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pricklepearbloom · 2 months
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Hey I've love love loved your acotar fics and was wondering if you could do like a jealousy fic with az like he's being completely irrational about the amount of time your spending with one of his brothers but you only love him and he goes to elain for comfort but it ends in fluff after a big argument because as we know he struggles to regulate/show his emotions thanksss
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a/n: hey loveee I hope this is something along the lines of what you wanted! I've never done an ask before (omg first!!) If anyone else has any request, don't be afraid to slide into my inbox bb.
All I Want
Pairing: Azriel x OC (Ruby)
Warnings: just some good old-fashioned angst, not beta read
Word count: 3.5K
As the morning sunlight gently filtered through the curtains, casting a warm glow across the room, Ruby found herself in a cocoon of comfort, wrapped in the tender embrace of the love of her life, her sweet mate Azriel. The soft rhythm of his breathing and his heart synchronized with hers in a sweet lullaby. In the mornings, it felt like the world outside the haven of their bedroom seemed to pause before the chaos of the day began. Gods she loved weekends, nothing to do but relax and stay cozy Ruby mused as she cuddled in further into her mate’s strong chest.
He pulled her closer as he began to wake placing a soft kiss on her head, practically shoving his nose into her hair to drown in the scent of her shampoo. “Mmm what time is it?” Ruby lightly rasped out, voice rough from disuse. “Who cares, I intend to stay right here all day.” Azriel replied as he gave her a small squeeze, running a thumb lightly along the small of her back. Ruby smiled softly letting her brain imagine spending all day in bed.
Shoot. She couldn’t spend all day in bed. Ruby’s eyes shot open and she sat up at breakneck speed. Azriel scrunched his brows and followed her up to a sitting position. “Is everything alright? Hey, wait where are you going?” He calls as Ruby jumps out of bed throwing on her dressing robe running into the bathroom.
“I’m sorry! I totally forgot I promised Cassian that I would meet with him today.” Ruby said her voice muddled from speaking with her toothbrush in her mouth. Azriel felt his stomach drop a bit, he had been looking forward to spending time with her today. Rhys had been piling more and more work on his plate and he promised he wouldn’t intervene today. “But wai-“ he tried to get out “I’m sorry I’m running terribly late I can’t believe I forgot, he’s going to kill me.”
Azriel took a deep breath as he watched her run around their bedroom putting on undergarments then picking up and smelling and pair of pants, making a face and putting it back down before repeating the process until she had found one that suited whatever clearly questionable requirements she had for clean laundry.
“I’ll be back later okay?” Ruby glanced up from pulling her shoes on her feet and saw the slightly lost look on Azriel’s face as he was still sitting upright in bed, mouth slightly ajar. She felt a kernel of guilt tighten in her stomach. “I can cancel if you want. I’m sorry I forgot to mention it, Cassian asked me to help him pick out an anniversary present for Nesta and you know him, he’s useless at that kind of stuff.”
Her eyes softened and she crawled back on the bed placing a soft kiss on Azriel’s sharp jawline that seemed clenched before immediately relaxing after feeling her soft lips on his face. “But if you want, I can absolutely cancel, and we can stay in bed and spend the day together?” He shook his head lightly, “no, it’s fine. You should go. Someone needs to stop him from buying her an engraved horse saddle.” He sighed “I’ll just miss you; will you be back later? Maybe we can make hot cocoa and read together?”
A fond smile came to Ruby’s lips at the idea. “That sounds lovely darling. I think I should be back just after lunch; I’ll see if we can stop by the bakery to get some of those pastries that you love.” She scooted off of the bed before leaning back in for one last kiss. Azriel wanted to make it count, his hand gently caressed her jaw and neck, thumb swiping back and forth along her cheek as he firmly planted a deep kiss that sent Ruby reeling. Azriel’s kisses were always filled with passion and love, they were like a drug to her, she could never get enough. Azriel was the first to pull away, a small smirk on his face seeing her eyes still shut spinning from his kiss. Still got it, he thought to himself smugly. “I love you.” She said softly before practically prancing out of the room, taking Azriel’s heart with her.
That was only the beginning, it seemed. Azriel noticed that Ruby seemed to be spending a lot of time with Cassian. Rationally he knew that nothing would ever happen between them, but his feelings didn’t seem to care much for rationality when Ruby was concerned. His anxiety rose higher and higher as the weeks passed on, holding it all in until one day, after coming home from a long and hard mission, he came to his breaking point.
Muscles aching from a mission, Azriel landed on the balcony of the Townhouse to see Rhys. Meetings with Rhys could take either five minutes or an hour and he had a feeling that this particular meeting was going to be on the longer side. He mentally groaned, his entire body was practically screaming at him to return to his home and wrap his arms around his warm, soft, loving mate. Ignoring the buzz that’s ever present when he thinks about Ruby, he steps off of the balcony and opens the glass door and is met with a rush of warm air and the comforting scent of his home and- is… is that his mate?
His pupils immediately dilated, and his pace picked up tenfold. He swiftly moved through the house following her unmistakable scent, his ears perking up at the sound of her laughter. His ears picked up a low rumble that distinctly did not sound like his mate. His hackles immediately rose as he rounded the corner to see Ruby and Cassian sitting side by side on the couch. He was operating on fumes and all his mind saw at that moment was the love of his life with a man that was not him and all. he. saw. was. red.
“What is this.” His voice cut through the warm atmosphere like his truth teller on a mission. Ruby’s eyes snapped up to meet his and lit up with excitement “Az!” Jumping up off of the couch to greet him. She took in his tight expression and lowered her arms that were barely raised to embrace him.
“What’s wrong?” She said cautiously taking a step toward him “Oh, not much. Just came here to debrief before going home after a very long day to see my faithful, loving mate. Only come to find her here with my brother.” Ruby’s eyebrows scrunched shocked while Cassian’s rose to his forehead “Azriel. You’re out of line.” Cassian said slowly rising from his seat on the couch with a confused expression on his face.
Cassian’s defense only served to anger Azriel even more. Obviously if he was being defensive that meant that something was going on. Ruby had been spending an obscene amount of time with Cassian, something more had to be going on. “Am I? Please, Cassian, tell me why you’re spending your night with my mate when you have your own to attend to? Or is she not enough for you anymore that you had to take what was mine as well.” Azriel practically spat out, his shadows lashing out from his body reacting to his heightened emotions.
Cassian’s eyes darkened at the slight against Nesta. “Don’t speak a word about my mate. She is and will always be enough for me. What is going on with you? This isn’t like you at all.” And he was right, the emotions that were roiling through Azriel didn’t feel like him at all. Usually, he would be ecstatic to see his mate and his brother getting along so well. When they first met, Ruby had some issues with feeling welcome into the inner circle. They were a tight nit group, and she was easily overwhelmed by the depth that each of them knew each other, it often felt like she would never find her place beyond being Azriel’s mate.
“Cass do you mind giving us the room for a minute?” Ruby said gently, not letting her eyes leave Azriel’s. Once the war general gave a tense nod and slipped through the doorway to give the couple some privacy, Ruby took another step toward Azriel. “Az,” Ruby said hesitantly “I promise nothing was going on, Cassian and I were just catching up. Why don’t you take a seat, and we can talk about whatever’s going through your head?” A wave of embarrassment flooded through Azriel, but he shrugged it off, choosing to shut down instead. “Unfortunately, I need to meet with Rhys to debrief. I’ll meet you at home.” Ruby’s eyes sharpened at his harsh tone. “Fine. But don’t come back until you figured out what the hell is going on with you and you’re ready to talk.” Azriel didn’t bother to acknowledge her as he strode out of the room headed for Rhys’ office.
Following the fight, Ruby went home and sat and waited for Azriel to come back. She reflected on their little spat and agonized over every word. What could she had said differently? It pained her that her mate was hurting and that he wouldn’t let her help. When he comes home, she thought, we’ll sit here and talk about whatever is going on with him and then we’ll move forward from there. That’s all we can do.
But minutes turned to hours and Ruby still sat on the couch. A debrief had never gone on this long before and Ruby was sure that he was probably just taking some time to cool off. She didn’t move from her spot on the couch as the day turned to night and somewhere in the late hours of the night, she fell asleep on the couch, still waiting.
A door shutting woke Ruby from her slumber, her neck aching with the pain of being held in the wrong position for too long. Ruby reached up, trying to rub the ache away her eyes locking onto the dark figure standing in the archway that leads to their living area. “Hi.” Azriel said hoarsely “What time is it?” Ruby said her gaze peering out of the window seeing the light peek through the linen curtains they had picked out together “Did you just get home?” Azriel nodded unable to meet her eyes. “W-Where have you been? Why didn’t you come home last night? I waited up all night for you.” Ruby said standing from her place on the couch, leaving the imprint of her body on the couch from hours of use.
“I stayed with Elain for the night.” Ruby’s heart sunk through the floor. It was no secret that there was bad blood between the two. Azriel and Elain had an attachment of sorts until Ruby came into the picture and Elain made it very clear that she was not a fan of Ruby. She was constantly spouting vitriol about Ruby while she was still new to the inner circle, never in ear shot of Azriel of course. Eventually, Ruby made her discomfort known to Azriel and he had put distance between himself and Elain. His interest in her had been waning for some time and when Ruby came into his life, he didn’t give the Archeron sister another thought. His heart and mind set on the kind and strong female that the cauldron had blessed him with.
“Why?” Ruby’s rasped through a tight throat, thick with emotion. “Did you- Azriel did you cheat on me?” Her eyes welled up with tears as she stared at him incredulously, a sharp pain shot through her chest at the idea.
“No, no. I would never do that to you Ruby. I just...” he paused dropping his gaze to the floor. “I wanted you to feel how it felt when I saw you with Cassian.” Now that the words had left his mouth, he wished he could take them back. He wished he could shove them into a box and never let them see the light of day again because the look on Ruby’s face, it was enough to make him want to take truth teller and shove it into his gut until he bled out at her feet.
“You- you went to Elain’s to get back at me?” she said hoping that her ears had been lying to her and she didn’t hear that her mate had done something so… so spiteful. She had been trying to hold them back but once the first tear came it was like opening the floodgates. Azriel took a step forward reaching out to brush them away and to comfort her but she matched his step, taking one backward, flinching away from his hand. “I think I need some space.” She stepped past the couch that she had been sitting at all night waiting for him to come home so they could make up, but he was with her.
Azriel lightly grabbed her wrist as she passed him intending to head quickly toward the stairs that led to their bedroom. “Ruby, please. I’m sorry. I wasn’t thinking.” Ruby jerked her arm out of his grasp spinning around on him. “Really? You weren’t thinking for the entire night? I find that incredibly hard to believe Azriel. Leave me alone.” She practically ran up the stairs and slammed the door shut, locking it swiftly. She practically collapses into sobs on their bed, her tears staining the pillows still made and fluffed from yesterday morning.
Azriel’s heart shattered into pieces as he tried the door handle, finding himself locked out of his bedroom, unable to console and comfort his mate who he betrayed. He felt like beyond an idiot. What was he thinking? Going to Elain of all people? After his meeting with Rhys, he felt his emotions pulling himself in a million directions. He ran into her in the kitchen, fully intending on going home to sort things out with his mate, she saw the look in his eyes and offered an ear and some tea. A dark part in Azriel thought well if his mate was going to talk to another male then he could talk to another female. A large part of his heart ached to be with Ruby, but mess of his feelings kept him seated. They sat there all night talking and the next thing he knew it was light outside marking the next day.
If he could turn back time, he would slit his own throat before sitting to tea with Elain. It would probably hurt less than he felt now, hearing his mate’s sobs through the locked door knowing there was nothing he could do to help. “Please, Ruby.” He croaked out after hours of sitting outside of the door. “I’m sorry. I… I was jealous and stupid, and I wanted to make you hurt like I was hurting. It’s felt like you’ve picked Cassian over me for weeks and I didn’t know how to talk to you about it. I’m so sorry my love, you deserve a better mate.” Her cries had softened to a sniffle and he heard a click of the door. It surprised Azriel who had been sitting on the ground, head hung low.
