#but another part of me is like '...eh'

[daz4i]

wait so chuuya has angel imagery about him in stormbringer. and dazai is referred to as a demon on more than one occasion. and. hold on. wait. I'm going insane. hold on.

#don't try to figure out the grammar of this post I'm too lazy and having too many thoughts for that rn. #ANYWAY are they literally an angel/demon ship. in a way. bc if so. the dan rights are insane #I've been thinking abt this for awhile idk why it took me so long to post abt it #I'm ngl demon dazai as a concept is already enough to give me rights personally he truly is just like me fr #and . you know how insane i am abt angels. tbh chuuya would make a really good angel he's loyal and has humanity issues doesn't he. #also he is a Fucked Up Creature :) love that about him. but yeah that's another part of it #i wish there was like. more of that. more than just that one time symbolism. i need more. so i can write an essay abt angel chuuya #(if there is and i just missed it PLEASE send it my way. i am asking nicely 🔫) #(ig you could argue he's like an angel saving the ada in this arc but... eh that's not direct enough for me)

[sonknuxadow]

been feeling the urge to read a shitton of sonic comics again. but i cant decide if i should read fleetway sonic or the sonic x comics first

#hmm thinking about it more though makes me think i should go for sonic x first ? #because stc is another one of the longer series. nowhere near as long and confusing as archie from what ive seen but still long #but sonic x is only 40 issues. which is much shorter #plus its published by archie and i intended to read it sometime during the time i was reading all of archie sonic but i . forgor #i was like ''eh its a separate thing that doesnt tie into the main series at all for the most part ill just read it all in one go later'' #and then i didnt.

[kyouka-supremacy]

I know chances of it to happen are extremely low but I really want to see the scene of Fukuchi informing Teruko he's on the doa's side. I want to see Teruko's first, genuine reaction to the reveal so bad. I want to see Teruko acting serious and collected as every ideal and certainty she ever relied on crumble down in front of her eyes. Maybe a little tremble hitting her hands, a flash of fear crossing her eyes; or maybe her remaining unfaltering, firm as stone despite something just broke inside her. Just Teruko not knowing what to do now that the system she's always believed in is revealed to be rotten and corrupt

#Yeaaaaah #teruko ōkura #bsd #bungou stray dogs #bsd ch 103.5 #I can't believe the next chapter we're getting Teruko narrating a backstory that isn't hers #This manga's disrespect for women really knows no limits 😔😔 #Like please I don't care about Fukuchi's backstory let me know more about Teruko!!! #Unless she's part of Fukuchi's backstory herself so for that I guess we'll have to see #(but even then she'd be yet another female character who's characterization rotates exclusively around a male character which. eh. #isn't awesome) #mine #c.q. #02/09/22

[tuiyla]

With the Quinn/Santana/Rachel dynamic - as much as I don't want to 'bring race/identity politics into it', optics matter and there is something sinister about a POC character being retconned as the 'ringleader' instead of the conservative, conventionally attractive blonde white girl who pretty much gets a pass. as popular as Santana is, she does get a lot of the blame for stuff that Quinn said thanks to revisionist history (obvs leaving Britt out of it because she never liked Rachel anyway).

Oh no Anon please do because way too often fandom discussions take this colourblind approach as if race isn't a HUGE part of Quinntana's perception

I have to admit that's a bit of a different approach than I would have but valid nonetheless. There are just so many layers of this and Glee considers exactly none of them. I'm endlessly fascinated and saddened by Rachel always giving Quinn the benefit of the doubt but somehow never completely finding it within herself to extend the same to Santana. I mean case in point, as far as 5x18 Rachel assumes of Santana what she'd never of Quinn. I think Quinn started out as that ultra-WASP bully as part of the satire (and I have other asks to get to about that oops) and the optics of that were her uber-privileged ass bullying the outcast overeager Jewish girl. But then of course not only was Quinn's privilege, well, sort of examined (wow that's me being VERY generous with the show) but the sidekick Latina was promoted to main. And truly, a lot of the time Glee didn't know what to do with that. See Dr. Lopez and his amazing insurance but Santana being from "the wrong side of the tracks". And that's not to even mention Glee having no idea how to treat Santana as being anything other than Vaguely Latina™ even when Naya herself was mixed-race Afro-Latina, but identities like that were too complex for Glee's token mentality. Anyway the result is, like you say, Santana retroactively getting the blame not only for the things she should be called out for but Quinn's bullying, even though Quinn was very much the Alpha Bitch at the beginning.

