#but I updated my block list so I should be fine now

[amazinglyspicy]

PIRATE SAFELY!! But pirate ;)

Hello! I’ve gotten a flood of new followers thanks to an addition I made about NOT torrenting from the Pirate Bay, so I want to address it better.

If you’ve come to check my blog for more piracy resources, advice, guides, etc, then check out some of the links in this pinned!

First and Foremost, Do not do Anything without an adblocker. Ublock Origin is the best.

Resources/Wikis: 🌟Top recommendation is the Free Media Heck Yeah Wiki, frequently updated, maintained, and transparent, as well as has a welcoming community behind it if you have questions. The rest are for redundancy's sake and for anything not found in FMHY, though most Wikis on this topic tend to repeat the same info. 🌟

VPN Comparison Chart - General Rule of Thumb, DO NOT use any VPN recommended by Youtubers, influencers, or any other shill with a profit motive. Large marketing budget does not equal good privacy practices. Do your own research.

-Since both Mullvad VPN and IVPN are planned to now suspend port forwarding support, the next best choices for torrenting though a VPN seem to be AirVPN and ProtonVPN.

HOWEVER, AirVPN has no evidence of a no logging policy (aka there’s a chance they keep records of what you do on their service) and ProtonVPN has no method of anonymously signing up and use a subscription model instead of a preferable pay-as-you-go model. So take that as you will.

(NOTE: You do not need to pay for a VPN if you are only directly downloading from a server or streaming off of websites! But it’s probably a good idea for privacy reasons anyways.)

A very good Comprehensive Torrenting Guide! -eye strain warning

And another one!

-If you torrent you need a VPN depending on how strict your government is on copyright laws. This works on a case by case basis, so I recommend looking up your own country's laws on the matter. Generally speaking, use a VPN to torrent if your country falls under The 14 Eyes Surveillance Alliance. More info on what that is Here.

A Note about Antivirus: - If you're using trusted websites, and not clicking on any ad links/fake download ads (Should be blocked by ublock), then you don't necessarily need any antivirus. Common Sense and Windows Defender should be enough to get you by. If you would like to be certain on what you are downloading is legitimate, then run your file through a virus scanner like VirusTotal. Keep in mind that when scanning cracked software some scans may flag “false positives” as the injectors used to crack the software look like malware to these scanners. Once again, the best way to avoid malware is to use trusted sites listed here and use an adblocker at all times.

If you have any questions on anything posted, need help finding things, or just need some clarification on any terms used, shoot me an ask or message! I've got a few years experience with not paying for anything I want, and LOVE to help others with this kind of stuff. But if you don't trust me, since I am a random stranger on the internet, that's fine (I wont be offended promise)! Do your own research!

INFORMATION SHOULD BE FREE!

Last updated: February 16th 2024

#piracy #torrenting #vpn #pirating #media preservation #warez

[qsmp-a1-updates]

Task Explanation

Alright, so now that the tasks are starting, I want to give a better in-depth explanation on how they work.

Doing a task means writing or drawing something about A1 doing one of the official QSMP tasks for that day or a recent day, then tagging it with "#qsmp a1 tasks" and "#a1 adoption project" so that they will be easy for me to find, along with being easy to block if anyone wants to get this project off their dashboard. Anything related to the A1 adoption project, task or not, should preferably be tagged with "#a1 adoption project".

A1 only needs three checkmarks every week, and a checkmark is completed by there being at least one task done by anyone during that day. Only one task is needed (not the whole list) for a day, and only three days are needed.

This is because I want this to be a low-stress project. I don't want it to be difficult to keep A1 alive, especially if community interest fades as time goes on. One or two people could reasonably keep A1's tasks going if it got to that point.

However, just because only one task is required to get a checkmark for that day, doesn't mean you shouldn't post your task picture or story if someone else has already done one for that day, or if they already have all three checkmarks! I will be doing my best to keep a tally of how many tasks A1 got every day (each day being marked as in between last task update and the current one) just for fun, along with all task posts being reblogged here. A1 likes hanging out and doing tasks with their family!

Additionally, you do not have to only do the tasks for the current day. I know it often takes a little while to draw or write, and I don't want to rush people, so tasks from any relatively-recent day will be fine as well. The task will be counted for whatever day you posted it, not the day that the task was from.

If you have any more questions, please ask, and I may update this post if there are any common confusions!

#qsmp #egg a1 #not a task #a1 adoption project #project commentary #updates account talking

[vale-ttxs2]

HAHAH!!! ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!! 🥹

(Some incorrect quotes from my Ao3)

HEATHERS

H McNamara: Oh my god, the stove is on fire! What should we do?! H Chandler: Okay, no worries, we just need an adult. H McNamara: But WE are adults. H Chandler: WE NEED AN ADULTIER ADULT!! WHERE'S VERONICA?!?!

~~~~

Veronica: What is the one thing I told you not to do? H Chandler: Burn the house down. Veronica: And what did you do? H Chandler : I made dinner. Veronica: H Chandler: Veronica: H Chandler: And burnt the house down.

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Veronica : *watching the squad's shenanigans with concern* Do you feel like this has gotten out of hand? Jason : I don't know. Feels normal enough for a group that's on 911's blocked callers list.

~~~

SIX

Anne Boleyn : If I make you breakfast in bed, a simple "thank you" is all I need. Anne Boleyn : Not all this "how did you get into my house" business.

~~~~

Anna of Cleves : It’s not gonna work, I’m not a snitch. Cop: Fine, let's try something else. Tag a friend you recently committed a crime with. Anna of Cleves : Lmao, @Anne Boleyn .

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Catherine Aragon: What do you want for breakfast, Anne? Anne Boleyn: Gay Cheerios. Catherine Aragon: I TOLD YOU TO STOP CALLING FRUIT LOOPS THAT!!

~~~

BEETLEJUICE

Lydia: Drink your school, stay in drugs, and get 8 hours of drugs.

~~~~ Beetlejuice: So, I heard you like bad girls… I time travel in Animal Crossing.

~~~~

Beetlejuice: Are you an F5 key? Because that ass is refreshing. Adam: Are you a software update? because not right now.

#heather chandler #veronica sawyer #heathers the musical #heather mcnamara #heather duke #jason dean #catherine of aragon #anne boleyn #anna of cleves #beetlejuice #lydia deetz #adam maitland #incorrect quotes #incorrect heathers quotes #my birthday

[scribetry]

⇆ read through this post in its entirety to gain an understanding of my interaction rules and boundaries surrounding interacting. i will know if you have not read this, so please like after reading ↓

〖 𖤐 〗 GUIDANCE FOR MINORS

¹you may : ¹¹interact with me, interact with my works, interact with my blog, ¹²ask to become mutuals, give me friendly nicknames; i.e. pookie / pooks, bro, man, dude (ask through my inbox if you are unsure of other nicknames not mentioned here & i will happily reply to it in private; this will be updated with nicknames you can say when i do receive questions)

⁶you may not : ²flirt with me romantically or platonically or sexually, ask about my private or personal life (unless i have brought it up to you first), ⁴discuss adult topics with me (including fiction and reality; this includes making sexual & inappropriate jokes), ³interact with me if you consume / create or support other minors writing dark content or smut, ⁵ask for advice with your romantic or sexual relationships (asking for advice with familial relationships are fine; i.e. family or friends)

i am not opposed to minors following or interacting with me, as this is an entirely safe for work blog and i enjoy interacting with all age groups, but there are boundaries which should never be crossed between an adult and a minor. this is for my own comfort and for your safety, so please respect this. if you have ignored my requests, you will be blocked from interacting with me and my blogs contents - i do not allow "second chances" nor do i soft block over hard blocking; it is permanent. your first chance starts here with reading my guidelines.

〖 𖤐 〗 GUIDANCE FOR MUTUALS

you may : wish to do anything listed in ¹, ⁸ask for my discord or other social media, ask for favours (that are appropriate and within my capabilities), ⁹invite me to groups / events / collabs or recommend me to your mutuals, ¹⁰ask for selfship exchange; i.e. i will make you selfship art/writing in exchange for you making me some selfship art/writing.

⁷you may not : interact with me if you do ³, only mutuals over 18 are allow to do ⁴ & ⁵, mutuals over 18 are only allowed to platonically flirt with me (²), selfship our original characters together, selfship ourselves together; i.e. i do not allow ship names between me and mutuals and i do not allow roleplaying of any kind.

this covers everything for the guidance for mutuals section, and it may still be updated in the future. if you are confused about anything, feel free to shoot me a dm instead and i will happily answer any questions you have!

〖 𖤐 〗 GUIDANCE FOR FOLLOWERS

you may : do ¹¹ & ¹²

¹³you may not : recommend me or my writing outside of the tumblr platform, do anything listed in ⁶ & ⁷, ask for ⁸ & ⁹ & ¹⁰

〖 𖤐 〗 GUIDANCE FOR ANONS

you may : ask to become an emoji anon!, do ¹¹ & ¹²

you may not : do anything listed in ¹³, send hate mail of any kind, send me writing requests on anon.

i hope the number referencing did not confuse anyone; if you are still unsure after reading through this entire section, please inquire me through my inbox (or dms, for mutuals).

please follow all basic do not interact criteria, as most should be common sense by now - do not be a bigot and do not start unnecessary drama on my blog.

anyone is free to use this as a template to follow along with on your own blog.

if you have made it this far, you can find my writing down below through the copyright notice.

© SCRIBETRY 2024

#navigation.

[irbcallmefynn]

Hit my posting limit so I shall use this to update my pinned!

Hi, I'm Fynn! Your local Bigender probably-Autistic furry artist! I'm 19 as of writing this, so Expect me to be somewhat adult from time to time. I will do my best to tag appropriately!

I'm a bit of a He/She, you see. A bit of a boygirl, some may say <3

I'm also Aegosexual! That means I do experience sexual attraction (I'm actually an absolute freak) but I genuinely can't stand actual sex acts. I can't picture myself having any, I don't like seeing it, It's just gross to me!

I think the U.S. Government is stinky and dumb and old and broken and everything else, so I may complain about that on here sometimes. Be warned!

I have three OCs currently! Fynn, my fursona, is a He/Him half demon wolf with no mouth. Nauno is a He/They Avali who is a very extremely gay kleptomaniac. Euphi is a She/Heart Protogen who's just kinda really mysterious. They are all in a polyamorous relationship and love each other (even if Fynn doesn't really get what love is)!

