#but due to my brain being my brain

[thelesbianthespianposts]

imagine: you get your memories back after years of amnesia to find out your whole species is dead and earth doesn’t exist anymore. that the only thing left of your culture is your weird ex and his busted honda civic that barely even works that he stole from the government when he was 13. And he’s been taking members of an alien species for trips in his honda civic and they’re all like “woah it’s so cool” and you get upset because it’s NOT COOL it’s a honda civic, the turn signals don’t even work “wow it can go up hills” yeah OF COURSE IT CAN GO UP HILLS EVERY CAR COULD DO THAT. but they’ve never seen a car before so everything it does is the coolest thing ever. And your ex’s only tool is a fucking screwdriver which is somehow also cool to this dumbass alien species even though it’s a fucking screwdriver so you just look like an idiot screaming about how none of this is even cool it’s actually really shitty but your whole planet is gone so you can’t even prove it but also you’ve had a constant drumming sounding in your head since you were 10 slowly driving you insane. I would become evil too.

#This metaphor might have gotten away from me #Whatever #the master #toschei #doctor who #tardis #the doctor #Companion: wow it can actually fully reverse and go backwards! #The master: *seething bc EVERY CAR CAN DO THAT* #I would be so mad if the only thing left of my culture was my ex and his terrible car #That he doesn’t even have a license to drive #Tensimm #J watches drwho #I really wanna draw this but I don’t have any artistic ability due to there being no apples in my brain #Plus your ex kinda wants to fuck the car

[vriskan8or]

let her go

#homestuck #vriska serket #terezi pyrope #vriska #terezi #vrisrezi #mic_art #screencap redraw of that one utena scene woohoo #vrisrezi and utenanthy dont share many similarities but there are some interesting parallels that can be drawn #like theyre all characters who are devoted to the respective roles they think they have #utena needs to be a prince and vriska needs to be a hero #terezi needs to cast vriska as the villain so that she can be the one to bring her to justice while anthy #is resigned to her role as the rose bride and is cast as a witch by others (and herself in a way...) to justify her suffering #im too tired to put into words all the other shit rattlign around in my brain but something something vriska society violence princes utena #something interesting to note is that in the rgu stabbing scene utena is walking to the left while is hs vriskas walking to the right #which i think is mostly a cultural difference due to english being read left to right while japanese is read right to left #changing which direction is percieved as forward #which could be read further into but could also just be the natural flow of the scene or whateevr #idk i need to peruse ohtori.nu again i looooove reading utena essays

[ozzo-the-wozzo]

the fandom is in absolute agreement to the point where its essentially canon on adhd marinette and nothing makes me happier but also everyone sleeps on autistic adrien in this essay I will

#saw a gif of him wearing earbuds in the movie and wrote this in a cold sweat #obviously my reasoning behind this headcanon isn't due to that but I saw it and got reminded of the blinding truth #first hit post after being back (the brain rot is consuming me whole) #miraculous ladybug #ml #mlb #adrien agreste #mine

[inkskinned]

it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.

yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.

it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.

how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.

chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?

how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.

"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.

i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.

#writeblr #warm up #i can't write rn but i have SO much words in here bc im reading the chorus of dragons books #(just started book 4) #and this woman's writing is just LIVING in my brain. let me out!!! #(i read roughly like 2-4 books a week usually bc i go on long walks with my dog but when a book is REALLY good like. it eats my life. ) #anyway ...... so like here's a story that idk i've tried to explain to other people as being wild #but maybe im the only one who thinks it is wild??? #so i play pokemon go (i just started in jan) bc i love pokemon and as i have mentioned i walk goblin for like an hour in the morning #and i don't like a lot of fitness trackers due to the fact it makes me .sad. but i also wanted the little digital rewards. enter pokemon go #anyway so they make you make friends to complete quests. so i used a reddit thread. i do not usually use reddit. i don't have an acct #i lurked. i just googled like ''pokemon go reddit '' and randomly added a bunch of numbers #i was on that page for all of 15 minutes. there are THOUSANDS of responses on that page. #here's what's wild: in that group of people. even though i am not on reddit and it was one random event once #it turns out one of those people lives in the town i live in. or at least very close. i only know this because #when we send each other gifts. it's from the same freaking area. #i can't ask them to meet up bc pokemon go doesn't have a messaging app lol but like . what are the fucking chances that #a random person posts in a random reddit thread and HAPPENS to get added by someone ELSE from their SAME TOWN #who by pure fucking CHANCE is ALSO playing pokemon go and looking for friends #i googled it there's only 42000 people in my broad region. the .......... smallness ! of the world!!!

