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delicatelygay · 2 years
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The thing I really hate about my undiagnosed ADHD is that, every so often I'll change how i do something : I recently (finally!) set up my account on ao3, but like, how will i ever find aaaaall the fic I read on other phones/computer, since i was 11, with nothing to find them except the vibe. Not even a word or title, just. Vague memory of a feeling while i read it.
Also i should stop smoking so much weed lol.
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partycatty · 3 months
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Omg youre feeding me!!!! I've been obsessed with Johnny Cage too and your blog is like an oasis, THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!! Also... would you mind writting some fluff/angst of johnny cage and reader? Like you trained with him in the wu shi academy and he always treated you like, a bit colder and distant than the way he treats the other 3 earthrealm champions. But thats atually not because he hates you but he likes you??? And he doesnt know how to express himself so he prefers to stay away, part because the reader is an amazing sorcerer under and is very battle-smart. But also the reader being like EXTREMELY SHY and introverted but very kind and reliable to the point that like all the guys from the earthrealm gangs make excuses just to spend time with the reader because they like them that much...
I'M SORRY THIS IS SO LONG IM SORRYYYYYYYYYYY I WAS CARRIED AWAY I LOVE YOU AND YOUR BLOG BUT NOT AS MUCH AS I LOVE JOHNNY CAGE BYEE SORRYYYY AGAIN
NO YOURE SO FINE DONT APOLOGIZE MWAH THANK YOU
johnny cage > envy
johnny can't find the words to describe how he feels around the new recruit, so he decides to say... nothing.
warnings: sad :(, ooc johnny? idk he's insecure
notes: reader is an outworld native sorcerer that lives in earthrealm. also, pretend that outworld natives can fight for earthrealm in the tournament LOL
masterlist <3
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• you owed liu kang a favor after prior personal matters, so here he was asking for your strength at the wu shi academy. of course, you agreed. you may be an outworld native, but earthrealm was something to truly fight for. you considered yourself a lesser protector, one call away from fighting if necessary.
• you were highly respected in the field. liu kang knew that your powers were unmatched, probably matching titan shang tsung, and you still chose the good side. liu kang silently thanks himself and fate for keeping you on the side of justice. the lin kuei brothers also know you're on their side. as a secondary protector, you were acutely familiar with their styles and dynamics. in short, you were exactly what earthrealm needed.
• you didn't necessarily need training, but considering you were a contender for the title of champion, it was only smart to hone your skills.
• the boys warmed up to you very quickly; any friend of liu kang is a friend of theirs! kung lao had endless questions that easily flustered you, raiden found your sparring inspiring, and kenshi enjoyed your late night deep chats. the only one missing from the adoration was... johnny cage.
•it was... strange. you'd seen his movies, his public appearances. he was always a smiling, flirting ball of charm. you wondered if perhaps his recent divorce and failure in films contributed to his sour mood.
• but even so, he was still a charming devil around the others! references up the wazoo, loads of banter and he always had something to add to a conversation. it's just that, when you'd contribute something, his smile would fade while others laughed.
• it started with a king of the hill sparring to gauge everyone's skills at first. liu kang said the champion at the end of training would be selected the same way.
• "(reader), you are first," liu kang gestures to you with a smile. "please step forward."
• "cull the weak first," johnny smugly chimes in, hands on his hips. his smirk faded when liu kang said he would be first up as well. you, thankfully, were humble amidst your shyness. even so, you could kick major ass. johnny was knocked to the ground in only a few seconds.
• words were... hard for you. so instead, you extended a hand to johnny who was laying on his back against the cold stone. you smiled warmly and nodded, silently congratulating his efforts and genuinely enjoying the fight. sitting up, johnny let out a deep sigh with furrowed brows, and sat up on his own. he completely rejected your kindness, and for what? even the monks were taken aback by this.
• and again, since that day, johnny's just been incredibly cold toward you. spars after that day were increasingly more challenging. johnny's punches felt more... targeted. his anger was coming out in bursts, and it wasn't healthy. he gets borderline childish when he loses.
• "this can't be fair! you've got magic at your fingertips," he'd groan as he's knocked on his ass for the thousandth time. his skin was bruising from the repeated blows, and you weren't even being rough. "i've just got... fists. can you turn it off for one goddamn round?"
• "this... could be a learning experience?" you ask sheepishly, standing - one again - over johnny.
• "just forget it," he grumbles before walking off, rolling his shoulder. "showoff."
• completely stumped for an explanation, you ended up confiding in the man you grew closest to since beginning training: raiden. he was similar to you in many ways. shy, sweet, and endlessly humble. too humble, actually, to the point of not fully understanding your own strength. in a way, he reminded you of liu kang.
• "i don't understand, raiden. was it something i said? perhaps i'm not as aware of earthrealm culture as i thought i was?" you ask, perplexed.
• "have you considering asking him about it?" raiden replies with a frown. "he seems fine with the rest of us. it's only you he shows hesitation toward."
• he's right. you didn't once consider to actually... ask him. it just sounded like such a foreign concept, to confront someone. the thought made your skin crawl, but you were far more unsettled with johnny's behavior. you had to know.
• so, at the next meal time, you make it a clear effort to sit beside johnny, blocking him off from the rest of the guys. raiden gave you a shy thumbs up before you turned to face the star.
• "mr. cage," you spoke quietly so as to not disturb the others.
• "johnny," he coldly corrects you, eyes fixated on his plate.
• "johnny..." you're already flustered, but you try to swallow it deep down to keep control of the situation. "i'd... i'd like to talk with you, if that's alright."
• johnny's eyes lift to meet yours, but he seems upset. he leans forward to view the other boys and shakes his head.
• "no," he mumbles. "later. after training."
• the conversation stops dead in its tracks as johnny abruptly stands and relocates himself to the other side of the table. you're left dumbfounded as how blunt he is. raiden locks eyes with you again and just shrugs.
• training passes by slower than usual, probably because you're anticipating the conversation. that, and johnny won't stop staring at you every chance he gets. even across the training grounds, you find him staring with a completely blank face. he's cooking something up in his head, you just know it. lord knows what it'd be, though.
• night falls, and you weren't sure where or when to find johnny. as you shrug off the heavy robe and leave yourself in your skin-tight underclothes, you hear a gentle knock in the doorway.
• you spin around, face immediately flushed at the idea of being seen. instinctively, you launched a ball of energy toward the figure, but he dodged just in time.
• "good lord—!" johnny shouts out, slapping a hand on the top of his head to make sure his hair wasn't fried off. "remind me not to sneak up on you."
• "what are you doing in my room?" you ask, blushing deeply as you hug yourself to hide your curves. johnny scoffs and puts his arms up in disbelief, like you're dumb for asking.
• "you're the one that wanted to talk to me," he points in an accusatory way. once your shock wears off, you plop down on your cot with an embarrassed frown. he steps closer, standing above you. it wasn't until now that you realize his physique is incredibly intimidating. and kindaaaaa......
• you tense up, realizing your thoughts are wandering when he's literally right in front of you.
• "well come on. i haven't got all day, fancy pants," johnny jabs at your powers with a sour tone. something about his attitude makes your shyness completely vanish for a moment.
• "why do you speak to me like that?" you inquire bluntly, starting to raise your voice. "i don't understand. was it something i did? said? you've been nothing but cruel to me since i arrived. we're on the same side, johnny. help me understand why you hate me."
• johnny freezes completely, his eyes widening. his once crossed arms tense up before falling to his sides. he lets out a deep sigh.
• "i don't... hate you."
• "so you heavily dislike me."
• "no."
• "then what is it?!"
• "i-i don't know!"
• johnny rakes his fingers through his hair with a frustrated groan.
