#but i mean... it did technically work

[feelo-fick]

miscellaneous au doodles + a VERY self indulgent song lyric comic :D

+ extra evil comic below the cut :

"chil!" "don't look at me like that..."

#ill be honest this is all so self indulgent that its embarrassing but whatever. peace and love. i will live my truth #yes the song lyric comic is childhood friends t4t chilchuck + his wife. what of it. #yes i also put chilaios. SUE ME OKAY #anyways im really proud of that first comic i think i did the format justice #also to the fellow filipinos out there i salute to you all #if anyone who doesnt speak filipino google translates the song and talks to me about it i will uhhhhhh. kiss you <- joking #(BUT I DO ENCOURAGE TALKING TO ME ABOUT IT I WILL SCREAM) #now time for actual tags #dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #<- technically #chilchuck #chilchuck tims #should i tag his wife? ill tag his wife #chilchuck's wife #laios touden #not gonna tag the others in the first comic cause theyre not the focus #chilaios #<- feed on angst with me. play with me in this space. #by the by im slightly dissatisfied with how i drew that evil comic i think it looks a little weird but i love the concept of it #i mean none of you have any context except for my friend whos working on this au with me but. i prommy that its good #oh yeah i should probably tag this au huh #[ tragedy au ] #<- dont worry about the name. d. dont worry about it. #PRAYING BEGGING PLEADING THAT THIS WILL POST PROPERLY THIS TIME

[graveposting]

me when

me hwhen the------

the brainworms-

#i was thinking about fic ideas but this would have needed too much setup #writing a fic is a commitment you gotta stick around from the beginning to the end and #drawing the thing as one picture however is #uhhh #something something i really don't know man #just inject the gravecest straight into my veins already just fuck me up thank you #art by me #gravecest #coffincest #tcoaal #the coffin of andy and leyley #technically safe for work but let's be real here #not safe for life #how's that gun taste andy #did you realize that's what she meant when she said she'd blow your brains o- #what do you mean that's even better #oh wait i forgot to tag the characters too #ashley graves #andrew graves #this image was so powerful it had to be dithered or else it would have killed everyone who looks directly at it #nsft

[tongues--and--teeth]

I think all of the coffee cookies need glasses. Comes with the territory.

The real reason Cappuccino isn’t here

#‘oh espresso wouldn’t have a beard’ This man is not shaving every day. #he sleeps in his work clothes and brushes his teeth twice a year he is NOT shaving #Guess which one is my favorite character #it’s painfully obvious lmfaoooo #I could not draw his silly ass #I do also think Affogato does not HAVE glasses I just think he needs them #Not a very serious drawing tbh but I’ve been strangely artistic lately #crk #teethart #I did technically draw this two days ago but whatever. posted today. #cookie run fanart #cookie run kingdom #fanart #affogato cookie #cappucino cookie #I mean. he is there. #crk affogato #my art #espresso cookie #espresso crk #latte cookie #latte crk #coffee siblings #anyway? Latte trans femme lesbian who’s dating alchemist because the schools/colleges they work at are figuratively next door #I love my womnen rarepairs. they’re great.

[icewindandboringhorror]

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#i feel like I posted this already but I also can't find it in any recent posts so... #......he #cats #EVEN if I did post it.. why not poast himb again? it's he #I'm like halfway through actually editing aforementioned costumes and stuff and i WANT to work on sculptures again and I have video #s and that worldbuilding slideshow and all of these things so hopefully like.. more usual stuff soon maybe.. to be posted #for now though yeah.. just cats #The end of the year is also when I panic about the passage of time and how little I've gotten done and how I will never actually be a #sucessful game maker slash author slash cat cafe owner slash set designer slash costume designer slash psychologist #who lives in like Scotland or somehting and also owns my own candle company or something ghbjhb #and will probably just be a mentally ill hermit recluse all my life who dies early of mysterious health issues with 5000 projects left #undone and blah blah the crushing weight of chronic illness and capitalism and so on and so forth #So then I scramble to get projects done to try and meet some goals but usually that means I scatter between projects #so it takes longer to finish all of them. Like instead of dedicating 8 hours to one thing and finishing it one sitting. I'll do 2 hours on #this then 2 hours on that then 2 hours on another things. so they all get done slower even though I'm still technically making progress on #them all. This is also a very poo poo pee pee stink brain way to work and is not like. the most efficent thing but it's just how my brain #organizes tasks sometimes lol #*** #(<ignore this its part of an OCD compulsion lol. anytime you see me type three asterisks I'm not bleeping out a curse word #it's just a Special Secret Foolish Thing I Have To Do At Specific Uncontrolable Times When Brain Says So gbjhhj) #ANYWAY... eeeee #Still haven't resolved my mystery chest injury though so being at te computer for too long is also kind of achey-inducing #Better get over it though because I have like 30+ hours of slideshow vidoe to edit hahaha hee hee hoo!!!!!