He shot up, the door opening to reveal Ruby with a red nose and puffy eyes, irritated from hours of crying. He didn’t think his heart could break any further, but he found himself wrong once again.
“I don’t deserve a better mate. I have the perfect mate, Azriel.” She said softly, his heart daring to lift an inch off of the ground of the pit that it found itself in at her words. “I deserved to be treated better though, yes.” He hung his head nodding solemnly. Ruby walked back to bed and crawled beneath the sheets. Azriel hesitated to get close to her, his eyes shone with tears unshed. The desperation to be close to her was palpable and Ruby granted him mercy lightly tapping on the bedspread next to her. He wasn’t going to question her as he kicked off his boots practically racing for the bed before she changed her mind. They lay side by side turned so they could see each other. Whenever they were in bed, they were always wrapped in each other’s arms so not being able to touch her was agony for Azriel.
“What happened Az? Why didn’t you talk to me about how you were feeling with me seeing Cassian?” She whispered, wrapping her arms around herself as a way to comfort herself from the conversation they were having. Azriel reached out to tuck a piece of hair that had fallen into her face before thinking better of it halfway and pulling it back away. Ruby gently grabbed his hand and led it back to her cheek. As upset as she was, she craved the comfort that only he could provide. He caressed the side of her face, his thumb gently stroking back and forth. She closed her eyes feeling the familiar sensation, relishing in the warmth and care he provided.
“I was embarrassed, I think. I know you would never cheat on me but whenever you left to see him it felt like you were choosing him over me. And then it felt like you were spending all of your time with him and I felt like I wasn’t enough for you. Like you had to seek happiness elsewhere with someone more worthy.” He whispered back the insecurities that had flooded his brain as of late. Ruby shook her head vehemently, “I’m sorry you were feeling like that Az, I had no idea. Why do you keep saying that you aren’t worthy? You are.” She pressed not breaking eye contact with him as if to hammer home her reassurance. He didn’t deserve his kind mate. He should be reassuring her and here he was blubbering about his insecurities. “I don’t know. You are this ball of light and bring so much warmth into my life and what do I bring you? Baggage and pain.” He held his breath as he dared to whisper his deepest thoughts. As if, if he spoke them too loudly, she would realize his words to be truth and would up and leave. But she didn’t. She just shook her head sadly.
“I wish you saw yourself the way I saw you. You are strong, you’re a loyal friend,” he flinched, he wasn’t being very loyal when he went to Elain, Ruby gave him a knowing look. “We’ll get there. You are the best person I know Az. I wish you gave yourself the benefit of the doubt.” Ruby gave a moment of pause watching Azriel shake his head in disagreement “Do you think that I am a good person?” He nodded, “of course. The absolute best.” “Then why would my mate be someone terrible? Wouldn’t it make sense for the one that my soul is bound to by the cauldron to be just as good?” Azriel pondered, he had never thought about it that way before.
Ruby nodded to herself before taking a deep breath “So. Tell me about Elain.” Azriel shut his eyes. “Gods I’m such an idiot. I’m so sorry my love. I promise that nothing happened, I was fired up after the meeting and she and I just talked. I acted despicably and if I could do it all over again, I would come straight home. Words-“ His voice cracked and he cleared his throat “words cannot express how awful I feel about it. If you want me to never speak to her again I will, just say the word. Please don’t leave me. Please. I’ll do anything.” He had never begged before, but he wasn’t above getting down on his knees for this female that ruled his world.
Ruby shook her head lightly “I’m not leaving you.” A weight lifted off of Azriel’s shoulders at her words and he began softly crying tears of relief. The rare sight of Azriel crying was too much for Ruby’s heart to handle and she wrapped her arms around her mate holding him tight. “What you did wasn’t okay. You lashed out to hurt me and I won’t just stand by and be your punching bag when you don’t know how to express your emotions.” Azriel nodded pressing his nose further into her hair taking a deep breath centering himself in her scent. She was here, she wasn’t leaving. “I’ll do better, I promise. I’ll communicate more when I’m feeling upset and we can work through it together.” Ruby nuzzled into his chest humming her approval. “And I’ll be more sensitive to making quality time with you a priority.” They stayed like that for an hour before Ruby broke the silence. “What if we took a little time off from the world? Spent some time just cooped up here, getting back into our groove and patching everything up?” Azriel let out a deep sigh a small fond smile finally taking to his face. “Yes, my love. That sounds wonderful.” They spent the rest of the day there, holding on to each other basking in the other’s warmth.
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djoooosstuff · 1 year
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um lol so i need rivals to lovers/fake dating/force proximity all in one spy au
i want ball scenes as well Oh and bit of domestic fluff still in that spy au sorry
I LOVEEE THIS OMG- and ofc don’t be sorry <33 request from @field-mouse-queen
~SPY AU WITH BIT OF SPICE~
“if these people weren’t watching, i’d definitely shoot you.”
“i’m not going anywhere with you.” “well sweetheart, you’re just gonna have to adjust.”
“why are we hiding in such a small place?” “why are you staring at my ___”
them being stuck in some closet/ small place and being SO CLOSE THAT THEY ALMOST KISS (why does it always have to be almost)
the realisation hitting that them thinking about each other is NOT because they HATE each other?? l.o.v.e
“if you hate me so much why don’t you just leave.” “i can’t.” “why not?” “because you’re my date, unfortunately.”
”i’m aware that this was a poor decision, but you have to be aware that i don’t care.”
”you can’t say that kinda stuff.” “and why not?” “youre too attractive, and you’re going to kill someone with that attitude.” “hopefully you,” being mumbled.
pressing a knife to their throat and confessing their undying hatred
“i am not going to kiss her.” “HE’S NOT GONNA KISS ME.”
”hey, it’s fine” “it’s not. do you know how long i’ve wanted to capture (criminal of some sort) and then you just come here to ‘save the day’. i hate that you can fix everything and have people falling in love with you from left and write. i just hate you, god.” “yeah. i know”
hiding from ‘said villain’ in some dark alleyway. i know so cliche
”i love you.” “what..?” they whisper, “we have to make them believe us.”
"If you grab me again like that, I'll make sure that my knife will land directly at your head. Understood, love?"
person a crying because they lost someone important to them in a mission and person b doing everything they can to comfort them.
person a realises that hating each other is a waste of time. also that they love person b.
the classic, “don’t shoot me for this.” and then kissing them.
^^“if you saw the way i think about us, then you would definitely shoot me”
”that guy is not good for you.” “you would know”
“just because we’re kissing,suddenly doesn’t mean that i like you”
“i just think i need a hug.”
”i cannot stand you.” “that’s why we’re sitting..?”
“does that mean we’re..” “friends?” “yeah, that was definitely what i was going to say.”
“why do you hate me so much. what could i have possibly done?” “you want me to open the list?”
THE THOUGHT CROSSING THEIR MIND- “do i really hate them or am i just in love?”
”it was easier when i hated you”
”i hate you” “then why are you helping me?” “because i’m supposed to, dumbass”
“will you be my partner for the ball” “don’t you have girls falling on your feet for that?” “i wish to take you.”
PERSON B TAKING PERSON A’S HAND TO SOFTLY KISS THIR KNUCKLES WHILST MAKING EYE CONTACTT
”if we were somewhere else, i would have slit your throat by now.”
”you look decent tonight.”
"I'll have you know that if you ever went too far with your words then you will be crossing the line."
“My mother always said you should dance with your worst enemy at least once before you kill them. So, how’s your footwork?”
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hello love 💕 i absolutely luuuuuv your writing (as you already know). i was wondering if we could get a lucien piece where they’re mates but she leaves him to protect him from something but lucien finds her eventually and he’s so angry but also relieved because he found her and maybe he tries to convince her that he’s better off with her? 👀 mostly angsty (and perhaps a bit 🌶?)
Hello Hello! Thank you loveee <3 I adore this idea...and Lucien, as you well know 😉
Hope you like this! ❤️
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Just You and Me - Lucien x Reader request (SMUT!!!)
🌶️🌶️spiceberg right ahead🌶️🌶️
Four years. 
1461 agonising days, every single one worse than the last. 
That was how long it’d been since you left him. Since you’d left, and never looked back. 
The pain, the longing, had become a constant companion, weaved among the inner workings of your brain. Sometimes it consumed you so thoroughly that you couldn’t focus on anything else. Sometimes it dragged you from sleep, drenching you in a cold sweat.
It was worth it, you told yourself every day. You were keeping your mate safe. 
You’d never forget that awful day your father had found out about the mating bond between you and Lucien Vanserra. He’d seen it as a betrayal of the worst kind; nobody hated The Autumn Court more than your father did, and he would sooner slaughter the Autumn High Lord’s youngest son than see you mated to him.
And you’d known — you’d known he’d make true on that threat, ruthless and evil as he was. You’d seen no other choice, after a blissful year of seeing your mate in secret, than to cut Lucien off completely. To never see him again. You could still see the tears on his cheeks. Could still hear the crack in his voice.
Your father had kept you on a tight leash these past four years, doing everything to make sure you never disobeyed him again. Reminding you of what would happen if you did. You didn’t step a toe out of line.
You had a feeling that was all about to change. 
A meeting across the courts — perhaps the biggest one to have ever occurred — to discuss a sudden spate of attacks across the wall. Your father had simply brought you along because he didn’t trust you enough to leave you at home — but he’d made sure to lock you in the room of the huge palace the meeting was taking place in. You were resigned to having dinner on your own, and only would you be released from the room when it was time to travel home.
You were close to climbing the walls. To tearing your hair out. Your mate was somewhere in this palace — you knew it. Could feel it. 
You didn’t touch the measly meal that was brought to you. You paced and paced, watching the hours tick by, wondering how long it would be before you could leave. The mating bond was pulsing inside you, leaving your skin itchy. You couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep, couldn’t read—
The door handle was yanked down suddenly, making you jump. Whoever had tried to open the door seemed to pause, before a fist was pounded against the wood. 
Your father. Obviously he’d come to check up on you, to make sure you were behaving. It didn’t matter if you had or not — he’d find a way to punish you either way. Not wanting to keep him waiting, you hurried over to the door.
You’d barely inched it open when the person pushed their way in and whirled round to face you. 
The sight was breathtaking. Not your father at all. Fiery hair. Russet eyes. Golden-hued skin.
Your mate.
He was staring at you just as thoroughly, as heatedly, as you were taking in every glorious inch of him. 
He’d matured so much in the last four years. Grown his hair out past his shoulders — shoulders that were far broader, arms packed with muscle. He was taller too. Adolescent roundness was gone from his face, leaving in its place a strong jaw and defined cheekbones. 
The mate you’d walked away from had been an eighteen year old boy. 
Standing before you was a man.
“Y/N.” Lucien breathed, taking a step towards you. He outstretched a hand.
You stepped back so fast, your back hit the door. “Don’t touch me.”  You whispered. “You can’t be in here.”
“I knew you were here. I could feel it. I had to see you—“
“You have to leave, Lucien. Now.”
Something flashed in his eyes. Not the hurt you’d feared, but — anger. That was what it was. It somehow matured his face even more.
“I’m not going anywhere,” He snapped, “until you tell me what the fuck I did wrong.”
You wouldn’t tell him. No way. The situation — the conversation — was better left untouched. Closing your eyes, you lowered your chin and refused to look at him. 
A sound akin to a whimper left Lucien’s throat. “Why did you leave?”
Breathe. In through your nose, out through your mouth. You slammed up the cold exterior you’d spent the last four years honing and pushed away from the door. 
“It doesn’t matter why.” You said, brushing past your mate. “I left, and that’s that. It’s done. Now leave.”
Lucien wasn’t going to back down that easily.