Here are some tags!

"#fynn art": My Art Tag! Find all of my very mid drawings here! "#oc lore": I'll use this whenever I'm discussing the lore of my OCs! "#art rb": I use this whenever I reblog art! Even if it's mine. Also note that if I make a weird noise in a tag after it the art probably gave me gender envy. "#bedposting": I try to do one of these every night! It's just whatever I thought of before bed! Could be eepy related, or brushing teeth related, or horny (Be warned).

I'm no good at drawing any of it myself, but I am very fond of Transfur, Hypnosis, Plushification, Pooltoy, all that jazz. I may reblog that sort of stuff on here sometimes. I will tag it. It's mainly the appeal of becoming something different for me, so if I do reblog any of that, that would be the focus.

DNI List (non-comprehensive):

Zoos, Pedos/Maps/whatever, TERFS, Nazis, Queerphobes (of any type at all!), Antifurs, Racists, Sexists. Basically if you're on the DNI list of the average furry artist you're almost certainly on mine. So go fuck yourself with a rusty screwdriver.

If you're a minor you technically can interact, but you need to be REALLY REALLY CAREFUL. You'll want to make sure you have NSFW/NSFT tags blocked (and anything like that). Like I said, I tag things to the best of my ability, so if you have the right things blocked, you should be fine. But be warned 'cause I might slip up at some point!

I'm still learning about myself. I have a lot of questions that I never asked myself when I was younger, and am trying to answer them now. Bear with me if I go on weird emotional rants from time to time.

Also remember that if you follow me, you are following ALL of me. Don't follow me if it's just one thing you like.

Thanks for reading my Pinned! Have a good time, stay safe, and brush your teeth! x3

#pinned post #furry artist #probably autistic #aegosexual #bigender #im an adult #i hate the government #my ocs #my tags #tw kink #dni list #i'm still learning about me #long post #x3

[seven-circlllxs]

Laws For The Lawless {RULES}

Read these before interacting! Please know that if I feel uncomfortable with ANY interaction, I will speak ONCE with you privately, and if the behavior persists, I will block you.

1. No romantic interactions if there isn't established chemistry! I will not force ships/relationships with immediate interaction, there has to be build up and at least SOME planning between admins before initiating a relationship! To that end, romantic partnerships that form cannot be solely for writing NSFW content. Romance and sex are not interchangeable, and it makes me very uncomfortable for a writing partner to only want to write sexual content.

2. Content Warning for several triggering subjects! I can and will tag everything that is potentially triggering, but I also will not shy away from darker subject matter! This includes, but is not limited to -

Blood, gore, canon-typical violence, body horror, supernatural horror, PTSD, self-harm, disordered eating habits, description or discussion of body augmentation, death, guns/weapons, explosives, use of torture, kidnapping/hostage situations, unhealthy coping mechanisms, unhealthy relationships, physical/mental/sexual/domestic abuse, substance abuse, parental abuse/neglect, themes of religion/religious imagery, characters with past instances of CSA, characters with mental illnesses, fantasy racism, internalized homophobia, gaslighting, mentions/discussions of grooming, victim blaming, situations of noncon/dubcon*, nonconsensual recording, sex work/prostitution, and dehumanization.

* Note - I absolutely will NOT write out explicit noncon scenarios, but they may be alluded to or referenced.

I will try my best to not only tag these triggers but also discuss triggers before writing with you, but if any of these subjects make you uncomfortable, I’d advise you not to interact!

3. In addition to the potentially triggering topics that I feel comfortable writing with, there are a few topics that are very triggering to me, and should be avoided at all times. Use of these topics will result in an INSTANT BLOCK.

Discussion of parent death

Graphic/detailed depictions of hospital settings (unless previously discussed and deemed plot relevant BEFORE your reply is posted)

Use of inaccurate medical terms with regards to mental illnesses (especially the “scary” ones that people frequently misunderstand)

4. Don’t rush replies, please! I have anxiety and my writing spoons fluctuate all the time. Even if we are discussing the RP in DMs and plotting the story, I might not have the ability to put those story beats down into words that I’m proud to post. I write for fun, and it becomes immediately not fun if I’m being pressured into fast responses.

5. If you want to use an OC to RP, please tell me about them! Ideally, I would like an image of your character/their face claim and a written bio (any length is fine, can be a few sentences or a few paragraphs!), as well as their dynamic/relation to my character.

Note: Next-Gen characters or characters that are family to any of my characters need to be discussed before writing can begin to see if I can comfortably adapt to their existence!

6. My characters most likely will have some canon divergence. I will update my Headcanon Lists to make sure that all character information is up to date and accurate as more source content is released and (occasionally) reframed.

7. NO MINORS, PLEASE. I have nothing against minors using rp to develop their writing skills. Hell, that’s how I developed my writing skills when I was younger. However, this is an 18+ blog which will contain various types of adult content. RPing with minors in ANY context makes me uncomfortable, and I will confirm your age BEFORE starting to write with you. If I follow you and you are a minor, please tell me so that I may unfollow.

8. No IRL issues brought into RP, please! I use writing as a coping mechanism to escape from the harsher realities of the world right now. I do not want to talk real world politics, and I will not tolerate hate speech of any kind here.

9. I am not someone who has Exclusives! I'm happy to write with duplicates and if you do not want my muses interacting with doubles of yours please tell me via DMs; I will be more than happy to figure something out with you!

10. If you’ve read and accept these rules, please say Glowstick Juice in the notes or shoot me a DM!

#Whispers from Purgatory [OOC] #Ashes to Ashes [Ashy Speaks] #I Think I’m Supposed To Be Bodyguarded Right Now [Rules]

[pettyrevenge-base]

Finesse money from me, I'll finesse more out of you!

I was a using a dating app a while ago and was talking to a cute girl. I had noticed on her profile page she had some statements that raised my eyebrows. Basically it was her saying she was looking for a FWB and she can perform certain sexual acts with her body. Now I get that we all have wants and needs and that they should be properly expressed given the time and place. Wanting sex is fine, but most girls wouldn't put that on their profile out of fear of inviting the wrong people. And for her to do so unabashedly had my warning lights flicker dimly in my head. Still, I put it in the back corners of my mind as she hadn't really said anything weird while messaging each other.

Eventually I asked her about it, which set her off on a tangent on what she was wanting and willing to do to me in bed. Of course I was getting fed into it and ask when she wanted to meet up. She told me that she'd be down to meet up but she needed some money to pay her grandma to watch her child... weird. In the history me dating single moms, I have never heard of someone having to pay their family members, especially their grandma, to babysit for them. I chalked it up to it being some weird family dynamic or she just bugged her grandma a lot to that point. She then asked if I could give her $50 for babysitting. I told her I didn't have that on me. She lowered it to about $30, which I told her I have about $15 in the bank. She said that was fine. I sent her the money via cash app and told her where I'd be. She never responded. After an hour of waiting I saw she accepted the money, but blocked me on the dating app. I realized that the stuff she put on her profile was so she can she finesse horny desperate guys out of their money, which it did work unfortunately. Now, it was just a mere $15, but I was mad that I got finessed.

Some months later, this girl matches with me again. I wondered where she got the nerve to match with me after what she did and was about to dress her down. But during her messages I realized that she didn'teven recognize me! The months after her finessing I edited my profile pictures, updated my bio, and even changed my name to my middle name. My pictures were still me, but this time with a beard, and a lot more mature-looking. Her, however, still had the same provocative bio and pictures. About 3 weeks had passed since then. As she talked, I felt that the energy was much different and pieced together that she was actually feeling this version of me. I didn't ask about her bio this time, which caught her attention. She started saying about how guys always wanna talk about it and that she'll pretend to be interested and trick them into doing "goofy-ass shit." Idk why she thought that was something that needed to be shared with anyone, but hearing it pissed me off even more. She said she liked that I didn't focus on her bio and that I seemed more genuine. This is when I started coming up with a plan.

I started talking about how I wanted to go on a date and started listing a few nice and popular restaurants that she had told me about months prior. It lit up her spirit as she started asking when we should go out. I gave her a time, date, and place and we settled on it. Throughout the week leading up to it I would hype her up, reminding her of the date and telling her things like she doesnt have to worry about paying, she can order whatever she liked, etc etc. On the eve of our date night, I messaged her saying that she didn't need to worry about her paying, I got her. But there was a slight problem, my car battery died on the way to get gas. Asked if she could lend me $45 to buy a new battery from the auto store nearby. Told her that we were still on for the date and that I would pay her back once I got paid the following day as I was using the remaining money to take her out. Honestly, I thought it was a really stupid attempt to get her to send me money. But to my incredible astonishment, she asked me for my cashapp info! I quickly created a new cashapp account and send her the info. Moments later I got the notification that $45 got sent to my account. I thanked her and told her I'll get the battery and meet her at the restaurant. She replied that she was so excited to meet me and how much fun we were going to have and the like. As soon as she said that, I blocked her number and dating profile. Meanwhile, I haven't even left the house or put clothes on.

Hours after our supposed meet up I get a call from an unknown number. I pick up and it's her. She cussing me out crying about how I stood her up, how could I do something like this to her, blah blah blah, then I drop the line, "'How could I do this to you?' I did this to you because you've already done it to me." She was confused and got a bit quiet. I told her that I was the guy she finessed $15 from months ago, and how stupid she was for not paying attention to my pics because I didn't look all that different from before. That's when she realized who I was and started cursing me the fuck out. I ended the call telling her to let it all out, it's good for you, and that's what she gets for finessing people. Also that I was changing my number regardless if she decides to continue reaching out. I felt satisfied, and celebrated playing Fortnite. Won 3 matches straight. Sweet, sweet revenge.

Source: reddit.com/r/pettyrevenge

#pettyrevenge #lol #omg

[arecaceae175]

Can you explain the LU drama on the discord is? Because I first saw you listing off peoples names tk block then I saw another person I follow post the most HEINOUS fanart of hw link mpreg that genuinely disturbed me and I didn’t even get a good look at it and what it going onnnnn 😭

(Edit 07/09: read my reblog for updated information)

Hi! I will try to make this as comprehensive as I can.

First of all, I want to say to everyone: don’t send hate to people who are not immediately associated with this situation. I got another ask and I’m not going to share that one because it will spur more hate.

