jimin was watching Jungkook on that stage in Qatar, you know Jimin was beaming with pride. 

Now we have a date for Jimin’s new solo career to launch with this collaboration with Taeyang. I promise you that JK is going to be paying close attention, just like us.

#jikook #kookmin #dont be so quick to jump to conclusions #jimin is working with fire #jungkookie is feeling some growing pains #hell we are all feeling the growing pains too #they have an advantage over us they know whats coming soon we dont #turning toward each other is just a natural reflex for them at this point

[melit0n]

Getting new Wilbur music after a year (let alone getting a new album from him after YCGMA) is an amazing way to end my year and I highly implore all of you to go listen to it

#the fact Amazon standing lamp is in reference to us calling him random item names is lovely #I missed his albums so much #they're really comforting to me #maybe because it reminds me of 2019/2020 #that was a really bad time in my life but still #so far mine / yours and around the pomegranate are my favourites #wilbur soot #mammalian sighing reflex #MSH #lovejoy

[mintjeru]

weeping... he is so beautiful...

#i'm most definitely art blocked so i come on here to post screenshots of my beloved lol #oh to just sit quietly and enjoy music with x.iao #'you want my company?' silly question i always want his company #but back to the point. look at how tiny and cute those chibis are!! #i love the treble hair clip they gave g.anyu it's very cute #and ofc x.iao looks very elegant with the silver accessories #didn't screenshot zl but his fit is amazing too #everyone's outfits are [chefs kiss] #also lol idk why the image of these two using adeptus reflexes to catch a note midair #is just so funny to me #they're so so cute i love them #note

[salineroses]

I'm still in awe of the the fact that THERE ARE 12 FULL SONGS

#mammalian sighing reflex #like mans never gone above 8 songs in 1 release #we got so much food today with this #wimble shoop #wilbur soot #12 SONGS #pLUS OFFICIAL NIGHTCORE VERSION #wow. #was rambling to one of my frends about this and they said wilbur gave us an early christmas gift #and this is like 12 days of Christmas #and i havent stopped thinking about that ever since

[daz4i]

how and why is there discourse about whether or not certain queer identities exist/if people should be allowed(???) to use them. why is "people know their own identity better than you ever could, and they're the only one who get a say on what they are" such a tough concept to grasp

i think if you find yourself offended by the label someone uses (especially if they're a stranger) or think it invalidates your own, it's a good idea to look inside yourself and question why that may be. more often than not, it's a result of insecurity or uncertainty of your own identity (or many other things, but i won't make a whole list here). whatever reason it is, until you resolve it, you shouldn't take it out on people for having an identity you don't understand

many have said it before but it's worth saying over and over. infighting only helps our oppressors. conservatives don't care if you're a cis gay or a xenogender aegosexual aplatonic lesbian, they hate all of us either way. trying to fit in by going for people who are easier targets for them isn't gonna help you, it'll just alienate you from your own community, and you're never gonna please them. the momentary rush you get from hearing you're not like "one of /those/ gay people" is not worth it and is gonna do more harm in the long run, i assure you

also, it is important to me to say this, but having some less than nice kneejerk reaction caused by confusion about an identity you don't understand doesn't mean you're a bad person or anything. as long as you aren't mean to that person, and you take a second to think smth along the lines of "wait a minute, this isn't any of my business" after having said reaction, you're good 👍 a lot of reflexive reactions we have to things are ingrained into us simply by. well. living in a society 🤡 and you're not terrible for having those thoughts. it's your actions that matter, and your second thought (the "wait, why did i just think that?") is more defining of your actual character and morals than your reflex. i know that having thoughts like this, even tho they're unwanted, can very easily make one spiral, so it's important to me that whoever needs to hear this knows this doesn't make you a bad person 🙏 you're good, keep taking actions to be good, accept other people even if you don't understand them, and you're on the right track :)

#i considered adding that last part in the tags but i figured it'll be too long for that 😭 #i noticed i'm posting a lot of rants lately. sorry. but i do wanna make sure no one's actually feeling bad over them #if i complain about something that you do or call it mean and such. that doesn't make you a bad person #you can always work to change and grow 👍 it's not easy but it starts with smaller steps than you'd expect #and now i just switched to a whole other topic from my original point. oops #i do firmly believe that any discourse about someone's identity is dumb as fuck #seeing it in poll blogs always makes me 😐😬 like how is it any business for any of us. why is this up for debate #if a person says they're queer then they are. they don't need to pass some test or go through initiation to be accepted #if they feel comfortable with a certain word that's awesome. why does it matter to *you* which word they use #'they're only using this microlabel to feel special' so? is there anything wrong with that? #'this label contradicts [insert other identity that falls under the same umbrella]' ok. but does that hurt anyone in any way #a lot of identities can even be self contradictory. does it matter tho? does it affect anyone in any way? #'they might realize that label is wrong later' again. what's the harm in that. #i don't blame anyone for these thoughts bc like. this is how cishets view a lot of the even more common labels #so you're basically taught to think this way from day one. that doesn't mean you need to stick to that thought process #you might have these reflexes forever no matter how hard you try. but you'll get quicker about moving on from them #but you do have to try. you do have to realize that other people's identities aren't about you #anyway. this post feels like batting at a hornets nest. really hope i don't get some bad faith readers here lol #(i noticed a lot of places one could apply bad faith but like it's 3:30 am i'm too tired to add this many disclaimer. #so i'm gonna trust you to not jump to conclusions and to approach this in good faith okay? mwah 🖤) #also my whole ramble abt morality (in the tags too) is relevant to. any topic really #i may just make a separate post about it really. .....tomorrow tho.

