#but i dont feel like a fucking robot anymore

[heavy-lobster]

Hate it when I see people say shit like "the Violet paradox mons are so stupid and lame, they're all just robots!" like uhmmmmm yea they are and it OWNS ok. blasts you with my beam attack

#the killer robot aesthetic fucks severely and is MUCH scarier #and imo it works a lot better with the plot tbh #iron jugulis and iron thorns are PEAK #iron valiant and iron moth are RAD #iron bundle is SILLAY #iron hands #i ended that tag to early but i forgot what i was going to say there anyways whoopsies #anyways i feel like its fits the unnatural horrors beyond human comprehension vibe a lot better #“theyre all just robots” well all the scarlet exclusives are just dinosaurs. fucker #well guess what my son boy Henry is a robot AND a dinosaur piss your pants about it #the fact that theyre all robots MAKES it scary like. why! how far in the future is this! at what point will every pokemon become a robot! #how terrifying is this future that they had to become robots in order to survive. did they even BECOME anything or #did the people of the future create them to look like present day pokemon that are now extinct. #much more intriguing to me personally than. here is a woolly mammoth. its descendants do not look like this anymore bc idk evolution or wtv #not saying i dont like the ancient pkmn just saying the people who dislike the future ones are WRONG theyre sick as hell ok #anyways more importantly for each version what paradox mon do you think fucked Arven and Mabosstiff up so bad like #ive been thinking about this a LOT #cant be one of the ones you encounter with him present or he probably wouldve brought it up #my bet for Violet is iron valiant since i feel like thats the scariest #i have no thoughts on scarlet but i guess the equivalent #(based on pokedex placement) #would be roaring moon #idk tho i havent thought about it much #either way. fucking terrifying #pokemon spoilers #lobster.txt

[robocops-a-christ-allegory]

Whats a nice way to tell people that freaking out every time a massive corporation uses AI art and acting like THATS what shows they have no morals is silly.

#I dunno guys. #this is about the w/acom thing #Like is it just me or is it like....where was wacom getting the images- #-they used for their products before. Does it really matter theyre using AI generated stock photos now? #Also personally people have gotten so paranoid about AI I dont actually believe anythings #actually AI generated until someone admits it #Like Ill admit Im bad at being able to tell and I dont think staring at images trying to find #any inconsistency and taking that as proof the robots made it is like. actually a useful method here #I dont know I still am very apathetic to the 'its taking jobs from artists!' argument #Still of the stance those jobs were already gone/this was always #the direction the industry was heading #and people are focusing too much on the use of AI specifically as this grand evil thing #I do think it is gonna take jobs I dont know my point here is it still feels to me like #people are mad that theyre not gonna be able to be exploited anymore. If that makes sense. #Like these jobs already sucked and youre mad youre not gonna be able to be overworked instead of being mad about the way the industry like #Is. Like theres a reason these big companies are using AI it fits a trend but you just wanna focus on the AI use specifically. IF THAT MAKE #SENSE. SORRY. #Also not saying people should be thankful for AI taking their jobs Im saying talk about more then the fucking AI #Ok anyway

[gaystardykeco]

not ready to go back to work tomorrow but luckily im so not ready that my brain isn't letting it fully process and so im just kind of numb except for little moments when the panic breaks through again

#feeling more and more like a robot and less and less like a person the emptier my life gets #the future is so empty like its just work and isolation forever #i have one thing left at the end of this week and then after that its just work and family and alone #and i think numbing out completely is really the only way ill be able to cope at all #i didnt used to really be able to do that but maybe now im to the point where i just have to so its become an option #idk i also might just be lying to myself and be about to get hit really hard with how bad this all is tomorrow #job interview friday. but plausibly i dont think i can take the job even if i get it bc i just dont think i can move to nyc #i just feel like ive hit a dead end #like i was a side character in someone elses story and that person has moved on so im just like floating in stasis #bc my part of the story is over i wrote myself out of their lives so i don't really exist anymore #idk my brain is telling me all these things that i know are silly but feel so true and i just am tired and empty #sorry to be dramatic and complain again just dreading work so bad #i just dont see any path forward thats not this forever loop like i cant make or have real connections with other ppl #and thats whats supposed to make a life real and worth living #but ive never had the capacity to connect right and ive never had passion for anything and ive never been able to really love and be loved #and i dont know how to fix any of it bc honestly i dont think any of its fixable #ill always be an emotionally harmful drain on anyone i think i love and ill always be left when they realize that #and then ive just hurt another person and i dont want to be a person that just hurts people so i cant be around people anymore #but its so empty and its so lonely and i hate myself so fucking much #anyway. i sound like a pathetic whiny teenager lmao sorry i know how stupid it all is i promise

[ventcode]

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#my paranoias gotten. so much worse lately. with everything. its been ovbious. #everything feels.. so exhausting and i dont want to deal with anything. #i can always stay silly but im still so paranoid and stressed out #and i KEEP SAYING “WHATEVER” #i dont think i can say it much longer #before i just fucking snap and break. #i already said.. if i keep it in for too long. i cause harm to myself. yet im keeping it in. *why*. #i dont want to cause everyone issues. i realize i just ramble about anything. ill talk about anything. i want attention to make sure #im not hated by everyone. and even if they say they dont hate me part of me just doesn't believe them. im easily hateable. #like im a burden to everyone around me. a waste of space. the noticably of my disappearance if i just. dont come online. #but even after those moments. i feel monotone like i dont care. robotic. but zombielike. none to speak and dry to type. #im exhausted. i dont feel like it anymore. it just feels normal. cause its been so much more frequent. #i already feel myself breaking slowly. #i think im still out of it from last night. fun.. how awesome and amazing. no wonder I've felt like this all day.

