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aroacesigma · 6 months
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you ever just remember that sigma hasnt caught a break his entire life and have to just sit there and process that for a few minutes
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theladymuses · 11 months
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✧ GET TO KNOW THE MUN.
What's yoru phone wallpaper: Osamu Dazai from BSD! I jsut changed from Childe a lil while back, hehe. Last song you listerend to: There Is a Light That Never Goes Out (2011 Remastered) by The Smiths (I've been listening to this on repeat for the past hour or so). Currently Reading: The Hnadmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood Last Movie: Women Talking (I saw it on the plane!) What are you wearing? Pyjamas, haha. Piercings / tattoos: 4 piercings; 2 on each ear. Glasses / contacts or both? I wear glasses daily and contacts when I feel like it! Last thing you ate: Meatballs! Favorite color(s): Black & Maroon (mainly). Current Obsessions: Genshin Impact, Bungou Stray Dogs, No Longer Human (the book), and Moriarty the Patriot. Do you have a crush? I think I caught one, like, 3 years ago and we're still on that one. I don't think they're meant to be so long but... eh. Favorite fictional characters? What rabbit hole do you wanna go down, huh??? Uh, Osamu Dazai & Sakunosuke Oda (BSD), Childe & Kaeya Alberich (Genshin), Jude Duarte & Cardan Greenbriar (FOTA), Satory Gojo (JJK), William James Moriarty (MTP, Retsu Unohana & Yruichi Shihoiun & Byakuya Kuchiki (Bleach), Levi Ackerman (AOT) and I think I should shut up—
TAGGED BY: @narvvhal (they said I can steal it and tag them, fanks <3) TAGGING: I don't usually tag people but there are a few I kinda wanna befriend and this is me shooting my shot to invite them to talk to me (more, in some cases, cause I am overthinking it lol)... Apologies if this is a lil personal, guys— you don't have to do it!!! @longerhuman @moonrisenmuses @calamxty @cursedlane
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pawpng · 5 years
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。゚(゚´Д`゚)゚。 dumb vent delete later
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beneaththemasks · 3 years
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Analyzing Atsushi and Akutagawa pt.1 (I have a lot to say so there's gonna be a part 2)
CW: Dazai hate
first of all I want to clarify that I don’t think any of this is going to happen but it’d be really nice if it did... however, since BSD is a fiction story and my analysis is based on what would be ideal in the real life I don’t think it’s too likely for this to happen.
I think Atsushi should leave the ADA and Akutagawa should leave the Port Mafia.
To begin with, I’d like to tell you how I came up with this idea; 
The thing is that in the BSD fandom there’s this (sadly too popular) discussion about Atsushi being a good, strong and entertaining main character or not. Many times I’ve seen people discussing this as if it was simply and wholy a matter of yes or no and the more the discussion grows the more angry I get (but i get angry too easily so don’t mind me).
In my opinion Atsushi is not weak, I actually don’t think any character in BSD is tbh (I mean they’d beat the shit out of me even if they don’t know how to fight because all ever do with my life is sit on my tiny piano and play my silly little mozart). But leaving the physical strenght aside, I still don’t think he’s a weak/strong or boring/entretaining character. I think the charm of Atsushi as a MC lies elsewhere.
Yes he’s pretty, he’s kind, he has an e-boy haircut and I’d let him step on me with those worn-out dirty boots.
But he’s also a common person living among prodigies and demons.
(Really, I feel like standing up and appaluding Asagiri for choosing Atsushi as the mc and writing him the way he did because there’s nothing that could make my shitty life better than knowing that the protagonist of my favourite story in the world is someone I can relate so much to that I actually ended up learning more about myself through him.)
And yes, we’ve seen this happen many times in countless stories (yes yes haikyuu for example) where the plot worked as good as any other even though the MC took longer than the rest to get to where they were but managed to do so in the end (unlike the typical shonen mc that levels-up overnight) plus what people mostly criticize about Atsushi as a MC are his constant war flashbacks and how much he self-doubts himself.
So I came to the conclusion that it's not really Atsushi and his journey as a MC but his unresolved trauma what seems to annoy the audience instead.
