when i'm quiet on the other side, know that i'm loving you
w.c. around 12k ๐คญ
pairing. Namjoon x female!reader (also Jungkook & reader used to be together)
genre. Smut. friends to lovers-ish, pwp, angst (bc it wouldn't be me if there wasn't angst lmao), more pwp, AND FLUFF OFC
a/n. NSFW MDNI !!! curse words, alcohol mention, sexual content (fingering, unprotected vaginal penetration, oral m&f!receiving, creampie) ENJOY, let me know if I missed anything okay? <3
You couldnโt help but wonder how different things might have been if you had made a different choice that night so many months ago.
โDid you go out tonight?โ
โI didnโt, you?โ
โNah, itโs way too cold tonight, lol,โ โI want us to go for a drink thoughโ
โLast week was way colder than tonight lmaoโ, โwhen?โ
โTomorrow, is that okay?โ
โYeah tomorrow works, Iโm free after 5โ
โPick you up at 7 then.โ
Seven moons waxed and waned, each night bearing the weight of a silent longing that lingered in the spaces between heartbeats. In the quiet of those months, the echoes of your last conversation with Jungkook reverberated like whispered secrets carried on the wind, haunting yet distant. Despite growing even closer with Namjoon, part of you remained tethered to the memories of what could have been.
You didnโt remember how this started. Until you honestly stopped to think about it, that is.
You met Namjoon through some mutual friends. Every time you went out with them, he seemed to be there. At first, you didnโt think much of him. He was a cool guy, and all your friends were in love with him, but to you, he was just Namjoon.
Your heart was set on someone else, that being one of the main reasons for your way of thinking.
You thought that Jungkook was finally out of your life. After all those months where he kept you hoping that youโd be together, you opened your eyes and understood that being with him was taking you nowhere.
It wasnโt after two years of being on and off with Jungkook that this mess started to happen. But this isnโt about him anymore.ย Itโs what has been happening ever since.
Several months passed, and you had a trip coming up to Barcelona. Not even a day passed when you found out Namjoon and another one of your mutual friends were in the exact same city as you, at the same time.
You were with some of your college friends. Youโd been here for about two days, and all your expectations from this week were below averageโuntil that text came to you.
โI want to see you.โ
As Namjoonโs text message flashed on your phone screen, a wave of mixed emotions coursed through you. Memories of seeing him at mutual gatherings, his magnetic charisma, and the undeniable chemistry you both shared suddenly flooded your mind. You couldnโt deny the thrill that his message brought. So, you agreed to meet, not really knowing what to expect.
That night in Barcelona, you and Namjoon decided to explore the cityโs vibrant nightlife. The streets were alive with the energy of locals and tourists alike, and the possibilities seemed endless. As you walked through the illuminated streets, the conversation flowed effortlessly.
Namjoon turned to you with a playful glint in his eye. โBarcelona sure knows how to stay alive at night, right?โ
You nodded, taking in the enchanting atmosphere. โIt does, another city that never sleeps.โ
That particular night in Barcelona, you and Namjoon didnโt dwell on the complexities of your dynamic. Instead, you focused on the here and now, indulging in the cityโs vibrant nightlife. The streets were alive with the pulsating rhythms of music, and the possibilities for adventure seemed endless.
As you hopped from one lively club to another, the music enveloped you, and you both let loose. You danced together, swaying to the intoxicating beats with occasional laughter and shared glances that needed no words. Namjoonโs occasional hand on your waist or his deep voice softly spoken into your ear amidst the music created a sense of electric chemistry.
In the middle of it all, you reached a state of drunken bliss where the world seemed to blur, and nothing else mattered but the man in front of you. The two of you laughed uncontrollably at inside jokes that would be etched in your mind forever.
It was a night of liberation. The beauty of Barcelonaโs nightlife and the intoxication of the moment allowed you to escape into a realm of pure joy.
As the night peaked, the connection between you and Namjoon became more intimate. The night transitioned seamlessly from the vibrant energy of the city to the warmth and comfort of Namjoonโs room.
As you stood on the balcony of Namjoonโs room, overlooking the twinkling city lights below, you felt the warmth of his body radiating towards you. You leaned back against the railing, your heart pounding as you looked up at him. He was so close, yet so far away.
Namjoonโs gaze locked onto you, and he could see the desire burning within your eyes. He felt his own heart quicken, his breath hitching in his throat as he moved closer to you. He reached out, brushing a stray lock of hair from your face, his touch sending shivers down your spine.
โNamjoon,โ you whispered, your voice trembling with need.
He leaned in, his lips brushing against yours in a gentle kiss. You melted into him, your arms wrapping around his neck as you deepened the kiss. You could feel his heart pounding in time with your own, bodies pressed together in a dance as old as time.
As you broke apart, gasping for breath, Namjoon trailed his fingers down your arm, leaving a trail of goosebumps in his wake. He could feel the heat radiating off your body, and he knew that you wanted him just as much as he wanted you.
โAre you sure about this?โ he asked, his voice low and husky.
You nodded, eyes shining with desire. โYes,โ you said, voice barely above a whisper. โI want this. I want you.โ
Namjoonโs heart skipped a beat at your words. He leaned in again, capturing your lips in a searing kiss. His hands roamed over your body, exploring every inch of you for the first time. You couldnโt help but moan softly, your body trembling with desire.
He pulled away from the kiss, his breath coming in short gasps. โFuck,โ he whispered, his voice filled with both awe and desperation.
He guided you back to his bed. You looked up at him through hooded eyes, your chest rising and falling rapidly as you tried to catch your breath. โPlease,โ you begged in a soft voice. โI need you.โ
That was all it took to push Namjoon over the edge. He cupped your face in his hands and kissed you fiercely, pouring every ounce of pent-up desire into the kiss.
His hands moved down to the hem of your shirt, and he lifted it over your head in one swift motion, tossing it aside without a second thought. His gaze roamed your exposed skin hungrily, like a starving man who had just been presented with a feast.
โYouโre so beautiful,โ he said, his voice filled with genuine appreciation as he traced the outline of your bra with his fingertips. โYouโve always been so, so beautiful.โ
You found yourselves pausing your hunger for a few minutes, basking in each otherโs presence. You ended up leaning into the comfort of Namjoonโs arms. Both halted the intensity of the abrupt contact, with comfortable silences filling the gaps as you both lost yourself in the city sounds playing softly in the background. The dim light from the room cast a warm glow on Namjoonโs face, highlighting his features and making him even more irresistible.
Feeling a sudden rush of boldness, you moved closer to him, your body instinctively seeking his warmth. His eyes met yours, a silent question lingering in them. He pulled you even closer into his embrace, your bodies molding together as if they were two pieces of a puzzle.
His scent enveloped you, a mix of his cologne and something uniquely him. Your heart pounded in your chest as you felt his breath tickling the skin of your neck. His fingers traced lazy patterns on your back, causing a shiver to run down your spine. This was new, yet it felt so right.
With a soft sigh, you let your head fall back, exposing the long line of your neck. Namjoonโs lips found that sensitive skin, tracing a path down to the hollow of your throat. His fingers continued their exploration, now sliding through your thighs.
You shivered at his touch, your body begging for more. โNamjoon,โ you whispered, your voice husky with desire.
He looked up at you, his eyes filled with a mixture of lust and tenderness. โYes, y/n?โ
โI want you to fuck me,โ you confessed. Feeling bolder this time, you thought it was your turn to take your hands downtown. You dipped your hand into the hollow of his stomach before going down to trail kisses along the waistband of his pants. Namjoon groaned as he realized where this was headed.
Before he could protest,ย not that he would, you made quick work of undoing his belt to remove both it and his pants. Namjoon helped you undo them, his breath hitching as you wrapped your hand around his length. He was hard and ready, just as you were. Now fully exposed before you, he shifted uncomfortably under your gaze.
Catching onto his hesitation, you reassured him with a smile. โDonโt worry,โ you said softly. โI think Iโve wanted this for a long time.โ
Namjoonโs eyes softened as he reached out to brush a strand of hair behind your ear. โIโve thought about you, too,โ he confessed. โYou have no idea.โ
With a swift motion, you stepped out of your own jeans, too, kicking them aside.
You reached behind yourself to unclasp the bra and let it fall to the floor before pulling Namjoonโs shirt over his head and discarding it as well.
Now, almost completely naked, there you stood before him, your bodies mere inches apart. Namjoonโs hands rested on your hips, pulling you closer. His thumb traced circles on your hip bone, sending waves of pleasure through you.
Namjoonโs breath hitched in his throat. A small smile tugged at the corners of your lips at the reaction you were able to elicit from him.
Time seemed to slow down as I took in the sight before me โ this was real; he wanted me just as much as I wanted him now.
You went down on him and took him into your mouth, swirling your tongue around the tip before taking him deeper. Namjoon tangled his fingers in your hair, guiding you as you moved up and down on his length. The sight of you on your knees before him, taking him so willingly, was almost too much for him to handle.
โShit,โ he grunted, his hips thrusting forward involuntarily. โIโm gonna come too soon if you keep that up.โ
You pulled away with a wicked smile, pressing yourself against Namjoonโs body. He could feel how wet you were even through the fabric of your panties, and he groaned in frustration.
โWhy are we still wearing these?โ he asked, his voice filled with need as he hooked his fingers into the waistband of your panties and pulled them down your legs.
Once you were both naked, Namjoonโs hand trailed downwards until it found its way between your legs. He ran a finger along your folds teasingly before slipping it inside of you.
You moaned softly at the feeling of being stretched by his finger. โIโm sure we can do more than that,โ you begged in a needy voice.
Namjoon added a second finger, pumping them in and out of you at a steady pace. He curled his fingers upwards, searching for that sweet spot deep inside of you.
โGod,โ he groaned as he felt your walls clench around his fingers. โYouโre so fucking tight.โ
He continued to work his fingers inside of you until he felt your body start to shake with the first layer of your orgasm. Your back arched off the bed, and a loud moan escaped from your lips as pleasure made your body tremble.
Namjoon removed his fingers from your dripping wet core and brought them up to his mouth, sucking on them eagerly as he tasted your essence.
โYou taste so good,โ he said, his voice filled with genuine appreciation before moving downwards until he was positioned between your legs.
He leaned in and pressed a soft kiss to your inner thigh before trailing a path of kisses up toward your throbbing center. His tongue flicked out and ran along your folds teasingly before zeroing in on your clit.
You gasped at the sensation of Namjoonโs warm tongue against your sensitive bud. He circled it slowly at first, the pressure increasing with every stroke. The combination of his skilled tongue and the way his hands were gripping the flesh of your thighs was driving you absolutely wild.
โNamjoon, stop,โ you moaned, the sound of his name on your lips like a prayer. โIโm gonna cum again,โ
Namjoon hummed against you in response, sending vibrations coursing through your body that pushed you right to the edge. His tongue moved faster and more insistently against your clit, bringing you closer and closer to the brink of ecstasy.
With one final flick of his tongue, you shattered into a million pieces beneath him. Your body convulsed with pleasure as wave after wave of bliss washed over you.
Namjoon lapped up every drop of your release, not wanting to miss a single drop of you. Once you had come down from your high, he climbed back up the bed and pulled you into his arms.
You buried your face in the crook of his neck, inhaling his scent as you basked in the afterglow of your passion. โYouโre really good at that,โ you said softly.
Namjoon pressed a gentle kiss to the top of your head. โYou taste amazing. I couldnโt help myself,โ he replied, his voice filled with genuine affection. โIโve wanted you for so long.โ
You looked up at him with a smile and brushed a strand of hair away from his face. There was so much more that you wanted to say, but words were unnecessary at that moment.
Instead, you let your actions speak for themselves as you pulled Namjoon closer and kissed him deeply. The taste of yourself on his lips only served to fuel the fire that was still burning between you.
As the kiss deepened, Namjoonโs hand trailed downwards once again until it found its way between your legs. He could feel how wet you still were, and a surge of desire shot through him like electricity.
He positioned himself at your entrance and looked into your eyes for confirmation before slowly pushing inside of you. You moaned softly at the feeling of being stretched around him once again, nails digging into his shoulders as he filled every inch of you.
