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welcometogrouchland · 2 years

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[ID: four page comic of the owl house. Page 1: Eda walks past Luz, Gus and Willow, who're sat on the floor of the owl house around a box labeled "Eda's Music". Eda notices them and peeks around the corner asking "uh, hey kid- whatcha doin?". Luz says "oh hey Eda!".

Page 2: Luz says "we were just going through all your old human music!" While holding a CD case. She continues "I've been getting nostalgic listening to some old latin pop CDs, like what my mom used to play around the house! (You have a surprising amount of merengue music btw)". Gus sheds a single tear and says "I've sampled human music before but, wow, just, wow! The technique...the inspiration...Carly Rae Jepsen is a genius". Willow looks to the side and says "and I've been listening to your old breakup mixtapes!".

Page 3: Eda looks at her blankly before saying "my what?". Willow says- "your breakup music! There's a whole box of it. I'm pretty over it now but back in the day...when Amity stopped hanging out with me...it hit me hard. I kinda had a phase of only listening to angsty breakup songs for like...a month. Maybe more. It's kinda sad in retrospect".

In the background we can see a flashback of young willow sobbing in bed while summoning vines to cover photos of her and Amity on her wall. Willow continues "things are a lot better now don't get me wrong...but I still listen to that playlist every once in a while when I need a release". Eda contemplates, then grimaces, remembering breakup with Raine (who's pictured saying "it's over, eda").

Page 4: Eda looks at Willow. She eventually says "wanna trade?" And Willow looks up. Final panel shows Luz standing in the doorway concerned as she looks at Willow and Eda. willow is kneeling in front of a casette player and headphones with a shadowy expression and Eda is in the family guy death post with a phone and headphone wire next to her. Both have annotations- Willow's says "got One of Us by ABBA" and Eda's is "got Nightshift by Lucy Dacus". Luz says "you guys good?". End ID]

*slides my Eda and Willow trade angsty breakup songs on s2A hc across the table*

#the owl house #willow park #eda clawthorne #luz noceda #gus porter #(i know he's essentially a cameo in this but he has a speaking role at least i feel justified tagging him)#raeda #not really intended as amillow? more abt the experience of taking a friendship breakup hard but lacking the language to describe it #but can be interpreted as amillow if you want #anyway. every stage of this comic kicked my ass and tbh it's not my favorite but it got me drawing again and that's good #i still think the idea is funny part of me is just like. actually we can do better lets take it from the top #which is deranged bc I've already spent like 2-ish weeks on this i am not looking at this for another second #do i think enjoying angsty breakup music is wholly in character for willow? im not sure. she doesn't like dwelling on the negative #BUT like. i think you can make the argument she'd enjoy it in private. she represses a lot of feelings she needs some kind of outlet #and this is s2A in my mind (post eclipse lake where willow and Gus want to check out more human music)#so i feel like I can justify her talking about her angsty guilty pleasure to eda #also like. bby willow is DEVASTATED in the understanding willow flashbacks. maybe older willow tries to ignore things #but for at least a few months it was probably a big struggle for her coming to terms w/ why amity stopped hanging out w/ her #anyway i don't want to look at this anymore. have at thee!#i have 2 (two) more comics thumbnailed and one of them is shorter/funnier but the other one is a hc I really like #so currently a toss up between which one gets done next #it's half past midnight and i don't wanna stay awake until 2 am again so I'll probably just leave this lurk for a bit and then sleep #i hate the way this is formatted (the images are SO SMALL ON MOBILE) but i don't want this post to be more vertical than it is

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yooniesim · 10 months

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the people trying to gatekeep kpop from black people really don't know where kpop even comes from and it shows

#ceci speaks #text #nonsims #negative #delete later #i swear theres some surface level thinkers on this site fr #yall asses ever heard of a little thing called motown or nah #the musical influence and the trainee system all comes from the work of black ppl #not to mention all the black writers and producers that make kpop songs #kpop is multicultural at its core ok #and yall saying only Koreans can enjoy it is just ur own racism coming to light #just say you dont want black ppl in your spaces and go #also you can just dislike ppl without making up arbitrary reasons why its 'okay' to #everyone you disagree with doesnt have to be problematic in some manner for you to justify it #so stop making up shit and demonizing ppls interests and idk touch grass #ya freaks #sorry im used to it with me but seeing it happen to other blk ppl burns me up #leave them alone u corny unwashed basement dwelling weirdos

