#but it doesn’t hurt as much anymore

[ahalliance]

qsmp francophone cubitos and their dynamic drive me wild, they all know they’re mutually lying and obscuring the truth to one another, they all know they’re keeping each other at arm’s distance, they all know they’re not as open as they once were when it was just them and the aftermath of a plane crash, but the love is still there. the worry and the concern. they pry information out of one another in supposedly subtle ways that really just convey how much they still care about each other. what’s your stance on the federation. how’s your code arm doing. even if in the end you don’t turn to me, please call out to someone. maybe looking out for yourself is looking out for others as well. i don’t know you anymore but i will protect the unknown anyway

#qsmp #qsmp french #jay rambles #i need to go sleep . said i’d go to sleep ages ago . rotating them in my mind anw . fawk #it’s like. they KNOW they’re not being frank with one another. and it’s almost a game they play #i ask you this question and you know what i mean . but i will not say it outright . #for how long can we dance around the topic until one of us spills the obvious out into the open air #<- etoiles broke first btw lmao . and he and baghera went right back to pretending like neither of them knew any better too #insane of them . fuck #(for context it was about bbh and ron . both him and baghz were prodding at each other trying to gauge how much the other knew #and etoiles at one point just said ‘oh my god i know you know baghera !!! please !!!!’ it was a very validating moment for french cubito #enjoyers . right until they went back to pretending nothing had happened . win) #shoutout to like two months ago when etoiles said smth along the lines of how baghera isn’t telling him everything bc she doesn’t trust him #i will explode and explode and explode #antoine’s whole Thing early on about being distrustful and wary of others and how it hurt that he wasn’t always told everything anymore #a slow unraveling of the status quo that you don’t even realised has happened until you look around you

[hyperfixatedfandomer]

Currently in my “Quaritch is in fact just as evil as his human counterpart, but heavily tones it down because Spider will cut him off completely if he doesn’t” phase 😭

#idk what to think anymore #he def has a bit of an identity crisis I mean how can he not #but he def doesn’t seem to have much of a problem with committing atrocities #he only has a problem with Spider having a problem with that #so he cuts corners constantly bc otherwise Spidey will tell him to go to a place where the sun don’t shine #don’t get me wrong #the ‘I’m an asshole to everyone but I don’t want to hurt you specifically’ is a cute trope #but he’s definitely not getting redeemed #avatar spider #spider socorro #avatar 2 #avatar way of water #avatar quaritch #miles quaritch #recom quaritch

[sunnibits]

ok I know we talk a lot about the love confession lines and the “rotting former first mate” line and all that but can we PLEASE talk about “you know what he did when I told him I loved him? he shot me.” BECAUSE OH MY GODDDDD WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. INSANE FUCKING LINE.

#JESUS CHRISTTT #I know ed shooting him wasn’t like. directly correlated to the love confession in reality but STILL #JESUS FUCK WHAT A LINE. OUGH. #ESPECIALLY because he speaks that line to STEDE????? #like. fucking. openly telling the man who stole the love of your life ‘hey he hated me for loving him. btw. Hope y’all are happy tho’ #WHAT THE FUCK #how. how do you even move on in your relationship after hearing homie’s ex say that to you. like oh my god #it’s so fucking agonizingly tragic. izzy is so fucking tragic #the tragedy of his acceptance. of knowing that ed doesn’t love him anymore and that they will only poison each other. #but that ed still gets to be happy. he finally got to be happy and he’s finally truly in love with someone but it’s not him. it’s not izzy. #he could have been capable of that kind of love. but never for izzy #and izzy just has to ACCEPT that. he DOES accept it. and that is so incredibly fucking depressing #he just has to watch the man he loves move on. after hurting izzy so much. he gets to be happy #and he still loves him. he still loves him. #izzy hands #ofmd #blackhands

[karinasbaby]

I needed someone to share this with, but I found this picture of Jake and idk how to act bc it's giving dark and possessive behavior 🙈

oh. my. god. u came into the right inbox because this is PEAK vampire jake and vampy jake literally gets me weak in the knees so 🫠🫠

#ahem ahem #possessive vampy jake who doesn’t allow u to walk outside the house without his pretty red marks on your neck 🤗 #and no i’m not talking about hickeys i’m talking about his fang marks. #possessive & dark vampy jake who’s actually insanely in love with u and cannot stand the thought of someone else seeing u #so he’s always following u around like a shadow even if u don’t notice it #possessive vampy jake who’s literally addicted to ur blood. like nothing tastes the same for him anymore not even blood bags help him so #he begs and begs and whines and whimpers for u to allow him to feed off ur blood just one more time #and he gets so whiny & so turned on the second u allow him to latch his teeth onto u :( #vampy jake who literally moans against ur bite marks while he drinks u up #makes sure the area goes numb so he doesn’t hurt u as well !! #and once u start pushing him off bcs you’re getting dizzy he starts to just lick & kiss ur marks gently #aftercare with him would be so sweet :( he’d make sure that u eat healthy & filling meals everyday #not only for ur blood but for ur energy as well bcs he’s a FREAK #okay i’ll stfu now but vampy enha is smth that lives in my mind rent free. #ithinkishouldwritefullonheadcanonsaboutthematp #but vampy possessive jake 🫶🏼🫶🏼 #thank u so much for sending this baby <3 #dreamy sigh. #asks & responses <3 #ᓭི༏ᓯྀ‧₊˚ — ♡ 𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒. #𓆩 𓂋 𓆪 alvojake ♡ #— jake?!