Namjoon began to move slowly at first, savoring every sensation as he thrust in and out of your dripping wet core. With each movement, he felt himself getting lost in an ocean that only the two of you could create together.
The rhythm quickly escalated. Your hips bucked against him, meeting each thrust with one of your own. The room was filled with the sounds of the bed creaking beneath you, skin slapping against skin, and moans mingling with whispers. It felt like time had ceased to exist as the world narrowed down to just the two of you, connected in every possible way.
The pace quickened as your bodies moved in perfect sync, building towards a shared climax that was just within reach. Namjoonโs thrusts became more urgent and desperate, like a man on the edge of sanity who was about to lose himself completely.
You could feel your walls clenching around him as an overwhelming sense of pleasure began to build deep within your core. โNamjoon,โ you moaned, his name like a prayer on your lips. โIโm cu-โ
With one final thrust, you both went hurtling over the edge together; your bodies shuddered and shook with the force of your release.
Eventually, the bliss receded, and you found yourselves once again floating back down to reality. Namjoon collapsed beside you and pulled you into his arms, holding onto you tightly as he tried to catch his breath.
โThat was...โ he trailed off, searching for the right words to describe what had just happened between you.
โReally fucking hot,โ you supplied with a smile.
Hours after being together, you and Namjoon shared a cozy meal on his hotel room balcony, savoring Barcelonaโs cuisine. With the cityโs magic still lingering in the air, you both settled into a deep conversation about your shared passion for music.
As the minutes passed, you found yourselves planning to attend several concerts together in the coming weeks and months. The anticipation of sharing those experiences added another layer of intimacy to yourย thing.
You both lay intertwined in each otherโs arms, cuddled in the dimly lit room. Fingers traced gentle patterns on each otherโs skin, and you shared soft kisses that spoke volumes in their tenderness. That night was filled with smooth, whispered conversations, with playful moments of playing with each otherโs hair.
Your time with Namjoon had an electric undercurrent that couldnโt be ignored. While not a romantic undertone, it was clear that there was a magnetic attraction between you two. You shared passionate moments, intimate conversations, and nights filled with desire that went beyond being โjust friends.โ
As you returned home, you both acknowledged the nature of your connection. A โfriends with benefitsโ arrangement that allowed you to explore your feelings without the pressure of defining a full-blown relationship. The connection was intense, yet you hesitated to leap into something more serious.
Youโd meet up when schedules allowed, enjoying each otherโs company in and out of the bedroom. Your feelings for Namjoon were confusing, and you knew he felt the same way, so neither of you was ready to put a label on it.
As time passed, the relationship continued to evolve. It was a constant push and pull, a dance of desire and restraint. You shared everything with him, but the commitment to a traditional relationship still felt elusive.
Your life continued to grow more complex with each passing day. Not only were you navigating this with Namjoon and what you started doing after Barcelona, but you also had a history with Jungkook, and there already was a connection between these two men.
Jungkook, your on-again, off-again for the past two years, had been a source of both love and, of course, heartache in your life. It was a tumultuous relationship, filled with moments of intense connection followed by periods of emotional distance. He kept you dancing around the idea of commitment, yet he seemed reluctant to fully embrace it.
What made the situation even more difficult was the fact that Jungkook and Namjoon wereย veryย close friends. Your social circles had overlapped, and you couldnโt help but wonder if Jungkook had any inkling of your growing connection with Namjoon.
As you delved into the โbenefitsโ dynamic with Namjoon, it added a layer of secrecy to your life.
Your feelings for Jungkook have always been intense and genuine. He was the one you had envisioned a future with, and you longed for a committed, loving relationship. But Jungkookโs reluctance to settle down left you in a state of constant disappointment. He wanted the freedom to explore other options, yet he always kept you within armโs reach, knowing he could turn to you whenever he pleased.
This cycle was taking a toll on you, causing not only the never-ending heartbreak but also a growing sense of frustration and exhaustion. It was clear to everyone, including your mutual friends, that you were deeply in love with Jungkook, but they also saw the toll it was taking on your well-being.
Namjoon, always so observant and compassionate, saw a glimmer of an opportunity. He understood the depths of your affection for Jungkook and sensed your growing disillusionment. He didnโt plan to interfere but couldnโt help but be drawn to your unique energy and the connection you two shared.
The situation was not of your making. Both Jungkook and Namjoon actively sought you out, and you, despite your love for Jungkook, found it challenging to resist the magnetic pull of your connection with Namjoon.
Jiminโs birthday was a pivotal moment. At that time, you and Jungkook had been mad at each other, tensions simmering beneath the surface. When you arrived at the bar to celebrate, you greeted everyone but Jungkook. The air was thick with unspoken words, and the distance between you was palpable.
Feeling the need for a moment of respite, you slipped away for a cigarette break, seeking solace in the nightโs breeze. During this break, you found Taehyung, one of your close friends, who helped you calm down for the night.
Eventually, the group decided to move to another bar, and the atmosphere lightened as everyone indulged in the evening. The drinks flowed, and laughter filled the air. All was good again.
As the night drew to a close, Namjoon kindly offered to drive everyone home in his car. The group piled in, and it was cramped, to say the least. Amid the chaos, you found yourself sitting in Jungkookโs lap, something that was not your choice.
It was during this car ride that Jungkookโs emotional side emerged, fueled by alcohol. He revealed that he was leaving for another country for six months, a fact he had kept hidden from you. You were blindsided by this news and felt a surge of anger and frustration. How could he not have shared this with you before?
Throughout the evening, Namjoon had been watching you closely. He observed how you barely interacted with Jungkook since your arrival and acknowledged the underlying tension. However, he couldnโt deny the surge of anger he felt when you ended up in Jungkookโs lap, even if it was out of necessity.
In the aftermath of Jiminโs birthday, Jungkook planned a farewell dinner for the group on the following Friday. The dinner was heartwarming, even in those conditions. Afterward, you all decided to go for drinks, further complicating everything.
The bar you hit up after dinner turned into a bit of a downer for you. While Jungkook was busy having a blast with everyone else, he seemed to be totally ignoring you. And then, to top it off, he started cozying up to his best friend on the dance floor โ talk about a buzzkill. You tried to play it cool, but deep down, it was eating you up inside. Your head was saying,ย I wonโt get jealous, I wonโt get jealous, but he kept laughing with her and holding her close to him.
You tried to distract yourself by keeping yourself glued to Taehyung and Jimin, but it was tough to keep up with their conversation when your mind was in a whirl. Chiming in occasionally was getting more complicated, so you let a bitter laugh at the ceiling, excusing yourself to go to the bathroom for a bit, asking your friends to keep your drink safe. Staring at yourself in the mirror, trying to get rid of your pathetic, sad eyes, you felt like you were stuck in some cheesy rom-com.
You couldnโt bear yourself anymore. You knew it wasnโt the girlโs fault, but you couldnโt shake the feeling of what if something was happening between them. You began spiraling, knowing you had to leave the place.
At the risk of seeing Jungkookโs silhouette on your way back to the table, you decided it was time to make a quick exit. Grabbing your purse, you muttered to your friends, โIโll be right back,โ under the pretense of needing some air, and dashed off before anyone could stop you.
Namjoon saw the whole picture. He was aware of your every move and how quick you left the bar. He worried at the thought of your utter goodbye for the night.
In the past days leading up to tonight, Namjoon found himself wrestling with conflicting emotions. On one hand, he longed to be closer to you, to break through the walls you had built around your heart. Yet, on the other hand, he couldnโt help but feel a pang of guilt at the thought of finding happiness in Jungkookโs absence.
When you stepped outside, the weight of the nightโs events hit you like a ton of bricks. You stood there on the sidewalk, feeling lost and overwhelmed. You instantly knew it was too much to actually leave like that. Pulling out your lighter and a cigarette, you took a moment to gather your thoughts. It was one of those times when you wished to call your mom and ask her, โcan you pick me up?โ but I guess โweโre too old for that.โ The air around you wasnโt even cold, but everything felt unbearably heavy.
As you stood there, lost in your thoughts, hard to believe that the asshole you love is having the time of his life.ย Good for him.ย You kept rambling. Areย you really that detestable? How could he be having the time of his life while you were left feeling so insignificant?ย It stung to realize that he hadnโt even bothered to tell you about his plans to go for half a year. It was like a slap in the face, a painful reminder of how little you seemed to matter to him.
And the fucking icing on the cake is thatย tonight, you donโt even exist in his world.
As you were spiraling into a whirlwind of more negative emotions, your phone suddenly rang, jolting you out of your thoughts. Glancing at the screen, you saw โJoonieโ flashing back at you. With a sigh, you extinguished your cigarette and answered the call.
โHello?โ you greeted, your voice tinged with a hint of frustration.
From the background noise, you could tell that Namjoon was evidently still at the bar. โCare to tell me why you left?โ he asked, his tone laced with concern.
You couldnโt help but let out a bitter laugh. โI didnโt leave. Iโm just outside having a chat with my cig,โ you replied sarcastically.
There was a moment of silence on the other end of the line before Namjoon spoke again. โAnd you didnโt think to include me? Iโve been meaning to talk to that guy,โ he joked, trying to lighten the mood.
As Namjoonโs voice filled your ears, a mixture of relief and surprise washed over you. You hadnโt expected him to call, let alone humor you in your self-imposed exile outside the bar.
โI didnโt realize you were such good friends with cigarettes,โ you replied, a hint of amusement creeping into your voice despite the heaviness of the situation.
There was a brief pause on the other end of the line before Namjoon chuckled softly. โWell, you know me. Always looking to fraternize,โ he quipped, his tone warm and lighthearted.
You couldnโt help but smile at his attempt to lighten the mood, grateful for his presence even from a distance. โThanks for calling Joonie,โ you said, the affectionate nickname slipping from your lips without a second thought.
โAnytime,โ Namjoon replied, his voice softening with sincerity. โBut jokes aside, are you okay?โ
The concern in Namjoonโs voice tugged at your heartstrings, reminding you once again of the depth of his care for you. โIโll be fine,โ you reassured him, although the words felt hollow even to your own ears.
There was another moment of silence, punctuated only by the distant strains of music drifting from the bar. โDo you want me to come out there?โ Namjoon asked, his voice laced with anxiety.
As much as you wanted to say yes, to feel the comfort of Namjoonโs presence beside you, you couldnโt bring yourself to burden him with your own shit. โNo, itโs okay,โ you replied, forcing a note of conviction into your voice. โI just needed some air.โ
Namjoon didnโt press the issue. He knew what was happening and understood the meaning of your words. Instead, he simply said, โAlright, but get back inside already. I donโt want anything to happen to you.โ
Even during your turmoil, Namjoon was there for you. โOkaaaaayyyy dad,โ you replied, full of sarcasm.
Namjoon laughed softly, his voice carrying a warmth that eased the ache in your chest. โIโll be here whenever youโre ready to come back in.โ
As you made your way back inside the bar to the table where Jimin and Taehyung were seated, their expressions were a mixture of sympathy and awareness. โAre you okay?โ Jimin asked, his voice soft but filled with genuine worry.
You forced a smile, attempting to mask the turmoil raging inside you. โYeah, Iโm fine,โ you replied, taking your long-forgotten and watered-down drink in one go, waving your hand dismissively. But they could see through the facade, sensing the underlying chaos that threatened to consume you.
Without a word, Namjoon approached the table. He placed his hand at the small of your back, offering silent support and understanding. In that moment, you felt grateful for his unwavering presence amidst your own drama.
You leaned against Namjoonโs torso and rubbed his chest before excusing yourself from the table once more. This time, however, you didnโt head for the exit. Instead, you made your way to the bar to order a considerable amount of drinks, already determined to stop feeling this level of shitty.
As you stood at the bar, ordering your drinks, you couldnโt shake the unease lingering within you. The noise of the crowded bar seemed to fade into the background as you wrestled with your thoughts, your mind consumed by the events of the evening.
On the other hand, Namjoon was careful to avoid the watchful eyes of your friends, who were scattered throughout the crowded bar. He trailed after you with a sense of purpose, his steps deliberate yet discreet. When he saw you at the bar, he didnโt hesitate to wrap his arms around your waist from behind.