[paperhats-and-evil-schemes]

Me: //brushing up on my old Paperhat fanfics to make sure I'm getting details right for the new one//

Me @ my past readers:

#paperhat #villainous #OP #HOW DID ANYBODY ENJOY THESE??? LMFAO #THE GRAMMAR IS AWFUL I REPEATED SO MANY PHRASES WAY TOO MUCH WTF #SO MANY UNNECESSARY EPITHETS #THE CRINGE DIALOGUE #WTF #THE AMOUNT OF BULLFUCKINGSHITTERY THAT PPL LET ME GET AWAY WITH BACK THEN. ASTOUNDING. #IF I DIDNT HAVE SUCH A HARD TIME LOOKING BACK ON THESE DUMB THINGS ID GO BACK AND REWRITE THE SHIT OUTTA EM #GOD #AWFUL #Like sure I get that the concepts themselves work fine but wow reading these back makes me physically cringe #Just from like... how bad on a technical level that the writing //itself// is #Look I know that cringe culture is dead but THAT DOESN'T HELP STOP ME FROM FUCKING CRINGING AT THIS GARBAGE #Yeesh. Oh well. I guess I was never a professional or anything lol. But WOW #I mean I'm glad that people enjoyed them back then regardless of the flaws but man. MANNNNN...... #I can do better #One day I will prove it lmao #Whenever I get around to finishing another goddamn fic lol

[bumblingbabooshka]

[TUVOKTOBER: Day 16] Mr. Human!

#species swap voyager: Vulcan Janeway / Human Tuvok / Hologram Kes / Human Seven / Human Doctor #<- She's in the delta quadrant bc she took up her parents' work after they got assimilated and is chasing the Borg. #I think fully human or fully klingon B'Elanna would be potentially fun if they did a meet up (by which I mean it would be very angsty) #Chakotay Tom and Harry are still humans and Neelix is still Talaxian #Kes is a hologram so she can still be an age that's not entirely understandable to others. She's still an adult even though she's #technically one or two years old just like the doctor is in the canon timeline #Janeway's name in this universe is K'tryn #Also the running gag with the doctor's name is that no one knows what it is and it's only revealed at the last episode #and it IS something very boring. Important: He's not trying to hide it he just keeps getting interrupted or he's busy or a loud noise plays #st voyager #Tuvoktober #st voyager fanart #bea art tag #I was torn between making him look the same age he does on the show or making him look middle aged #since he is Vulcan middle aged but it was already difficult to make him look 'like Tuvok' instead of just some guy #Also his Human name is like 'Taylor' for that same gender neutral feel

[nero-neptune]

made up a group of edwardian-era hockey girls, Heavily inspired by the many wintery late 19th/early 20th century photos i processed in an archive over the summer. at some point, i decided their team would be called "the hail raisers".

#it's all about texture texture texture #i'm very bad at modeling old handwriting. but just bc i've seen a lot of old handwriting doesn't mean i can replicate it :/ #also- technically the vast Vast majority of any photos pre 1930 (that i worked with) were explicitly black and white #but we're gonna pretend this is some super faded autochrome!! which works bc i LOOOOVE autochrome <3<3<3 #the things i'm most proud of here are 1) the gloves and 2) the personality shining through each girl #they're bruised and bloody and gap toothed and they're ready for more! #my art #artists on tumblr #edwardian era #edwardian art #hockey #also this is more for me but- gap toothed girl is clara #alma's the formal looking one (with a crooked nose). lenore's looking dazed and confused. and dolores at the bottom right is out for blood #(also i'm preemptively blaming any 'off' proportions on the fact that they're wearing bulky sorta-oversized winter clothes) #(also also- drawing old fashioned hair was fun. they kinda just did whatever as long as it's in a particular shape) #(also also also- i enjoyed drawing injuries. for better or worse i think of 'injuries' whenever i think 'hockey'. #now. would you photograph edwardian-era girls beat up to hell? idk. but check out the 1890s princeton students post-snowball fight photo!)