So. Here we go. @/alasse-earfalas made a post and tagged it with the main linked universe tags inviting people to join a “conservative Christian LU discord server” as she called it. That, by itself, is fine! Legend of Zelda does have religious themes so it’s reasonable and valid to want a safe space to discuss those. (I believe the post is still up, but if not I have screenshots for proof)

The issue is that one of their rules states that the server does not support the pride movement. They called the pride movement “predatory and overtly sexual.” Those things are not true. That is the ideology legislators are using to take away queer people’s rights in the United States right now. It is a serious, bigoted viewpoint of the queer community and it is false. It is just hatred toward us because we are not the same as them.

They also started that they wanted a space away from their favorite characters being “queered into oblivion.” It is up to you to choose which posts you interact with (not you, the asker of this question. I mean everyone). Religious posts and pride posts should both have a place in our community.

I made a list of people who interacted with that post and joined the server because I wanted to block them to protect my health and safety. I made the situation worse by not checking the intentions of everyone in the discord. Some people were there to snoop like I was. I take full responsibility for the hurt I caused by my actions, and once again I apologize.

However, I stand by my more recent post of people I chose to block. Bigotry of any kind will not be tolerated on my page.

HOWEVER, that includes Christianity. The server was a Christian server, but that does not mean all Christians in this fandom were involved with it. Queer Christians have been hurt most by this situation and they deserve to feel safe in the LU community, the pride community, and the Christian community.

Please do not send any hate towards other Christian’s on this app if they were not involved in the situation.

This account is a safe space. I apologize if anything I did spurred hate towards anyone involved with this situation.

I am part of the queer community and I stand by that proudly. We are not predatory, we are not overtly sexual. We just want to be proud of who we are.

I don’t know what art you’re talking about. I don’t believe it is associated with this situation at all.

I hope this doesn’t sound hostile. I am not mad at you at all, I promise! I am frustrated with the situation and that people I thought were my friends are so hatefully against my identity.

Once again, there is no space for any kind of bigotry in this fandom. As long as you don’t disrespect anyone else’s existence, you deserve a place here.

#Lu pride drama

[maskthesimp]

Okay, I'm gonna talk about something. I'm updating my F/O list again, but I'm gonna make a new post for it because the old one is annoying me. Bugged out links n shit.

TW real quick: Abuse, incest, manipulation, murder, cannibalism.

Here's the thing, some of the characters that I am adding to that list are from a game called "The Coffin of Andy & Leyley." And the reason this may become an issue is the sensitive topics that are brought up within that game and between the characters.

I'm just gonna say it flat out right now: it's incest, manipulation, murder, and cannibalism. These characters are not good people, and I wanna make it very clear that I am not condoning the behaviour of the fanfics I read, nor the art I consume. I am also not a proshipper either.

The reason I want to make this disclosure about this game specifically and not other ones like Resident Evil or Teen Wolf, despite cannibalism and murder being part of those, is that those didn't dip into the discussions of incest. Certainly not to the degree that TCOAAL does. I'm not gonna discuss my moral standing on things like incest or whatever, since this account isn't for deeper topics like that, but I will possibly be reblogging things from this game that involve that discussion or imagery. Most of it will be x Reader but not all of it.

If the expressions of art or the references these posts make include the discussion of Andrew & Ashley's potentially incestuous relationship and that upsets you, please remember its art, and you can block the tag, block me, or scroll. We depict things that aren't always morally just, or socially acceptable in art, for the sake of expression, sharing a message, and indulgence in a specific form of media. It's a video game about serial killers driven to toxic relationships and desperate situations. Is isn't intended to be a condonation of their actions or behaviours, but it is something that I enjoy consuming out of both interest in the storytelling, worldbuilding, and understanding of the complex character relationships.

It's not just there for fan service. It's a deeply disturbing discussion about co-dependency, parental neglect, and abuse and should not be taken as an interpretation of a moral high-ground.

With that being said, please take this post as a pre-warning to block the tag and the ship if that's something you don't want coming up on your feed. Especially if you follow either of my 18+ accounts. I know multiple of my mutuals aren't comfortable with incest so hopefully, they see this too and can block it. If that stuff is fine by you, great! I just wanna indulge and have fun reading shit and sharing the art people make of this fixation I have.

Thank you, and have fun indulging in this with me if you choose to. Here's some of the tags you might wanna block if you feel the need:

Ashley Graves

Leyley Graves

Andrew Graves

Andy Graves

Gravecest

TCOAAL

The Coffin of Andy and Leyley

#tw abuse mention #tw proship #tw inc*st #cw inc*st #cw proship #tw manipulation #cw manipulation #cw murder #tw murder #Im adding the proship tag just in case #tw cannibalism #cw cannibalism

[brightgnosis]

The Desktop Quote Index got another update, so now everything that I've added (plus what's in the que) should be indexed now. Woo!

ETA: And now all the formulas I've developed for the Ritual Oils I plan on selling are in my BOS so I don't lose them- just in case something happens to the journal (because we love my luck!).

Got a bunch more Quotes qued too, today- and a couple of new books started; including 'Pharmako/Poeia' and 'The Poison Path Herbal'.

And I also cleaned my hearing Aids properly finally, instead of just giving them a basic rub-down. As it turns out, they were really nasty. Much nastier than they looked (they looked fine). I'm now very glad that I decided to clean them despite appearances.

Also redid all of my term-block lists, both in the dash settings, and in my browser extensions, too. Huzzah for a day of productivity!

#Personal #Bookshelf #Alphabet Soup #Hearing Loss #Magical Oil Experimentation #2024

[aestheticsfandomsandmore]

bad buddy fandom getting-to-know-you meme!

Thanks to @fiercynn for creating this tag and for tagging me! Lots of love for you, honey ♥

Name and whatever you want to share about yourself

Hey! My name is Alessandra (I'm Italian); you can call me Ale, Alex, Alexa, or just Giandra (my nickname); my pronouns are she/her. I'm 22 years old, I'm bisexual (no matter what your gender is, I'm gay for you) and aromantic.

Creative writing is my biggest passion. I also love reading and watching all sorts of stuff. Storytelling and character writing will always be my favorite thing to study.

I really care about social topics such as feminism, the LGBTQIA+ community, racism and poc communities cultures and issues, ableism and disabilities (right now, I'm specifically discovering the world of neurodivergences, as I suspect I may be ADHD), classism and all things related to these matters.

No judgment over fictional tastes will ever come from this account; however, you will be judged, and blocked, the moment I see you discriminate someone else, may it be over fandoms issues or real life issues.

When did you watch bad buddy/join the fandom?

July 28-30th, 2022. I watched the first five episodes in one go (in one night!) and then watched the next seven in the next few days (I had to study in between, or I would have binged it in less than 48 hours).

I joined the fandom pretty much immediately? The moment I watch or read something, the first thing I do is going on Tumblr to search for content and other people's reactions. So I entered the Bad Buddy fandom as soon as (actually, even before) I finished watching the show.

Favorite ship(s)

PatPran. Pat and Pran are my 2nd favorite otp between ALL the otps I've ever had (and I've been a professional shipper since I was, like, ten years old).

I love InkPa too, though. They're so soft and amazing and I love them as individual characters. If PatPran weren't in the show, or if they had been written and/or played differently, InkPa would have stolen all my attention, to be honest.

Favorite character(s)

Pran. I don't have enough energy to elaborate right now; it couldn't be anyone else but him.

Favorite episode(s)

Episode 5 and episode 11, but to be honest I love pretty much all the episodes immensely. I guess my other faves are episode 8 and episode 4.

Favorite scene(s)

My favorite scene in the entire show is the rooftop kiss in episode 5, but my favorite PatPran moment is the balcony scene in episode 8.

One thing you would change about the show if you could

Oh, well. I would definetely have the whole Wai-curtain drop thing be handled differently. I love Wai! And I think that what he did was totally IC (and Bad Buddy being set in a universe without homophobia doesn't make it as bad as it could have been otherwise), but I think the narrative needed to be more clear about who was at fault there (definitely not Pran).

I wanted Ink and Pa to kiss. They deserved it.

I wanted tongue (or at least... Idk... open mouths?) in PatPran's beach kiss. (I wanted the scene where Pran bit Pat's lip that was filmed but that they chose not to have in the actual show; what a shame.)

I wish they didn't add the cringey, unrealistic crime subplot in ep9; like, I'm even okay with Pat getting shot, but everything that followed should have been handled differently.

What are some of your favorite fanworks made by other people?

Oh, God. This is hard.

FAN FICTIONS

Just to be fair, I'm going to link my AO3 bookmarks page, because all the stories I bookmarked are amazing and they deserve to be here. I'll try listing a proper top 5, but I'll be definitely forgetting a lot of amazing fan fictions, not to mention I'm currently trying to read all Bad Buddy's fics starting from the very bottom of the AO3 section, so my bookmark page will be updated constantly.

The Fine Line Between Hormones and Home

traffic was slow for the crash years

Dynamic

Hands on My Body

I'll fight their doubt and give you faith

(+bonus) Don't worry

VIDEO EDITS on YT

My all time favorite one was tragically deleted a couple of months ago; my top3 is currently this one:

Message in a bottle

Heat Waves

Gives you Hell

(+bonus) A Thousand Years (currently not up on YT, but will be again soon, and then I will link it)

Needless to say that there are so many more I'm in awe with, but then the list wouldn't end, so I just had to choose some favorites.

VIDEO EDITS on IG

Don't blame me

The 7 things I hate about you (version 1 and version 2)

Loverboy

Just keep breathing

Atlantis

(+bonus: this is really just a love letter to the show and it hit close to my heart)

There are a couple others about them as individual characters and of InkPa that I really loved too, but to avoid listing too many I'll just link my saved posts on IG.

FANARTS

There are countless amazing fanarts of Pat and Pran, but my favorite BB artist is probably @hereforlou, because her style is just too cute to be true and her portrayal of the characters is always so IC.

(If you create fanworks) What are your favorite fanworks that you’ve made?

I made five video edits focused on Bad Buddy, but I don't really like any of them, except maybe this one, which is some sort of tribute I made to the show as a whole.

I made tons of mep parts focused on Bad Buddy/which included Bad Buddy; I made more than 100 parts since I've started video editing about two years ago, and at least 60 of these have something related to BB in them; the point is that I only really like few of them. One day I will upload a collection with just my favorite parts and I'll get back here to link it.