At that moment, Namjoonโs heart swelled. Part of him wanted to console you for your evident emotional state. But another part couldnโt deny the selfish desire to hold you close, to revel in the warmth of your presence, even as you struggled with your own demons.
Leaning in, Namjoon gently kissed your right cheek, a silent offering of reassurance and understanding. To his relief, you sighed softly, your eyes closing as you leaned into his embrace, resting your head against his shoulder without a second thought.
โYou look way too hot tonight to be feeling like this,โ he whispered softly, his words a tender acknowledgment of your heartache. Despite the seriousness of the situation, his tone showed a hint of playful sincerity.
A voice interrupted the moment, cutting through the noise like a knife. Neither of you noticed Jungkookโs approach until it was too late. Drunk and unsteady on his feet, Jungkook stumbled over to the bar, his eyes widening in disbelief as he caught sight of the two of you together.
"Y/N?" The voice was slurred, unmistakably Jungkookโs. You tensed in Namjoonโs arms, your heart pounding in your chest as you turned to see Jungkook standing a few feet away, his expression a mix of shock and disbelief.
โJungkook,โ you said, trying to keep your voice steady despite the tumult of emotions swirling inside you.
Namjoon tensed beside you, his grip on your waist tightening almost imperceptibly, his expression unreadable.
โWell, well, well, look what we have here,โ Jungkook slurred, his words dripping with sarcasm as he stared at you and Namjoon. โDidnโt know you were into my friends, Y/N. Guess youโll take anyone who gives an ounce of attention, huh?โ
The words hit you like a punch to the gut, leaving you momentarily speechless as you recoiled from the unexpected attack. Namjoon, however, was quick to react, his protective instincts kicking into overdrive as he stepped forward to confront Jungkook.
โHey, thatโs enough, man,โ Namjoon said firmly, his voice cutting through the air as he placed himself between you and Jungkook.
You felt a pang of regret at what you had inadvertently caused, knowing that Jungkook had every right to feel hurt by seeing you with his friend.
โY/N... and Namjoon,โ Jungkook slurred, his words laced with a hint of mockery. โI never wouldโve guessed.โ
Namjoonโs jaw clenched in frustration. โCome on, man, youโre drunk, and youโre out of line.โ Jungkook scoffed, flickering between you and Namjoon with a mixture of disbelief and anger. โOut of line?โ he echoed, his tone dripping with sarcasm. Iโm just stating the obvious, arenโt I, Y/N?โ
Namjoon placed a calming hand on his shoulder, his touch reassuringly. โLetโs not make a scene,โ he said quietly, warning Jungkook. โYouโre not yourself right now. Weโll talk about this later.โ
For a moment, Jungkook seemed to waver, his drunken facade faltering. But then, with a bitter laugh, he turned and stumbled away.
Turning back to you with a look of concern. โAre you okay?โ he asked softly, his eyes searching yours for any sign of distress.
You nodded, offering him a shaky smile as you tried to push aside the hurtful words that lingered in the air. โYeah, Iโm fine,โ you said, your voice barely above a whisper. โLetโs just get out of here, please.โ
The next day dawned with a sense of unease, the previous nightโs events still fresh in your mind. As you woke to the harsh light of day filtering through your curtains, you couldnโt shake the discomfort that settled over you like a heavy blanket.
Dragging yourself out of bed, you checked your phone to find a message from Jungkook, his words a stark reminder of the events that had unfolded the night before. โHey, did you come to the bar last night?โ he wrote, his tone casual as if nothing out of the ordinary had occurred. โI canโt remember a thing, lmao.โ
On one hand, his casual tone and obliviousness to the events of the previous night grated on your nerves, but on the other hand, there was a sense of relief knowing that he seemed unaware of the tension that had hung between you, at least for now.
With a heavy sigh, you composed a response, your fingers tapping out a brief reply. โYeah, I was there,โ you wrote, your words tinged with a hint of bitterness you couldnโt shake. โWhat a night, huh? Iโm glad you had fun.โ
Meanwhile, on Namjoonโs end, the morning brought a sense of apprehension as he grappled with the aftermath of the confrontation with Jungkook. Despite his best efforts to put on a brave front, he couldnโt shake the feeling of guilt that gnawed at him from within.
Throughout the day, he debated whether or not to touch the subject with Jungkook. Still, his resolve faltered each time he tried to gather the courage. How could he confront his friend about his behavior without risking losing you?
As the hours passed, it became increasingly clear that Jungkook had no recollection of the events that had transpired the night before. His mind was fogged by the haze of alcohol, and he seemed oblivious to your exchange, leaving Namjoon at a loss for how to proceed.
After the farewell dinner passed, Namjoon became aware of your persistent efforts to see Jungkook one last time before his departure. He observed as you reached out to Jungkook, only to be met with excuses. Jungkook definitely didnโt want to make the effort to see you.
In the middle of the week, all the guys went out to grab some food; Namjoon sat in the backseat of the car alongside Jungkook, Jimin in the passenger seat, and Taehyung at the wheel. He noticed Jungkookโs phone light up with your name on the screen. It was already dark outside, so the glow from the phone illuminated Jungkookโs face, and Namjoon clearly saw your name on the screen.
It wasnโt a silent ride, so Namjoon didnโt know how the hell he could hear your voice so well as you spoke to Jungkook. Your desperation was palpable, each word carrying the weight of your emotions as you questioned Jungkook about what he had been up to and if he hadnโt gotten the chance to see any of your texts. Namjoon felt a pang of sympathy as he listened, knowing all too well the pain you were feeling.
Jungkookโs response was vague, and his attitude spoke volumes during the conversation.
It was a moment of rawness, the culmination of all your emotions laid bare in a single question. โCanโt you see I was in love with you?โ As you spoke, your voice trembled with emotion, the words hanging heavy in the air. โI never asked you for anything,โ you continued, your tone tinged with desperation. โnothing, Jungkook, not for you to move in with me or marry me; I just wanted to be with you.โ Each word was punctuated by the ache of unfulfilled longing, a plea for understanding in the face of uncertainty. โI donโt get why we canโt be together,โ you confessed, the weight of your heartache evident in your voice.
As Namjoon listened to your heartfelt plea, his heart sank with the weight of your words. He felt the tension in the air, a palpable reminder of the turmoil brewing beneath the surface. Unsure of what to do, he found himself fidgeting with his phone, his fingers tracing aimless patterns on the screen. He glanced briefly at Jungkook, whose expression remained unreadable, before clearing his throat in an attempt to dispel the heavy silence that hung over them. โShould we try that new restaurant that just opened up downtown?โ Namjoon suggested his voice as carefully neutral as possible. He knew that your words had struck a chord in his friend.
As Jungkook struggled to find the right way to respond to your words, his mind raced with conflicting emotions. He opened his mouth to speak, but no words came out. His silence hanging heavy in the air.
Sensing his hesitation, you felt a surge of tears welling up inside. Without waiting for him to finally say something, you abruptly ended the call, your actions driven more by the need to release your pent-up emotions than a desire to hear Jungkookโs explanation. The line went silent, leaving Jungkook alone with his thoughts, grappling with the weight of your words and his own inability to answer.
Jungkookโs feelings for you remained ambiguous. It was evident that there was a deep connection between you and him. He knew he loved the attention you gave him without fully understanding your feelings. To be completely honest, you caught him off guard tonight.
He never expected your affection to run so deeply, and the words you just revealed to him left him feeling surprised and perhaps a bit overwhelmed. Jungkook may have underestimated the extent of your emotions and failed to recognize the depth of what he had with you until now.
Namjoon picked you up at the hour he promised. He didnโt waste time and started asking you about what you had been up to. He said he wanted to know how you liked the last music festival you went to, how work had been, and barely five minutes had passed.
โSo, where do you want to go?โ โI was thinking we could go to one of the bars near my place; what do you think?โ
โSure, I havenโt gone out at all latelyโ, โdid you have one in mind?โ
โWait, tell me first, did you already have dinner?โ
You shook your head.
โGood because I havenโt either.โ What do you say if we go home and have dinner instead?โ
โIโd like thatโ, โwhat about some takeout?โ
On your way to get food and to his house, he didnโt stop talking for the whole ride; he kept asking all these things about you. And itโs not like youโve not seen this side of him, but it felt nice that someone was interested enough to ask about your life lately.
The conversation flowed effortlessly as you sat on his bed, eating and watching a movie. You talked about books and films and even asked if youโd considered having children someday. The atmosphere between you was electric, as always, and Namjoon couldnโt help but be swept up in it.
Getting your containers out of the way, he gently hugged you closer, feeling the warmth of your body against his. Your heart raced at his touch, you could never deny the connection between you. โArenโt you cold?โ He began to kiss your neck, sending shivers down your spine as his lips explored your sensitive skin.
The movie played in the background, but you barely noticed as Namjoon pressed you closer, his body molding against yours. โNot anymore,โ and then he kissed you deeply, his tongue exploring your mouth as his hands roamed your body.
The heat between you was undeniable as Namjoon lifted you onto his lap, your legs straddling him as he rutted into you. You moaned with pleasure, your bodies moving in a rhythm that felt both new and familiar.
Your hands tangled in his hair as you kissed him passionately, lost in the moment. Namjoonโs hands roamed over your body, tracing every curve and leaving a fire trail in their wake. The air around you was thick with desire as you both gave in to the electricity that pulsed between you.
His lips moved from your mouth to your neck, nibbling and sucking on the sensitive skin, marking you as his. Each touch sent jolts of pleasure straight to your core, causing your breath to hitch and your body to arch against him.
โNamjoon,โ you moaned his name softly, the sound music to his ears. He lifted you effortlessly, laying you down on the bed so that he could hover above you. His eyes held a mixture of hunger and adoration as he took in the sight before him.
โYouโre so hot,โ he whispered, his voice filled with sincerity. You felt a blush creep onto your cheeks at his words, but before you could respond, his lips were on yours again.
The kiss was deep and passionate, igniting a fire within you that threatened to consume everything in its path. Namjoonโs hands explored every inch of your body, leaving no skin untouched. The soft fabric of your clothes became an obstacle that needed to be removed. With nimble fingers, he began undressing you.
When all barriers were gone, he took a moment to admire the sight before him - your naked body spread out beneath him like it was the first time his eyes ever saw you. You squirmed under his gaze.ย
Get a grip. This is not the first time this has happened.
He leaned down and captured one of your nipples between his lips while his hand massaged the other breast. The sensation was overwhelming as pleasure coursed through every nerve ending in your body.
Your back arched as you moaned his name loudly into the room. Namjoon continued to lavish attention on your breasts, alternating between gentle sucking and teasing flicks of his tongue.
His lips traveled a path of hot kisses down your stomach, leaving a fire trail in their wake. He peppered your skin with soft bites and licks as he made his way to the apex of your thighs.
The anticipation built within you as you felt his warm breath against your core. When his tongue finally made contact with your sensitive bud, a moan ripped from your throat. It was intense, almost too much to handle, as he expertly swirled his tongue around your clit.
Your hips bucked involuntarily as waves of ecstasy crashed over you like an earthquake. Namjoon held onto your thighs, keeping you in place as he continued to devour you with his mouth. His hands were firm yet gentle as they held onto you, grounding you in the sea of pleasure that threatened to sweep you away.
As the intensity grew, so did the need for more. You tugged at Namjoonโs hair, urging him to come up to kiss you. He complied, moving up your body until his lips met yours once again.
You flipped him over so that now you were straddling him again. Your hands roamed over his muscular chest and abdomen before trailing lower to remove his pants.
The familiar sight before you took your breath away - Namjoon completely naked and at your mercy. His length stood proudly at your attention, begging for your touch. You wrapped one hand around him firmly while using the other to tease his balls.
The anticipation built within him as he felt your warm breath against his neck. You peppered his skin with soft bites and kisses as you made your way to the apex of his thighs.
When you finally took him in your mouth, all coherent thought fled from Namjoonโs mind. The sensation was indescribable - a mixture of wet heat and suction that threatened to push him over the edge before he even had a chance to enjoy it fully.
