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verytamenow · 4 years

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1-29 ( also... 30-50) 😝

Well....I said I was bored and can’t sleep and that still holds true so bring it on and anything else.

1. Did you wake up cranky? No, I woke up exhausted though.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? Gods, fucking NO WAY. But ironically I would have dated someone my age at 18 and would date someone 36 now at 27 so I am apparently fine with it if it’s me. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

3. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? I don’t really have a preference at this point, male, female, or nonbinary. Just interested in knowing good people regardless.

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? Yes??? Probably awkwardly because of who I am as a person. But yes.

5. Can you commit to one person? Yes. I’m open to a polyam dynamic but I’m pretty take it or leave it on that.

6. How do you look right now? Like I’m ready for bed.

7. What exactly are you wearing right now? A too big Record Store Day 2018 shirt from Zia Records and a pair of black sleep pants with an Avengers logo.

8. How often do you listen to music? Daily.

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? Sweats, just because I can’t wear jeans at work.

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2014? Well, this got dated real quick. But my life WILL be changing dramatically before 2020 thanks to surgery.

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? I’m definitely antisocial (in the introverted way, not the diagnosable way)

12. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? Good luck? Or maybe just nothing? I haven’t have a crush in a hot second so I really don’t know but I’d like to think I’d want them to be happy regardless.

13. Are you good at hiding your feelings? Over text or a call, yes. But my face says things before I can.

14. Can you drive a stick shift? No but I want to learn at some point.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you? My anxiety does but I personally don’t unless it’s someone I care about.

16. Are you going out of town soon? Yes! I’m impatient for it and the surgery and time away from work though not the recovery. Getting to hang out with Kristen a bit is also a big upside.

17. When was the last time you cried? August. It was awkward.

18. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? My ex, but that was more I’d been wondering if I was aromantic instead of demiromantic given my lack of feelings.

19. If you could change your eye color, would you? No.

20. Name something you have to do tomorrow? Clean. Write. Go to the thrift store because basically nothing fits. Fold my damn laundry.

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. I can’t fucking sleep.

22. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? Not since I was a kid.

23. Are you nice to everyone? I try to be. I’m not really warm and fuzzy but I try to be pleasant.

24. What are you sitting on right now? My bed.

25. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Yes, easily. I think there’s zero excuse for cheating.

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? That’s just my history with crushes as a whole. I’m interested but they’re not.

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? Probably Kristen?

28. Do you get a lot of colds? No, somehow, even though no one at my office takes sick time.

29. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? No and now I’m worried that’s gonna tempt fate.

30. Does anyone hate you? Probably. I’m kind of an asshole. I mean, the administration hates me for existing but I don’t think that’s what this question is getting at.

31. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? Yes.

32. Do you like watching scary movies? No! I hate it. It sets off my anxiety.

33. Are you a jealous person? Yes and no. I can get a little jealous, but it’s usually a minor thing. It’s worse if I don’t trust someone will stay.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? Is this a “it never happened” thing or “you can block it out” thing? I’d erase whatever year my mom got cancer in that case but if we’re talking emotional effects, I’d take the year she died or the year I had basically a breakdown.

35. Did you have a dream last night? No.

36. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? Yes. See question 31.

37. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? I mean, I really hope so but it seems highly unrealistic at this point.

38. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I hope not for their sake lmao. Up your standards.

39. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? No.

40. Did you have a good day yesterday? I mean, it wasn’t terrible but I was tired.

41. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? Ha, no.

42. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? Gods no, it’s so so so different. I’m literally a different person and my life is better for it.

43. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now? Casually hanging out with Taylor, whatever that entails.

44. What’s the best part about school? The part where I’m not having to go to it. Though I do probably need to go back.

45. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? I don’t even have facebook.

46. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? I’m out of school, but I guess the equivalent would be texting friends at work and that’s a yes.

47. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? Yes. Endlessly. Thanks anxiety.

48. Were you single over the last summer? I’m single every summer ✌️

49. What are you supposed to be doing right now? Sleeping.

50. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? Objectively yes.

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secretsofgsb · 3 years

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April 1st 2021 at 02:43 AM (start of writing)

going to post here because I've thought over and over and over again about getting a journal but I never pull through everytime I go to the dollarstore

But anyway. I think writing in this tumblr blog really helped me from like me being 14 up until I started becoming inactive after university.