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

At rest, your lungs wish to deflate, and your ribcage expands outwards.

#better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #yiling laozu #Happy Friday the 13th! #This is scientific fact btw! #Ventilation operates through a series of active and passive forces #The active forces being muscular contraction with inhalation and exhalation having their own set of muscles. #but the interesting part is the passive forces at work: #The lungs have a certain level of elasticity to them - meaning the more they expand the more the those elastic forces are functioning- #-to try and return the system to rest (exhalation passive forces). Your diaphragm is the main force - pushing against the lungs at rest. #Your ribcage on the other hand is under a state of being pulled outwards. It *wants* to be as open as possible. #These to contradicting forces create a constant push and pull which assists in the ebb and flow of air. Most significantly with exhalation. #Now that being said - the primary action of inhalation ventilation is through control centers in your brainstem. #If you lose connection to that due to trauma you're going to need ventilation assistance. #Small note: Respiration is the cellular event of chemical exchange in the alveoli. Ventilation is airflow and pressure. #They are both important but also very different things. Sadly used interchangeably. #My anatomy nerd brain is screaming over the inaccurate ribcage...but its...recognizable. I will get it right one day. #Okay nerd rant over (I cut out a lot of stuff about pressure gradients. They are cool. To me.) #This is a redraw of an mspaint doodle I made back in april. I yearn to make the Yiling Laozu eerie as he deserves #Tear that bitch (affectionate) apart! #Been playing around with hatching for a while and its amazing how many styles there are! Not sure I'll stick with this one (but it was fun)

[writeouswriter]

[ID: Two panel meme template of a man labelled "Me every single day," standing before 3 doors labelled, 1. "Work already in progress." 2. "Work already in progress," and 3. "New idea," with the second panel showing the man immediately kicking down the third door. End ID]

#writing #writeblr #writing humour #writing humor #writing meme #relatable #meme #funny #helpppp #trying to lure old followers back with erratic remnants of my old content when i actually was focused on this blog and not taken by the voi #the void being a debilitatingingly intense hyperfixation/probable more likeky special interest due to how long its lasted #and also just rampant adhd and a draining job #but my brain is still idea jumping like wild every other second

[strawglicks]

something i really wanna see explored more in TTCC lore overtime is how Cogs. Inc affects the cogs themselves. the individual workers and the company are not one in the same, and i think thats smth that never gets discussed.

while i think the toons are obviously in the right for protecting their lands, i think there are many cases in some of the individual managers where it is clear that this is not a black and white, good and evil issue.

Misty is probably the most obvious case here, being that they dont even have any desire to fight the toons and instead wants to be friends with them. Misty is probably one of the most controversial characters due to this, being that fandom looooves to take morally grey/complex characters and devolve them to either "perfect innocent wittle angel" or "demonic demon from hell", completely erasing the original character's complexities and flaws. the things that makes them..them. the things that make them interesting. and it sucks to watch ppl erase characters like this. (I could do a full analysis on her and probably will but it would be some time i have to refresh myself a bit on her)

That "good vs evil" view that toontown originally built itself on was challenged by TTCC's manager cogs when they were given more depth. and a lot of people who loveee to see things in black and white dont like characters such as misty challenging their point of view. and its saddening.

i personally love to see this built and expanded upon. i LOVE that TTCC focuses on the individual cogs and makes them. well. individuals. rather than focusing on the big bad company as a whole. theres no doubt Cogs Inc is terrible. so imagine how terrible it is for the workers serving said company.