[dawnthefluffyduck]

hey that's not supposed to be out there (uploaded wrong version at first haha whoops)

#not supposed to be that color either #i wonder who that belongs to #i had a very vague meaning for this in mind but saying it would spoil the fun #christ this took me forever #i wanted to do a quick project to give myself a break from my final #but accidentally made an entirely new kind of nightmare #BUT i can proudly say that i am very proud of this despite how long it took me #alrighty this blog is all about tracking progress so my thought on this; #it's not really as energetic as i had hoped to make it so i think that's the biggest technical issue i have with this #i'll try to get back to doing more gestures soon as a way to help with that #i think my shadows are a bit confusing too #i'm looking at it now and his glasses kinda taper off into the void of his fur bc i didnt mark the shadow along the left of his ear #but the thought of digging back through layers to fix it and blending that mess in is giving me a headache so i'm content with leaving it #i think i learned a lot about light and reflections though #my shadows aren't the greatest but i had so much fun rendering the glasses #and the glow of the soul pushed me to think about bounce light a lot more #figuring out how to make the colors look like they were glowing was a whole separate issue #i did it in the last big ralsei drawing i did but not nearly to this extent #i won't be doing something this large for a while after this but i'll keep trying to work on the things i didn't like about this #i think i'm gonna start putting my self-crit in the tags from now on #it really does bulk up the posts and it's hard to scroll past #i like reflecting on my work like this though #i've been able to draw a lot more since i've started doing it because it helps me create specific goals for myself #lets me keep pushing myself while still having fun with my art #ralsei #deltarune #deltarune fanart

[benbamboozled]

I still can’t believe Tom Taylor gave Dick Grayson a law degree.

#I’m also not sure that Tom Taylor understands what a ‘law degree’ means in the US. #Australian Law != US Law #Also Australian continuing education != US continuing education #like. #when the hell did Dick Grayson do four years of undergrad and THEN go to law school???? #also wtf is he going to do with a law degree??? #is he taking the bar? is he doing an internship? is he doing pro bono defense work? is he Matt Murdock? #he could have gone to a technical school or something but noooo he has to be the specialest boy. #I am actually a hardcore advocate for continuing education in the US but JFC this makes NO SENSE for Dick Grayson.

[waitineedaname]

for some reason the intro to phonology and syntax classes for grad students are also the advanced phonology and syntax classes for undergrads, which means the professors are spouting off dense syntactical theory to undergrads who have already taken the intro class with them, meanwhile there's six of us grad students sitting to the side staring at each other like this

#linguistics blogging #no joke I literally made this face in syntax earlier #the professor was describing contiguity theory and drawing syntax trees I could NOT understand #and an undergrad asked her ''what does this mean for phi-boundaries'' or something like that #and I just looked over at my friends and made this face #only to discover they were all also looking bewildered and/or miserable #I'm so glad it's not just me #because I have literally never taken a phonology or syntax class #and I am SO out of my depth #we did the BARE basics of this stuff in my minor #and definitely no theory #so I have no fucking idea what's going on #luckily out of the six of us only two have an actual linguistics degree before this #the rest of us are pretty new to the field #so we are suffering together #i hate syntax and phonology. god. #these technical fields are NOT for me #this is why I'm a sociolinguist!!!!! #I am not interested in theories about how language works from an abstract perspective #I'm much more interested in WHY language behaves the way it does socially #like. I don't care about the phonological reasons for a particular sound feature #im more interested in the social context. does this sound carry prestige? is it stigmatized? how has the perception of it changed over time #I don't care about the theory behind why certain languages have developed grammatical rules for word order #I'm more interested in what happens when a dialect forms from a community with a different L1 #and how their ideas of word order affect their L2 dialect #you know? #the social and historical stuff is where I thrive #not this theory babble #like. the theory is important work. but it's not MY work.

