#but if I can't ramble on Tumblr where can I ramble

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

oh nO i just got hit by the new layout

ITS SO UGLY?? IT LOOKS LIKE TWITTER BUT WORSE?? BRING BACK MY OLD DASHBOARD PLEASE?? WHAT IS THIS??? This actively makes me want to avoid going on to tumblr y i k e s

@staff where can i leave feedback to get this changed back ASAP?

Edit: LEAVE FEEDBACK. please check reblogs for information on how to send feedback to tumblr. Be respectful when you send it or your feedback may be ignored, but let them know you don't like it by officially sending them feedback. If they get enough people telling them we don't like this new update, we might be able to get them to roll it right back where it came from.

#knox rambles #I actually hate this #it looks like twitter #tumblr STOP WE ALL HATE TWITTER HERE WHAT ARE YOU DOING #it hurts my eyes what the heck #in case staff doesn't answer do any of you know where to leave feedback for this? I need this gone #this can't be my new desktop i will actually stop opening tumblr #y'all if you don't like this either find where you can leave feedback and leave it saying you like the previous desktop cause this one is #awful #tumblr updates #tumblr feedback #tumblr desktop update

[arklay]

RESIDENT EVIL → THE WESKER FAMILY

To the public, little is known of the families behind some of the world’s most renowned bioterrorists, but the question remains: did they play a role in causing their children to walk down the path that they did? Or are these individuals simply ambitious criminals with delusions of grandeur?

For Diana Wesker (née Afanasyeva), her introduction into the bioweapons black market trade was upon discovering her employers were using her research into limb regeneration with salamanders to further their experiments in creating enhanced soldiers, instead of developing human therapies with which she was recruited for. Although the prospect of using biological weapons in the military did not appeal to her, the concept remained fascinating for her own selfish endeavours. Born on the 27th of October, 1963 in Sydney, Australia to Russian immigrant parents, Diana had harsh expectations placed upon her at a young age, ones that no matter how hard she tried she could never live up to. Her mother, Tatyana, was an unfeeling woman, absent for long stretches of time with little regard to how it affected her daughters, much more concerned with her craft as an accomplished opera singer. Viktor was no better. A strict man whose role as father and ballet master blurred, he pushed his girls to one day follow in his footsteps. Whilst Sofia enjoyed ballet, and went on to become a professional ballet dancer, Diana’s heart was set on going into the field of biology. She wished to make a name for herself, separate from her family – to which she succeeded.

Diana was married to former U.S. Marine, Dave Monroe, for only a year until he was declared dead in 1992 after succumbing to injuries sustained in a horrific car accident. Foul play was ruled out while Diana played the role of the grief-stricken widow, but in reality, she had snapped after years of mistreatment at her husband’s hands, and opted for something she could pass off as an accident to be free of him. For years she believed he was dead – and he was, legally – but that proved to not be the case when he found his way back into her life again in 1999. Unbeknownst to her, she had been lied to by the police and coroner, who were paid off by her employers when they took Dave’s body for themselves and used him as one of their first test subjects in developing supersoldiers. Before he could ever hurt her again, Diana’s second husband, Albert Wesker, tracked the man down, captured him and tortured him, before allowing Diana to get her violent and bloody revenge.

The origins of Albert Wesker’s involvement in bioterrorism, alongside his twin sister, Alex, are much different than that of Diana’s. The two hail from London, Canada, but unfortunately, they hold no memories of their lives there, nor what happened to their biological parents when they were eight years old. Agents of Oswell E. Spencer, an aristocratic billionaire and eugenicist, took the twins from their home and executed their parents as per Spencer’s orders. Albert and Alex were then placed in a home funded by the Spencer Foundation where they were given new names and a privileged upbringing. They had access to the best education possible, free to pursue whichever field they decided, but it was by no accident they both went into virology and bioengineering; at home, their adoptive parents – agents whom they believed to be their real parents – instilled them with the beliefs of Oswell E. Spencer, harbouring disdain for war and pestilence, and believing humans to be an evolutionary dead-end in need of a rebirth. They were only two of the hundreds of children “adopted” as part of what is known as Project W, a plan intended to develop an advanced race of human beings. The most promising candidates were headhunted by Umbrella Pharmaceuticals, the twins amongst them, where they went on to create bioweapons for the company founded by none other than the man who had handpicked them for his plan. The final stage of this was to infect the thirteen Spencer saw fit, however, only two survived; Albert received the intended effects, now possessing superhuman abilities, however, Alex was only offered more time to live due to her terminal degenerative illness.