I wrote five PatPran fan fictions in English (although I only actually like three of them) and five PatPran fan fictions in Italian. My favorite in English is I wish I were her; I'm kinda proud of this one, to be honest!

A song that makes you think of bbs (the ones in the show don’t count lol)

I PatPrannize every song I listen to... literally so many songs have me screaming 'Oh my God, this song was written for them!'.

Some classic forbidden love songs like Rewrite the stars or Secret love song, one that's super sweet and I think captures PatPran's spirit a lot is also Enchanted, then you have Angel, baby which also fits them a lot, Exile is also very PatPran coded, a lot of angsty songs are made for them, in all honesty.

Idk anything else you want us to know?

Yes: I've been obsessed about Bad Buddy since the day I watched it for the first time and have never been able to recover since then. Also: I loved the OS2 special episodes.

#bad buddy #patpran #bad buddy series #bad buddy the series #bbts #pat x pran #pran parakul #pat napat jindapat #gia talks about bad buddy #bad buddy fandom getting-to-know-you meme

[obsessorsobituary]

Request rules (subject to change)

🍟Mag’s rules⭐

Do not ask me for stories of my personal yanderes (i.e. [V1] Dr. Pulsiato) if you don’t see a yandere I have on the list of shrines, do not request for them, instead go to @magafterdark for more content on them

If you request something for one of Celeste’s yanderes from me specifically, I’m going to consult her as to not mischaracterize her characters.

Like Celeste, Furry aint my thing, but unlike her I’m willing to write it, but not straight up bestiality. 

Note, I never really did furry content before so don’t expect it to be good LOL, 

For now, I will not take OC x yandere (reader does not count as oc)

Yandere x Yandere is also something that I’m not really interested in writing about. Go to Celeste for this. 

Matchups with our characters are fine with me. As of writing this we don’t have many yanderes so it is impossible to do right now.

Animal abuse in a fetishized context makes me uncomfortable, you may ask about a scenario f you aren’t sure if I’d be willing to write it

I MIGHT. be willing to write about feet depending on what it entails, ask me about it. BUT I am for sure okay with Celeste stated as well, stepping and kicking is fine by me.

⭐Celestilune’s rules🌙 - I am okay with both NSFW and SFW requests, but will not write content for the following(a lot of these are in my/our boundaries that I would prefer you wouldn't make requests for already, but I am repeating them to make it clear.)

(1.) Torture P*rn

(2.) Anything involving animal abuse

(3.) Anything involving feet (I am okay with having a character step on someone with their heels/boots etc but anything else is a nope)

For others read our boundaries list.

As Mag has stated, if you want one of us to write about/draw each other's characters we will have to consult each other first.

Go to Mag for Furry content, it isn't my thing (I will write content with half-humans though, like catpeople/fox people etc)

If I state for any of my characters that I am uncomfortable with NSFW requests for them, do not push me to write any.

I will not be taking OC x our yandere requests but I am okay with making posts of your own with my characters as long as you follow our boundary lists. 

 I am cool with writing Yandere x Yandere!

🍟Shared rules🌙

Don’t pester us about a request you sent in, we shall get to it when we get to it

Wait at least two weeks before asking for an update on your request (esp if its a big one)

We will dm you if your request makes us uncomfortable,however  if you are anonymous we will post our response publicly

READ OUR BOUNDARIES

If you want one of us specifically to answer, then you need to specify at the BEGINNING of your request, otherwise, either one of us will take it (example: headcanon request for Mag, art request for Celestilune, etc.)

Did I mention that you should totally READ. OUR. BOUNDARIES.

No is a full sentence. Pestering us after we deny your request will result in a block. We don’t need to say why we denied your request either.

We are okay with writing any type of yandere with any type of reader! (gn yan x gn reader, female yan with female reader, male yan male reader, etc etc)

This extends to anything about their identity including race, ability, sexual orientation, etc.

Please keep requests specifically to the Ask box! Do not DM us with them!! 

We are both okay with writing NSFW and SFW requests, Though Mag is completely open to NSFW of any of their characters

#🍟⭐ #⭐🌙 #ramble #yandere #requests open #requests are open #male yandere #male yandere x reader #yandere x reader #tw yandere

[thegeminisage]

tng update time and oooooh am i ever mad about it. tonight we watched "hero worship" and "violations."

hero worship: i wanted to like this episode. but, firstly, it's just yet more evidence why children should not be on starships. this has been bothering me the entire time i've watched this fucking show. i hope there aren't any kids on voyager or whatever because this is literally fucking killing me

secondly, i felt really weird about everyone just...going along with this kid's idea that he was an android. i feel like there's a way to be lenient of his trauma without reinforcing the delusion or whatever sorry ik that's not how you're supposed to say it. it just didn't seem like solid therapeutical practice is all. i will admit there was also some secondhand embarrassment watching this kid's impersonation of data but i think it COULD have been cute (which seems to be what they were going for) with a better execution

i DEFINITELY think data's interactions with him should have been supervised too, not because i don't love and trust data wholly but because he has this way of missing certain emotional cues. and while that isn't a problem in day-to-day life, like, that's just the way he is and i resent anyone who would make him feel like it's a bad way to be/there's something wrong with him because he is PERFECT the way he is!!! for someone who is so vulnerable i think that data could accidentally do harm where it isn't intended (almost did a couple of times!), and data wouldn't be happy about that either because of course it would never be his intention. like i LOVE episodes where we just throw data into the deep end and let him figure it out, i love watching him go, but this is a child whose entire family/ship just DIED HORRIBLY who thinks he is responsible for the event. im not saying dont let data be his buddy data deserves so many buddies im just saying give data some INSTRUCTIONS at least. for both their sakes

anyway it was mid at best. it had a few good moments but ultimately not enough to salvage it for me

violations:

okay wait hold on i feel like i need to start a brand new text block for violations. you're only allowed 4000 characters per paragraph and i have stuff to say. i have Things To Get Off My Chest. please picture steam pouring from my fucking ears right now

actually forget the bullet list i don't need a bullet list this is not a normal liveblog Post. do you know every day i see threads on r*ddit and sometimes even tags here on tunglr dot edu about how people don't like tos because it's sexist. thats all well and fine and good. tos IS sexist. ARE WE SAYING TNG IS BETTER?????

tasha yar and the rape gangs. the naked time: 2! where both women got turned into insatiable sex object. deanna's impromptu and nonconsensual pregnancy. tasha's impregnantion by rape and her death at the hands of her rapist. that time they filmed deanna's feet. beverly crusher for all of season 1 having absolutely no personality outside of being a mother. lwaxana troi getting gang raped by ferengi for laughs. genuinely uhura on tos in the fucking 1960s got treated better than deanna troi on tng in the 1990s. yes tos has extremely bad moments sexism wise. JUSTICE for janice fucking rand. but truly how can you be as sexist against women when they aen't there. meanwhile, tng has women in every goddamn episode and all it takes is for one bad writer to

actually you know what is so funny. gene roddenberry and two women are credited with writing this episode. ALL of them are going to hell, gene roddenberry especially. i hate hate hate HATE his rape fetish. justice for janice rand AND tasha yar AND DEANNA TROI!

the thing about this episode is, it could have been good. there were good parts about it. for example: worf's joke about being probed. they knew what they were doing and it was hilarious. deanna getting to talk about her overbearing mother. riker's little speech to deanna when she was in the coma with literal tears in his eyes and this is a WHOLE separate rant but

my problem with tng is that you don't see them care about each other. we're TOLD that they care about each other. they SAY, "oh, x is worried about [character who's in danger this week]." but we almost never SEE them act it out. every once in awhile riker gets weirdly protective of picard, and worf seems kind of protective of everyone which i like, and picard also does a good righteous rage on behalf of others, but i don't usually get to SEE it. like when wesley goes missing or whatever he and his mom don't always immediately rush into each others arms on their reunion. when deanna passes out you don't always see riker abandon what he's doing and rush to her side. nobody asks "are you okay?" with genuine concern. and even when we DO get for example geordi driving himself crazy wondering what went wrong over data's fake death we don't get any follow-through - there's no reunion between geordi and data at the end the way there would be for kirk and spock.

BUT RIKER AT THE HOSPITAL BED. ohhh i was eating. it was so good. he wasn't even saying anything of merit but just the SIGHT of her passed out like that had him almost in tears. riker, who is the epitome of good humor and dealing with space horrors with laughter. IN TEARS. it was so good. a true show instead of tell moment. and in THIS fucking episode

my issue is: they had three on screen rape scenes. the first rape scene was extremely long. like they couldn't show anything explicit because this is 90s tv but it was VERY VERY LONG so it hardly seems to matter. and THAT was bad enough. but then they made us watch it AGAIN when he planted his dad's face in the memory and A THIRD TIME when he was like "ugh she's being so sweet to me even though i raped her i can't NOT rape her again." like at least that time she was able to hit him and get away but it feels like a hollow victory when he's already gotten away with it TWICE, AND!!! when worf had to come in and save her anyway at the end.

it was doubly horrible that he got away with the crime SO WELL that nobody suspected him - like, picard is out here asking deanna to let him into her mind a second time and she GOT RAPED. A SECOND TIME. deanna is like oh yeah you can come in! and it could have been a compelling mystery and plot twist to be like OH IT'S THE DAD but really it's the son except we SAW HIM DO IT the first time. there wasn't even any mystery to solve or anyone to suspect, he wasn't misdirecting US, we just got to watch him successfully misdirect this poor stupid naive trusting WOMAN

also, the thing about deanna's attack being a rape scene while riker's was someone dying under his command and beverly's was IDing her husband's dead body is that for riker and bev these are REAL THINGS THAT HAPPENED TO THEM. deanna never got raped by riker. like, he wouldn't do that and they wouldn't still be as close and comfortable with one another if he had. (i am mad on his behalf TWICE now that they left it open whether or not he committed that particular crime when every other piece of evidence says he wouldn't. the guy is not a closet serial rapist and leaving the endings open to be edgy is extremely poor form.) like, they literally JUST made deanna's attack a rape scene to sexualize her and feed roddenberry's fetish and HE'S DEAD. HE WAS DEAD WHEN THIS AIRED. HE CAN'T JERK OFF TO IT ANYMORE

they didn't even explain why that guy kept leaving people in comas. deanna i get because he was stalking her and wanted to fuck her but why riker? why beverly? that made it MORE suspicious. why all those other people on the other planets? was he raping every single one of them? how did he plan to keep going after he'd framed his dad for his crimes?

