#but at the same time i know in tbe past ive desprately hung onto others

[pizzapizzadickz]

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#personal #diary #its funny reading all these romance stories really make me think ‘wow id never act like this’ #like. i let go of people so easily. i recover just as quick. i wouldnt bothed over a lot #but at the same time i know in tbe past ive desprately hung onto others #so who knows #maybe its just because i havent been in a relationship in so many years #its been about 4 almost 5 now #wow #i wish i was close to someone #i wish they just knew all about me #knew what i wanted #knew who i was and am #them maybe getting to know others wouldnt be so scary #its hard to comunicate with others #i kinda wanna try dating again after covid n shit settles down #but. honestly i just wanna sex. says the virgin. but only with someone close. but i also reallllly dont wanna bother #irl relationships are hard #theres so many expextations. they get upset so easily. and i do too. everything just feels tangled #i honestly have no one left #and ive made it that way on purpose #i miss the people whove left. #and the ones ive left #i dont wanna be alone #but i also dont want to be together #ugh