#but i didnt have a culture you know like i had nothing supporting me because i was different

[sassykinzonline]

Going off on a tangent (I’m lowkey obsessed with your blog so now I’m going to yell my thoughts at you)

I get so disappointed at the lack of any lore drops between Naruto’s heritages like obviously the uzamaki’s were exploited and basically had a like genocide (Karin’s backstory had me so fucked) and maybe it’s to show how normal it is in shinobi society to just brush anything under the rug when it comes to genocides and systemic issues which duh but I wish I could’ve seen more nuanced stuff like diaspora between the few survivors of lost clans, how they survived or heck how they try to preserve their culture.

Idk maybe I’m not making any sense but as someone who has like no ties to my origins (AA, especially growing up to ppl denying AA culture and how AA culture gets sold) I wished I saw that kind of relatability in Naruto since he himself is basically separated from his culture and didn’t even know who his parents were I feel like that could lead to some like deeper stuff. I feel like Naruto would try to preserve his cultures and clans (he does in way ig in boruto but I barely seen that anime and that’s a whole other discussion with how clans are treated)

And in a way I guess it’s the most realistic part of Naruto like yea the ppl in charge might give a nod in acknowledgement of how they were bystanders and that the system failed ppl (if they even go as far as to accept that) it’s just to make the ppl they exploit/ed shut up and be happy that they were even seen in the first place (working class, blm, Palestine, Native Americans etc)

But god do I wish Naruto dived into the isolation of the lack of culture or even the lack of your own ppl can have.

first of all thank you for your support and engagement, it gives joy. feel free to yell at me whenever, i have a naruto so im used to it.

this is also something that used to upset me and now just frustrates me. i technically wasnt the last uchiha until after the war, but itachi and i couldnt communicate, madara cut ties with the clan, and just like me obito left the village as a child. one of the worst things about the genocide was this crushing anxiety of "what will become of our history?" i was old enough to have pride in the concept of "uchiha" but too young to have a meaningful understanding of it. and i guess deep down thats what contributed to my steady depersonalization and increasing franticness-- i knew there was really nothing i could do to preserve my clan so at least i needed to preserve their honour (and this was also why i understand itachi's reasons for not sharing the truth).

all this to say, my heart breaks for naruto because he doesnt even know what he doesnt know. and like you said, thats mostly a function of how konoha chose to operate. i still dont understand why they couldnt at least tell naruto about his mom. i dont understand why jiraiya didnt come back to teach him sealing. but i do know why and its because the shinobi system works best if you dont see yourself as an individual first. everything you are and have needs to belong to the state, and if it doesnt, then they will eliminate it. konoha took advantage of the genocide in uzushio to essentially traffic their women and then say there was "friendship" between the two villages...then do nothing to preserve the uzumaki or uzushio history. disgusting.

youre making sense. ive actually thought that naruto's case is similar to children from asia who were trafficked and brought to western countries post-war, completely removed from their culture and often neglected and abused for a culture they couldnt even own. i think the uchiha are a bit similar to african americans given the systematic lack of consideration for contributions to the development of society, the war between respectability/assimilation and self-determination/anti-discrimination, and like you said the commodification and demonization of culture. and i do agree with you about naruto, but i think it also helps him sometimes. for better or for worse hes...simple. he doesnt think too much about things he doesnt know, and that helps him get through his days with less of a load. he does have his bad days, where hes...lost, but if he were any other way he wouldnt be naruto. luckily the boruto versions of us arent real, but even then i think they make sense given what they were trying to accomplish with that show (ie. dumb down everything for the Manly Men who didnt get what was happening the first time).

when i was traveling after the war i did try to do some preliminary investigation into existing uzumaki refugees and diaspora, but it was a bit difficult though due to their history. ive been thinking about putting together an extended campaign and mission for us to reunify the uzumaki, for his birthday. i just need to figure out how best to go about it. keep it a secret between us.

#ask #sasuke headcanons #naruto headcanons #naruto analysis #i guess? #anti konoha #anti shinobi system #thanks again for bringing joy to my morning

[cartoonrival]

Nrto/Brto for 3 10 & 17?

bro literally the wider naruto fandom sucks so bad idek where to begin

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

i dont have a specific example so instead im gonna give a general gripe about a trend that ive seen in many takes over time

the black and white thinking and refusal to think for half a second about characters other than ur faves Reminds Me Of Something!real ones know. the way people talk about any character with any sort of greyness to their morality kinda makes me crazy and i lowkey think ppl bring up kishimoto TOO MUCH in their discussion of the storys themes bc while obviously like its important to talk abt WHY he wrote it the way he did esp wrt nationalism and all, i think also it sort of dulls ur ability to think anything complex about it if u blame everything u dont like or think was "sloppily done" on kishimoto. judging every character based on kishimoto's morals instead of their own if that makes sense? its not like "the wrong way to do things" i just personally find it really boring when thats the only way youll look at a text. like no wonder you guys are constantly making jokes about how naruto sucks and you'd never recommend it, you wont even allow yourselves to think about the story as its own piece of art beyond just "kishimoto wrote it this way because he sucks" like do you ever think maybe youre killing some of the fun of media analysis... i think its why so many people hate sakura or kakashi or itachi or anyone else. and this always comes out in the way ppl characterize bc theyre like Um I've Fixed Them :) and then its the blandest shit ever because you absolutely refuse to work even slightly WITH the story you claim to love, only fighting tooth and nail against it.

some examples of what i mean w this: basically any conversation about itachi that tries to categorize him as either good or bad. basically any conversation about sakura that tries to do literally anything or nothing with her. people making sns blandly romantic as if the insane and inventive ways they talk about their feelings for each other in canon isnt genuinely part of what makes it so maddeningly fascinating and awesome. anyone who thinks kakashi is a bad teacher. its just this refusal to meet the characters where they are and think of anything in terms of the text itself rather than exclusively in a meta way, ie "this is how it would be if it was good." no its not. you just made it how it would be if it was bland and obvious. dont you literally think the fact that the guy writing it was accidentally writing his characters to be struggling against the same shit that he was struggling against irl and struggling to keep Out of his writing is like. wildly fascinating and part of waht makes the story intersting to pick apart. but ok. this also applies to aspects of boruto primarily sasusaku and naruhina marriages. no one gets it like i doooooo

10. worst part of fanon

everybodys always shipping kakashi with someone and its never even guy. if youre gonna ship kakashi it had better fucking be with guy bc theres gen srs no one else he would be caught dead romancing with and i cant even see how you could read any of his other relationships as romantic. he doesnt even HAVE a relationship with iruka. i get that not every ship has to have canon support but its all either 1) literally not even interesting to think about or 2) what they have actually going on is way more interesting but see my response to question 3. its the same with gaara honestly the more i think about it the more annoyed i get about the ignorance surrounding just-short-of-canon aroace gaara ToT like if u didnt know then ok... but you should learn because its awesome. i just thinking the shipping culture in the fandom is annoying like everyone has to be shipped with someone and that seems to come before their genuinely interesting relationships. and those genuinely interesting relationships are sanded down into something normal. idk this is a gripe that goes w Many Many fandoms but i feel like w naruto its particularly bad largely on account of See Previous Answer. ppl are like "its written this way bc kishimoto is homophobic i will fix this" then they make it suck because shockingly ik kishi actually wrote a good as fuck story if deeply flawed

17. there should be more of this type of fic/art

ill be fr i dont gen seek out fics or art independently to be 100% sure that stuff i'd be looking for isn't out there somewhere. but i think ppl really really should just. think about sakura more. i literally love her sm but ppl won't think abt her beyond either 1) she sucks and i hate her (but this is because of kishimoto's writing and has nothing to do with me! if i rewrote naruto then she wouldn't be there 😌 this is a kindness to her and not because i cant be assed to think about a woman for 5 seconds) or 2) girlboss!!!! like.... is that scene in the land of iron not BIBLICAL to anyone else....??? is her devotion to someone she's lost faith in out of loyalty to someone she loves and is losing her ability to understand not FASCINATING???? TO ANYONE ELSE???? IS THE WAY SHE PICKS UP THE TRAITS OF HER TEACHER THAT HE SPECIFICALLY IS NOT MEANING TO PASS ON TO HER NOT HEARTWRENCHING???????? you people suck. instead you write ooc sns over and over and draw kakashi without his mask kissing fucking obito

#asks157 #nrto

[papihomo]

I fucking wish I never has to write this, I wish that I never had to even feel this way to begin with but I know for a fact that I will NEVER be the same.

