#but it just makes me feel dead inside

[chippycore]

synapse

extras so yall can see and also because i cant tell if i like the glitch effects or not...

#aitsf #ai the somnium files #kaname date #hayato yagyu #saito sejima #fanart #illustration #art #digital art #artists on tumblr #date STILLL looks wrong to me here but i couldnt pinpoint it so i just rolled with it #i think the first two images....ehhh i feel like the bg and glitch effects are a bit much but it looked cooler in my head #i do like how i colored them tho #they look so dead inside #esp date im sorry man #i think i should have made yagyu's eyes a bit more narrow ..... #also fun fact about this i literally in one way copied another one of my artworks #i was feeling so inspired by it bc i felt that it #its aesthetic fit what inwas trying to pull here #is it obvious i draw mostly young women and men bc bro that makes me feel 💀💀💀 #young men** #their outfits are so much more simpler which is so nice after drawing so so so so muuucch xeno man #i feel like there was more i could have done but that energy is gone now #idk maybe ill do a better version of this in the future #okay thank you for reading these tags if you have lol

[luck-of-the-drawings]

two wrongs WILL make a right! ive got another lease on life, and im using it well, who cares if this is all fucked up cause we're all GOING TO HELL! IM JUST WILLIAM WHO SHOULD BE DEAD, HAD TO FOLLOW THE THREAD, thought he was just chillin! now he is a villain! HES ALWAYS SUCH A BUMMER, HE WANTS TO TRUST HIS BROTHER WILLIAM IN A HALLWAY BY HIMSEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi prime defenders #jrwi pd spoilers #william wisp #RRAAHHHHGH I KNOW THEIR LIL PARODY OF MICHEAL IN A BATHROOM OR WHATEV WAS SLIGHTLY COMEDIC. LIKE WIWI IN A HALLWAY #HAHAAA HIS NAME IS WIWI ISNT THAT FUNNY. ISNT THAT FUCKIN FUNNY. AND YYYEEEEEEEEEEETTTTT!!! #WILLIAM IS SO FUCKIN SAD DUDE... ESPECIALLY DURING THE GRAYSCALE ARC. HE REALLY THINKS HES BETTER OFF DEAD. #HIS FIRST DEATH WAS AN ACCIDENT! AND THEN HE WAS SADDLED WITH ALL SORTS OF POWERS AND RESPONSIBILITY HE DIDNT FUCKIN WAANT #AND IT TURNS OUT HES STILL DEAD! HIS BODY IS ROTTING AND FALLING APART AS WE SPEAK!! THATS SO FUCKING SCARY!!! #BUT THEN. OOOHH BUT THEN HIS WONDERFUL FRIEND DAKOTA TELLS HIM. ILL GIVE YOU MY HEART SO YOU CAN LIVE AGAIN. AND IT WORKS!!! #WILLIAM ACCEPTS LIFE AND REJECTS THE WISP POWERS AND FEELS SO SO THANKFUL TO HIS WONDERFUL BEST FRIEND DAKOTA. #A DEBT TO REPAY EVEN IF DAKOTA WILL NEVER CASH IN ON IT. HES JUST A PERFECT HERO LIKE THAT.. BUT WILLIAM.. OHH ROTTING LIL WILLIAM.. #EVEN WITH NEW BLOOD RUNNING THROUGH HIM HES STILL DEAD INSIDE. HES STILL USELESS. POWERLESS. SELFISH AND IMPULSIVE AND STUPID AND JUST. #NOT A HERO. WHICH IS FINE! IF ONLY HE WAS A GOOD ENOUGH PERSON TO RETURN THE FAVOR TO DAKOTA THOUGH. BUT HES NOT. HE DOESNT THINK SO. #WILIAM REALLY BELIEVES THAT HE IS FORSAKING EVERY GIFT OF LIFE HE HAS BEEN GIVEN. HE THINKS HE SHOULD BE DEAD BUT HES TOO SCARED TO DIE #JUST FAR TOO SCARED.. OF EVERYTHING.... WHICH IS EXACTLY WHAT BRINGS US HERE. I GUESS THE GOOD NEWS IS THEYLL FORGET. #HE JUST WANTED TO TRUST HIS BROTHER. HE WANTED TO HAVE A BROTHER AND FIX THE RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM AND HONESTLY? #I THINK I WOULD DO THE SAME THING IN HIS SITUATION. MAYBE USE MY WORDS BETTER BUT YKNOW. THATS HIS BROTHER!!! #OKAy okay william makes me sooo EMOTIONAL but now ill mention the ART #THIS WAS Aboutthe time i actually figured out how to draw the white streak in williams hair. IT PISSED ME OFF SO MUCH ORIGINALLY but imPROU #AND THE SHARP SPIRALS!! I LOVE THE SHARP SPIRALS. I LOVE DRAWING HIS HAIR JUST IN GENERAL... I JUS LOVE DRAWIN WIWI... #OHH And xavior... poor xavior... theyre still looking for cantrip arent they? they have no idea where she is..and DAVID YOU BIIITCH #david bell is such a good fucking antagonist. he COMPLETELY believes himself to be in the right and bizly plays him SO WELLL!! #BECAUSE HES SMART!! AND SMART PEOPLE CAN LOGIC THEIR WAY THROUGH ANYTHING! THATS WHY SMART PPL FALL INTO CULTS TOO! #BC A SMART PERSON CAN FIND A GOOD WAY TO JUSTIFY ALMOST ANYTHING TO THEMSELF. DAVID IS SMART AND THATS SCAARRYYYY... #IM So excited to see the consequences of williams actions carry on into season 3. i hope they contact allen and exavior and do. idk. someth