[seraphicalsuccubus]

I feel like my heart was just ripped out of my fucking chest and handed back to me with a knife stuck through it

#why do friend break ups suck so much #I’m really not doing well today y’all I can’t even hold myself together for more than 2 minutes before I start crying again #this shit just fucking hurts and I feel worthless and unwanted #I just miss having a best friend … mine doesn’t give a fuck about me anymore because of her girlfriend and I just feel so lost

[futurelabs]

hello from me I guess 👋🏼🩷✨

#about me #nonsims #🦆 #I’m achieving goals lately and I’ve been feeling good #I’ve been eating gluten wheat and lactose free aliments for a month or so #and I’ve been feeling so good I lost so much in so little time #and my stomach doesn’t hurt anymore so

[itspileofgoodthings]

sometimes you overstay your welcome in a place but it’s okay life is not about a perfect scorecard of vibes

#this doesn’t make sense I’ve just been struggling with this SO much this week #just so in my head?? about me not being wanted in certain spaces #or like. I used to be Somebody but I am not anymore #and I think it’s all made up in my head. #which doesn’t make it hurt less. But I do think I need to let it go #anyway I am struggling a lot this week. the loneliness has been so intense #but in that gray way where you almost don’t even know it’s happening to you #until you say it. which is why I’m saying it! anyway I’m just rambling. I would appreciate a prayer if you have a sec #but it’s okay if you don’t have the energy #Thank you for listening regardless #<3

[carpunter]

i still think of you when i see your favorite color btw. i still think of you on your birthday. i still think of you when i hear your favorite song. i still think of you when i see a cool rock at the beach. and i still think of you when i watch that show that used to be our show. by the way. if you even care.

#i know we’re not friends anymore i know it’s over and it’s never coming back #no matter how hard i try #but i’ll never not think of you #i still have so much love in my heart for you #even after everything. #you’ll always be part of me. #at least it doesn’t hurt anymore

[frecklystars]

I miss Starscream. I really really miss hyperfixating on transformers. I still can’t believe something that gave me so much comfort and joy for three years was completely ripped away from me. like it’s fucking insane that I see a picture of a character and I get shaky and tense, when I used to feel happy, I used to feel so loved and comforted looking at screenshots of them. Nothing else made me happier than self shipping with Starscream. but now it’s like…… every single character has been ruined for me due to trauma and I feel so hopeless like I’m never gonna get that back. It’s asinine for me to look at a pic of Starscream and to relive flashbacks to my abuse if my anxiety is very bad on certain days. like. what the fuck I hate my brain

#vent #delete later #and it feels so bizarre having this self ship blog and. I’m not self shipping #I haven’t self shipped since 2022 and that’s not normal for me!!! that’s not good!! and I don’t draw anymore which is also not good!!! #i feel so fucking depressed when I look at a pic of Starscream or bee and my first thought is that they’re gonna hurt me #and then I try to imagine soft scenarios like I used to. but I can’t it’s all tainted by abuse #I don’t know how to fix it. and not self shipping is doing so much damage to my mental health #and I try to self ship with non-TF characters but then I’m just so numb. it just doesn’t feel the same #Starscream is everythingggggg to me and I miss knowing that feeling is mutual

[the-baby-storyteller]

“It…hurts?” They think to themselves, noticing a strange pain that wasn’t there before.

“It…hurts!” They note in solitude, surprised at the magnitude of the pain.

“It hurts…it hurts, it hurts, it hurts.” They mumble incomprehensibly as their team transports them back to their base, their light, soothing touches doing little to quell their pain.

“It hurts,” They beg with tear stricken eyes to their friends, pleading with them to end the pain somehow, anyhow.

“It hurts.” They respond quietly when asked how they’d gone through it so long, avoiding the real question.