[sister-sp1d3r]

waffle house after work ended up with

7 plays of robot rock

1 play of paramore

2 plays of yellowcard

5 syrup shots taken [1 FROM THE COOK]

2 vineyard vines shorts shat

1 screen protector destroyed

#avi life #we love the waffle house jukebox #this group of people comes in lookin like theyre from The Villages #[ie rich bitches who sit around play golf n do fuck all] #i put robot rock on once and the dude starts complaining #then proceeds to fight with his wife #‘you put water in my seat my ass is wet’ ‘maybe you shouldntve shit your pants then’ #like 😳😳😳 #i laughed so hard i almost died and shattered my screen protector #i have no mercy left for this dude shitting his pants and somehow blaming his wife #i queued robot rock 6 more times. #get salt n pepper dinerd idiot #we also empty out the butter cups to drink syrup out of them #and one of the cooks joined in we had fun #theres prolly a video of me dancing in the parking lot with everybody floating around the internet #it just #feels good to have friends to fuck around with still #i feel like with college and being the only one from my hs group not in college ive really been kinda pushed aside #and that im constantly missing out on fun things and dont really have that many friends friends anymore??? #but im glad i have this every once in a while :] #n that i have a place where i can be sillygoofy with a buncha people n not have to be on something to do it!!!

[zeezu-ix]

if sonic boom wont give me the rest of team dark then i'll do it myself!!!!!!!

lately ive been thinking about how boom would implement all the characters that weren't included in the show and UGRHHHH.. THEY'VE BEEN ROTTING MY MIND. especially team dark they'd be sooo silly and rouge would tease shadow to death i think.

for rouge i literally smashed together all of her outfits (her usual one, heroes and a teeeeny bit of the elite agent one) but she's solely a treasure hunter!! Maybe an ex agent but she definitely isn't working for anybody at the moment (i like to think sticks is onto her and how she's totally a government spy)

omega!!!!!! since shadow was never taken and sealed away by eggman in boom i felt like omega's reasons for going against his own creator had to be WAY more geared towards him feeling like he's being held back and disregarded despite his capabilities. like maybe he was used for chores or something stupid despite looking and being built like an absolute tank (eggman just got carried away designing him) and he decided what the fuck!! i dont want to do this for you anymore!! honestly his story is still a huge work in progress so URGHH (also BOO blue eyed omega). i really REALLY tried to make him resemble boom eggman's robots so hope that worked

BUT YEAH!! they both definitely need a little more work done on them (still have zero clue on rouge's colour pallete). ALSO, with this au (au????? im gonna call it an au) i really want to keep the light-hearted and overall really stupid atmosphere of the show, like as much as i am a sucker for angst i seriously have NO clue how the hell im gonna deal with shadow's past. i also have some ideas for silver, espio and charmy too so might design them if i get the time!!! then again i always start these things then do ONE post and never come back to it (sooo guilty of this)

#my art! #SORRY FOR THE ABSOLUTE. RANT. UNDERNEATH THE CUT #also sorry if none of it is coherent i just need my ideas down #ESPECIALLY THE OMEGA PARAGRAPH #sth #rouge the bat #e123 omega #sonic boom #remembered that the symmetry ruler exists and i went sooo wild

[cringefail-clown]

at last, where doing it man where MAKING THIS HAPPEN

cringes jakehal fic rec list

just so were clear: some of the fics are unfinished, and havent been updated in a while. leaving a comment to let the author know that youre reading and youre enjoying it is fine, but dont be a bag of dicks and harass them over when the new chapter will be up. have some decency or else ill be inside your walls.

Heart by fawn_writes || rated T || 1/1 || 663 words - man its so good. short and sweet. jake comes by to witness the construction of hals new body while also reminiscing about the times he fought brobot and his untimely demise. a good sparkling of body worship. "Everything will be normal. They’ll manage to keep it normal. After all, Jake has enough of his own heart to share." - fuck, that lines so effervescent.

What he needs by fawn_writes || rated M || 1/1 || 1259 words - another banger from the same author. they be doing the horizontal tango, but nothings too graphic. healthy serving of body worship from jakes perspective, as well as his internal struggle with his apparent robotic attraction.