[birdricks]

just remembered the pheonixperson fight [walking into the ocean]

#litearllye very single fucking thing about it. #what did they do to you…. #i loved her. #then you were always a bad friend. #never thought this was how id die. #and other memorable quotes. #i rlly hope if (WHEN.) they bring bp back they address his time as pp #bc its rlly quite horrifying. ik they did to some extent w rickternal friendshine #but theres a lot of layers to it that u cld still go into. especially the fact that hes probably 90% artificial now. #andddddd w birddaughter. pleaseeeee #but oh my god. really so heartbreaking for rick to spend all that time mourning bp #i mean. not technically canon but in the comics he mentions it A BUNCH #and then he finds out hes alive. but as a zombie who barely recognises him. and then he nearly kills rick. #its crazy to think that pp was a One episode thing technically #like he was in the post credits of another ep and it took a while to fix him #but for us the audience he was only in action for. 10 mins? #if that #but ohh… how long was he working for the federation behind the scenes…. i dread to think #and his memories now…. he like blew up his fucking mind. im curious how much he actually remmebers of it #ohhhh bp … 💖 pleaseeee please come back to us

[bredforloyalty]

okay what i meant when i said that even the copious amounts of blood didn't satiate me in particular is that the dead wife/nemesis thing was never something i was eager to see explored, just because i think it's something a lot of male characters get? to go through? the ooh i'm so tortured someone took something from me and now i can't help but turn into a monster while i'm on this quest for revenge and being smothered by grief ough i might kill them even or others in gruesome ways and then realize i'm still just as empty

because, i think men often feel the role they must take on as a man or as a father (especially the latter) is a burden, a huge one, where they aren't allowed to sit back or let go or forgive to their own and everyone else's detriment.. and i understand why there is demand for the same type of stories or story elements or arcs, and why they work, and this same overall theme can be present in a story where it's dealt with in an interesting way or where there's love and care involved in the writing process and the characters don't feel like "man pain machine #48" and "generic sensitive character who will cradle mr. man pain's bloody face in their hands (when we want to end this arc and show how good and lovable he actually is)"....

idk i'm just saying it's not even a specific problem i have with male characters that avenge their families or seem like they're defined by anger or by a traumatic event, i do think it can be written lazily and that we've seen it so many times it's a bit worn-out now, but i wouldn't be quick to generalize. it's just that, since we've seen this before (and that's partly why they poked a bit of fun at themselves when in rickmurai jack, rick's dead wife backstory was revealed).. to me it's one of the least interesting aspects of rick? and yet it's clearly important to the writers and they felt they had to tackle this part of his character, really emphasize his unfinished business, or treat it like something that must have a conclusion

for me though, rick's brand of fucked up and evil wasn't compelling because something deeply fucked up happened to him and there's a lot to deal with there and that's cool, it was more compelling to me (iirc) Before knowing much about his past. tbh. i recognized him already, he felt real, his worst side was familiar because a man doesn't need a whole event to become controlling and cruel when dealing with his family... social norms and umm systems sort of already operate within the framework of the patriarchy, i think it's built into our collective ideas of society, concepts of gender and family and the rules those come with.. i liked that about rick, that why he was an asshole wasn't detailed, there was no easy explanation for the way that he was, he just was. and every time they chose to drive home that rick's defined by losing his original family to his own alternate self and that he was still chasing this one guy, it was like, well i thought there were so many other components as well to why he turned out to be who he is. i liked it more when it was mundane, because that's what i see around me, that abuse is rather mundane. and i'm much more interested in the harm he's directly inflicted on his current family and how his past might affect his current life, what might haunt him. so i guess i never wanted prime to be taken care of, each week i find myself thinking that i just want it to be rick and morty and their messed up little relationship up close and personal again

#like‚ prime was cool‚ i liked what he said when he was getting beaten to a pulp i REALLY liked it. c-137 took his life‚ took his #family technically‚ that's interesting. he regenerates‚ we didn't see a body‚ he could totally be coming back‚ that's interesting #i'm just not all that interested in rick's revenge bc for example look at this episode. what did morty do‚ what did this mean for morty? #maybe i'm too mortybrained hxsgvy but i care about him so much it makes me sick i can't just switch it off.. lol... #felt like this could've been framed differently. i would've framed it differently‚ maybe de-center rick's abstract ideas of what's been #taken from him and who's at fault‚ center his ideas of what he has now and how far he's willing to go for his loved ones #i don't know i also wanted to see how r&m worked while hunting prime since rick promised to bring the kid into his darkness #so i was like omg REGRESSION? regression sweep? real animosity when? but we didn't see any of it. but we still might!! if prime's not #really out of the picture. so i won't write that off. i am inclined to forget about it tho and believe there will be no shared darkness #well i will see i'll see the whole season and then reevaluate #kata.txt #rnm

[camellcat]

look. either you get it, or you don't. I'm not gonna explain The Vision to you, you just have to see it.