Your tongue swirled around the tip of his length. At the same time, you maintained eye contact with him, the sight alone nearly enough to send him hurling into oblivion.
As if reading his mind, you hollowed out your cheeks and took him in deeper, maintaining eye contact the entire time. Namjoonโs hips bucked involuntarily as pleasure surged through every fiber of his being.
โOh fuck,โ he moaned loudly, the sound reverberating throughout the room. Encouraged by his reaction, you continued to work him with your mouth, alternating between long strokes and teasing flicks of your tongue.
Namjoonโs hands found their way into your hair, holding onto you for dear life as he rode out the electric charges coursing through his veins. The feeling was almost too much to bear, in the best possible way.
He could feel the pressure building within him as he neared the point of no return. With one final thrust of his hips and a low groan that quickly turned into a string of curses, Namjoon came undone.
His release flooded your mouth in hot spurts, the taste always so addictive. You swallowed him down eagerly. When he finally finished, and his body went limp with pleasure, you released him from your mouth.
Namjoonโs head fell back against the pillow and a groan escaped his lips. The sound was like music to your ears as it signaled that you drove him just as wild as he was driving you.
You leaned forward and captured one of his nipples between your lips, sucking gently. Namjoonโs hands found their way to your hips, holding you in place as he thrust upwards, seeking more friction, not giving room to his own overstimulation.
The combined sensations were overwhelming as pleasure surged through every fiber of your being. You continued to grind slowly, relishing in the way his breath hitched and his body reacted to your touch.
โFuck, I need to be inside,โ Namjoon groaned, his voice filled with desperation. The words sent a surge of heat straight to your core as you felt the wetness between your thighs increase.
You positioned yourself over him, lining him up with your entrance before slowly sinking down onto his length. You never got used to the exquisite feeling of fullness he gave you when he filled you completely, stretching you in all the right ways.
Namjoonโs hands gripped onto your hips tightly as you began to move, riding him at a pace that left both of you breathless. His eyes never left yours as he watched all of your emotions play out on your face.
The sounds of skin slapping were intoxicating. Every movement brought you closer and closer to the edge until you finally felt yourself teetering on the edge.
โIโm coming,โ you managed to gasp out between moans. Namjoon nodded in understanding, his own release rapidly approaching. He reached between your bodies and began rubbing circles on your clit, pushing you over the edge.
Stars exploded behind your eyelids as a powerful orgasm crashed over you. You clamped down on Namjoonโs length as pleasure pulsed through every nerve ending in your body.
The sight was enough to send Namjoon rushing into his own orgasm. With a loud groan, he spilled himself inside of you, filling you up and leaving you all warm and pliant.
He collapsed beside you, his chest heaving as he tried to catch his breath. You rested your head against him, your thoughts suddenly swirling with confusion and desire.
Another movie on TV played in the background, but once again, it went unnoticed as Namjoon pressed soft kisses against your forehead.
As you lay in Namjoonโs chest, your body still warm from his touch, you began questioning your decisions. The weight of the moment pressed against your chest as you listened to the rhythm of his heart. It was a stark reminder that you were here with him, tangled in the sheets, while Jungkook remained out of reach.
It was the pain of missing someone so unattainable.
โIโm so glad we talked,โ he playfully whispered against your skin. You looked up at him, and Namjoon sensed the shift in your demeanor. He propped himself up on one elbow, his gaze tracing over the contours of your face. โAre you okay?โ he asked softly, concern lacing his voice.
You turned your head to meet his gaze and offered a small smile. โYeah,โ you replied, though uncertainty lingered in your words. โJust...thinking.โ
He reached out a hand to gently brush a strand of hair behind your ear, his touch lingering against the curve of your jaw. Namjoonโs dark eyes held an intensity that made your breath catch in your throat. โAbout what?โ he inquired.
You hesitated for a moment before deciding to be honest with him. After all, he had been nothing but open and sincere with you since your dynamic began to form. โSuddenly, I just started wondering...what am I doingโ you admitted, searching for the right words to explain yourself.
Namjoonโs expression softened as he took in your words, understanding blooming across his features. He shifted closer to you, closing the remaining distance between your bodies and cupping your face in his hands. โYouโre here doing this with me because we both want this,โ he said firmly yet gently.
His thumb traced circles along your cheekbone as he continued speaking. โI know itโs complicated,โ Namjoon acknowledged, his voice filled with empathy. โBut we've built something mind-blowingโwe canโt deny that.โ
Your heart swelled at his words. Namjoon saw past the physical desire, recognizing the emotional entanglement that had brought you to this moment.
He leaned in, his lips brushing against your forehead in a tender gesture. โI donโt want you to overthink this,โ Namjoon murmured. โJust let yourself feel, and weโll figure it out somewhere along the way.โ
His words resonated with you, easing the whirlwind of thoughts spinning through your mind. In this quiet and intimate moment, Namjoon had provided the reassurance and grounding that you needed.
You wrapped your arms around him, in awe of what he just told you. His body melded with yours, offering warmth and solace in a way that no one else had. Here, in the sanctuary of his arms, you allowed yourself to surrender to his intoxicating hugs.
The weight of uncertainty began to lift as passion replaced doubt. Namjoonโs touch ignited a fire within youโone that burned away insecurities and hesitations.
With a newfound sense of clarity, you tilted your head up to capture his lips with yours in a searing kiss. It was a silent admittanceโa shared understanding.
Namjoon responded eagerly, his lips moving hungrily against yours as desire flared between you. The air grew thick with anticipation as the heat intensified, driving all rational thought from your mind.
In this momentโthis raw and unfiltered desireโyou were able to set aside the complexities of love and longing. It was just the two of you, bodies entwined.
You ground your hips against him, aching for more of his touch. The friction between you was intoxicating, and the hunger in Namjoonโs eyes mirrored your own.
With one hand gripping your waist, he used the other to trace a path down your body, leaving a trail of goosebumps in its wake.
Needing to feel more of him, you tugged at his torso, silently urging him to get closer. Namjoon obliged.
Unable to resist any longer, you leaned in to press a kiss against his collarbone. Slowly, you worked your way across his chest, nipping and sucking at his skin along the way. Each moan that escaped from Namjoonโs lips only spurred you on.
Namjoonโs hands roamed over your body, creating an inferno wherever they touched. Desire pooled low in your stomach as his fingers traced patterns on your skin, igniting a fire that hadnโt been extinguished earlier.
Unable to wait longer, you straddled him again, aligning your bodies so perfectly that it felt like coming home. The heat radiating from his hard length made you gasp in anticipation; you needed him desperately once again.
Namjoonโs hands found their way to the small of your back as he pulled you impossibly closer until there was no space left between. Every ridge and plane of your bodies met and melded together as if they were always meant to be this way.
Your eyes locked in before he finally entered you, inch by glorious inch. A moan escaped both your lips at this new sensation; it hasn't felt like this before. It was clear that brand new emotion was being assimilated in your bodies.
As Namjoon began moving inside you with slow yet deliberate thrusts that had you seeing stars with each delicious stroke, your lips found each other once again. The kiss was a perfect blend of passion and desire that left you both gasping for breath.
Your nails dug into his shoulders as you clung to him for dear life, your body rocked by the force of his movements. Each thrust brought you closer to the edge, the intensity building with every passing second.
โFuck, you feel so good,โ Namjoon groaned against your lips, his voice laced with a rawness that sent shivers down your spine. It was all you could do to hold on as you quivered; there wasnโt even a point in counting how many times heโs made you cum tonight.
You moved together in perfect sync, lost in a world where only your bodies and the overwhelming need for one another existed in this room. Time ceased to have any meaning as you chased your releases.
When it finally hitโ that earth-shattering peak that left you gasping for airโ it was as if everything fell into place. At that moment, there were no doubts or uncertainties; it was just you and Namjoon and the undeniable infatuation you shared.
As the world slowly came back into focus and your breathing returned to normal, you rested your forehead against Namjoonโs, staring deep into his eyes. You didnโt need words to convey what you were both thinking; this had just been the most incredible sex any of you have had since you started seeing each other.
The morning sunlight filtered through the curtains, casting a soft glow in the room. Namjoon stirred beside you, his sleepy gaze meeting yours. You exchanged a knowing look, but the weight of unspoken questions hung in the air.
As you both got dressed and prepared to leave, the atmosphere between you grew slightly tense. The intimacy you had shared was undeniable, but the implications were yet to be understood. You couldnโt ignore the lingering question of whether this was still a momentary escape for you or something that blossomed out last night.
As Namjoon drove you home, the usual comfortable conversation flowed between you, easing some of the tension that had built up within you. His presence was a source of familiarity and reassurance, and you couldnโt help but wonder what exactly the dynamic between the two of you was turning into.
You had always considered Namjoon a nice guy, someone you could rely on, someone who took on the role to care of you in every way. Lately, things have taken a more intimate turn, blurring the lines between friendship and something more. The physical encounter you had just shared added a layer of complexity to your relationship, leaving you with whole lot of questions.
As he pulled up in front of your house, you turned to face him, contemplating your next move. You appreciated him taking you home, but you wanted to retreat to the familiarity of your own space as soon as possible, where you could process the events of the past night.
As you stepped out of the car, you thanked Namjoon once again for everything. The unresolved tension hung in the air, unspoken words and uncharted territory lingering between you. It was clear that there was more to explore, but you also recognized the importance of introspection in this situation.
Walking away from the car, you couldnโt help but wonder what the future held for you and Namjoon. Would you continue to explore this newfound connection, or would you both retreat back to the safety of being just anย acquaintance, brushing off the intensity of the previous night as a momentary lapse?
As you entered your home, uncertainty weighed on your mind, and the echoes of the night still resonated within you. One thing was sure, thoughโthis unexpected encounter had left a strong mark, forcing you to confront your fears.
As you continued to navigate your emotions, you couldnโt help but wonder. Would you eventually find the clarity? Or were you destined to be caught in this eternal struggle between the familiar but tumultuous past and the electrifying but uncertain present?
I donโt even know what Iโm getting myself into.
A week later, as the evening sun dipped below the horizon, casting hues of pink and orange across the sky, you found yourself lost in thought. It had been weeks since Jungkook had finally come back and texted you, so fate had a way of bringing you back together when you least expected it.
It started innocently enough. You were on your way to meet a few friends for dinner when you spotted him across the street. The sight of Jungkook after all this time sent a jolt of electricity through your veins, stirring emotions you had tried so hard to bury.
Caught off guard, you hesitated for a moment, unsure of how to proceed. Should you approach him and acknowledge his presence, or should you pretend not to see him and continue on your way?
Before you could decide, Jungkook turned and locked eyes with you. Time seemed to stand still as you stared at each other, the air thick with unspoken words and unresolved tension.
Taking a deep breath, you summoned some courage you didnโt know you still had. โJungkook,โ you called out softly, your voice barely above a whisper.
Facing you, a mixture of surprise and uncertainty flickering in his eyes. โY/N,โ he replied, his voice equally soft.
For a moment, neither of you spoke, the weight of the past hanging heavy between you.
โI didnโt expect to see you so soon,โ Jungkook finally broke the silence, his tone tinged with a hint of sadness.
โI could say the same,โ you replied, countless emotions swirling inside you.
There was a pause as you both searched for the right words, the distance between you feeling both vast and infinitesimal.
โHow have you been?โ Jungkook asked, his voice filled with genuine curiosity.
You shrugged, unsure of how to answer. โIโve been... okay,โ you replied hesitantly. โAnd you?โ
Jungkook nodded, a small smile playing at the corners of his lips. โIโve been keeping busy,โ he said cryptically.
More silence followed as you both struggled to find common ground, the awkwardness of the situation palpable.
โI should get going,โ you finally said, breaking the tension. โIt was... nice seeing you, Jungkook.โ
He nodded, unable to meet your gaze. โYeah, you too,โ he replied softly.
Just as you turned to leave, Jungkook found himself unable to resist the urge to speak up. โWait,โ he called out, voice barely above a whisper.
You turned back to face him, curiosity flickering in your eyes. โyes?โ you asked, your tone gentle.