My name's Lucifer, I also go by Emmanuel, and I go by any & all pronouns.

I am 16 years old, and at the risk of sounding over the top, honestly, I dont even care anymore at this point. Everything feels like a never ending nightmare since October.

I am a Rwby & Madoka fan. These shows were responsible for helping me find my voice, to break away from cycles of abuse and become the strong individual I am today.

The reason why I bring this up, is how I specifically as a Jew, who has friends in Israel, Lebanon & Palestine WHO JUST WANT TO FUCKING LIVE has been alienated, pushed aside and harassed in the very communities that I took refuge in.

This is a problem.

I remember the myriad of "friends" I had, who showered me with love and affection that all meant nothing in the end

I exactly remember back when I asked them what their thoughts on me cosplaying Cinder Fall would be around mid-October, and I had hoped that they would be who they were before.

But all I got, was animosity

They called me a "Satan Worshipper", "A Baby Killer", they accused me of being sensitive when I told them that what they were doing was antisemitism right after they threw the k slur at me.

Then, they blocked me, the fucking icing on the cake.

More and more friends, dropping like flies each and every day

All for a government that I have no control over.

They called themselves anti racists, and yet they called me slurs and spread blood libel about me.

How is this normal? HOW IS THIS FUCKING NORMAL!?

I had this fucking belief that without my so called friends I'd be nothing but at this point whats there to lose?

As one of my friends fled to a shelter and I lost sleep for him in fears that he might die, they, my so called "mutuals" cheered for his demise because he was Israeli, and then they cheered for mine.

I was later accused of double loyalty, of being a spy, a spy when I am just a mere student who cannot even drive yet let alone doesnt even have a credit card or bank account who wishes they didnt have to write some of their fucking experiences down on a website that used to bring them immense comfort!

This all brings me back, back to when the boys in my 8th grade class jokingly said I'd commit pearl harbor on a building downtown

When I was asked about Nanking for days

When they said the concentration camps were justified

And now that I, have gotten "worse" for converting to Judaism because now I am not just a "Evil Japanese Imperialist Sellout" but now I am also a "Cold hearted murderous child killing animal"

I am well aware that I sound already all over the place, but tell me

How does it feel after making little headcanons about characters being Jewish, posting about punching nazis, talking about J.K flopling's antisemitic blood libel game

Only to propagate these exact same things! You can criticize Israel's government without being a racist POS AND IT ISNT THAT HARD.

How does it feel after watching Kimetsu No Yaiba, listening to Vocaloid and playing Animal Crossing?

Only for you to go up to random Japanese people asking them, "What do you think about Nanking/Comfort Women?" Or "The bombs were necessary", claiming any song with Shinto or strong cultural undertones "Supporting Japanese Imperialism" and claiming that every aspect of Japanese culture is "stolen" despite that being untrue and that the reason why Japanese media is so popular is to "distract from war crimes"? You sound just like the people who stuck us in the camps after Pearl Harbor and suspected we "conspired with the government", you know that, right?

How will I ever feel going to a convention in 2024 and beyond? Will they shout at me, claiming me to be a threat? An animal? A danger to society?

How did it go from my friends going: "You look like Cinder Fall. You totally should cosplay as her" to legit spouting immature, hateful shit that would practically sound like "You disgusting putrid whore, how dare you even THINK about cosplaying such a character? She would NEVER be one of your impure, hideous, wretched, accursed kind. The fandom needs less of you, and yes my bestie is Jewish so I can call you every single slur and accuse you of blood libel too XO XO UwU Cinder can't be like you, because I said so, live laugh love bitch teehee"

Because now it feels like the place where I thought I belonged, stabbed me in the back

The people I thought I could trust turned on me as I mourned and spouted hatred my way.

I could go on and on on what else I had endured but that would leave this post longer than it was in the first place.

Think critically, love yourselves, just try and make the world less hateful instead of propagating it, and maybe you should learn that people aren't their governments.

#Lucifer rambles #antisemitism #rant #antisemitism tw #blood libel #fndm #dont fucking tag this as rwde dont you fucking dare #concentration camp tw

[caught-in-a-dusty-web-of-secrecy]

hello loves!! <3

i am, in fact, alive. in case anyone was worried.

i have been really busy with catching up with schoolwork because i was sick and missed slightly over two weeks of school, but i should be posting more often soon,,,, hopefully.

anyways i got the results for last terms assignments for six of my seven subjects and. i am telling you all :]

the first three are,,,, not good. at all, for me at least. i got significantly less than i thought i would.

i got like 73% on my legal studies exam. most of the marks i lost on short answer questions. usually i'd be like, okay with it? but i talked to the teacher about why and the only feedback i was given was that she 'couldn't remember why she took the marks off, but since she had there was probably a reason so she wouldn't give me the marks.' the reason i'm most upset about that is like, i dont have a reason and she couldnt find one? so i think that i deserve the marks if she couldnt find anything wrong with it. but anyways.

i also got 73% on my english advanced assignment, which pretty much just pissed me off. the only feedback i got given on that one was that the teacher would have preferred it as a poem, which is entirely subjective and not the point of the assessment. i also took that to the head teacher, who pretty much said it was exemplary and deserved full marks but there was nothing he could do. so yeah.

i got 65% on my ancient history assignment, which was really disappointing, but i didnt expect to do that well on it, though i did expect better that that. basically the feedback i was given for that one was that, in one section i needed more sources to support my point, but that also the full thing was 'too detailed' which i dont really understand as i was in the word limit. but yknow, i know about the sources at least for next time.

for all those three i have like, a much better understanding of this terms topics though, so i think i'll do much better on whatever this term's assignments end up being (or at least i hope so). i'm just really upset about those three, especially english and legal, as i dont think i really deserved to lose the marks there, but they were deducted for no reason anyways.

anyways moving onto the ones im proud of.

first is business studies. i cried when i got my results because of how proud of myself i was. the teacher is known for marking really hard and i got 97% on the test, so i was insanely proud. the mark i lost was on a multiple choice question where i changed the answer at the last second, and i changed it from the right to the wrong answer, which sucked. personally i would have preferred to get something wrong where i actually didnt know the answer, rather than when i doubted myself. the doubt was because i always get confused between the two categories and i got it wrong alot in class, so i ended up rereading it and then getting nervous and changing it. but i am still insanely proud of that result.

the next is english extension. i did so much better on this one than i thought i would. i didnt think i did it that well and i expected around a 75% at best, but i ended up getting 90% and i was insanely happy. my teacher also gave me some really detailed feedback on what i did well and what not, so i actually have some concrete stuff to work on for next time. also two of the three marks that got taken off were literally because i used american spelling instead of british, so yeah. now i know to triple check that.

the last one ive gotten back is society and culture. i am so proud of this one. again, i literally cried because of how proud of me i was. i got 96% on it. i dont know where i lost the mark yet because i wasnt formally given the result, my teacher just saw me and got really hyped and told me how proud he was and said it was the best he'd seen in the last eight years or so, and then told me not to tell anyone (so naturally i came to tell all of you).

anyways yeah.

bye loves <33

#im back #hello everyone #studyblr #studying #study space #faestudies #study blog #student #studybrl #study studyblr #studystudyblr #studyspace #studyspo #study session #studyinspo #study aesthetic #studies

[seokmattchuus]

hey saw u got asks about the kamdens dad situation and i kinda wanted to share more just since the entire situation is really crazy. basically mr na has been hosting twitter spaces where he’s been sharing incredibly personal family details about things like family suicides and keeps giving these really backhanded compliments to kamden. he said “Tbh, I’m his biggest critic. I was worried about his singing despite him working so hard on his dancing. He worked really hard on his rapping and now, he’s not bad.” he also made some really insensitive comments about how the bit with the native american headdress wasn’t cultural appropriation even tho kamden was the only one who wasn’t laughing at it during the show. kamden actually called him in the middle of his last space to ask him to end it. i felt like i should share just cuz while some ppl r being rude i didnt want ppl calling mr na’s actions wrong to be misinterpreted as talking about a different situation.

