I Found Myself a Cheerleader 27
Chapter 27 out of 28
Bumped to the lowest step on the social ladder after his fight with Billy, Steve gets roped in with the cheer team. What starts as a favor to help them out when one member breaks her leg in turn for protection from the brunt of the bullying, sets the universe on a different path.
In this chapter, they're in the hospital and the party stitches itself back together again as they all heal and come together. Hopper returns from the dead and the people from Cali reunite with the others as they catch up and wait for Eddie to wake up again.
On AO3.
Ships: steddie & buckingham
Warnings: hospital, hate-crime mention, homophobia mention, f-slur
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Chapter 27: The Hospital
It’s been two days since the door has been unlocked for the party and uncle Wayne and Eddie still hasn’t woken up yet.
Steve has spend most of his waking moments glued to Eddie’s side, though he makes the rounds past Chrissy and Max whenever Wayne is around, since he is too scared to face the older man just yet. Dustin assures him he’s very nice, but Dustin doesn’t have Steve’s history. So, not meeting between the two so far.
Today is another moment that Steve has ducked out when Wayne came down the hall and has fled to Chrissy’s room to hang out with her and Robin. Chrissy’s own parent have been giving her the cold shoulder for her stunt, especially when she refused to go to bible camp to get her rebellion fixed.
Despite the likely disownment hanging over her head, however, she’s in good spirit. That is probably helped by Robin’s parents, who are taking her under their wing much like they had done for Steve. It’s also helped by the fact that she and Robin have been spending a lot of time together and growing more and more enamored with each other.
However, their budding relationship doesn’t stop them from including Steve whenever possible and the three of them hanging out like they used to do.
“I got a card from all the cheer team, looks like Mary is making head cheerleader after all,” Chrissy tells Steve.
“Bet coach Miller is pissed off she lost her best flyer right before the last championship,” Steve says.
“Yeah, she really thought we were gonna win this time.”
“She always thinks we’re going to win,” Steve rolls his eyes, making Chrissy snort.
“Why do I like you jocks again?” Robin whines. The conversation about cheer has been going on for a while already.
“Because we’re charming and lovely,” Steve suggest.
Chrissy meanwhile grins: “Because you’re a lesbian.”
“I hate you both,” Robin tells them, but she’s grinning too.
“No, you love us,” Steve teases her, feeling safe to do so because he’s getting all their secrets and confessions from both of them.
Like expected, Robin gets a dopey look on her face and grins: “Yeah, I do.”
On the bed, Chrissy blushes, though a happy smile fills her face. She takes Robin’s hand and shyly says: “I love you too.”
Robin’s dopey smile gets even wider and a blush appears, before squeals and kicks her feet, burying her face in the blankets as she face plants into them to hide.
“God, you two are so disgustingly in love, it’s adorable,” Steve complains. Without his consent, his mind wanders to Eddie and how maybe that can be him too, if the other ever wakes up.
The two girls know him well enough to guess where his mind has gone, because Robin pokes her head up from the blankets again and takes his hand, while Chrissy bumps her cast against him. He smiles at them, grateful for their presence.
“He’s going to be okay,” Chrissy assures him.
Robin snorts: “Yeah, he’s too much of a stubborn asshole to go down like that.”
That makes Steve laugh. Robin always knows how to make him laugh or smile again, even when it all feels hopeless. She also knows how to give him hope, they both do.
Their laughter is interrupted by a female voice, who says: “Max told us we could find you here.”
Steve whips his head around and his eyes land on Joyce. She’s standing in the doorway, looking tired but happier than he has seen her since Hopper’s funeral. Before he’s even aware of it, he’s out of his chair and walking to her, hugging her close.
An adult is here to take over again. Joyce is here. He has always felt safe with her, even if she might have only taken him in out of obligation, he knows she cares for him in some way. She wanted him to come to California with them. She wanted to keep him safe. And now she’s here.
“What are you doing here?” he asks, voice tight with unshed tears and colored with disbelief.
“It’s a long story,” Joyce answers, stepping back so she can cup his cheek and check him over, eyebrows frowning when she spots the bruises on his neck. “We were coming home to make sure you all were okay.”
“And El, Will and Jonathan?” Steve asks. “How did you know?”
“El contacted us, she has her powers back. I was in Russia with Murray when she contacted us, because-”
“Russia?” Steve almost shrieks, the thought of meeting a Russian again terrifying to him after last summer.
Before Joyce can answer, however, another voice comes down the hall. A voice that shouldn’t be here, yet is. Hopper who calls out: “Joyce, you know I don’t move as fast with my passenger.”
It seems impossible, but Hopper is indeed there, coming down the hospital hallway with El clinging to his side. He doesn’t look upset as he holds her close and shuffles as best he can without dislodging her in any way.
“You’re- You’re-” Steve stammers, legs almost numb as he stumbles towards Hopper, one hand raised, reaching out, but unsure if he’s truly seeing this.