He hesitated for a moment, the words catching in his throat. โCan we get together and talk sometime?โ Jungkook finally asked, his voice trembling slightly.
Your expression softened. โAbout what?โ you replied, your voice barely audible over the cityโs din.
It was quiet for a minute. โForget it,โ Jungkook said quickly, his smile faltering. โItโs nothing.โ
But you couldnโt let it go. โNo, Jungkook,โ you insisted, stepping closer to him. โWhat do you need to talk about?โ
For a moment, Jungkook seemed taken aback by your question, his eyes widening in surprise. And then, with a slight smile, he stepped closer to you.
He cleared his throat, leaning in slightly as if sharing a secret. โI mean,โ he started, his voice barely above a whisper as though he was afraid of the words themselves. He paused, taking a moment to collect his thoughts before continuing. โItโs not like I need to, but...โ
You listened intently, the gravity of Jungkookโs words sinking in. It was as if he was voicing the thoughts swirling in your mind, the unspoken desires and lingering emotions that you had both been grappling with for so long.
โWeโve always made it complicated, I know,โ Jungkook continued, his eyes searching yours for understanding. โBut I canโt help but wonder if maybeโjust maybeโthereโs a chance for us to figure out what we had.โ
For a moment, you were both suspended in time; your shared moments and potential futures flashed through your eyes. Jungkookโs question had stirred something within you, a complicated mix of nostalgia, longing, and confusion. The echoes of your past relationship with him were interwoven with the exciting and passionate dynamic you had recently discovered with Namjoon. You knew you had to make a decision, not only for yourself but also for them.
As you looked into Jungkookโs hopeful eyes, you felt deep regret, not for the moments you had shared, but for the ones that never were and would never be. You realized you had been clinging to the hope that may never come. You knew in your heart that it was time to let go and move forward.
With a deep breath, you broke the silence. โJungkook,โ you began, your voice steady, โI think itโs best if we donโtโฆโ Your words trailed off, but you hoped your message was clear.
Lost in your thoughts, you continued to meet your friends, the weight of shutting out someone who hurt you in the past, heavy on your shoulders. As you sat down to dinner, the events of the evening played over and over in your mind, leaving you drained of emotion.
Later that evening, afterย thatย particularly confusing and unplanned encounter with Jungkook, you found yourself sitting on the balcony of your apartment, staring out at the city lights. The soothing sound of one of your jazz playlists playing in the background served as a backdrop to your contemplation.
Just then, your phone buzzed, and it was Namjoon. He had sent you a text that read, โI donโt want to be the cause of your pain, but I canโt help how I feel. Itโs complicated, I know. Just know that Iโm here for you, no matter what you want to do.โ
His message struck a chord deep within you. You realized that Namjoon carved himself a special place in your heart, and it was time to tell him your choice.
With Namjoon, you felt a different kind of connection. His understanding and acceptance of your complicated situation were comforting. The passion between you was undeniable, but more than that, you felt seen, valued, and respected in a way that you hadnโt with Jungkook.
As dawn breaks, you find yourself comfortably sheltered on your balcony with a steaming cup of coffee in your hands. The richness of its aroma fills your senses, providing a comforting solitude as you are lost in a sea of thoughts that you have been pondering since the early hours. Your surroundings are quiet, the world below still hushed in the early morning slumber.
Suddenly, this serene silence is broken by a familiar voice echoing from below. The unexpected shout of your name startles you, causing you to rise abruptly from your chair, your heart skipping a beat with the suddenness of it. Curiosity instantly piques within you, a compelling urge to discover the source of this voice calling you.
When you leaned over the balcony railing to peer down, much to your surprise and a slight sense of disbelief, you saw Namjoon. There he was, standing on the lonely street beneath your balcony, his posture exuding an aura of determination. The sight of him there, seemingly out of the blue, took you aback. You hadnโt expected to see him, not at this hour, not here.
โNamjoon, what are you doing here?โ you managed to ask him, your voice barely a whisper against the morning chill. Your heart was racing, pounding in your chest at the unexpected sight of him. โCome on up!โ You invited him in with a giggle, your mind spinning, thinking,ย oh my god, heโs here. A surge of laughter bubbled within you as you retreated from the balcony, giving him the time to go up to the first floor.
Without uttering a single word in response, Namjoon quickly made his way up the stairs leading to your apartment. As soon as he stepped through the door, his presence filled the room, bringing a sense of warmth and familiarity you hadnโt realized was missing until now.
The silence that had ensued was once again broken by Namjoonโs voice. His voice was softer and gentler this time, but his determination was no less. โI couldnโt stop thinking about you, Y/N,โ he confessed, his eyes directly meeting yours in a gaze that held you captive. โI needed to see you, talk to you.โ
โYou drive me crazy in the best possible way,โ Namjoon started. โEvery stolen glance, every lingering touch, itโs like electricity coursing through my veins, igniting a fire that I canโt control.โ
โFrom the moment I met you, Iโve been consumed by the thought of you, your touch, your scent, your laughter.โ Namjoon continued. โI couldnโt resist your pull on me, drawing me in like a moth.โ
โYou make me feel alive, Y/N,โ Namjoon confessed, his eyes burning with desire. โAnd I never want to let that go. I want to explore every inch of you, body and soul, to lose myself in the passion we share.โ
โI want you to go out for drinks with your friends,โ Namjoon expressed, his voice still soft. โSo when you feel hungover the next day, youโll ask me to come see you because you want to have me in your arms and cuddle you.โ
โI want us to talk in the mornings, still in bed, about all types of things,โ Namjoon continued, a fond smile playing on his lips. โBut sometimes in the afternoons, too, I want us to be able to do whatever we want during the day.โ
โI want you to tell me about the nights you go out with your friends,โ Namjoon confessed, his eyes filled with warmth. โAnd tell me about the guy at the bar who was trying to flirt with you all night. I want you to text me when youโre drunk with your friends just to tell me dumb things because you want to be sure that Iโm also thinking about you.โ
โI want us to laugh while weโre making love,โ Namjoon declared, full of yearning. โTo start laughing because weโre trying something new, and it doesnโt make any sense. I want us to be with our friends so you can take my hand and drag me to the other room because you canโt hold back anymore, and you want us to make love right there. I want to make you try to stay quiet because there are people outside, and they might hear us.โ
โI want to eat with you all the time,โ Namjoon continued. โAnd I want you to make me talk about myself and for you to talk about everything thatโs on your mind. I want us to discuss which is best, the north coast or the south coast, the west or the east. I want to imagine our dream home, still aware that we might never live together.โ
โI want to tell you about my plans, the ones that make no sense whatsoever,โ Namjoon confessed, his voice filled with excitement. โI want to surprise you by saying, โTake your passport, weโre leaving.โ I want to be afraid with you. Do things I wouldnโt do with anyone else because you make me feel safe. Come back home drunk after a night out with my friends, and for you to take my face in your hands, kiss me, and keep me close to you the whole night.โ
โI want you to have your life,โ Namjoon continued, his tone sincere. โSo you can decide to take a few weeks off to go on a trip just because you want to. So you leave me wishing to see you through FaceTime, but all it makes me do is miss you more.โ
โI donโt want us to be joined at the hip all the time,โ Namjoon admitted, a smile playing on his lips. โThat way, we can hang out the next day. You can tell me about your night, and I can tell you about mine.โ
โI want something simple yet complicated,โ Namjoon declared, his eyes locking with you. โSomething that often makes me question myself, but the moment Iโm in the same room with you, all my doubts disappear. I want to tell everyone youโre gorgeous, and I want to be proud to say weโre together. I want to tell you that I love you, and most importantly, I want you to be able to say that you love me, too.โ
โI want to make plans with you,โ Namjoon continued, his voice filled with hope. โUnaware if weโll make them come true. I want you to have a relationship where you know where you stand. I want to be someone who you love to be with. I want us to still have the desire to fool around at times because weโre still young.โ
โI want to be the one you make love to and then fall asleep with,โ Namjoon confessed, his voice barely above a whisper, his hand now caressing your cheek. โThe one who gives you your space and loves when you get lost in your playlists. I want to have a single life with you because our relationship would be just like that, but together.โ
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โค Paring: Jungkook x reader (with a little bit Namjoon x reader and Taehyung x reader)
โค Genre: wolf!au, soulmate!au, collage!au
โค Summary: y/n has been feeling a certain darkness ever since she got her period. Something was calling her and one day that โlightโ came into vision. Youโd never thought however, that it would be a werewolf.
โค Rating: 18+
โค Warnings: mentions of rape, depression, smut, oral sex, window-sex, shower-sex, knotting, marking and animalistic behaviour.
โค Wordcount: 9.5k
โค A/n: hey!! This will be my first story on this account. I used to run another tumblr account, but I felt like I needed a new start hehe. Hope you enjoyed this one!
โwhy is it so dark?โ, you ask yourself as you try to see, but nonetheless fail to do so. Itโs too dark. You canโt understand what you feel, but it has been the darkest feeling you have had in your whole life, though you might not yet be that old. It is creeping up on you, like a tiger or some other creature. It mightโve always been there, but never this strong. Never since this very moment. A white ray stands tall in front of you, all too sudden but not unwelcome. You feel like you need to be there, like this might be the place that brings you the peace you have been seeking. You know the feeling, the dark feeling, ends with this light. It all fits too wellโฆ
You take a step forward, but when you look down to see where you are walking on, you donโt see your feet. Itโs only you, like a floating conscious. Even though it got you distracted for the smallest second, you knew this wasnโt important enough. The only thing worth doing right now is taking another step towards this warm and sunny light. Another step was taken and you feel your body heating up. Even though the light is your answer, you are still reacting to it in all the negative ways. โIs this what I need? Itโs probably better than that horrifying darkness around us. Around me and this lightโ.
So without another thought, you take three more steps. There it is, right in front of you. You can feel your whole body reacting in heath, but you still feel save somehow. Itโs resisting and it feels unnatural, but you havenโt felt as connected in so long with such a simple thing. You want it. No, you need it. And it also needs you. Two sides, two consciousnesses needing one another. But it doesnโt feel enough. You need more. You need to be closer. You need hi-.
โY/n? You are burning up! Are you okay? Wake up!โ.
The sudden voice wakes you up in one simple snap. Your eyes spring wide open as you look scared towards your friend, who just as well returns that look. Namjoon puts his hand on your forehead. You flinch as he retracts his hand as fast as lighting, making a gesture as if your forehead is about a 100 degrees. โDamn y/n, that should be illegal. Itโs way too hot. Please go to the nurses officeโ, he exclaims.
You put your hand on your heart, feeling how fast itโs beating. Itโs so fast that you can feel it in your whole body. You are trying to recall your dream, but you only seem to remember that you felt a dark feeling. It mustโve been a nightmare. You check out your surroundings as you felt quite out of place, but you soon notice you are still in the comfort of your schoolโs library. You let out a breath, shaking off that weird experience and you try to calm down your body. โI think I had some kind of nightmareโ, you inform Namjoon before picking up your pencil.
You have been working all night with your classmate. You were assigned to work together on a project. Since the both of you had a hard time to find a good spot in your agendas to work together, you found that only today you could really work on it. So you both took the chance and ended up working all night. You pull out your phone and you notice itโs already 11 pm. Your eyes widen. โNamjoon, why didnโt you wake me up? We really need to get going. Can we still get out of the building?โ. He chuckles and shrugs. โThought you could use some rest, youโve only been gone for twenty minutes, so donโt worry. But youโre right. We should go homeโ. You let out a small sigh before clearing out your desk. He didnโt mean it bad, so you let it go. You both pack your things and go home.
As you walk your way to your dorm, you canโt help but feel that same creeping feeling. You feel that darkness. Itโs not uncommon for you anymore. It has been a few years already, the moment you had your period. You have felt it ever since that moment. You can still remember the first dream about it. It was like just now, dark and alone. As if there was something or someone missing from your life. Your mother showed her concern about it and took you to a doctor, who gave you a number of a psychologist. There we thorough experiments, but no one could really tell what it was and how to get rid of it. At some point you found yourself at a more spiritual room. That was even more traumatic, as she just looked at you in fear and told you to leave within a few seconds. It got you thinking. Are you some kind of devil? Some kind of lost soul from another world, what certainly isnโt holy? This time though, this last dream, it was different. Different from your other dreams. You did feel the darkness, but there was something else. It felt refreshing and warm, something you havenโt felt in so long. Whatever it is, you hope that same feeling will return to you. And this time you wonโt be woken up. This time it will stay with you.