Before you could take another step forward, he grabbed your hand, turning you to face him. The backs of your legs almost buckled against the edge of the bed. 
“If it doesn’t matter,” he hissed, “then why have you lost weight? Why do you look like you haven’t had a good night’s sleep in four years? Why do you look like you’ve lost the will to live?”
He was close — too close. Mere centimetres between your bodies. You could smell his delicious earthy, gritty scent, hear the harsh thudding of his heart, feel the heat of his skin through his thin tunic. 
Too much. You broke. Completely and utterly broke. The dam holding back your emotions crumbled, and the tears began to fall.
“Because I have.” Your voice cracked around a sob. “Because my father found out about us and he would have killed you if I didn’t leave.”
Lucien had gone completely still. Had he seriously not worked this out? Seriously thought that you’d simply left because you didn’t want him anymore?
The tears were well and truly falling now. “You know how he feels about you — your family. I couldn’t let him get to you. If he’d taken you away from me—“
“Look at me.” His firm hands gripped your arms, almost painfully. “I would never let anyone take me from you.”
“You don’t know what he’s capable of, Lucien.”
“I don’t care what he’s capable of.” He cupped your face then, his thumbs wiping your tears. “You are my mate. Mine. And I am yours. Fuck your family. Fuck mine. Fuck everyone. It’s just you and me.”
You couldn’t keep yourself upright anymore. Your legs giving out beneath you, you perched on the edge of the bed. Lucien slotted himself between your thighs, still wiping your tears with soothing strokes. 
“We’ll go somewhere.” He angled your face up, forcing you to look at him. “Somewhere far away from all of this where it will just be us. Where nothing else matters.”
He could have no possible idea of how many times you’d imagined that very scenario over the past four years. All the different ways you’d pictured yourself ending up with your mate. But to have it dangled before you…for it to not come to fruition—
“Please.” Lucien whispered. “I love you.”
You were so close to crumbling, and he could sense it. With such heartbreaking care, he kneeled down until your faces were level, his eyes pleading.
“I love you.” He repeated. 
“I love you too.” You whispered.
That was all it took. Lucien’s strong hands were suddenly back on your face, and he was surging forward to kiss you. The force of it knocked you backwards on the bed, but he didn’t let your lips part for a second. 
He kissed you harder, firmer, his body a solid weight hovering above you as he moved one of his hands to tangle within your hair. He nipped at your bottom lip, sliding his tongue in when you gasped.
“I’ve missed this.” He groaned. “Missed you.”
“Show me.” You breathed. You grabbed his hand, moving it down to your breast.
He pulled back just slightly. Just to give you that smirk you loved so much, wicked intent in his eyes. “Gladly, my mate.”
The next few moments were a delicious, heady blur of tearing clothes and tongues and teeth. Hands roaming each other’s bodies. Kisses that left your heart thumping in your throat. Lucien tore his lips from yours, his eyes roving your now naked body with nothing but feral hunger. You wished he would take his clothes off, show you all of him, but he seemed to be in a trance as he moved. Slowly — so slowly it was painful — he kissed his way down your body. Lifted your legs onto his shoulders.
He didn’t take his eyes from you once as he tied his silky hair back into a knot. And then he lowered his face between your legs. 
That first, teasing lick up your centre had your hips arching off the mattress. Lucien chuckled, the delicious sound of it vibrating through you, and he splayed a hand across your stomach, holding you still. 
“Gods.” You gasped as he grazed your clit with his teeth. The slight, painful pinch of it was immense, addictive. He did it again. “Fuck, Lucien.”
“Shh.” He chuckled again. “Voice down, my love.” His tongue licked a stripe back down to your entrance, and you felt yourself clench. “Feel good?”
“Mm.” You bit out with a strained nod. “Mhm.”
He slid a long, callused finger inside you, causing your hips to jerk again as he began a steady rhythm of thrusting his finger in and out, his tongue once again wrapping around the nub of nerves at the apex of your thighs. Only when he felt your legs begin to tremble on his shoulders did he sink a second finger in. 
“Oh gods.” You threw your head back, the sensations too much. Stars were beginning to burst in your vision.
“That’s it, my mate.” Lucien grunted. “Ride my hand.”
You realised, then, that you were doing exactly that, your hips undulating as you urged Lucien’s fingers deeper, harder. A cry tore through your throat, and you reached down in a trembling, pathetic attempt to still his hand. 
“I want you inside me.” You gasped. 
Lucien’s laugh was guttural. “Not tonight, love. We have the rest of our lives for that. Tonight is about you.”
Any protests you may have mustered became lost in your throat as he picked up his pace, his tongue keeping up the same rhythm and devouring every damn drip of you. You could feel yourself coming undone, your body nothing but delicious flames. 
He thrust once, twice, three times more, and with his tongue swirling your clit, release barrelled into you with the force of four years of heartbreak. Your body trembled so much, you weren’t even able to move your legs from his shoulders. 
He did that for you. Gently lowered your legs, and then wiped his mouth with a satisfied grunt. His face was flushed, glistening, and as he stood, you could see the solid hardness of him poking through his breeches. 
But he barely acknowledged his own arousal. He lowered himself down beside you, pulling your trembling, naked body into his side. He stared down at you. 
You’d missed that — that look of pure adoration as gazed upon you. Seeing it now, you weren’t sure how you’d survived four years without it. 
Seeming to follow your thoughts, he leaned down and kissed you. 
“I love you.” He whispered against your lips. “Never again will we be apart.”
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coffee-latte-sprite · 2 years
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Truth Retold
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Robin!Jason Todd x fem!reader
WC: 1,700
Warnings: misunderstandings, angst, fluff, Jason is in loveeE 
Spin off to: Why Didn't You Ask Me? / pt. 2
Synopsis: Your boyfriend may finally tell you the truth about why he keeps missing your dates.
(In celebration of WDYAM reaching 1k notes and I passed 1K followers. Thank you all so much! <3)
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“Hey. . . I can’t make it tonight. Bruce needed help. . . I’m really sorry. I promise. . . I really promise this time, I’ll make it up to you. I have to go, but, I love you, princess.” 
The line clicked off as Y/N scoffed. 
“Of course he cancelled again.” She said bitterly as she threw her phone on her bed. 
Y/N and Jason have been friends every since he transferred to Gotham Academy and have been a couple ever since sophomore year. 
They were dancing around their feelings for years, and Dick was the one who cornered them and made them confess their feelings to each other. Dick said it was too painful to be in the same room with them anymore, Alfred agreed. 
Their relationship started off great. 
They went on elaborate dates and he gifted her the most precious presents to her. He celebrated every couple holiday there was. One week anniversary, one month, 100 days, 6 months, 1 year, everything.
Y/N loved it. 
Jason made her feel like a Queen and she always made sure she treated him like a King. They were what other couples envied. 
That was until lately. 
He was late to dates, missed dates, forgot anniversaries. He kept saying “Bruce needed help.” 
The only time she got to see him was when he came to school, but that was now rare as he was leaving half-way through the day because “Bruce needed help.”
She hated Bruce Wayne more than his company competitors. 
She let out a long sigh as she sunk into her chair more at her desk. She was so excited to go to the Gotham Carnival as it was only one weekend a year. Jason promised over and over again how they would go together. He even joked he would win her all of the prizes and make sure to get her a huge plushie from winning. 
What a lie that was. 
Y/N felt like she could almost cry. 
She loved Jason more than anything. She was always so excited to see him and discuss books and movie adaptations, or argue about Edgar Allan Poe and Shakespeare, or even do something as mundane as baking with him and Alfred. 
Now she was nothing but an after thought. 
Did he not want to be with her anymore? Did he find someone else?
Is she not pretty enough? Skinny enough? Smart enough? 
Insecurity after insecurity clouded her mind as her room felt suffocating. She needed to get out of here. 
She then grabbed her light sweater and opened her window. She crawled out onto the fire escape and climbed the stairs up. As she got closer to the top, she noticed how the light pollution got brighter, and as she reached the top, she could tell why. 
In all of its flaming glory was the carnival in the heart of the city. It had it large red and white circus tent with its spotlights dancing across the clouded sky. Then, she could see the rides and games littered across the grass at the square. She saw little dots of people run from one attraction to the next. 
She wished she was one of them. 
She went over to the roof sill and sat down and leaned her head on the concrete, dreaming of being there. 
It would feel lonely and sad if she went by herself, or her friends. Her friends already thought lowly of Jason as they said he was crime ally scum, this would be another example of such. 
She never thought of Jason as some hoodlum from the streets, but by how he was acting, she could see how others would believe it. 
As she gazed down at the palace of wonder, someone else was looking down at her.
He stood a building away on the lip of the concrete. His cape whipped in the wind as his heart felt heavy. Guilt and regret ate away at his core as his mask felt suffocating. 
Jason watched as his beautiful girlfriend longed to be at the carnival and he stood back and watched criminals. 
He wished he wasn’t a hero. He wished he was normal so he could be with her at all times and shower her with the affection she deserves, but he is here, in the shadows and waiting for danger. 
She had no idea of his double life as he knew involving her would put her in danger.
This constant guilt killed him every day as she was no longer expecting him to be her boyfriend, but someone to break her heart. 
It was easy for Dick as his girlfriend was also a hero. They could reminisce about a fight or train together. But Jason? All he could do was lie about his black eye and hope she doesn’t ask too many questions. 
Jason couldn’t handle this guilt anymore. It was killing him too much, especially as his relationship was about to break into pieces. 
He took a deep breath and steadied his nerves. 
He then got out his grappling gun and shot off into the night.
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Y/N let her fingers drum across the concrete. It was quiet, except for the sudden skid of rock that sounded behind her. 
She let out a yelp and whirled around, only to fall short. 
It was Robin. 
THE Robin. 
Y/N mouth opened and closed a couple of times before he spoke. 
“Um. . .” He awkwardly coughed, “Hello.” He said as his voice was deeper than what she expected. 
“Hi,” She responded just as awkwardly. 
“I saw you out here and wondered what would a pretty girl like you would be doing up here all alone.” He said as he approached her as the awkwardness subsided. 
She blushed, “Oh, I. . . my boyfriend bailed.” She bitterly. 
Robin winced. “Why would he bail on such a beautiful lady like yourself?” He asked as he came over to her side and plopped down next to her as he faced her. 
She let out a fake laugh, “I doubt he thinks I’m beautiful anymore.” She said as venom poured from her words. 
Jason’s heart dropped. “No, you are very beautiful! Don’t let anymore make you think you aren’t.” He said sternly. 
Y/N looked at him in surprise as his tone was so serious. She lightly blushed, “thank you.” 
“Of course, and maybe he’s really busy. I hear the stock market isn’t doing well.” He said sheepishly. 
“I doubt that. He’s just helping his dad, not running a company.” She said as her fists wound up. 
Jason floundered for a moment, “Maybe his dad needs help on something else, something really important.”
“Like what?”
Jason didn’t know what to say. 
“See? What could he be doing? I’m pretty sure he’s going to ask to break up with me.” She said sadly as her head broke. 
“NO!” He screamed as Y/N jumped. He coughed, “I mean, no, don’t think that.” 
Y/N gave him a questioning look but didn’t press the matter. 
“You know, I’m pretty sure your boyfriend really loves you. I’m sure he worships the ground you walk on and counts down every second until he can see you again.” Robin said as he spoke softly. 
Y/N looked at him curiously, but her heart started to fill with love. 
“How do you know?” She asked as she doubted him. 
“Because I. . .” He reached for his mask, but stopped. Is he ready for this? Is she ready for this? 
His mouth went dry and his hands came back to his sides. 
“You know, I can offer you something better than a carnival, and you can forget all about your boyfriend.” Robin said as he bounded up like a spring. 
Y/N smiled as his enthusiasm, which reminded her of someone she knew. “Oh yeah?” 
“Oh yeah.” He winked and Y/N went red. 
“What are we going to do? Steal the Batmobile?” 