I think the most glaring instance of how differently the show itself treats Quinntana based on race, and by extension so does the fandom, is the commentary on appearances/sexuality. Feels like it's been a while but I have gone on many times about how Quinn, blonde Euro-centric definition of beauty Quinn is pretty and less sexualized than Santana even when the show explicitly mocks the irony of her getting knocked up. But Santana is never pretty, just "hot" and sexualized in a very heteronormative way loooong after she comes out as a lesbian. Post for another day?

Then there's also the many racist undertones of the Pezberry feud itself, from mocking Santana's Hispanic heritage to the insistence that she's "lazy". Yikes. Actually all three main WOCs get put into this faux meritocracy narrative in opposition to Rachel (West Side Story, Props, Funny Girl) but that's (another) story for another day.

#that was way too many big words at midnight #glee just does not know how to handle complexity of any kind #outside of like. 2-3 storylines #even those are half arsed in one way or another #100% convinced that no thoughts of race were taken into consideration wahtsoever #so i mean yeah we should at least try to acknowledge that right? #i love me the messy dynamic of fapezberry don't get me wrong #but race played a part #glee asks #anon #santana asks #eh closest to it #fapezberry #glee and race

[anothermonikan]

Have I told you guys about the fucked up dreams I've been having recently? I've been having some fucked up dreams lately. yeah <3

#sorry this is mostly about a dream I had yesterday and if I just say it it's gonna sound so creepypasta-y #like I have a lot of creepypasta-y dreams it's just how my dreams have always worked hehe #It wasn't fucked up because it was scary or anything it was fucked up because of how I felt in it #how to describe it...like I was like almost too calm and accepting of my fate #like okay previous dream context (whether this was context from another actual dream or just. lore my brain made up idk) #I got sentenced to execution. It's...really hard to describe the context without it sounding really silly. #like it was a part of some sick game that a person planned out and it all ended in a white maze room #I was told I could either choose to go free from a month and then be collected for execution or be trapped in the room forever but alive #and I chose to be executed. everyone knew. we all even had silly inside jokes about it ehe #like my friends were picking music out for it. it was really silly hehe! #but the person who came to collect me for execution was so striking. she was like. almost literally a doll #A big doll!! Like she was so so tall!! she actually shrank to be more my size as the dream went on. she was strikingly pretty #and kind. she was so kind #we walked around and said goodbye to everyone. she made friendly conversation. she guided me through how everything was going to go #god the tenderness of it all makes me sqee a lil aha. a little fucked up I think #it was self-inflicted you see. Rose bushes over a tall fence. that's why she was so tall. to help me over #I caught on pretty quickly that she was a person who decided to stay in the room instead of being executed #that's what becomes of them. they become subservient to the game master. they're made to collect the ones who chose to leave and die later #she told me that deep down she kinda wished that doing this for him would convince him to make her human again and to let her be free #I told her that it was bullshit and that he'd never do that. and she was like. yeah. but a girl can dream right? #another one of those dreams that have lines that stick out in my head as well...okay one of them was just really funny #'Hey guys' 'I'm being executed today :D' 'oh. okay!' #dhdhdh #'It's scary isn't it?' 'yeah. it is' 'Well. It'll all be over soon' #like gwah. gwahhhh #'There is something wrong inside of you' levels of impact on my psyche I reckon #me and the doll girl kissed a few times. it was weirdly quite natural. nothing intensive #but I think we both had an understanding that we weren't seeing eachother again and we cared about eachother #it was so greatly platonic and nice. yearning for something I will never experience aha ^^; #Idk if I even want to be in any sort of QPR but it was definitely nice in this dream

[cherrymoonvol6]