Itโs the following day. Last night hasnโt been easy on you. The darkness has been closing in on you. This time it really seems too real and too attentive. Like itโs watching you. You feel it all over your body. It keeps you heavy and almost a depressed feeling washes over your body. The amount of strength it took you today to get out of bed, get ready and walk to your classes was just too much. You could barely keep your eyes open as your professor tries to explain the laws of physics to you. You must be really sick this time, your body just keeps on heating itself up. Your brain almost feels fried. Itโs only a matter of time before you pass out. You can feel it, the life just wanting to seep out of your body. You can feel it pulling. You need it. You need that light right now. You need him.
And exact on that moment, all the lights turned off. Your body had completely given up.
His ears perk up as he felt a weird feeling passing through his body. He sits up straight, looking around his new apartment complex as he looks for some kind of clue. Itโs some type of feeling he canโt describe, but itโs very strong, but still goes unnoticed if it wasnโt for his wolf-senses. Something was wrong. But with what or whom, he couldnโt figure out. He sets his eyes on his alarm, reading 10 am. His class will be starting in about an hour. He normally wakes up in 15 minutes, but he is up already. It had been a busy night with the pack. Since they had to move because of a inner-circle rivalry, Jungkook had decided the pack would split in two. Itโs for the best this way and he felt like he needed a new start. But ever since he had come here, he felt like something was coming. And not only he has felt it, his closest beta friend Jimin also felt it. โI donโt know what it is boss, but your vibes has changed. I canโt put my finger on itโ, Jimin said to him. Today, however, the feeling had dubbeled itself. It felt dangerous.
He got out of his bed, walking towards his bathroom. He takes a moment to show his desire towards his surroundings. His pack really put effort in this one. Since the pack had been living on for generations, they have a lot of old money to spend. So when he instructed Jimin to pick out a luxurious appartment for him, he had the best one in mind. He really appreciates his mates and treats them like equals. He has always believed in that. Although Jungkook did have the last word in everything, he never ignores his pack. Dreadfully, Taehyung had a different idea. He wanted to have the upper hand in the pack and run it with an iron fist. Some others within the pack felt like they needed that, to have such a leader. It took 1 month of fighting, arguing and just too much stress to figure the situation out. Which was: to go our separate ways. The whole pack found this the best way and now Jungkook is here, with his most trusted set of wolves. He finally feels happy again.
He puts off his clothing as he gets under the shower. He lets out a deep breath as he feels the warmth flower on his skin. He thinks about his following classes. He is so happy he decided to start with school again. With a new start in a new city, itโs only fitting to start a new career. He wants to learn, maybe be a bit more human-like. Of course he understands he could never be a human, but he just loves how every human has kinda their own purpose. A deeper meaning than just hunting and surviving. Their lives arenโt about surviving anymore, itโs about really living. He wants that for him and his pack. To just feelโฆ. Normal.
His thoughts run wild before he notices something strange. His body is heating up. He shrugs it off, thinking itโs probably just the shower heat. But it doesnโt stop. He begins to breathe louder and his heart is picking up a faster pace. He starts to panic as he immediately turns off his shower. Whatโs going on?
He feels something suddenly so strong. Something wild, something very primitive. An instinct. He only feels this way when there is a full moon. He runs to the windows in his apartment, but itโs clear daylight. He also knows it shouldnโt be a full moon for at least 2 weeks. So whatโs going on? โJust follow your instinct thenโ, he tells himself as he rushes to put on his clothing. He needs to find out and he has a feeling it has to do with that weird feeling from this morning. It must be, itโs the only thing thatโs different and has been throwing him off. It couldโve be a heath, but it somehow feels like that. Only, he can still very much control what he does. Jungkook takes a breath as he closes his eyes, trying to gather his thoughts before taking any actions. โOkay, itโs definitely something you havenโt felt before, itโs new, but it feels very wolf-ish. So it couldnโt be wrong or bad. Just follow it thenโ. So he followed it.
You wake up, light piercing through the creeks of your eyelids. You noticed a black ceiling before your senses took over. There was a very manly smell hanging around the air, some type of heavy shampoo. It soothed your mind somehow. You could still remember how you blacked out because you felt very ill, but that ill feeling found itโs way out of your body.
You sit up in a fast motion as your heartbeat begin to quicken again. You canโt seem to recognize you surroundings. You are somewhere unfamiliar. The panic comes back into your body like a train, because for all you know youโve been kidnapped. How the fuck did you end up here?
โSo youโre the one who has been giving my boss a hard time today hmm?โ, someone in the corner of the room speaks out. You quickly turn your head as you lock your eyes with the stranger. You notice his features are silky, almost beautiful as you began to stare in awe. He is handsome, but he canโt be trusted. Because now you are in a strange room with an unfamiliar face, talking about some boss. Is this some kind of dream? Because this canโt be real. The stranger sighs before leaning off the wall and making his way towards a door. โWhatever, just donโt break his heart. And oh, welcome to the family sweetheartโ, he says before leaving the room.
You frown, not understanding a single word this man just blabbered on to you. โWelcome to the family?โ, you repeat his words, as if you could maybe make sense of it. You decide to take a moment to inspect your surroundings. You notice you are in some type of bedroom, which is beautifully decorated in all kinds of beautiful earthy-tones. The drapes of the room are closed, but you can clearly see the windows are huge and you must be in an apartment. Well, escaping through the backyard wonโt be an option then. You move your legs to the side of the bed, wanting to stand up before you notice in what uniform you are in. You are pretty much only wearing a long button-up shirt with only your panties and bra under it. It shocks you, flashing bad images through your head, scared you mightโve been raped. The possibility isnโt small, as someone had undressed you.
And suddenly something pierces right through your body, making you to let out a small yelp. It was everything but what you expected to feel right now. But somehow it made you calm, it made you feel safe and you knew you arenโt somewhere dangerous. You feel your body heating up again, but this time you donโt feel the darkness, like in your dreams. This time you only feel that light which you have felt in the past few dreams you have experienced. Itโs that ray of warmth that has been keeping you safe from the empty feeling.
Without skipping another heartbeat, your door swung open. There you are met with a new set of eyes. His eyes are wide, drained with concern as he looks just as sweaty as you are right now. You look one another in the eyes as you slowly realize he is the one. He is that light. Because suddenly everything finally fits. Everything seems right and he has come for you. He wonโt leave this time, he is real and he will be with you for a long time. You can feel it and you canโt help to let out a small moan. Your eyelids lower, just as his does while both of your feelings mash into one. He closes the door behind him before sitting down on his knees in front of you, staring at you in awe. He adores you, the way you look, the way you make him feel. His heart burns for you and he must do anything to protect this kind of purity in his life.
You scan his appearance and he is everything that you ever wanted. His hair as black as night, his eyes shine almost yellow, like a beast looking for its pray. Only you are his pray, in all the most delicious way you can think of. His muscles shine through his button up, showing how capable he is of protecting you. Which has never been a priority in your relationships, but is somehow extremely import now. You notice his strong legs and tall figure, you can almost not hold yourself back from just feeling this man closer to you. That was, until you notice something you didnโt yet see. On top of his head there are two very fluffy ears standing out, as if he is playing some type of cosplay. You squint your eyes, trying to see it more clearly.
โYou are more than I thought you would beโ, the guy suddenly sighs. Your eyes fixate back on his, making you melt all over again. You can feel your body fill with love, but you canโt shake the idea that this guy is way more than the eye meets. The first sign is the way he makes you feel, but besides that, he has a lot of animal-like features. You need to know whatโs going on.
โI- we need to talk first. I need to understand, firstโ, you tell him. It feels like whatever it is thatโs different about him ,you will not mind. You have felt different your whole life, you know there mustโve been more than just the ordinary. He closes his eyes for a second, knowing full wel what you mean as he nods his head. He stands up, this time looking down at your figure, which he likes even more. You look so fragile and cute. He wants to have a taste, he can barely contain himself. His urges to claim you are so big. But he knows humans donโt work that way, this is all too unfamiliar. But he has to admit, this is pretty new to him too.
He sits down beside you on the bed, making himself clearer in the light. His features are so beautiful, so tender yet so sexy. You swoon over him, as if your entire body is waiting for him. Wanting him to touch you. He needs to claim you. He grunts, closing his eyes as his head falls back a little, showing his pretty neck. He can smell your body, he can smell that you are becoming aroused. He knew you would react like this, your body is hardwired to seduce him in every way possible. Such a good puppy for me.
You press your legs together, heat spreading through your core by hearing him groan. Itโs now that you can see his ears more clearly. They look so cute from up close, but you got thrown off when you see them move. They move. As if, itโs a part of his body. They react with his body. His ears were going sideways in a very calm way. You can kind of guess what he must be, but your conscious still feels uneased. Itโs still hard to believe this when you have been living in a world where werewolves, vampires and all those kind of creatures just didnโt exist. Your brain is going against your instinct. Can you trust such a creature? Is this all a prank or am I going to live in fear from now on?
โBaby, I am what you suspect I am. I however am not what society thinks I amโ, he exclaims while looking into your eyes. His expression has gone serious and somehow his eyes have turned black, like a normal human being. He must have sensed you felt uneasy.
โSo what can I expect from all of this? What is my purpose here and what is thisโฆ feeling I getโฆโ, you ask, hopefully looking at him and praying for a good answer. An answer you can be happy with and feel comfortable with. Everything but that darkness.
โWell, where to begin? As a werewolf I live in a pack of 10. We all recently gone to this area. You right now are in a combined apartment-โ, he begins to explain, but you cut him off. โThat is not what I meant. I mean more related to usโฆโ. Itโs the only thing that matters right now. You will get to know the others, but this man in front of youโฆ itโs like youโve waited for him your whole life. You canโt wait to know more, to feel more. He bites his lip as if he hears your thoughts, feels your body. He probably can. You can also notice he felt a bit annoyed when you cut him off, is he that sensitive?
โWell, as it seems, we are soulmates. Although wolves rarely find their soulmates, since the world is just too big, an alphaโs soulmate have it a bit tougher. My wolf is just stronger in every way, also my connection to you is therefore stronger. I donโt know if you can relate to that in any way. Maybe the feeling that you talked aboutโฆโ, he questions and you nod. โYeh, I think that might be it. Iโve felt a darkness around me the moment I became fertileโฆโ. He nods โYeh, its like nature calling you to come to meโ, he tells you.
You have to process this information for a second. It all sound way too crazy and you should be freaked out because of this. But somehow you arenโt. Itโs like he said, Mother Nature has prepared you for this your whole life. Itโs hardwired in your head not to be scared for this man. Because he is emotionally and physically yours to have and to keep. And that also counts the other way around.
โSo, how do we proceed?โ, you ask, your eyes falling on his ears again. You are beginning to love them, they are literally so cute. โWell, thatโs kind of complicated. You have been out for two weeks. The moment I got to you, your body went through a lot of stages of sickness. You were too weak to wake up, but I stayed by your sideโ, he informs you. Your eyes widen by shock. You have been gone for so long. You missed a lot of school and your friends and family must be livid. You look around for your phone and notice it on the nightstand. Luckily it was charged and you could check the messages. Weirdly enough you didnโt get any, which made you a bit sad. Has really nobody missed me during these two weeks?
You get pulled out of your thoughts when you here the man chuckling. โDonโt worry, we took care of everything. We have some special guys in the pack who can manipulate otherโsโฆ minds? I donโt know how to describe it.โ He tries to explain, what got you nodding. Not like you understand it though, but what do you really understand of this situation.