“Yes-”
Y/N laughed at his joking manner. 
“But, no, I’m going to show you something that is almost as beautiful as you.” He smiled as he extended his hand towards her. 
She took it and stood up with him. His body language was open and excited. He trusted her whole heartily. 
“What is it?” She asked. 
He only smiled and brought out his grappling gun. She gasped as she shrunk back. 
“Woah, no way-You could drop me!” She exclaimed. 
He gasped, “You doubt my strength? Besides, I could never drop a lady.” 
She crossed her arms over her chest, not wanting to go over the edge. 
“Y/N, look at me.”
She did. His eyes were a blue she has only seen once in her life. Her body then relaxed in his hold as his arm slithered around her waist. His warmth and care were so gentle and calming. 
She trusted him whole heartily. 
“Are you ready?” He asked softly. 
She nodded and they shot off. 
Her arms were tight around his neck and she let out a tiny scream as her mind wasn’t catching up to what was happening. 
Their bodies then twisted up and they landed on a concrete edge. 
“Is it over?” She asked as she was still pressed up against him. 
“Yep, all over princess-” 
He knew he was screwed the second he said it. 
He dropped his cover of changed his voice, he called her the only name he had for her, and he looked at her like she was the whole world. 
Her body pushed itself away from him and looked up at him. “Jay?” 
Her voice was silent as she couldn’t believe what she heard. 
He swallowed, “Surpirse?” 
She was flabbergasted. She had her suspicions, but the thought of her boyfriend actually being Robin seemed millions of miles away. 
“I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you! I was so scared that you would soon be involved in my superhero life and you would be kidnapped or worse-” 
Y/N didn’t give him another second to explain as he was already being honest all night. 
Her lips slammed against his and his eyes went wide in surprise, but then he relaxed and tilted his head to kiss her more. His arms tightened around her waist and one hand went to cup her cheek. 
Unknown to both of them, a nine-year-old who ran a fan account snapped a shot of the couple as the nametag “DRAKE” dangled from the neck band. 
“I love you.” She whispered again and again as she kept kissing him. The days and nights being apart poured from one another as the night winds wrapped around them. 
Gotham didn’t allow for many things to grow, but Y/N’s and Jason’s love flourished under the night sky. 
Like it would for years to come. 
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A/N: This was so fun for me to write, esp the easter eggs haha :)
@masset-fotia @royalmuffinsworld
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souppiemousse · 1 year
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Rambling again, but I love how the author of Force of Gravity writes Will, as in like just a character in general.
// SPOILERS FOR FORCE OF GRAVITY!!! (duh.)
Might seem like something small, and I'm just thinking too much about it, but I ADORE it when writers aren't afraid to make Will fuck up sometimes.
(Don't even make me talk about the people who make them both fuck up, but MIKE'S THE ONLY ONE TO APOLOGIZE *STRANGLES YOU-*)
Yes, I love Will byers, I adore him with all my heart, he deserves the world, but when people say that "he has done no wrong/gen" I just think "I mean yeahh, but like he's also allowed to be wrong sometimes."
That's why I love this fic so much, it's not afraid to say that "Hey!! Will might be sympathetic here, but that doesn't change the fact that he fucked up and hurt both Mike and El for his own selfish reasons." And I just-AEHHRF I LOVE THAT OMG
Omg and the author's note is even better, because they said smth along the lines of "Will hiding his feelings for Mike from Jane and pushing her towards Mike might seem like a selfless act, but it's selfish." (I might have paraphrased it wrong or smth i don't remember clearly) BUT IT'S SO RIGHT.
Yes, on the surface it seems like yes! Will is being a selfless brother, he's sacrificing his love for Mike, in order for Jane to be happy, and yes! It is, but Will doesn't even pull off.
Also I LOVEEE how the author doesn't invalidate Mike's feelings in this, omg you don't understand how much I appreciate this. Mike is ALLOWED to be upset about this, and I wanna cry about it, i love it so much.
I love how they aren't afriad of Will fucking up and owning up to his actions. (I love flawed characters sue me) He isn't given a free pass because he supposed intensions were good hearted. He STILL hurt Mike and Jane.
Another thing about Will fucking this up is how he didn't even consider Mike's feelings AT ALL. He's always debating what he and Jane wants and whether he should consider making her happy instead, but he NEVER considers Mike's feelings in this.
Yes, him and Jane have the same crush on Mike, but like Mike only likes Will, and he's told Will that, but he just keeps pushing him towards Jane, without considering that just because he thinks that Jane deserved Mike more than he does, doesn't mean that Mike wants to be with Jane?
ANDD IFJF I LOVE THE MADWHEELR IN THIS AUHHHFFN
When Max caught Mike and Will together, he first thought was "Mike is cheating on his girlfriend with her own brother." (Why? Because back at the campsite, what Will said to Max IMPLIED that Mike and Jane like each other, so in Max's head, they are gonna get together, but Mike doesn't know that😭😭 cause from what he knows, he and Will are together.)
That until she sees Mike panicking about not telling anyone about them, is when everything clicks. (In this fic Max is friends with Mike wayy before Will so ofc she would support her friend more, but again Will is the one who lied to her.)
And she is, very rightfully so, upset about it. Cause not only did Will lied to her face about Mike and Jane liking each other. He could've very badly hurt Mike, cause from what everyone knows Mike and Jane are gonna get together, except Mike himself.
So imagine if, instead of Max, someone else were to have caught them instead, Mike would be put through hell and he doesn't even know anything about it.
Will could've very much, whether intentionally or not, set up Mike to be the asshole, when he was at no fault one so ever.
That's why Max was so pissed at him, and told him off about it, whether he tells Mike himself or she will tell him.
AND THAT LINE THAT LINE OMG
"Someone like you isn't going to be the one that breaks him, I won't let you."
ARRGG FJDN IT'S SO GOOD OMG that was my favorite chapter honestly, it was just sooo good om, i love this fic so much.
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kittidot · 2 years
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+ spill the tea, what are your thoughts on Bruno? Hehe, at first I thought he was such a frat-boy, sleazy even but now, i swoon.
I have SO many thoughts about this boy now. The main one being I quickly grew to love him (you’re right, the hot tub isn’t his finest hour, and it took me a hot minute to get used to his hair, but from there he just becomes the most gorgeous love interest).
Today’s reasons why I love Bruno include…
1. He is just THERE for MC. In every possible way. But without being too clingy or needy
2. He’s a stand-up and is actually properly funny at certain points. I love so many comedians. Being able to make me laugh = huge turn on
3. His mouth.
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How it looks, what he does with it. Ya know, everything.
4. How thoughtful he is. Not just towards MC but everyone. He seems like a genuinely nice person.
5. That chair dance.
6. The little affectionate gestures. I haven’t played any other route yet so maybe this applies to everyone but he’s forever kissing MCs forehead/ her hand/ gently stroking her hand and that is 100% my love language
7. He’s great at communication - if he goes on a date with someone else you know exactly where he stands - at MC’s side
8. This line which made me realise he has to be protected at all costs
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His blush
10. I just loveee him
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shadowofmoths · 6 months
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🦴☔️🌩🎃👻✨️💅🧿 <- an assortment take your puck
yr my hero for this ask . i AM just gonna choose 8 monster high dolls i wanna talk about . under a cut so as not to spam the entire dash
1.can i talk about neon frights twyla im dying to talk about neon frights twyla. theres things i rly like and really dont like about this line overall, (like. i can just tell looking at her that her hair is cheaply done, and everyones outfits are just the same hoodie and skirt situation) BUT. look. i love love LOVEEE her MAKEUP. and her little earplugs bc she doesnt like noise. her LANTERN?? the bunny details on her harness, but ALSO if you look closely at the top those are SPIDERS THAT ARE BUTTONS!! her hoodie has a little scalloped little peter pan collar situation?? ivbe literally thought of nothing of this doll for Days.
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2. now. lets talk about neon frights draculaura. i love basically every single draculaura thats ever existed ever, shes my precious lovely girl and i love her sweet face. that being said . i Do Not Like Anything Happening Here.
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i think the yellow is a terrible color choice. just awful. i think the purple lipstick could work and it doesnt. the skirt is hideous. the HAIR also bad. the laptop is cute, the shoes are good, and the bat wings on the collar are cute but theyve done that for draculaura before and better. but yeah look what they did to my girl :((((
3. NOW lets talk about the best doll of all time. haunt couture draculaura. i think of her all the time . she is so precious. i have nothing to add just look at how beautiful she is. NO NOTES.
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4. im just gonna talk abt all these real quick. they come in a pack so its fine.
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i love this drac so much, i think the cut of the cheerleader dress on her is sooo good. and FRANKIE. IS SO darling. look at them. the big shirt and their purple undercut LETS GOOO. toralei's dress having like, claw marks is so funny. everyone else is also good i just dont have much to say. i'd love to have some of these dolls but they do only come in the set and i dont want All of them so.
5. im sorry but i have to say something about monster ball lagoona.
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like. the rest of lagoona's outfits tend to be athleisure type stuff. i dont know how they got from that to THIS!! what is this shade of fuchsia. the ruffles, the random black accents, the asymmetrical neckline, twenty seven different shades of blue... the lipstick...like, its camp, dont get me wrong, i think its fun in a disastrous way, but like. oh my god. especially in contrast with the other monster ball dolls i just. what. 6. MONSTER BALL CLAWDEEN THOUGH!!! the HAIR the BIG SLEEVES the BOWTIE the purple stripe on the pants the purse matching the shoes and the earrings like. shes iconic shes everything.
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7. now we will talk about amped up frankie. like. absolutely fuck yes.
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look at those fucking SHOES. (i also love how the g3 shoes are usually designed so that their prosthetic leg is revealed i think that rules. the pink strips in their hair, the tie and collar that are NOT attached to the shirt, THE KEYTAR. can you turn up the keytar i cant hear the keytar. 8. and lets end with my friend abbey bominable. first of all i love how shes taller than all the other girl dolls we love a tall gal. also you cant see her but she has tiny horns which i LOVE. i love her fanny pack i love all the accessories i love the sparkle i love that shes wearing a fur coat and a crop top like girl what weather are you dressing for i dont know but i dont care bc its a look. i love you.
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Done! Also do you have a favorite tequilla brand? Just curious! 🫣
Technically i have freckles all over my face but i only really count the ones that are darker and in a line under my eyes and over my nose, the other ones aren't prominent enough to call them freckles imo. And i'd feel more than lucky if you did worship me, sweetheart<3
I would love to take you to the gym with me, it honestly helped me with my depression as well! And of course i'd watch over you sweetheart<3 i wont lie, i love to go after dark bc theres less people. And i had the same problem but now i catch myself and try to stand straighter. I mostly lift weights when i work out so I know my posture improved due to needing to have a straight back to lift. Plus its super fun imo!! I miss the gym so bad but i hate going alone. I also miss feeling sore, im a bit of a masochist so i love feeling sore the day after working out🤭
Dont apologize for giving me info<3 organization's overrated anyway. Ive found that girls with glasses tend to be my type🫣 you literally sound so pretty sweetheart<3 i knew i wasnt wrong calling you a pretty princess<3 im kissing the tip of your nose and your forehead rn🥰 you are literally so cute, puppy coded too🥺 ive never had crawfish it seems yummy but im not sure if i should try it! Shrimp ceviche used to be my favorite but then i developed a shrimp allergy to uncooked shrimp and around 17 i had to call it quits bc it stopped being worth it to risk it. Im still pissed but at least i can still eat shrimp its just gotta be thoroughly cooked, not just get cooked through the acidity of lime juice like its sucks so bad i just miss ceviche so bad. Ohh just a butch latina and a pretty asian girl what ever will they do hehe<3 and i knew but not cause you told me 🫣 your dni made it obvious, like yeah im just now saying hey but ive been aware of you for a little bit now🫣 also please lemme be ur body pillow one day<3 savory is good!!! Whats your favorite kind of snack?