[s0fter-sin]

youth by daughter is 09 soap in mw3, bitter and defeated after losing ghost, talking to 22 soap who’s so hopeful and secretly in love with his lieutenant

#just mw3 soap being broken after losing his entire team as well as ghost #talking to 22 soap who still has everything and is so full of love it almost makes 09 sick with grief #its a blend of him talking to 22 soap and almost warning him #‘and if youre still breathing youre the lucky ones. cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs’ #‘and if youre still bleeding youre the lucky ones. cause most of our feelings they are dead and they are gone’ #‘well ive lost it all im just a silhouette’ #‘and if youre in love then you are the lucky one cause most of us are bitter over someone. setting fire to our insides for fun #to distract our hearts from ever missing them. but im forever missing him’ #as well as him talking to his ghost #‘shadows settle on the place that you left. our minds are troubled by the emptiness’ #‘destroy the middle its a waste of time. from the perfect start to the finish line’ #‘my eyes are damp from the words you left ringing in my head when you broke my chest’ #theres a fic by m1ckstar i think? something like that #about soap worshipping price and him just slowly losing it after he comes back and breaks his perception of him as a god #and mourning ghost at the same time #and i never shouldve read bc fuck if it didnt hurt #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #talk to me ghost #soapghost #ghostsoap #09 soapghost #09 soap #09 ghost #soap cod #soap mactavish #ghost cod #simon ghost riley #we’re a team. ghost team

[lucyvaleheart]

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#supposed to log good things #most of day was negative feelings and sadness #then. i remember feeling good #and then. tthe good went away #rreplaxed with the usual self doubt and loathing #the feelings of undesirability #the wish that i was. attractive in any way to anyone close to me that anyone wanted to. touch me #that i wasn't horrifically gross and disgusting #do the people who hold me do it out of pity? am i really so awful #pictures get a lot of praise #sometimes #less so lately #maybe the novelty of my personality has worn off #maybe seeing how broken i am #such a shambling wailing mess of a girl #....has made people realize how ugly i am #i don't know. its hard to care most nights #I'm supposed to feel better in the mornings #i don't usually #I used to #now i just feel..... dead inside #like a walking corpse #some part of me wants to make that reality #sigh. #anyway. #im sorry you had to read this whoever you are that's made it this far #it's a cry for help but my discord status says don't message me so it's. probably not gonna get much lol #.....i guess uh. if you've read this far and do want to say something you can take this tag in particular as a one time pass to do so #....i make no guarentees I'll respond but i will guarentee that i won't kill myself. at least not tonight or even any time this week

[moregraceful]

what jersey did you purchase today??