• "it's like... i want to hate you. i want to hate you so bad, (reader). but i can't. you're just so smart and perfect and... and wildly attractive... but a part of me wants to just—" he holds his hands out in a strangling motion as he rambles. when the thought finally clicks in his head, he sits on the ground, up against the wall opposite you. "i want to hate you because you're everything i could never be. you've got all these fancy powers. the guys love you. i'm just some washed up, divorced, broke—"
• you stand up and make your way to him, crouching down in front of him. your cheeks feel warm at the subtle confession of attraction, but your primary focus at the moment was reassurance.
• "none of those things define you," you say calmly, putting a hand on his shoulder. "for what it's worth, i think you're an incredible fighter. you do your own stunts. you stand up for what you believe in. that is admirable. you're quite funny, too."
• he looks down at you with a weak smile. he seems internally defeated, but outwardly flattered.
• "you're too kind," he chuckles breathlessly, looking around. "god i... i'm sorry to fall apart like that. please don't tell anyone you witnessed that."
• "i won't," you promise, returning with laughter yourself. suddenly, your mind calls back to his confession, and a smile tugs hard at your lips. your face burns. "did you say i'm 'wildly attractive?'"
• "yes! god!" johnny is now giggling, waving his hands at you. "have you looked at yourself? drives me crazy just sittin' here with you!"
• you let out a whimper and cover your face, burning hot. you try to protest in a muffled tone, but johnny just grabs your hands and holds them in his. he smiles warmly, the first real smile he's given you.
• "you're hard to hate, you know. you're just so damn cute when you're flustered. it's so easy to rile you up, isn't it?"
• you wiggle, flustered. you can only yelp out his name as you wordlessly beg him to stop the teasing. tragically, you opened the flood gates. he wasn't afraid of you anymore.
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buckyhad · 2 years
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When Billy got caught.
Pairing: Billy Hargrove x innocent!reader.
Tw: talks of first time, smut, Billy taking reader innocences, bad writting, all characters are grown up here.
Note: if you find some mispelling let me know, english isn't my first lenguage
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Everyone at Hawkins knew you for how innocent you were. Always tilting your head when someone made a sexual joke.
Almost everyone thought it was weird that a girl as pretty as you was still so innocent, guy thought it was cute that you were so clueless.
Until you met Billy Hargrove, a walking menace.
Billy and Max moved to the house down your street, you became friends with Max pretty fast, so when the redhead approched you on school and told you where she lived, both of you were really happy.
Billy saw you talking to his step-sister, and looked at you pretty often after that.
And when you went to his house? Billy was a gooner, you always used the shortest shorts, and looked so good. He made sure to be nice to you.
But the day you went to his house looking for Max and she wasn't there? He was livid.
Billy heard someone knocking at the door and grunted, knowing that he was the one who has to get the door since no one was home.
"Who the fuck is it." He asked while opening the door "hi." His mood changed when he saw you there, in a skirt.
"Hi Billy, it's Max home?." You asked.
"No sweetheart, but she will be coming soon, wanna come inside?." He said with the nicest smile he has.
"Oh, I don't want to bother you."
"You never do, come in." He moved to the side to let you in.
"Thanks you." You murmured.
Billy has a plan, a not really nice plan, but it was for his own good.
He didn't really know how he was going to proceed with that plan.
"You can sit in the couch, I was doing some exercises so im going to take a quick shower  okay?" He smiled.
"Okay, thanks you again."
Billy took his shower, but before that, he made sure to leave some clothes on the dryer.
"Hey y/n." You heard Billy screaming.
"Yes."
"Can you do me a favor, please." Billy has to play nice, he never say please to anyone, except you.
"Yes, what happend?."
"I forgot my clothes on the dryer, can you bring them."
"Okay." You were nervous, knowing that Billy was naked and you were going to get so close to him like that.
You made your way towards his room after geting his clothes, more anxious with each step.
You knocked the door and he opened, with only a towel.
You gulped and extended your hand with the clothes, he took them making sure to touch your hand.
He left the door open when he dropped the towel and started to changed.
You gasped, turning around as fast as you could, and he laughed.
"What? You never saw a naked man before?." He knew you didn't, he just wanted to make you nervous.
"N-no." You said.
"Turn around." He commanded.
"What? No."
"Come on baby, turn around." When you did as said, he was in a pair of white boxers, moving your eyes to the floor.
He got closer to you and took your hand, yanking you to his bed "sit".
You trusted Billy, he was your best friend's brother, and he was always nice to you.
He sat next to you, as close as he could.
"Have you ever kissed a boy?." He asked in a really sweet voice.
You moved your head 'no'. "Okay, I can teach you."
"Are you sure?." You whispered, you knew every girl find Billy pretty, and so did you, and with how nice he was to you, he made you feel safe.
"Of course im sure, are you?." He smirked.
"Yes." With that Billy leaned to leave a small kiss on your lips, and when you close your eyes, he deepened the kiss.
It was sweet, no tongue yet, making sure you were comfortable with him going further.
And then he kissed you roughly, moving you to his lap.
"Wha-what are you doing?." You began to panic until he smiled.
"I just want you to be comfy sugar." That sounded reasonable to you.
"Okay, okay, keep going."
He grabbed your hips, moving you slightly over his clothed erection. And for a second he believed in God, because who else would made you wear a skirt today, when he was all alone.
You whimpered quietly thanks to the new and weird feeling you were experimenting.
"Feels weird." You whispered.
"Weird good or weird bad." He asked, kissing your neck after that.
"Weird good."
"I can make you feel even better." That excited you and you let out a low moan.
Billy was on heaven, he thought he was dead for a second, being the first boy you kissed, and now he was going to be the first to fuck you? Fucking heaven.
He took his hand towards your panties, and moved them aside, feeling you almost like a feather.
"Oh." you let out.
"You like that sugar?."
"Yes. More."
"Ask nicely, and I may give you more." He said looking at you with hungry eyes.
"Yes please."
He smirked, loving how nice and pouty you were on his hands.
He put a finger inside you, slowly, making sure not to hurt you. When he saw your face, he added another one, moving them in and out.
"Fuck." You whispered.
"Tsk tsk, watch that mouth."
When you didn't said anything, he stopped. You looked at him with a confused gaze on your glossy eyes.
"Apologize."
"I'm sorry Billy, it was an accident, it feels to good." You almost cried.
"That's okay baby. Thanks you for being so nice."
He layed you on the bed, grabbing a condom from the nightstand, and putting it on his hard dick.
He hovered over you, tooking one of your hands in his bigger one. "This its going to hurt a little sugar, let me know, okay?."
"Okay."
He spread your wetness on his dick, and started to thrust slightly, looking at your face the entired time.
Billy made you cum at least three times, making sure you were not going to forget about how good he can make you feel.
He stopped fucking random girls, only calling you, no one seem to notice that.
Except Max.
When some day the party, including you and Steve, she took Steve to one side and whispered.
"I think y/n its seeing my brother." She said in his ear while covering her mouth with her hand.
"What?! Why?." Steve almost screamed and Max hushed him.
"Yeah, I haven't see him with a girl for a while now, and everytime she is around, he tries to stay as close to us as possible, and when he took us somewhere, always makes sure that she is the last to get off the car."
"Yeah, thats pretty weird, but he likes to fuck, sorry, girls and you know y/n, she would never do that." Steve cursed himself for saying that so harshly to the younger kid.
"Steve, i'm 19 now, not a kid anymore" she rolled her eyes.
After a few minutes they heard someone knocking on the door, Will went to get the door, when an angry Billy appeared.
"Where's Max." He said almost shouting. He stormed into the house, getting angrier when he saw Steve. "Harrington, where is my fucking sister, i swear t-."
"Hey Billy, Max is in the bathroom." You interrumpted him.
Billy stopped and smiled. "Hey s- y/n. Thanks you for telling me, my dad send me to look for her." Steve looked at him weirdly, and looked at Max who was coming out of the bathroom. She raised her eyebrows at him like saying 'I told you so'.
"Hey Maxine, there you are, I was really worried." Billy feaked.
"Umm, yeah."