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prisonpodcast · 5 months

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Oh and since I’m already talking about 2021 fans it’s such revisionist history that the entirety of dsmptwt pretends that it was only smiletwt that would shit on cc!techno like don’t get me wrong smiletwt’s switch up pisses me off too but it was definitely every corner of dsmptwt doing it i remember 😭 most of the subtwts (aside from emeraldtwt) switched up on him like y’all trying to turn that whole hate campaign into an “evil dream stan” thing is the craziest deflection of guilt I’ve ever seen in my life

#I don’t think eveyone particpated in it but I definitely think some people felt guilt for not saying anything when it happened #and since they are not able to make amends anymore they feel guilty and want someone else to blame #and who’s a better scapegoat than Dream stans #hopefully this is my last post dwelling on the past for the day #but I’m like a drolo for techno I wont get over this shit ever #i hope you guys understand #also I’m on my period so this is period induced haterisms which is why it’s leaving my drafts #negativity #.___.

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kikizoshi · 1 year

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Godos Fluff Headcanons I Absolutely Adore

(...and some general lifestyle headcanons thrown in)

-Nikolai likes to cover Fyodor with his cloaks/capes sometimes when they hug (like in those long, rocking hugs). It gives him a feeling of comfort, like Fyodor's safe and nothing can hurt him. Fyodor likes it too; to him it feels like an extra layer of endearment and makes him feel safe, secure and loved (plus it's warm).

-Nikolai is one of the few people Fyodor trusts entirely with his ushanka. This isn't a small thing--he usually doesn't even like to let people touch it, but he even trusts Nikolai to spot clean it for him.

-Nikolai absolutely loves to take care of Fyodor, which works well, because Fyodor likes being taken care of. This extends to cooking (where Nikolai will often ask Fyodor to pick one new dish to try to go with whatever staple meal Nikolai's making that week), making him tea most days and keeping the berry preserves stocked up, and nursing Fyodor when he's sick.

Nikolai doesn't enjoy trying to get Fyodor to remember to eat, or sleep, or shower, sometimes, but he takes Fyodor's health even more seriously than his own most of the time, and so is usually trying out some new method to achieve at least one of these things.

-Nikolai worked as a stage actor before he took up terrorism, and practiced a lot at home. Fyodor would often watch his practicing, occasionally give feedback, and they might talk a bit about the story afterwards. This was a common before-dinner activity for them, which was mostly for fun, but also helped Fyodor get out of his work headspace and into his home headspace, and of course Fyodor's psychology-based feedback often helped Nikolai with his nuances in his delivery.

-Dinner is a very important together time for them. Both make a point of having dinner together as often as possible, so that they're sure to have time together to talk. Though late-night conversations are also common with them, there's always a chance of Fyodor being sucked back into work or Nikolai needing extra time to work something out/rehearsals or shows taking place at night, so they make dinner the designated time together. Also, since their dinner is usually a dish Nikolai made, Nikolai likes to share the food with Fyodor, and Fyodor likes to appreciate the shared food with Nikolai.

-Depending on how late Nikolai's shows ran while he was in a play and what came after, they may have dinner together as late as 1 or 2 in the morning, but still, they always ate together (Fyodor was almost never ready to go to sleep by then anyway, which I'm sure helped, but the idea that he shared his usually alone-time with Nikolai is sweet to me).

-Regarding the dishes: generally the system is that Nikolai cooks and Fyodor cleans. The everyday dishes are usually washed by Fyodor, since he goes to sleep much later than Nikolai and often has several cups of tea and snacks long after Nikolai's gone to bed. Nikolai puts away the clean dishes in the morning, long before Fyodor wakes up.