“I’m alive, kid,” Hopper tells him, finally there.
Almost as if watching from above, outside of his body, Steve sets another step forwards, collapsing in Hopper’s arms. Tears that have been threatening to fall since Joyce’s arrival begin to fall as he clutches to Hopper, his strong arm coming to rest around Steve as well.
Hopper’s death has been one of the worst things that has ever happened to Steve, which is saying a lot with his life so far. It has given him so much responsibilities and it hurt to loose him. This last stint with the Upside Down, has only made Steve miss Hopper more, feeling the gaps left by his presence.
But now he’s here.
He’s alive.
Hopper is alive.
“It’s okay, kid, it’s okay, I’m here,” Hopper shushes him, rubbing his back as he attempts to soothe Steve.
Steve honestly doesn’t care that he’s an adult and that he’s crying like a little boy in Hopper’s arms, unable to stop. He hiccups: “I lo- love you so so much, I miss- missed you. I’m sorry for not hugging you at the mall, I’m sorry for- I- I’m sorry.”
And he’s only crying more as Hopper holds him. He’s glad the other isn’t too macho to push Steve away after that, because Steve couldn’t have handled that. Hopper is one of the few adults that actually cared for Steve and Steve has regretted not telling him that when he was gone. He needed to say it and now he has.
“Me too, me too,” Hopper says and that’s more than enough for Steve, who continues to try and squeeze the life out of him with how tightly he holds him, uncaring about his stitches.
Robin, however, does care about his stitches and comes to pull him away. She says: “Come on, dingus. The nurse will yell at you if you pop your stitches again.”
Steve stubbornly tries to hold on for a little bit more, but the comment has worried Hopper and Joyce enough that they don’t let them. Joyce going to check him over again, frowning: “Are you hurt?”
“A little bit,” Steve says, playing it off. There are people more hurt than him anyway.
“He nearly got eaten by Upside Down bats along with Eddie,” Robin tattles and he kicks at her, though she jumps out of dodge. She sticks out her tongue and he glares at her.
“Eddie took the brunt,” Steve tries to make it less.
“Let’s just start at the beginning,” Hopper says, moving to go sit down.
Steve now properly spots El and he immediately knows that getting her powers back wasn’t fun or easy. He also knows better than to comment on her lack of hair, so he just hugs her like he did at the funeral and fiercely says: “I am so glad to see you, El. Thank you for coming to save Chrissy and Max.”
She hugs him back and says: “Thank you for keeping my friends safe here.”
It chokes him up all over again and he holds her close. He got everyone through alive, but they have never been more hurt collectively, so he doesn’t feel like he should be thanked. But hearing it from her means everything to him, because she has always been the one keeping everyone safe right alongside Hopper and Steve. It feels good that he had her back.
“Always,” he promises her, rubbing her head. Quietly he tells her: “You look bitchin’.”
El pulls back at that and smiles at him. It’s small, but it’s there and it is so good to see her smile again.
While he was saying hi to El, Robin awkwardly half-introduced herself, because she never really got the chance to get to know Hopper and Joyce, as well as introduce Chrissy. Since she is Robin, she also half catches them up on what has happened by introducing Chrissy as the girl who got Vecna’d with Max, before going into a ramble about Vecna.
Steve puts her out of her misery as they all catch each other up on what happened.
They explain how Hopper is alive, though how Hopper survived that, Steve doesn’t know. He spent a few hours with the Russians and that was more than enough for him, being there for months sounds like a death sentence. But he’s here.
Hearing how Joyce got kidnapped to Russia is insane. He has always known that Joyce was one of the toughest people out there, but he only gains more respects for her.
It’s not really until El tells them how they fared that Steve gets mad. Robin of course notices and grabs his hand to prevent him from picking a fight with the government again.
The others have heard a little bit about what happened with them as well and they catch them up on all the drama and nonsense they’ve had to face. Luckily able to also tell them that Eddie’s name was cleared yesterday and they’ve let Henry Creel take the fall for his own killings, painting Eddie as a hero who tried to take him down, found by Steve.
It has been quite a lot for just a week and Steve is so happy they’re there. They are as tired as they are, but with them there, they have more eyes to watch out for those townsfolk who haven’t been convinced and just in case the Upside Down isn’t as collapsed as they think it is.
Steve isn’t alone in his responsibility anymore.
Will and Mike are with Lucas and Max, Dustin also having joined them, while Jonathan is visiting Nancy along with his friend, Argyle. Their group has come straight to the hospital when they arrived, but they’re tired and Steve suddenly remembers he left his cabin like… that.
“Uhm, I-” he starts, suddenly and all turn on him. He says: “I don’t know if El said that I- I have been staying in the cabin.”
“I am his landlord,” El says proudly at the new word she knows now.
Steve flushes a little as Hopper raises a brow and looks between the two. Steve shrugs: “She wanted to give it to me, I convinced her to rent it to me, but I don’t actually pay rent, I just live there.”