"they applied for the position" yea so like theres a fancy thing called rent. in a world of capitalism like this, cogs need jobs and money to support themselves. (some proof of this being an issue for the cogs is graham freaking out at the end of MOTM when his chances of getting the job are threatened and he says his "life is in jeopardy". NO ONE talks abt this btw.) i think once again this excuse drives from people focusing on the big bad company rather than the individuals. so lets talk about the individuals.

Mary Anna. She applied for the position because she believes toons are the issue, they are the ones polluting the waters and environment, and she has good intentions joining this company and trying to put a stop to them. How he came to this conclusion is unknown, but does Cogs Inc give a shit? No. they care abt hiring employees so they can make money and function as a business. so, knowing mary is wrong, they do nothing to change it and simply use her beliefs to their advantage to keep her hired and doing her job.

You know whats funny? Most of the fandom either flat out ignores him or makes him out to be a complete idiot for thinking toons pollute the environment. Mary may be wrong, but his intentions are proof that cogs are not just. blank slates. And people HATE thinking deeper than just black and white. So they hate cogs like Misty and Mary and put them down for challenging their view.

You could go on and on, case by case. TTCC PURPOSEFULLY builds on these characters so you AVOID that boring black and white view of "toons good, cogs bad". I think the situation is more like "toons good, Cogs Inc. bad".

Companies like this destroy both outsiders and the people within the company. And so far, TTCC has done a good job displaying that. and people choose to ignore it. and it saddens me.

#toontown #toontown corporate clash #ttcc #misty monsoon #toontown rainmaker #mary anna #toontown deep diver #my big juicy brain in full effect #yk whats funny. this post was originally gonna be abt cathal and graham (bc you know me) #and how this affects THEM too #bc nobody talks abt it #ever. ESPECIALLY not with graham #anyway ig thats a post for another day . although i did talk abt cathal in a post already #i want to directly compare the two of em and how they act due to their environment #their environment being. cogs inc. and a capitalist society #ANYWAY

[crispinkiss]

everyone please remember eiffel and minkowski were both nerds in high school. thank you

#completely different types of nerd but nerds nonetheless #minkowski high school theatre kid lives in my brain forever i love her #lovelace is not included due to being a jock in high school #i need an au where they're in the same class and hate each other so much #wolf 359

[ratcandy]

do you think that zote ever gets bullied for having mismatched horns

I guess it would depend on how much symmetry is valued by bugs hDKHSG. which caused me to look things up and find a study that tells me Yes bugs can in fact recognize Symmetry/Asymmetry to some extent if trained to recognize it. So that's neat

ANYWAY your question. I'll go with a Maybe. I'm sure it gets pointed out often enough considering he's one VERY few asymmetrical guys around here. With the only other one coming to mind being Divine due to her mask

But I dunno if it would be as much bullying as it would be "hey why are your horns different sizes? did one break and you couldn't molt a new one properly" and he goes "YES I lost it in a great battle. It was a devastating blow no bug could've seen coming. But I did. Alas. The beast was too quick even for my nimble reflexes. it got a Lucky strike and I earned a heroic scar " or whatever.

i could assume it's commented on to the same extent that like. heterochromia would be commented on. Brain sees asymmetry and goes Woah that's Asymmetry that's Crazy

#again not sure if Bullying would be the term for it #save for like. Kids I guess. but like #I would assume it'd be seen as insensitive to some extent. especially if it is seen as a case of losing a body part #and being unable to do anything about it. but considering it's Horns and theoretically they serve little function outside of #what I can only assume would be mate selection stuff and/or competition #I mean. I dunno!!!!! bully him for being unsexy by Some Bug Out There's standards due to asymmetry. #I'm sure there's something like that out there #I dunno. Many possibilities. Ur activating my bug brain and I don't think you meant to do that. #clamtalk #zote

[theshadowrealmitself]

Me: What about a reverse of that one post I have where instead it’s a Vulcan thinking they’re talking to a robot or an ai or something, but it’s just a Human with a flat voice?