โFor the rest of it, I was planning to mark you as soon as you woke up. But itโs full moon tonight and I donโt think you could handle that. Youโre still a human and all-โ, he says, but you cut him off again. โSorry, Mark? Full moon?โ, you ask. This time his face changed darker as his annoyance at your disrespect kicks in. โDonโt cut me off when I am close to full moon, my alpha comes up way faster and will find a way to shut you upโ, he says with a stern tone of voice. You gulp, but still feel aroused by the way he is bossing you around. Like this is the way itโs supposed to be. He is the alpha and he has the control over you. He is your mate.
โBut to answer your question, I have to mark you to kind of make our bond final. Itโs like marriage but just way more intimate. And I donโt know how much you know about werewolves, but full moons make us full-wolf. Meaning, itโs the closest I get to being as primitive as I can be. During the transition, which takes about 1 hour, my uhmโฆ sexual beast comes forward and I will fuck anything that comes in my way. So I have to tie myself up. And you being around, i will look for you and you will probably not surviveโ, his words are fast, but the information lays heavy on you. Somehow you donโt really care for the part where he might kill you. Only flashes of imaginary images of him fucking you like an animal runs through your mind and it might just be the thing you want the most.
โSo I wonโt be seeing you today then?โ, you ask him and he shakes his head. It got you saddened, but you understand. He wouldnโt want to hurt you, you are literally the most important thing he has in his life. So he had already bought extra chains and rented an abandoned house so he wouldnโt be able to touch a hair of you. He needed this to go perfectly. He would be leaving in an hour and his wolf senses arenโt as high yet, so him being with you in the room is just right. But it wouldnโt be smart to touch you yet, that would make him more needy for you.
โWhatโs your name by the wayโ, you suddenly ask, remembering you didnโt have that piece of information yet. He chuckles before answering, looking as pretty as ever while doing so. โMy name is Jeon Jungkookโ.
After about 30 minutes of catching up, telling each other about your lives, Jungkook felt ready to introduce you to the pack. As they all heard the news you had woken up, they came rushing to the packโs apartment, a place for their meetings and just random chillings. Jungkook felt it would be safest to keep you there, since there are always other wolves to protect you if something went wrong. Maybe an enemy or an imposter. He trusts his pack with his whole life, so he trusts them with you. Today only three members were there to support Jungkook during the full moon. Other wolves had to chain up themselves or had some business to attend to. He didnโt mind only three being there since you werenโt yet used to wolves in general. So to begin with three first should be the right move.
He opens the door and you immediately curiously look around. You notice that the apartment is very big, beautifully decorated. You notice three other men being there in the room with you. You can recognize one, the person who was by your side when you woke up. He is already looking at you, having a light smile on his face as he looks a bit more friendly now. The other two also looked at you in curiosity, sniffing the air to see who you are. Jimin showed Jungkook a quick smirk, knowing full well you have been on edge the whole time. Smelling your arousal got Jungkook a bit boiled up. He didnโt want other wolves to smell you and the urge to push you back into the room became immense big. But, he still knew how to contain himself, as he knew you had to get to know his pack.
โWe have already met, I am Jimin. Jungkookโs closest friend and second in rank of the packโ, he exclaims proudly while walking up to you. You can hear a very low-toned growl coming from Jungkook, warning Jimin to not get any closer. You look up to him, trying to guess what is going on right now. You figured it must be some kind of power-play. Itโs something you shouldnโt pay your mind to, itโs a wolf-thing. Itโs their thing and you are going to respect that. โNice to meet you Jiminโ, you say while looking away. You want to show Jungkook that you are going to obey him today. You want to be his good puppy.
โThe one on the right is Hoseok and the other one is jinโ, he says before he already wants to leave the room, needing you for himself. The others only had the briefest moment of waving to you before you were already disappearing behind the door you came from.
โOkay Iโm going to be honest with you. I am very protective of you right now. I canโt have you too close to the others, it will drive me mad. You drive me madโ, he says in a rush as he has you pinned against the door. He is suddenly so close and itโs the only thing you can focus on. His refreshing smells fill the air and you see his eyes flashing yellow again. You canโt help but to get fluttered by him, he is just so immensely handsome. You just need a little taste, you want to feel him.
He growls at you, warning you not to touch him. But you canโt help yourself. How can he expect for you to not touch him when you have longed for him. At has taken you years to finally feel free. He is the one you want. Your hand makes his way up to his cheek, carefully watching his being while doing so. If he becomes too angry, you will stop. But you donโt see him changing, you just see him closing his eyes, enjoying the smallest touch. You glide your thump over his cheek, itโs so soft and milky. Your hand traces the features of his face before making your way to his ears. You have been wanting to touch them since the moment you saw them. They move around a lot, indicating he is a bit nervous en unsure. He looks into your eyes as you touch his ear carefully, petting it softly and you hear him growl once again. His body falters forward a little bit, coming closer to you and only leaving little space between your neck and his mouth. He wants to have a taste of you so bad, but heโs scared he will ruin it. He needs to protect youโฆ but just a small tasteโฆ he can have a small taste right? He isnโt that far gone yet right?
He pulls your body away from the door before slowly leading you toward the bed by your hips. He lays you down before hovering his body on top of yours. Your legs open for him like some type of instinct, and he happily complies. He grunts again, loving the way you look under him. You are so pretty, so delicate. He can feel himself being as hard as a rock, knowing full well that his body is ready to claim you. He really wants to, maybe he should. Your eyes are hooded while you look into his. You wrap your legs around his hips while pulling him against your pussy. You are so wet and you want him to feel it, you want to make him feel what he does to you.
โHmmm baby, youโre making it so difficult for me. You are so wet for me, my pack could smell it from a mile awayโ, he says while nudging his nose into your neck, savoring the smell. You smell so sweet. You gasp as he roles his hips into your, making known how big his member is. You let out a small moan as you want to feel more. You want him to be inside You. โPlease Jungkookโ, you yelp out, hoping for some type of release. He groans again, his breath picking up a pace because he feels it too. He has to claim you as fast as possible. He has to fill you up.
โI canโt, I shouldnโt. I canโt be trusted right nowโ, he sighed into your neck, letting his body fall on top of you in defeat. He pulls himself up on his elbows, looking into your eyes and admiring them. โTomorrow I will make you mine. Itโs one night. We got thisโ, he says with encouraging words. You show him a small smile before bringing your forehead against him. โBe quick, I need youโ, you tell him. With that he gets off you and makes his way towards the door. โI donโt want you out of this room tonight. Donโt talk to my pack. You are mine and no one can claim you before I doโ, he says with a firm tone of voice. โOkay, hurry thenโ, you tell him with a wink and he let out a small frustrated groan before leaving the room.
You check the clock. It mustโve been the thousandth time, because you really canโt wait to see him again. Itโs 10 pm. You know by now, he has been tied up. Another hour and he will be full wolf. The others in the pack have been sliding you food through the creak of the door, which you are very grateful for.
You suddenly hear the front door opening. Curious to know who it is, you sit beside the door, waiting to hear any tea from the other side. One of the wolves walk their way up to the door and immediately the air changes around you the moment that door opens.
โTae, what the fuck are you doing here?โ, you hear Jin asking. โI heard your alpha has a new toy? He surely wouldn't hide it here right?โ, you hear the โTaeโ-guy asking. You frown. Are they talking about me? โWhat is that of importance for you?โ, Jin asks and you can hear the other wolves walking towards the front door. You know something is very wrong. Jungkook had told you their pack had split up because of a rebellious member. Is this that person? โYou really canโt be here right now, you know itโs full moon. Weโre all on edge and I can barely keep up with my own suppressants. Youโre an alpha, are you out of your mind being outside right now?โ, you hear Jimin almost yelling. He sounds very angry. You can feel the air shifting even more when Taeโs displeased growl fills the air. โYouโre wrong Jimin. This is the perfect night to come hereโ.
Those were the last words before the room got filled with a lot of angry growls, punches and claws. It seems there are way more people in the appartment than before, indicating Tae brought more people than you thought. Your heart starts to race and you feel panic infiltrating your body. You need to get out of here. You quickly find your way towards your closet, hoping to hide there, but before you knew the door swung open. A tall guy stands before you, eyes orange and teeth standing Proudly. He eyes you up and down. You curse yourself for staying in that button-up from Jungkook, because you practically stand pretty much nude in front of this wolf. He smirks, slowly walking up to you after closing the door behind him.
โWe havenโt met yet, Iโm Kim Taehyung, alpha male of my pack. Whatever I am going to do to you tonight will partly be because you are such a delicious meal, but also because Jungkook canโt have you. He canโt have happiness, not after abandoning meโฆ usโ, he says calmly while closing the gab between your bodies. You try to back away, but he has grabbed your sides, slinging you around to the bed. Your heart pounds like crazy, not able to control your feelings. You are feeling so scared and if anything, this man represents the darkness you have been feeling.
Taehyung doesnโt wait before he has you pinned down on the bed, his body hovering above you as he looks lushness at your body. You cringe under him, looking away. You try to yell for help, but the other wolves are still trying to find their own battles. This canโt happen. I would be save here.
โDonโt worry kittenโ, he says as he rips open all your buttons, exposing your bra to him. โThis wonโt take long. I just need to claim youโ, he informs you while also breaking you bra and panties off. You yell because of the sting against your body. He is very strong, you donโt stand any chance against him. Even though you do try. You wiggle around, trying to make it harder for him, but itโs impossible. โPlease donโt do thisโ, you beg, fighting your tears. You are fully naked under him. He will rape you tonight. This is it.
Thatโs when you hear a loud growl outside. Your body shivers as you know all to well who that might be. Taehyung ears immediately perk up and fear enters his body. He knew, if he wanted to live, heโd have to make a run for it now. Jungkook on his Heath during the full moon while you are trying to mark his soulmate? Yep, no chance. So he gets off you immediately, walks out of the door. You hear a whistle, calling his pack to retrieve. It didnโt take them long before you could hear them running outside, only to be met with Jungkook and a few other members of his pack. He wanted to look out of the window, wanting to know if Jungkook was alright. But you couldnโt move. You felt too disgusted to even do anything right now. You only felt like you wanted to shower. To get that creeping smell off your body. Jungkook is strong, he can handle it.
You slowly make your way towards the bathroom. You feel weak as you walk and you can still hear the faint noises of an immense battle going on outside. You get under the warm stream. You let the soap cover your body, cleaning and washing away that horrible person. You got lost in your tracks as you didnโt want to leave the shower. You just want to be clean.
10 minutes later, the bathroom door opened. You immediately sprung out of your trance and got met with the eyes of your soulmate. He looks broken, covered in dirt and scratches. You can see that he is still panting from the battle. He somehow looks bigger than normal, his ears are bigger, his claws too. Thatโs when you remembered he was still transitioning that night.
Jungkook stripped himself from his clothes, eyes firmly on your body. He gets under the shower with you and pulls his arms around you. He was so scared. The moment it went wrong in the apartment, he could feel it. He felt how scared you suddenly became. He felt that you needed him, so he came immediately. It didnโt take him any effort to break those chains. He ran as fast as he could while he called out for his pack to come join him. He didnโt know what he would find, but it couldnโt be good. He had a feeling it mightโve been because of Taehyung and he was right. Taehyung was still mad, but Jungkook wouldโve never guessed Tae would go this far.
โSorry for leaving you y/nโฆโ, he sighs into your ear. You slipped a smile while relaxing in his arms. You feel like you can finally breathe again. โNo donโt say that. You were trying to protect meโฆโ, you comfort him. He sighs into your neck as you enjoy one anotherโs company. There was a comfortable silence, just the water streaming down your bodies as you can finally hold each other. Before you woke up today, you didnโt know this person excited. But a life without him now seems impossible.
โY/nโฆโ, he groans into your ear. You can feel his body coming even closer than it was before. His body rubs on you, slowly backing you up against the bathroom tiles. You feel an icy sting hitting your back as Jungkook breathes onto your shoulder. You know he is in Heath and you know he will not be able to stop it this time. But frankly, you donโt care anymore. You need him to claim you. You have now seen how dangerous it is for you at this point, he needs to be able to protect you fully.