“Well done, kiddo,” Hopper says, ruffling El’s hair as she practically preens.
Then she tells them: “We saved your room. All your stuff is as you left it. I made Steve promise.”
Steve cringes and he tentatively says: “Uhm, about that…” El’s head whips around and Steve can feel his soul shrink under her betrayal. Quickly he waves his hands as he explains: “No, not like that. It’s all there, the basketball team just kind of broke in and searched the place and maybe also spray painted some slurs on it.”
His voice almost disappears at the end, shame taking over. He promised to keep their cabin safe and instead he led the basketball team to it.
However, when Hopper speaks, his anger isn’t directed at Steve when he asks: “They’re still targeting you?”
“I mean, it got better for a while, but they, uhm, they thought I would hide Eddie, so they came to look for him there,” Steve tells them, then hesitates before he adds: “You know how they can be, said ‘a fag will hide a fag.’ Even if they don’t know shit.”
The girls also haven’t heard that detail and they gasp alongside Joyce and Hopper when he tells them. El frowns, Steve is sure Joyce has told her not to use that word, like she told him.
Robin’s hand finds his own and he squeezes it, glad for the support. It’s not really a coming out and he tries to hide behind the fact that the basketball team doesn’t even know shit, because it’s true that they aren’t dating. Sadly. Still, it’s scary.
Steve is sure both Joyce and Hopper never fully believed him when he told them those rumors weren’t true, but they have continued to have his back, so Steve doesn’t expect a big blow out from them. Especially not Joyce and he doesn’t think Joyce would want to be with someone who couldn’t accept her boys.
“Is Powell doing anything about this?” Hopper demands to know.
“He’s kinda had his hands busy and it’s not like I’m reporting it to the cops,” Steve replies. “I don’t need that right now. I just said so you won’t be shocked when you get there. You’re free to use whatever you need.”
“When’s the last time you went home?” Joyce asks, obviously concerned, but luckily stopping Hopper from starting an interrogation about it.
Steve isn’t about to tell them that it’s been days, so he just smiles: “Not that long ago, I have the night watch with Eddie tonight.”
It’s not a lie, he just also doesn’t add that he has the night watch every night, because that’s when Wayne leaves. A detail everyone has been kind of aware of, but has kindly not mentioned in his presence yet. Except for Robin and Chrissy, who back him up and don’t mention it now.
“You’re taking care of yourself?” Joyce checks.
“I am,” Steve assures her. “Don’t worry about me, I didn’t just break a man out of a Russian prison.”
“No, but you kept a group of kids out of the hands of a super powered serial killer, that has to count for something,” Joyce tells him kindly, making Steve blush and duck his head, before they bid their goodbyes.
Once the group is gone, Chrissy lets out a deep breath and says: “I can’t believe the chief’s still alive. Breaking into your house for his funeral seems so long ago now.”
“Do you think you’ll get to keep the cabin now that he’s back?” Robin asks.
“I’ll at least get to crash there. Hopper wanted to take me in from the start,” Steve says. “But with El and Joyce in Cali, he’ll probably join them, so I might.” Not that he cares. Steve can sleep in his car for all he cares. Hopper is alive.
That night he holds vigil at Eddie’s bedside again. Max and Chrissy might get to leave in a few days, but Eddie is still out. There’s a little color in his cheeks again, but it is still wrong to see him like this. So still and quiet.
There are no rings on the hand Steve holds. All Eddie’s stuff has been given to Wayne and a selfish part of Steve wishes he could have one of them. Just to make Eddie look more like Eddie again. To know what it would be like to hold his hand properly, instead of this lifeless imitation.
“Please, wake up, Eds,” he whispers softly. “I miss you. You promised we’d move to the city together, that we’d get out of this hellhole. I still have to sit in on one of your games with the kids. I was going to make you dinner and trace your tattoos. Remember? You still need to find out if my moles make constellations. You gotta be awake to do that.”
It’s selfish to ask Eddie to wake up just for him. But Steve does it anyway. Now in the dead of night with no one around, he can ask it of Eddie. He needs to hear the other say it again. To be assured it’s not just a confession made when they thought they wouldn’t make it. To know that Eddie wants to make good on those promises.
“I love you,” he tells the sleeping boy in the hospital bed, a tear leaking from his eye and falling on the limp hand.
For a second, he thinks Eddie squeezes it, but when he frantically starts to call his name, nothing happens again.
Steve sleeps fitfully on the hospital couch, like he has so often done. Nightmares still haunt him and while he hasn’t thrown up yet, he knows it’s only a matter of time, before that happens. It makes him anxious to actually go to bed, so he gets up early and sleeps only as much as necessary.
That morning, he slips out of the room, before Wayne can arrive. It’s become routine and while he hates leaving Eddie, he is more scared of Wayne. Besides, it gives him an opportunity to check in with the others.
Today, he goes by Max. She’s flipping through a magazine, looking bored. Lucas has been forced home by his parents today along with Erica and Dustin always goes by Eddie first when he gets to the hospital. Will and El might come by later, but that isn’t now.