-Regarding their sleep schedules: Nikolai (according to himself) tends to find his moods and general thought process annoyingly mercurial if he ends up more than an hour off his sleep cycle, and so is fairly regular with going to sleep around 23-24 and getting up around 6-7 (giving up his precious productive night hours was hard on him--the time past 1-ish when your brain lets you be creative--but he soon learned to replace them with alcohol). This of course can be completely thrown out of balance when he has rehearsals/shows, but the rest of the year, he sticks to it religiously.

Fyodor has no such trouble with moods and, like Nikolai, finds his best hours to be in the early morning. So, he generally goes to bed around 3-5 and wakes up at 11. Unlike Nikolai--whose body, like a clock, always keeps him asleep for exactly eight hours--Fyodor relies on alarms and always gets up at 11, unless he has somewhere to be earlier. He doesn't generally go to bed earlier though, so he just tends to be (more) tired on those days.

-Fyodor's usually tired (either from his sleep schedule, physical ailments, or both), and his energy levels tend to range from moderate to low. At first this irritated Nikolai for a bit, I think, but he eventually came to learn what Fyodor's low-energy emotes meant (which can look kind of funny when Nikolai reacts to an emotion that seemingly isn't being expressed).

-Nikolai loves swing dancing, but Fyodor doesn't usually have the stamina for it. So instead, when the dancing itch arrives, they waltz or do some slower dance with a bit of verve. Dancing's difficult in the narrow living room, but they manage (and, when Nikolai's brother and sister-in-law come over, he swing dances with them, which Fyodor enjoys watching).

-There's a park a few roads down from where they live, and they often in the late spring and early summer enjoy playing violin and cello together out in the greenery. Nikolai especially loves when the birds twitter while they're playing.

-Speaking of birds, Nikolai also loves going out with Fyodor and pigeon-spotting. Sometimes he'll take a bag of breadcrumbs to sprinkle for the birds they come by. He does this alone too, but enjoys sharing this activity with Fyodor.

-Nikolai also, when he has more free time, enjoys bird-watching. He keeps a journal of the different birds he sees, how many, etc. When he gets up at about 6, they're really active, and sometimes he'll luxuriate in an hour of peaceful bird-watching and documentation from the kitchen window. (Unfortunately, the window view is onto the street, so he doesn't see as many as he would in a park or garden, but he still sees enough to be somewhat satisfied.)

Fyodor isn't very interested in birds in and of themselves, but he loves listening to Nikolai's enthusiasm, love for and musings about the little creatures, and so will often ask about Nikolai's recent sightings when he knows Nikolai's been bird-watching.

-Fyodor loves to use terms of endearment. 'My Dove' and 'Dear' are his favourites outside of 'Kolya' (and its variants). Nikolai likes to take inspiration from the moment to make pet names, so may say something like 'My Little Red-Nose' (when Fyodor's sick) or 'Drowned Rat' (when Fyodor's wet and upset about it) (I imagine most of them would be animal or food related, but my imagination has a rough time keeping up with Nikolai's), as well as 'Fedya' (and its variants). He might also call Fyodor 'Fedka' if he's feeling derisive enough, though I can't imagine Fyodor would ever call Nikolai 'Kolka'.

-One thing Nikolai loves about Fyodor is that, when Nikolai gets into one of his black moods, where he can't seem to enjoy or appreciate anything, and, in general, just wants to sink into nothingness, Fyodor understands and doesn't judge him, nor expect more. Fyodor will usually take up the cooking (which... his food is usually bland and tasteless, but neither care all that much in those times), keeps the lights dimmer/curtains drawn, and most of all lets Nikolai come to him.

He also doesn't complain about lack of hugs, though they're very important to him. Nikolai finds hugs disturbing in a black mood, because he can't feel anything from them, and so they just distress him. It is harder on Fyodor than I think he usually admits to himself though, not being able to hug or pet or really comfort at all his friend who's in so much pain.

-Fyodor doesn't like being around drunk people, but Nikolai often relies on alcohol to get him into the right headspace to work. To compromise, Nikolai tries not to get more than tipsy around Fyodor, generally going for lightly buzzed, and usually does it while Fyodor's working. (Though this does go out the window sometimes if Nikolai wants badly enough to numb his emotions.)