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#rewatched separate tides for eh. potential gifset related business #and it's a joy how evil and queercoded hunter is at the beginning #and honestly by now i've been thinking about how much hunter looks up to darius and just how organic that is #since hunter knows darius was the closest figure to the previous golden guards #like hunter has mad daddy issues obviously and darius is just another part of it #and seeing darius' behavior in eda's requiem... for the first time ever it just clicked #that hunter's sassy demeanor in ST is just him trying to replicate darius. whether it's intentional or not (most likely not) #which honestly closes all my thoughts about the winter soldierification of hunter. i've decided canon is Good in this aspect #but also there's the fact that darius' queerness is an aspect looked up and replicated by hunter. even taking into account how much respect- #-he has for belos #and i keep thinking how luz leans on the butchier side and you got me kicking my feet in the air <3 lunter real #i say this all the time but whoever says lunter is heteronormative. i hope you get well soon <3 #bi4bi couples are the future

[sysig]

What’s Bun-Bun’s signature colour? (Patreon)

#Doodles #BunBonBop #All these options and for the life of me I can't decide! #Is it the rainbow???? What is it!! #I was really hoping that scanning and editing would give some clarity - maybe by how easy it is to edit compared to Bon and Bop #Nope all I know is purple is the least likely but I already figured that #At least dark purple - maybe if I get a lighter purple lol #Also I'm pretty sure I mixed up Bon and Bop's shoe tongue-shapes lol - it's hard to keep all their little details straight! #Even with references on-hand and it Definitely didn't help that I was mostly offline at the time lol #I got them Mostly correct that's the important part and also they're not even the focus this time! They got their moment in the light! Lol #It feels a bit silly to try assigning a colour to Bun /now/ like - what about when I got the other pencils? Why not then? #I just didn't think of it at the time lol #I've always imagined her with a warm tone so it was probably getting the orange that was the reminder I needed #Now that I've tried it out tho I'm still not sure! #Purple would be really nice as a combination of the other two but Bunny is her own individual so hmm #Plus like I said that purple is way too dark and I'm not currently willing to get a lighter purple pencil just for her lol #I love her but I don't Need another purple pencil! ...Maybe for [Purple Text] someday...... but that's Someday! #Yellow would fill out the Primary Colour trifecta but eh that feels so done y'know? #I kinda already figured green wouldn't suit her but she does look cute haha - she's always cute that's the problem! #Orange isn't bad I suppose but it is very bright - Bun-Bun has always given me pastel vibes #Which I guess would leave pink? I'd feel really silly if it ended up being a colour I had At The Same Time of drawing the other two lol #I don't Dislike it - she's like a softer version of Bop (which she is! Personality-wise) and the culturally-recognized counterpart to Bon #Again feels a little done to have The Boy of the group be blue and the Soft Girl be pink lol #But I mean this isn't what they Actually look like - it's part of their brand #I could see the corporate side of things leaning into the stereotypical expectations #Having the fans recognize and maybe give a little pushback might be fun too hehe ♪ #Plus they do still have their own aesthetics outside their signature colours - Bun-Bun is pastel like I said #Bon is probably like ''Cool'' - again leaning into his role as The Boy - but still cute and poppy - sporty I guess #And Bon would be a little more sleek - sharper edges more flattering than elegant - GirlBoss chic I guess lol #I dunno lol I need to do more work on what their brand actually is anyhow lol

[look-at-the-stars-tonight]

one of my friends and i were talking about life and where we would be in a few years and it made me a lil bit sad

#we were driving somewhere and i said something about how she was going to move away one day #(she doesn't wanna live in texas forever esp cause she's lived here most of her life) #and we talked about how one day we'd both probably just be fond memories to each other #like just people to look back on when thinking about your early 20s or whatever #SHE said this not me. i think it's so fucking morbid #but like she's not wrong and i keep thinking about it #how everyone you ever love will leave u some day?? isn't that just so absolutely fucked #but like. we're probably gonna part ways someday #and then we'll just start talking less and less and less and one day not at all #cause that's how life is isn't it #someone can mean the absolute WORLD to you one day #and a few years later you might not even think about them unless something prompts it #and i DO Try to talk to my besties as often as i can #but maybe i should get on real social media or something idk #it's literally impossible to talk to every single person who has meant something to you on a regular basis #and i think that's what social media is for??? idkkkkk #i'm being melancholy and CRINGE today ig #idk it's weird how u can go from 'we're going to be at each other's weddings' to 'eh we probably won't see each other much if ever #in another five years' #she's said both of those things. one of them is more realistic than the other. #delete later #you just gotta leave before u get left ig #sorry for quoting taylor swift