THEY GOT ME WITH THE GAME WORN CRISCUOLO JERSEY MAN 😭 IT WAS SO EXPENSIVE AND IT'S NOT EVEN SIGNED 😭😭

shit won't even fit i bet, that man was the size of a grain of rice and weighed less than my dog. this org has my balls in a fucking vice

#you guys know how i only wear the john leonard jersey to sharks games bc it was such an ill-advised purchase? me with this crisco jersey #the cuda should be paying ME money. i MAKE them money. by POSTING #i'm sure i make some equally normal purchase of a cvf jersey i can't wear anywhere later this week too. i'm so sure 😭 tf is wrong with me #which btw. downloading every single podcast on the face of the planet for this roadtrip knowing full well what's gonna happen is #i am gonna listen to 5 minutes of a locked on sharks episode and get ripshit mad at jdy and spend the next 7.25 hours listening to #spotify's tropical house playlist while carefully crafting the most dumbass notfic about environmental conservation #which is what always happens when i have to drive by myself for long periods of time #AND BTW. RE: CRISCO JERSEY. THIS ONLY HAPPENED BECAUSE I WAS MAD AT ONE JOB AND THEN RECEIVED A VERY ANNOYING TEXT MESSAGE FROM ANOTHER JOB #AND THEN THE ORG EMAILED. STEF GOT ME IN A VULNERABLE MOMENT. I WAS DYSREGULATED!!! I WAS NOT MYSELF!!!! #the best part is the sharks proshop called me this morning like hey your simmer jersey is ready. i was like oh yay :) <3 UNKNOWING......... #all three of my jobs made me so exhausted today guys it just never ends #but then it's like well. if i didn't have three jobs. i couldn't make insanely stupid purchases either #so even though i burned out so hard i feel dead inside a lot of the time. at least i can create THE most baffling sharkuda jersey collectio #where was i going with this. oh right. mackblack win tn schedule that selena gomez lockdown starting NOW #cage replies #tausendsorgen #LESA

[aq2003]

series 3 is so frustrating because there is like a shining core of pure diamond underneath the problems . like conceptually it rocks so incredibly hard. but the problems

#dr who #i am being so honest when i say ten should have gotten on his knees and begged for simm!master's life #they should have framed the bit between him and martha's mom so different #like yes it is 10000% in character that the doctor with his bleeding heart and loneliness wouldn't want to kill him #even after everything that happened. because he's the only person he has left. 'i forgive you' was PERFECT. #but literally anyone else that suffered from what the master did. Deserves to rip him to shreds. so very obviously #and like i know.i KNOW that i am watching the 'funny immortal alien saves people through time and space' show #but i actually despise the doctor being framed as like an all powerful savior. or treated like one. even for a little bit. is Annoying #the first part of the series 3 finale having martha be humanity's last hope was SO GOOD bc it like kind of set her up as like #having to grapple with all that responsibility and attention like the doctor does. everyone's lives are in her hands. so crunchy #but when it like slides into 'everyone pls believe in our specialest boy in the world The Doctor <3' it just. falls flat #i feel like with a couple tweaks here and there in the execution and like actual fuckinnn people of color in the writer's room #series 3 would be PEAK media. but as it is it's just. falling short. #i do really appreciate martha deciding to leave ten on her own though. first of all. qpp down. second of all #she's realized that she can't keep traveling with him. bc (as i mentioned) hes someone who simultaneously needs saving #and refuses to be saved in the ways that matter. Yes im fucking ignoring the unrequited romance angle i think #it does a gigantic disservice to martha's character if u boil her down to that. fight me i dont care if that was the authorial intent #martha in the end is too kind to ten and ten keeps making her watch his meandering path of self destruction. toxic doomed qprism to ME. #anyway fuck. idk man series 2 consensus was that im dead inside and series 3 consensus is that the version i have of it in my head is peak #series 2 is better but i think because of my ten martha insanity i actually enjoyed watching series 3 more than series 2. #even if i got mad at it more than any other season. i think something is wrong with me. um. lmao #ten and martha #10 era

[frecklystars]

Just finished a bartending shift and I’m so excited to use this money for more Barbie tickets. Looping Ken's gorgeous song I'M JUST KENNNNN (♫ AND I'M ENOUGH. AND I'M GREAT AT DOING STUFF ♪) about to jump into the car and drive to see the barbie movie again, because why the hell not!!!! I haven't felt this safe around any F/Os in so long, Barbie and Ken are fucking holding my hand through all of the bullshit and loving me so fully and making me feel somewhat like a person again