I'll start by saying I guess this is a continuation from the earlier stuff? Like, he's just going on and on? But, again, this is a grown man. Of course, it can be seen as off putting, but he's no different than any parent on facebook oversharing on what their kids are up to (maybe not but I don't know how twt really works so I'm not sure what the spaces were like). There's really nothing wrong with any of this, except for the suicides, that's a bit questionable. He's not keeping up with the internet the way most bp watchers are. He's just a middle-aged man talking to the void. He's probably just really into the fact that he can talk to people who know who kamden is (parents aren't exactly known to be the most private about their kids, les be real here). Or the fact that he can talk to people who support his son the same way he does.

The criticisms aren't that much of a red flag either, in my opinion (could be because I grew up in the same boat) but from my understanding, most parents are their kids' #1 critic, and maybe it's just the quote you chose, but that doesn't seem so backhanded. It seems pretty objective to me? He's not coming off as insulting or overly praising. Just stating what it is.

The cultural stuff isn't really my place to comment on because I missed that bit entirely. I don't know what was said.

And I think the person who called had to have been kamden's twin. Trainees can't have their phones. Or at least can't make it known that they have them. Everyone who's ever been on the show makes a big deal of having no personal technology.

#anon #i still see this whole 'expecting him to react like a chronically online person' take because all the issues with him are exactly that #he's a grown man who probably works most of the day and has no clue about what is 'hip' online #hell i myself find myself confused as fuck when i get on twt and people are on some hate train and reasonings are news to me #if i'm out here getting lost i have no doubts that man is just rambling and wondering why people are upset #he is not one of us #let me repeat. he is. n o t. one of us. #we cannot hold him to the same standard as a popular influencer messing up on the internet #can people be upset? yes. uncomfy? yes. but this is no diferent than parets/grandparents spilling everything related to their kids #the info dumping is just a parent thing #the person who called probably did because it's all backfiring on kamden and people are getting on him as if he has a say #i just think everyone's a bit too jumpy about it #like the way people piled onto him that fast was bit insane #people on twt are straight beefing with a trainee's dad and then playing it off as his fault for not keeping up with the times #it's a fucking mess and it needs to stop - honestly #boys planet #boys planet problems #totally meant to post this the other day after work and forgot my bad

[dyketubbo]

life update: bpd and ocd arent a good mix to give to someone. however rereading bittersweet candybowl and bingewatching tuca and bertie is a good mix. i still hold the same opinions i did, and i still dont think im really ready to be super active or engaging with the fandom much etc etc.

i still think the fandom has a big problem of centering humor around making others uncomfortable and being apart of discourse that makes people upset and i still have a lot of negative feelings about shipping in fandom culture and how it effects me as a loveless aro person with trauma related to romance, shipping, fandom as a whole, and especially how dsmpblr treats anyone/anything that is the next subject of ridicule.

i doubt ill really share a lot of those thoughts on here, because every word ive said has been taken out of context, or actively taken in bad faith out of a misunderstanding of what i meant to say. and. its. really tiring! i dont like being applauded for being good at words or good at putting others thoughts into words or whatever just for others to tear me down because they misunderstood what i meant and i didnt have the words, stability, or time to fully explain it.

dsmpblr is.. not really a good place for people who have trouble with speaking. its an even worse place for people with uncommon triggers, and often times not even a good place for people with common triggers. ive seen myself be vagued and treated as extremely unreasonable and ive seen others be treated as less human and more just.. topics of the week until everything is dropped because the perpetuators are being funny again so who cares

so. still separating myself a bit. because theres a lot of problems with this fandom and i find that the more i reach out.. often times the more disturbed i get with how much people get away with under the guise of comedy. and.. its not really a good feeling to know youre being Sensitive. to know youll likely be viewed as someone out of their lane and being a party pooper for thinking people should be a bit more critical towards how they come off.

but.. i dont really want to let the last big post from me be something that was heavily induced by me relapsing. im still in the middle of that relapse, and with how being borderline is its hard to really process emotions when im sort of stuck in one emotion at a time. i wasnt exaggerating when i said i felt like i had no support system or that i was being heavily suicidal, because i was. i was extremely triggered in a genuine mental health crisis sense and i had relapsed hard into a full on state of nothing but paranoia, panic, and delusional thoughts. but im.. relatively better. right now. thanks for reading, and thanks for caring, if you do care

#its likely going to fluctuate and im going to feel worse again im sure #but i felt bad letting my last note abt me be me while i was right at rock bottom #im not doing good still. im still recovering from how heavily i was triggered and im still.. processing the fact that im traumatized #because of those factors #but. im not actively thinking about how and when to kill myself. so im not doing horrible at least #who knows maybe ill get into the tuca and bertie fandom hah (jokes. i think that should be a place kept to the adults) #(i may be almost 18 but i know its not really good that i relate to the themes in the show and im not qualified to talk on it really) #mask mews #my 2020s havent been very good to me. hopefully 2023 will treat me well #but. im not really sure it will

[cirillafionaelenriannon]

w last post literally. i got diagnosed w pcos when i was 16 and i was told because i didnt have any visible symptoms i had nothing much to worry about. everytime ive been to the doctor since ive had my feelings on it dismissed, and ive been told because i LOOK healthy that i’m fine and theres nothing they can do except put me on birth control. they can’t give me any kind of medication to help with any symptoms i might experience. 

my first time there i wasn’t given any information on PCOS, they gave me a pamphlet and that was it. like the absolute lack of care or empathy or anything lmfao. i had to find out myself that it could lead to diabetes and cancer. and diabetes already runs in my family so i’m even More likely to get it when i’m older. i didn’t know that pcos was a hormonal imbalance that affects your insulin levels, that it causes inflammation or anything. and half the treatment options recommended for you is to lose weight, but that’s that treatment offered for practically every fucking issue you can have as a woman with a disorder that AFFECTS your weight. and it’s not just oh eat less, don’t have so much sugar or take out. it’s don’t eat red meat, don’t eat bread, don’t eat wraps, don’t eat potatoes, don’t eat gluten, don’t eat dairy, don’t eat anything with a large amount of carbs. which is completely inaccessible for me!!!! 

and maybe some people are totally comfortable with those lifestyle changes but as someone who already has a really really bad relationship with food, it makes eating as a whole so hard and i’ve spent practically the past 10 months every single day thinking about my weight and my body and food and obsessing over it and i thought going into the new year i’d regulate it all by starting to cook more and finding food i enjoy but having all these limits on what i can eat has just completely torn me down. because no i don’t want to eat chicken with every freaking meal i have as a source of protein and i don’t want to eat eggs for breakfast everyday. and is that so fucking bad of me. Diet culture and discussions around food with PCOS make me so unbearably depressed ive spent all day thinking about it and hating myself for not being one of those people who can just suck it up and deal with it. and being sad in general that i have pcos and i have these symptoms and i have to learn to manage them. and its either be upset with my weight forever and risk diabetes which i dont even see the point in trying to prevent when i have all the odds stacked up against me! or be severely depressed w an eating disorder. 