And that’s how I came up with a fiction-breaking answer to your problems; If you want Atsushi to stop suffering over and over again for the same things, he has to leave the ADA and get some real therapy.
(Don’t misunderstand me, even if I accept him and love him as he’s now, I’d still love it if this were the real final for him bc it hurts me to see him suffer all the time.)
Think about it, Atsushi is just a poor boy, abandoned by hell itself and thrown into the street in the worst conditions a human being could be just to end up running into a maniac manipulator with a good heart that offers him a roof over his head on the condition he accepts a job that Atsushi himself says doesn’t want and is too afraid to be a part of and that he tried to leave once but failed to do so and then felt too guilty to try again because he eats guilt and remorse with milk for breakfast so now he has no choice but risk his life, face his archenemy physical pain to beat his enemies and constantly fear that he might not be doing what’s right or being good enough while having a huge responsibility on his bare shoulders.
As it stands, his situation can only be explained by that famous saying “it’s not that you don’t want to grow/heal, it’s that the environment is not apt for you to do it”. Yeah, no wonder he hasn’t made any progress overnight and feels so hopeless at times.
I love everyone in the ADA (not you Dazai) and their found family made out of scraps and angsty love is all I ever whish for, but just because he’s finally found people to rely on that care about him doesn’t mean it’s enough to heal so much damage (suprise suprise your family and love won’t always be enough to heal trauma). Atsushi won’t overcome his fears by facing them head-on nor will he become more independent by fighting on his own (actually we all know he hates fighting alone and that’s because he’s not in a place where he can trust in himself yet) instead, it’s very likely he’ll end up pushing himself to the limit to get “stronger” faster and end up loosing sight of himself.
And here's where Akutagawa enters.
The reason why I also mention him is because Akutagawa for me is the perfect example of why Atsushi has to stop now before it’s too late. 
Akutagawa has been past the point of no return for a long time now, he’s fought so hard to get "better" faster for the sake of being recognised by Dazai that he stopped recognising what’s real and what’s not. Akutagawa is already strong enough and has everything he needs but can’t recognise it because he works in a place where the more and faster you kill the better you are, so even though he’s the most feared member of the PM he doesn’t believe it because he hasn’t heard Dazai saying it.
To me it makes perfect sense that Dazai insists so much on making them face each other, I mean, Atsushi has everything Akutagawa wants and Akutagawa has everything Atsushi wants and as long each they stay blinded by their own unrealistic expectations they’ll keep risking their lives for something they will never accomplish under those circumstances, it turns into a vicious cycle where Dazai seems to be the only one benefiting from this since he now has two UltraRare awakened subordinates to fight for the sake of his book or whatever he wants. (but don’t let me get too excited about this topic ‘cause I could talk about Dazai for 3 days)
Yes I know I know, it was a very good thing that Asagiri decided to break that toxic vicious cycle and made one of them think for both to finally make Atsushi challenge Akutagawa to stop killing for six months as a condition to fight with him (that's called GROWTH, breaking out of the cage, abandoning the nest, etc).
But unlike Atsushi, Akutagawa doesn’t have many people to rely on when the time all of his enemies show up -after mori has beaten the fuck out of him for not showing results and lowers his rank to the same Oda had- to make him pay (let’s be honest the mafia couldn’t care less about the errand boy).
Basically, Aku has to leave the Port Mafia in order to stay safe, gain perspective and find a reason to live of his own rather than sit and wait for dazai to approve of his every move (the same goes for Sushi, he has to stop throwing himself off of high buildings to save people and stopping bullets with his mouth to be validated by his peers). 
But yeah, Akutagawa is probably not going to leave the PM and Atsushi is probably not going to leave the ADA but as someone who really wants to see them doing some real growth and barely stands this “just forget your trauma and fight” thing that’s going on I had to say it.
I mean, look at Dazai, it was no untill Oda told him he clearly wasn’t going to find a purpose to live that he decided that mayyyyybe the PM was not a good place to try spiritual healing.