Dead Weight by squirtgunplay || rated M || 5/9 || 27337 words - oh that fic. oh my god. love me some zombie apocalypse au with existential horror sprinkled on top. hal and dirk are twins but with a twist in this one. theres mystery. theres injuries that make you incapable of moving around. theres ship of theseus discussion. its nourishing. its beautiful. jake and hals banter in this one is fucking amazing, and the author captures their characters so well. the relationship between hal and dirk is also very fucking good and heartwrenching and just ugh. stellar writing, the forth wall break made me laugh out loud, hal gets called a security camera (derogatory). theres graphic depictions of violence, so beware of the tags.

Tennessee Whiskey & You by MistLaFey || rated T || 5/? || 12217 words - major character death and graphic depictions of violence tagged, so beware and read the tags. no-sburb au. dirk fucking dies (its in the fic description so i dont feel like its a spoiler). beautiful exploration of grief, unhealthy coping mechanisms and trying to get back into the normal life when theres a big part of it suddenly missing. hal and dirk are twins. jake is not doing well. hal is also not doing well, but pretending he is. its heartbreaking and some scenes made my chest hurt. very good fic and i dont understand why it doesnt get more love. it deserves it. go read it, even just for the funeral scene, i got teary-eyed over it.

seconds by squirtgunplay || rated E || 2/2 || 18698 words - graphic depictions of violence and its no joke, presidential alert the girls are fightinnn!! but its also so funny and the authors so funny and its also really hot! no sburb au, hals a human and dirks twin. he gets kidnapped by a craigslist hitman jake who mistakes him for dirk. the banter is top game in this one. hal cant keep his mouth shut even in life or death situation. jakes a dork, but hes a deadly dork, and also cant keep his mouth shut about his personal problems. theres fistfighting and knifethrowing and hal gets a weapon put to his head at least twice and he thinks its pretty damn hot. theres banging in second chapter. what more can i say to sell you on this one. the characters are on point, the action is tense but its also written in a cheeky, fun way, smut is good, a npc gets unsubscribed from life. amazing fic, 10/10, will read it again.

I Think Therefore I AR by Taxi_Boy || rated T || 25/? || 30417 words - im saving the best for last. major character death. hal has to start the game and get his friends into the medium while dirk is missing, while also pretending to be dirk as to not raise their suspicions. im not going to say anymore about the plot, you just have to go and read the fic. genuinely my favourite jakehal - and homestuck in general - fic of all time. i love caliborn in this one. i cant wait to see what the author has cooked up for us in the future. its plainly genious.

these are only ao3 fics as i have no clue how tf you search other fanfic sites for a specific ship, but if you have any other recommendations feel free to add them onto this post! we all need some good jakehal fic recs in these trying times!

#homestuck #homestuck au #jake english #hal strider #lil hal #auto responder #jakehal #haljake #reblog to save a jakehaler

[edgelord-battle-bracket]

EDGELORD BATTLE BRACKET 2024: ROUND 2

Propaganda:

Seto Kaiba:

Seto Kaiba is an orphan. He's also a billionaire. He's all alone and nobody understands him. He also has a devoted younger brother and a whole gaming company. At one point he and his brother sunk an artificial island to prove a point. He has beef with a ghost. He has a jetpack. And a private jet. Both of these are shaped like a dragon. Specifically one dragon, blue eyes white dragon. Because he is in love with the dragon. The dragon is a card. He is in love with a card.

His abusive adoptive father committed suicide after he beat him a chess. The main character trapped him in a card for being a bit of a dick. Despite most people never recovering from punishment games Kaiba comes back; hes much worse. He makes a whole death game amusement park to kill his classmate in revenge. He makes this whole deal a day 1 attraction for people to watch. He then gets trapped in ANOTHER punishment game, a mind puzzle to find his true self, and comes back AGAIN through sheer force of will. His true self is not in anyway less evil. Its arguably worse than his first appearance but hes not trying to kill the protag anymore so we dont care. Hes arguably NOT the edgiest character in Yu-Gi-Oh.

Metal Sonic:

somewhat the blueprint for our reigning edgelord. a robot copy that thinks he's the original and HATES the real thing. when he rebels he first takes on a spikier form as neo metal sonic, complete with studded belt and black cape.. his end goal is called METAL OVERLORD and is a gigantic fucked up dragon robot. besides that he normally can't talk and i feel like the amount of inferred seething you get from his red glowy eyes is something special. he has sharp little hands and the way he swipes at people with them tells me he WANTS TO STAB SO BADLY. he's my special little guy.

#edgelordbattlebracket #edgelordbattlebracket2024 #polls #round 2 #seto kaiba #kaiba #yugioh #metal sonic #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #sth

[buwheal]

what are personally your favorite spamton headcanons?

OOooooh this was the wrong thing to ask me if you hate lots of letters on your screen. Get ready!!!!!! Here's my list :-) Its not organized by least to most btw im just typing everything i like lol :

puppetification theory.. AAUUUGHHH!!!!! this one is so much fun for so many reasons.

he's got a BJD (ball jointed doll) body

He's kinda an asshole

While a good chunk of his glitching is from puppetification, way more of it is from malware he's collected over like 20 years on the streets of cyber city

He absolutely feels and is aware of his glitches but he's so used to them it doesnt really bother him anymore. scratch that, it 100% does bother him that his body is actively defying him. but what can you do? :shrug:

he's like 5'1. I HATE HATE HATE seeing him the size of a toddler both because you can literally see his world sprite is the same height as kris, which is a teenager (His proportions just are unbelievably fucked up because of puppetification) and because thats just kinda weird. Something about making him so so small feels weird to me but im not sure, really. take it with a grain of salt.