like i can’t say it anywhere for support on it because i know a lot of it would just be like Well suffer then lol. and like You have no discipline etc. like. i Like vegetables dude. I like a lot of things. but oh my god do you know how many fucking recipes i can bear looking at of the same things over and over! and autism already makes it hard enough for me. all i’m saying is i just don’t want to get sick and die of physical illness as much as i don’t want to get sick and die of mental illness. but i feel like no matter what direction i look in Either one is going to happen either way. 

so anyway. i’m just sad that so much of the talk around pcos is weight and diet and exercise oriented. i’m not saying those things don’t contribute, they clearly do. i’m just saying i’m going to have pcos forever and theres nothing i can do to erase it, it’s lifelong. i can do what i can to reduce symptoms if needed, but it’s always going to be there no matter what. and i’m again just so sad that nobody seems to understand my sadness over it. my mother had no thoughts on it when i was diagnosed and my doctors have all been so dismissive about it. i just feel really alone in my struggle lollllllll. 

#text #also really crazy fact is ur body also cant regulate cortisol well which is a stress hormone and #if u have high cortisol levels it has a negative affect on you and all this has done is stress me. the fuck. out. #valkyrie.txt #and literally crazy how ive only been thinking abt this for like a week now and its already made me crazy fucking suicidal like actually #sitting in the shower crying because i cant bear to think about #my life anymore and how fucked it all is and how i cant catch a break no matter what #so cheers 2 Me wanting to kill myself again. LOL

[thisdreamplace]

while i was away (pt 1)

a series recapping my experiences during love me february 💘

i hope everyone has been well !! i’ve decided to begin this series: “while i was away,” which will highlight my experiences while i was taking the month off of my blog. i had the most wonderful time while i was away ! absolute adore.

my hope is that i will help to inspire someone else out there, as much as i’ve found inspiration within myself this past month.

so let’s get right into it ! 💫

1. THINK OF YOURSELF. OFTEN. OR ALL THE TIME.

(creds to @allisdone for inspiring me to take on the month from this perspective 💘)

like. literally. and when you realize how this world is just a perfect mirror of you, it makes even more sense why you should be your primary (only lol ?) focus.

i also came across this post before my break. it’s not based on the law, but can definitely be related to it if you want it to be. the energy of this post was everything to me (i loveeee bimbo culture idc) and it became inspiring as i embarked on focusing only on me.

when i began this, i had the happiest days of my life. i felt so free and carefree, literally on top of the world because nothing mattered except me and my feeling state ! and if im not using others or the world around me as an excuse/reason for my troubles, then what else is there to do than to simply live and have fun !

i discovered how much of my daily anxieties were caused by habitual thinking that was centered on worrying about others and the world around me. when thinking of only myself, i simply do not have the time to think of others. and i’m saying this with ALL the love.

really, it’s a loving place you come from in all aspects because you don’t even have time to be mad or hate on others neither. for example, i didnt like the way they talked to me ? okay ? now i’m thinking about how loved i am and how gorgeous i look today. problem solved. i’m not even thinking about whatever happened a few mins ago. there are no hard feelings.

in other words, this isn’t about putting others down so you can get ahead. it’s far from that — it’s all about your within yourself. you’re simply making inner choices that eventually translate to pure, loving outer choices. not manipulation and harm. don’t get it confused.

during this time my motto basically became, “whatever, im over it.” such a simple, but freeing phrase. it was essentially a prompt of, “is this really about to bother me rn or do i have the choice to go in a different direction ?” ofc, i always had the choice !

while living that way, i had the most easy flowing manifestations i’ve ever experienced. literally, everyday was filled with effortless successes i started losing track. it just became my new normal. and i always felt really good without needing a reason to feel good.

*i also want to make sure it’s understood that i’ve done the healing work and i know the difference between making a choice in a moment vs surpressing something that’s asking to be seen. i still have my days where i know it’s time to sit down with an old story and face it. but through my daily practice and persistance in this lifestyle, i’ve gotten to a point where i can let things go more quickly and choose new stories for myself on a moment to moment basis. so in other words, don’t force anything. you will never get anywhere by force ! make sure you are daily practicing getting to know yourself, so that you are doing the things that feel good to you and are able to provide yourself with the support you need.

anyway i hope this is fun and inspiring to some of you <3 catch you in the next part of this series !! 💐

#journey

[emperornero]

Wholesome historical fact about Nero?

i know it says fact but im gonna share some more. sorry for any mistakes im tired <3

- hes the reason why polish students celebrate juvenalia. the current-day event is much different from the ancient one of course [some info about the first juvenalia that happened in the year 59 AD here]. this fact is especially cool to me since im polish lol

- despite his daughter [claudia] being only a few months old when she passed away, nero was really attached to her. he issued a special coin in her memory. before her death, nero gave her the title "augusta" which was usually reserved for really important women in the julio-claudian dynasty. he cared about her a lot. its sad he couldnt see her grow up and be there for her. also later poppea was pregnant again but she died before she gave birth. some ancient historians claim that it was nero who killed her but there is legit no real proof for that and its more likely she died due to a miscarriage. pregnant women in ancient rome died all the time so i wouldnt be surprised if that was the case here. so yeah the story about nero killing poppea is PROBABLY not true. but since its ancient history we can never be sure about situations like this. i honestly cant see him attacking his pregnant wife if he wanted to become a father so much. yeah.

- despite what many people might think, he didnt enjoy violence [gladiator battles and executions]. during one of the "neronias" [events hosted every 5 years named after the current emperor] he wouldnt let any of the fighers die. he also hosted art and sport competitions instead of some of the fights that were meant to happen later in the event because he liked them better. many romans werent happy with this. they wanted blood kill kill bite slaughter

- as you all probably know, later in life nero was fat. he was portrayed as such on the coins. since he had to approve their designs, he had to be happy with the way they looked. the emperor had the power to change his appearence on the coins if he didnt like it. this shows that despite many ancient romans not finding fat people attractive, he still felt comfortable in his body enough to appear the way he really was on his coins. same with his long hair and a beard which wasnt "normal" for an emperor to have. nero looked pretty much nothing like what an "ideal" emperor should look like. good for him for feeling nice in his own body. good for him.

- greeks LOVED this guy because he also loved them and their culture <3 nero became interested in greece back when he was a child and the fact that he became an artist only made it better. he performed in greece and competed in contests [which he had all won. since he was the emperor. heh.]

- during the great fire of rome [which PROBABLY wasnt caused by him. i stand with the idea that nero didnt burn rome, you can find more information on why this is probably the case here online] he helped many citizens. he donated a lot of his personal money to the people and requested more food to be delivered to rome during the time the city was burning. he cared for the lower/middle class more than he did for the upper class. yeah. there were more [mostly natural] disasters that had happened during his reign and he always tried his best to help the people who needed monetary support.

#if something doesnt make sense or i confused something with a different thing im sorryyyy its late im tired #nero #asks #long post

[squeakadeeks]

gonst to post some EDish thoughts

i feel blah right now about some happenings in online spaces, I felt like costuming/cosplay spaces had made decent progress in terms of being more accepting about body diversity and taking a critical eye on the rampant ED behavior, but from what i've seen it looks like a lot of that progress was undone in the past year or so.

Maybe some of this is just my personal issues, but several times i've seen people post their body measurements and my jaw just hits the floor because even at the height of my ED, like "developing scurvy, too weak to lift objects, premature aging and hair falling out" levels of bad i wasn't even close to what they're posting. And although i understand that personally my frame has an *incredibly* hard time fitting ""supermodel"" standards its still shocking to me that people are able to reach and maintain the numbers their posting/maintain that level of thinness.