and it COULD HAVE BEEN GOOD. beverly's thing with IDing her husband's body was fun and terrifying. deanna could have gotten a memory that spoke to character development instead of being sexualized like this. in fact i think it was lowkey a pussy move not to deal with any of riker's close encounters because of the two of them riker is the one who has actually been raped! "someone died under my command" is generic and lame. but the way the telepathy worked was cool, the plot twist could have been cool, you could have felt real betrayal from liking this dude if he hadn't been all evil smiles from the beginning. and they dropped the ball SO HARD. and i could forgive them for doing that! i have given tng so many benefits of the doubt! BUT THREE RAPE SCENES IN 45 MINUTES?

the worst part is, there was no emotional resolution. they had that guy say the word rape out loud and then the credits rolled. deanna and riker didn't speak one word to each other. she was never like, i know you didn't actually rape me like that's not what happened. no one was like, beverly go have a hot drink and call your son. there's NO EMOTIONAL FOLLOWTHROUGH ON THIS SHOW. tos was guilty of that sometimes too but this level of it is fucking unreal

tng enjoyers im sorry for my meanie posts earlier. love who you love etc etc. i'm just. baffled. HOW IS THIS BETTER THAN TOS. at least what happened to janice rand (and uhura one time) was over quickly and didn't replay three FUCKING times!!! "tos is too/more sexist" I AM TURNING MY BRAIN INSIDE OUT TO TRY AND UNDERSTAND THIS FUCKING STATEMENT

#truly put the women back on the top shelf until you can treat them like they deserve. back to the boys club im begging you #sorry. i'm done now #personal #star trek blogging #tng lb #rape tw #uhhhh normally i say what we're watching tomorrow but i forgot already. and also idc <3 #justice for deanna fucking troi.

[rp-rs]

Hi! Blood banker here, saw your reply on a post about blood donation. If you're in the US, we finally got the FDA to update their discriminatory restrictions last summer, so most donation centers, including the ARC, now only ask EVERYONE regardless of sex/gender if they've had anal sex with a NEW partner in the last 3 months (because that's the window where our transmissible disease testing is less reliable).

First of all, it's cool that You are a Blood Banker and i have Respect for People like You(even if this is my first Time encountering the Job Description Blood Banker). Keep up the good Work 👍.

i live in germany. In the past Gay Men and Trans People* were forbidden from Donating Blood for having a higher Chance of an HIV Infection. It didn't matter if they never had Sex or only once 20 Years ago.

*(pretty much everything i read for this equated Trans Women with Gay Men and which sucks)

That only changed in 2017 when the German Government legalized it for them. However Gay Men were only allowed in if they didn't have Sex for ONE YEAR. even if it wasn't with a new Partner. [1]

Then in 2021 the guideline(not the Law) was changed to soften these Restrictions. Now it's only 4 Months. But weirdly enough straight People who had sex with more than two partners in the last 4 Months were equated with Gay men who had one new Partner in the last 4 Months.[2] i don't even get this.

And now finally in 2023 The Guideline got changed one last time to remove all Discriminatory Language from the Questionaire(thank fuck). And it is purely based on the Number of Sexual Partners. [3]

(by the way i only found out about this because i researched it because of your Ask. i had seen some other People on Queer Internet Forums still talk like the Guidelines from 2017 were still in Effect, i think not everyone got the Memo.)

I still think there are some Problems in there. for instance Anal Sex is highlighted as a higher Risk than non Anal, which i think is a way to talk about Gay People without talking about Gay People. And 2 or more Sexual Partners is disclosed as an inherent Risk Factor, which i think discriminates against Poly People. Imagine a Closed Polycule which has been stable for the last 3 Years and nobody slept outside of that. None of them would be allowed to donate Blood.

Now that i talked about the HIV Part, lets look at something specific to Trans People: HRT.

I looked at some Accounts from Trans People on the r/Germantrans subreddit, some of them say they were blocked from donating Blood due to HRT, some say only Androgen Blockers aren't allowed, some say that it didn't matter.

i found an Article from the german Red Cross explaining that they don't like to give out an entire List of Medications that would disqualify someone from donating Blood, since the "Problem isn't the Medication but the underlying Illness." [4] And i couldn't find a list from the german Red Cross.

Anyway, here's a List from the austrian Red Cross [5] i am gonna assume that the german Red Cross shares the List, because there usually aren't that many Differences between germany and austria. But i could be wrong here.

According to that list, Hormones are fine (unless you are taking anabolic T). Anti-Androgens like Cyproteron disqualify someone from donating Blood, this is because it is used to treat Prostate Cancer Patients, and Cancer Patients can't donate Blood. This is stupid. Like this isn't even in the "it depends on the underlying illness" Category, this is a Strict "NO".

For me personally... i found out during Research that i am banned from donating for the next 3 Months because i recently got a Piercing. And if my Weight falls below 50kg again, i won't be able to donate either. So maybe i'll donate Blood when i'm able. but i should probably call them beforehand to clarify the Medication Situation.

I hope You didn't mind me writing a 600 Word Post about the History of Blood donation for Queer People in Germany.

Sadly all of my Sources are in German so they won't be accssible to non-german Speakers.

If anyone has any more Information or Corrections, please provide them, i am eager to learn more or find out what i missed or got wrong.

#Sachtext #trans #blood donating #blood donation #gay #queer #lgbt #german lgbt

[hisunshiine]

—whims & inconsistencies | 4

→ posted: july 29, 2022 

→ pairing: kim seokjin x poc!reader

→ genre/au: victorian era!au, pride&prejudice vibes, fluff, smut, angst

→ chapter rating: +18 / M for Mature

→ wordcount: 7.2k words (was not intended oh well)

→ chapter warnings: picks up with the fear but that ends fast, minor mentions of blood and wound treatment, lying, cursing, mentions of the assault, mentions of binge drinking, parent illness, thoughts of grief, PTSD, more lying, maknae line :(, tae is rarely sober, seokjin is the cutest in love, smut in the form of: making out, straddling, clothed shaft riding (this is a thing now), neck biting, marking, titty fondling, light nipple play  

→ credits: @hobeemin​ for the most amazing banner idea. @peachiilovesot7​ and @moonleeai​​, thank you thank you thank you, the story is flowing so well and i honestly could not do it without you!! 

→ an: im doing my best to have updates weekly! but i am unfortunately an a d u l t, its gross, i know, but life keeps getting in my f*cking way T_T shup shup. If you would like to be on a tag list, please reply to this chapter or send an ask. 

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Running down the road, your senses are all on overdrive as you attempt to escape from the three men chasing you. Your footsteps and breathing seem to be the only thing you can hear as you near the last block to safety. So when you run dead into a hard chest and feel the fingers dig into your soft skin, you can’t help but squeeze your eyes shut and let out a scream. 

“YN?!”

The instant you hear your name, you take a gasping breath and the scent of cedarwood and vanilla invades your senses. It helps to settle your nerves, but you still can’t shake the fear as you whip your head to see if you can see anyone behind you. You don’t realize that your legs are still pushing your forward towards safety, or that Seokjin is speaking to you until his grip on your upper arms tightens slightly.

“YN?! What’s happened? Why do you look so frightened?”

“I’m being chased by—” you stop before continuing on, your brain finally catching up with your mouth.

Seokjin’s leaning in closer to see your face, but you avoid eye contact, still searching the surrounding area for the three men. 

“Chased by what? Are we in danger here?” He looks around the abandoned street, but sees nothing of concern. “I was looking for my brother—he should be home by now from the tavern, and my mom sent me out to search for him. But…he’ll be fine. Let’s get you inside, you’re shaking.”

Seokjin walks you down the rest of the way and turns to take you towards his house. The Kim residence is located in Highgate, but closer to the Citadel Market. You assume this proximity is due to the Kim family working closely with Lord Bang, and it is more convenient to have their residence closeby. 

You’re quiet, and Seokjin allows you time to be in your thoughts. He can sense how scared you are, goosebumps still littering your arms as he walks with you. His arm is wrapped comfortingly around your shoulders, and in any other situation you would care about being seen as indecent…and yet, in this moment, with your dress ripped, your heart pounding, and your face beginning to throb, you couldn’t possibly care less. 

Leading you around and down the small alley between his house and his neighbors, he pulls you through a side door that leads into the kitchen. It is surprisingly warm, with a low fire burning in the hearth, and the cozy space completely void of another soul. 

“Everyone has turned in by now, so no one should find us here.” He leads you to a wooden chair across from the iron stove and oven. You sit, back to the large wooden table in the middle of the room, and he disappears into a small alcove, returning after a few moments with a metal tin you assume has medical supplies. 

You watch as he busies himself around the kitchen, grabbing a cup and filling it with water for you before getting a bowl of water and a small, clean towel from an overhead cupboard.

The time it took to walk to his home and then watch Seokjin gather supplies is enough time for you to figure out what you’re going to say when he inevitably asks you what happened, and the question arises almost as soon as he kneels before you.

“What were you running from?” he asks, gently grasping your leg. You realize that your dress skirt is torn, with light flecks of your blood around the tear. He gently pushes your skirts up after looking at you for a moment for consent, and you nod before speaking. He picks up the small towel, dipping it in water to slowly clean the wound.

“I—” your voice is scratchy, vocal chords weakened from your scream. You clear your throat and start again. “I was being chased by wolves.”

“Wolves?!” Seokjin is incredulous, not fully believing your story. 

“Yes,” you try to keep your voice from shaking from the lie. “There were three of them. They must’ve come in from the forest through the Highgate entrance.”

“But…I haven’t seen or heard of wolves being this close in a long time.” He doesn’t look at you, focusing on your wound, and you flinch when he adds alcohol to carefully cleanse it before covering it with gauze and a bandage. 

“I have no idea why they wandered in. Maybe they were hungry? I threw my violin case at them, but I stumbled quite a bit as I was running away.”

“I can see that…you must have snagged your dress on fencing or something, and it looks like a bruise is forming on your face.” His fingers toy gently with the ripped sleeve, and you nod. You hate lying to him, but how do you tell him what happened without telling him who was behind it? 

You trust him to an extent, and feel that he likes you a lot, but you aren’t stupid. The Kim family is of high prestige and to accuse his youngest brother of attacking you would surely make it difficult for him to continue to see you. It puts Seokjin in a strange predicament, and you like him so much…you hope that by keeping this secret, Taehyung and his friends will leave you alone and allow you this one thing for not speaking out. 