-Fyodor gets miserably sick relatively frequently (~3-4 times a year), often with the changing of the seasons, which usually knocks him out for a solid two weeks. Nikolai hovers and cares for him with all the terrified devotion of a mother whose baby suffers from scarlet fever. The sheer nervous energy emitted from Nikolai tends to overwhelm and tire Fyodor out, but he still finds Nikolai being there to take care of and be with him to be more comforting than if he was alone (him having to comfort Nikolai tires him out, but also helps him feel more at peace). (Occasionally, maybe a little less than once a year, Fyodor will have a seizure bad enough to keep him in bed for a few days, and the dynamic's about the same as when he's sick.)

-A few times, Nikolai kept vigil over Fyodor's sick body (the first time being after a particularly bad seizure left Fyodor bedridden for five days, a few months into their friendship). It… Well, let's just say it never ended well for Nikolai. Fyodor eventually managed to calm Nikolai down enough about his frailty to get him to compromise on sleeping close together (though Fyodor first tried sending Nikolai away, Nikolai worked himself into an even bigger panic when he couldn't see how Fyodor was doing).

-Nikolai is absolutely terrified of doctors. He's also a borderline hypochondriac. Thankfully, Nikolai's aggressively healthy (except for some minor stomach issues and some major mental issues), so this isn't often a problem. However, the few times it was, and Fyodor genuinely needed Nikolai to go to a doctor, it always took a very long and drawn-out discussion to convince Nikolai that the doctors weren't going to torture him to death (Fyodor never learned what exactly Nikolai was afraid of, but it seemed something along the lines of what you'd expect from a BCE Chinese torture chamber, or Yosano's clinic).

-Needless to say, Fyodor's spent many a night listening to Nikolai's fears and explaining why they're likely not one of The Horrors. He might have gotten tired of it, except Nikolai's fears were usually so creative and obscure that Fyodor actually often found them fascinating.

#I don't headcanon their relationship as all sunshine and roses or anything #like any couple they have positives and negatives #but I enjoy dwelling on the positives for a while #especially as I've been working on the negatives for a long time #also: my characterisation of them is always a bit of a game of 'spot the author/literature reference'#so if you see something that seems to be reffering to Dostoyevsky or Gogol or either of their works #but it's obscure enough that you think it's probably a coincidence #just know that it probably isn't :)#an alternate title could probably be: 'Character Notes I'm Physically Incapable of Combining into an Actual Story'#BSD #BSD Fyodor #BSD Nikolai #Godos #Godost #Fyolai #Fyogol #BSD Fyodor Dostoyevsky #BSD Fyodor Dostoevsky #BSD Dostoyevsky Fyodor #BSD Dostoevsky Fyodor #BSD Dostoyevsky #BSD Dostoevsky #BSD Gogol #BSD Nikolai Gogol #BSD Gogol Nikolai #Nikolai x Fyodor #Fyodor x Nikolai

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strawbebyjam · 4 months

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luv mascara so much but hate the trail she leaves

#i looked sooooo cute the other day and the mascara i used like. i love her we love her. but my eyes still look dark under girl it’s been #3 days 😭😭😭#tbf i’ve beeb sleeping kinda funky but still!!!!! she should be kinder about it i think #friend sent me a message saying she wantedto ask abt something and then didnt say what she needed to ask for like two hours and still hasnt #so im jittery and gonna end up oversharing on here but its better than being jittery and holding overthoughts and nowhere to put them prob #also ive been violently flipflopping between feeling sooo pretty sooo beautiful sooo everyone is so beautiful and like. abyssal dread.#brain wheres the christmas cheer …#cooked dinner for everyone today and i couldnt do every part bc i felt sick n it wasnt perfect n im gonna be dwelling on it til i pass out #in any case jitters. jittery. not going away #i feel like maybe a warm bath could help but also my hairs so long now that itd end up staying wet for long n then it might turn into #shivery jitters and then thats just insurmountable yk. so. but #in any case. i wish i could clean my room properly feel like id be less jittery n also i miss my cousins n nieces n family LMFADHDJDJD #mano.mindtalk #neg

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makowo · 1 year

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you ar ethe only correct person about despair makoto. im not even in the fandom anymore and despair/dr3 makoto means so so much to me. i want to hear your thoughts on him

Despair is pretty focused on personal overindulgence, yeah? Like it's about a person reaching their breaking point and their emotions overflowing into a state of euphoria when they make things worse for themselves and others, when they're denying the kindness they know they can offer, solely bcs they believe it's ultimately futile. Succumbing to the fact that nothing will get better, and finding their own joy in that endless darkness. It's all about selfishness, all about taking without giving back.