#whump #hurt whumpee #traumatized whumpee #whump thoughts #whump scenario #writing #whump prompt #writing scenario #creative writing #the baby storyteller #whump dialogue #team whump #I’ve written the word hurts so much it doesn’t look like a word anymore

[daylighteclipsed]

anyone else feel like the whole world is this 👌 close to completely snapping

#it feels like a rubber band is being pulled farther and farther #and it’s going to snap soon #like people are just rapidly reaching their limit #specifically the working class #France is already rioting #like we’re all just so fucking fed up with all the elites around the globe #america especially feels like we’re one jenga block away from #i can’t say war bc realistically we would be mowed down but um #quitting the game i guess #it’s all a game and we’re this close to flipping the board #I’m sick to my stomach I’m furious I’m exhausted #we’re all so tired and drained and hear all these horrible things every day and have to go to work like nothings happening #why are we going to work why are we playing this game i don’t wanna play anymore !!!!! #I’m just. I’m so hurt and frustrated and feel the grief of millions of people I’m in tears #this is not sustainable life doesn’t have to be this way it shouldn’t be this way #it feels so hopeless i hate it i hate it so much i am living on spite alone #god damn you elites i will go down swinging

[luminarai]

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#my Mom keeps bringing up how our family dog doesn’t have a long way to go anymore #and like #where we’re gonna bury him and so in #and it just keeps wrecking me #like she wants me to be emotionally prepared but I’m not #I’ve already lost two very near family members over the past two years #and I love that stupid silly old dog #I just keep crying at random times because I can’t stop thinking and it hurts #why does grief never get any smaller #my life gets longer and my knowledge and experiences grow but the fucking grief stays static #it just appears in new forms. every time I think I’m ready to move on it takes a new form #I love that silly stupid old dog!!!! and I can’t handle losing him I can’t #I just need everyone I love to stay and not change and to stop the match of time #is that really too much to ask #sorry about this unhinged rambling I’m currently sobbing into a pillow #death mention tw #cecil blogs her life #pet death mention tw

[crimsonsunrise]

good kuro morning guys :33

#sol talks #kuro mornings #i love soumie so much. my son he is so sick #my hand doesn’t hurt as much anymore!!! i’m gonna draw more today and perhaps post it 😳

[the-casbah-way]

i feel like everyone is going to eventually get annoyed at me for still being sad about simba or still talking about it but posting abt it is easier than telling someone because i don’t know how to do that and i’d rather be annoying here where people can scroll past and ignore it and not feel obligated to reply

#i don’t even have anything to say i’m just sad #i keep being fine for a while because it doesn’t feel real #and then i remember i never get to take another picture of him or play with him again #i wish i’d gotten a video of him meowing he had such a funny meow i wish you could hear it #i get so sad thinking about him when he was a baby and how he didn’t know it would end up like this #and then thinking that’s dumb because cats do not understand their own mortality anyway #i hope he wasn’t in pain when he died i hope he didn’t feel alone or scared #i wish more than anything that someone had been with him when he died. he was all alone #he should’ve been inside he should’ve been safe he should’ve been looked after properly #there’s no point getting angry at the people who neglected him. they can’t hurt him anymore anyway #but i just wish he got what he deserved he deserved so much better. i hope he knows how much everyone loves him #and that i won’t stop loving him just because he’s not here #he was only a baby he was only two. he should’ve lived for so much longer #again i am sorry for being annoying but i am not coping with this and i feel rlly fucking stupid for being this sad #simba

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

one of the best lines I’ve ever written is “[harrison’s] not wise. he never wants to be again” in ch. 2 of BODY BACK like holy actual cow the level of self-awareness there & the pain there & the anger there & the jadedness there & the vulnerability there & the heartbreak there & the desperation there & the sadness there & the longing there & the certainty there & the hurt there & the—

#like idk I could pick apart what this one line means to him at this moment when it’s stated #it’s quite literally the thesis of this book—Harrison’s EMOTIONAL thesis #like he spent ALLLL of moth work doing the ‘right’ thing #Lonan can’t be in his father’s cabin because of his history there??? #all good they’ll sleep in a tent #Lonan is actually ready to enter his father’s cabin when he’s just alone with Harrison? #nice let’s go in #Lonan just wants to hold him in the bathroom?? #great he’ll be held #Lonan thinks he sees the ghost of his father??? #all good let’s leave the cabin for good it’s clearly making things worse #Lonan can’t handle being in Oregon anymore?? #totally fine let’s drive him solo across the country all the way to home #WHOLE BOOK PROGRESSES like that — Lonan having needs and harrison dropping his #entire life to provide them #this man who I love very much but is struggling to accept himself and therefore me?? #all good I can take that #this man continues to hurt me because he himself is so hurt he doesn’t even know how to handle himself??? #I can carry that #for all intents and purposes Harrison’s trying to do the right thing in MW #AND IT DOESNT WORK!!!!! #I think so much of body back is Harrison trying so hard to forget that man #not Lonan no but the version of himself #who loved Lonan at all #because if he remembers that person he’ll remember how much the love he gave didn’t seem to matter #and this line in BB I think is the only moment we see MW Harrison peak through #he’s sooooo vulnerable there—he knows he was once ‘wise’ in doing all the right things for Lonan #he also knows none of that matters because lonan’s not here #& he cannot handle that at all << ok tag essay over #btw this entire thing inspired me to create a new podcast lmaooo y’all heard it here first folks!!!

[098765zzzzzz]

i wish someone would kidnap me and force me to transition

#please help me i’m in so much pain #i don’t want to live anymore #i’m crying so much i can’t sleep #if someone doesn’t help me i’m going to hurt myself