"You wanna join us? We where going to see a movie." Y/n smiled at Billy.
"What?."
"No"
"He is mean why did you do that." All the party started talking at the same time.
"Hush, he is really nice, give him a chance guys." You said while grabbing Billy's arm and making him sit next to you.
When the movie started, Billy felt comfortable being there, but while the movie went on, he started to feel judge by all your friends, snuggling further into your side. When you turned your head to look at him, he make sure that nobody was watching to give you a small kiss.
"Thats it." Steve said turning the lights on "why in hell are you kissing Billy." He made his mom pose, with his hands on his hips.
"What?!."
"No way!."
"Max did you know this?!." The party started talking again.
"We didn't kiss." You said opening your eyes really big.
"You are lying!." Mike said.
"Yes I am." You lowered your head, feeling ashame for not telling your friends.
"You are fucking her, Max was right." Steve turned to Billy while pointing his finger at him.
"Steve!." Max whined
"Max!." You said.
"I'm sorry! I didn't know if I was crazy, or you two were together."
"Fuck." Billy whispered with his hand on his face, knowing he got caught in a big mess.
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memospacexx · 2 months
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Can you do a busker and alastor (separate) with a jester oc
I heart husker and alastor
No warnings :3, Gn reader!
ALASTOR!
-What a interesting specimen you are
-Alastor loves entertainment, he loves watching you preform! Specially if your well known, he loves preformance, any kind! As long as it isnt . Modern.😒
-Will and has watch all your shows!
-even if it isnt YOUR show, your appearing there? He bought his tickets!
-Invited you to stay at the hotel, everyone loves ya! You do performances sometimes to brighten the mood :)
-you got injured doing one of your acts infront of a crowd and he had to restraint himself from taking you back to your quarters to take care of you
-so sweet( as sweet as a demon could be)
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HUSKER!
-Another fellow who loves seein ya do what you love
-some booze and your entertainment? Closest to heaven he’ll get
-met ya at the hotel, he wasnt really IN on the whole jester thing , didnt even know who you were even tho you were super duper famous
-He likes seeing you do your little acts and you live seeing his card tricks, win-win
-You do little shows for him and ONLY him, makes him feel stupidly inlove knowing this was a preformance only for him <3
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Sorry this was super short! Im getting back into writting for the shits n giggles
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wangxianficfinder · 2 years
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In the mood for a Fic...
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1. Hi! Do you know any Lan Sizhui/ A’yuan POV fics??
black irises in the sunshine by doodlebutt (G, 2k, LSZ & LWJ, angst, grief/mourning)
❤️ nevermore, nevermore by agloeian (T, 120k, lan sizhui & everyone, wangxian, canon divergence, time travel fix-it, hurt/comfort, fluff, angst w/ happy ending)
as i stumble homewards by the_pretzel (T, 27k, wangxian, canonical character death, found family, food issues, trauma, LSZ pov, angst w/ happy ending, fluff)
Not Yet (There As Needed) by sunrise_and_death (T, 13k, wangxian, WWX & LSZ, LSZ & JL, post-canon, family bonding, dramatic revelations)  
to make an arbitrary wager by moonsteps (G, 9k, Junior Quartet, JL & LSZ, WangXian, Post Canon, Junior Quartet Dynamics, Friendship, sizhui and the mortifying ordeal of being the gusu lan heir)
to the act of making noise by words-writ-in-starlight (Gunmetal_Crown) (G, 19k, LSZ & WWX & LWJ, WangXian, Grief/Mourning, Father-Son Relationship, inquiry, Music, Angst, Fluff, Found Family, mostly CQL verse)
remember the moments when we were together by RoseThorne (T, 2k, LSZ & WWX, WangXian, Grief/Mourning, Memories, Depressio, nImplied/Referenced Suicide, wwx needs a hug, Regret, Self-Esteem Issues, Loneliness, Crying, Hugs, Truth, Post-Canon, PTSD, Father-Son Relationship, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, CQL-centric, POV LSZ)
Would You Come Home? by s6115 (Not rated, 46k, WangXian, Junior Quartet Centric, Time Travel Fix-It, Canon Divergence, Junior Quartet Dynamics)
🧡the stone-filled sea by yukla (T, 9k, WangXian, LSZ & WWX, Post-Canon, senior wei defense squad, a study of the way prejudice and injustice and anger trickle down from generation to generation)
❤️Symmetry by Vir_Abelasan (M, 13k, LSZ & WWX, wangxian, mind the tags just in case)
keeping score by hauntedotamatone (T, 6k, LSZ & WWX, Background WangXian, the opposite of reconciliation, Protective WWX, Duelling Grief/Mourning, not for jc fans, Swordfighting, Resentment, LSZ centric, No JC & WWX Reconciliation) 
coming of age, coming alive by narie (T, 25k, LSZ & LWJ, LSZ & WWX, wangxian, LSZ & WQ, canon compliant, found family, coming of age)
Path by Jengabears (G, 4k, grief/mourning, soul-searching, repressed memories, burial mounds, good uncle WN, LSZ centric, dead WWX, angst, sad w/ happy ending, comfort)
In all these shades of blue (I think we found you) by Fleetling (T, 5k, wangxian, LWJ & LSZ & WWX, 5+1, LSZ pov, childhood, growing up)
although my mind is young, it is not gentle by everythingispoetry ( T, 27k, Canon Divergence, Hurt/Comfort, Disability, Parenthood, Growing Up, Family Dynamics, Character Study, Self-Discovery) 
The Sound of Love by  mondengel (Not rated, <1k, wangxian, LWJ & LSZ & WWX, fluff, everyone lives au)
Decorating by Quiet_crash (G, 1k, LSZ & LWJ, LSZ & LXC, LSZ & LJY, Rabbits, Fluff) A-Yuan decides that the bunnies need Lan ribbons
A-Yuan in Bunnyland by Aki_no_hikari (G, 3k, LSZ & LWJ, Fluff, Action/Adventure) A-Yuan dreams—or does he?—of falling down a rabbit hole and stumbling upon a whole parallel Sect of Gusu Buns
Crayon Time with Sizhui Series by treemaidengeek (G, 272, LSZ & LWJ, Fluff, Angst, Family Feels, Canon Compliant, Grief/Mourning, Actual Child Narrator, Actual Crayon Drawings, Bunnies) crayon cartoons by 7½-year-old LSZ 
Anticipation by Quiet_crash (G, 2k, LSZ & WWX, LSZ & LWJ, WangXian) Chenqing and LSZ’s recovery of his Burial Mounds memories, from his POV
history by tongzhi (T, 15k, Background WangXian, LSZ-Centric, Post-Canon, Angst, Grief/Mourning, Hopeful Ending, Character Study)
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2. Hi! For the next fic-mood: I just saw on Twitter a very beautiful WangXian fanart in RomeoJuliet AU, and thought there must be someone already wrote a fic for this trope right?? Right?? 😁 Thank you all in advance 🙂🙏🏻 ❤️ Have a nice day! @yellowridge
Star crossed by ToeGod (T, 5k, WIP, WangXian, Romance, Star-crossed, Romeo and Juliet Fusion, Angst, Fluff)
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3. Haii! Im in the mood for some MXY with WX fics. Not romantically. I recently read one where they adopted him. Any amount of words and only restriction is not to have MXY romantically involved with WX. Thank you!
Dream a little dream of me by Moominmammashandbag (M, 60k, wangxian, dream cultivation)
💖 Mo XuanYu’s Bewildering Re-Start by MarbleGlove (T, 9k, MXY & WWX, WQ & WWX, wangxian, time travel fix-it, suicide attempt, unreliable narrator)
Moonlit by Aki_no_hikari (T, 8k, wangxian, yiling wei sect au, fluff, battle couple, teacher WWX, canon typical violence)
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4. Hi 👋 for the next im in the mood for post, can you please recommend some good possessive wwx fics.