“Thank you for saving me, I don’t know what would have happened if you hadn’t shown up.”

“I didn’t do anything but get you to safety.”

“I’m sure that your arrival must’ve scared them off.”

Seokjin hums lightly, neither in agreeance or dismissiveness, and you allow him to look over your scrapes, treating them one by one. Your heart rate had decreased once you had made it to his house, but now, as he asks you to sit sideways in the chair so he can treat your shoulder, you feel it pick back up.

Seokjin’s fingers are soft, yet determined in their movements. He gathers the hair that has come loose from its earlier style, brushing it to the side to expose your back to him. He tugs at the fabric, pulling it further down your arm and you shiver despite the heat of the kitchen. 

“This one isn’t too bad.” His voice is low, words trailing across your exposed neck and you’re no longer thinking about the terrifying incident earlier. All thoughts are of Seokjin, how close he is, how his hands feel on your skin, and how you want to feel more. 

You jump slightly when the wet towel touches your shoulder, and he lightens his touch even more. Your fright causes your hair that he set aside to swing freely back over your wound. 

“Did I hurt you?” he asks, leaning in close to your ear. You turn so that you can make eye contact with him over your shoulder

“I don’t think you could ever hurt me, Seokjin.”

He swallows hard, and your eyes linger on his elegant throat. You have the urge to leave it covered with ruby red marks of claiming, but a second later he clears his throat and you face forward once again.

“I hope I never do, YN.”

His thumb smoothes over the pebbled skin, broken from where you had been pushed against the brick wall, and you lean into his touch. 

Seokjin can’t stop himself. When he sweeps your hair to the side again, leaning down, and presses his soft lips to your skin in a lingering kiss that stills you momentarily.

“Seokjin…” your voice is but a whisper, but he hears the longing in it anyways.

Turning to face him, you can’t help but to be the one to lean in, lips on his in a tender meeting as you breathe in the cedarwood and vanilla warmth of his scent. Pulling back, you open your eyes to see his still closed, lips still puckered in the kiss you placed there before his hands pull you back towards him, your own hands resting on his broad shoulders as he deepens the embrace, tongue seeking entrance into your mouth. 

He lets out a groan once you allow him to taste you, and the sound lights the fire in between your thighs. You’re sure that you would continue on, that you wouldn’t be strong enough to stop kissing his plush lips, but the sound of a door shutting somewhere in the house brings both of you back to your senses.

Breathing heavily, the two of you stare at each other until Seokjin has the sense to rise from his knees and begin clearing away the medical supplies. You finish off the water he brought you, placing it gently into the sink once the cup is empty. 

“Let me get the horse to take you home, you shouldn’t be out this late alone, not if there are wolves from the forest wandering around. I need to find my brother anyway.”

You agree, and once you’re back outside the Kim residence, he brings you to the other side of his home, where the stables are, and after a couple of minutes of watching him saddle the dapple-grey mare, he helps you atop the creature before climbing on as well.

Placing you comfortably between his legs, you lean back into his chest, pulling his warmth to you, and you set off down the abandoned road to the Jung residence. Along the path you don’t see your violin case, but make no mention of it to Seokjin, who is focusing more on how you feel wrapped in his arms as he leads the mare down the dark path. 

Once you are close enough to the Jung’s, Seokjin gets down so he can help you, his hands wrapping around your waist to slowly lower you to your feet. He holds you close, the lack of lighting between homes providing some cover in the darkness as he takes liberties with telling you goodnight.

“I’m really glad it was you I stumbled into.”

“I’m really glad it was I that you stumbled into as well.” Smoothing down your hair, he looks over at the house, dark windows that have you both assuming correctly that the head of the house is already asleep. “Please be careful, you are much too pretty and far too precious to me to be hurt like this.”

You feel the pull again, the tightening in your tummy and the warmth building inside of you, and you don’t want to go.

“I promise, I’ll make sure not to go anywhere alone. I don’t want you to worry about me too.”

Seokjin smiles down at you, his hands still on your waist, and he uses this to his advantage to kiss your lips one last time. 

“I’m afraid I will never get enough of you, Ms. YN.”

“Neither I of you, Seokjin.”

With one last kiss placed on your forehead, he releases you. He watches you as you disappear into the home, a quiet wave before you shut the door behind you and make your way to your room. From your window, you can see him riding back the way he came, his strong arms and broad shoulders outlined in the moonlight. 

Kim Taehyung is no stranger to the pounding headaches that accompany the morning after long nights at the tavern. As the youngest brother of three, he has less responsibility and more free time to do what he wants. In this case, it’s sleeping in for a few more moments until one of the other warm bodies in his bed kicks his shin.

“Fuck, Jimin, do you always have to stretch when you know me and Kook are right here?”

“Shit, ‘m sorry,” he grumbles, rolling onto his side. “Fucking sore.”

“Taehyung, why is it so bright?” Jungkook whines, shoving his face into the down pillow to block out the sunlight streaming through the open window.

Taehyung yawns, standing as he walks over to the window and closes half of the curtains to lessen the intensity. His head swims, and his walk matches the feeling as he stumbles around his messy room, clothes and boots scattered around from when they got in. 

Stepping over one of his shirts, Taehyung winces at the sight of blood, knowing the maids are going to complain about how hard it is to get out if it dries and doesn’t soak out first. With a low curse, he squats down, gathering the garment as he thinks back to last night.

He remembers overhearing his parents talking about the future, then heading out to meet with his best mates where he decided it was the best idea to drink until they blacked out—except Taehyung didn’t black out. Flashes appear in his mind: your face, your fear, the words he said to taunt you. Taehyung crossed a line he never thought he would with you.

Clutching at his head, he leans forward to shake the legs of the two still slumbering until they finally sit up to wake. 

“I think—fuck, I think we really fucked up last night.”

“What are you talking about, Tae?” Jungkook’s eyes are barely open, two tiny slits with puffs beneath them. 

“We, well…we ran into YN. You know, the one Jin-hyung’s been courting?”

“Did we? Who cares? My back is killing me.” Jimin falls backwards onto the bed from his sitting position, uncaring.

“I’ve got to tell Jin. I think we hurt her.” Taehyung stands abruptly from his squat, stained fabric forgotten on the floor. 

Jungkook notices the panic on his face and his eyes widen as he realizes he’s missing something.

“Tae, wait. Tell us what happened…I don’t remember.”

Taehyung walks over to the vanity in his room, pouring water into the small basin to splash his face before staring at himself in the mirror. In the reflection he can see the other two watching him intently.

“YN, she was hugging Yoongi, I’m not sure why she was alone with him that late, but—”

“Wait, but your brother is courting her! That slut!”

“Jimin, wait, I think…” Taehyung trails off as his memories slowly remind him. He knows he was mad, not just at you but at everything happening, but seeing you with Yoongi pissed him off. You were walking home slowly, violin case in hand when they caught up to you. He knows he said some disgusting things to you; that’s been his constant interaction with women when he’s been drunk off his ass these past months. 

“She had her violin case, I think she might’ve been with him practicing. He went to school with her and Joon.”

“Oh. So then why do we need to talk to Jin-hyung?”

“Because!” Taehyung turns away from their reflections to face their realities. “Because I put my hands on her! I think I kissed her, fuck, I think I hurt her.” The panic is apparent in his widened eyes, the way his breath increases as he begins to pace his room. Not looking at the floor, Taehyung trips over a large item—a violin case. 

“Shit. It’s her violin. So it wasn’t a dream.”

“I don’t know why you’re getting so worked up, Tae. She’s not going to say anything. If she did, her reputation would be ruined.” Jimin’s words stop Tae’s wild thoughts. “Plus, we don’t have to tell Jin-hyung shit. I didn’t even do anything.”

“Really? Is that why you’re so sore? She threw her case at you when you and Kook over here tried to corner her. You’re the one who brought her violin case here.”

Jimin glares at Taehyung. “So? It’s in your room, not mine. I’m not going to tell on myself for something no one else knows about. She’s not going to say anything. No woman would ruin her own chances at a good marriage over this. Right JK?”

Jungkook is slow to respond, looking between the bickering older two before slowly nodding.

“I think Jimin’s right, Tae. She’s not going to say anything. She wants to marry your brother, right? If she says something to anyone, she would all but shame herself and your brother would either have to take her side or yours. And if he chooses her side…”

“He would be shaming your family name. She has no family. The Jung’s are just her guardians, and they will not be tainted by it. She only risks herself by opening her damn mouth. Seokjin would never dishonor your family name with everything going on,” Jimin finishes, eyes softening at the end as he alludes to the head of the Kim household being on his deathbed.

Taehyung sighs out a deep breath, torn. The other two begin talking to each other, shifting the topic to their plans for the day as they begin to wash up at the basin and get dressed. Taehyung understands their nonchalance—the other two didn’t press you against a wall and force you to kiss him, hell, they don’t even have the same marks that he does that show he was the aggressor here. 

He hopes they’re right, but a part of him knows that you’re different, and not just by being ethnically different. He remembers the first night he met you at Im Nayeon’s debut ball, how you were able to stand your own against his vile words. And the fact that you do not have a family that would be shamed should you speak out could also make you bolder, instead of meek like the others suggest. 

Taehyung can’t shake the feeling that he needs to do something about you.

Seokjin is up early, his thoughts revolving around you. He was barely able to sleep through the night, so he decides to start his day earlier than usual. Standing at the vanity with his shirt unbuttoned, he finishes shaving the last of the lathered cream from his face. 

“Jinnie?” his mom stands at the doorway to his ensuite bathroom, lines criss crossing her face. Seokjin realizes that his mom looks more tired, and a flash of guilt runs through his chest. 

“Yes, mom?”

“Can you come meet with me and your father? We have some things to talk with you about.”

Seokjin nods, wiping his face with a warm, wet cloth before buttoning his shirt as he walks towards his mother. She doesn’t say anything as they head down the dark hallway towards their bed chamber. Once inside, she makes her way to sit on the bed beside his father, holding his hand after motioning to the chair for Seokjin to take. 

“Son,” the croaky voice is weak, and Seokjin can barely stand to make his father speak. He should be using his energy to rest. “We need to talk with you about,” he breaks off into a fit of coughs, and his mother brings a cup of water to his father’s lips. He sips slowly, looking to her over the mug to have her continue on.