Also thats adorable, youre just a cute little puppy that has to get off once a day to function her best<3 i mean if i were stressed from school i'd probably need the same thing🤭
tbh im not too picky about my brands, as long as it gets me drunk, then im happy!! also tequila makes me take my clothes off oopsies i think i should warn u about that!! but if im buying for myself, i typically will get espolon bc i feel like its yummy and reasonably priced!
yes i love feeling sore after a workout!! i am also a bit of a masochist (omg who knew)!! but ive never lifted weights before. all the dude bros scare me and i feel like im always being judged but if we went together i know u would take care of me!! i like aerobics and like calisthenics (i had to google how to spell that word) and love yoga sm!! the burn of stretching feels amazing!!
hehe i am very puppy coded! i used to think i was more kitten coded but now ive grown and realized puppies are sooo fun!! so much energy and just wanna be cherished and loved!! which is everything i want!!
nooooo thats so sad that ur allergic to ur fav food :(( i love ceviche but at least u can still tolerate the cooked version. i know its not the same but its still something!!
ohhh i forgot that i put that in my dni, people are so weird about race here smh i just gotta cover all my bases so i can have fun on this website!! but aww we would look soooo cute together
im a sucker for chips. u know how they say all bi girls do is lie and eat hot chip? yeah all i do is eat hot chip hehehe. not so much lying but hot chip very much so. i also loveee chips and salsa and chicken wings and yeah all the fun savory stuff i guess!!!
hehe cumming is like a lil treat!! a reward for myself for being sooo good you know? but it would be a million times better if someone else was making me cum rather than myself 😳🫣
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itsfunny-causeitstrue · 8 months
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Season 2 Episode 1: Out
Episode Reviews : 2 | 3
Phew what a first episode! We've got Nick and Charlie adorableness with Nick trying to come out to Imogen, clueless Tao and Elle trying her best to get him to notice her romantically, Tara and Darcy as always been the best lesbians, and a hint at Issac's upcoming arc! I am so happy everyone else is getting more fleshed out arcs because I personally adore Taoelle! It's been brilliant to see them shine and be so cute before getting together.
I also loveee it when the show so closely adapts from the comics - I can quote it line by line ehehe
Also shoutout to Jenny Walsh, I could feel hints of Soiltaire!Tori and I wonder how they're going to show hints of it in the show since they're pretty interwined. Also I need Michael Holden in this show so badly!
Now on to the more spoilery thoughts under the cut (also some minor references to Soiltaire!):
- I LOVE LOVED that it picked up right off from the the previous season and comic Chapter 4: Out. Like I said having the scenes literally lifted off the pages brings me so much joy! My favourite scene: Hanky Panky made it to onto this episode I laughed so loudly. I love Julio so much!
- Taoelle fighting for their lives trying to figure out what they are when they already act like a married couple is so funny to me. It's giving the perfect amount of cuteness and upcoming angst to come. Something about them just hits different for me. Also the apple juice scene was ADORABLE, her flirting with him I am SWOONING. I needed them together yesterday!
- The sleepover was so iconic; it was great seeing them all cozy and just hanging out. Truly friendship group goals!!
- It was also interesting to see them hint at Issac feeling a little felt out by the couples because I thought he was already out as ace! It will be an interesting journey to see him go through it so I'm readyy for that
- Nick struggling to come out to Imogen is so relatable and then to have her know in the end was so funny and what a relief. It was such a cute and heart felt moment I really really adored it.
- I was hoping Imogen wouldn't like Ben but here we are sigh. Is she supposed to be a counterpart to Becky (from Solitaire) like Issac is to Aled? Because this gives me hope we can have a secondary storyline with the events of Soiltaire peppered in.
- I am so glad Nick put Ben in his place during Study Hall like you do not get to speak Benjamin, you vile asshat.
- Speaking of Study Hall, Mr. Farouk is doing wayy too much. I know he's the stricter teacher but calm down sir. Overall it was kinda funny for him to be Like That
- Again the Hanky Panky scene was everything to me!! Charlie watch out with "Everything is going to be perfect" those are famous last words my guy
Aights overall, I loved it. How could I not? Alice always does brilliantly and I'm ready to dig into Episode 2!
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Okay I’ve decided to do a single rec after I finish one novel hahaha because if I wait to get around to it all it’ll never happen! Anyway because @sarah-yyy​​ has been reading it and I’ve gotten a lot of asks/replies on this, I’m just going to do one huge list for one of my faves so everyone knows what’s going on and where to find things XD
- Part of Min’s ‘Why You Should Read’ Series -
Summary: 
This is set in a historical setting where men can marry other men, but it’s usually reserved for sons who were not borne by the official main first wife of the patriarch of the family, i.e. a son born by a concubine in a family may be forced to marry a man to keep him from being able to become the next family’s patriarch for example. This is because any family’s next leader needs to be able to have children with a wife who married in as a zheng shi (lawful wife), and not a ce shi (second wife) or any other concubines/mistresses etc. Most of these men who marry other men have to take them as their zheng shi and lawful spouse in a sense, and the same goes for the royal family.
The story starts with third prince Jing Shao, who was forced to marry Mu Han Zhang, a Marquis’ second son, by the Empress and Emperor, thereby officially and effectively cutting him out of the race for the throne. He’s mocked by the public as everyone knows what this means, and for the next 10 years, he neglects Mu Han Zhang, blaming him for his predicament, and deliberately showers his three other concubines with affection in front of him, but 10 years later, when Jing Shao is accused of treason, everyone leaves him except for Mu Han Zhang. They are chased to the edge of the cliff by soldiers, and Mu Han Zhang dies in his arms having taken an arrow meant for him earlier, and Jing Shao jumps off the cliff with his dead body, and promises that if there’s a next life, he will do everything Han Zhang says, and love him.
He wakes up immediately on the night of his marriage with Han Zhang, and realizes that he’s been given a second chance to make everything right. Han Zhang is definitely afraid of him, humiliated and angry when he first wakes up after how rough Jing Shao was with him earlier on their wedding night, and he has no memories of their past life. Jing Shao then sets to SHOWER HAN ZHANG with affection, love and basically everything, because he realized that this is the only person who stayed by his side until the end, and then he falls in love with Han Zhang properly this time, and also deals with every single person who maligned and schemed against him in his previous life, with Han Zhang by his side.
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Characters:
1. 景韶 Jing Shao - 3rd Prince and is the first out of his three other brothers to be given a title 成王 (cheng wang). He’s referred to as 王爷, and also 小勺 (xiao shao) by Han Zhang. Went out on his first war when he was 14, and was thus given a title before any of his brothers. He’s known for being a merciless, cold and fierce army general/commander, but this was before his second life with Han Zhang, where he puts on like his doting mode and is basically a dumbass XD who listens to Han Zhang with a lot of trust, which is cool and all.
He marries Han Zhang when he’s 19, and in his first life he was very reluctant and resistant, and neglected Han Zhang for 10 years, until he was charged with treason and hunted down. 
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In his first life he wanted to snatch the throne, even from his blood-related brother Jing Chen, but more out of spite than anything else because he felt he was dealt an unfair hand by having to marry Han Zhang. Not only that, but Jing Shao is not his father’s favourite son, and he always felt that the emperor was biased against him. Anyway, a huge accumulation of daddy and anger issues, which is fair.
When he realizes that Han Zhang died for him, he decides he will be good to Han Zhang if they are reborn in their next life.
2. 慕含章 Mu Han Zhang - The 2nd son of Marquis Bei Hou’s, born to a concubine. He’s called by his 表字 which is 君清 (jun qing) by Jing Shao. Official First Wife Bei Wei Hou-furen and her son (who is in line to inherit the Marquis title from his father) has bullied him all his life, and wanted to push him into greater desperation by marrying him to Jing Shao, knowing he will suffer at the hands of the supposed merciless/heartless wangye. He has a weak body because of an accident when he was younger, and in his first life he was really sick after being neglected for 10 years, and knowing this in their second life, Jing Shao does everything he can to take care of him.
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He is incredibly smart, has a brain for business and sales, and is also very good at handling people, especially scheming ones. He aids Jing Shao in the beginning of their second life, and then Jing Chen later as well, as both brothers begin to fight to put Jing Chen on the throne, against the 1st and 4th Princes. Is an incredibly good tactician in war as well.
3. 景琛 Jing Chen - 2nd Prince, Jing Shao’s blood related older brother who is handsome af too. His title, given later in the novel, is 睿王 (rui wang). He was misunderstood by Jing Shao in the first life as Jing Shao thought it was his brother who led to him marrying Han Zhang, and because he’s not very good at expressing himself and shows his concern to Jing Shao by nagging at him, Jing Shao always thought he hated him. In their second life, Jing Shao already knows that Jing Chen loves him and did a lot for him in his first life, and so trusts his brother and supports him right off the bat, because Jing Chen is indeed the most suited person for the throne.
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He has a wife and a concubine, 3 sons and 2 daughters at this point. He ends up helping Jing Shao a lot, and when he realizes that Han Zhang is way more adept at politics and the whole scheming thing than Jing Shao is, he begins trusting Han Zhang a lot more as well! There’s a surprise with Jing Chen hahaha which I loveee and could see, but wasn’t sure until they confirmed it in the last few chapters AHAHAHAHA.
Other Notable Characters:
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1. Song Ling Xin (Second Wife) on the left, and two other concubines on the right
They’re pretty much vying for Jing Shao’s attention, but at this point apparently he hasn’t slept with any of them before. Song Ling Xin is the daughter of the Military Department’s Head Song An, and Jing Shao married her initially out of interest. The right most concubine (I forgot her name oops) was a gift given to him by his oldest brother, the 1st Prince. The two of them played a huge role in Jing Shao’s downfall back in his first life, and so in his second life, he especially detests Song Ling Xin. Plus the three of them keep bullying Han Zhang in the beginning, but thankfully Jing Shao is like: “Anything my Jun Qing wants”. They don’t stay around for long either, watch as Jing Shao gets rid of them like he’s swatting flies.
2. Xiao Yuan & Zhou Da-Ge
This is another male couple who’s been married for 7-8 years if I recall. Xiao Yuan is one of Jing Shao’s important allies and friends in the second life, because in Jing Shao’s first life, this was one of the only young officials in court who spoke up for him when the accusations of treason came about. Zhou Da-Ge is his husband, who is a cook running a restaurant in the city. Whenever Zhou Da-Ge bullies Xiao Yuan in bed a little too much, Xiao Yuan punishes him by making him wear colourful clothes out (pink, bright yellow, purple, etc.) and thus he has a reputation for being eccentric and a weirdo, but oh well, all for love.
3. Gu Huai Qing
One of Jing Shao and Jing Chen’s most powerful allies, and he becomes blood-sworn brothers with Jing Shao without realizing who he is. Later he takes a liking to Jing Chen.
(Will update with photos when they come out, but they’re a bit further into the story so we won’t have them for a few months yet ahahaha)
Amazing Scenes:
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Jing Shao & Han Zhang first looks in the manhua
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Jing Shao being THAT clingy husband and helping Han Zhang to wear his clothes properly so cute!!!!!
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Han Zhang and Jing Shao in their first lives (10 years later), about to die, sad and then Jing Shao jumps down the cliff with Han Zhang’s corpse, regretful cuz he a dumb bij
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Jing Shao unable to resist kissing Han Zhang’s cheek, realizes what he’s doing, and gets embarrassed LMAOOOO 没出息!!!!!!! (This is different from the novel, because in the novel Jing Shao just kisses and is done with that, the embarrassment part is drawn in only in the manhua hahaha)
Other Things I Like in the Novel:
Jing Shao is like, he does a 180 entirely and he is very cognisant of all his faults and what he did wrong previously, and how badly he treated Han Zhang, so he legit forces his brain to go “I will listen to Jun Qing from now on” and he really sticks to it!
