#buck needs a hug

[junkiefox]

9-1-1 s04e08 spoilers!

I can't find the courage to write this, but I was thinking insanely about a missing scene after Taylor left and Chris arrived at his loft.

Buck feeling the weight of Taylor's words and feeling terrible bc she was right. He is a terrible friend.

First of all, he didn't want her in there, not really. He didn't think how she could understand his words, bc he wasn't thinking. Bc if he was honest, who he wanted to call to that damn dinner was his best friend. But, of course, he can't.

He is a terrible friend bc he wanted to call Eddie and ask if he was free to come to the dinner with Veronica and Albert, just bc he doesn't want to be alone during that uncomfortable situation. And bc, maybe, he wouldn't mind if Veronica thought that they were dating, and they wouldn't have to pretend a lot –or even pretend ar all.

And he is terrible bc he can't be happy for Eddie. Fuck, he is happy for him moving on with a woman as amazing as Ana, but he hates the feeling that he'll be left behind, that he'll need to see the man he has falling in love, is falling for someone else–and, honestly, Buck thinks that she's perfect. Eddie deserves her. He deserves be happy.

But Buck can't hold the horrible feeling that consumes him. He feels like he's losing Eddie and Chris, and it destroys him. Bc it finally hits him that Eddie is moving on. They are going to change their dynamics, bc Buck won't be necessary for much longer. Ana will be there on the movie nights, she'll be making them breakfast, the one who'll be there when Chris wakes crying after a nightmare, and who'll help Eddie during bad days.

And Buck knows he'll need to step back. Bc he can't stay. Bc Eddie will move on and build a family. And Buck needs to understand soon how to deal with the feeling of just being the best friend. And swallowing the bitterness in his mouth that this thought brings.

He is happy for Eddie. But he isn't happy.

So, when Chris comes crying desperate bc people doesn't stay, his heart breaks a little. When Eddie comes and Buck tells him that Chris is scared, he almost says that he also is. And when they leave, Buck wishes that he could go with them.

However, he is left with an empty loft and a whole bottle of wine to drink.

#I could write so much more but I get anxious writing so this is what I can write for now :( #buddie 911 #buddie angst #chris totally should had ask why buck can't be his dad's newest boyfriend #chris and buck deserve more screen time #buck buckley #eddie diaz #christopher diaz #buck needs a hug #evan buckley #evan buck buckely #buddie missing scene #angst #911 fic

[aspecbuddie]

“Did they tell you to invite me, or did you have to ask them if I could join?”

“Does it matter?” Maddie asks.

That’s all the answer Buck needs.

ao3

#this is hitting harder today #none of my family offered to come see me for my birthday #yet both parents and stepparents have been on multiple holidays since my birthday a month ago #buck needs a hug #and so do i #yes im rereading my own fic ssshhh apparently i felt like making myself cry again #evan buckley #911 #maddie buckley #911 fic #also finally figured out how to link stuff in posts which took embarrassingly long considering I've been coding for years in school and uni

[skyetorrin]

Whumptober 2022 - Prompt No. 2

Prompt No. 2: Nowhere To Run

Cornered | Caged | Confrontation

Summary: Dr. Wells comes back to mess with Buck.

Content Warnings: Disassociation (detailed), Negative Self Talk (brief), Non Consensual Kissing (detailed), Non Consensual Touching (detailed), Past Rape/Non-Con (mentioned)

@whumptober-archive

Also posted on ao3 here.

Buck hated these days. The days were it was his job to stay behind and clean everything. While it didn’t happen that often anymore, now that him and the rest of the 118 had mostly put the lawsuit behind them.

Still, he hated the crushing loneliness that threatened to overtake him when he was left alone. The fear that when they left, they would leave him behind for good this time. Sighing, Buck decided he should probably shake himself out of his thoughts and decided he might as well take out the trash to the dumpsters out back.

He had just finished putting the bag into the dumpster when he sensed someone standing behind him. Turning around he said, “Hello. Can I help-” before cutting himself off, realizing who it was.

“Hello Buck.” The words were cheerful but the tone was dark and menacing. It made him nervous.

