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did y'all know that Kix was part of Dooku's war chest and originally headed towards Serenno with the rest of it and the bad batch was so close to him without realizing or was that something i was supposed to find out at 1am while doing rabbit hole research for my fanfic
That's what you want, isn't it? To lose yourself in me?
I love/hate how sad he looks when he asks you this.
The confident mask slips as he wonders who exactly you'll be getting lost in because even he doesn't know who he is... and he thinks about all the poor wretches before you, lost in him before being lost to his master. He thinks about how you'll leave a piece of yourself and take a piece in exchange, just like every Sebastian before you. A small price to pay for the protection he thinks he has to buy. Once you figure out how empty he is, how used up and rotted, surely you won't want him anymore but by then he'll have gripped you by the heartstrings. Just like all the others, countless thousands before you. A simple plan. Business as usual. Right?
What is left of the man you were? What parts of you haven't been dragged away, piece by piece, with each soul pulled through you? Are there fragments that remember a father beaming with pride at his clever son? Would he still be proud, to see your sharp fangs snarling back at him? How much of your mother's gentle little boy is left beneath those hungry red eyes? Would she recognize you, bloodstained and hollow? Did your friends carry you to the morgue on the wooden stretcher you use as a bed? Who wrapped you in the blanket that you still cling to? Was it to shield your bruised cheeks from the cold earth as they said goodbye? Did a sister mourn her darling baby brother, were hers the first tears to water the flowers near your empty grave? Did she share your white curls? Or was she a golden sun to your silvery moon? What color were her eyes?
Who's memories am I haunting when I am lost in you?
I just think about how Levi stopped calling Hange 'Four-Eyes' after she/they lost an eye.
And then during their last scene together I think about all he could've said and all he wanted to say but he settled on 'Four eyes' because it's their thing and because he's Levi afterall and it's just so endearing and it makes me want to (AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGH)cry.
The fact that he probably wanted to make it easy for her whilst falling apart simultaneously,by calling Hange 'Four eyes' because that's the only thing he could manage to say and in a way it summarizes their entire relationship, along with fond memories of the times he used that nickname,and how much they(those memories and Hange)meant to him.
genya and sanemi make me so sad. i understand that genya was scared and said something he shouldn't have and man who could be mad at him, he was just a kid. and i understand that sanemi is an awful awful brother to genya but man i can't be too mad at him because he's understandably fucked in the head and he's broken and being good is hard, he was just a kid. and genya is still that kid who believes in fixing things and sanemi has turned into someone who believes that he can never be fixed and if you can't be fixed one way to deal with it is to break others and it's shitty but i get it. and i get that genya doesn't lose trust, doesn't lose hope, can't lose hope because that's his brother and he loves him no matter how horrible sanemi is to him and it hurts so much because i know none of this will be fixed and i fear that deep deep down genya knows that too. maybe not that he'll die in his brother's arms, or that sanemi will desperately try to make amends in those last few moments because he made so many mistakes and how could he and oh god what has he done. and genya loses, loses his life and so many years of love and care that he deserved from his brother, and sanemi loses, loses the only person who was still trying to be there for him and who he loved and who he couldn't protect because he was too fucked up to find the right approach, loses everyone he ever loved and i fear that maybe he deserves it, just a little, and that's the saddest thing of all.
What if they finally talk and Eddie tells him how upsetting the whole "She sees me" thing was for him and Buck tells him he wanted to believe it because he just wants to be with someone that does see him the way Eddie always has and Eddie realizes that Buck loves him too but he's panicking because what if he's wrong and he doesn't want to risk their friendship so that's why he goes to talk to Bobby