What’s more, I’d say almost every single character in BSD is too fucked up to be able to heal in the kind of environmet they work at and that they must have let the pain sink or whatever bc they jsut don’t want to change their lives but idk man that’s fine if it makes them happy. 
:)
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c-h-pictures · 3 years
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One of my stories is slightly based off BSD, different storyline, but slightly based off it. And some of the characters have the same first or last names. Michizou Tanaka being one of those characters.
This is all saved on one pretty big word document.
And I found one of my throw away scenes that I wrote over the last month. It’s just a scene that I think of, but I’m not sure I can fit into the plot, so I write it down and see if I can fit it in at some point. I hadn’t proof read it yet, since I wasn’t sure I’d fit it into the plot, but I decided to read it while I was scrolling throguh looking for a different scene (most of them aren’t ordered) and uhh, yeah.
Spoilers for BSD Chapter 90. Blood, injury, guns, (he doesn’t die at the end, even though it’s left unknown, I jsut want to point out that there is no death in the extract)
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“You thought confronting me alone was a good idea?”
“The issue comes in that you weren’t supposed to be the only one here.” Michizō glanced around, worried by the lack of Jiro Yokota. Owens unsheathed a blade with a green tinge to the metal. “What happened to your normal sword?”
“Nothing happened to it, Tanaka. I have merely chosen to show you this one.”
“What is it? Why are you showing me it?” Owens laughed at the shaking in Michizō’s voice. “I’m not going to tell you, because that would mean you can tell April and Alex.”
“And Sai.”
“Oh, that’s right! You don’t know what happened to Saigiku.” Michizō froze at Owens’ words. Sai was strong with his ability, the only way to prevent him from helping was to kill him. The first death in the A-Team. If Owens had the ability to Saigiku of all people, then the rest of the team would be no match for him. But how? Saigiku’s ability had its own manifestation and mind – Owens killing Saigiku was equivalent to Owens killing 5 people. “You know what you are, Michizō? The exact opposite of Yokota-Stevens. You had a loving family, though still mostly gone as with Jiro, and a combat ability. Not only that, but you also have a combat ability that relies entirely on your sight. Imagine if Jiro had your ability and you had Jiro’s, or you were the one who got blinded as a kid by their father rather than Jiro. Wouldn’t that be interesting? Everything about your life would be different. Maybe even your family would still be alive – if you couldn’t use your ability, hunters would never have tried to get a bounty on you, your parents would never have died, you never would’ve been separated from Akari, you never would’ve had to leave Japan. You might even have been able to stay in your charming town – what was it called again?”
“Karuizawa.”
“Karuizawa, yes that was it.”
“Why are you stalling?” Michizō glanced around again. It was still only him and Owens there. “What makes you think I’m stalling?”
“You’ve never cared where in Japan I’m from, or where in Japan Jiro’s mother was from before. Why would you care now?”
“Did it ever occur to you that I’m stalling for your benefit?” Owens gave a smile. A red flash slipped between Owens and Michizō. “What the hell was that?” Owens had no worries or cares. He gave the sword in his hand a quick flick and the tip of the blade disappeared. Michizō turned around, expecting to see the blade there. He was correct. The tip of the blade froze in the air, just barely avoiding Michizō. “Hmm, reactions have gotten better. I guess all your training paid off in the end.” Owens laughed slightly. “A pity. You could’ve gotten far if you didn’t confront me.” Something hit Michizō, knocking him to the ground. A bullet? No, it didn’t feel right. But there was still the feel of blood on his back. “Thank you, Toru.”
“We’re breaking off from Aleksei’s plan.” Toru sighed as he walked around to stand in front of Michizō. “I take it from that that you know the truth, Toru?” Michizō struggled to speak. “I do.”
“Then why are you still following his orders?” Toru propped Michizō up with his foot and bent down to stare the younger directly in the eyes. “Because he has the right ideas. Do you really think he’d explain what he wanted to do with the ability to The Posse? They’re already split up. The strategist proposed a plan that gets Owens killed because it aids his own plans. He’s off hiding with two of the others. Now, since I answered your question, why don’t you answer mine? Do you know how my ability works yet?”
“No.”
“Hm. How sweet.”