Loves kissing and teasing Han Zhang, but doesn’t force him into bed after their wedding night, and instead goes to Xiao Yuan and asks for tips on how to make his partner feel less scared about sex
The both of them end up with a pet tiger?!! That’s called Xiao Huang (little yellow) LMAO
They nap together a lot which I love <3333
Jing Shao knows he’s bullied at home, so when they go back to the Marquis Bei Hou manor, he holds Han Zhang’s hand in front of everyone to let them know Han Zhang has someone to back him up
Brings Han Zhang to war because he “cannot concentrate if Jun Qing isn’t with me at all times” - and asks for special permission to do so
Han Zhang notes that since he married Jing Shao, as the ‘wife’ he is supposed to serve Jing Shao, but it’s always Jing Shao serving him - Getting water for him, bringing him to baths, putting clothes on for him, putting food in his plate if it tastes nice, massaging his back and waist etc. - and best is he doesn’t have to deal with any in-laws?!! HAHAHA
Jing Shao gets revenge on those who hurt Han Zhang when he was younger for him, and the outcome is pretty hilarious but well-deserved
EPILOGUES are cute af!!!!
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atopearth · 3 years
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Brothers Conflict (Passion Pink) Part 4 - Asahina Tsubaki Route
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Time for Tsubaki, yay! Aww, it's kinda cute how passionate Subaru and Yusuke are rooting for their respective basketball teams lol. I love how Azusa and Tsubaki invited Ema to their event, and I loved how Ema gave a lot of thought into her answers when they asked her how the event was. It was really cute how she felt proud that they were her brothers when people really liked the event and praised them hahaha. On the other hand, lmao at Tsubaki wanting to jump into her arms every time she said something cute, and lolll at Juli getting annoyed at Tsubaki getting so close to Ema. It was hilarious when Tsubaki told Ema to leave the squirrel behind next time there's an event since it's so noisy😂😂 Aww I love the aquarium date where Tsubaki touches her cheek saying she's cold, and Ema touches his hand to say he's cold too, that's pretty adorable, they even seemed to hold hands for a bit?!🥲 I also really liked how he guided her like a prince/butler to the horse riding part of the zoo haha, it's never boring with Tsubaki and his antics.
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Loll at Rui getting heatstroke after building a sandcastle🤣 Wow, Azusa and Tsubaki can drive a boat? Dangg. Aww, I love how they both reassured Ema that they'll definitely protect her (when it started raining and the boat engine "broke down") and held her hand to show their conviction and give her warmth since it was cold. I knewww Tsubaki was lying about the engine! Poor Ema. She was so worried. I'm kinda sad that Tsubaki doesn't get an individual moment on the holiday with Ema though! Tsubaki picking clothes for Ema during a shopping date is the best~ I love how encouraging he is and how he earnestly loves dressing her up and wanting to match with her, it's so cute haha. It's so adorable how happy Tsubaki was to eat Ema's handmade bento, lmao when he kept telling her to feed him loll. Okay, lmao at if Ema stays to watch Tsubaki and Azusa and see them "confess their love" to each other with the roses CG hahahaha. They were pretty into it (for their acting)😂 At least Tsubaki was pretty upfront with her that a guy and a girl in the same room sleeping together would make him think about things hahaha, it's cute how he gave her a kiss on the forehead~ and I guess he gave her one on the lips too when she was "asleep". Wow, he even kissed her in the morning lol! I guess he's really going to try his best to make her realise she likes him too lol. Ohh woww, he kissed her in the bed and then asked to kiss her in other places loll, too bad Ema still wants to just treat him as an older brother even though as Tsubaki said, they've done things that have crossed the line ages ago lol. Anyway, lmao how when Ema can't fall asleep, instead of counting sheep, Tsubaki counts Azusas😂😂😂
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I wonder why Tsubaki seems to be worried or sad over Azusa? Anyway, as I said before (in Hikaru's post), I really liked how Tsubaki convinced Ema to go back and talk to her dad (when she found out she was adopted) and told her that she's become someone important to him and not just a "moe" little sister to him, and that these thoughts didn't need actual ties of blood, so her dad should treasure her too regardless of their blood ties. LMAO at Ema shooing Juli out into the hallway because she wanted to concentrate on the game she was playing with Tsubaki and not hear Juli nagging and telling her to study lolol. I see...so Tsubaki feels like he's inferior to Azusa in terms of acting and everything, and it doesn't help that Azusa actually started voice acting stuff later than him and mainly did it because Tsubaki felt like something was missing when he went to classes without Azusa. I guess it's kinda like that with siblings who are "better" than you. You'll always feel a bit jealous, but having them beside you makes you happy so it's a pretty conflicting feeling. Awww, I loved how Ema was really good at the game and the strategies etc, and Tsubaki told her to make him "fall for her" with her strategies hahaha.
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I honestly didn't think a depressed Tsubaki would make my heart break so much. It was so sad that Tsubaki was dropped from the audition for the lead of the anime series he always wanted to be in, it was basically his dream...and it wasn't because he lacked anything, it's just that the producers (I think?) decided on Azusa already. I'm glad Ema told him what she thought and how Azusa was really worried too but didn't want to hurt his feelings. Omgg when he asked her to stay overnight because he didn't want to be alone and wanted to be with her🥺 Lmaoo at Ema the pro gamer ordering Natsume, Tsubaki and Azusa around, she's such a leader when it comes to games. I find it hilarious that Natsume even said not many people in his company have played as many hours as her😂 It's so funny how they're all so shocked that her personality changes when she's playing games😂 Lmao at Azusa asking Ema to go with Tsubaki to the shops because he doesn't trust him and basically calls him a kid with an income so he probably can't control himself during Christmas time😂😂 I really liked how Tsubaki thanked her for her encouragement and made him think it's okay to be him, and move forward as his energetic self because everyone loves that part of him I guess? Okay, I did not expect Tsubaki to hold Ema's hands and blow on them to keep them warm because that was super cuteee! Awww and he put her hand in his pocket so she wouldn't be cold!
Honestly, seeing Tsubaki break down over the collapsed Azusa was really heartbreaking. Suzumura Kenichi (Tsubaki's VA) was so good here, because I could really feel Tsubaki's desperation and pain, and how much guilt he felt afterwards (at the hospital when he refused to leave until he saw Azusa) for being "selfish" at being absorbed by his feelings and forgetting that everyone else is worried and scared too. I really loved Ema at the hospital, she convinced and really helped Tsubaki realise that his worried and dejected face would not be what Azusa would like to see, and that he needs to go to the company and tell them about Azusa's condition so they can rearrange his jobs etc. I knew Azusa's condition would lead to Tsubaki being able to finally take on the lead of that robot anime role he always wanted, but yeah I think Tsubaki's complicated feelings about it are understandable. This role is his dream, but he doesn't feel like he earned it, and is merely Azusa's replacement and I think that's a saddening way to achieve your dream. But at the same time, I'm sure Ema and his fans will be able to show him that this isn't pity and underserved, that he's not a replacement and is his own person. And I really liked how Ema did it! She told him she liked Tsubaki's voice, so there was no point copying Azusa, and that even though they may be twins, they are their own person, and that both their voices are different and are wonderful in their own ways and have their respective charms. I think I really liked it when Ema said she wanted to hear HIS voice. I liked how he ended up asking her what else she liked about him aside from his voice hahaha. Awww he gave her a kiss! Omggg he totally went for it and kept giving her kisses! Woww, hahaha, Ema wasn't the most comfortable because she still wants to think of him as a brother and this was in the living room, but she was definitely just embarrassed.
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I'm soo happy Tsubaki finally told Azusa about how he always had a inferiority complex towards him but now he’s decided to face himself and understand he has his own qualities. I'm sure that's a relief to Azusa as well since Azusa was also worried and didn't know what he should do. I can't believe Azusa had to stay in the hospital for a whole month though! And he's going to work again the day after?? He's so hard-working. Aww nooo, Azusa actually told Ema he likes her but knows that her heart is with Tsubaki😭 I'm sad that Tsubaki had to say that he found someone more important to him than Azusa because I loveee Azusa and Tsubaki, however I can understand that they are probably way too attached to each other and it's inevitable that they'll find other people they will love. Anyway, I loved how Tsubaki told Ema how much he appreciates her, loves her and wanted her to be his girlfriend~ And I'm glad Ema could finallyyyy accept his feelings hahaha. They're honestly soo cute as a couple and I love how she practises his lines with him but I hope he still practises with Azusa every now and then because I think those are very precious moments they should continue to cherish~ Omggg at him telling her the room was soundproof hahaha. The CG was niceeee. Omgggg at the twins ending? Harem ending? Hahahah. I mean, I definitely wouldn't mind Azusa and Tsubaki...because I love them both too lolll. Ema is so lucky🥺
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Overall, I loved Tsubaki's route. Definitely my favourite route right now. It has great romance development with Ema AND I loved his personal struggles with work and his love for Azusa, but also his inferiority complex towards him. I think these were portrayed really well, and I honestly really felt for Tsubaki's emotions and his ups and downs. I really liked seeing the "other side" to Tsubaki where he gets down about stuff, but at the same time acknowledging that the energetic and cheerful Tsubaki is who he is and what everyone loves. I think Ema supported Tsubaki really well in this route and also showed how strong of a person she was too. I thought I would have to resist from loving Azusa too much, but as Tsubaki realised in the end, Tsubaki definitely has his own charms and I totally fell for them. He's loving, sweet and unafraid to show his emotions and his love to Ema and I think there's a great balance of him showing his physical affection towards her as well as the emotional connection he feels for her. I definitely enjoyed every moment of it, every time I think about Tsubaki and everything that happened in this route, my heart just feels so warm and happy haha🥲🥲
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headofhelios · 3 years
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Ok I am a single follower but I like hannibal tv but would enjoy ur movie thoughts I like some of the books too and have been meaning to get around to the movies 😳😳
OKAY I'M EDITING A READMORE ONTO THIS LOL I REALIZED THATS SOMETHING I CAN DO! so now my incredibly waaayyy too long answer abt my thoughts on 2002 will is under there. apologies bc this is less "movie thoughts" and more "2002 movie will thoughts" but well thats how the chips fell
GOD okay sooo for the record i am reading the red dragon book and am like 7 or 8 chapters in and full transparency im not like. enjoying it lol. the book pisses me off with its misogyny (all the women in it are either dead or it feels like you're supposed to think theyre Selfish Bitches or theyre just there for like. bizarre and uncomfortable sexual moments like the guys talking abt that woman in the elevator, or that one part of mrs. leeds diary which is like. i guess could be there to Show Her Humanity or whatever but 1. there are more ways to do that 2. the book doesnt seem particularly concerned with her humanity considering she's barely even given a first name and so far the novel hasnt seemed to disapprove of how will thinks of her as a possession of her husband) and its inconsistency with will's most important character trait or whatever (he's so intensely, extremely empathetic towards EVERYONE, even serial killers, which makes him really good at finding them! and he can never turn this off, to the point where every time he has a conversation with someone, he ends up mimicking the way they talk, even if he tries to stop! but also he never empathizes with the victims or HIS OWN FUCKING WIFE? HELLO? so it really feels less like "extremely strong empathy for everyone that he cant control" and more like "he can empathize with serial killers extremely well and also other people if we want to Make A Point in one scene instead of letting the point show through the whole book") BUT UHHH ANYWAY. MOVIE THOUGHTS. THE MOVIE THOUGHTS YOU ASKED FOR COMING RIGHT UP!
okay this is what i am worried will either 1. draw annoying tv will graham stans to my blog like flies or 2. end with me being hanged in the town square BUT. it must be said. i prefer 2002 red dragon will graham to tv will graham. and quite frankly? so far? i think 2002 red dragon will graham is better than book will graham. i cannot lie.