Makoto, inversely, is very set upon giving without taking. He always wants to find a way to help people, to reach a conclusion that makes everyone happy. He'll deny his own tendencies towards violence and crush any thought of being what he views as "selfish" (i.e, getting angry or grieving or letting himself dwell on awful things). He's sure that there's an innate goodness of every person, and that absolutely nothing should end in the suffering of another.

So, in the case where he turns to despair, I'm into the idea that he'd simply want to deny that aspect of himself. Stop being that kind, good person that can bring everyone together, pull the cork off the bottle of emotions he's been building up for years, and take with no thought behind it. It was his job to unravel the tangled messes of people's emotions and mental states, to try and quell the blossoming despair others would feel.

Perhaps, for once he just wants to stop and let others do that thinking for him, just for the chance to feel something other than the positivity he's always been expected to show.

#makotalk #localvoidcat #danganronpa #makoto naegi #i dont want makoto to just be the mastermind sort that'll be doing everything behind the scenes i want him to be a little FREAK #tbh it's not that deep. i just think that a makoto that decides to tear apart FF from the inside out is hot BUT.#a makoto that is so driven by the negativity that's been dwelling in him for years that he seems hardly human is also hot. <3

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heartbeetz · 6 months

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Thanks to the couple folks who sent asks. Things have mostly calmed down for now, but it's 2am and I'm fucking Exhausted, so I'll answer them tomorrow. I did like reading them though (HUGELY appreciated) and I think it rules that all of you mentioned Anton. My guy. My brand now. 👍👍👍

#things are still iffy but if we simply avoid talking about it then we can both pretend things are normal #it was Bad several times after the initial Bad. and it could be Bad again at the drop of a hat.#so I'm still constantly on edge #but also there's friendliness and playfulness mixed in during lulls which is good but kinda stressful #bc idk how long any of it will last #anyway I don't wanna dwell in it. I need sleep #send more asks if you want. or don't.#I still have ones to answer and I don't wanna involve strangers on the internet in my fucked up personal life #(<- not meant to sound neg or guilt-trippy. just true lol. PLEASE don't worry about my stuff adjkfsfj)#goodnight. love u all

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skeblinn · 1 year

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Working through dialogue and Im trying to stick as close to the games/‘mandates’ as much as possible—and to be honest? While im someone who loves speculation and character exploration i like having the boundaries those two things provide! It makes me think harder about if something feels right to the character or not. Like, would sonic really say this? Or is that just what -i- would like him to say in the situation? In my opinion i feel like it really makes me really narrow down a bunch of fluff and get to the core of how these characters act.

Also, sometimes less is more with dialogue! A glance can say a thousand words.

#im prolly taking the most liberties with elise since i feel she could use some more fleshing out #but im also trying to keep her character consistent to canon too! Shes someone who doesnt like dwelling on negative emotions—#and feels bad when she does. shes very ‘conceal dont feel’ with her ‘bad’ emotions #skebbscreech

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fairymint · 7 months

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I'm not sure that I have one in specific these days, a pet peeve.

But I have been stuck in awkward situations where a person assumed that I was mutuals with somebody that I'm not; it's a no-fault situation;;; I can't blame them for assuming, as it's somebody with the same tastes as mine! In some previous cases, I've interacted ooc but not IC. But sometimes I simply can't comment on or participate in some plots because they're not mine to have, and I've had to let them down gently. (mildly related, dash commentaries. I do try to find the 'source' so I know that my involvement is as appropriate as possible!)

There's a lot of mutuals I have that one may not know about as well! So I do think it's polite to ask, if you haven't seen them interact directly! My scope of vision is wide when I'm active, so I often know what's up, but I can't always talk to the peeps around me to the same extent, haha.