“You sound like Jiro. Ready to break someone down to their last will.”
“Really? Wouldn’t you consider Yokota worse?” Michizō turned his head, looking towards Owens. “If Jiro was stood there, I would probably have already gotten more injured, so yes. I would consider them worse. But they have a past that you don’t.” Michizō winced as Toru’s foot dug into his shoulder. “Toru, we do need him alive for the plan to work.” In a flash, the tip of the blade in Owens’ hand disappeared again. Toru was knocked backwards by something that quickly disappeared into Michizō’s sleeve. The younger stood, the green tinged blade appearing by his neck. “You shouldn’t have said that, Owens. I am part of the A-Team, just as you are. As with Jiro, April, and Alex, I am prepared for every and any day to be my last. That’s how you trained us. Prepared to die at any moment. Don’t think I wouldn’t die to stop you.” Owens glanced at Toru to see him unconscious. “You struck Toru hard.”
“I did.” The blade by Michizō began wavering slightly. “I still have a hold on this blade, Michizō. That leaves the only answer to this to a simple question: Who has the stronger mind?” Smiling, Owens leant against the wall. “I think we both know the answer to that.” The blade flicked against Michizō’s head, cutting over his eyes. Before Michizō could register the blood on his face, the blade stabbed through his stomach. He attempted to cover both the wounds, but Owens had already pulled out his gun. Michizō didn’t realise until the trigger was pulled, and he fell backwards from the force of the hit. “Maybe we can manage without him.” Owens sighed as he flicked his hand. Both he and Toru disappeared, leaving Michizō Tanaka on the ground: not moving, not conscious, just bleeding from two sword wounds and one gun shot.
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Uhh. What did I do and should I be worried?
Because I wrote this before Chapter 90 came out.
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catboy-komaeda · 3 years
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ehh if for the "give me a character and i'll describe why i wont date them" thingy uhh makoto naegi or atsushi nakajima? if u have seen bsd
1. uhhhhh makotos great n all,,, hes the ultimate hope,,, but hes also my least favorite protag so ya. i jsut feel the other protags had more dimension + char development. in short hed not a chad n i only date chads 😈‼️
2. idk what bsd
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laceymorganwrites · 5 years
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Hi! Can I please get a BSD matchup? I'm 5'4, with long black hair and grey eyes. I love reading (especially classic literature), writing, sketching, and singing. I'm an introvert, love to daydream and quite shy, to the point that I often get mistaken for arrogant. I don't take offence easily, but once I do, it's hard to get back on my good side. Other things that fascinate me are philosophy, the concept of justice and good and evil, morals, the meaning (or rather, pointlessness) of life, etc.
Of Course my Darling! (this is my first matchup, i don´t know where to go with this and if this is what you wanted aaah…. please tell me if you wanted something else or i should Change anything)
I match you up with….
Dazai!
What catches his eye first? Well, to this day he can´t say exactly what it was, it wasn´t just a simple Thing, but the first time he saw you it jsut hit him like a truck. Of Course Dazai is drawn to all Pretty People coming his way, so he just had to Approach you. 
What made him fall in love with you? Over the time you two met and dated he felt himself get lost in you more and more until he knew he was in love. It was the way you were caught up in your own world but still managed to touch his heart with simple apologetic smiles you sent his way whenever you noticed your Absence. He loved listening to you sing, he felt like you invited him into your world and he felt Special. One day he saw you sketching him and his heart never jumped so fast in his life. That was the Moment he knew he loved you. He never thought you would ever consider the same Feelings for him, spend your time thinking About him.
First date? When he asked you out first, he took you home and you talked the whole night through, he fell asleep at work the next day, much to Kunikida´s dismay. He just knew there was something Special About you, you weren´t like the other ones and he couldn´t get you out of his head ever since.
What is it like being with Dazai? Dazai is calm and collected, he Always has a plan and schemes his way through life to get his Advantage. But when it Comes to love and you he´s very insecure. He has never been in love like that, never even thought About being with someone. He doesn´t think he can give you what you want, hell, he doesn´t even know what he´s doing, not in this matter.  So you have to be there for him at all times, 100 percent. He Needs cuddles all the time, prepare. You also have to be Patient, Dazai´s life has been very dark, you are his light, as cheesy as that might Sound. He would Need time to open up About his past and let you in, but it´s worth it.