my reasoning: because 2002 will actually empathizes with more people than serial killers and his boss! y'know! like you'd assume someone with constant extreme empathy would! the difference between the first scene with molly in the book vs in the movie are SO striking to me now that i've read that part of the novel. in the novel he seems very... rough, i guess, and like he doesnt care about molly's worries. he doesnt seem to see things from her perspective, which especially feels like a kick to the gut because MOLLY! SEES! THINGS! FROM! HIS! PERSPECTIVE!!! she literally empathizes with him more than he does with her! what the fuck! MEANWHILE in the movie, he does seem to care about her. his assurances that he wont get too involved seem like assurances rather than him trying to get her off his back. he hugs her and tells her he loves her and i actually believe that yeah, he loves her, he knows she's worried about him, and he wants to comfort her and ease her worries. and the victims! AGAIN such a stark difference to me! in the book, will is like... uncomfortable empathizing w the red dragon, of course, but he doesnt seem to empathize with the victims all that much, ESPECIALLY not the women. he doesnt care about them. he sees them as possessions belonging to their husbands and its so fucking gross. despite already suspecting that the red dragon chooses families based on the women, he decides to waste time focusing on the husbands as a way of "asking permission to look at [their wives]." what the fuck? meanwhile in the film, he feels for the victims so much that he can barely even say that the kids were shot in bed! when he watches the tapes, he focuses on the women! because that's his fucking job!!! and we see him empathizing with them! wow!!
siiigh okay im gonna stop talking abt the book vs the movie now bc again im only like 8 chapters or so deep. but now we come to tv will vs. 2002 will, which is admittedly gonna be more subjective and part of that it bc i cant remember a whole lot of specifics from the show bc my memory is Very Bad. but anyway
let's get the shallow stuff out of the way. yes i prefer ed norton's face to hugh dancy's. call hugh dancy "gender" or whatever have your fun i support you and your right to call any blood covered man a gender but by god is that not even REMOTELY my experience. next shallow thing to get out of the way: ed norton's line delivery is like music to my FUCKING ears compared to hugh dancy's i am so sorry. like the jokes about will shaking like a damp chihuahua before taking 5 minutes to stutter out "he's killing them....... On Purpose, jack." are funny and all but christ i had SUCH a hard time watching the show bc of that im not lying. literally hearing 2002 will just say "he's not keeping them. he's eating them." nice and quick, matter of factly is better than well im actually gonna end that sentence there but you get the idea. like YESSS you little blonde bitch get to the point i love you!!!
OKAY NOW less shallow points but also less uhh idk man i just dont remember a lot of hannibal. but basically: after seeing how caring 2002 will is, i'm kind of... idk i'm just so over tv will and how abrasive and harsh he is in comparison. like i fell in LOVE with how vulnerable 2002 will is, how he feels like he cares deeply about the people around him (and honestly... idk i cant remember a moment in the hannibal tv series that made me feel the way i felt when 2002 will can't say "the kids were shot in their beds". it's like... yeah this is a guy who feels so deeply for everyone around him at all times. i believe that.) and i just dont remember getting that same feeling from tv will. i have been gently spoon fed the most excellent chocolate pudding and everything else in my memory is just a snack pack. i guess tv will has those moments (what comes to mind is when he brings gideon to hannibal's house and is crying and he says "please dont lie to me") but idk they just didnt really do for me what 2002 will does. and then their scenes with reba! wow! i rewatched the tv version after watching red dragon, bc the film version made me tear up, meanwhile the tv version i barely remembered and i wasnt sure if that was just bc of the different mindsets i was in while watching them or what. and ok i just rewatched the tv version again and like... yeah. it's the wills lol. i LOVEEE tv reba SO much she is giving everything in that scene!! she sounds so like... broken, both bc of dolarhyde's apparent suicide and bc of finding out who he was + what he was doing, she sounds so fragile and guilt ridden! she's amazing!! but will. idk. tv will's delivery just seems... idk this feels dumb to say but it sounds like writing. i admittedly LOVE the line "people who study this kind of thing say that he was trying to stop because you helped him." and his delivery there is good. but between tv "you didnt draw a freak, you drew a man w a freak on his back" and the 2002 version, the 2002 delivery seems more genuine while the tv delivery sounds rehearsed. idk overall the 2002 version of that conversation just makes me feel more? its like. idk i can feel the 2002 version gently holding my heart while the tv version is a scene that is nice in h/nnigram gifsets or w/e.
umm ok this is already suuuper long and my brain is getting a bit mushy so i'm gonna start wrapping it up lol. i'll probably compare book will and 2002 will again after i finish the book, and then i miiight rewatch hannibal, or at least parts of s3. but right now my thoughts are basically: book will is a fucking dick who has an easier time empathizing with serial killers than with his wife. tv will is a nothing girl after being so completely catered to + also idk he doesnt have the same fragility that i want from my wills now. and 2002 will is my little caramel apple. he has this delightful vulnerability and feels like he cares so much and empathizes with more people than serial killers and his boss and 4 people in a diner for one scene! 2002 will made me care about will graham! which is honestly kind of a feat!
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utterlyinevitable · 3 years
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🥰 a piece i’m really proud of and why // 📝 a line or paragraph i’m really happy with // 😪 a piece that was meant to be short but took on a life of its own
Thank you for this, Ana 💕
A Piece I’m Really Proud of and Why: 
For All The Lies definitely. I will never shut up about this piece! 
This is one of the only fics of mine I will read over and over again and not edit a single thing (even though there are noticeable mistakes). It’s heart shattering and a healthy dose of romanticized projection. The entire thing was built around ‘Ethan’ and ‘Becca’ meeting again and sharing a moment “for old times”, but the only familiar thing was the way their bodies fit together. Everything else was different and they moved on and she’s happy. The ending is perfect and bittersweet and I just cry every single time. 
2021, I’ll be trying to turn this piece into a longer work with more detail on their demise and Becca’s fiancé / how they came to be.  
A Line or Paragraph I’m Really Happy With: 
The line I’ve chosen is off the same feeling farm as FATL and comes from an HC I’ve rediscovered, Meet in High School [Ethan x MC AU] where, at their 10-year reunion, ‘Bryce’ comes to terms with their break up before graduation as it was the best thing that could have happened for them both: 
People change and are allowed to evolve. But it’s hard to imagine someone you once loved as anything other than who they were. And it’s even harder to see them in love with someone else.
The entire hc was fine and then i wrote this??? where did this come from idkkk 
it hits me in the feels. 
A Piece That Was Meant To Be Short But Took On A Life Of Its Own:
Make Believe is the longest one-shot I’ve written at like 10.4k if I remember correctly? 
It was meant to be a short little thing that touches upon what life would have been like if Ethan and Becca met in any of the alternate career options. And then it just kinda... became... 6 fics in one... 
The utter deliciousness of it tho 😍 
Ethan and Becca in the chalet having a cute convo right before they make loveee for the first time (with a tiny touch of trauma and insecurities), 
Ethan as a 1940s detective, 
Ethan being bold af and calling her as soon as she turns away after handing him her card, 
the ENTIRE presidential affair, 
Becca’s pupils dilatating when she sees Ethan up close for the first time and him thinking she has a concussion, 
And then the banter between them at the bar and how she stands up her blind date to stay and talk to him more and then him pulling her into a kiss before she turns away 🤤
Make Believe the second fic I’m most proud of.    
Thanks so much for letting me ramble ❤
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pasdedeux-archive · 3 years
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𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃𝐒 𝐀 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌? 𝐖𝐇𝐎 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃𝐒 𝐀𝐌𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍? — Thank you everyone who has applied !! You’re all amazing writers and quite honestly I had no less than three mental breakdowns during the deliberation period.
 To those who were not chosen, please know that this is not a mark against your writing or your characters. I loved them dearly and I would be such an honor if you wanted to join with a different muse. However, I know applications take a very long time and a lot of heart so I completely understand if you do not wish to do so.
With that said, congratulations to those who were accepted. Please make sure you look at the checklist, and send in your character account within 24 hours. I will be sending out discord invitation links tomorrow after I clean up the server a bit (aka making a guide on how we will be using discord to roll and such).
K playing Elizabeth Augusta Sinclair, the luminary; violinist for the Bolshoi Ballet
"It is summer, and the countryside is alive with birdsong and bloom, rays of golden light cascading, warm breeze dusting the ground with the caress of a lover. You are eight, stumbling through the knee high fields of flowers, laughter light and joyful, Aestas come down to Earth."
I loved your portrayal of Elizabeth. Half ghost half girl, there is something incredibly provocative in the way in which she tries to become all that she thinks she can be. I was listening to Swan Lake Act II. No. 10. during your muse sample and it ended just as I finished reading it. Coincidence? I think not. Elizabeth will make a wonderful addition to the group, and I cannot wait to see how her story plays out. I've been thinking about potential subplots for her and wowie my brains a racing.
Amy playing Yelena Andreyevna Kusnetsova, tbd.
“In years past, she’d been able to push down the worry that she was missing out in some way. That true freedom of expression had eluded her, for reasons that had nothing to do with how hard she worked. Often, she’d even convinced herself that she didn’t need freedom at all.”
Yelena has such a presence about her that I can't help but be enamored with her. There is a wistfulness in everything she does, but it does not slow her down. In fact, I would argue it makes her all the more present. She reminds me of a deer, ephemeral but wise and always on the lookout for potential danger. For a person such as herself, I see the workings of a woman afraid to die and afraid of the life she has already been living. Yelena will be such a treat to see develop and I cannot wait to see what kind of shenanigans occur during the story!
Nayab playing Hana Volkova, the veiled; soloist at the bolshoi theater
“It is to no music her wings spread, and she is commanded to fly. In a single, suspended moment in time, Volkov leeches from the depths of her, everything the art once meant to her. Its purity is tainted, and if her heart had not already lost all faith, the sicles Volkov aims to her heart and pierces her with surely bleed her dry of the blood of love.”
When Hana was given a buffet in front of her as threat toward her compliance that pierced me like a knife. Her demotion to soloist as punishment for stepping out of line I think is a beautiful analogy for how girls like her aren't meant to last long: they're meant to be sacrificial pawns so that others may endure and to think that one can be anything other than that is a mistake. Loss which permeates all of one's being is meant to hurt, and Hana has demonstrated one way of being resilient.
Esme playing Marilyn Campbell, the maelstrom; corpse de ballet at NYCB
“You once told a story to your brother, told him that if the sea claims you, it drags you so far away from the shore that you turn into a deadly fish, a fish that could devour the entire world.”
Marilyn is the perfect storm, ready to consume all that which does not heed her. I love how you portrayed her resignation to what she is, and perhaps what she thinks is all that she will ever be, but even her doubts are thwarted by her want, her consuming desire, to become someone else. Much like the Bermuda Triangle, she may be a touch auspicious, but people cannot help but want to be pulled into her destruction. I love the ideas you have for her plot development and I can't wait to see how it all unfolds.
Georgia playing Fred Baker, the insurgent; head of security at the NYCB
“The brothers bought a radio before they did a bed.”
First of all, holy shit I loved your memes they were. Oh my god, so funny. When I go over apps the first thing I do is look at the meme section, and let me tell you — just that little bit you gave me enticed me to want to know more about Fred. When I finally began to read him my heart SWOONED. Do you hear me? Swooned. He's such an interesting character, filled to the brim with animosity and hurt — he deals with his past the best way he can. I also cannot wait until Fred introduces everyone to the soul of America with his love for jazz.
Taryn playing  Zinaida Petrovna Sabitova, the sacred; principal dancer at the bolsoi theater
“Still, there are some evenings when her mother looks over from her place at the vanity, still all-over aside from the wafts of smoke burning from her cigarette, and seems to be studying her own child. Looking for something. Wondering.”
You wrote in your application is Zinaida good or evil, Odette or Odile — and while I do not have an answer for you right now, I do know that I would love to explore that with you. She's a beautiful girl whose life is tragic in the way only fairy tales can be. The perfect Jewel of Moscow (I did like that name), who while controlled by those above her wishes for her own happy ending despite knowing that her end will be nothing less than fatalistic. Her aversion toward things which reminds her of her own mortality hits home, omg, yes, why must I have this human body. Why must I suffer having lived.