Me: There’s a “problem” and a group of them, Humans, Vulcans, etc go to where they think they’re going to find the source of this ai and instead they find a cute Human and the Vulcan is flustered, this idea has a lot of potential for a cute misunderstanding, I’m gonna rotate it in my brain

My brain, 20 minutes later:

“I have feelings.” They don’t look up from their typing, face looking as emotionless as their words sounded, “For instance, I hate you.”

Silence rings where only seconds ago there was laughter and jokes.

All the non-Vulcans look at each other with stunned faces. After a moment, the leader of them coughs awkwardly and asks, “You- you hate me?”

They finally spare a glance at them, despite their earlier words there still wasn’t anything the rest of them would recognize as emotion, their eyes weren’t even cold, just…blank. Their eyes return to their screen as quickly as they left them.

Everyone thinks maybe they won’t answer the question, but before anyone else breaks the ice, they speak up.

“You came here because I wasn’t “working fast enough” despite working very fast for a Human, because you were expecting a robot.”

“I-“

“You knew that my branch does not use ai or anything like that for security and privacy reasons, yet still decided that there was no possible way that I could be a Human, because I didn’t measure up to your standards of humanity.”

“It was-“

“After making assumptions about me, you then decided there was no reason to treat me with any basic decency in any of our communication, even ignoring my clear statements that I am not an automated voice.”

“You were-“

“Then once you came here and saw that I am indeed a Human, you thought it would be appropriate to make jokes comparing me to androids and Vulcans, still insisting on denying me my humanity. I am a Human. Just because I don’t fit your idea of how a Human should be, does not mean that it’s okay, or appropriate, to compare me to non-Humans. You, and the others who joined you, are terrible people, and I hate you.”

Their voice never raised, never wavered, never betrayed any negative feelings. They just spoke plainly, emphasizing their words where needed to convey what they meant to. Their focus still on typing emails that everyone else knew from experience would be dry in tone, but highly informative.

The group, aside from the leader, look ashamed.

The leader looks embarrassed, but instead of shame, anger starts clouding his features. He looked as though he might stalk towards them, but one glance at the trio of Vulcans on the side who look at him with raised eyebrows stops him in his tracks.

Me: Hey, what the fuck is this direction?

#star trek #Vulcans #Humans #made up dialogue by yours truly #hey brain. this. this is the direction this is supposed to be going in. #all mistakes are due to writing this quickly to convey what my brain was thinking #because this scene was being acted out mentally

[mossypidder]

So I’ve been wanting an excuse to make techno fanart for a while and I’ve been having really bad art block the last few days, but I found the picture below the cut and just. I figured why not.

#really enjoyed working with the lighting on this. was actually super fun #kinda sad I’m finished tho cuz I think the only reason my brain let me draw this was due to it being heavily reference based #but yeah #techno #technoblade #techno fanart #mcyt #mcyt fanart #technoblade fanart #technoblade never dies #last time I drew him was at request from a kid from the co-op I go to #and he reopened a hyperfixaton #it’s all his fault #also decided that armless chain glasses might work better with his ear shape #plus more shiny gold piglin things >:3 #small artist #artists on tumblr #regular style #portrait #digital art #young artist #portrait style

[puppyeared]

ive made myself more wet and pathetic

#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL #its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed #because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH #how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would #be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing #or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late #i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed #the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either #because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember #the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either #the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with #crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure #BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION #im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real #really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and #thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT #you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without #making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY #yapping #doodles #puppysona #edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule #and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened