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the new bsd chapter makes me wanna cry so bad ... the moment we get kunichuu, the interaction of dazai’s past and present partners, kunikida fucking THROWS HIMSELF OUT OF A HELICOPTER AND BLOWS HIMSELF UP and the thing is asagiri show close to no healing time for kunikida like seriously every traumatic thing that happened to the pure man was just ... rubbed off? like he’s just suffering and suffering and suffering AND NO ONE UPDATES HOW HE’S DOING ... am sad ...
ok  O K  OKOH MBOY. 
KUNIKIDA HAS, FROM THE MOMENT THE RUSSIANS FIRST MADE THEIR MOVE, BEEN BEAT UP, EMOTIONALLY SCARRED, BLOWN UP, AND THROWN IN JAIL. HE’S BLAMED HIMSEFL FOR THE DEATH OF A LITTLE GIRLTHAT HE DIDN’T IN ANY WAY KILL, MAN.
HE WANTED TO STAY IN PRISON BECAUSE OF THE GUILT!!!!!!!!
HE WAS JUST RETURNING TO SOME NORMALCY THEN THIS HAPPENS.  HE IS  SUDDENLY BEING HUNTED AS A LEGITIMATE MURDERER, HE POSSIBLY KILLS AND INNOCENT GUARD, AND THE AGENCY IS THREATENED. THE MOMENT YOSANO’S LIFE WAS IN DANGER IN THE NEW CHAPTER HE TOLD THEM HE’D SURRENDER. HE WOULD LITERALLY THROW AWAY HIS WHOLE LIFE TO NOT SEE ANYONE OF THEM HARMED. HIS IDEALS GOT LITERALLY RIPPED UP IN FRONT OF HIM.
 WHEN HE’S IN THAT HELICOPTER JUST FEELING ALL THAT PRESSURE AND STRESS AND TRAUMA  BUILDING UP KENJI, THE LIGHT OF EVERYONE’S LIFE, STABBED AND FATALLY WOUNDED. SO HE JSUT JUMPS OUT AND PULLS THE PIN ON THAT GRENADE TO AVE THEM ALL AND EVEN ACKNOWLEDGED IT WAS PRACTICALLY SUICIDE. HE WAS DRIVEN TO THE EDGE AND STILL EVERYTHING HE DID WAS ALL FOR HIS FAMILY AND I DEA LS
I’M A MESS
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mlmvalentinez · 7 years
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freakvampiresex-2 · 3 years
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i love u :DDDD !!!!! m soso happy ur my big brother :] like genuienly jsut. talking to u n getting to be near u (as best as i csn on tumblr skdhs) genuienly comfortznme so much loke whenever im feeling bsd sbout stucf n u send me an ask it alwYz makez me feel soso much better. n jjst! i love u so much ok ur genuienly thenbest big brother ever (n also ik ull alwayz protect me from the bad guys)
oh mu god...... boychik i love u sm this is the sweetest msg ive ever gotten on tumblr :,) im so glad i met u & can protect u and b there for u, my fav and only little brother
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dykedruid · 5 years
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bsd?
haven’t heard of it | absolutely never watching | might watch | currently watching | dropped | hated it | meh | a positive okay | liked it | liked it a lot! | loved it | a favorite
don’t watch period | drop if not interested within 2-3 episodes | give it a go, could be your thing | 5 star recommendation
fav characters: akutagawa, lucy least fav characters: the rich guy i forgot his namefav relationship: atsushi/akutagawa, dazai/chuuyafav moment: the whole time on the airship where akutagawa and atsushi fought was rly cool, whenever kyouka was happy lolheadcanons/theories: idfk unpopular opinion: akutagawa or atsushi with dazai is p weird idk their ages but the dynamics just feels offhow’d you find it: the first season came out when i kept up with new anime so i picked up the mangarandom thoughts: i was thinking abt picking it up again the other day i remember i jsut dropped it when some het shit started happening
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