“How you feeling, Mayfield?” he asks, leaning against the door frame.
She scowls at him, but doesn’t look annoyed with him, just the world. “Like my legs are itching and I can’t scratch them and I have nothing to entertain me but stupid magazines.”
“That sucks,” Steve sympathizes, pulling a face. “I can ask Robin to bring some of her weird novels she loves so much. I think you’ll like them.”
“Thanks, Steve,” she smiles, a good sight. “I can’t wait to get out of here. Then I can start learning tricks with my wheelchair. Not a skateboard, but close enough.”
“God, you’re going to give me gray hairs,” Steve groans, but he’s secretly glad she doesn’t hate it entirely.
“Funny, that’s exactly what my mom said,” Max teases him and like the adult he is, he sticks his tongue out at her.
The two continue to chat a little bit more. It’s good to talk to her, to know how she’s doing, to see her. After having her nearly die because they didn’t check on her enough, Steve revels in getting to shoot the shit with her again.
After a bit, she suddenly asks: “Did you and Eddie make up again?” Steve doesn’t know what face he pulls at that, so she explains: “I saw you knocking and then he wasn’t there at new years and I never saw you two together again, but you seemed friendly again on the run.”
He had almost forgotten Max had been in on their prank on the others, but he nods: “Yeah, we- we did. Turns out, we both were being stupid, me especially. But I said sorry.”
“I hope he wakes up soon,” Max confesses softly. “He’s always nice to me.”
Emotion overtakes Steve and his voice sounds choked up as he agrees: “Me too.”
They’re startled out of the moment by a knock on the door. Both turn to find Will and El standing there. Will waves awkwardly, but El skips into the room, throwing herself at Max.
El had been there yesterday too, but her newly returned dad kind of took up a lot of her mental space, so they hadn’t caught up properly yet. But they are now. The two of them immediately start chattering away.
As they do, Will comes to sit next to Steve. He and Max are friends too, but he’s content to let his sister catch up with Max first. He can always do it later and she needs this right now. And he and Steve probably need to have a conversation too.
Steve hasn’t spoken with Will after those few words before they moved to California. Right now he’s glad that he didn’t have the chance to fuck Will up again when his own bullshit came in the way again. But right now he is in a good space. The best space actually. He can talk to Will now, should he want that.
He’s about to subtly ask if Will wants to, so they can find a more private space to sit. However, before he can, there is screaming coming down the hall.
They rush to the door where Steve almost collides with Dustin, who yells: “Eddie woke up! He woke up!”
It takes a second before the words register, then Steve almost pushes Dustin out of the way as he starts sprinting down the hallways. He is dodging nurses left and right, while Dustin and maybe Will follow behind him.
The elevator takes too long, so he’s taking the stairs two at a time, before flying into the hallway where Eddie’s room is.
When he gets there, he nearly runs into the door frame in his scramble to round the corner, skipping to a halt in the room. He’s breathing loudly as he takes in Eddie, who is sitting upright, his eyes open, looking tired but awake. Alive.
“Eddie,” Steve breathes, almost like he can’t believe it.
“Stevie,” Eddie smiles, his arm shaking as he attempts to reach out, though his muscles are still too weak.
However, before it can drop it, Steve is already holding his hand, pushing into his space or maybe pulling himself into it. He sits on the edge of the hospital bed as he brings up a shaking hand, tucking a strand behind Eddie’s ear, which makes the other boy blush.
“You’re- you’re awake,” he says, his voice quiet and filled with awe, as if he’s afraid the moment will become undone or broken if he speaks too loudly.
“I am,” Eddie replies, a crooked grin coming over his face as adds: “I still had a few promises to fill, remember? Like moving to the city, letting you sit in on a game… tracing your moles, finding the constellations there.”
Tears appear in Steve’s eyes and he buries his head in the crook of Eddie’s neck as he starts to weep. It’s not really crying or sobbing, just little gasps as tears stream out of his eyes. Unable to out all his emotions in any other way.
Eddie probably thinks he’s pathetic, but he truly can’t help but cling to him. Though Eddie is clinging back just as hard and a wet spot appears on Steve’s shirt too.
“I’m so sorry for passing out on you, sweetheart,” Eddie whispers.
“Don’t apologize for that, you idiot. I’m just glad you came back to me,” Steve tells him. He’s not going to let Eddie feel guilty for nearly dying of all things.
“I’ll always come back to you,” Eddie promises and even though he can’t truly promise that, Steve believes him.
“I’ll be waiting,” he replies, a promise in his own right.
It’s not an I love you, but it feels the same. It’s enough of an affirmation that that’s still real, now they get to built up to it again. Say it when their lives aren’t in danger, when they’re not in a hospital.
The two of them finally manage to let go and look each other in the eye. Even tear stained and bruised with exhaustion, Eddie’s eyes are beautiful. And now Steve is finally allowed to get lost in them like he has always wanted to.