50% of this is just again the inherent frustrations with diet culture/monolithic body idolization bc i know a lot of whats causing this negative feeling is the knowledge that theres a dark, but very real part of my mind where i want that, i want to post those numbers, but even damn near killing myself didnt get close and i just feel shame and frustration with myself for not being able to achieve that standard. and then the other 50% is the absolute shock that at least in professional modeling spaces theres...some?? support and structure imposed to prevent EDs between agents, frequent check ups, and restrictions but social media is the wild wild west. wanting to keep up online, you're not going to have a professional to oversee your behavior and raise concerns if you slip into ED patterns, instead you'll be trapped in an echo chamber of people posting their measurements and diet habits, noticing more praise on photos where you look thinner, and people commenting obscene things when you dont fit a body standard.

I feel like this will be the hill i die on of every few months going "holy shit ED culture is so bad in online spaces that involve posting images of yourself regularly" and seeing nothing stick.

#i only have surface level knowledge of modeling practices so i cant say this with too much confidence but hot dog #i'd be fascinated to cross compare rates of ED in influencers/content creators/cosplayers to professional models #just bc of how inherently unregulated it is and the positive feedback loops you get online

[sokkas-honour]

dream boy: part 3 - sokka x reader

pairing: sokka x fem!reader

request: part 3 was requested by @missmorosis

wc: 2.7k

notes: i’m terribly sorry if it may seemed a bit rushed or not exactly consistent but i personally liked the way it ended. also this is the final part, i might make an epilogue if i actually finish everything i need to do.

part one | part one 1/2 | part two

sokka wasn’t able to see you until monday, purposefully ignoring all the texts from yours friends, not wanting to know if sokka actually told them what had happened or if he had decided to keep it to himself, either way, you were better off just staying off your phone until school started. you only unlocked your phone to text zuko back and even then you didn't always have the courage to do so.

you had made sure to wake up early in order to not cross paths with the watertribe boy, his sibling or just any of your friends until you absolutely had to, preferring to simply distance yourself from the others. of course you couldn't avoid them forever, you had over half of your classes with at least one of them, two of those being with sokka, the guy who you especially didn't want to see, history and gym. gym would be easy to avoid him in, you had become acquaintances with this lovely girl called jin, whom you also shared your math class with, you could just spend the whole period with her and avoid him. your real problem was going to be history. your teacher, mister kuzon, had informed the class that there would be a group project on any cultural aspect from the water tribe, and he had chosen the groups. the chance of you actually being paired with sokka was miniscule but the universe hadn’t seemed to be going easy on you lately.

and much to your dismay, the universe was in fact against you. when your history teacher’s voice had posted the groups, your heart had started racing as you approached the board to see the pairs, your heart was racing in fear and it dropped when you saw the name y/n next to sokka.

after being asked to sit next to your partner to get started, you stayed silent as you plopped down on the chair next to the boy who you were still trying to avoid, staying silent and keeping your eyes in front of you.

“are you going to work with me or is it going to be a silent treatment the whole time.” he questioned, turning to face you, arm hooked around the back of his chair as he looked at you desperately for any sign of you acknowledging his presence.

“i was thinking we could talk about the differences in the cuisine in the north and south.” you mumbled, chin on your hand as you kept your gaze on the board in front of you, ignoring the boy who was still searching for an answer.

“yeah, sounds good.” sokka sighed, giving up on receiving a straight answer from you. he turned back in his seat, disappointment radiating off of him, making you bite your lip in guilt. you shot him a glance from the corner of your eye as you saw him discreetly take his phone out to open the notes app but before you could see what he was typing he turned to face you, catching you right in the act.

“uh, saturday at your place?” seemed like the only logical way out of the embarrassing situation you had just walked into, still not breaking the staring between the two of you. you felt your heart speed up a bit at the extended eye contact, not having looked into his blue eyes in awhile, the last time being before you stormed out of his house after your confession.

“sounds good.” he offered you a small smile, happy to see that your attempt at a cold shoulder was somewhat backfiring, knowing that you couldn't avoid him forever. he let the stare linger a bit before turning his attention back to his phone and you quickly snapped back to your notes taken during the class. thanking yourself for not letting the stupid smile heat your cheeks up, now all you had to do was finish the class with a not so uncomfortable silence between the two of you.

the bell didn't take too long to ring before you had to move onto your next class which was the one you detested the most, science. courage surged through you as you waved goodbye to sokka, earning a bright smile back from the boy before you dashed out of the class. to anyone, that might have seemed rather pointless that you felt as proud as you did, a wave goodbye was considered an act of politeness, but that had been the first time you had really addressed sokka in any way since the unplanned confession. he had probably realised that as well, giving a reason for the sudden bright smile on his features.

you practically sprinted towards your science classroom, holding your books tightly to your chest to not let them fly out of your grip. you hoped zuko was already there, knowing he’d want to hear the rather big step you’d just taken in repairing your friendship with your childhood friend. you were surprised that the thought of slowly getting over him in order to just be friends had slipped your mind, remembering that this morning you didn't want anything to have to do with him for the rest of your life, wanting to just stay away from him to not ignite anything in you, but you were slowly realising it was ridiculous to throw away the friendship for your unrequited crush. you two may not be as close as before but you could still stay friends, you could still hangout with him without feeling like your heart was shattering every moment you’d meet his beautiful ocean eyes.

“zuko!” you called for him as soon as you spotted the back of his black haired head, whipping his head around to greet you with a grin, happy that you weren't ignoring him like he thought you might, considering your answers to his texts were rather sporadic and vague.

“happy to see you’re alive y/n.” he joked as soon as you caught up with him, both of you walking at the same height as you entered the room, taking a seat next to each other as you always did, even when the two of you werent as close as you were now.

“i think i’m ready to fully start moving on.” you announced, taking a deep breath before letting him know of your future plans, determination in yours eyes and tone as you felt set to move on from your crush.

“really? i'm surprised it didn't take longer.” his eyes grew a bit at your proclamation, not expecting to hear you say those words this early, thinking he’d have to see you distance yourself from everyone for weeks but it only took a day or two, making him slightly septic at how long you would actually last with your new resolution but nonetheless he was proud of you.

“yeah well i’m kind of stuck with sokka for a history project and i figured might as well start moving on from him. i still want to be friends with him.” you explained, taking your science homework out so you were prepared whenever the teacher would come on in.

“i’m proud of you y/n, its very mature of you.” he placed his hand on your shoulder, sincerity in his tone lifting your spirits up at the thought of repairing whatever damage you might’ve caused and the thought of the damage you were avoiding by taking action now instead of later.

saturday rolled around and you had managed to have some sort of small talk with sokka during your classes, still deciding to spend your lunch period with jin instead of your usual friends but it was a start to where you thought you would be saturday after you left. you had stopped eating with your friends a little over a week ago, opting to spend time with the lovely girl from your math class. you had had trouble sleeping friday night, scared of going to sokka’s house and falling back to where you started, back to square one, back in love with a friend who was already taken by a lovely girl.

your feet felt rather heavy as you walked down the familiar path to his house, bag with a your notebook and history course around your shoulder as you retraced the steps you had followed almost everyday during that particular summer, always going to sokka’s house to entertain yourself while school was out.

you first lingered in the air above the door for a couple of seconds, taking a deeo breath in to calm your nerves before you finally knocked. it didnt take long before it was opened, sokka with an eager smile on his lips was who greeted you behind the door.

“finally, you shouldve been here an hour ago!” he lamented jokingly as he moved out of the way to let you in, causing you to roll your eyes at how dramatic your friend was.

“sokka, im five minutes late.” you deadpanned, hastily taking your shoes off, leaning against a nearby wall for support.