“Dr. Wells?”

“Not anymore. You lost me my job and my license.” Buck was staring to feel slight panic. The woman in front of him was angry, and she was angry at him.

“That wasn’t my fault.” She inched closer to him until Buck was backed against the wall, fear flashing in his eyes. He suddenly remembered the exact feelings he had last time they interacted, not the fake ones he convinced himself he felt, but the raw terror and powerlessness he felt.

“Stop playing around Buck. You were a sex addict. You still are. You brought up being Facebook friends. You had sex with me. Not the other way around. Of course I lost my job because of you. It’s all your fault. Everything is always your fault Buck .”

With each added word, Buck felt himself sinking lower and lower to the ground, attempting to push as far back into the wall as was physically possible.

“Just remember. You caused every bad thing that ever happened to you.” She caressed his face with her hand, her long nails scratching his face as he whimpered beneath her.

“Please don’t.” They words were lacking the power he wished they had, the power that he felt being taken from him as she moved closer and closer to him.

She leaned down to kiss him and he whimpered again, praying to anything and anyone that would hear him to make it stop. Idly, he wondered if the 118 was back yet and if anyone even noticed he was gone if they were.

All he felt was the searing heat of the kiss, a burning that felt more akin to hot coals in his mouth, rather than the firework feeling people usually talked about. He felt violated and there was nothing he could do to stop it.

He should be able to stop it. Why wasn’t he stopping it? Maybe she was right. Maybe he was still a sex addict. Maybe he was Buck 1.0 all over again. Maybe he was never not the reckless kid who lived for sex. Maybe that was all he was.

He lost track of the time that passed as she continued kissing him and running her hands all over him. He felt oddly detached from his body and hardly felt the wet tears on his face anymore or the constant whimpering sound he was making.

He vaguely registered the sound of footsteps approaching as he felt her pulling away. He heard voices overlapping as he continued to stare off at a specific point off in the distance.

“Get away from him.”

“Bobby call Athena, she might be able to help.”

Time must have passed because suddenly there was a person kneeling beside him and Buck flinched away.

“Hey, it’s alright Buck. It’s just me. It’s Eddie. I’m not going to hurt you.”

“...Eddie?” Buck’s voice sounded hoarse and raspy even to his own ears and it made him want to flinch away again.

“Do you think you can get up and walk with me Buck?” He shook his head. “Can I touch you so I can guide you inside?” He hesitantly nodded, mentally bracing himself for Eddie’s touch.

Buck watched, detached, as he was led to the couch, Eddie’s arms firmly on his so he didn’t collapse like he so desperately wanted to. Hen and Chimney came up the stairwell shortly after, updating them on what had happened.

“Bobby just called Athena, she’s on the way.”

“Why did you do that?” Buck asked, speaking the first full, coherent sentence since they had found him in the alleyway.

“I figured she could help with the legal side of things in case you want to press charges.” Bobby said as he climbed up the stairway to the lounge area where Buck was currently latching onto Eddie for dear life.

When Athena arrived, she helpfully laid it all out for him, without getting too caught up in emotion. “Unfortunately, because it was just non consensual kissing and touching, we cannot take her to court. However, what we can do is file a restraining order that will keep her from getting near you.”

Buck nodded, “Yeah… yeah that sounds good. I want to do that.” They got to work on the paper work while Bobby was cooking dinner and the rest of the 118 was lounging around, providing comfort to Buck in the fact that they were there and they weren’t leaving him this time.

#whumptober2022 #no.2 #corned #caged #confrontation #fandom #fic #disassociation #negative self talk #non consentual kissing #non consensual touching #past rape/non-con #nsfwhump #9-1-1 #evan buckley #buck whump #hurt!buck #buck needs a hug #insecure!buck #bisexual!buck #eddie diaz #protective!eddie #worried!eddie #caring!eddie #pre relationship #eddie x buck #post tsunami #post lawsuit #canon divergence

[lastchancecafe13]

Eddie's eyes trace up the length of Buck’s throat to the dark circles under his eyes and the thin sheen of sweat along his brow. He looks exhausted in a way Eddie is intimately familiar with, and he can't help but lean into Buck’s space, letting the press of his body offer some silent support.