He was an Email Addison. You see it everywhere. He was like a mailman or something.

He wasnt like four foot or something throuhghout his whole life, but i do imagine he was only slightly smaller than an Addison, which doesnt sound that bad except when you realize everyone else is normal height except him. Maybe it was a manufacutring bug, or maybe it was intentional for his job.

Addisons are like weird organic robots kinda. Cause everything in cyber city is made of code i imagine they are like basically sentient AI.

They (addisons) physically do not age unless their code is damaged. (Guess who's code is fucked up) They were "born" physically and half-mentally adults, and count their age based on their manufacturing date. I say mentally half because it quickly develops soon after while they do things like advertise. Their personality develops a time after.

HE IS OLD!!!!!!! HE'S AN OLD GUY!! HES GOT LITTLE WRINKLES N SHIT!!! HES GOT A GREY STRIPE!!!!!! Not really because of physical aging but its more of like a glitch tbh lol. Like a chunk glitch in minecraft. Whatever happened as his code got progressively more beat up caused a patch of his hair to register incorrectly and show up slightly wrong.

His hair is natrually white. He dyed it in his big shot era ofc, but it faded out. He keeps it colored currently with car oil and shit. Whatever he can find that will color it. It will and does wash out partially when he's drenched in the rain.

He completely refuses to acknowledge his physical changes. Glimpses he sees he ignores or passes it off as he's seeing things.

He prayed to the Neo robot because he saw the beginning of puppetification. He was praying for forgiveness or another chance. He believed it was a divine punishment because he had no other explination. He doesnt believe he changed much more than the very very early stages, and he thinks he's forgiven in his delusion. Which is why he wants the robot so bad.

When he gets mad he turns kinda red and steam comes out the side of his head in short bursts, train whistle sound effects and all. looney tunes type junk.

He has lips... but they're stretched so far because of his huge fucking brick ass teeth that it doesnt really matter at that point.

He's got a scraggly ass mullet.

he has little bitty dot eyes. Every other addison does too but they keep them closed for visual appeal. Theyre robots and shit they dont really need them to get around, even though they help a lot.

Thats about all i can think of rn!!!! ^_^ hope you enjoy that brick of text lol.

#[you've got mail!]

[kiyocuck]

in my head there are two kinds kiyotaka ishimaru. one of them is the canon one thats deep into his fucked up trauma and cannot disconnect himself from the mindset that nothing is more important than school and nothing about him and himself as a person is more important than his education

the other one is post therapy taka, whos a young adult just trying to figure himself for out after bottling himself up his entire life, trying new things, trying different styles, not wearing his uniform anymore, trying to listen to music, picking up a hobby, like reading Actual non related to studying stuff, like classic literature, or just fantasy (i dont think he'd enjoy drawing or feel confident in writing dont mention those), drinking alcohol, eating junk, going out at night, trying to sit more casually, trying to talk more casually, opening up to his loved ones

i just think he wants to desperately feel human. maybe im just heavily projecting onto my fav stupid idiot Guy, but i think he'd just have moments where he'd have an actual breakdown, not about school or studying, but because his entire life was wasted onto making himself into a perfect little robot that does what authority tells him and follows the rules and doesnt question anything. i think if he met that version of him we see in the game he'd grab him by the uniform and tell him to start living his life or he wont make it out *alive*

also fuck spike chunsoft for thinking hed be a fucking politician they literally dont know their own characters he would not be a fucking politician If you think he would be a politician and dont see how bullshit that is i will fold you 7 times like a piece of paper You are a FOOL

#danganronpa #danganronpa trigger happy havoc #kiyotaka ishimaru #ghdo i fucking hate this guy i hate kiyotaka ishimaru i hate him #i want him gone hes rotting my head #taka brainrot but i wanna shoot my HEAD #he makes me alcoholic

[lokisivy]

Charles Xavier X Fem!Mutant!Reader

Timeline: 1973 (X-men days future and past)

summary: you have a secret you kept from Charles after he got depressed and after stopping the serum he regains his powers and tries to read your mind.

warnings: angst, abortion and mentions of depression and panic attacks

your pov

It was another day like any other Charles getting drunk and trying to mask his sadness with sarcasm its been almost 11 years since Cuba and after losing his legs, raven, Erick and the school shutting down. he got so depressed.

i knew the moment he tried to pick me us at the bar with his mutant facts that he was the love of my life and i felt it too in him.

one of my powers are being able to feel others feeling.

i tried cheering him up with sex and romantic trips but he was still sad.

but then angel from the future named Logan came and told him about a future where all mutants are dying from robots made by Ravens DNA.