1. So I pray everyday going to work. Especially the whole month of March. I have a superstition for the month of March because in the past 5-6 years or so something ALWAYS bad happens in March. It doesn't have to be super bad, or tragic... But something happens where I definitely cry about it (and maybe even a lot). Anyway, so I'm writing this post in my bed at 2 AM and it's FINALLY April 1st!!! I have a superstition still because I think I messed up by exposing myself for some reason tonight. But anyways I hope that's not the case...

2. So I'm excited because April is a month of new beginnings (typically). I think last year gets its own award of being horrible because it was the start of COVID, and being in a lockdown. And let's just say I did not cope well with not being able to see people I enjoy having around. I'm very awkward, antisocial, and an introvert, but I still have a few people that I need some socialization with to keep sane.

Anyways, so April of last year was alright. Not the best, still in the beginning of the pandemic. I still struggled with things but it wasn't as bad as March 2020. That was just straight up horrible.

So yeah, I'm excited for having nicer weather. For longer days, the sun setting later and later. It's nice. I need to find an outside hobby I enjoy. I think I really want to be good at roller blading this year.

3. So my new goal is... I think I need to stop caring. I've always been so overly concerned about other people's opinions. to this day some things (whether said intentionally or not with hard feelings) still bother me.

Being in your 20s is weird. Honestly I had no real trajectory in life, I was just kind of following the societal "norm" of go to school, get a job, then work? What next, marriage? Kids? I don't know. I find that there's such a range of things happening to people I know in their 20s. People are having kids, which is cool. People are getting married, that's cool. That or people are just chilling. That's also cool.

4. Social media and what people tell you is all a front. It's a highlight reel, and people try to talk themselves up. And I get it. No one wants to post about them having a bad day, or talk bad about themselves.

So. I'm sick of social media nowadays. I can't find enough strength to delete it because I still like the funny memes and other funny videos and content on there. That's part of my little joys in life. But yeah. I'm tired of feeling like I have to compare myself to others or that it's some sort of competition about who's the most successful. Who's getting married first. Who's having kids first. Who's getting that mansion first, or luxury car first.

5. I think I just hit a point where I just didn't want to socialize anymore today.

6. Anyway. I'm tired of timelines. I'm tired of being asked "non-chalantly" (yeah right) why I'm not engaged yet after 4+ years of being together, and why me and my significant other don't talk about those things. So? What is it to you? Just because you talked about your less than a year relationship and you're already looking at rings and houses, does that make MY relationship and life look BAD to you? Like wow, cool, thanks. I see that apparently it looks like my life and my relationship sucks because it's not great according to your standards

7. Note: I just needed to get that out. Because I cried on the way home after that specific situation. It sucked! It made me feel like shit about myself. And I know it shouldn't have. But I cared and it made me feel very bad.

8. so anyway... I don't have any answers to life. But I really am trying hard to work on not caring about social media or other's perceptions or opinions of me. I need to stop thinking I'm garbage because other people think so apparently.

...

I guess that's it for now. A long awaited rant... Resurfaced because I got triggered (haha). We'll see where life takes us, I'm hoping I learn eventually to just be not bothered about things.

That's where I really love the people who are closest to me. No judgment. No timelines. No pressure. I need that. I need to focus on what I want to eat tomorrow and watch tomorrow instead of someone's opinion that my relationship and my life trajectory sucks. Lmao

Okay bye.

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kendopuma74-blog · 5 years

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Before I get into the Q&A portion of this post, I wanted to quickly review this dress. I ordered this dress and this jumpsuit for my birthday. Unfortunately, I ended up sending both of them back. The jumpsuit was a disaster. The length is super long for a size 0 petite yet the crotch area is so short. Plus the color looks very different in real life. I didn't even take photos. This dress is better but the fit is still off. It's designed to fit someone with a longer torso. It's hard to tell in these photos but the bust area is very roomy on me. Even though the lace detailing is beautiful, I decided not to keep it. Outfit details: PLT dress | Christian Louboutin pumps | Michele watch | Cartier bracelet | Gucci bag