Well… Almost.
Behind them, someone clears their throat and Steve startles as he scrambles off the bed to check if they’ve been caught. If they’re going to die now.
Instead, he comes face to face with something that is almost worst; Wayne.
“So, you’re the Steve Eds has told me so much about,” he says, looking Steve over. Probably seeing all the parts where Steve fails. Where he isn’t good enough.
Steve swallows: “Yes, sir.”
“Uncle Wayneee,” Eddie whines. “Steve is cool.” Wayne raises his brow, obviously not believing it, but Eddie isn’t letting it stand. He crosses his arms and juts his chin in a way that is very attractive as he argues: “Steve believed I was innocent. He hid me from the cops, fed me and drove me to the hospital. We talked. It was a misunderstanding. He’s cool.”
Okay, so Eddie did tell Wayne about their fight and their friendship. Steve is now glad he avoided Wayne, because he feels his knees shaking under that stern gaze.
However, with Eddie’s words, Wayne’s face softens and he steps forwards. Without thinking about it, Steve steps backwards, mentally cringing at his own actions, though they are founded in valid experiences.
Wayne frowns again as he does, but he doesn’t move any closer, which Steve is grateful for. Instead, he says: “Thank you for bringing my boy home to me.”
“Oh, uhm, you’re welcome, sir. It- It was no issue,” Steve stumbles, unsure how to act in face of this sudden chance of tune. “Is- Is this okay?” he adds, because he’s still waiting for the other shoe to drop, even if he knows Wayne knows Eddie is gay, this might be too much.
“Of course it’s okay,” Wayne assures him. “Eds told me you were family.”
It’s the same euphemism Eddie used at that picnic table back in the spring of 1985, now almost a year ago. The sentence that made Steve feel safe for the first time. Now he knows where Eddie got it from.
Oh my god, Eddie got it from Wayne. Wayne knows. Wayne is gay.
Steve is sure his eyeballs nearly fall out of his sockets and Wayne sends him a crooked little grin that makes him look like Eddie. “I mean no harm, son,” Wayne assures him and Steve again feels that blanket of safety fall over his shoulders.
Tentatively, Steve allows himself to smile back. “Thank you, sir.”
“No need for that sir shit,” Wayne tells him, again stepping closer – which Steve allows this time – and clasps a hand on Steve’s shoulder. “You saved Eddie and you made him smile, that’s more than enough for me. You’re always welcome at our house.”
“Thank you, s-” Steve stops himself before he can say sir again, but he doesn’t care about the mishap. Meeting Wayne could have been so so so much worse.
“Can I please have my Steve back now,” Eddie interrupts them and Wayne chuckles, while Steve blushes.
Though, despite his red face, he still sits down next to Eddie again. His Steve. It sounds great, the best and now that Eddie is awake and all their issues cleared up, Steve is never just leaving his side again. Unless like Robin needs him.
Eddie sags back into the pillows and softly murmurs: “I’m a little sleepy, sweetheart. Sorry.”
“Don’t be sorry, Eds, just rest,” Steve tells him.
“Will you be there when I wake up?” Eddie asks.
“Of course,” Steve promises. “And I’ll be there when you recover and when you get released and then I’ll take you on a silly movie date, if you’d like.”
“I’d love that, Stevie,” Eddie grins tiredly, before he drops off again.
Steve rearranges the pillows a little until Eddie is comfortable, though it might not have mattered, since the boy is fast asleep again. A fond smile graces his lips as his hands linger slightly on Eddie’s skin, finally allowed to touch. To be close.
Dustin’s voice cuts through the moment as he complains: “I didn’t even get to say hi to him.”
He is standing at the doorway alongside Will, who is staring at the scene with eyes big as saucers, which are filled with awe and hope. Dustin however, looks displeased, crossing his arms as he goes on: “When I got here the doctors were poking at him and now you stole all his attention.”
Will glances at Dustin, then at Steve. He’s clearly unsure if Dustin is that oblivious or if he’s that cool and he doesn’t know how to react.
Steve smirks at Dustin then says: “Probably because he likes me better.”
At that Dustin is about to get say something huffy, before he remembers Will and stops himself, also glancing between his friend and Steve. It’s very touching that neither of them want to out him to the other.
“It’s okay,” he assures them.
That’s enough for Dustin, because he immediately pouts: “Just because Eddie’s your boyfriend now or whatever, doesn’t mean he’s not my friend.”
“Technically, I found him first,” Steve points out.
“But I didn’t know that!” Dustin exclaims. “You still have to hang out with me. Both of you. This is unfair.”
“Dating someone doesn’t mean dropping all your friends,” Steve rolls his eyes. “Of course we’re still going to hang out with you. I’ve had to sit both of your rambling about your little board game too much for either of you to give that up.”
“You know DnD isn’t a board game,” Dustin complains, but he’s smiling again as he sits on Eddie’s other side. He tells the sleeping form: “You better say hi to me when you wake up again.”