"Yeah I remember you now, I'm gonna say what you said to us before 'Fuck off' "

I was mad so mad i ran after him going to his rokm blowing at him

"What the fuck Charles!" i yelled at him

"what do you want now." he scoffs getting a syringe to take

"This man out there just said that the fate of many mutants lies on our hands and your fucking telling him to fuck off."

"How much longer are you gonna hide its been 10 fucking years you need to face the music Charles, bad things happen and we choose whether we want it to affect us or not." you yelled getting more furious at his calmness and unbothered self

"nothing matters anymore." he took a swing of the bottle of alcohol next to him

"What about me?" my heart started to ache I felt his love drift away everyday i dont if it was the sadness or him but i definitely felt something change.

he doesn't answer and starts laying on his back.

i was on the brink of crying at this point i couldn't hold it anymore longer

"Tell me charles!" i start sobbing i couldn't take in anymore of this emotional build up.

"because i never feeling any emotions from you when i'm around you!"

i falls on my knees crying out all my feelings that i've contained

i suddenly felt a warm embrace it was Charles hugging me cressing my head

"You mean the world to me darling."

"if anyone tried to hurt you i would feel sorry for what happens to them."

i hugged him back finally feeling the comfort i've been seeking all this time i sob on his shoulders

"I'm sorry i didn't acknowledge your feelings i was being selfish like you said but i swear i love you."

----

after a while Charles regained his powers and the time youve feared has come. before he took the serum charles would always get in your head and check on you. not that he didn't trust you, but you in fact told him too it was very handy when you were aroused he would give you everything you thought about.

when ever you didn't want him to read your mind you thought about something that could keep him out and when you did that he would give you the privacy you needed

you always thought about a garden of sunflowers where you were picking flowers.

after charles trying to find raven with Cerebro he got frustrated for not being able to connect to her.

"I cant do this." charles said

"No you can just try." logan said

he looked into logans memory and then drifted to me trying to tell me he wants to trying to read my mind

"Can I?" he looked at me

you didnt want to seem sus so you leaned down on you knees giving him acesses to hold your head.

"Why are you thinking about flowers, do you not want me to read your mind?"

"Yes.."

"What are you hiding Y/N?"

he hold your head trying to look past your memories

"Charles stop!" you try to get out of the tight grip but it doesn't work his grip is too tight

he got closer to the memory you wanted to avoid

he saw it all

you laying on a bed getting a the abortion

the pregnancy results

you talking to hank about it

"You were pregnant with our child and you killed it"

"Please don't say that charles." tears start to pool in my eyes.

"Why didn't you tell me?" he said with hurt in his voice

"I'm sorry i swear i wanted to tell you but i thought that it was for the best not to overwhelm you and put pressure on you. you were always sad and angry it was the wrong time having a child." my voice cracked

"It wasn't your choice to make by yourself Y/N ! it was my child too!" rage filled his voice

"I'm so sorry i was scared how you would react i thought you might blame me for ruining your life i'm sorry." you cried holding his head close to you trying to make him feel your emotions

"Ruining? Y/N if i knew you were pregnant it would've given me hope, to be better."

"i didnt know im sorry please forgive me charles." you tried to feel his emotions bt he was blocking you.

"Please tell me what you feel."

"I'm afraid you wont like what you feel, you must already feel horrible about it and i need time to process it." he said cressing my head.

"You still love me right?" you asked scared of his answer.

"I still love you darling but you need to know that this is all new to me... Alright?" he tried reassure me but i sense a wave of hesitation in his voice.

i knew he wasnt okay i know he hates me for what i did im trying to accese his emotions but he keeps blocking me.

we left Cerebro and on our way to the plane i talked with hank.

"Do you think what i did was wrong?" i asked him trying to seek comfort

"I'm not in a place to say what you did was wrong because I think what you did was brave you knew it was the wrong time to have a child and you didn't want to gamble but hiding it from Charles was wrong who knows he might have changed for the baby made a better life out of it."

Panic rose to my throat, the moment I stepped into the plane you went to the bathroom Charles was already there and he noticed your panic

you couldn't breathe the air was stuck in your throat.

This is all my fault you kept saying to yourself

"Y/N what is going on are you okay?"

your heard Charles in your head "Charles... I'm sorry Charles it's all my fault I killed our baby it's all my fault." You cried you fell on your knees

You didn't notice Charles in the bathroom until he tried to hold your head.

"It's me it's just me dont worry, darling," he reassured you.

You turned to him hugging him burying your face in his chest.

"I'm sorry- i- it was a mistake I should've told you." you cried

yes, Charles was upset about the abortion but a part of him knew that he was too far down the rabbit hole he wouldn't have been supportive.

"I need you to calm down my love." he tried to pull your face to see it

"I can't- I-"

"Calm down." he gave your mind the order.

your breath slowed down. you stopped crying.

he wiped your tears off of your face. "It's alright my love you were trying to protect me I admit I'm upset about it but we can make more when we are ready I need you to promise me you won't hide from me something like that ever again," he said tucking some of the hairs out of your face behind your ears.

"I promise, I won't hide from your anything again," you promised him and you tend to keep it.