[godblooded]

just an fyi, and it feels like it needs to be said here: your blog is your own space and you should be able to say whatever the fuck you want. if you’re sad? vent. get sad. maybe put it under a cut, definitely tag it, but get sad. if you feel like you need someone to talk to? drop a freaking message about how you’re feeling like you could use a buddy, or anything randomly engaging. if you’re having a hard time, you should feel safe and okay to talk about it in your own space. we’re writers and we’re people and while there’s a lot to be said for how engagement outside of oneself is necessary in rp (and really really needs to improve), i think there’s a lot that must be said about people reaching out to others. it’s become so solitary here — the whole ‘reblog from source’ thing when it comes to shit like about and musings is absurd. the whole refusing to like things is ridiculous. yes, curate your space, that’s important, but curating your space into a studio apartment only you live in doesn’t make this a community anymore, it makes it a studio apartment you live in.

just be yourself here. do whatever you want. but i’m always saying: remember you’re not alone, and don’t let yourself feel that way.

#ooc. o kaptain. #[this is illogically worded and after an argument I’m already upset but I just felt like this has to be put here. it’s been sitting on my #brain for so long and it’s something i just wanted to discuss. the way the rpc has become not even an echo chamber just… a shitty ny #apartment only one person lives in that can fit your fridge and your bedroom in the same room. the way literal fandoms have divided each #other through nothing but massive senses of entitlement and so much gatekeepy fucking language. it’s exhausting to watch this happen #literally all because i have no idea where interaction went and yes I’ve been virtually inactive for months now but. it absolutely isn’t for #lack of trying to come back. it’s hugely due to a lack of interaction whenever I reach out and then the feeling like I’m being either #entertained or dismissed. this is a social space and we’re people and everybody just needs to recognize that. like. last week my introverted #broski started discussing how as he’s older he feels loneliness more tangibly but he hates people and i looked right at him and said …yeah #dude. that’s natural. we’re humans. we need each other to live. we need spaces we create and communities we make. but like. there need to be #interactive people in those spaces. we’re social creatures. i love you guys and this is a ramble but… it’s been on my mind awhile. and #frankly? feels kinda good to finally speak my mind.]

[bleaksqueak]

Also i know i’ve yammered about how much i loved it already, but really, check out this soundtrack if you haven’t

Will tumblr let me link three videos?? Let’s find out!

#music recs #lies of p #listening to this ost makes me want to do a new full illustration so bad #but im so busy with story work right now my brain isnt swapping to illust mode so i can’t decide or think of one lol #anyway these are just three out of a mind blowing ost #the battle themes are ofc all soulslike choir affairs #with victors being VERY hammerhorror/bloodborne #well almost all are souls style choirs #one of the. is a bal musette waltz #and due to that it is my favorite battle theme #Youtube #hohoho it let me…. oh tumblr you give the rat too much power

[bloodanddiscoballs]

sorry about joining discord servers and then never ever talking especially when I desperately want to I don't know why I don't im so bad at communicating

#it also doesnt help that my brain is fried 90% of the time due to my health being bad #but like my messages on here are just as dire #i need tips on how to regularly communicate

[skrs-cats]

thinking about cinderlion kits and how hollytufts reaction to flywhisker and snaptooth leaving to become kittypets was to aggressively call them traitors

#i speaku #rotating these six guys in my brain #i know i said i wish cinderlion had way smaller litters and i still feel the same way now but i can still think about them #w a dynamic of having drifted apart due to the shit theyve been going thru as well as the distance bet the two litters bc of age and stuff #nd spotfur feeling so ostracized from her fam bc of 'gestures at everything' #im ngl the first lotter really genuinely are kinda just there 😭 #litter* #i wonder if you couldbe just made them be one singular cat and it wouldve worked better #thats an interesting dynamic i think... a one kitten litter being excited over the prospect of having siblings when cinder n lion announce #the news and getting devastated when two of the second litter decide to leave #maybe they n spotfur couldve beeb close once but the hypothetical only child just xouldnt get rid of those feelings of betrayal and anger #that their sibs left just grew very distant bc of that #i like sibling dynamics have i mentioned that yet