[haorev]

#worldbuilding #dnd #homebrew world #original fiction #I’m putting a lot of work into this world and part of me is like ‘why are we just doing this for a dnd world’ #and another part of me is like ‘eh it’s fun’ #but it could very easily be made non-dnd reliant

[nikatyler]

I am *this* close to doing Ross’s story but without the NSB elements. Aaaand a bunch of other changes. Aaaa

#nika rambles #to name a few. caleb who. i don't know him we have another vampire tho #i'm not sure if i'd make any changes to his parents #(ross's parents i mean. december and kieran) #but december would totally take kieran's surname. so ross's surname would be different too #i think i'd change the way ross and callias met #the older i get the more uncomfortable it makes me #i mean yeah it was just the game being silly but...dunno. i just don't really like it anymore. all things considered #oh. high school ross would need a lot of work #he'd still date a lot but at the end of the day he's just a nerd and a loser (affectionate) #which. i think he's always been. but it didn't come through that much in my gameplay #eh don't mind me i'm just rambling #funny thing is that just a few weeks ago #i was thinking about a storyline for him and *caleb*. in the nsb universe #it would be part of wrapping the whole legacy up. gen 10 and everything #but i'm not sure about it now #but that also has to do with my growing insecurity about using an ea townie like that. idk. i've mentioned it before i think #yeah it's dumb to worry about it i know #insecurities aside i genuinely enjoy callias more though #eh anyway. gonna go to my game and take some pictures and work on some more requests

[fractured-fables]

oh my GOD i keep forgetting that in SBC's canon (bc i think abt the Mad Rabbit AU which is in a weird time limbo for both 'cosms) everyone thinks Phineas is dead. Like nobody knows he's alive until Alice arrives in StoryBrooke and tells people/creates a portal between the two worlds.

Can you imagine thinking you best friend is dead & that it's YOUR fault for 415 years and then a little blonde bitch just comes along and tells you he's alive?? and has been VIBING this whole time, living his best life??? how do you even REACT to that oh my god

#paraportal #grimm writings #phineas glazier #tale: storybrooke #tale: curiosity by another name #phineas showing up to storybrooke 415 years late holding a teacup: so. what'd i miss?? #omg that tiktok audio thats like 'idk why yall told me theres no monsters in this part of the game I JUST SAW THAT MF' but its #alice going 'idk why yall keep telling me phineas is dead I JUST HAD TEA WITH HIM!!!' #the mad rabbit au takes place post-s2 for liw i believe. bc finnegan & carrie arent there yet #oh wait but ruby abbie and vi ARE?? idk eh idc its an au #but anyway that au takes place outside of time for maac. esp bc its using the fandom versions lol #but its also crazy to me that aiw doesn't become 'canon' until WAY later too bc finnegan. wow. its not the Last Tale but i think its #the last tale of what would be considered of the 'first generation'. like end of an era shit due to phineas. huh.

[fiisheyes]