“exactly!” he exclaimed, his voice cracking slightly and suddenly you felt as though nothing ever happened, as if your feelings had never come to make you want to change whatever relationship you had with him, simply feeling as though the two of you were just friends.

“really sokka? dont you reme,ber when i waited an hour for you outside in the freezing cold in the woods so we could make a campfire together? or that time where we were late in eight grade because someone accidentally put on ripped pants? or-”

“alright i get it.” he held his hands up in defeat at your inquisitive look, knowing you were only joking around with him to make him feel slightly guilty for all the times he had been late.

“my dad made seaweed noodles for us to eat while we work, hope thats okay.” shoving his hands in his pockets, waiting to see you reaction at the mention of one of your favorite dishes that he’d always insist his father to make you whenever you’d come by.

“no way!” you dashed into the kitchen, leaving sokka by himself at the entrance, surprised at how fast the two of you had seemed to ease back into things and some part of it seemed to good to be true but he was happy to have you back.

“wait for me!” he called for you, spending slightly to join you. a reminiscent smile on his lips as he watched you excitedly poor yourself a bowl, knowing where everything in the hous ewas from it practically being a second home for you during all those years.

“you’ll have to say thank you to hakoda.” you told him as you eyed the noodles, your stomach rumbling as you brought it to the table, it had been too long since you had eaten his father’s cooking.

“y/n, you havent even eaten it yet, how do you know its good?” he laughed as he watched you carefully bring the bowl to the dinner table, trying to get to it as fast as you could but still making sure to not let any of the broth spill out.

“because your dad’s seaweed noodles are the best!” you defended your previous statements, taking a seat as you waited for sokka to make his own bowl and bring chopsticks for the both of you. the watertribe boy nodded, slightly mocking you in his own playful way. while you waited for him to rejoin you, you took out the notebook you used for your history notes and grabbed a pen that was sitting on the table.

you scribbled down the title of your project and tapped your pen, impatient waiting to be able to dig into your steaming hot dish.

“have any ideas for the presentation?” sokka startled you slightly, coming from behind you to lean over your shoulde to see if you had written anything but he was met with a blank page.

“no, now get me my chopsticks idioy.” you shoved his head away, earning a protestful ‘hey’ from him as your brought your hand back to wram themselvbes on the bowl.

“here.” he placed the chopsticks next to the bowl before making his way around the table to sit in front of you, slowly blowing on his soup to cool it down.

“took you long enough.” you teased before you grabbed them to pick up some of the noodles, cooling them off with your breath before shoving some of it into your mouth. sokka started laughing at how quickly you engulfed the noodles that his father had spent the morning making.

you flipped him off, not caring at how ‘unlady like’ you might’ve looked but it had been forever since you had tasted his father’s seaweed noodles, during winter it was a staple food for whenever you would spend the night but since the weather had gotten warmer and you had grown more distant, it had been a hot minute since you had a traditional dish of the southern water tribe, something you’d most definitely use in your comparison of the different cuisines.

“before we start, i wanted to talk to you about something.” sokka brought his hand down, deciding not to eat just yet but rather address the elephant in the room.

“yeah?” you knew where this was going so you finished chewing what was in your mouth and swallowed, keeping your eyes on the food as you wiated for sokka’s question.

“so where do we stand, us? i mean two days ago you stormed off, after weeks of us not actually talking and now it feels like everything is fine. i just want to make sure that you’re okay.” you took a deep breath in, knowing this was coming, knowing you had to confront your feelings upfront now and not just push whatever you were feeling down, hoping it didnt blow over one day.

“if im being honest sokka, i like you, still, but i want us to be friends. im happy to see that suki makes you happy, but it might take some time for me to get over you so we might not ever be as close as before for my own sake but im willing to try my hardest to fix anything i mightve broken in the last couple of weeks. because i love having you as a friend and no matter how much it wouldve hurt to be with you before, i still missed my best friend.” you slowly lifted your head up, pouring out what was your mind without any filter, letting him know where you stood, sincerity written on your features as you wiated to see sokka’s reaction.

“that sounds good, whatever works for you. just happy i dont have to lose my oldest friend” he finally answered after silence settled between the two of you, letting your words settle and let him process your new confession.

you smiled back and then the two of you turned your attention back to the noodles, the two of you practically inhaling the food as the only sound was the muching of the seaweed and the slurping of the soup. a nice moment shared between two friends.

“you know, theres still girl that i just know you’d like.” sokka was the first to speak up, a small tease in his tone as he tried to set you up right after you told him you were trying to move on from him.

“sokka.” you threatened, not wanting him to go down whatever road he was about go down to, you finding it to be the wrong moment to bring this up.

“i’m just saying i have yue’s number if you want it!” he recoiled on his claim, but made sure to name drop the girl he supposedly thought was perfect for you. blood rushed to your cheeks at the mention of his ex girlfriend from middle school, rmebering how beautiful you thought the white haired girl was and how you had a small crush on her while they were dating.

the boy in front of you simply laughed, feeling content at where he now stood with his friend since kindergarten. he was your dream boy, but maybe not in the way you first thought. he was the boy of your dreams but not all dreams need to be romantic.

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[autumn-foxfire]

Its amazing how much fans can like impact your expirience with a character. Like back when Endeavors redemption arc was just starting i was in a server with those fans that were all about 'endeavor did nothing wrong' very agressivly and as someone who agressivly disliked endeavor back then it just made me dislike him more cuz like...well that server wasnt a good enviorment in general.

But then i joined another server and there was a person there who also really liked endeavor n he was their main to rp but they were just?? Very chill? They didnt try to defend him n they were open about what a bad person he is but they also expressed how its interesting to them to roleplay a character becoming a better person after being such an asshole n it honestly it chilled me out on endeavor a lot. Like the way they talked about him for the first time a 'hey that is an interesting character arc hes having' lightbulb went off.

Amazing what different results you get by discussing what u love about a character while acknowledging his faults as part of what makes him interesting instead of just screaming 'he did nothing wrong'

Besides i feel when you refuse to let characters be responsible for what they did you kinda gut them of what makes them interesting a lot?

Like yes character like LOV had a bad start n the world did them no favors but they DECIDED to act the way they did when given the opportunity thats what makes them interesting and tells us more about them as people. Like both Toga and Shinsou were born with villanous quirks and put down by society but they chose different paths to cope with that and thats whats interesting about them. Toga decided to embrace what was given to her while Shinsou decided to push past it no matter what. If you take away characters agency in their own decisions i feel like you are just making them bland you know wat i mean :/

YES!

A character without flaws is boring! In fact that's probably one of the biggest complaints people have about Deku (and while I don't think he doesn't have flaws, I do agree that Hori is more hesitant to actually explore those flaws with Deku then he is with other characters).

I get so tired of people trying to take away what makes a character interesting! They did things wrong and now they have to work with that and that's what gives us a plot! Seeing these character overcome their flaws and mistakes and try to make them right (in Endeavor's case) or just seeing them spiral more and more as they don't recognize these flaws which puts them in worse and worse situations (like the LoVs).

It really is incredible how your opinion of a character can be impacted by a fan. I know many say "don't like it get to you" but it's really hard not too when you're surrounded by it. If you're constantly surrounded by people who try to deny the worst parts of a character, or excuse them, especially when said character had done awful things to other characters you enjoy (and who you want to see justice for), it would slowly suck the joy out of anyone. Especially when you want to discuss those traits and the impacts they have but these fans are determined to ignore them.

At that point, I don't even think people like the character as much anymore (I mean, how can you like someone when you're ignoring a vitol part of who they were?)

And I don't think this attitude his helped by purity culture :/ People have fallen so far into the ideas of fiction affecting reality that they seem to think that even liking a character who does bad things means you condone it (which isn't how that works!). Of course they're going to be adamant about the character not being bad because they don't want people to think they support abuse/murder or whatever crime or bad thing their favourite character has committed.