Read on A03

#911 fic #buck x eddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buck needs a hug #weighted blanket #soft feels #buddie fic

[batcavescolony]

911: we're mostly fine? Need some therapy, we fight but it's ok, we're family!

911 lone Star: This show started with all but one firefighter dying and people haven't stopped dying since. It's only pain. everyone gets their houses blown up! But we're also a family!

#batcavescolony watches 911 #batcavescolony watches 911 lone star #lone star isnt doing so well. they all need therapy and hugs #judd ryder #grace ryder #tk strand #owen strand #tommy vega #mateo chavez #marjan marwani #paul strickland #nancy gillian #evan buckley #eddie diaz #bobby nash #hen wilson #chimney han #maddie buckley #athena grant #911 #911 lone star #911 ls #the 118 #the 126 #its such a stark difference #like yeah chimney got rebar through his head. eddie shot and burried. buck crushed tsunamied and lightning fried. but they didnt die #the poor 126 has their capts spouses killed. whole house killed. one of their ambulance guys die. #batcavescoloy watches

[ihearteugeneroe]

im having so many feelings about john and gale in the new episode and i NEED to share them. buckle up guys this is a long one because this last episode was angsty for these two and i love psychoanalysis

HUGEEE MOTA SPOILERS!!!!!!!!!!

first and foremost, john is absolutely not okay. like i know we have seen this so many times already because he’s been on a mental decline since episode six but it’s gotten worse. the beginning scenes where him and gale fetch the water and gale tries to create some playful banter only to receive a mostly silent john is scary, especially because he knows that man is a chatterbox that can’t shut up to save his life. something has changed and gale knows, but gale doesn’t push it.

second of all, the topic of marge. nobody would ever make fun of a guy getting a letter from his girl because that’s the only source of joy they get inside the hell of a pow camp. but the way john seems almost annoyed by it, as if it is personally inconveniencing him is so noticeable. now one could argue it’s just because he doesn’t have a girl back home, but i don’t think he cares even a little bit about that. john has realized that his home is wherever gale is. which brings me to my third topic.

the scene where gale tells john he asked marg to marry him. the fact that he doesn’t even say those exact words, but rather “popped the question and she said yes”. god, the tension in that scene was goddamn near unbearable. john is entirely stoic which is concerning knowing that he is a man of emotion who feels things on an entirely different level than most men. something is turning within his brain and his way of congratulating gale was so robotic and almost calculated. i feel like a part of him kind of froze in that moment. i mean, he likely knew they would never get anywhere serious because hell this is the 1940s in the middle of a war but still. his buck is no longer his. and who does he have besides buck?

which brings me to one of my final points: john is realizing he doesn’t have anybody. that scene between them where he mentioned he never got letters because he didn’t set it up right, and was so concerned gale would only know this version of him and not his old self. i don’t think anything gale could’ve said would help, but it was nice that he tried at least… john’s whole world is gale, but gale has his world back in america. he has a home. he has something to return to and someone to love when he’s out of this mess. all john is going to return home to is his own loneliness and severe ptsd. john is a feeler and he feels things deeply and painfully, like a knife in the belly, especially when it comes to gale. the man he’s in love with has a woman to return to, and he might as well just be a legend that gale tells his kids about someday. but to john, gale is everything. he will never forget.

anyways this episode for them was VERY angsty and it’s late and i’m tired so this is kind of all over the place but i wanted to share my main thoughts. thank you for reading if you got this far i’ll probably continue my rant tomorrow depending on if this actually gets any traction LMAO i still don’t know how tumblr works.

#mota spoilers #mota #masters of the air #john bucky egan #gale buck cleven #angsty thoughts #john is not okay #they both need hugs #and therapy #the brainrot is consuming me #bucky x buck

[thatsrightice]

“Bucky Cleven, the impervious, the invincible, was gone. If he couldn't make it, who could? His good friend, Bucky Egan, didn't talk much that night.”

“The loss of Bucky Cleven over Bremen and Bucky Egan over Münster seemed to have cut the heart right out of the the 100th. Without them the 100th was a shadow.”