In the summer of 1995, Diana was working undercover within Umbrella to gather development data on their projects for her company. Here, she had a chance encounter with Albert, an intelligence officer at the time, which permanently altered the course of her life. The two were never seen far from one another’s side, marrying in 1998, and they went on to become notorious in the bioweapons industry. The development of the Uroboros virus was where things took a turn for the worst. Although Diana’s infection was successful and she bore abilities that rivalled her husband’s, the plan itself did not succeed as they had hoped, and almost cost Albert his life at the hands of his former subordinates.

Now, they work within the shadows, with Diana declared missing and Albert believed to be dead. Their legacy, however, lives on with the mark they left on the world. As visionaries in their field, they influenced bioterror attacks carried out by countless individuals and organisations. In turn, they also inspired others to fight against such atrocities. One such person happens to be Albert’s son from a former relationship, Jake Müller, whose existence he was unaware of.

#mine. #oc: diana #pair: ewskers #click for better quality cause it's large & tumblr ate it ♡ #hii so happy birthday diana !! queen is 60 today :] #um. there's no template cause i made this from scratch...i couldn't find any i was vibing with so i was like you know what lmaoo #i'm sorry for the essay...it was meant to be just a short rundown of the family but well...that happened. typical leah fashion... #oh and guys. did you know that there's a limit to the amount you can put in one blockquote? that's why the rest is just left like that caus #i didn't like how it looked with a blockquote each paragraph...cause the spaces between were unever. you understand 😔 #with the tree i was also going to include weskids adoptive parents but i couldn't figure out how to arrange it all & make it look nice !! #cause i also wanted to have spencer in there as well cause he's a big reason why the weskids are the way they are...was maybe gonna include #sherry as well. like connected to jake (hehe) and then do her parents too but that would've made things so wide & it's already big enough #yes. i hc that albert & alex are biological twins. just for clarification there :] i don't think i added anything else that isn't canon or #implied with canon. cause the weskids were put in homes (or at least whatever ''controlled environments'' means) where they were monitored #by umbrella but were unaware of it. so yeah. i don't think i really changed much there !! #honestly i could've kept rambling cause there's alex's whole situation. there's my lore with jake's mum. there's way more with the ewskers #but it's already so long & i can't be concise so there's that lmaoo oh also diana's grandma. so much stuff #also meant to say the weskids birthday in that ramble. it's january 15 1960 :] they are capricorn sun leo moons but alex was born earlier s #their rising signs are albert is a scorpio rising & alex is a libra rising !! #had to redo the image cause typo on diana's birth year for some reason lmao so if that messed up the formatting i will sob

[apfelhalm]

How the fuck do you make friends in a new fandom if you don't already know someone

#tess is rambling #i hate discord servers #either you can't find them or they're dead or not what you're looking for #tumblr communities when #i need places where my introvert ass can connect