i had alot of dreams last night

#one i was running around town to go to school but i didnt have money for the bus a mask or anyone to drive me #and then when i got to school (i ran into an old frienemy from another school n they drove me) i felt like i didnt have all that i needed #so i started walking back down the highway #and then this hall monitor type guy who was Steve Carell chased me down and he was acting like my math teacher n asking me to come back #idk he made me feel safe like it was very nice to be noticed he remembered my name #but i didntwant to go back #oh and also in the car with the old friend we had this weird conversation about middle school #huh anyways i also dreamt i woke up for a second but it was a dream i swear and i was really distraught about going to school 'tomorrow' #laat night irl i kinda thought that it was sunday and today was monday #i like sat up and my room was light like the sun was at the brightest part of it risig when it comes thru ur shades #and i started praying about not having to go to school just for anything to happen thatd id feel something that next day #idek i mean nobody likes school but i was like very desperate in this dream. i wasnt scared of anything idk #uh and the last dream after i went back to sleep in the 2nd dream #i was gonma be in a movie .. i wasnt main character but i was like .. a significant character #i was with my whole family and we were kind of just ghosting around the set until they needed us #then it was coming time for my scene and i got to wear my own clothes and i had this whole pile of tshirts i was choosing from n i kept on #puttinf on a shirt but bc it was a dream i actually still had the other one on #eh then i got in this car and it was sundown and they gave me .. a bass .? and then this kid who kinda looked like young dev patel was at #the intersection and he came over and then i got a text from my friend and the dream switched bc i was on my phonr #dreams

[take-ya-to-the-ghey-bar]

@akumanoken replied: Souji: JUST ACCEPT IT

"The fuck do you mean 'just accept it'?!?" While not fully intending to raise his voice, Micchan still ended up doing so anyway as his whipped towards Souji with that comment. Honestly he didn't even know where he was going with this from that point-- But, much like an agitated cat, the blonde was always quick to hiss about things once his 'fur' got ruffled.

#akumanoken #{|dash commentary|} #{|chat commentary|} #{|ic|} #{|Eh? No... I haven't touched that drink yet. I swear: Crack posts|} #{|ooc notes transition—|} #honestly it kills me that another part of him being like this isn't even fully to do with the context post lol-- #but another mutual (and by extension their muse) who i shared said post with X'D #but i'll leave that note of chatter at that lol

[shotmrmiller]

retired pornstar!Ghost who can't seem to ever keep his hands to himself whenever you're around, even when about to film.

f!reader, 18+ smut. unedited.

If you're standing at a table making coffee, he'll sneak up from behind and wrap his arms around you, his chin resting on the crown of your head.

Hi, Ghost.

G'mornin', love.

If you're walking out of Price's office with a script in hand, he's by your side in mere moments, throwing an arm over your shoulder.

"New script?"

"You should know, you're my co-star. Again."

"Lucky me, pet."

He's leading you toward his office, perches you on his desk and cups his hand over your core.

"Gonna let me eat this pretty pussy?"

"I dunno, Ghost. Gonna fuck me here too?" you smirk at him.

"Whatever you want from me," he breathes.

You stumble out hours later with swollen lips, love bites mottled over your neck and collarbone, and his warm spend trickling down your legs because Ghost pocketed your knickers.

The day of, he's texting you if you'd like a ride to the studio.

Sure thing. Get me in 15.

Yes ma'am.

He doesn't ask for your address, and you don't question why he knows where you live either. Ghost, forever the gentleman, opens the passenger door for you, and gently helps you get in. The entire drive over, his hand rested on your bare thigh, his small finger occasionally grazing your clothed cunt. By the time you arrive, your knickers are damp with your arousal.

"Somethin' wrong, love?"

You snort at his feigned innocence. "Cute. Is mercilessly teasing me fun to you?"

"Sorry 'bout tha.'" Ghost doesn't sound all that apologetic.

He brings you in tight, wrapping his arm around you firmly.

"Lemme make it up t'you in my dressin' room", he purrs.

You click your tongue. "Price'll have your head if he catches me in there, especially when we're about to make a vid."

"Be sure to keep quiet, then. Would absolutely hate to get caught."

With his smart fingers and expert tongue, you're brought to peak 3 times.

Price rolls his eyes when he spots you both walking in at the same time 15 minutes before the shoot.

"Always cheek by jowl, eh Simon?"

His piercing eyes cut to Price's. "Not a crime, last I checked."

Price lifts his hands up, palms outward in mock surrender. "Easy, Ghost. Only teasin'." He turns away, gesturing the crew to get in their places.

Ghost taps your chin with his pointer finger, drawing your attention. "Showtime, baby."

The wolfish grin on your face mirrors his.

"Showtime," you echo.

Ghost turns sex into art. He moves with discipline; every languid roll of his hips deliberate. Like a skilled painter, he transformed you into a living masterpiece, using each drag of his cock as a brush stroke on the canvas of your very being.