Barefoot Runaway by Itszero (E, 18k, WangXian, A/B/O Dynamics, Alpha WWX, Omega LWJ, Sex Pollen, No Sunshot Campaign, Mpreg, Possessive WWX, Protective WWX, No War AU, Bottom LWJ)
Strange Magic by Sabinasan (T, 18k, WangXian, Cursed WWX, Fluff, Mild Hurt/Comfort, Falling In Love, Cuddling & Snuggling, Possessive WWX, Protective WWX, Sharing a Bed, Sharing Clothes, Non-Sexual Intimacy, Hair Brushing)
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5. Hello mods! Can you reccomend me some good wangxian celebrity au s for the next in the mood for post? Thank you😊
always on my mind series by sami (E, 37k, wangxian, LWJ/others, LWJ & JYL, modern, family, sexual tension, grief, superstar musician LWJ, fluff, children, pregnancy, parenthood)
💖Pop and Prejudice by flowerofgusu (E, 25k, wangxian, modern, famous popstar WWX, music critic LWJ, misunderstandings, pining, falling in love, slow burn, fluff & angst, smut, hurt/comfort)
🧡I Don’t Want to Debut! by countingcr0ws (G, 56k, WangXian, Modern AU, Reality show, Idols, Actor LWJ, Forced Contestant WWX) 
Some of You by tangerinechar (M, 60k, wangxian, JC/LXC, JYL/JZX, modern, social media, actor au, pining, fluff, love confessions, matchmaking, light angst)
how to put the entire world in complete chaos, a guide by lan wangji by lanergeges (G, <1k, wangxian, modern, outsider pov, actors, tabloid, fluff, established relationship)
He is Wei Wuxian’s by devinokaze (T, 41k, wangxian, modern, celebrity au, actor WWX, singer/dancer LWJ, social media, entertainment industry, outsider pov, fluff & humor)
life, drama and action by Akai__hana (G; 13k, wangxian, modern, actor au, singer LWJ, actor WWX, social media, fluff & crack, established relationship)
Firework by Aki_no_hikari (G, 4k, wangxian, modern, idols au, bookstore, meet-cute)
live from new york by varnes (E, 87k, wangxian, JYL/JZX, This is a SNL AU, however the juniors are featured and there are lots of shenanigans!, slow burn, friends to lovers, pining, getting together, happy ending)
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6. Can I get some Recs for fics that A) have someone bringing up Lan Qiren’s hypocrisy for the rules? holding grudges, judging someone…etc.. B) Also fics where wangxian get together as teens? Either canon era or modern is fine.
6A)
save a sword, ride a socialist by sysrae (E, 33k, WangXian, Modern with Magic AU, College AU, Fake/Pretend Relationship, Single Parent WWX, Homophobia, LQR's A+ Parenting, Angst with a Happy Endin, gidiots to lovers, car seats as an expression of love, literal plot bunnies, Fluff)
found in translation by sysrae (E, 12k, NieLan, WangXian, Modern with Magic, Modern Cultivators, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Panic Attacks, my extremely justified hatred of LQR, Meddling brothers, Coming Out, Loss of Virginity, Under-negotiated Kink, slight breathplay, Light Dom/sub, Aftercare, Angst with a Happy Ending) These are modern AUs. For canon, just a heads up there is a Lan Qiren Bashing tag/Bad Parent Lan Qiren tag and Lan Sect Bashing tag that the requestor may want to check?
6B)
Straight at the Sun by diamondbruise (E, 33k, WangXian, Canon Universe, no war though, Mutual Pining, Pining while fucking, Misunderstandings, First Time, Anal Sex, Miscommunication, Jealousy, Happy Ending)
Three changes. by orange_crushed (M, 18k, WangXian, Fluff, Hijinks & Shenanigans, Cloud Recesses Study days, Cloud Recesses Shenanigans, Friends to Lovers, Romantic Comedy, Kissing, Fade to Black, Mild Sexual Content, Canon Divergence, No Sunshot No War AU, Falling In Love, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, Hurt/Comfort, Mild Blood, First Time)
Epistolary by beeswaxing (T, 7k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Different First Meeting, Fluff, Mutual Pining, Epistolary, Pre-Canon)
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7. yo know any good crack treated seriously fics
(All previous recs for this ask have been moved to the Crack Treated Seriously Compilation post, all future recs will be moved there too ^^ - Mod C)
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8. hi! first i just wanna say thank yall so much for running this, ive found so many great fics bc of yall!
A) ive been trying to find fics where wwx tells others not to use resentful energy and kinda accidentally snitches on himself in the process? or where hes just like "resentful energy is bad for you. not me tho im lacking a golden core built different"
B) also any fics where resentful energy actually makes wwx stronger (or where it can heal and that kinda thing) or where hes a ghost/undead and just passing as human are appreciated lol (ive read through most of the ghost!wwx tag on ao3, but i know not everything gets tagged so i figured it was worth asking?)
any ideas? and again, tysm and have a nice day!
8B)
Fated Series by LtLJ (G, 31k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Arranged Marriage, Post-Apocalypse, Magical Apocalypse, Hurt/Comfort, Happy Ending, Canon Diverted via Volcano, YL WWX, Badass LWJ)
death either way by thelastdboy (E, 22k, WangXian, Canon Divergence, Somebody Lives/Not Everyone Dies, Burial Mounds Settlement Days, POV Alternating, Fix-It of Sorts, Burial Mounds Ensemble as Family, Hurt/Comfort, Heavy Angst, Grief/Mourning, Not Really Character Death, But it's presumed, Protective Siblings, Angst with a Happy Ending, Blood and Injury, Injury Recovery, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better, Survivor Guilt, Scheming, Rumors, Cultivation Sect Politics, demonic cultivator WQ, Revenge, Found Family)
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9. Would love recs of any fics where the Jiang shidi that got kidnapped by the Wen while practicing archery before the fall of Lotus Pier, lives. Maybe Lotus Pier falls, maybe it doesn't. Maybe he escapes, or is ransomed, or rescued. Maybe they find him during Sunshot forced to act as a servant in a Wen war camp. Maybe they find him in a Wen prison after the war. Maybe a kind Wen smuggles him out. Etc. But the littlest Jiang shidi lives.
Sun Stained Lotus by MidnightLightHowlite (T, 70k, wangxian, YZY&WWX, good parent YZY, angst w/ happy ending, fluff, miscommunication) It's not a main focus of the fic, but for 9 the littlest shidi does survive
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10. Hi. Any recs on Mo Xuanyu-centric or Nie brothers-centric. I am on a kick on these side characters lately @umefurikake
NIE:
The Quiet Room by nirejseki (T, 38k, NMJ/LXC, JGY/LXC, NHS & NJM, LWJ & NMJ, sensory deprivation, partner betrayal, consent issues, manipulation, medical trauma, not LXC friendly, infidelity, gaslighting, mental health issues, willful blindness)
Emotional Support by nirejseki (G, 2k, NMJ & NHS, fix-it)
Once Upon A Time in Qinghe by paranoid_fridge (T, 22k, NMJ & NHS, NMJ & LXC, wangxian, post-canon fix-it, angst, humor)
MXY:
falling like feathers and cherry blossoms by silversshadow (T, 10k, MXY/XY, WWX & XY, WWX & MXY, canon divergence, reincarnation au)
Check #3 of this same post also
Pocketful of Soul by Jenrose (T, 87k, WIP, WangXian, Travel Fix-It, Time Loop, Canon Divergence, It Gets Worse Before It Gets Better, Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies, eventually, Bamf MXY, MXY Lives, Genderfluid MXY, MXY Backstory, POV MXY, Canon-Typical Self-Sacrificial Behavior, Found Family, ace MXY, Aegosexual NHS, Genius MXY Genius WWX, Not particularly JGY friendly CQL-based)
born under unlucky stars by RoseThorne (M, 1k, JZX & MXY, JZX & QS, WN & WQ, WWX & WQ, WangXian, Canonical Character Death, Ghosts, Souls, Implied/Referenced Sex, Brotherly Love, Anger, Spells & Enchantments, MXY Deserves Better, Revenge, POV MXY)
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11. Thank you so much for all your hard work!! I'm in the mood for a fic where WWX fully uses his demonic cultivation where the juniors can see. He never really shows them how destructive he can be and I bet at least part of him doesn't want to Bonus points for angst. Thank you!! @kirk-spock-in-the-impala​
green flame, black flute, red ribbon by Fleetling (T, 3k, pre-wangxian, LJY pov, BAMF WWX, people will die violently for kidnapping the babies, hurt/comfort)
Talismans by brooklinegirl (E, 10k, WangXian)
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12. hiiii! for the next in the mood for, does anyone have fics where LXC goes to LQR for advice after Guanyin temple? either as an uncle or as a teacher, or both? thanks!