[astrxealis]

dear gods i adore horror tbh but i am way too sensitive to it

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #idk how to describe 'sensitive' rn i'm dying in the head i should be asleep but Man!!!!! #i search up tons of horror stuff for funsies. movies uhh creepypastas stories real life events etc. fun! #BUT it freaks me out wayyy too much. bcs i really don't deal well w Those feelings of paranoia. #my imagination too good i was scared at night going to sleep bcs i'd imagine what to do if an intruder came in from the bedroom door #or bathroom door and think of how i'd escape Death......... #Did Not Help my area before was kinda yk. chillax. chillax meaning grassy tree-sy backyard overgrown trees #old-ish in a filipino chill neighborhood that isn't very fancy ?????? idk. #and the fact one time my dad almost died and someone standing close to him Did die so. haha. traumatized from that. #I WASN'T THERE..... but i rmbr my dad coming home and the news absolutely terrified me. anyway! #wow... rambling on tumblr at 3 and a half am... Nostalgic. #anyway yeah i love love love horror stuff but i am !!! so bad w them !!! like jesus christ i adore resident evil and bloodborne #is my whole bloodline. or something. but i can't even watch my twin kill 1 zombie in a re game Demo (she can't do it either) #and i can only make it to killing the first monster in bloodborne and explore a tiny bit where there are still no enemies. god. #AAAGGGGHHHhhhh ... and the first point of horror in omori then i stop playing for months...... even tho i rlly wna play more :(( #2024 ........ cmon... i will try to overcome my fears more. #i've improved somewhat at least! ...from when i was younger. like. man. i could never stay in night-time in games ever. #ffxv? nah i always have to travel at morning. only when i got strong enough that daemons were nothing to me did i stop #getting scared. ouuughhh... and i always try to be stealthy in games........... for many reasons ofc but 1. Scared #okay i shut up now. apollo rambles of tonight: done and over!

[enigma-absolute]

pspspsps trigun mutuals (and fandom) come get your little guy juice

fun facts: he was the result of an impromptu doodle trade between me and @spacekrakens and was directly inspired by this tumblr-delighted meme from theshitpostcalligrapher (and in fact, i tried to recreate it with plushie vash here but to little success)

(Also I have icon commissions open on ko-fi if anyone is ever interested hee hoo)

#trigun #trigun stampede #vash the stampede #digital artists #artists on tumblr #first i get an easter-designated trigun dream and then a convention each for the both of us later #we end up talking about a Trigun-Blue's Clues crossover where the end result is Vash learning to skidoo and also falling in love with Blue #bc 1. cute puppy :D and 2. interdimensionally-travelling dog do be teaching about more peaceful solutions (feat Steve glaring at Wolfwood #who is TRYING not to swear) and also Vash learning to skidoo means he can get the drop on Knives #what's next? me actually watching stampede? jk jk... (no. i can't 'unless' this. uni research won't allow it in my brain) #however. that plushie is genuinely cute as hell and i actually might want one. for the little guy #my creations #chris rambles

[melodyofthevoid]

for no reason in particular, do you or anyone you know pose a serious threat to residents inside the US?

What are you a cop?

#genuinely what #melody rambles #do you get actual answers on that one often? #like 'yes anon my friends do commit grave crimes against the state' #'allow me to just state that on my Tumblr blog where I reblog my silly gay people' #like I'm sorry this makes no sense on every level #truly unhinged #your honor as you can see here the defendant clearly stated on their blog that they do pose a threat also they reblogged memes about caesar #so they should be locked up for life #god I can't get over this #doing important work at the CIA I'm sure

[eggmeralda]

why do I have to like artists with names that are practically unsearchable

#i'm listening to sadness and like i wanna see if there's any posts about him but i can't just search Sadness on tumblr #also back in the day when i'd want to find a really specific thing about the who but google would automatically just focus on the #significant words. which obviously didn't include the. or who. so there was nothing #the day i realised you can search for specific phrases in speech marks actually changed my 15yo self's life #and when i wanted to look through the pogues tag on here and it was all just outer banks stuff #I've never even seen outer banks who are these people where are my friends the pogues #tag ramblings that make me want to go listen to the pogues brb #ramble

[stormyoceans]

People who want you to shut up about vice versa better know I'll be under their beds with a knife 🔪. (kidding) (maybe not)