Steve snorts at that, but doesn’t tease Dustin further. He knows how Dustin felt about Eddie being in a coma. How badly he wanted the other to wake up. Dustin deserves to be a little huffy about not getting to say hi to him when he finally did woke up.
Will cautiously follows Dustin, unable to stop looking between Wayne, Steve and Eddie. It’s both adorable and heartbreaking. Steve wants to say something to him, but Dustin is there and Steve knows better than that.
Wayne also goes to sit back down and sags a little in his chair. The man must be exhausted, working the nights and spending the day here. An idea pops in Steve’s head and he says: “I’m getting some coffee while Eds is still asleep. Want me to bring you one too?”
“Hm? Ah, yeah, thank you,” Wayne says, startling a little from where he was nodding off.
Steve nods, then turns to Will, asking him: “Wanna help me carry, Will?”
Smart as he is, Will sees the offer for what it is and gratefully takes it, following Steve out of the room and down the hall. As always, leaving Eddie hurts, but knowing he’s awake makes it all the easier.
Instead of going to the cafeteria directly, Steve leads Will outside. Once in the privacy of the outdoors, Will bursts: “You and Eddie are dating?”
“Yeah, but it’s a new thing. We danced around each other until- Well, until it was nearly too late,” Steve tells him.
“You have a boyfriend,” Will says, more for himself, because he needs to hear it to believe it.
“I do,” Steve smiles giddily. He also almost can’t believe it either. With all the ups and downs he’s had in accepting himself, it’s almost unreal to be here. To have this. To be in a place where it doesn’t want to make him curl into a ball.
“How does it feel?” Will asks.
“Odd, but great,” Steve answers honestly. “It’s not really real yet. Having this.”
“So, uhm, you’re gay?” Will quietly asks, as if he knows he shouldn’t, but needs to know.
“I am. I’m gay, yeah,” Steve says, because Will needs to hear that even if it’s just once. He needs to have someone say it and it be okay. “I’m sorry about not talking to you last summer. You didn’t deserve that.”
Will looks to the ground, looking grateful but guilty as he kicks the dirt a little. He says: “I mean, I get it. You just got kicked out. Probably wasn’t a good time.”
“Nah, it wasn’t, but I was a bit of dick about it,” Steve shrugs easily. Thinking about that day still makes his heart constrict, but it’s getting easier with time. Easier with people around him, who do accept him.
“A bit,” Will gives in, sending Steve a small smile to tell him he doesn’t mean it.
They’re quiet for a second. Steve isn’t sure if more is coming, but he’s giving Will time. Everyone needs time with this.
After a minute or so, it seems like Will isn’t going to say anything. Steve is about to herd him back inside and get that coffee like they promised, when Will suddenly says: “I might be too, you know, uhm, gay.”
Steve has already known that, but he doesn’t say it. It can be terrifying to hear that you didn’t pass as straight and the only reason Steve even suspects is because Will let him see glimpses of himself that allude to it. So instead he says: “Thank you for trusting me with that,” as he pulls the kid into a hug.
Will goes easily, hugging Steve tightly. It makes his wounds twinge, but he doesn’t care.
It feels good to be in a place where he can hold Will. It hasn’t been easy to get here and there probably will be roadblocks ahead that he can’t foresee yet, but right now, he’s in a good space and he can be here for Will, like he couldn’t last summer. That’s already amazing.
They stand there for a bit until Will pulls back and clears his throat, obviously embarrassed. Steve gets it, so he just asks: “Anything you wanna know before we go back in?”
“Who knows?”
“That I’m…?”
“Yeah.”
“Well, Robs – Robin – knows, Chris- Chrissy, too. Eddie of course, Dustin too and Wayne. I’m pretty sure Joyce and Hopper suspect, but I never confirmed. And I accidentally came out to Nancy, but I haven’t spoken with her since,” Steve lists.
“Can I talk to those people about it?” Will asks, sounding like he isn’t sure it’s a question he should be asking.
Steve can read between the lines and figure out, Will might want one of his own friends to talk about his struggles. Steve will always be his brother’s girlfriend’s ex, who is friends with his friends and who he has gotten to know. He never had Will under his wing during their run ins with the Upside Down, so they have a different connection.
“Course you can, kid,” Steve tells him, ruffling his hair. “Now let’s get that coffee before they start wondering where we are.”
Will looks lighter than he has in a long time as they walk back into the hospital to get the coffee for Steve and Wayne, as well as some snacks for Dustin and Will.
When they get back, Steve knows they’ve been gone a little too long for getting coffee. He meets Wayne’s eyes and nods to him as Wayne nods back, a bit of approval and understanding in his eyes that has pride swell in Steve’s chest.
Eddie is still asleep, but he’s sniffling and shuffling a little as he sleeps. It’s an infinite improvement to the stillness from before.
Things are looking up. Finally.