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13. I'm in the mood for a fic where WWX is shy or ashamed about his body or desires for whatever reason.
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14. Hi! For the next iitmf can i get A) some good Lan Wangji/Wen Ning/ Wei WuXian fics and/or B) fics where Lan WangJi was really mean to Wei WuXian before they got together 14B fics will be added to #15 ~Mod L
14A)
Three Men and a Radish by nirejseki (G, 3k, WangXianNing, Canon Divergence, Oblivious WWX, Mutual Pining)
heartstone by deadbeatrefrain (T, 13k, WangXianNing, Post-Canon, Character Study, Pining, Developing Relationship, Anxiety, Unreliable Narrator, Physical Intimacy, acts of service, Junior Quartet, Lán Zhàn's Rabbits, Past Ningxian, Family, gift giving as a love language, Fluff, Angst, implied depression, Hurt/Comfort)
but the spring will come by ectocosme (E, 7k, WangXianNing, Post-Canon, OT3, Fluff, Smut, Threesome, Double penetration)
It's Soft by Petits Pois (letsgogetlost) (G, 1k, wangxianning, pre-poly, established wangxian, quarantine fic, autistic LWJ, anxious WN, adhd WWX)
i didn’t think it could be true (let alone that it would be you) by ryneisaterriblefan (T, 11k, NingWangXian, Mutual Pining, Cuddling & Snuggling, Texting, Drunk LWJ, drunk WN, Pining, Cafes) 
The Boat Scene in Yunmeng Definitely Counts as a Date by ChaSeuBao (T, 2k, wangxianning, canon divergence, confessions, polyamory, first date)
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15. hello ♥️ for the next in the mood for post can you give me fic recs where lwj is kinda mean to wwx at first but then he regrets it?? sorry if this is kinda weird and thank you !! 14B fics will be added on this part, too ~Mod L
Say my name and his in the same breath by ataratah (M, 38k, WangXian, Soulmates AU, Soulmate-Identifying Marks, Rejection, Mutual Pining, Found Family Feels, Temporary Character Death, magical baby aquisition, Angst with a Happy Ending, No Golden Core Transfer, Somebody Lives/Not everyone dies, Every woman lives/No woman dies)
the earthquake in the room by phnelt (E, 39k, WangXian, Modern AU, College AU, Canada, Getting Together, Mentions of lwj/others background NieLan, background WQ/MM, inter-faculty romance, Strangers to lovers to frenemies to lovers)
Honesty is the Best Policy (Except if You're an Asshole) by piecrust (E, 22k, WangXian, Modern AU, College AU, Porn with Feelings)
miscommunication)
🧡Life as a House  by Terri Botta (Isilwath) (T, 55k, WangXian, Modern AU, Post-Divorce, Father-Son Relationship, Reconciliation, Therapy, Angst with a happy ending)
Regret Blossoms by piecrust (G, 7k, wangxian, hanahaki disease)
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16. hi!! do you know any fics with CEO! lwj and secretary wwx (or even just employee wwx) thank you !! <3
Beautiful mess, a colourful wreck by covalentbonds (Not rated, 12k, wangxian, rule 63, fluff & humor, mild smut, childhood friends, first meetings, evil vending machines)
Work-Life Balance is Not A Thing by catbrainedschemes (E, 17k, wangxian, modern, romantic comedy, oblivious wangxian, eventual smut)
Special Delivery by agustdreams (T, 8k, WIP, WangXian, Modern AU, Rich LWJ, Office AU, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Bickering, Family Drama, Dysfunctional Family, Awkward Flirting, WWX is a little shit, Mail delivery clerk WWX)
Wangxian Corporation by Galexyi (M, 91k, WIP, WangXian, Modern AU, Office AU, Fluff, Romance, Domestic Fluff, Mutual Pining, Getting Together)
Hello, IT. Have You Tried Turning It Off and On Again? by overmountainandmeadow (T, 65k, wangxian, modern, office au, mutual pining, slow burn, mistaken identity)
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Thank you everyone for all the recs!
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ghouljams · 3 months
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heyyyy, ive a question ghoul.
when you mention knowing and planing things for your aus do you mean responsibly writting down ideas and ordering what is what according to the story and when its getting posted, and saving it somewhere like a proper adult.
or are you like me who metally just files through things before bed and if i forgot then oops?
id love to know! (if you do havw some sort of system please let me know im in desprate need of organisation and idek how to even start)
thank youuuuu
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I have a mental filing system that I catalog everything in. All the general story beats are in my brain, but if I want to think about specifics I write them down in one of the many many documents I have on my Google drive. I find I'm good at remembering the big beats and not so good at remembering specifics.
I do have a few outline documents that I go back to and work on when the mood hits me, but generally I tend to hop around so I have big anthology documents where every fic pairing lives. That way I at least can sort of find things when I remember them. I am not, uh, good at being an adult writer here. It's all pretty slapshod behind the scenes at ghoul hq.
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maledictuspueri · 1 year
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KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER.
name: Tricky
pronouns: She/Her
preference of communication: Discord for mutuals since tumblr IMs are broken as hell
name of muse(s): Volo
other muse(s): Raihan over @dracdminus and SV Protag OC over @coccineum
experience/how long (months/years?): 11 years roughly
platforms you’ve used: Deviantart, forums and Tumblr
best experience: Def my first few weeks on tumblr rp actually. I owe a lot of my best memories and motivation to stick with writting esp on tumblr to my friend @heartsurpluss who was the first tumblr RP friend I made. If it hadn't been for them convicing me to start my Noctis blog back in the day I dont think I'd be here now tbeh. Tied for meeting Soda @intcrpol over in the MHA rpc
rp pet peeves/deal breakers: I think...grammar and spelling, my own isnt great but I have a really harm time reading certain levels of grammar and spelling issues, overpowered mary-sue type ocs without even an attempt at justification. It doesn;t have to be the most thought out reasons but like...give them some depth yknow?
fluff, angst or smut: All of the above, but in order of priortiy...fluff and angst are tied, smut isnt high on my life of "I absolutely want to write that rn", mostly because I think im just Bad at writting it lmao. So don;t expect much smut from me, esp on the blog. Horny thoughts and exsessive flirting? sure
plots or memes: Memes are a better way to get to know someone, but I do love plots and long-term threads
long or short replies: Whatever suits the mood!
best time to write: Sporadic. Your best chance is to offer to write something with me just after getting me off on a tangent abt something w our muses ooc
are you like your muse(s): Mm, not really, as far as I'd say. At a push, perhapes some similarity with out levels of curiosity
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lovelunar21 · 1 year
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Hello Cherry is here Who is excited for Halloween and L's birthday i have some good news regarding my wattpad account future writting status aka what im planning to write next If you have any suggestions for books Just remember please no smut or 18+
I might start working on new chapters for my L oneshots book plus more books 1 book specially decidated for This adorable birthday boy and a halloween special aswell Im in the mood to start writting again
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coming to be a nuisance in ur inbox again because this wip just hit 8k words and i STILL have the big climactic bit left to write and im in that stage of writing where ive started at my fic too long so now im like "?? what are this gross nasty dusty old words?" kdfhjgl
good work organizing your masterlist! that's always such a chore skdhfhfdg. plus i found that really cool wing kink thing you wrote for luci and i have a luci fan friend who is huge into any kind of fic about his wings and loves sub!luci hehe~
i find it challenging to write about the demon's inhuman features sometimes, and it was great reading through lucifer's sensations during the experience. loved that one!
also while i am desperately avoiding my wips i will remark that p much nobody writes the kind of extreme kinks i get excited about XD liz's pet au and their writing in general is a pretty good example.
i'm into horror/gore as well, too, so skdhfgldhfg i'm used to my kinks being offputting to people. i have written a bit abt,, demon culture,, and gore-themed romance between demons bc sdkhfglh HEY IF IT GROWS BACK,, i do think i even mentioned detachable dicks to u so u probs know some of that sdkhfglkh
okay ty for listening i go back to my wip now
HEY! Your never a nuisance in my inbox!! I love getting your asks!!