SFJKSGFKSGDJSGFJSKFG THAT'S VERY SWEET OF YOU ANON BUT THAT'S NOT NECESSARY

this is actually all part of my master plan because, see, if they want to buy my silence then they're gonna have to watch the show. if they do watch the show, then maybe they're gonna fall in love with it. if they fall in love with it, then maybe they're not gonna want me to shut up about it anymore. and even if they don't like it or if they still want me to shut up about it, im increasing the views of the show by making people watch it

EITHER WAY IT'S STILL A WIN FOR ME

#JUST ACCORDING TO KEIKAKU #but seriously i don't mind if they feel like that!!!! #i mean. im not gonna lie and say i don't get self-conscious sometimes #because i am aware there are like. only two people who care about my vice versa/last twilight/jimmysea posts #but it's fine!!!! they make me happy and i have fun talking about it so im not going to stop!!!! #and people who don't care about it are actually so very nice to still be following me and bear with me!!!! #and if it comes a day where they had enough i hope they know they can't unfollow me. no hard feelings #tumblr is supposed to be a safe space for everyone and i hope we all can have the best experience possible #but still. thank you so much for being so sweet anon!!!! #it actually warms my heart to know that you like my vice versa rambling and your message really made me smile #im sending you the biggest hug!!!! 💜 #m: ask

[armenelols]

I've just learnt tumblr live actually exists and y'all haven't been experiencing mass hallucinations for months. Wild. Couldn't be me.

#i don't have it obviously #(very happy about that) #so every time someone mentioned it #i was like 'WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT I CAN'T FIND IT ANYWHERE' #i was today years old when i found out tumblr live is really a thing on here #i even tried to turn it off in the settings because i figured out it's a bullshit feature anyway #and everyone was saying you can turn it off #and it wasn't there!!! #and i had all the other recent tumblr updates so i was hella confused #evidently we just don't have it where i live and i am very happy about that lol #it's a us thing. huh #ema rambles

[reblog-house]

Nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn when someone blazes a headcanon you don't agree with but you can't say anything because it's like, the most popular headcanon in the fandom.

#carime rambles #like. the people i talk to in a server already know I'm not the biggest fan of it. and i actively look for fics where that hc doesnt occur #but there's not a tag for me to exclude in ao3 and now they're blazing it on tumblr. i know it's just a minor inconvenience but #not everyone agrees with things 'the whole fandom decided'. i did at first but now i just. really dont like it. #now if someone blazes my MOST hated popular headcanon (which thankfully CAN be filtered out in AO3)... yeah I'd scream #not naming either because i don't want to shame people who like them. you do you. just don't jumpscare me with them please #the only hints are the ones i already said. both really popular. one can be filtered out in ao3. the other can't. #anything more specific and it's pointing directly at them

[one-abuse-survivor]

Personal post, please don't reblog

So. My mother sold her house. The house where I grew up in. The house where she abused me. The house where I made some of the best and worst memories of my life. The house that felt like a dream when I was a kid and like a suffocating prison when I was a teenager.

And like, I knew this was coming. It's been months since she put it on sale. It's also been 4 years since the last time I stepped foot inside it or went anywhere near its vicinity. But I'm still finding it overwhelmingly hard to process. Ever since I found out she'd sold it, I've been having these really vivid "nightmares" where I just. Idk. I open a drawer in the kitchen and stare at the exact cutlery we used to have in that house, down to the tiniest details. Or I'm lying in my bed and the lightbulbs around me start flickering and I realise they're placed in the exact same spots as they were in my childhood bedroom.

And I think this whole deal has made me realise I... miss that house? I miss the garden, and my toys, and my silly magazine posters, and the trees, and I miss my pets and my neighbours. I think up until this point I hadn't allowed myself to separate the terror and trauma I feel toward my mother from the fondness and love I used to feel for the house when I was a kid, and realising I still love that house in some way now that she's sold it feels like a slow-motion punch to the gut.