"It's alright I'm here my angel." you smiled at the nickname.

he took your hand and placed it on his head allowing you to feel his emotions and all you felt was love and protection towards you

"I love you so much." you laughed lightly kissing his lips.

You felt his heart flutter when you said that giving you the reply you need.

"I love you more." he kissed back.

excuse me if I switched points of view I'm too tired to care tbh

#james mcavoy #charles xavier #charles xavier smut #x men apocalypse #new xmen #x men fanfiction #hank mccoy #evan peters imagine #evan peters smut #evan peters x reader

[pinkandpurple360]

Fizz doesn't like the lust ring? Where... where do you get that from? Not trying to be rude, but i dont see that at all. There is a difference between not liking his home vs. not liking the sexual exploitation of himself. He genuinely had fun performing in the club. The only time he was uncomfortable was when he had to pitch the robots. Or at Mammon's when the lady flashed him and he said "lust, love it there obviously" the cover-up is moreso from the fact he has a stranger's breasts in his face and is trying to keep it together. Not him literally being uncomfortable with the lust ring. Fizz does enough being raunchy, but only with his boyfriend. He's quite obviously very sexual, so saying "he doesn't like lust" doesn't make sense to me? It's just the difference of strangers treating him like a sex doll that he actually hates.

Turned into a rant so please just read the parts that interest you.

His home is the Lust Ring how can he hate being sexualised while at the same time loving the lust ring and being lustful to everyone around him on stage?? But also only liking sexuality in private with his partner? Your own words are contradicting themselves. the streets are called wet dreamsville and on the stage, he has to call everyone sexy? Did you miss the part where the narrative acknowledges the whole performance was disingenuous? That was the whole theme of Ozzies and the real reason they went after Moxxie.

Even in his own home he has to keep secrets from everyone, and can’t relax. Sleeping under a spotlight.

Why would we establish beforehand that fizz is stressed and lying though his teeth, then have that scene, him asking where people are from, the second time there’s an implied interest in travelling after Oz mentioned a vacation earlier, and why would he say “love it there obviously..” someone else saying “you’re not even a clown anymore, all you do is work at that overpriced sleaze joint” in the previous episode blitz saying “does fucking that lust guy make this what you’re all about now?” And fizz has no rebuttal because it kindve is. Also, in Ozzies, he’s not a jester either, at all, he performs alongside the king to pick on a peasant, that is the complete and utter opposite of s court jester. The only time he’s been kind of a jester is pointing the finger at Mammon and not having him see that he’s the butt of the joke. But even then he’s performing with a different king, he’s just behind the stage, so that’s more hypocrisy.

Another one. Mammon talking about sexual fans saying “don’t you want that fizzi?” And him slowly realising that he actually doesn’t. Him saying “I have lost myself” even though he’s just been working for Ozzie all this time. when he sees a child he’s happy to make him feel welcome even if it’s not the right place. How many kid friendly places are in the lust ring?

He starts advertising Lust ring pharmacies, then gets somewhat excited when he hears about someone from another ring. Going by your characterisation he just loves all things sex and lust and smut so a woman flashing him is nothing. Probably happens to him daily? In his own home people openly have sex in the halls.

All I see is a family friendly entertainer stuck in an adult oriented industry because that’s where the money is. And that’s where his saviour lives.

I think what’s most likely to happen is fizz will take some time in the gluttony ring. It is a likely candidate for the setting of Sinsmas. Eat some food, relax have a good time. And Ozzie is on good terms with Beelzebub so he’ll be able to accompany him and fizz apparently can’t go anywhere without Asmodeus coming too.

If you’re a “the curtain is red because it’s red” type fan I dont want to have to explain the nuance and implicit messages that I see in the dialogue constantly. It’s getting annoying now

Me: Fizz is looking in the mirror so much in the scene where he’s arguing with Ozzie in the bathroom about the pageant, because he struggles with self image and identity. He’s hiding his face with makeup to cover up his flaws

A fan: where do you see that? He’s looking in the mirror so he can see his makeup and cover up a scar he got on his eye. He was literally just arguing with Ozzie in the bathroom about the pageant not talking about his self image or identity. Did we watch the same show?

Question. Who designed the dolls for ten years? Who manufactured the dolls for ten years? Who shipped them out across hell, who advertises them in his ring? Whose brand icon is plastered on the forehead of these dolls? And what is the name of the club in which he was introduced, and advertised these very robots??

We say he genuinely had fun while at the same time the show is telling us he was lying for almost all of what he was saying, he doesn’t really care about LooLoo Land because it’s mammons, he doesn’t like the robots and just tries not to think about it, so it’s confirmed that Asmodeus did not receive informed consent from Fizz on that. And if fizz was being abused by mammon, which I think was actually the weakest plot we could have gone with, fizz is not in a position to say no to anything anyway. Then Ozzie puts him at more risk by starting this affair with him that he has clearly put more pressure on himself, to keep secret, while Oz ignores his stress or discomfort and says “yes we’re cuddling publicly now I don’t care. I’ll just threaten my staff if they say anything” and then “tell them what that I love him? Well I do!” Why can’t he just agree with fizz beforehand, that they’ll both tell people once and for all. Instead of assuming he’ll be ok with the decision he’s about to make.