Gosh if that is not a wip mood lol. I think I have like... at least two or three current wips that I want to finish that are Long and keep getting too disacted to finish lol. I think one of the main reasons why my Mini Fic section is so big in my masterlist is because I work best with short, a few paragraphs at most, ideas or ease I loose steam lol. It's bad for writting but it does mean I come up with a lot of ideas at least?
I'm glad you liked the Luci wing kink stuff!! One of the reasons why I really wanted to update my masterlist is because I didn't think a lot of people were seeing some my works I posted at weird times lol. I hope your friend enjoys the post! Gosh I love Lucifer with bird instincts I really want to do more with it lol. Is it technically pregnancy kink if Lucifer is being broody about eggs lol? French fries has lowkey got me into pregnancy kink, but I don't actually like the more technically issues with pregnancy, so now I'm just imagining what a broody Luci would be like lol.
I totally understand not really knowing how to write about the demon's more inhuman features. Quite a few of them don't really have an animal associated with them and more just has random horns or stuff. I only really Lucifer easier to write because Bird.
Also...yeahi totally get the thing about having hard kinks lol. I don't think my kinks are hard, like gore or anything like that (although I do enjoy a good *written* gore post some times, depands on how it's written. I went crazy about your demon courting post that was top notch. I absolutely love the idea that demons have a different culture than humans.) I just think one of my kinks are more....weirder. Like, full confession time, I got some of my kinks from hentai manga. This was mainly because I didn't like real life porn and tumblr smut was full of written fics about real people. So i really only had Ao3. So I'm not really surprised that a lot of stuff I find hot I see no contact for lol. I do have one of my more, Weirder kinks content queued up so look forward to seeing that soon I guess?? I'm trying to face my fear and be more relaxed about the content the put out there.
Good luck on your wip!! :D
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napofamoon · 7 months
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Hiii!! It’s 🤓 anonie. It’s been a long time since i last texted you. I just wanted to know if i make you undomfortable, because i feel like i am and i feel so bad for this. If i do, i want to say im so so so sorry, and i will stop interacting with your blog because i don’t want you to feel wrong because of me.
Hope you can keep on writting and getting even better.
I’ll wait for your rsponse and if the answer is yes, i will leave your anonie list.
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no youre okay dont worry! i have like uh.. 50+ asks right now??? and im kind of not in a mood where asks are motivating me to write so i apologize if i havent answered anything. its also possible i did delete some asks only because i just didnt know how to answer them 😭 but feel free to continue sending in asks. if it gets too much ill let you know
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cybernightwanderer · 1 year
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The feeling of being held hostage emotionally.
So all that dishwashing shit happend this morning, im not feeling well. Im sending cv's again , trying to distract myself and find a way out. Its 14 pm, i sent about 30 to anything and everything that i can think off, including some restaurants ... wich will probably cause a chain reaction and ill just jump on the train lane or something. Wich is not bad tbh. So begining the morning until now, my suicide tendancies are spiking. in the morning she ordered me to do a quiche for lunch.. the dough wasnt unfrozen yet, but im sitting here, i wanna watch a movie or smthing to distract myself a bit from my thoughs, and i cant, because i know as soon as i start, she will burst in here mad ordering me to make the quiche. I get up and got to the kitchen, again a lot of dishes in the sink somehow... I noticed she "washed" the orange juice maker and i say with the " because its all dirty with pieces of orange still attached.... I washed the new found dishes in the dirty water, and i proceed to make the "mixed egg" quiche, wich is not really a quiche if you do 4 eggs for a medium size frame, but thats how she likes to do it, and if i saw otherwise she will go mad. I ask her what she wants in it, she tells me to put whatever vegetables i feel like, i ask again and she repeats her awnser ( get ready ), i ask how many eggs she wants , she says 4, i ask again, she confirms 4 only. I do the quich, the 4 eggs again.. and as usual are not enough, i tell her i dont think the eggs are enough, she starts getting mad, she comes over, looks at the quiche and starts yelling " where are the eggs " and i tell her, they are inside the quiche, she then asks why i put these vegetables, i told her " you told me to use the ones of my choosing ", she goes on a rant about how i couldve used others , i used pepper, onion, and thats pretty much what fits in the fucking quiche, specially with the 4 eggs. There was a 5th egg missing, she asks why i didnt put that one, and i told her " well you always complain whenever i ask you to put more or if i tell you 4 is not enought " , she goes on ranting about how i am in a bad mood and how its impossible to talk to me , i tell her " well you shouldnt have screamed at me early morning , i didnt even get a chanse to eat breakfast " , she goes on ranting " i didnt yell " ... Then continues to rant about the eggs and why i didnt put the last one, i again tell her beacause she always complains if i put more... The proceeds to say and i quote " its impossible to speak to you ", i repeat this back and her and ask her " impossible to speak to me ? " you yelled at me this morning non stop and you are again. And she goes " i didnt say that ", and i ask her " what didnt you say?" She goes " i didnt say it was impossible to speak to you " ... and i start repeating over and over again " you did just now " And she dismisses the conversation again with " i didnt say that, why didnt you put the last egg in?? why only these vegetables ", at this point im getting really angry... She then goes " why are you doing the quiche wrong on purpose " and i tell her, im doing exacly as you told me and exacly as you always fucking tell me to make it... ________ Im not even gonna continue this post, coz this went on for a few minutes until i completly gave up and just said " ok ok ".
Now im sitting in this chair trying to contain the anger of breaking something or punching myself in the face in rage, so im just writting here in hopes that i dont do anything.
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personalview · 1 year
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Hi
so hi, i dont know how this works(and if anyone will see it) because i was always damn scared for this app but here i am. 11/23 well today was quite an okay day? at school i did nothing interesting. only in history we were writting an essay so it wasnt that bad. some boy in my class was telling me really weird things("hi female mammals" or "uu i like you"). i dont know what to think about it, hes okay to me so i wont say anything. after i spend some time in Mc'Donalds with my school friends and after i walked one girl home. also i got new hoodie(i ordered it at the start of october"). its cool:) from the bad things, my phone cracked in some way?? its like invisible hand is touching your screen. i still can phone and write messages but i wont be able to do anything fun. i dont want my mum to buy it for me bc we are already broke so i thing i will just start some of my diary? yea. tommorow will be my 15 birthday. i dont know in which mood i will wake up but it will go eventually. one minus - p.e. you know, im not an sporty type and when it comes to do ANYTHING i just cant break myself. when i was younger and did nothing, my team would be mad at me, which is fair enough. but when i was trying and messed up something they just laughed. so i dont know. i wont admit it but without the music i dont know if i can handle school bus. i live in village now so im far from school(i drive 40 minutes). my only form of communication is bus, old and rockety. and that will be all. i want to watch something but i literally got bored after two seconds. im kinda tired but not that sad. day rate: 6/10
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sunlitmcgee · 2 years
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Hi, im sorry if this ask is a bit weird but i just began writting a rewrite of the dsmp and its my first time writing any sort of fanfic like ever so i wondered if you could maybe give me some writing advice. Maybe on how to stay focused and motivated on writing or how to know if im portraying the characters right
UM. okay. Not exactly sure how qualified I of all the fuckers is to answer this.