"What I can't really handle is that when Cleven and Egan were still around, the men were happier. With them gone, the heart of the 100th has stopped beating."

“It wasn't only that my friends were gone. The spirit was gone. The laughter. Ham, Brady, Warsaw, Crankshaft, Solomon, Murph-always good for a laugh-were gone. Under Dart Alkire and Chick Harding as Group Commanders, anything went with the 100th and it did. When Bucky Cleven and Bucky Egan were setting the tone of the 100th, there was dash. There was derring-do. Flying the war was an adventure.”

— Harry Crosby in his memoir, A Wing and a Prayer

#AND THEN ALONG CAME ROSIE TO MAKE IT ALL BETTER ❤️‍🩹 #life in the stalag might have been hard but at least those men had their heart and soul… those that survived suffered horribly for it #what’s crazy is that it feels like there’s more life in the stalag than there is in the men on base #mota #masters of the air #bucky eagan #gale buck cleven #buck cleven #john bucky egan #harry crosby needs a hug #stalag luft III #mota musings #quotes #a wing and a prayer #real mota #harry crosby

[lover-of-mine]

It's been 62 episodes since the last time Buck and Eddie hugged. If you even care.

#im sorry i saw an edit saying that Buck wanted to go home and he went to Eddie #and now im crying #WHY WOULD YOU NOT LET THEM HUG????? #both of them almost died multiple times #Eddie had a whole mental breakdown #you're telling me they don't need hugs????? #is it because you can't have them hug because they wouldn't let go?????????? #WHAT IS UP WITH THAT?????????????? #I JUST WANT THEM TO HUG #AM I ASKING FOR TOO MUCH?MM #FRIENDS HUG EACH OTHER #AND THEY ARE TOUCH PEOPLE #LET THEM HUG #UGH #911 #thoughts thoughts thoughts #buddie

[heart-always]

so maybe i'm just delulu but that slight hesitation from buck and eddie after they hugged like...... idk felt like there was a tiny spark and a slight pause that definitely wasn't there before

[taken from @livelovecaliforniadreams gifset]

#but again maybe i'm delulu and reading too much into it BUT #in all seriousness though #this hug was SO needed #also like this was right after buck came out to eddie so #anything is possible #buddie #911

[fromxxthexxashes]

When it comes to kids, Eddie and Buck both have different ways of being and communicating with them. I don’t think Eddie is as naturally enthusiastic as Buck. Eddie isn’t the kind of guy who would get easily immersed in a conversation with a kid outside of Christopher, or any other kids he may or may not have. Buck is the kind of guy who can talk and talk and talk with kids because he’s got brain full of facts, and a childhood spent feeling invisible to the adults supposed to see him, so he wants every kid he meets to know he sees them and enjoys hearing what the have to say. Eddie on the other hand is just so achingly gentle. Despite growing up with a father that wanted him to “be a man” in a very toxic masculinity type of way, Eddie is soft and warm. His entire presence emanates comfort. On calls, he’s the kind of guy who the kids cling to while they’re terrified or sad. Everything about Eddie feels safe. He offers security and care so easily - it’s second nature to him.

Seeing Buck and his interactions with kids, particularly with Christopher and the borderline co-parenting role he has taken, I know Buck would be an absolutely amazing dad. And we already know, with everything we’ve seen with him, that Eddie is a fucking phenomenal dad.

#having thoughts #a few times I’ve seen people in fics make it seem like Eddie isn’t a kid person outside of Christopher #i respectfully disagree #he just has a different vibe than Buck #they both need to have more kids #together preferably #because I need to see them both with little babies being adorable and shit #Buddie being dads together is something so special #also Eddie Diaz is comfort personified btw #buddie #911 abc #911 #eddie diaz #evan buck buckely #christopher diaz #buckleydiaz #Buckley-Diaz family feels #both of them have healing hugs #I can just tell even through a screen

[szprota-xx]

can someone give me a hug since I don't have VPN, and my country doesn't have abc or hulu, therefore I can't watch premiere and wait god knows how :( :(

#911 abc #buddie #911 spoilers #s7 #911 show #why #send help #i need hugs #buck x eddie #eddie x buck

[basically-i-write-shit]

My one out of pocket predictions for 6x11 you ask?