This is why I can’t get behind the idea that Ozzie is perfect, I joke about “he did nothing wrong” on Twitter but I really don’t believe that.

#fizzarozzie critical #helluva boss critical #RANT

[backtothedisaster]

Chelldos 1

REMEMBERING MY ROOTS o7

when I started shipping it if I did: Like late late 2022 i think? Very late 2022 thats so fucking weird to think about

my thoughts: beautiful beautiful toxic yuri. This is my girlcrush who im obsessed with who has never ever ever spoken a word to me. The bad bitch i pulled by ignoring her. All robots and computers must shut the hell up. Good god how can portal be anything but a love story. The facility loves chell so so so so so much its insane

What makes me happy about them: they snuck a butchfemme love story into one of the best selling valve games of all time. And its so so so well written. Glados coming to terms with both her feelings and her humanity towards the end of the game and then choosing to let chell go...good lird

What makes me sad about them: everything. they make me emotional

things done in fanfic that annoys me/things I look for in fanfic: once again im nto very picky I also just dont read a lot of chelldos fic anymore tbh so i dotn really remember oops

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: nobody 🙏

My happily ever after for them: chell comes back to the facility and they live a happy domestic life

who is the big spoon/little spoon: Well uh. what do you call sleeping on top of your giant computer wife

what is their favorite non-sexual activity: i think chell just likes sitting in the main ai chamber with glados while she does whatever it is she does and they just enjoy eachothers company. I also think chell has been through testing enough times to be very proficient at designing test chambers so she designs a lot of chambers for the co op bots while theyre just #hanging out together

#ask #my post #chelldos

[coredrill]

as foretold, bang brave bang bravern was crazy good this week

it's just. gosh. for as much as i talk abt bravern being unhinged the fact of the matter is that it is actually SO restrained. ESPECIALLY for something in a medium that is already a little self-indulgent and referential. like for all of bravern himself's clear love for mecha there have been so few explicit references to other shows? and then this ep had so fucking many - ttgl (which - fucking hilarious to use it against a character KONISHI is voicing and then have that DD be fucking useless except for wanting to see some cool fights LSKDJFH) and flcl and symmetrical docking and rider kick and jeeg and gundam and the fuckin uhhhhhhhh exkaiser i think but i dont remember for sure its the same one that showed up in the earlier fight w superbia too. like w the other mecha on the roof framing. and probably about thirty more that i'm for sure missing or not recognizing or forgetting ON TOP OF all the obari posing and punching which have been sneaking into the visuals before this - but it was all for the purpose of having us watch this hype battle and get all excited to make the ending hit THAT much harder. and holding off the first gattai until episode NINE???? the thing we're all expecting to happen at any fucking moment, because there was no way that the souls of isami and bravern could've combined and actually resonated for a true gattai until that point????? like it's ALL in service of the story rather than wow cool robot even tho it IS a pretty damn cool robot. this show makes me feel like i did my homework and i'm acing the test AND I HAVENT EVEN WATCHED THAT MUCH MECHA TBH. LMFAO. all the "who is this show even FOR (eyeroll emoji)" comments back in like ep2 get funnier every week bc bravern knows its audience like the back of its hand and it gets clearer and clearer every week that its execution is fucking razor sharp. this show is SO SUCKING GOOD and I LOVE IT. that was supposed to say fucking good but sucking works too

the fucking NOISE superbia makes when bravern is like "don't u want to fight me when i'm EVEN STRONGER" took me the FUCK out

[gets beer sponsorship] [makes Consumption Of Food And Drink a tether point to Humanity] [out-cooks the cooking show] i'm gonna buy more kona beer (<- fucking hates beer)

fish jumpscare !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i honestly don't think i've seen any anime with a fucking ED DROP before. lmfao

lewis smith. you want so badly to be the protagonist. to be the rival. to be the one who dies to motivate the hero. to be the MECHA ITSELF. and yet you are the love interest!!! you are GOING to be saved whether you want it or not!!! you ARE rain mikamura. you ARE the heroine. Let Isami Save You. you've got a family of people who fuck with time in different and fun ways to save each other and its his turn now whether you like it or not!!!!!!!!

he rly did put that mask back on right before he died…………..subtext, cowards, so on and so forth

thanks bravern for inventing gay ppl. was surprised to get a literal love confession AND an almost-kiss here but tbh at this point i think isami could use a good old-fashioned hug more than anything else. like one of those that cracks his spine. poor baby rice cracker is goin thru it LMAO. also i keep calling isami baby rice cracker and i cannot stop myself anymore………..baby rice cracker…………

me after saying every week that this show has done something to my brain "guys i think this show has done something to my brain"

wow this post is allover the place moreso than usual. like i said earlier this ep was so fucking DENSE and GOOD that i'm gonna need some time to process All That. gosh. [bravern voice] BRAAAAAAVEEEERN!!!!!!!!!!!