[lazaruspiss]

catholic moment

#'repent' shhhhhhut up #i always forget i was supposed to catholic until i visit my dad's family or i hear/see one of The Words #repent... forgive... etc.............. #i vaguely remember at least one prayer! it came up in a fic once and i kept going 'HEY. HEY WAIT I KNOW THAT THING.' #our father who art tho in heaven give us this gay our daily bread or whatever #thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven yada yada forgive our sins as we forgive others and let us chow down already #in the name of the father son holy spirit amen i STILL do that shit on reflex #theres a whole motion- father at the head down on son then up to a shoulder on holy and cross to the other on spirit! #i should not be so proud of myself but shut up its MY vaguely hostile relationship with my sort-of catholicism #and i get to choose how i deal w it #yeah i dont remember cracking open the bible very much but i DO remember prayer stuff. american church am i right

[bougiebutchbitch]

bad nerve day and legs keep seizing up and not working but I have cat on lap sooooo who's winning really

#disability #yayyyyy cat #.........he is getting frightied by my leg jerks tho alas #is my cat.... ableist....... (joking I'm joking) #I absolutely LOVE (/s) that three medical professionals so far have said 'well there is clearly something neurological going on' #'your reflexes are fucked and you have a lot of muscle weakness/spasticity/foot drop/etc' #'but we can't know for sure how much of that is due to hEDS spine/leg joint damage and how much to a separate neurological cause' #'soooo let us know when it gets worse and we will investigate further!' #despite me telling them each time IT HAS GOTTEN WORSE. like. okay. :/ #just what I need on top of all the other shit #the trouble is hEDS + spinal injuries & instability means I have so many fucking nerve problems #I got flat out told they'd think seriously about MS if I DIDN'T have hEDS which just. Sigh. #I know the problems my hEDS causes and I'm 90% sure this isn't one of them so. the endless fun of being a 'complex' medical case

[lilliryth]

Seeing as I just got my diagnosis of level 1 autism (what used to be called “Asperger’s”) coincidentally at the same time that my partner and I started watching NBC’s Hannibal series, I’ve been having a couple thoughts about neurotypical vs. neurodivergent experiences regarding “toggling” different emotional responses. Motivation, empathy, fear, etc. are malleable to some, fixed to others; and sometimes, to those who aren’t born with an automatic reflex in one area or another, it’s a little like breathing or blinking on purpose.

Sometimes (and I think this is the autism at play, now that I have a chance to reframe most of my behavioral tendencies in a new light), someone will tell me a joke, or mention something funny—you know how it is, something genuinely funny—enough to “tickle” my internal sense of humor. But sometimes, even though it does, I feel no physiological urge to laugh.

So, when that happens, I kind of just … pull one out manually.

Sure, some people might think it’s disingenuous. One might make the claim that I don’t actually feel any appreciation for the joke, and instead it is societal pressure to placate the other that motivates me to do it. But the thing is … it’s not. It just isn’t. Even if it doesn’t sound like amusement without dialing up my affect, I do find it funny. It’s just that sometimes a wire in my brain doesn’t quite connect, and I have to push to make the appropriate Human Sounds in order to indicate that I just experienced humor.

The sensation is there, but the action is mindful. Even if I slip up or forget or aren’t diligent enough with how it sounds, I know for a fact that I did find the joke funny, even if the teller thinks I’m only politely going along with it. From what I understand about identifying emotions, it would seem that there is no difference between a choice and a reflex.

This is one example. There are many others, and they all relate to different experiences and emotional deficits. Fake laugh? Ehhh. Intentional laugh? Oh, definitely.

And I think sometimes, for certain individuals, loving is a bit like that, too.

#so yeah basically i really want to believe in mister people eater’s ability to care #even if his demonstrations are #to put it mildly #avant-garde #hannibal #neurodivergence #autism #adhd #personality disorder #aspd #masking #empathy #in the real world too im a big proponent of divorcing ideas of goodness from empathy levels #the way iq is your comprehension and not your intelligence #and in fact #i try not to use the term ‘empathy’ at all #unless it’s literally in reference to how much a person can reflexively feel someone else’s emotions #because ‘compassion’ #the tendency to #by choice or impulse #put in the work required to understand and accommodate someone #is a much better word #if you’re severely antisocial and you have a friend #and the ‘only reason’ you keep them around is because they ‘benefit’ you #but you also understand that treating them like shit will make them not want to be your friend #and therefore make an effort to consciously act as though you care how they feel #guess what #that’s love #you’re willing to accommodate because you like the world better when they’re next to you #that’s love.