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We’re finally here! Steve and Will buddies! It took so many chapters, but we’re here :D
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JEWS COME OUT AGAINST HARRY INTERVIEW WITH GABOR MATE
Prince Harry was today urged to reconsider holding an online event to promote his memoir, Spare, with a 'toxic trauma' doctor who has compared Hamas to the Jewish heroes of the Warsaw Ghetto Uprising against the Nazis and once branded Israel's government terrorists.
Gabor Maté, 79 - who has also defended Palestinian rocket fire at Israeli civilians - will join the Duke of Sussex on Saturday for an 'intimate' £17-a-head virtual conference to discuss 'living with loss and the importance of personal healing', followed by a live Q&A.
Rabbi Abraham Cooper, of the Simon Wiesenthal Center in New York, told the Jewish Chronicle: 'Whoever made the arrangements to have this individual appear with Prince Harry, did him no favours. If Prince Harry knew this man's record and still chose him for the interview, our center would criticise the prince for such an inappropriate choice.'
Harry's memoirs are dominated by the death of his mother Princess Diana in 1997. Buckingham Palace will be watching what he says at 5pm GMT tomorrow, especially after it emerged this week that King Charles decided to evict the Sussexes from Frogmore Cottage in Windsor just 24 hours after the release of Spare.
Dr Maté, a Hungarian-Canadian physician, has his own harrowing story. Born in Nazi-occupied Budapest in 1944, when he was five months old his maternal grandparents were among the Jews murdered in Auschwitz. He was taken from his mother and hidden with an aunt until the war ended.
But it is not clear if Harry is aware of some of the controversies - and hurt - Dr Maté has caused with some of his words, especially on Israel and Palestine.
He has also recently defended Pink Floyd founder Roger Waters and former Labour leader Jeremy Corbyn from claims of anti-Semitism.
He has also appeared on a left-wing YouTube channel: The Grayzone, which has been branded pro-Kremlin.
MailOnline has contacted a representative of Prince Harry for comment and asked if the event is still going ahead and whether Harry was aware of the controversies surrounding Gabor Maté before the event was organised.
It is not yet clear who put Harry and Dr Maté together, and if they have spent time together in the past.
It could be the publishers of Spare or one of the Sussexes' team who put them in touch.
Archewell's executive director is Briton, James Holt one of Prince Harry's longest-serving team members, having led communications for the Royal Foundation from October 2017, when it was run by Harry along with Prince William and Kate Middleton.
Mr Holt, who has previously worked for the Liberal Democrats, also acted as Harry and Meghan Markle's UK spokesman and took on the role of executive director of the Archewell Foundation in March 2020. He is now based in LA.
There is also Mandana Dayani, who Harry and Meghan hired as a tech and media executive in June 2021.
There is also Ashley Momtaheni, one of the Sussexes' most recent hires. She joined last May as executive vice president for global communications.
In 2021 Gabor Maté said in an online event that Hamas was 'nothing compared to the terrorism of the Israeli government', accusing Israel of wanting to seize all of 'biblical Palestine' beyond the Jordan.
He also appeared on a podcast with left-wing comic Russell Brand, saying of Israel: 'It's the longest ethnic-cleansing operation in the 20th and 21st centuries. It's still going on.'
He then described Gaza as 'the world's largest outdoor prison'.
In another controversy, writing in the Toronto Star, he compared Hamas terrorists to the heroes of the Warsaw Ghetto Uprising - the 1943 Jewish rebellion in German-occupied Poland
Dr Mate said in in 2014: 'The Palestinians use tunnels? So did my heroes, the poorly armed fighters of the Warsaw Ghetto.'
Defending the firing of rockets from Palestine into Israel, he said: 'Out of impotent defiance, they fire inept rockets, causing terror for innocent Israelis but rarely physical harm'.
He has spoken in friendly terms of Pink Floyd star Roger Waters, recently described as 'antisemitic to [his] rotten core'.
Gabor Maté also taken in part in discussions hosted by a far-left, pro-Kremlin blog and defended Jeremy Corbyn against charges of antisemitism, according to The JC.
Harry will speak publicly tomorrow as the rift with his family appeared to deepen this week.
His father appears to have retaliated to Spare by evicting the Sussexes from their grace-and-favour UK home.
The couple no longer have a base in Britain - in an act their allies say they consider to be 'cruel'.
And a wrangle over money could also follow.
Meghan Markle and Prince Harry could be owed a 'refund' after they were kicked out of Frogmore Cottage having spent £2.4million on refurbishments and apparently paying for rent up front.
King Charles issued notice to the Sussexes that they would need to vacate the five-bedroom mansion on Tuesday in a dramatic move reportedly prompted by the repeated broadsides at Queen Consort Camilla in the Duke's memoir, Spare.
The decision was backed both by his wife and the Prince and Princess of Wales, it is understood.
However, it has now prompted questions as to whether the Crown Estate, which leases out Frogmore to the Sussexes, might actually end up owing the couple money.
The Sussexes were given use of Frogmore Cottage in 2018 by Queen Elizabeth amid their explosive fall-out with William and Katherine.
