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#but bonding gradually with someone over several years bc of shared moments of tension elation and hard work
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Time for another realization spurred on only by Star Trek: just figured out I only know how to make friends in hierarchical contexts
#star trek
#guess who this one is about folks guess who made me figure this out that's right spock
#bc i was just thinking like--i'm lonely right? pretty solitary person etc. etc. and i worry often about whether that will change
#and some days i don't feel like it needs to which is also 'in-character' lol i do actually quite like solitude
#but that is distinct from loneliness and that's something else spock recognizes. he is a lonely character
#and i was like well why don't i make other friends? and it hit me that i *literally don't know how*
#like maybe i used to? freshman year when everyone was new i made some friends but they turned out to be toxic
#but now? i've got no clue. except for in a context like the fencing team which has captains and subordinates and responsibilities etc.
#aka.........much like the enterprise lol but no really it's a shared committment and responsibility but not something like office work
#like i have no clue how to make actual friends in an office context. or in clubs anymore. or anything like that
#but bonding gradually with someone over several years bc of shared moments of tension elation and hard work? that i can do
#(not @ the t'hy'la bond being hypothesized to form in people who fought alongside each other as brothers of the sword ๐)
#so i'm trying to think of how to make other friends and it isn't working and then bam my brain is like 'you know your favorite projectable?
#'spock? well yeah he doesn't know how to make friends off the ship when he leaves he just goes 'i can't handle this it's kolinahr time' lol
#so he isolates which is exACTLY WHAT I WOULD DO aksksjf and who knows maybe i will but i'm tryna follow his arc be healthy and accept mysel
#but anyway so i thought about why spock can't make friends off-ship and it's because he doesn't understand how to just...relate to people
#he needs a defined role and something to bring them together and a mutual passion and commitment to a task
#THEN he can gradually bond with them. but just interacting with people and letting them in? just trusting some rando? nahh
#which is exactly how i do it of course. so in analyzing spock i was like ooh shoot that me. dang
#and my only friend('s') as a kid were ALSO from the fencing team but it was also toxic so i became even LESS likely to open up
#traumatic childhoods?? just another relatable trait!! anyways yeah spock be out here as a whole fictional character teaching me about mysel
#kay has a party in the tags
#spock
#kay can i just catch my breath for a second
#*f twice and also *'
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