โJungkookโฆ I really want youโฆ I need you to be mineโ, you breathe into his air. He groans loudly at that, his eyes are now shining with yellow as he looks into yours eyes, looking to make sure. You feel his erection poking against your belly, he feels so big. You nod at him and give him a reassuring nod before your hand makes its way to his torso. You feel all his muscles tensing under your touch, fuck you have so much power over him. He plants his hands beside you on the tiles, wanting you to make him feel good. Your hand makes its way down, right towards where his member is standing tall against your stomach. As your eyes are still locked with his, you let yourself get down to your knees and now being face to face with the huge dick youโve been wanting to feel for about the whole day.
โFuck y/n, I wonโt be able to hold back much longerโ, he says as he jerks his hips forward out of desperation. Your hand finds his member, feeling how thick and heavy it feels in your hand. You already know you havenโt had this big of a cock inside of you, hopefully you can take it. You give his dick a few bumps and you hear him groan in response. You love the way he is so vocal. You bring your mouth closer, circling your tongue around the tip a few times before taking it into your mouth. You take it slow first, wanting build up the sensation. He thrusts his hips with the movement of your mouth. His member feels so big in your mouth and he tastes delicious. Itโs as if you canโt get enough, this is what you needed all along.
โStop, get upโ, he says while pulling his dick out of your mouth. You let out a small whine, wanting to make him cum with your mouth. โWhyโฆโ, coo at him, standing up. You pout at him, but you were met with the most darkest of looks. He stared right into your soul with his yellow eyes, shocking a wave of heath through your body. โYou are dripping all on the tiles, itโs a wasteโ, he grunted as his body closes in on you again. His hand finds itโs way down your belly, right to your core. He teases you, circling his fingers on the outside of you folds, making you shiver by the feeling.
โI bet the whole building can smell your cunt right now. Hmmmโฆ how they would want to have a tasteโฆ but only I can have itโ, he says as his fingers now found their way between your folds. He slides it up and down, gathering all your juices before bringing it up to his mouth, licking it off and moaning while he does so. โI want more baby. I need to fuck you, taste you and make you my bitchโ, he groans, laying his forehead onto your shoulder.
You hesitate for a second before replying: โthen do so. Make me yours. I can handle itโ.
He didnโt need any more confirmation. Maybe in a different moment, he would make more sure that you were okay with this. But his wolf couldโve resist anymore. This is his soulmate. Someone tried to take that away from him tonight, he canโt risk that again. He needs to seal the deal in the most delicious of ways.
He pulls you off of the ground, making you straddle him in the air. He turns off the shower before making his way to the bathroom. The way he did this all so easily made you swoon, making you more wet than you already were. That made him chuckle. โHmm never had such a strong man taking care of you hm?โ, he joked and you could only shake your head. He let you slide down a little while he made his way over to the bed, making contact between you pussy and his member. You couldnโt help but to wiggle your hips around, needing to feel some type of release. He grunts as he feels your intentions and instead throws you down on the bed.
โCareful baby, I might really destroy you when you are being naughty like thatโ, he exclaims, smirking down at your small figure. You lay down comfortably for him as he makes his way on top of you. You again instictly open your legs for him, showing just how much he is turning you on. His wolf-instinct immediately kicks in as he follows his nose directly to your pussy. You sniffs a few times before licking making line on the outside of your folds. Your body sniffers in response, letting out a small moan as you do so.
Jungkook loves your smell. You are so sweet and flower-ish. It drives him crazy. Your smell is to him like catnip is to cats. He canโt help but to indulge himself in that smell. With that thought, he digs in. His tongue makes long strokes through your folds, licking up all your juices. Your body reacts immediately, your hands finding his hands that were places right beside your hips. He looks up to you in lust, loving how you look right now. You are completely and utterly submissive to him. He is in control and he will make sure you will have the best time. He also is still trying to prep you, because he knows that the moment he will be inside of you, he wonโt be able to hold back. He will destroy that pussy.
His tongue glides a few more times between your folds before settling on you small nub. He knows his way around it, you notice, since he starts to lick uncontrollably. Making circles and letting your body react to it in shocky movement. Your legs are really having their own life as Jungkook keeps on hitting the right spot, not even missing it once. โJungkookkkโฆ.โ, you moan as you are coated with his warmth on your clit. He growls against your pussy, sending shockwaves through your body. The pleasure is almost too much to handle and like some type of cue, he start focusing on another part of your cunt.
His tongue glides down again, sucking up all your juices, before settling on your entrance. As he does so, he grabs your calves and bends your legs towards your stomach. He has better access to your entrance that way. He takes a look first, admiring how pretty you look under him like that, before going down on you again. While one hand holds you legs down, the other holding his own weight, his tongue finds its way into your pussy. You let out a loud moan, indicating that you are loving his movements on you. His tongue begins to pump inside of you, licking and sucking all the wetness out of you. You go crazy as he does so. You have never been pleasured like this before.
โHmmmm itโs so good Jungkook, please donโt stopโ, you moan. And he doesnโt. He needs to taste more of you, you need to get more wet. Like a wild dog he starts to aggressively bump two fingers with his tongue inside you. Another finger starts to stimulate your asshole, giving you that extra edge you have been needing to start building up your height. Your body starts to warm up as that familiar feeling grows stronger. Itโs almost like your body goes numb as he keeps on bumping into you, making you moan and wet. He loves the sounds you make while he makes you feel this pleasure. He will want to hear this for the rest of his life.
โAlmostโฆโ, you moan as you feel yourself entering the final stage. With that He burrows his face closer against your pussy, putting his nose against you clit as he jerks his head side to side. This trick really got your body jerking in pleasure, head swinging back as you can help but to grab his hair tightly into your hand. It only took a short amount of time before the building heath exploded and your climax runs through your body like a burning fire. He notices that you came and slowed down his movements, making sure he doesnโt overstimulate you.
He lets go of your body before settling his hips between your legs, tight against you as he curiously looks at your worn-out state. Your eyes were closed due to the intense moment, but when you open them again, you meet a cute, but still dark face in front of you. You know it isnโt over yet and you wouldnโt want it any different. He needs to make you his first and you still crave for him to be inside of you.
โYou okay?โ, he asks. You nod as your body is finally calming down. Your heart is slowly coming back to a normal pace and you let out a deep breath. You canโt help but to stare at his blump lips which you havenโt kissed yet.
โHmm good ideaโ, he says, as if he could read your thoughts. He slowly closes in on your lips, the touch finally finding yours. You can still taste yourself on him, but it only made it that much hotter. He takes it slow at first, grabbing your face into his hand, tenderly showing his affection to you. Your legs instinctively find their way around his torso, needing him closer to you. He moans a little in the kiss as his member slides between your folds and he canโt help but to jerk his hips forward a little. The kiss deepens and your tongues find their ways Iโm each otherโs mouths. Your are both just taking your time to feel each other and getting to know one anotherโs body. His member slides easily between your folds since itโs still wet from his tongue and your juices.
You canโt help but to jerk your hips up a little, letting his dick slide in your entrance just the tiniest bit. He growls into your mouth, eyes locked on yours. โY/nโฆโ, he says with a warning tone. You shake your head. โI donโt care Jungkook, fuck me alreadyโ, you say. That is all it took for Jungkook to let go of his human side and fully commit to his primitive wolf.
His face changes within a second to a very dark expression, teeth growing inside his mouth as his ears perk up. His whole body seems to tense up and a loud groan leaves his body. He didnโt waste any more seconds as his hips bump into you with one swift move, his member now fully in you. You let out a Yelp, flustered by the sudden sensation. You could feel it sting, but you didnโt care. The way Jungkook is looking at you is the most manly and horny thing youโve ever seen.
He grabs your legs again, pulling them flat against your stomach before pulling his dick out and right back in again. His thrusts are hard, full of power. He immediately picks up a steady pace while he uncontrollably growls over your moans. His member fills you up in the most positive ways. Not a littlest space is left in your gut. With this position he can also go so deep, you can almost feel it in you stomach.
โSuch a good bitch for meโฆ so pretty and small. No one can have youโ, you can hear Jungkook mutter under his breath while his strokes donโt fail to send shocks through your body. You moan loudly by his words, loving how he is so dominant over you. You have never felt this way before.
Suddenly he pulls out and flips your body over on your stomach. Like you shared the same mind, you immediately lift your ass in the air as your legs are still closed. He puts his legs on both sides of your legs as he bends over your, sliding his dick right between your Ass cheeks and finding your entrance again. He did it all n such an easy movement, you could help but moan when he entered you again. In this position your walls are stretched to the max, it makes you go crazy. You can hear him growl as he makes a fast pace onto you. His dick slides in and out. His body falters onto your back, grabbing your neck as he tries to suffocate you a little. You love the pressure and moan even louder, feeling a heath building up in your core again. He fastens his pace onto your pussy, knowing damn well that you are close again. He doesnโt show any mercy and starts to nip on your neck, giving you goosebumps. He needs you to cum again for him.
His pace is becoming so fast that you are barely able to think. Everything that he does right now is just too much. It only took you a few seconds before the same burning sensation washes through your body again. Shocking motions leave your body as Jungkook sees you cumming right under him. He doesnโt stop though this time, his pace keeps on going as he now seeks his own height. He canโt control himself, he needs to claim you now. He turns you around again, detaching his member before standing up off the bed. The drags you with him before finding the big window in the room. He roughly pulls off the drapes, not caring that they are probably unrepairable now. He lifts your body up and you immediately bring your legs around his hips. You are now both bare naked pushed up against a window and you both donโt care.
He didnโt wait and immediately slides his dick back into your entrance, making a fast pace against your body. You donโt have to put any effort him holding yourself up as he seems to keep your body steadily against the window. His eyes stare into yours, both hooded and sparkling yellow. At some point he stops holding one of your legs as he puts it beside you on the wall, making it way more easy for him to thrust forcefully into you. Your moans fill the roam and he canโt hold back his growls as well.
He pulls you off the window before laying you on the floor. โIโm gonna make you mine nowโ, he growls as his member again has an ungodly pace into your cunt. He brings his head forwards, lips finding the crook of your neck. He licks in a few times and suddenly you feel something growing in your gut. Itโs as if Jungkook's dick is growing. You also notice it by his movements as he slows down, indicating his is tuck in some way. Whatever is going on, it can only be good.
Suddenly he stops moving while a loud growl erupts from his body. You only hold onto him with all your strength, wanting to be as close to him as possible while this moment happens. His teeth suddenly dig into your neck, a painful sensation running through your body as you jerk your head backwards. It was at this moment Jungkook jerks his hips even further into you, cumming in you as he marks you. You feel immense pleasure out of this, his cemen coating your walls and his teeth marking you as his. The feeling of light finally fully became yours and you have never felt so much at peace as now.
You hold onto him as he jerks a few more times with his hips, riding out his own height before detaching his teeth with your body. He let himself rest on top of your body, head resting beside yours while you both close your eyes for a small second. You cans till feel his dick inside of you, being blown up and stuck inside of you.
โHmmmmmโฆ that was so deliciousโ, he mutters into your neck. You smile and nod. โYehโฆ it wasโ.
You finally feel him softening and after a minute or so he finally is able to pull out without hurting you. He gets off of you before pulling you up in his arms, bringing you to the bed. He tucks you in and grabs you a towel to clean yourself. He really is a gentleman, even though we just had such a moment.
He lays beside you while looking at you cleaning yourself. โYou are so beautiful. I could do all of that again for pretty much the whole nightโ, he says as his hand canโt help but to find itโs way to your boob. He lays closer to your, circling uproar nipple and putting his tongue on your other, teasing you. You sigh by the sensation, letting your head fall back.
โBut sadly my suppressants will work out in about 30 minutes. I will turn to a wolf then. Itโs a wonder I havenโt destroyed you just now. I donโt know where hobi got these pills from, but they work wondersโ, he mutters to himself while still admiring your boobs. You chuckle as you are in awe of how he is kind of precious even though he really just gave you the best sex youโve ever had. You pet his head, tracing his ears again. They are really so pretty.
โ30 minutes is pretty long you knowโ, you exclaim. He looks up at you with a smirk before planting his lips on your breasts again, but this timing sucking hard on it. โWell looks like a second round then princessโ, he says before turning you around again and giving you the best night of your life.
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