Anna playing Yelena Yuryevna Min, the dream; corpse de ballet at the bolshoi theater
“What Yelena didn’t remember was the hushed arguments her parents would have every other night before he left – how he would say with so much conviction even as her mother begged him not to, “things will be better for us if the state knows we’ll die for her.”
AHHH, that broke me, that line right there broke me. I can so ardently feel the love and happiness her family gave her, their precious daughter, and how they would do anything to give her the world she deserves. Then you went on to talk about her apprehension to go to Vagnova, and my world turned upside down. Her disposition really speaks to me, and her family ties as well. She's also a breath of fresh air, like a sunflower in a meadow that had recently rained. Her optimism and kind disposition really shines through in your app and in your memes.
Claudia playing Eva Miro, the swan; principal dancer at the NYCB
“but lena understood sacrifice, she saw it every day when her mother would come home exhausted, weathered hands cracked and aching so she wouldn’t go hungry. to love something meant giving everything you had, everything you were or could ever be, to feed that love.”
Gonna start my little tangent with wow, your mood-board :cheff kiss: absolute perfection. I don't use extras as a basis for my decision making, merely something I admire from afar, but damn — if I did yours would no doubt be at the front of the line. There were two parts of your application that I wanted to highlight, and the other was half your application lmao. Your muse sample really expanded your character and showed me how much of a Swan Eva can be. I called the Swan skeleton a starling at the beginning, a bird which choses their survival above all else. A transformation of a girl into a star, Eva is a force which cannot be tamed unless you destroy her.
V playing Alina Vasilieva Filippova, the tbd; ballet master-repetiteur at the bolshoi theater
“She remembers thinking: ‘this will not be the end’.”
All ballet dancers in this RP live and breathe ballet, but Alina is in a realm of her own. I loved how you wrote her to be a ballet master, someone who would put aside their pride of being a "former prima ballerina" to now teaching a group of dancers because ballet is all that she is. Your muse sample really showed me the intense power of a woman who knows what she wants, and who she is — even if all she believes herself to be is something irrevocably intertwined with ballet. I'm very excited to see the relationship she forms with her dancers and with those who are from out of the Union. I'm particularly interested in her second plot development point and would love to explore that in game.
Abby playing Viktor Antonievich Vasylenko; the raconteur, pianist for the bolshoi ballet
No, Viktor had fashioned the resentment into an albatross of his own, hanging limp and heavy from his neck.
What can I say about Viktor other than I'm a fan. He's so gentle and yet so resilient, a mess of cacophonous sounds that melds into a beautiful sonata. There's pain in him, a ghost which lingers from his past, and while resigned to perhaps eternal disappointment he continues. I loved the way in which you developed his reason / background for being in the Bolshoi Theater when he himself could have been a star — still strives to be actually: but more resigned this time in his ambition. I loveee Viktor and I can't wait to see how he develops.  
     — 𝐈𝐍 𝐒𝐔𝐌𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐘
Principal Dancer: Zinadia, Eva, Soloist: Hana, Yelena (tbd)* Corpse de Ballet: Yelena (dream) , Marilyn Violinist: Elizabeth Bodyguard: Fred Ballet Master: Alina Pianist: Viktor * still talking to writer about a few details.
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thingssxthatxshine · 5 years
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THANK YOU TAYLOR!
I don’t think any music has ever spoken to me then this album. i’ve never been in a relationship but the lyrics are beautiful and it’s just makes me speechless.
First of all the line “He likes my American smile, like a child when our eyes meet” 🥺💞 This is beautiful and I love it because i’m a first generation American in my family bc the rest of my fam is from Pakistan and idk but it gives me hope and happiness i guess. Because i’m always told how American I am by my family and how I need to start speaking urdu and how i seem snobby and all thsi stuff that makes me kind of insecure about my American style and I guess i’m making this line deeper than it is but Taylor you have no idea how much it means to me.
Also okay the lyric “you are what you love” is amazing. idk if i was just being over dramatic but it was definitely true 🤧 when i started almost (actually) crying if happiness becaus ur hate being told the things i’m not and the things i don’t like bc i don’t wanna be defined that way 😞 I just want to be defined by the things I love liek YOU and reading and coffe and pink and so much more ❤️
Okay and then Paper Rings is just so beautiful and fun and i love it. it’s got a theme song vibe and i love thattttt 😻👏 I love all of that song it’s just amazing 🤪👍👏
And then “step into the daylight and let it go” is just a perfect ‘no bad vibes allowed” kinda vibe 😂 it’s just this relaxing that makes me feel happy and calm bc we all gotta just calm down 😌 I hate taking stress and it feels nice to just walk out into the daylight and let it go 😍
In Cruel Summer I love “Devils are the dice and angels role their eyes” also the “looks up grinning like a devil” IS THE ABSOLYTW BEST! and just so much of that song is like this pastel, rainbow darkness 😂 It reminds me of “darling Ima nightmare dressed like a daydream” It’s a beautiful song 💞
The Man is just 👍👍🤠 LIKE YESSSSS WOMEN! Taylor is THE WOMAN! she’s a queeeen 👑👑👑 WAIT SHES THE CAT! @taylorswift let’s quit being man or woman and let’s just all be CATS 🐱
I’m I Forgot You Existed I love “It isn’t love, it isn’t hate, it’s just indifference” I luv that so much because sometimes you just have to forget, let it go and be i different 😌
Death By a Thousand Cuts is just amzing and beautiful 🤧💕 “saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts” i think i loves this mostly bc i’m usually known in my family as the one who cries when a family member leaves after visiting. And it feels like death by a thousand cuts bc i don’t know when i’ll see them cuz my fam lives around the world. basically i just don’t like goodbyes 😭
(ik this isn’t going in order it’s just what i think of on the spot)
I loved Afterglow so much because it was about accepting the blame and asking for forgiveness and i think that’s beautiful 😻
I think he knows is liek this cute song you can skip through the neighborhood with ☺️👏💕 i love it, i’ve never been in a relationship so i can’t relate much but i stilll absolutely love it!
Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince is like this high school story and it’s reallllly amazing i loveee it zjjzjssj! I love the cheering and also how you say “It’s you and me, that’s my whole world” and i love that because i hate it when people change their ways because of someone else whispering. for me it’s just me and the people i love, that’s my whole world 🌎.
Cornelia Street I LOVE! i think bc of my tripp ti nyc this summer, i’ve been loveing ny so much. Thanks to WTNY i fell in love with the place. And the lyrics are so beautiful and relaxing. It’s like listening to starry and i love itttt! I love how it’s a song about nostalgia about a place bc i miss nyc. i was there for 2 days but i cried when i had to leave. it’s amazing and wonderful and magical.
Soon you’ll get better is giving me Safe and Spund vibes. it’s so sad and beautiful. i’m a muslim is some of the lyrics don’t relate to me but itssss beautiful i love ittt! “ cuz you have to” is so heartbreaking but so trueeeeee!
Ok False God was the “Ohhh 🤭” song of this album. Like dress “the altar is my hips” but i think my fave lyrics is “Hell is when i fight with you” because we all have that relationship (any kind) that we don’t wanna ever fight in. and that whole verse is amazing and i love it because it speaks to me. i also love “I’m New York City” because I LOVE NYC AND NOW TAYLOR ISSSS NYC 🤯💃👑!!!! YEET
I LOVE ITS NICE TO HAVE A FRIEND! This is basically a PASTEL TOY STORY 😂💞 I LOVE THISSSSS bc it’s a friendship song, and it’s amazinggggggg! i love this new friendship song and it’s just so sweet and cute ☺️😻❤️
okay so now for the singlessss!
LOVER is JAHAJSJSJAJSJS! ITS JUST THAT! like it’s so beautiful and amazing and romanticcccccc! The bridge is amaizng i love it it’s my favorite part it’s like Vows and it’s just so sweeeeet!!!!! 😻😻👏 and omg the “dirty joke” in the me is 😂😂😂
ME! is always gonna be iconic i’m just really sad that the “HEY KIDS SPELLING IS FUN” was taken out bc my friend and i were obsessed with that😂 SWIFTIES WE GOTTA YELL IT OUT DURING THE TOURR!
also for ME! @ all the haters about it, this song was supposed to be fun and cheerful and it started the hunt for easter eggs and it was the beginning so to anyone who was saying that it was getting boring or whatever. be thankful cuz this album was def worth the wait
YNTCD is 🤪👏👏👏🤪🤪🤪👏 I use that line everyday like u have no idea 😂 and now i have an album if things i could sayyyyyy! alll these singles are iconic and this is amazinggggggg 👌
The Archer is like the best thing ever! LIKE ITS TRACK 5?!!!! sijsjsk! It’s so vulnerable and true and i’m so happy we have it 🤧❤️ it made me cry bc it’s so metaphorical that it can connect with anyone 💕💕💕
OKAY BUT IN ALL! All the music is great and everything but you know what’s even greater? TAYLOR OWNS IT ALLLL! She’s her own company and some how that is everything! I’m sooo sssooo sooo happy that this is her first own album and she finally happy and in this amazing place. like everyone’s always complaining about watch out for taylor or she’ll write a song about you BUT if u treat her with respect and love she’ll write and album dedicated to you 🤧😍 (and the best songs of rep). This whole album is Taylor’s and it can rule the world! 💃 like literally it has a song for all the good people of the world 😌 like lyrics anyone can connect whether u have a love life or not this album is for everyone and it’s owned by the one and only taylor. Taylor i can’t thank you enough ever for sharing this absolute masterpiece with us, it’s so raw and true and vulnerable but you’re giving it to us to protect and cherish. i love it and a i LOVE(R) you TAYLOR 😘😘👏
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THIS CAT ANGEL IS EVERYTHING 😻 @taylorswift
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kurosakismixedbag · 4 years
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Glass Compass by Windyfiend chapter 88 comments
AKA Glass Compass of that ending tho
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I love love loveee Alice’s speech so much. It’s just so gooood! I love when she stands up for herself and just hsdkghks Alice is great. I love her.
I do feel kind of bad for Markus in a sense that he (they?) feel like everything is falling apart. He/they’re just scared and overwhelmed and it’s sad to see honestly.
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Well, there goes my heart. Good job.
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I still hate RK900 with every fiber of my being but I love when anyone talks back to Amanda. It’s a shame Kamski or someone else didn’t say this. Oh well. xD
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Nooo, it’s a machine. And it shall be your downfall.
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Wait, so Kamski is helping Kara? ‘Cause just a couple paragraphs earlier it said something like the code cooling down. I take it that that’s probably a good thing? I honestly know nothing about technology and all the techno-babble.
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I saw that one from a mile away. It was about time Amanda got some just deserts. She got it by a scary machine, too. All the better. Again, I hate RK900 but I also hate Amanda and I’ve been waiting for her to get some karma. Feels good, man, feels good. It’s a shame Kara couldn’t do anything though. That would’ve been satisfying (she wouldn’t be as brutal though I don’t doubt).
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THIS on the other hand I did not see from a mile away. I didn’t see this anywhere. I am way more shocked with this than what happened to Amanda. It was only a matter of time with her and it isn’t too surprising it was RK900 who did the deed. But THIS? Christ. You should’ve heard the loud and confused “CHLOE?” I said with so many confused noises lmao.
TLDR: Holy moly plot twist. It’s been so long since I’ve been able to say that line pfft. Well, maybe it isn’t exactly a plot twist but it sure did blow my mind. I wonder how Chloe’s back? Either the androids on the boat managed to do something or Kamski somehow worked wonders while trying to get her online again. I have no idea. Honestly though, I love that ending. I wonder how Kara will react to that? ‘Cause she’s busy running away so she might not have seen Chloe. Ooooh I dunno but I love it so much. You never fail to impress me, Windy.
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