#a: bravern #bravern spoilers #t.txt

[morethanmeetstheass]

alright, let's do the lowdown of "where the fuck has suna been all this time." probably gonna be long so ill put a keep reading, but tldr: life got bad, life got better, im working on existing in fandom space again

SO. i cant remember the last time i posted, so let's start at where shit went bad. 2020 baby, the rona hit, i graduated college virtually, lost my job, and ended up having to move to another state bc new jobs were so hard to come by. started anew down here in maryland, though a little worse for wear bc i went from living with my 4 best friends to having exactly 0 friends. very isolating, no fun. got cats, one of them died, so that didn't help at all.

fandom-wise, iacon online was both a huge benefit in my life and a huge pain. a lot of stress and misery went into that convention, but a whole lot of good came from running it. i ended up getting the chance to do 3 covers for idw, which was a massive blessing. became friends with multiple members of the cybertronic spree, made new friends with other organizers, got to accidentally roast james roberts to his face.

but it was also very stressful, and admittedly, my love for transformers did a huge swell and then took a big hit. i spiraled into a weird pit of having no interest in anything, lost interest in writing my fic, and started exploring other parts of my life. especially when idw lost the license to transformers, because fuck, now if i want to do covers again, i gotta make MORE connections. i was just very tired and burnt out. started hating all my artwork and despising how i was drawing for validation instead of passion.

sort of accidentally became a prominent creator on tik tok, so i got to explore other parts of my life that got lost in the transformers shuffle. got a new job working remotely, adopted another cat, things were looking up. then my apartment had a fire and i spiraled again, even worse. my mental health still hasn't recovered. it is a miracle that my belongings, health, and pets were ok, but i didnt even feel safe in my own home anymore. still struggling with it almost a year later, even in a new apartment. its been hard.

but i was shuffling on spotify today and stumbled onto my blitzbee playlist, and i got a little twinge in my tummy. i miss transformers. i dont miss being completely consumed by it, but i want to reintroduce myself to the fandom, start making mecha art again, as well as other art.

and i swear on my life, i WILL finish my fic. even after all this time, i still read all the comments i get on roe, on aufn, and especially kwz. i see how many of you want me to finish it, and i want to too. and i will. itll just take me some time to reintroduce myself to the fandom, to get comfortable with creating out of a place of love rather than out of a place of need for external validation. roe was a passion project, and its so clear with how much it was loved. it was good bc it was made out of a place of excitement, out of me genuinely wanting to share the story, not just wanting the likes and kudos. and im feeling that passion again. not 100% just yet, but i am.

so yeah, thats the deal. life has settled. still suffering with post traumatic stress from the fire and trying to feel safe in my space again, but im improving. im finding love for transformers again. im finding love for a lot of things again, and i dont want to box myself into one passion or the other. im a lot of things and i want to give myself space to love all of the things that i love. and robots are one of those things, but not the only one.

blitzbee forever. i will die a dirty bee kinnie and a blitzy simp.

#suna speaks

[bluebeetle]

lays down i am just so so so obssessed with the Millia/Zato/Venom love triangle i cant. i dont want any of those 2 to end up with Zato bc hes sucks major ass and makes their lives worse (said as a Zato Main), but its still SOOOO interesting like,,, 

Zato loving Millia, then hating her, and then basically making her his entire will to live and devoting himself to protecting her when she wants nothing more to move on from their past after fucking killing Zato because of the whole hating her and him trying to kill her over her being like “hey killing literal baby kings is fucked up man” and disliking the assassin life she had found herself in. that she has grown and learned to love herself again while Zato sank deeper and deeper into his own problems before deciding to make his happiness dependent on her which, oof! unhealthy. but such good drama.

and then theres Venom who started to hate Millia out of jealousy, who was just so devoted to Zato and following him that he became an assassin despite it being against his very nature--because while he is someone who comes off as stoic and robotic at times, hes very soft natured, empathetic, and hates blood.

 but he loves Zato, so he stays an assassin and in some endings takes the entire guild over.... and then when Zato is taken over by Eddie he goes out of his way to track them down and try to save Zato--in some endings either taking care of a comatose Zato or even taking on Eddie as a parasite instead

and its like... Zato will probably never love venom! not even that hes probably straight, but because Zato’s more concerned about himself and then later “protecting” Millia that he takes Venoms loyalty and devotion for granted whilst chasing after a woman who can’t love him back (and honestly is totally justified in NEVER loving him back) just yet because he’s not changed enough from what made her hate him in the first place

And all of them would be better off without each other--Venom gets a taste of it with his bakery and Roboky at least--but Zato (and somewhat) Venom just cant let who they want go!!

and then Venom even starts to decide he cant hate Millia anymore, not because of her actions, but because Zato’s dedicated himself to protecting her now and Venom in the end cares less about his own feelings and safety than he does about Zato--

just.

a solitude that asks for nothing in return. 

#and then slayers there ig #txt #venom gg #zato-one #zato-1 #millia rage #guilty gear #guilty gear xx #guilty gear strive #ggst #theres some holes in my lore ill admit but. look. #i love them #i love testament still too esp the drama with their backstory but theyre all happy now!! #zato and millia still have issues. venoms better tho