It doesn't help that my mother texted me saying she's moving out in two weeks and she wants me to go and say goodbye to the house/pick up the last of my stuff. It doesn't help because I said yes, because I still have books and pictures and documents and old toys I want to have in my possession, but I don't know how I'm going to process stepping back into that place after so long just to... never see it again.

I mean, what if my cat is around and he doesn't remember me? What if I suddenly remember details about the house I was finally starting to forget? What if I burst into tears and she's around and sees me crying? What if I ruin the songs I listen to in the car on my way there for myself? What if she tries to talk to me or guilt-trip me by reminding me of good memories from that house? (I know she probably won't, because I'm bringing several people with me, but still).

Idk. Half of me feels like I need to commit every single corner of the house to memory just so I don't ever forget about my beloved childhood home where I made so many happy memories. The other half of me wishes I could wear distortion glasses the whole time just so I do not accurately perceive a single detail about the house that may sneak into my nightmares and haunt me for months or even years.

I just feel like I'm going to need to do a lot of mourning about this. I feel like I'm already mourning, right now, just from the thought of going there in a few days. But at the same time, I really want to go, because I know I'd regret it all my life if I didn't. I'd especially regret not grabbing my photo albums and my childhood books while I still could (however many of them are left after all these years). There are so many things I couldn't bring with me when I left because I didn't want her to notice them missing and suspect, and I know she's given away and thrown out a lot of them, but part of me still hopes that at least some of the things I want to take with me are still where I left them.

My head is a big, big mess right now.

(I typed this out just to express myself; I'm not looking for any answers to my questions or any alternatives or solutions. But if anyone has kind words or any advice on how to make this process easier, I'd appreciate them a lot ❤️)

#o-a-s gets personal #Abusive mother #Abuse tw #How do you love a place that was also the scenario of years of indescribable pain and trauma #How do you even come to terms with the fact that it wasn't the house's fault that it became my prison #Maybe it didn't want to do that #Maybe it was forced to hold all this suffering inside it just as much as I was #I'm just rambling please don't mind me #It's annoying that I can't use that new tumblr feature yet where you can make posts unrebloggable #Hopefully they'll make it so that you can edit older posts and make them unrebloggable! That'd be nice

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

ah well gosh hi???

in what i said was gonna be a one day break from, well, life tbh, i seemingly realized that i don't just have school coming SOON, but that i wasn't prepared to wake up at 2pm to find out i only have a few days left of total free time not spent struggling and stressing out over exams of all things

so like any average person i went and made plans with friends to hang out and get my mind off of everything- and while it was good while it lasted, i really wanted to be, yknow, clear

i have artworks at the ready, and if i ever become desperate enough to start getting a hang on drawing with a mouse all the time i might as well, but as things stand i really do not know what the heck i am doing-

i'll try my hardest to at least look for a way to fix the pen cause that's just the most important and expensive part of the damaged stuff, but i'm thinking the cable is perma-broke so i'll have to look for a way to replace it

to cut right to the chase: i have some art i can post. but i dunno when, if, or which to post because most of them have some context that i would've normally been all too eager to explain, but as things stand? man i don't think i could muster the energy to try

so? i dunno yall- i mean i could start writing again? i've entertained the idea long enough and this might be just the opportunity to finally get some practice without getting distracted by drawing :'D

i could do small stuff with a mouse if i feel like sharing some art, but the illustrations? i feel like i can only post those once i feel a bit more alive mentally and physically to interact with others without feeling so drained all the time (but knowing that school's coming, i can't really promise anything :'))

thanks a lot for the sweet words and patience guys- it means a lot that you won't immediately, idk, ditch this blog once you realize i might not post much if not at all (hopefully not gosh) for an undetermined amount of time? you really made me realize this wasn't as bad as my mind's been pushing me to think,

so trust me i WILL bounce back and reblog stuff and have entire essays in your tags eventually- i just need to stop feeling like it has to be today, or tomorrow, or any days afterwards, just that it will happen when i feel like it<3