“As you know, your father’s health is fading. We know this is the last thing on your mind right now, but it’s even more important that you choose a wife. We’ve heard you’ve been courting the YLN girl, but she has yet to have her debut ball so you cannot move forward with an engagement yet.” She looks down at her hand, twisting the ring his father had given to her many years ago.

“You cannot wait, Seokjin.” His voice is stronger now that he’s had something to drink. Seokjin is relieved, hoping he sounded so weak due to just waking up or some other related reason. “I know you want more time, but if I can be selfish, I would like to see my own son’s wedding.” Seokjin nods, throat tight with the emotions that have taken over and he sees his mother has turned away, a hand to her face as she hides her tears.

“I plan to make the engagement soon, father. She’s perfect for me. I will speak to Hoseok, see if he knows when the debut ball is planned for her.” His father pats the hand Seokjin has resting on the sheets, a soft smile on his face as he takes in Seokjin’s shift in demeanor. His father recognizes the look; it is the same one he had when he fell in love with the woman seated next to him.

“I won’t keep you, I know you have to get to the Citadel.” 

Seokjin is thankful his father gives him an excuse to leave. It’s always so hard to see your parents fading in front of you, despite it being the natural order of life. Choosing not to dwell too much on his fading health, Seokjin returns to his room to gather his belongings before heading off to work. 

His walk is easy; Seokjin doesn’t bother with the carriage when going to work since he need only walk five minutes to get to the citadel, three if it is not busy on the street. Today the walk is fast and pleasant, the autumn air refreshing for him as he makes his way to meet with Lord Bang. 

Seokjin’s thoughts easily fall back to you in his spare time, and he realizes the things he told his father about you weren’t an exaggeration. Seokjin really did feel like you were perfect for him. In many ways, you were similar: both having an education, both enjoying the same things as the other, but also different in the ways that made a life with you exciting—he knows that everyday with you he could learn something new.

Despite this, Seokjin has his fears as well. You are a couple years younger and this new breed of educated women are different. He knows that you have goals you want to achieve, and fears that becoming the wife of Kim Seokjin would make those difficult for you. You would be in the spotlight and people would expect you to present yourself a certain way. He worries that those two things will clash, and if they did, who would you ultimately choose? Seokjin? Or yourself?

With a sigh, Seokjin walks into the Citadel, headed towards the Lord’s castle to check in for the day. His tasks are easy, Lord Bang having him follow up with various businesses in the Bangtan Trade and out in the Citadel Market on their loan payments and needs. As a banker, Seokjin is in charge of the accounts for the gentry and government, as well as wealthy businesses and manufacturers. He kept the books for Lord Bang for these accounts, documenting that due loan payments and taxes were paid in full as promised. Others who worked in lower ranks were in charge of collecting the fees and scouting for new potential accounts, while Seokjin would visit residences and locations to see how successful they were running and offer his services if they needed. 

Typically business owners would share about how well they were doing or areas that they needed help with, and could request another loan to order more materials or for marketing in nearby towns. Individuals would turn in large amounts of money they did not feel comfortable having in their home or could request for a banker to stop by so that they could take out money for spending. 

This type of job is mundane, with the best part being talking to owners and the gentry, but it allows Seokjin plenty of time to explore the city and think about his future, one that will hopefully include you. After a few hours, Seokjin has made all of the stops necessary for the day, and walks back along the storefronts towards the Citadel to complete the paperwork associated with his visits and drop off his books for review. 

A music shop sits at the end of a street, so he takes a quick moment to purchase you some blank music sheets that you can use to create your own songs. Moving to gifts while courting isn’t common, but is not out of the ordinary. Many men court women who have yet to debut, but want to show the seriousness of their intent with their intended. Seokjin’s heart swells when he thinks of you, remembers your taste on his lips just last night and knows he is ready for this first major step.

After departing the music store, he notices a jewelry store a few shops down. The rings in the window glint with the sun's rays, and he can’t help but to walk inside to admire the gems.

“Welcome, is there anything I can help you with?” A man comes up to Seokjin where he has yet to move on from the glass case showcasing the most beautiful ring he has seen. The purple gemstone would compliment your complexion, much like the lavender dress he first saw you in. 

“Oh, no sir. Thank you, I’m just looking.”

After spending most of the day tied up in work, Seokjin feels as if the music sheet gift he has bought for you is burning a hole in his briefcase. He eats dinner with his mother and middle brother, assuming correctly that Taehyung is out with his best mates. That has been his usual for months now, ever since their father fell ill. 

Seokjin wants to take the time to talk to his younger brothers about the inevitable, but with taking over as a banker in order to continue to support their family and pay for the treatments and doctor’s services for their father, he hasn’t had the time. Add in the debut season and courting you, and the last thing on his mind is discussing the grief of losing their father at some point in the future.

Once back in his room, he freshens up after the meal and then grabs his case to go to your residence. He wants to check in on you after the fright you had last night, but also wants to follow up with his promise to his father to find out when your debut will be and then see if he can deliver his gift to you.

Saddling up the dapple-grey mare, named Apple, he takes the short trip to the Jung household, happy to feel the good weather has kept up. Seokjin smiles softly to himself, hope blooming in his chest at the action he is taking. As a true romantic, he is excited to see that he can possibly have everything that he’s secretly wanted. 

It’s true—he was against marriage when he was younger, not liking the idea of having to choose some random woman at a ball who may or may not be all beauty and no brains, feeling like he was competing with all of the other eligible bachelors who seemed to be a better choice than he. But now that he has stepped into his new role, he started this season with more confidence in being a good choice, and as luck would have it, you fell into his sights early on and he was able to save you from the slimy Mr. Park.  

The connection he feels the two of you have formed makes him excited for his future in a way he did not expect to experience. It reminds him of the stories his parent’s told of their relationship, and gives him hope that this will be a love match just as much as the two of you can provide each other with company, wealth, comfort, and duty. Tethering Apple to the post outside of the fence, Seokjin grabs his briefcase from the saddle bag and heads to the door.

Hoseok is a little shocked to be the one receiving Seokjin, but you’ve been under the weather all day, not leaving your room for any reason. Sitting in the parlor across from each other, Hoseok can sense the joy and nerves that accompany his friend. 

“Hi Hobi, thank you for seeing me so late.”

“We’ve just finished dinner, but my parents are early risers so they have already turned in for bed. Not to worry. It is always a pleasure to see you, my friend.”

Seokjin fidgets with his fingers before looking up at his friend and cutting right to the reason for his visit.

“I wanted to know when your family plans to hold the debut for YN.”

Hoseok’s eyes widen marginally, clearly not expecting this question. He chides himself silently, knowing he should have—he has seen the way you and Seokjin look at each other full of adoration, the way you gush about him with his sister when you think he isn’t listening. It excites him to think of what comes next; he loves a good party, and there is nothing more that elicits many parties other than a wedding.

“I believe it is to happen in a few weeks' time. My father has been busy with school starting up again, you know he is the headmaster at the secondary school, but I can see if it can be moved up. I will talk with Mother tomorrow about it. The women know when the parties are and we mustn’t step on another debutante’s toes by stealing her date.”

Seokjin smiles widely, knowing that the women will be able to solve any issues in the way that they do: behind closed doors with giggles and sewing needles set aside as they secretly gamble with cards. He has caught his mother several times hosting these gatherings over the years, and knows very well how they haggle and make deals over womanly things.

“I have faith your mother will be able to swing a sooner date, and if she should need any assistance, my mother loves a good gathering.”

The two friends laugh at the knowledge they have of Mrs. Kim and her ability to sway others, before settling into a content silence. Hoseok breaks it by gesturing to the briefcase.

“Are there documents in there for my father or something?” he inquires, and Seokjin shakes his head, feeling nervous.

“Actually, it’s a gift. For YN. I know that she has yet to debut, but with it being so late in the season, I want to show that I am serious…that I am looking forward towards engagement.”

Hoseok chuckles, a little shocked to see his friend so ready to be taken permanently off the market. “I am sure that YN will be thrilled once I deliver it to her.”

“Actually, Hobi,” a sheepish grin crosses Seokjin’s face, “do you think you can offer me this one favor, and allow me a few minutes with YN? I want to give her this gift myself and see her eyes light up at it.”

Hoseok works his mouth into a side pucker, alternating left and right as he thinks about the request. He is apprehensive to give you and Seokjin privacy that his parents are not aware of, especially in the darkness of the evening, as he is responsible for you should anything untoward happen. It is not a secret that many families allow courting couples' privacy in the home to get to know each other, often after dinners held, but in those instances, the parents are aware of it.

Yet Hoseok knows Seokjin, and has seen how committed he has been to courting you, and trusts him dearly.

“I’ll give you five minutes, Jinnie-hyung,” he smiles as he uncrosses his legs to stand, “I wouldn’t want to rob you of the joy of gift-giving.” 

Leading the elder to your room, he knocks and announces that Seokjin is here before he walks away down the hallway. 

“I will be back to check in 5 minutes!” he teases, voice full of mirth.

Seokjin hears your footfalls as you come to the door, and he has to hold back a gasp at the bruise on your face. Of course, he knows it has to get worse before it gets better, but it still stuns him for a moment. You grimace at his concern, about to wave it away, when you pause.

The sound of a door down the hallway creaking open causes you to squint, and when a long-haired woman peers around her doorway at the two of you, you grasp Seokjin’s wrist and pull him into your room to avoid the prying eyes of Jiwoo. The two of you can hear her laughter before the faint sound of her door shutting.

Seokjin takes you in, noting the thin nightgown that falls along your frame. The light in the room shows your outline, and it doesn’t appear that you’re wearing anything underneath. He tries to pull his eyes away from the pert nipples that press against the thin fabric, instead focusing on the cute way your hair curls along your face, but memories of the kiss the two of you shared last night cloud his brain. 

You have yet to let go of his wrist, tilting your head until you are able to gain his attention and ask him about his unexpected presence at your door.

“I wanted to check on you, and…I wanted to give you this.” He moves towards your bed, placing his briefcase timidly on the sheets. His fingers are nimble as they unlatch the metal locks and he grasps a stack of papers, a blush blooming across his cheeks. 

“These are for you. A formal gift to show my intent.” 

His eyes bore into yours and you can see your future reflected in his eyes. Taking the papers, you set them on your desk, smiling at the music sheets he has purchased. It means so much to you that he would buy you music sheets—it means he takes your goals seriously and doesn’t expect you to give them up to be with him. 