When it comes to motivation and focus, I just write whenever I feel like it. When I'm in the mood. When I get into a specific vibe for whatever scene it is that I'm tryna create. IDK how exactly to word it, but just...wait until you feel? like sitting down? to write?
as for characterization, I just go with however I see the character in question and apply those feelings/thoughts to the page. I see c!Tommy as a very sweet boy who acts out but has a gentle heart underneath. I see c!Ranboo as a chill dude who gets stressed easily but is a gentle soul who always wants to be what his loved ones need. C!Tubbo is c!Tubbo, blessed he be. And yeah. I just. Write them,,,,,however it is that I see them! If that makes any sense.
I can't really tell you how to write a fic. I'm still figuring it out myself.
Sorry this was a terrible, terrible explanation :")
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toaster-hair · 2 years
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i think its kind of sad that nowadays stories are good or bad not by how theyre written, but by a few problematic elements. like yeah, we should be more critical of the media we consume instead of taking the stories at face value, but ive also seen some genuinely well written stories getting trashed on because of a few choice elements. 
take CLAMP’s CardCaptor Sakura, for example. i personally think the writting is pretty good, plots good (even tho a few episodes arent available on the site im using to watch it...... ugh), art is amazing, and the songs are all fucking bangers. but.... yeah. elephant in the room being how much.. uhm. “large age gap close relationships” there are in the show. very uncomfy. but other than that, theres nothing really wrong with it (and before anyones says anything, japan has a different standard for incest, so there definitely isnt any kind of incestuous intentions. is just a lil suspicious >_>) but ive seen people trash an insta user for having “clamp” in their username, calling it a red flag and what not. 
another example being Ouran HighSchool Host Club, a pretty good shoujo manga/anime with a interesting premise, funny humor, and a very beloved 2010s anime art style and mood. but... it definitely has a transphobia issue, which as a trans fan, does hurt. but its a very minor issue. that doesnt seem to stop people from absolutely ripping into the show, tho.
i know the examples ive given are pretty small in comparison to some other pieces of media, and ive used anime primarily as an example sense anime commonly has more problematic aspects in it and ive seen it get trashed on more. im not too sure where im really going with this, but it just. sucks to see such works be thrown in the bin despite their quality. it certainly feels like people can only see shows as either “good” or “bad”. i know i cant make people give the stuff they trash an actual chance, but thats not gonna stop me from complaining about it.  sorry if i worded anything strangley 
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hot-mic-imagines · 2 years
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Spicy request playlist?
Sorry for taking long in writting, my intership is sucking all my brains energy.
But since I want to engage with you and music is a big inspiration and mood setting for me, I need to ask you...
What are some spicy songs you know?
Like, to set the mood or songs that reminds you of one of the boys (or girls) in a spicy way??
Im putting together a playlist to help, and would love suggestions ❤
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nicotinemaiden · 3 years
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Victory
[Infinite Songs for her Smile - Ch.18]
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And I walked down the stairs Meeting the eyes Of a woman who is not for me But she's calm and she's sweet And she's struck and imposing Her name is pronounced Victory And her wings have been tied on with ribbons And the torch that she carries is dark But she sheds her disguise when she follows my eyes
[The Silent Comedy]
The noise. The voices. They were almost unbearable, piercing through his skull like an arrow, numbing his vision. His whole body ached, all of his senses were dull, as if something blocked them. He sighed allowing his head to rest on the wall behind him and wondering, exactly, what was he doing here. He promised her he would not run, he would not disappear. Not from her. But every second surrounded by happy people celebrating one of the worst days of his life he was more and more tempted to break that promise.
 The hall was decorated in white and blue for some reason, colors that were so far away from the ones he thought of when he thought of her that it scared him. The lights were bright, bleached of color, as if they wanted to make sure it didn’t interfere with the ones that were already there. On the tables, little candles cast small lights on the food - a really bad decision if you asked him, but nobody did.
Everything about this place made him want to close his eyes and only open them when this was over. All of this.
This party was planned months ago, long before Zen started bringing Shirayuki to planned balls as his official partner. A day after he started mourning a love that should have never been alive in the first place. Everything changed that day. Surprising even himself he was… happy for them. He just struggled to simply watch this situation from the sidelines.
That night he was ready. He just knocked on her door to say goodbye. He knew he wouldn’t forgive himself if he left without saying anything. But she opened the door and looked at him, really looked at him, at his eyes, at the way his jaw and shoulder tensed, and somehow she knew. And he looked at her, at her eyes - red and puffy - and at her sad smile, and somehow he also knew.  
They spoke at the same time, locking eyes without any kind of shame.  
“Please, don’t go.” She said, a gasp escaping her lips at the desperate sound of her own voice.  
 “I’m here for you. I’ll always be.” He said, breaking his own heart a little more in the process with a promise he needed to keep but wasn’t sure he could.
From that night until today he kept his promise, never wanting to ask what she was crying over. Obi dared a glance in her direction, the throne a huge contrast with the warmth of her smile. He couldn’t help but think she didn’t belong here, surrounded by marble and people. She belonged in the forest, surrounded by plants and birds. But he never allowed himself to tell her so, not even when the shadows in her eyes started to creep under her smile. Not even when she talked about her fear of never working at the pharmacy again after her marriage. He trusted his master to come with a plan to have the princess working alongside the commoners because that’s what she wanted. But Zen never talked about it and her fear soon consumed him too.
Soon he wouldn’t be needed and, even if he wanted, he couldn’t keep his promise. Yes, a part of him knew Zen would never send him away. He wasn’t just his master, he was also his friend. But everyone would go on with their life. Could he really watch them have and raise their kids? Could he really just watch them be happy and not think about how the only woman she loved was the one that was so out of his reach everything inside of him ached?
He ran his hands down his hair, lost in thought. He needed air and he needed it now. He crossed the small walk to reach the garden door and was greeted by a fresh almost-spring current. Once outside he breathed deeply and walked a bit to stand between the flowers. From here he couldn’t watch the hall and the people inside couldn’t watch him. That thought alone was more freeing than the act of coming outside had been.
He always knew this day would come. Not the engagement party, more like the day he had to convince himself that this stupid infatuation was something that no one needed. Not his master, not the little miss and, less of all, not him. But the only way he could try to put all of this in the past was by leaving, and that… that wasn’t happening any time soon. Not after he heard her almost pleading him.
He heard something behind him and turned just in time to reach a falling Shirayuki that, for the look of it, just stomped on her dress. She wasn’t even near the floor but he asked anyway, knowing exactly what he was asking. This was her party. Their party. And she just found her way outside, to him, as it happened in almost every party since the first one.
“Miss, are you okay?”
She looked shocked for a moment and then she stood straighter, her arm lingering on his hand more than necessary.
“Yes, I’m just not so graceful.”
Obi chuckled without thinking. Dropping the subject for the moment, he added.
“Yeah, I know.”
She glanced at him with an expression that said ‘oh, really?’ and chuckled herself.
“You know, that's the part when the other person usually says ‘No, don’t worry, it was just a slip’”
Now it was his turn to look at her with an arching brow and a questioning look.
“I don’t lie. You just had too much time with nobles and royalty, Miss.”
Her smile turned sweet as she moved to one of the trees of the garden, him on her toes.
“I love that about you. The way you make everything so simple. No facades, no masks, no pretenses or false friendship. I miss that.”