Now onto the Q&A

1. I respect your privacy. But if you wanted to do a ten facts about you, that would be a nice read. I enjoy your blog and visit often! I appreciate the luxury and affordable things you post about. Such a nice mix. 1. I don't know how to swim =) 2. I worked at Express Distribution Center (second shift 3:30 p.m - midnight) throughout college 3. I am really terrible at directions. I can't drive anywhere without Google Maps 4. I am a creature of habit when it comes to food. I can eat the same thing everyday 5. I tend to attract to passionate, driven and motivated people 6. I am a morning person. I wake up between 5:30 a.m - 5:45 a.m everyday 7. I rarely apologize but when I do, I really mean it. 8. My biggest fear is rats. I would probably pass out if I see one. 9. My dream career is to become a pharmacist. Clearly, it didn't go as planned =) 10. Believe it or not, I find cleaning to be mentally relaxing

2. Hi Sydney, I have been follow your blog 4-5 years. I don't even remember how I found you. By reading your blog and getting to know little about you, I think you are very independent, strong, and detail oriented woman. I love your beautiful house. My favorite thing to shop is anything related to home. Of course, I like handbags, fashions as well. My favorite thing to do is travel. I have two boys and locate in Boston. I love Boston except summer is way too short and winter is way too long. Thank you for sharing your lifestyle. I enjoy it a lot. Anything you like to share (at your comfort zone), we love to know. Thanks for your kind words, Sandy! One thing you may not know about me is that I am 100% an introvert and I am proud of it (lol!) This article describes me perfectly as I hit every single point mentioned in the article. Being an introvert does not mean I am a loner or antisocial. I just spend my energy more intentionally. I really do enjoy alone time. Sometimes, I feel awkward and uncomfortable meeting new people. A small circle of friends is all I need (and probably all I can handle). On the flip side, I am a very good listener. Friends oftentimes turn to me for advice and support. I love a deep meaningful conversation and I dislike small talk

3. Hi Sydney, it's Angela from Boston. I've been following you since around 2009 and just recently get to know you better. I respect your privacy and it's also nice to know some things about you. I know you said you had a career change the beginning of this year, maybe you can tell us some more about that and if you think you made a right move. As a stay at home mom, I know the sacrifices mom makes for the kids and sometimes I wonder myself if I should've taken another path. Thanks for letting us get to know you and I hope you have a great weekend Dear Angela, I am glad I get to know you better as well. Please keep in touch. Having a stable career is something I've always wanted. Being a stay at home mom for some reason never crossed my mind (no shade to SAHMs). Everything has its pros and cons. Do what's best you and your family. I mentioned briefly before that I've been with my previous company for almost 9 years. I was at the point that I am ready for the next challenge in my career. Making a move wasn't even a question. It was a goal that I wanted to accomplish and I am glad I did

4. Follower since those petite challenge blogpost days! I know you work in tech (I am too in the Bay Area) and was curious how did you get into the industry and what is your role within your company. It's always nice to know another female in the industry where the industry is predominately male. I graduated with a Bachelor of Computer Programming. I had a hard time finding a programming job after graduation. I took a job as a Quality Analyst just to get my foot in the door. Ended up enjoying it so much that I decided to shift my career to a Software Quality Analyst. I've been doing it for almost 10 years and I am still loving what I do. My current role is a Senior Quality Analyst specializing in PCI Compliance.

5. I've been following your blog for years! Very possibly also since the petite challenge days. I live in Toronto and work in publishing. I'm curious to learn more about your work life - how do you balance it with being a mom of young kids? How did you choose the career? How did you decide when it was time to switch companies or roles? Please see my previous answers regarding my career. As for how do I achieve a healthy work/life balance, I will dedicate a separate post for the topic. It's something I am very passionate about. Hope you don't mind.

6. What do I do career-wise? Have I considered blogging full-time? How did I get into it? Please see my previous answers regarding my career. No, I have never considered blogging full time. Being an introvert, networking is not really my thing. I know I won't be good at it. I started my blog as a hobby and it will remain a hobby

7. How tall are you? I am 5'2"

8. How did you meet my husband? My husband and I met at work. We used to work for the same company.

I hope I answered your question(s). If you have any further questions, feel free to leave them below. I will do another Q&A post in the near future

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Source: http://www.sydneysfashiondiary.com/2018/09/q.html

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