It's otherworldly.

He watches your face intently as he changes the angle, bites his bottom lip when he changes the pace, grunting into your ear as your walls begin to flutter— the telltale sign of 'his favorite part', as he loves to say.

"Gonna come f'me? Lemme hear that sweet, little voice of yours, pet." Almost as if following his command, you're digging your nails into his biceps, and closing your eyes in bliss as you climax. A loud, drawn-out moan escapes your lips as your cunt rhythmically pulses around Ghost's heavy length. Your soft thighs quiver around his broad waist as he works you through the aftershocks with slow, firm thrusts.

"Look at tha'. Came when I told ya to, like a good girl." Your mind is blank from your orgasm, tongue too heavy and thick in your mouth for you to even try to articulate a response.

"Creamed all over my cock, can ya hear it?" Hard not to when the wet sounds of your pussy squelching every time he bottoms out fills the room.

"You're so fuckin' tight. Cunt's squeezin' me like it doesn't want me to pull out."

His filthy words send a jolt straight to your throbbing core. "Felt tha'. What, you got a breedin' kink?"

Another jolt, so sharp it almost hurts.

"Want me to fill ya with my come? Is tha' it?" His husky voice dripping with desire. With want.

yes. yesyesyessss—

"Tell me you want me. Fuck, tell me you want me to come in you." The words fall from your spit-slick lips like a faucet.

"Come in me, oh my god, come in me. Fill my pussy up."

His thrusts lose some of their rhythm, but still not sloppy enough like when he's on the very brink.

Ghost's jaw in clenched, as if digging his heels in to hold off his climax. Well, that's simply unacceptable.

Your fingers tangle into his hair, giving him a slight tug to have his lips hover over yours.

"I want you come in me, Simon."

The change is instantaneous. His eyes widen a fraction before stealing your very breath with a searing kiss and fucks you. He puts his weight behind each snap of his hips. The tip of his cock pressing into the plug of your womb, making your eyes prickle with tears.

It's too much, he's too much, you think you've gone and bitten off more than you can chew with him when he mercifully stills with a groan you swallow— cock twitching as it pains your insides white.

He breaks away, gasping for air, sweat that beaded on his forehead dripping onto your heated skin.

Cut.

DaVinci and his muse.

Later, when he threads his fingers into your damp hair, you ask him why he doesn't record with others.

"'Cause I don't want to."

Oh?

"Besides, you and I have fantastic chemistry, dont'cha think?" He tugs on a lock of hair. "The fans love seeing us together, just as much as I love seeing my cock disappear into your sweet pussy."

He chuckles when he takes in your flustered expression. "Don't ask questions you aren't prepared to hear, then."

#call of duty #simon ghost riley #simon ghost riley x reader #cod mwii #cod mw2 #simon riley x reader #simon ghost riley smut #simon ghost riley x you #ghost smut #simon ghost riley x f reader #simon riley x you #ghost x reader

[apollo-cackling]

yk a while ago I read a few soulmate au fics bc I was procrastinating bored and I like what the author usually writes and. mn idk it may just be downstream of the author mainly writing oneshots but I don't get the appeal lol. in every one I've read the soulmate bond overshadows and somewhat supersedes the characters' (very compelling!) dynamic so it's like. idk what's the point then lol at that point it's different characters wearing the orig's nametags

#my rambles #there were some AUs that underline the dynamic in a neat way but idk even then it's. eh I don't see the appeal #or like catradora aus I've read before where they've just met at the beginning of the fic #'ve only read one that I liked and jury's still out on whether I like it as catradora fic #at minimum it preserves another pretty core part of their dynamic (two people whose trauma/hangups interface badly) #and does carry through something kind of compelling (a sort of what if scenario about if *gestures at the. everything* #happened at the later stages of the two's lives) #+ it was very funny and got the characters on a voice level if nothing nothing else #and managed some pretty good tension #but I digress point more being idk I see some aus/au premises that just makes me think what's left of the original characters anymore lol #what's left of say catradora's dynamic if you take away the complicated history and everything stemming from that