Standing in front of her like this made him forget that, besides the times they actively sought each other, they’d been apart most of the time lately. Between preparations, etiquette and protocol classes and all the things that seemed required to become a princess, she was busy most of the time. And of course, he wasn’t exactly welcome on most of them. Not like she needed a guard inside the castle.
“I miss you too.”
She smiled and her eyes sparkled. Without a warning she sat down, not without tugging him with her on the way. She made him sit at her side and rested her head on his shoulder.
“There, that’s better.”
No, it was so much worse he thought he would start trembling. He crossed his arms on his chest just in case and leaned on the tree behind them.
“I wish I could sneak to your room and... talk. I… I’m so scared.”
She sighed and he noticed not only her words but her tone. She wasn’t just scared of the unknown. There was a sadness in her voice, a longing that tore his heart apart.
Deciding that even if his arm trembled it was worth it he unhooked it from his chest and moved it to Shirayuki’s shoulders, bringing her closer. The instant it was done she hid her face between his chest and his neck. This was not the first time they’d had this conversation and he was sure it wouldn’t be the last. Maybe this time he should really say something. Not about him. About her.
He tugged a strand of her hair behind her ear, following the lines of the intricate hairstyle they put on her tonight. The braids formed a bun at the end and it was truly a mystery how these ones got out. Probably because she kept touching it, trying to calm her nerves. Usually, she wore the ribbon he and Ryuu had gotten her some time ago but there was no place for it on her hair right now. So she wore it on her wrist as if it were a bracelet. He couldn’t help but smile. The dark green ribbon stood out with the violet of her dress but that didn’t stop her. She once told him that it was the only thing that seemed real in a world made of plastic, the only thing that kept her grounded.
“How can something that’s supposed to feel right feel so wrong?”
He inhaled sharply. It made him sick watching her like this. And definitely, it shouldn’t feel wrong for her. He was tired of these kinds of conversations. He was tired of the shadows on her eyes, of the strain in her voice.
“You don’t belong there. And I don’t mean that in a bad way. Those people, they… they are stripping you of your freedom, of your braveness, of your wilderness. Nobody should have allowed this to happen.”
She moved just enough to look at him from her position, a small smile dangling on her lips.
“This as in suddenly having to become what they expect a princess to be or this as in my engagement to Zen?”
Her smile turned playful and he looked at her eyes, realizing how close they were. He could feel her breath in his lips, warm and sweet. He could almost taste strawberries. He bit his lip without thinking and watched her turn a shade closer to her hair. He was so tempted to just say ‘Both’ and not explain anything more that it almost escaped.
“You know what I mean. Your engagement to master is your decision, not something anyone could forbid. Not after what the both of you endured.”
He could swear he saw a flash of disappointment on her, but it passed so quickly it was hard to know for sure. But then she made a confession that sucked the air from his lungs.
“I don’t know Obi. I don’t know if I can. I already feel like a doll whose only purpose is to decorate the room. And I thought I could do it… for Zen. That I loved him enough to do it.”
The weight that her words carried made him hug her a little closer if possible. He just needed to feel her while she talked.
“I… I don’t. I care about him. A lot. But it's not the same. I can’t believe I’m saying this out loud after all this time but I regret it. I regret saying that yes more than anything in this world.”
A loud silence fell between them. It was so heavy it made it hard to breathe. He knew he should say something but, really, what could he say? A hopeful question formed on his throat.
“Can’t you say no?”
She searched his eyes for something and, even with his defenses as high as they could be at that moment he felt naked in front of her. As if she would realize exactly how he was looking at her, how pleading his words really were. And her… that look in her eyes. He may be going crazy. His lips moved before he could control them but he had enough control to look away.
“I could always snitch you from here. Make a house in the woods, surrounded by flowers, maybe some crops. With a little village outside the forest, maybe a beach? Do you prefer the mountain?”
He expected her to be laughing, to alleviate some of the stiffness of her expression. Instead, she was looking at him eyes wide, a little spark on them, hope and something more. He hated himself for looking at her again because they were even closer than before. Her confused look asked without words if he was serious.
“I may joke around Miss, but if you asked me I would do everything I just told you.”
And that felt like giving her another piece of her soul, of her heart. But what was there to lose when she already claimed all of it. She just didn’t know it. And at that point he didn’t care if she could read behind his words, he was just too tired of this situation.
For a moment she looked so stiff and still that she reminded him of a statue. He wondered if he should check whether she was still breathing when she blinked, looking down.
 “I wish I could ask something like that of you.”
She said it so quietly he might as well have imagined it. But he heard it the same way he could hear his heart crying for her.
His hand moved slowly, his finger lifting her chin so he could look her in the eyes. Those wonderful green eyes that glowed the moment they collided with his, as if his own golden ones were illuminating them. How could something so completely beautiful be real was one question he kept asking himself day after day.
“You could ask of me the most selfish, stupid or dangerous thing you could think of and I would do it if it means I’ll get to see you smile.”
And she knew it. She knew it and she smiled, granting a small prize to those difficult words. His fingers lingered on her chin, his gaze dropping near them, to the fully rosy lips that were no longer curved upwards but half-open, waiting. His thumb moved to them, to the lower one, caressing it for a moment before allowing his eyes to flicker to hers just in time to see the way she was looking at him. And he felt scared because of the immense recognition, because that was the way he looked at her when she wasn’t looking, because he wasn’t so naive as to think the position they were in was something casual that usually happened to friends and, most of all, because she wanted exactly the same as him. And he was closer after that. So much so their lips touched for a second before a blinding light interrupted them, making them jump apart from each other.
The quiet flutter of wings and the soft light moved away, following a trail of other lights, other small fireflies flying gracefully towards the forest. Once they were far away again he let himself breathe, smiling when her head fell on his shoulder again. They found themselves in these kinds of situations more often than not and, like every time, he could slice the tension between them with one of his knives. And, like every time, he was grateful for the interruption because, if he really were to kiss her here and now he couldn’t go back. So he kissed the top of her head with as much care as he could muster and, like every other time, he let her go.
She stood slowly, leaving him pained by her absence, and fixed her hair and dress enough to go back in. He followed, stretching his back and arms as best as he could. She smiled brightly at him, full of energy and happiness, such a high contrast with the Shirayuki that followed him into the garden not so long ago. Something in her eyes was full of gratitude and he couldn’t exactly place what he did to deserve it but he returned her smile with one of his own.
“I should go, but…”
Her hand moved to his, their fingers interlacing, her thumb moving in slow circles at the top of his hand. He searched her eyes but found them looking at the grass below their feet.
“I would want a log cabin on the mountains, near a lake with lots of flowers and fireflies.”
She was redder by the word and it would have been extremely cute if it weren’t for the fact that he could feel on his face that he was too. And the grip of her hand was tightening as if he would run from her when he listened to what she had to say. So he squeezed back, making her look at him and blurt out what she was really thinking.
“And with you.”
There was a stunned silence from both parts from what felt like an eternity. She lifted her other hand to her lips, astounded that those words really left her lips. He stared at her the same way, eyes wide, a thin line on his lips. He wanted to ask if she was just joking but, by her looks, he could clearly see that it was true. And that not even her knew how deep that truth was.
So he untangled his fingers from hers, feeling awful at the look of disappointment on those green orbs that chased his dreams, and surrounded her body with his arms, bringing his nose to her hair, hiding his face. If he continued to look at her another second he would have started crying, he was sure of it. And she answered immediately, one arm surrounding him and the other playing with his hair in a motion that made him want to know how those same fingers in that same spot would feel in other kinds of situations. Obi enjoyed the feeling for a minute, letting himself get lost in her touch, and then lifted his head to look at her.
“Now I don’t want to let you go.”
She chuckled at his words, her hand still entangled on his hair, making small and hypnotic circular movements.
“Just for a little bit?”
His arms loosened until only the hand at his waist remained, its shape moulded to her body.
“And then what?”
He had to know. He needed to know what happened now with all the things said and all the things that remained to be.
“And then… We could talk about the furniture.”
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