It was originally five, run-down, staff residences but was knocked back into one large home with a private garden initially using £2.4million in taxpayers' money.
The couple themselves paid for anything over and above basic fixtures and fittings.
At the time, the couple were said to be 'relieved and pleased' to refund taxpayers for the renovations.
'They are 'very relieved and very pleased' to have been able to pay off the debt so quickly,' a source close to them told Vanity Fair's Katie Nicholl.
'This has been a pro-active step and something they wanted to do from the outset.
'There was no requirement [from the Queen] for them to pay the money back but it was important to them that they did, and after the Netflix deal they were in a position to do so. I think this is quite a significant moment for them.'
The source added: 'They're now in their forever home, it's the start of their new life and they're very much looking forward to everything that's about to come.'
Gabor Maté has 20 years' experience working with people suffering from addiction and mental illness, with other specialisms such as stress and child development. But it has since emerged he once caused concern with the authorities for using a 'spiritual' psychedelic drug to treat patients.
He was born in Budapest in 1944, his maternal grandparents were killed in Auschwitz when he was five months old.
Tragically he was separated from his mother as a baby to save his life, while his father was subjected to forced labour by the Nazis.
The academic has described how he was unable to look at his mother when they were finally reunited when he was a toddler due to feelings of 'abandonment, rage and despair'.
He says the trauma he suffered continues to affect his adult life, leading to an intense emotional reaction when he perceives a threat of abandonment, especially from his wife.
He also believes it may have shaped his 'addiction' to shopping for classical music.
'As I was writing about my hardcore, drug-addicted clients I was certainly able to recognize similar areas in myself and in their behaviors,' he told Classical Voice in 2013.
'Working through the emotional dynamics and being with the emptiness that addictions attempt to fill, it just helped me understand myself better.'
The author is an outspoken supporter of decriminalising drugs, and has used the Amazonian plant ayahuasca to treat patients suffering from mental illness.
The psychedelic plant, which is taken as a brewed drink, causes people to experience hallucinations and other side effects, including vomiting.
Ayahuasca has traditionally been used by shamans and traditional healers but is now popular among Western tourists.
It remains illegal in the US, UK and Canada, and in 2011 Canadian officials threatened to arrest Dr Maté if he didn't stop using the drug to treat his patients.
Dr Maté regularly airs his opinions on a range of topics, and in 2021 appeared on a podcast series by the comedian Russell Brand where he discussed the Israel-Palestine conflict.
'There's no way you could have ever created a Jewish state without oppressing and expelling the local population,' he said.
Dr Maté called Gaza the 'world's largest outdoor prison,' and said that 'given those conditions, of course people will go for extremist leadership' - a reference to the 2006 election victory of Hamas.
'The disproportion of power and responsibility and oppression is so markedly on one side, that you take the worst thing you can say about Hamas, multiply it by a thousand times - and it still will not meet the Israeli repression, and killing, and dispossession of Palestinians,' he said.
He has published a series of books including In the Realm of Hungry Ghosts, Close Encounters With Addiction, When the Body Says No, The Cost of Hidden Stress and Scattered Minds: The Origins and Healing of Attention Deficit Disorder.
He has received the Civic Merit Award of the City of Vancouver and the Order of Canada for his work on addiction and other mental health-related contributions.
Prince Harry's decision to select Dr Maté to help promote his memoir is another sign of his interest in therapeutic healing, having previously discussed his experience of going through therapy.
The event, organised in collaboration with Harry's publishers Penguin Random House, will take place at 5pm UK time on Saturday March 4.
It comes at a fragile time for the Sussexes, who have seen their popularity ratings in the US drop significantly since the release of Spare last month - and now face a decision over whether to attend Charles' coronation.
Since December last year, Harry's popularity has sunk by 48 points and Meghan's by 40, giving them net approval ratings of -10 and -17 respectively, according to a survey by Redfield & Wilton for Newsweek.
Sources suggest neither William nor King Charles are prepared to offer any apology prior to the coronation, meaning the Sussexes may stay away.
'There is still a huge amount of ill-will boiling over in the family,' one said.
Save the date cards are set to be sent in two weeks to the 2,000 guests who have been chosen to attend the pared-down spring ceremony.
Numbers have been reduced from the 8,251 who attended Queen Elizabeth II's coronation in 1953 to make the event more streamlined amid the cost of living crisis.
Formal invitations to those who have indicated they will accept will not be posted until three weeks before the event itself.
One well-placed source says Harry has made it clear that he wants a private apology of some sort from both Charles and William if he is to attend.
It is unclear whether Meghan will attend the ceremony if Harry chooses to do so, but as the date chosen for the coronation also falls on their son Archie's fourth birthday, there are doubts she will be present regardless of the ongoing family feud.
Anti-semitism has been rising the US at an alarming rate. I can't imagine Harry's choice to sit down with Gabor is going to go down too well with Americans, especially my fellow liberals.
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