#but i really don't know enough about how veterans were treated in germany after wwii

[tamtam-go92]

Spoilers for Attack on Titan ending behind the cut (though I’m probably the last one to read it). I already aplogize for mistakes, I just finished the last chapters and I’m really shaken!

So yeah, I was gone for some days before I could read the last chapters of Attack on Titan and I didn’t want to get spoiled so I avoided all social media. Now I’ve read it and what should I say? I’m really broken atm... I cried my eyes out. I haven’t read since Hans died, they were my favorite and was high on the LeviHan ship but yeah... it’s aot so of course I was let down xD Now I read the last chapters tonight and I must say: I liked the ending. I don’t want to say too much. I never was a huge shipper in aot and I stayed out of the fandom mostly (it’s been way to toxic for me) but I was crying my eyes out over Eremika! That cottagecore in chap 138?! Please let me read a whole sappy love novel about those four years they have together there! Imo it’s a good ending. I would have like the fantheorized ending of a “reset world” too, maybe I would have even like that one more but I think it’s a fitting ending for a bitter sweet story.  I started watching aot for the beautiful animations, cool fight and to find out what*s behind the titans. I stayed for the cool characters when the story started to get a bit wierd. I was COMPLEATELY shocked by the reveal what really was behind the titans and how this typical fighting shonen manga turned into a holocaust metaphore within a few chapters/episodes. Deaths of beloved characters crushed me and made me cry like a baby. The last arc was SO wild! I was really confused most of the time but I COULD NOT STOP READING! I love how Isayama managed to build 3 dimensional characters. For exampe Gabi - I hated that brat when she shoot Sascha. I hated her when she was with the Braus-family feeling nothing but hatred for those “island-devils” and I started to LOVE her when she finally came to realize, that they all were the same. That little brat is one of the best written characters I can think of! As I said, I was never a huge shipper in this fandom. I liked the idea of Levihan and loved their dynamics and those last words between them broke my heart but I liked a lot of couples. For a long time (when I only watched the anime until season 3 I thought Historia and Eren would have been a great couple but those last chapters have left me as a die hard Eremika fan! But yeah, I don’t want to say too much, probably already have. Just needed somewhere to put my thoughts in? I’m still so confused, my aot buddy is not answering my whatsapp and my SO is his usual “Tsk, you crying over your anime?” *rolles eyes and smiles gently* so I have to throw my heart at somebody. If you are that somebody, I apologize. If you too are heartbroken and confused and shaken and need some good fanfic to get over the pain, please feel free to message me xD  Thank you for coming to my ted-talk. I’m off to search of a fluffy cottagecore EreMika ff!

#tamtam rambles #aot spoilers #attack on titan #shingeki no kyoujin #snk spoilers #chapter 139 #ch 139 spoilers #chapter 138 #eremika #levihan #once i'm over my pain a bit #i'll probably write some stupid au ff myself #like a really sappy fluffy and smutty university au #and i've got that wwII veteran levi au story in the back of my head #really wanna write this #would be levihan of course #but i really don't know enough about how veterans were treated in germany after wwii #could still ask my friend #she's a history master #okay enough of me already!