Which is dumb because no sane person would think just because you like X means you support everything X does. In fact, it actually comes across worse for you to deny their crimes because then it does seem like you support it because you're not acknowledging it as bad like a normal person would be!

People really need to accept that a character can be bad and likeable! And that liking and even supporting said character doesn't mean you condone their actions.

#fandom #bnha #thanks for the ask!!

[synthmusic91]

thoughts? kjfhlkjdfh asking bc i rb'd the original post from u a bit ago because i agreed w/ original poster but i just saw this rb of it and wanted to know what u thought. ciaran(.)tumblr(.)com /post/652413157345820673/there-is-a-genre-of-posts-thats-obsessed-with-the

well first of all i hope this isn't a bait ask. this reply really doesn't deserve the time and effort i put into refuting it, but there was a point in time when i was emotionally confused by these..."arguments", so whoever u are, anon, i hope this is helpful. i also recommend some distance - literally, "go outside and touch grass", which is a lot more difficult than it sounds, but it needs to be done. anyway, here's my "analysis":

for context, here's what the post in question said:

and the tags:

at a high level, we can see that what ciaran is saying doesn't really respond to what OP was talking about. for this reason, i'm not going to bring in much of what OP said, because it's uncontested in this context, and look at ciaran's reply. i'll try to break this up...

EDIT: i had a long-ass response here, but then i realized it was dumb because the source material is dumb. i cut out most of it, but here are the highlights.

"there is a genre of posts that’s obsessed with the notion that fandom is something much larger, more prevalent, and more able to affect the way media is processed and consumed, than it actually is in reality."

so, as we can all see on tiktok and, indeed, on the electronic lore olympus billboard that takes up a side of a literal skyscraper, fandom is no longer the niche thing that "fandom olds" make it out to be. also, we can't ignore how many (white) fandom players go on and work in the industry (cassandra clare, whoever wrote 50 shades, man idk much of anything so there's probably many more). so this comment is sort of myopic. and since this is what characterizes the rest of the reply, well...it's not great.

also don't look up lore olympus; it's basically a dd/////lg fanfic that happens to be one of the most popular series on the line webtoon app, which is rated for teens...and for $1 to the creator's patreon, you can view not sfw p*dophilic art, so. also obviously i didnt do that; there was a video essay about this. i can't find it though

"ironically but understandably, these posts are made by people who are so terminally fandom-poisoned that they ascribe phenomenal power to it, and think of it as some great evil that must be defeated (by making posts on tumblr, which is obviously a very influential thing to do)"

"fandom-poisoned" is such a nebulous term, especially since it appears to mean "has had some really significant, (in this context) bad experiences with fandom." this is, first of all, a huge assumption to make about a stranger, and second, not the own they think it is. i'm just going to link this post, and hopefully you can see how it relates.

anyway, the "making posts on tumblr is meaningless" is um...interesting, seeing as off the top of my head i can think of two very influential tumblr blogs that talk about really important issues, Gradient Lair and Red Light Politics. I don't know as much about Red Light Politics, but Gradient Lair is frequently cited by academics (not getting into academia nonsense now but... -_-). also, they sound more pissed that the original post did gain traction, but whatever. this paragraph doesn't really make sense, but nothing here does, because i wasn't given much to work with.

"...and then because these people have basically no imagination and unfailingly pick on others for their own faults, they project their own experiences on everyone they perceive as being more ‘in fandom’ than them,"

jesus christ. i'm going not say anything about the tone of this because i put too much effort into this for some rando to call me a cyberbully.

i think what they're thinking about is how there appear to be some "fandom critical" people who try to, holistically, "ruin everyone's good time" by "stirring up drama" about popular fandom artists/writers/whoever else idk. oftentimes these people will also make jokes about fandom whatever, seemingly picking on random people's interests.

however, if you look at the long history of fandom racism, fandom's normalization of p*dophilia, and even general fandom harassment, and then you look at fandom's visceral, unwarranted reaction to criticism regarding these things, you can quickly see that disillusionment towards fandom is entirely reasonable. as for the joking, well...this an oversimplification but not everyone needs to like what you like. it sounds like they just need to get over themself.

and go “You, a 27 year old queer blogger who is into [tv show/anime/movie] an embarrassing amount, are now going to be the face of Capitalism” with no self-reflection or critical thought given to how fucking cringe it is-"

so, i'm regretting putting so much effort into this because this is so fucking long and i have to analyze this nonsense...it feels like i'm back in my feminist thought class. nightmarish. but anyway, this seems to deal with- [CUT FOR LENGTH. nothing important was missed].

EDIT 2: actually here's a summary of what I had. it deserves better than to be a response to this nonsense, but first it detailed how this took 1. the op's post and 2. a comment that we don't even know if op agreed with and misinterpreted that, and threw quite a fit about this- and i hate to say this because this term is misused so often by redditors, but- strawman.

I then went on to discuss how, for example, PoC can uphold systems of white supremacy. while obviously no person of color is going to be the "face" of white supremacy, the discussion still needs to be had, especially within that group. similarly, while fandom constituents may not be the face of capitalism, there needs to be a discussion, within fandom, on how they support and are defined by capitalist (and other) systems.

it was really too good of a point to be making for this trash reply. I could go say more, but I'm still trying to stay on topic, unlike ciaran.

"to act like random people on the internet, end users with no influence over corporate decisions, are the ones personally responsible for the fact that late-stage capitalism has destroyed popular art and culture in an increasingly sordid attempt to make money."

we've been over the "no influence" bit - because in fact fans do have influence, especially since media creators are literally fans, etc etc. i'm tired of people acting like they have no power and using that as an excuse to support and perpetuate harmful, easily avoidable behavior.

also, to act like the nebulous system of late-stage capitalism is the only cause of bad media is ludicrous. first of all, someone has to make these so-called "corporate decisions", and the people making artistic decisions are, again, overwhelmingly members of "fandom." this comment is really trying to keep marvel trash and lore olympus-esque nonsense in the same atomic, indivisible category lest someone catches a whiff of nuance.

"the above post is a great example of this phenomenon because op admits freely that they only think fandom is destroying media because they have been spending more time in fandom and thus have an over-inflated sense of its importance in greater culture. posting your own Ls indeed."

i'm so tired. this person literally has 120 works on ao3 like...who is spending more time in fandom.

and the tags:

#i assure you that fandom has no bearing on my actual real life #and if it does on yours. then that is your problem #it's also a very funny problem to

now this is just egregiously tone deaf. you do not need to do more than a cursory google search to find a bottomless well of examples of fandom harassment, threats, doxxing, and violence, much of which is racially motivated. you can see why it would be bad to make fun of this. 

also the way that “fandom has no bearing on their actual real life“...120 fanfics on ao3. 120.

conclusion:

the reply clearly misinterprets of op's point, and as such, does not refute it. they responded to another issue altogether, which is that of the sanctity of their ~coping mechanism~ or whatever it is. their argument in this respect was, in my opinion, delusional and pathetic, especially given that they wrote it on someone else's unrelated post.

FINAL NOTE: i cut out lots of this because the reply went in so many different directions, so some stuff might not make sense. let me know if you have any questions.