#rambling #delete later? #it feels so funny to get bothered by something that would be trivial to future me in like...idk a year? #i'm not as upset as i thought i'd be too- just mostly numb i guess.. #also the reason why i can't bring myself to post the artworks i had- can i really talk about how much fun i had drawing them? #when i'm barely wrapping my head around the fact that i can't no more? and for an uncertain amount of time where i'll be too busy #too tired and too short on money to even think about drawing in the first place? i don't think i wanna get used to that but well #if there's one thing i can take from these vacations is that while you guys can't see it i really did have fun improving on my art #and gosh do i love what i'm doing so much that i personally wouldn't mind if it were just for me alone to see #but after sharing my ideas and works into the wild and watching people gather around to share ideas back- #i can say i like my art and the why is because it makes me happy! and it apparently does for you guys too so why not share! >:) #i also guess one of the reasons i'm not as active is cause of the whole need to compose myself and find the time to breathe and enjoy #the works of the others and mine and think of ways to express my feelings to everyone #and trust me sometimes i wish i could just write nothing and post/reblog- but it feels so empty #if i wanted to do that i'd make another account #no i want to talk about what i love with y'all and if i start rambling well no one's complaining! #if i see something made with the thought of me behind it then ain't no way in hell i'm not climbing rooftops yelling how much i love it #so if i somehow don't do that then i'm either too busy to even check tumblr- dead- or doing even worse somehow- so nothing against you! #guess i had that on my mind for a while now so please! i'm not ignoring you on purpose! i'm probably too wrapped up in my stuff to react #same for asks btw i am not joking there's so many and i live in constant shame xD :') #if you made it this far i am so sorry for yet another long post but i feel it's justified a little x) goodnight everyone! have a nice day<3

[caricature-of-a-witch]

I swear by the time I have finished this paper there will be claw marks in my brain matter because I have to forcibly drag it towards and hold it to the document in order to get anything done there's a magnetic force repelling the two things and I am so tired

It's gonne be the shittiest least coherent paper in the history of papers and if I end up having tortured my brain for nothing and not passing the course I don't know how I'll deal with that lol

#Ash's ramblings #There's nothing bad under there don't worry I just need to vent somewhere #and if I text someone about it rather than yell into the tumblr void it'll develop into two-way communication #and I WILL use it to procrastinate #So. Here I am. Ignore this. #It's not even objectivwly a difficult paper I don't think!! #I'm just. Kinda dumb and also did too little for it early on and can't focus enough to know what's going on #This semester is shit tbqh I took more classes than I can handle #(and I'm still not even at the recommended number of classes loool) #And I'm so fucking exhausted at this point #There's at least 2 other classes where I'm worried about not passing just bc I never get around to anything #...actually I worry about like. Every class. But I always do so. Idkkkk #Anyway! Anyway. Shutting up now. Getting back to it. Hopefully. #I'm not sure academia is for me but I don't know what else is for me either and I Really Don't Want To Fail At This Again #I'm trying so fucking hard this time around and I'm. Gonna. Really shut up now before the misery spiral gets out of hand lmao #Ily all

[aethersea]

writing.....hard :(

what if I whine about it on tumblr. maybe that’ll help.

#finx rambles #I have like five things open - I mean not right now bc I am At Work this is merely a quick break #but hmm it's nearly time for a lunch break #anyway #I have like five things open and I peruse them every day or three and add a bit where I can #and yes this works #but like #it's so slooooooooow #can't post it on ao3 for Motivation till it's a bit more finished #so I just :( #maybe I'll post snippets up on tumblr how bout it #the rules are different for posting on tumblr #(the rules are entirely in my head) #I'm allowed to post here before I'm sure it'll ever get finished and I don't have to feel bad about that #hmm however most of my writing is not especially snippable #hmm. there's....one fic #one fic that's snippable #I'll put up that one