#MY NAME'S KEN! (AND SO AM I!) PUT THAT MANLY HAND IN MIIIIIIIIIIINE #I haven't felt any joy from F/Os in so long UNTIL BARBIE AND KEN 😭😭😭😭 #KEN SINGING ABT HOW HE WANTS TO BE LOVED. OH I'VE GOT U BABYGIRL #MY HORSEGIRL BOYFRIEND I'VE GOT U............... WE WILL FIGHT FOR EACH OTHER 💪 #love notes #LOVE NOTES 🥺🥺🥺🥺 IT'S BEEN A YEAR SINCE I'VE USED THIS TAG #I have ship tags for them too!!!!! SHIP TAGS 🥺🥺🥺 #my god i just feel a LITTLE BIT like myself again when i see this movie. im so relieved im still... here #im still Me im still Here im just!!! healing!!!!! that spark inside of me isnt dead its just Healing!!!!! #that part of me... that star in my heart isnt burnt out its just overshadowed by trauma #just imagine one year from now i hope im back to being myself fully again ;_; #this is the first time in so SOOOO long that i've felt so happy and safe with characters 😭 #thank you barbie and ken......... #oh here are my ship tags im so happy with them!!! #💕 I'll fight for you!! - ̗̀🐎🏖️✨ ̖́- #(that's for ken!! i'd want him to fight to protect me ;w; like in his song) #💕♫♪ ♡ You're the pink in my cheeks 🎀🌸✨♡ #(that's for barbie!!!!) #im wondering if i should make crush tags for the other barbies and kens...

[sigynpenniman]

My very favorite Images™️ from Ring Of Fire

1 & 2 by Gabrielle Ravet for Beat Magazine, original web source unknown•3&4 (3 edited by me)•5•6•7•8•9•10•11•12•13&14

#mcr #there's a lot of beautiful pictures these are just the ones that make me feel the most unhinged inside #gerardposting #dead secretary

[seventh-fantasy]

hlht ep 2 // 8: 故人之子

#god. literally dk how to articulate how this makes me emotional #left all alone in the world to take the treacherous paths their bloodline has cursed them to take #watching the only remaining connection they have to their parents die to secure them on those paths #the paths which they might ponder in the dead of the night about whether it was ever what they really wanted for their lives #or they were just an instinct of desperation to hold onto whatever that made them feel belonging to a family they should be part of #god they're basically each other.............bound together by history and blood even before they ever know #the way wang yu delivered this fucking scene.......the torrid undercurrents beneath a stone cold facade?? fuck me #the similar ways xdq and xcp (under such circumstances) keep their heads high before their subjects but are clearly tormented inside #鹤唳华亭 #royal nirvana #hlht #平定天下 #my posts

[kingkatsuki]

Thinking about those fanfics you wish you could read again for the first time.

#like they’re just so good you wish you could experience all those surprise emotions again #or the fucking twists inside them? #there’s honestly a few fics that make me feel this way #but cratus by Nat #love you always by cana #they came at first light by kitten #dragon dick Kiri by maks #I’ve walked with you once upon a dream by Christine #heaven on Earth by marq #i will always return by alli #dead salvation by sponge #there’s so many fics I just wishhhh #like the feeling of finding them and just getting to enjoy them all over agin without knowing what’s gonna happen? #best feeling in the world

[aerticent]

my love for Maven has evolved into something and no matter how hard i try i cannot put it into words and it’s driving me crazy

#i have a post talking about how his body is decaying from the inside out due to his soul rejecting his mother and that’s the closest i’ve #gotten so far at explaining my feelings for him rn #i’ve also stopped seeing him as this sad pitiful creature and am more so leaning towards he was a rage and resentment fillled creature and #his main ways of showing love went hand in hand with him putting Cal and Mare through the worst pains/horrors imaginable #he also is absolutely batshit like #bro is on the brink of madness the whole time it’s a wonder he never fully falls through #bet u money if he had been successful in killing Mare or Cal he would’ve fully lost it #cause like now what #this whole war and the two ppl he hates/loves the most r dead and it’s his fault #idk what i’m talking about #he got me feeling like #[CAR CRASH] [GLASS SHATTERING] GOOD LORD! [GENERAL COMMOTION] [BABY CRYING] WAAAAH WAAAAH [YELLING] [POLICE SIRENS] WEEWOO WEEWOO #he still is sad and pitiful but he’s also a rage filled monster who was given too much power without enough guidance #just running on hatred and whatever fucked up version of love he knows of #the closest he got to truly not gaf about literally anyone or anything was his reaction to Elara’s death #did all that running on nothing but anger and hatred almost killed Cal he was so enraged #does this make any sense? #he’s still baby girl sunshine loml 🔛🔝 tuck him into bed and read him bed time stories little angel