#proceeds to explain The Vision #okay so I'm literally only pointing this out bc one of my favorite tropes is bad guy sneaking up to good guy's window #being like “hey hello let me in so I can act all threatening but it's bc I'm totally into you” #and that is how Theo and Liam work in my brain #and that is how Ichigo and Kisshu... #well #I MEAN TECHNICALLY THAT DID HAPPEN IN THE ANIME JUST NOT SO NICELY #LOOK OKAY my favorite Kishigo fics have that trope and so I will stand by it as a staple of those two #and Thiam #fuck it #you can't control me #if I wanted to look any deeper I'm absolutely positive I could make more comparisons #but rn I'm saying all of this bc I think it would be incredibly funny to stick Liam and Theo in those outfits #and I don't wanna draw it myself so I'm asking you to use your imagination #thiam #theo x liam #liam dunbar #theo raeken #teen wolf #tokyo mew mew #I'm so sorry to be shoving tokyo mew mew in your face teen wolf fans but it's late and the thought won't leave my brain

[horror-aesthete]

Suitable Flesh, 2023 , dir. Joe Lynch

#suitable flesh #you did not need to use that term #unless... i mean. this is technically the same universe as reanimator #does that mean that 'reanimate' is just like. a semi-common term in this world? #'babe im gonna go reanimate some leftovers you want any?' 'david please just say youre gonna put them in the microwave' #'im from massa i cant help it' #'its a regional dialect' #god what must it be like to work at the same institution as herbert west #i mean. he's probably not there any more. but stil!! #i have questions #horror aesthetic #horror movies #horror quotes

[rawliverandgoronspice]

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(eeee a game I worked on just got nomination for Best Narrative in an indie festival!!!)

#personal #thoughts #it's the first project I worked on that got a nomination!!!! #(I mean technically it's the second but the first one was...... Complicated) #and on narrative!!!! #and it's the project I think I did the best work on so far #pretty giddy about this #I did a good job!!! yeeee

[tomwambsmilk]

It's 100% true that the Roy siblings did not choose to be Logan's children and Tom and Greg and the old guard did choose to work for him so their relationships to Logan are fundamentally different, and the degree of culpability they bear for their own moral degradation is also wildly different. But workplace emotional abuse is also very real and omnipresent in the way Logan treats the people who work for him. And one of the impacts of workplace emotional abuse is creating an extreme attachment to the abuser and becoming less cognizant and even defensive of their abuse towards yourself and others, and in cases where the emotional abuse is institutionalized and systemic it can also create a strong aversion to leaving because your whole sense of personal identity becomes wrapped up in the organization and so being forced to leave can cause an intense psychological crisis. I don't think the situation of working for Logan is at all equivalent to being his child but I also think that it's a bit misguided to imply that Tom and Gerri and Frank and Karl are operating from a place of pure rationality without any undue psychological influences when they make the choice to stay with and support Logan

#used to work at a place that had an extremely emotionally abusive president for years and years and the people who worked there long term #were FUCKED UP. it was wild #i think it's easy to overlook that on succ bc it's very secondary to whats going on with the roy family proper. as it should be #but I also think one of the questions succ explores in tom as a character (and others) is how difficult it can be to leave these situations #even if you did choose to get into them #I don't think 'tom can leave at any time' is really a fair assessment bc technically yes. but practically? psychologically? #like yes he bears responsibility for getting himself into this situation due to his own greed and selfishness in a way the roy kids do not #but that doesn't mean it's easy or straightforward to walk away #also. tom is married to shiv which places him in the unique position where the only way to walk away is to cut off both his wife #and the company he's spent his whole life at #he could have NOT married shiv this is very true. and I think the choice to marry her even after she lied to him about sleeping with nate #means that he did have some idea of what he was getting into. he knew this was not going to be the fairytale marriage he wanted #he already knew about cruises too. he knew waystar was corrupt #that moment was the opportunity to walk away and he did NOT take it #and that is on him #but that does not making walking away now any easier