[astrxealis]

sometimes i think of scenarios in my head with my ocs and then sometimes for happy brain i kinda crossover them with my favorite medias atm and also insert myself in bcs i like being self-indulgent and yeah my brain is so fucked up that i just keep repeating the same first bits and can't get far in thinking and i end up just having my s/i ramble my thoughts and it's hard to explain but yeah but anyways it's interesting thinking about who or what my ocs would like in video games or colors or whatever because all my ocs seem to reflect a certain part of me and i can get into the psychology of that but also its hard to explain my thoughts but also anyways yeah i find it interesting thinking about who my ocs would kin

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #feel free to just ignore me oopsies i am just rambling but yeah i love my ocs so much #sorry besties you are all subject once more to my brainrots and rambles and random thoughts now that i am on tumblr rn #my brain is very interesting to me and the way i think but also i can't properly think in such a way and i find it really hard to explain #and i'm such a mess but also man i don't know and i'm going off-track and god i love vgm so much and i don't want to do homework #but anyways back to the goddamn point !!! so my oc merle. i have little crossover thoughts in my head right and i realize #he's similar with akira and then it makes sense as to why i like characters like akira and it's a little woa fr bcs #the way i imagine merle is really similar to akira actually but with a more purple color scheme (but still dark) and he doesn't wear #glasses (at least. wait. actually. i don't really know anymore) GOD my mind never stops but yeah uhm yeah #i think humans are so unbelievably interesting and it's all just so fascinating and and and #also i've awakened to the fact i really like sharks i think they're very cute! i still prefer dolphins though #people who hurt animals make me really angry and sad... i think about it and already want to cry #i have never had a pet but my grandparents had lots and it's funny how memory works. i forgot they once had a pet turtle #until something in a school group project involved my group involving a pet turtle in our storyline for something #and then i remember that past. my past. once again. and clearly even! and... yeah #but yeah... i know i will never abandon my pet if ever i do get a pet. or pets. i would never do that and i really know this is a fact with #all my heart but what's stopping me from getting a pet is that i need to take better care of myself first and learn how to take care of #pets! i think where i live there's actually an opportunity for me to do so. i'll try to see more about that. and hmm... this is a really #busy year for school. and then the next. and then tbh everything onwards from 2023 so... i don't want to put time to something #i'm not even sure if i can really make time for. but. i think i really do want a pet! a dog esp. but also a cat. but a dog esp #bcs i've always wanted one !! i know when it comes to something i really want i am very dedicated and passionate #like how i already calculated xiv expenses months before actually got the game? and planned how me and lune would do things too #and then because i want to handle money better and take note of all that i yeah and yeah and yeah im tired of typing now BYE #will now disappear again after rambling quite a lot ^__^ maybe? maybe not? who knows! #my thoughts are so. whack. wack? idk. but uhm yeah it went from ocs to sharks to pets to money and idk huh #man w some things i'm really shy about being perceived or asked about. like my ocs. egbhebgjhbjehs ;;;;; #and people being nice to me T__T sorry i rlly appreciate it but i can't really comprehend it and my coping mechanism is avoidance

[ibrokeeverything]

You wanna know what I hate more than anything? When I can't look at a particular fandom on Tumblr because there's more content out than what I've seen. It's truly a tragic experience every time.

#this is about avatar #i just rewatched the first movie but i haven't seen the sequel yet #mourning the fact that its been out for almost a week and i still haven't seen it #i wanted to see it day one but my family wanted to watch it together #which I'm totally happy to do #but adult schedules are stupid and we're having a hard time finding a day where we can all go watch it #anyway i just want to see it so bad!!! #the first movie is god tier and im obsessed #i can't believe i took this out of my top five movies #it's going right back in #it's just SO GOOD #I've been obsessed with it since i was fifteen and that's not changing anytime soon #anyway moral of the story is that i really want to look at tumblr but can't because i haven't seen the sequel yet 🥲 #UGH IT'S SUCH AN AMAZING MOVIE! #excuse my pointless rambling 😅 #i have too many feelings about avatar