#ask.#munday.#also in the past like. especially pre-shrooms/npd i. have had very big squishes so I'd of course interact a lil with said blog!#like oh yeah i love em! doesn't quite mean i know em tho. or especially are close....#i have been taking more steps as of late not to 'overinvest' for my mental health but. i just wanna be niceys.#any number of things such as anxiety or vibes can cage a person's like...potential outreach too so!! these things happen #it's the Situation and not the ppl involved. you feel me? NoAssholesHere vibe #course also my investigative skills are deep and can be immaculate as an aside. got a habit of digging around content for enrichment #doing so without anxiety is the key for me i think. so long as I'm not dwelling on negative feelings.#......dwelling.....oh god dammit sea of stars-

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piracytheorist · 2 years

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One day I will write a more detailed post about everything that I disliked about the path they chose in Last Evolution Kizuna, but I was thinking today of how they basically wrote themselves into a dead end but expect us to take a positive outcome out of it.

Like, the ending is very bitter with one pinch of sweet. It is meant to make us sad, and just a little hopeful that they still keep the 02 ending canon so we can assume that eventually all Chosen Children (or Adults) reconnect with their Digimon partners.

But I’m thinking, even if you want to ignore tri. (which to me it felt like they were deliberately ignoring everything about it with the exclusion of one (1) mention of Meiko and Meicoomon) where the whole plot happens because a former Chosen Child wanted to reconnect with her Digimon, the same thing happens in Kizuna. Sure the separation of Taichi and Yamato from Agumon and Gabumon was “fated” but Menoa’s actions were what kicked the plot forward.

And so, with what Kizuna sets up, more and more Chosen Children will be separated from their Digimon partners until something happens off-screen and they reach the 02 ending (which to me, doing that off-screen is a huge cop-out but that’s a point for another post plus we’ve still got the upcoming 02 movie to watch so). So I’m asking, how are we supposed to think that absolutely none of those people will go to such extremes like Menoa did? Yeah, maybe we don’t want to assume that of the beloved twelve children from Adventure and 02, but there’s way more Chosen people out there... so are we supposed to assume things go well afterwards?

If anything, in Kizuna, only Taichi and Yamato (because of course only those two) were directly impacted by Menoa’s actions; as a proof, when Mimi and Palmon wake up from their coma, they both consider everything a dream, so I can’t be convinced anyone other than Taichi and Yamato would fully understand the consequences of going too far to be reconnected with your Digimon partner (again, tri. notwithstanding). It’s also only the original eight that are even brought up with the idea of moving forward; none of the other Chosen that were taken by Eosmon are shown to struggle with the concept, they’re just brought in the Neverland and then wake up safe in their hospital beds. Did they even understand what went on, why Eosmon was created, why she fell and why they woke up again? Will they understand what it means when the countdown ring appears on their Digivices? Will they expect and (reluctantly) accept it when their time runs out like Taichi and Yamato did?

So, with the way the topic is written and explored in the film, it doesn’t become an object lesson to that many people, so it’s bound to happen again. There’s nothing in the film to disprove this, and even if we assume that Koushiro would issue a warning among the Chosen Children network about what’s fated to happen (which again, is work we’d do off-screen in order to make the film make sense), I cannot safely assume at least one of them wouldn’t go as far to try to stop it or undo it as Menoa did.

It’s not just a mostly bitter with a bit of sweet ending the film gives. It’s so sloppy that upon closer inspection it falls apart and only fates itself to be repeated.

#Digimon #the more I think about this film the more problems I find about it #LEMME AT IT LEMME AT IT #in general I try not to dwell on the negatives #and this is more of a criticism on the writing choices than negativity on itself #and probably direct disagreement with the path they chose #the fact that one of the original creators left from the production of the film also encourages me even more to disagree with their choices #I've got my own headcanons about why the separation happened thank you very much #but I wanted it out there even if I feel it won't be as widely accepted #because I see a lot of people like it #which is okay good for you #but I'm putting it out there in case someone else agrees #and comes right into my inbox to egg me on to RIP IT TO SHREDS #Digimon Adventure: Last Evolution Kizuna

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