[deathbypufferfish]

Like half of the new Twitter people are going to leave when they find out that clout is useless on this site and what it actually looks like

#and no public follower counts or verfied #just #idk people talking #and making cool stuff #also the artificialness of twitter is palpable #those viral tweet accounts make me feel dead inside #'yall remember when this happened in SpongeBob??' no shoot me #puffer talks

[saintseiya-thoughts]

• Ikki - Headcanons

Also a spicy food enjoyer along with Shun ! Seiya tried to eat his part once and his tongue never fully recovered 😢 got worse since his taste got lowered

After his hellish training at Death Queen Island Shiryu tried to make him eat healthy and light food, his stomach being way more fragile due to malnutrition, he didn't listen and ended up throwing up all night, lesson learned I guess

His body is naturally really warm, he's almost never cold and everybody fears him in summer, especially Hyôga

He got that anger issues but isn't really the kind to insult and be mean for no reason ? If you don't annoy him he's pretty chill, just grumpy, he really has that grandpa energy

A night owl, he gets overwhelmed easily by others and feels better alone at night, and actually enjoys peaceful activities like cooking, when others wake up there's food on the table and no more Ikki around, he went back to his room and usually comes out later (he mostly does it to keep himself busy at night tho)

He actually knows how to style hair (ponytail, braids, etc) as he does Shun's hair since they're kids

#I feel like my Ikki is more chill than most of the ones I saw ?? he's not mean or anything just a little dead inside and angry #never really liked this whole 'Ikki is so mean and doesn't care abt anyone but Shun' #no he loves his friends he just doesn't show anything because he's stuck up like that #he was way more agressive as a child #he does tease them all tho he's a little funny like that...probably real tired of their bullshit but love them anyway #sorry I love him guys #you guys have no idea how NICE it is to make crepes at 2am alone with music in your ears. Ikki would absolutely love this don't @ me #saint seiya #phoenix ikki #kotz #headcanons #knights of the zodiac

[sweatyfuntrash]

Random ILITW headcannon of mine:

Everyone in the friend group has a friendship bracelet since they were kids. Some still use them, some don't, but everyone kept theirs till this day

When they first got it, at a carnaval fair or something, it had everyone's initials in each bead of the bracelet.

Andy has an extra one he added himself for Tom

Noah accidentally broke his once, after a fight with his mom and lost most of the beads, the only ones left were Janes and his (or maybe MCs too, idk)

Stacy got a bead for Connor too

Lily actually wears hers most of the time. She likes the way the beads click against one another when she's typing :]

Ava says she keeps it just if she needs a past related object in a curse (she's lying, Lucas caught her wearing it more than once).

Dan thought he lost his at the start of summer break but found it after the whole Redfield thing ended. It was under his pillow.

He doesn't take his off for a while after that

MCs likes to bring the bracelet with them as a lucky charm, doesn't necessarily use them tho

Janes is still in that cave... Somewhere...

When Noah/Mc sacrifices themselves for Jane, their bracelet breaks

#look man i just like characters being sentimental over jewelry ok #idk why #it just makes me feel fuzzy inside #cringe culture is dead #let me live my life #...yeah anyway #ilitw #it lives in the woods #choices stories you play #playchoices #it lives in the woods headcannon #ilitw dan #ilitw mc #ilitw connor #ilitw lily #ilitw ava #ilitw Stacy #ilitw lucas #ilitw andy #ilitw noah #ilitw jane #fun & trashy writing

[skinnypaleangryperson]

There was a popular artist in the Rick and Morty tag who said that I was extremely weird in one of her tags under one of her art once and I got really pissed. She was right. I am completely and absolutely insane to a grotesque degree. You are correct, congratulations.

#I really miss making unique and niche posts on my blogs. #I don't feel safe to express myself on Tumblr anymore I considering that I don't know what's going to get me deleted and what isn't #and I'm too manic depressed and socially isolated already to risk that #reminds me of what I used to have multiple blogs and was in literal autistic heaven with my three hyper fixated adult cartoons though #with all of my posts that I made and my inside jokes that only I found funny and interesting but it made this app so much more interesting #now I just have to look at the same blown up 80k posts over and over #makes me feel so dead to not be able to express myself lol