You turn around after hearing him latch the briefcase back shut, and you notice he looks a bit tired despite his happiness. You watch as he lowers himself onto your bed as if in need of a moment of respite, and you walk over to him.

“May I?” Seokjin’s hand reaches for your cheek and you nod as his fingers delicately trace the bruise. You close your eyes as you feel his warm touch, leaning into it.

“Even with this bruise, you are still the most beautiful woman I have ever set my eyes on.”

This time, you know it is you who throws caution to the wind when you press your lips to his. Seated on your bed, he is at an easily accessible height, and your arms wind around his neck. His hands find purchase on your hips and he brings you further into his space, pulling you between his parted legs. 

He kisses you breathless, and when you pull your mouth away from him for air, he continues his movements, lips seeking the soft skin of your neck where his teeth nip and his lips kiss and his tongue swirls to pull the softest sounds from your parted lips. 

Neither of you are aware of your actions when you climb upon the bed, straddling his lap with just the thin nightgown protecting your now leaking cunt from feeling the grind of his hips as he pushes his erection against your core. Once you feel him, it’s too late to climb down—you don’t ever want to stop. 

You whimper, and the sound drives him mad, it’s even better than he imagined when he touched himself to thoughts of you, and he tells you so.

“I imagined you like this. You sound so good, even better than I imagined.”

“I imagined you taking me like this, too,” you admit, unashamed that he is the main star in your fantasies. You reach down between your bodies, hands tugging at his trousers and you have no regrets when your small palms free his cock to the air. He lets out a hungry groan; a hiss as your warm hands fondle his hardened length, and you can’t help yourself. 

Laying his cock flat against his trousers, you lift your hips and pull your gown up until your barely clothed pussy is free to sit mostly unhindered against the length. He shudders at the feeling of your damp, thin, underwear on his skin, and when you slide along his shaft his hands tighten at your waist to slide you faster. 

He wants to be inside you; he feels the heat of your core and when you clench around nothing, he feels how needy you are to be filled with him, his cock buried so deep inside of you all you can think about is more of him.

“I love the way you sound, angel,” he says desperately, his hips rolling under you to elicit your moans again, “all for me.”

“Just you, only for you,” you pant, frantically riding his shaft, chasing the feeling you previously have only been able to provide yourself. His hand tangles into your curls, and with a quick tug he exposes more of your neck to him as he continues to lick and suckle your skin. His free hand slides the top of your nightgown to the side so that he can reach hidden flesh, teeth latching on to the sensitive skin so that he can place marks, claiming you as his.

You groan, enjoying the way his mouth feels; his lips are one of your favorite physical features by far, though his massive cock you ride is quickly becoming number one. His hand moves from your shoulder to your breast, where he cups your ample bosom, his thumb skating across your nipple that he so desperately wants to taste. His hand continues roaming lower, and you are about to beg him not to stop when his hand trails up your thigh. 

You can’t stop the way your brain remembers the attack: the way his brother pinned you to the brick wall and forced his mouth on yours, or the way his hand made the same motion along your thigh. 

You don’t mean to, but your whole body tenses up and you stop responding—it’s enough for Seokjin to notice. 

Pulling back, Seokjin is panting but his eyes are confused at your reaction to him touching your thigh, but a quick series of knocks at the door steals away the questions building on his tongue. Climbing off of him quickly, you situate your nightgown as he fixes his trousers, grabbing his briefcase as you step across the room just as Hoseok opens the door and peers inside.

“I gave you a few more minutes, but I can’t in good conscience allow you to stay all night!” 

Jin laughs, embarrassment turning his ears red at the teasing tone Hoseok gives, knowing that those few extra minutes are what led to the two of you losing yourselves in each other. Holding his briefcase strategically, he bids you goodnight and walks to meet Hoseok at your door so he can escort him out of the home. 

His ride home is euphoric, as Seokjin can’t hide the goofy grin on his face or the many times he’s run his fingers along his lips reminiscing on the way you felt beneath them. His ears replay the soft moans and whines you made, forever looping in his head. He remembers how you felt as you rolled your hips and he felt the damp pressure of your heat against his needy cock, but his smile slips a little when he remembers the way your body froze when his hands made contact with your bare thigh. 

Thoughts invade his happiness for a moment, and there is a part of him that is afraid that he has taken things too far in his rapture, afraid that you are uncomfortable with how far the two of you have gone tonight. He hopes that it isn’t something that will stop you from wanting him, and prays that it was, perhaps, the thought that the two of you are not yet married that made you still in his arms. 

With that thought to calm his nerves and hide his embarrassment, the ride home provides Seokjin with enough time for his arousal to dissipate before he’s handing off Apple to the carriage man to take her to the stables. Apparently his brother has just arrived home after having taken the carriage, so Seokjin merrily makes his way into the foyer to greet his youngest sibling.

“Good evening, Tae.”

“Good eve, Jinnie-hyung. You look quite happy.”

Seokjin can’t hide the grin that grows as you cross his mind.

“I am happy. I’ve finally found my wife.” He looks over Taehyung, noting some recent wounds on him. “If you could stop being so rough in the brothels, I am sure you could find a wife too.”

Seokjin puts his arm around Taehyung’s shoulder, walking him towards the kitchen so he can treat his injuries. A small nip to his face near his lip, and what looks like a woman getting a little carried away with her nails to his face. It’s not the first time Seokjin has seen Taehyung covered in marks from a woman or two and smelling of liquor.

Taehyung knows Seokjin is talking about YN. His mind is racing after Seokjin sets him down in the kitchen, grabbing the metal medical tin from the shelf. He sees the way Seokjin takes in the defensive marks you left on him, and how happy Seokjin is talking about you. In his slightly drunken stupor, his fear takes over his mouth. 

“Oh, really? Hope it’s not YN. I saw her with another man the other night, hugging him quite closely— more than is appropriate, you know? And then she flirted with me and the boys before continuing on her way home, ” he says, almost rambling.

He watches as Seokjin’s face falls, the creases that appear between his furrowed brow as he tries to make sense of the story he is hearing. Taehyung saw you with another man? Another man that you held closely, much like you’ve been doing with Seokjin? And then his brother says you flirted with him and his mates right after? It doesn’t really sound like something you would do, but then again, does he really know what you would or wouldn’t do? 

He didn’t think you would be the one to climb on his lap and grind on him, but that happened just a half hour ago. Could you really be someone who would play with his emotions? Seokjin doesn’t speak as he treats the wounds Taeyhung has except to ask if there is more. Taehyung reveals scratches on his forearms and Seokjin cleanses those as well; the whole time his thoughts swirl. 

Once he’s upstairs in the confines of his room, his thoughts take off, wondering if the man you were with last night is the one who attacked you. Could this be the truth? Could this be why you froze when Seokjin’s hands breached your thigh? The darkness of the night allows doubts to creep their way in, planting themselves deep within his mind and watering themselves with his darkest fears, nurturing the worst overnight. 

In the light of morning, Seokjin wakes unsure if you are who you appear to be, and the plans for an engagement are pushed far from his mind by doubt.

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a look ahead

my loves, i've had some time away from this site and it's given me a bit more clarity as to what i want my blog to look like in the future. i don't know if this comes out of nowhere to any of you because i don't tend to announce my decisions to the internet, but since this is going to (directly or indirectly) impact y'all, i thought it was only courteous to tell you that there'll be some changes made around here in the next couple of weeks.

what is that going to look like?

come september, i am going to start blocking minors as well as ageless, blank and/or empty blogs.

apart from a writing challenge submission i'm set on finishing, i'm not going to be posting any fics for a little while.

sadly, that also means time after time is officially going on hiatus for now.

i've been thinking about these things for some weeks now and even though i feel like i'm letting people down in a way, i feel like this is the right move for me at this point.

there are several reasons for all this, if anyone cares <3

why block minors if you don't write explicit stuff?

excellent question. the truth is that i considered making my blog 18+ a year ago when i created it, but didn't. the main reason for that was that even if someone puts an age in their bio, i have no way of double checking that, so i thought, why bother. but the truth is that i've grown uncomfortable with the thought of literal children interacting with me, whether i post explicit stuff or not (and i have reblogged explicit fics more than once). i don't want to have to worry about these things when i'm just trying to enjoy my time on this corner of the internet. of course, i still have no way of checking this, but i still want to establish this boundary for my own mental wellbeing.

my main blog will remain all ages and i will continue posting on ao3, but i don't want any minors around on my writing tumblr anymore.

what about blank/empty blogs?

this is a trend i've only really noticed once i started posting my writing on here, and it seems to mostly pertain to the people who don't know how tumblr works and are unwilling to learn, or bots. just put something on your blog. if the only thing i can see on there is the list of people you're following and your likes – particularly if i can see that you're mostly liking fanfic but not reblogging anything – you're getting blocked. if you reblog fics with a sideblog, that's completely fine of course, but put something else on main then. support gif makers. support artists. support shitposters, i don't care. just reblog stuff. that's what this site is for.

what about your writing?

i told you only yesterday that i have a whole pile of wips right now, and i do, but the truth is that i'm exhausted. i put a lot of pressure on myself when it comes to my writing, and the truth is that i feel like that's part of the reason i think it's good, but it's simply not sustainable. i started a new job back in june, and i'm about to start working on my thesis, and what should be a hobby is burning me out. the same thing happened to my reading habit, and it's just sad to witness.

i'm currently hoping that by taking out the constant urge to post something, anything, but make it amazing, i can actually enjoy writing a lot more again. (don't get me wrong, i still enjoy it, i really do, but i need to do it without the whole immediacy part of it for a while i think.)

what does this mean for time after time?

i mean, let's be real here, updates have been scarce at best anyway. i started this series with a lot of momentum and then slowly teetered to a standstill against my best intentions. again, i hope that by taking away the pressure to post as fast/good/much as possible, i will find myself doing it more again, and doing it more gladly.

this series truly is my everything and i will finish it, but i want to have a few chapters already pre-written the next time i post a part. that way, i hope there won't be as much time between updates, either. depending on how long it takes me to get to this point, i might do a weekly chapter reblog or something to remind y'all what was going on lmao

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hope y'all understand and i'm sorry if this is disappointing but it's my blog and i'm asking you to respect my boundaries. kay thanks bye <3

#nika rambles #writing update