In his coma dream, Buck is not Buck, he's Daniel.

In 6x10 he wondered what life would be like if Daniel lived. But that doesn't mean Buck would have had to also live. Savior babies go through a lot to save their siblings. So what if this "perfect family" that Buck always pictured would only be "perfect" without him in it?

#the who are you from chim. maybe maddie really did run to California and met chim. but shes still estranged from the buckleys #so when they do meet and buck as daniel is so excited to see they still know one another goes to like. hug chim and chim is like. #ive never met this man in my entire life. and maddie is like daniel haha why are you acting so weird #and then buck realizes oh. oh im not real. this isnt me. and the fake life he made as daniel starts to crumble around him. hence him coding #and then he's brought back to reality. a reality with the 118. his real family. and he realizes he needs to go back #but he doesnt know how. #911 spoilers #911 fox #evan buck buckely #eddie diaz #911 on fox #evan buckley #buck buckley

[saybiwithme]

Tease Tidbit Tuesday!

Tagged by @loserdiaz & @hippolotamus <3 This is from the surprise party fic since my brain finally let me get somewhere <3 Getting closer to the start of the party which means this fic doesn't have that much longer to go

Hen and Karen walked up to Eddie’s house, hand in hand and seemingly at ease with how everything was going so far “Do you think they’ll be close to ready?”, Hen asked Karen let out a small breath “I hope so, we’ll need Christopher soon”, she replied “Is your Mom okay with bringing Nia and Denny?”, she asked. Hen nodded her head, smiling just knowing that it was a big help for them when getting Bobby and Athena to come with them would be easier without needing to keep an eye on the kids “Yeah, she should be. They are excited to spend more time with her anyway”, she said with a giggle. Karen reached the door first, already deciding she was the one to knock since all Hen was really doing was leaning more into her shoulder. Karen lifted a hand and knocked against the wood of the door a couple of times “Coming!”, Buck called out, rushing across the room and pulling the door open, the grin was immediate from him once he saw them and he just pulled the both of them into a long hug “I’m glad you’re here!”

Tagging: @monsterrae1, @spotsandsocks, @honestlydarkprincess, @buddierights, @rogerzsteven, @eddiebabygirldiaz, @prettyboybuckley, @disasterbuckdiaz & @eddiiediaz

#oh to be hugged by buck #also I needed to write some henren lol #buddie wip

[housewifebuck]

I genuinely believe that a hug from season 6 buff buck could solve all my problems.

I’m sad right now and I just know he could fix it. He’s basically a gigantic weighted blanket

I so unironically and completely believe this like I think it would cure all my ailments

#I am a Big Person as well and whenever I hug my friends I always feel like I have to kinda hold back cause I don’t want to squeeze the life #out of them #and I feel like buff s6 buck could take it. like I could just go fucking crazy #and I really need that so bad #asks #office hours

[flowereclipsie]

ok but what if they get to the hospital and eddie slumps like buck did after chris got back safe from the tsunami and hens there and she’s worried because she’s never Seen him like that and he just whimpers out a “buck.” and then realisation also hits him that buck is the only one to ever see him like this/in a similar state and how much he wishes hen was buck right now so he could be comforted because buck knows how to make him feel better and and and

#going insane #spiralling #eddie will need a hug #a big one #if he’s not also dead #buck x eddie #buddie #911 evan buckley #911 eddie diaz #shut the flo up

[littlespoonevan]

the entire genre of hurt/comfort fic exists on the back of tv shows who severely under utilise hugs in their narratives

#you're telling me buck went through ALL THAT in buck begins and didn't get hugged ONCE??????? #maddie linked his arm but that's not enough!!!!! #he needed to be HELD #BY ANYONE #BY EVERYONE #i know there was a moment where bobby puts his arm around him that they cut and that Is in fact my villain origin story #mine #(you know what show actually is very generous with hugs? stranger things. say what you want but those characters WILL hug any time something #scary or upsetting happens to them and i for one appreciate it)