#answered #anonymous #fandom #long post #q slur #s

[oftheredmoon]

my abuser abused me. after 10 years i broke my silence and told my childhood friend. i didnt want justice or anything bc i didnt want to destroy my family, i just wanted to confide in my closest friend. she immediately ran around town and told everyone. 2 years later, i found out random people knew about my trauma and were threatening my abuser as well as on the verge of involving my family. so i lied. and said i lied about the abuse. a lot of people in town hate me. ex-childhood friend hates me and victimizes herself; everyone takes her side. my abuser hates me and rather than be grateful that i took one for the team (since we both know what he did) he uses it against me. tells me he hates me because “you know what you did” on party chat in front of the handful of people who still speak to me.

i can never confide in anyone about this due to cultural reasons. i’m stuck living in a looped hell. people think im some mentally ill wacko who went off the deep end and tried to drag innocent people down with me. i dont do drugs. i dont drink. i dont have an escape. i dont have friends anymore. suicide is not an option. confiding in people is no longer an option. coping mechanisms dont work anymore. self-harm never worked and just made me feel stupid. moving out/running away is not an option. therapy didnt help, neither did meds.

i think the most painful thing is the blatant fact that i will never truly be happy.

i’m expected to get married and have children. i want to get married and have children. but how am i supposed to let my husband lay a finger on me without screaming and crying? how am i supposed to explain that the reason i breakdown everytime he compliments me is because nobody has ever paid attention to me before? how am i supposed to be a good wife and have a good job when im completely talentless and stupid because i spent my whole childhood in a locked room neglected? how am i supposed to a healthy partner when the very thought of him becoming slightly annoyed with me or ignoring me is enough to send me into a psychotic breakdown? how am i supposed to explain why im so mentally ill? why i have psychosis, ptsd, depression, anxiety, adhd, and borderline personality disorder. why im constantly dissociating. how am i supposed to explain why im so physically ill? my heart, my blood sugar, my ulcers, the migraines, the potential cysts, crohns disease, the fact that i can hardly eat without throwing up, the fact that my body has dealt with so much stress that its already giving up at 20 years old. i could keep going, but i wont.

its getting hard to feel anything anymore. i’m no longer in touch with reality. when i try to think about myself my appearance, my name and all the things that once defined me do not come up. im hardly human at this point. i wake up, eat, stare at the wall for 8 hours, eat again, maybe do some homework, and play xbox for a few hours before my abuser inevitably makes a comment and i get triggered and leave before i breakdown in front of everyone.

“just tell ur future husband!!” cant, its not that simple, im not from the west.

“find a supportive/understanding man!!” see above plus: no man is going to put up with a complete emotional trainwreck who can hardly function: thats a receipe for creating a cheater.

“find a friend group that your abuser doesnt hang out with!!” cant, everyone hates me, this friend group is the most successful one ive ever had, im scared of making new bonds, theyll all leave eventually.

“make online friends!!” i have very negative experiences with online friends, id rather not.

“seek professional help!!” already tried, didnt work, they would call the cops if they knew half the shit that happened to me, therapy is not the solution to everything.

“why did u say u lied in the first place...?” bc my abuser going to jail/being confronted by all of this wouldve destroyed my family. i couldnt let that happen.

“why did u expect ur abuser to be understanding and grateful..? they’re an abuser lol...” bc after the whole thing blew up and everyone hated me, we had a mutual agreement and understanding to make it water under the bridge in order to protect our family. guess i was wrong to think he cared about them.

“what do u want me to say then lol... ur not willing to help urself” i cant help myself. “my hands are tied” is the biggest understatement of the century.

this post is not to find my cure. i didnt make this post because i want people in my dms showing me that they’re concerned.

if ur concerned about me harming myself, dont be. you have my 100% guarantee that i will not self-harm or attempt suicide. i gave up on that years ago.

this post is to vent.

this post is for people who are in similar situations as me. people who cant find a way out. people who cant turn to escapes such as drugs. people who protect their abuser whether out of love or for the sake of others.

you’re not the only one. i understand. i know. its hard. you’re drowning. no one will grab your hand no matter how much you reach out. in the rare cases that someone does come you pull away. you’ve lost the best years of your life to trauma and mental illness. it feels like theres no point. nothing helps. nothing works. you’re practically a zombie. you often trigger yourself to cope. you just want the pain to end. you dont want to feel anymore. you want to feel something. you dont want to remember. you want to be loved. you want a sign that you belong here. you want to enjoy life. you want to die. you’re afraid of living but you’re afraid of death.

i’m so sorry you’re hurt. i hope you find peace and salvation in a safe manner. i hope you heal and enjoy life to the fullest.

dont really know how to end this. i hope we’ll all be okay. i hope everyone whos been traumatized can find peace on earth. i hope breathing can start to feel a little easier. sorry this is so long. take care of yourselves.

#depression #traumacore #ventcore #Ptsd #Suicidal thoughts #depressing thoughts #venting #abuse #child abuse #anxiety #bpd #adhd #Suicide #borderline personality disorder #post traumatic stress disorder #Self harm #personal

[smauglord]

Hi, I'm sorry to bother you, as I don't know whether you're taking asks or not. I would like to ask about fe3h in relation to Buddhism if that's alright with you. Do you think there is any connection between the animal symbols in fe3h (lion, deer and eagle), and the animal symbolism in Buddhism? How is each animal interpreted in Buddhism? I'm really interested in Buddhism culture in fe3h, and would like to learn more if you don't mind. Anw, thank you for your time.

Hello, thank you for taking time to ask. And no, i dont mind with asks. I'm sorry for being a bit late, i had to check some things with my friend to make sure the right references according to Mahayana Buddhism. I will try to answer as best as i could.

Ok, first thing, i dont think there is any connection between the animals in fe3h and animal symbolism in Buddhism, simply because there is nothing to suggest the animals were based on Buddhism culture. There are some references that suggested they are based on other cultures though. At least i didnt see any reference to Buddhism, if there are more references that suggested it in JP, then I wouldn't know.

But, to answer your questions, the animals do have special meanings in Buddhism.

First off, the lion. This one is the most popular one i think. The lion is used to refer to Gautama himself, as he is also called The Lion of the Shakya Clan, and also to refer Gautama's royal ancestry. I think the lion was really popularized during Ashoka's reign. In Mahayana specifically, the lion is the mount of Buddha Akshobhya.

The deer. The deer symbolizes harmony and peace. A pair of deers usually depicted in Buddhist arts, facing each other. Historically, when Buddha gave his first teaching, deers were present. Gautama was said to have been a golden deer in one of his previous lives.

The eagle. In Buddhism, that would be the garuda - the eagle king. An eagle-like creature that originated from Hinduism, later adopted into Buddhism. Garuda represents the space element, ability to overcome your desires and the power of the sun. At first, garuda depicted only as an eagle-like bird, but over the centuries, garuda started to be depicted as human-bird hybrid creature. Throughout Buddhist arts, you can find garuda in both forms. Garuda usually depicted at the top-center of the torana of Buddha's throne. In Mahayana specifically, garuda is the mount of Buddha Amoghasiddhi.

Now, this is a bit out of the question, if the animals were indeed referenced from Buddhism, that would actually be really interesting. As according to tradition, Garuda is the traditional enemy of the Nagas (serpent) - though Buddha later made a peace between the two. And, they are also called the devourer of the snakes. (Snakes and nagas are different creatures in Buddhism). That's why in many Buddhist arts, you can often find the image of an eagle, and a snake caught in it's talons.

More interestingly still, in Tantric tradition, garuda is the lord of the skies, and so naturally as such, they are enemies with the lion, the lord of the earth.

But, back to my first point, i didn't see anything in canon to support the theory of the animals based on Buddhism. I'm more leaned to say that the eagle is based on Byzantine Empire's crest, as Byzantine Empire is referenced throughout the Adrestian Empire. And the lion is traditionally used in royal crests in Ireland (Faerghus has some interesting Irish reference afterall). And about the deer, well, this one i honestly have no idea.

Anw, I dont know if in Japanese version they have any other references to Buddhism aside from Byleth's class, so if you have any additional information or you know a certain reference that can point out clearly the connection between fe3h and Buddhism, please feel free to inform me.

I'm sorry if i couldn't be much help regarding your question. Thank you.

#fe3h #buddhism #blue lion #golden deer #black eagle #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #claude von riegan #edelgard von hresvelg #edelgard #ask