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amunyan · 9 months

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Love me, not him (4/7)

It took me a while to figure out a proper fight choreography… and this for like 4 different scenarios with similar outcames.😅🤯Boy... this was a lot of work, but a also fun, to think - in this case - of magic types and how the fight envolves around them...

Half way throw I cut my first scratch because I thought it was too brutal... 😬🫥 Now I think/ hope it is fine and similar to ordinary Shonen-fights, little mixed with D&D.

I hope you enjoy.🤗

Before you could make a move or even an excuse, the three half-breads had surrounded you. A small group of two men and one woman. You felt the blood running down your face and the pain you tried to wipe away with the back of your hand.

„So much for just a bad feeling...“, you thought as you saw the blood. As you looked up, you saw the wind-mage coming towards you.

The young man, who had attacked you, asked quietly what you were doing there. But you could clearly hear the trembling of his voice. The anger he was trying to suppress: „Why do the Magic-Knights always have to stick their noses into other peoples business?“

"This is our hideout. Our base... Hardly anyone gets lost here... Especially not someone like you..." the girl continued.

"Funny," you muttered to yourself. "I could say the same..."

You made another attempt to walk past them, telling them again that you had seen nothing, when another attack hit you.

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What are you going to do?

* A - try to escape --> 4A

* B - fight back --> 4B

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4A:

"Oh dear... Shit! I may have walked into something very bad," you began to realise. I have to get out of here as soon as possible! I don't have the time or the nerves for this shit".

You were about to run away as you felt something on your feet.

"A liana? What?" Before you understood what was happening, the plant had curled up against you, as if the sudden fear had taken away any possibility of escape.

"How disrespectful. You stay right here." Looking at you disdainfully, the wind mage had approached you. "Again; tell us what you are doing here!"

You still had no idea what was going on. You were just on your way home and also had no interest in their business. So again, you claimed your innocence: „I don't know what you did. Neither would I care. I just wanted to go home and-" The tendrils tightened up. Your air was cut off. It hurt terribly.

„Yeah“, laughter left his mouth. "Tell your lies to someone else. If you can after we thought you some manners. "

You saw his evil smile and knew he meant it. You had to do something. Right now! But: "I... I can't. I can't concentrate on my magic." You did your best, but nothing happened. Neither an attack spell nor your armour. You were too scared and wounded in this disadvantaged battle, you are trapped in. As the vines tightened again, you noticed a strange smell in the air. Flowers have bloomed all over your chains. They were beautiful, looking like large orchids with a much longer pistil that emitted that strong and sweet scent. It only took a few moments for the scent to make you dizzy.

„Damn it. I can no longer keep my eyes open. I am getting tired. I can't do nothing more. Those three really went that far? Why?" You looked around and couldn't even tell which of the other two was responsible for which spell. But that wouldn't change anything. The feeling in your body slowly fades. "When I fall asleep, that's it. It is over." Your eyes fell closed. Mentally you were already done with your life, as you heard her voice.

„Calidus Brachium!“

You felt the heat of Mereoleonas mana and her attack. Felt how the tendrils burned down to ashes. But most of all, you felt safe. With just one attack, she was able to save you and knock out all three of them. You looked up at her with relief. But the moment she turned around, her face still contorted in fury, you knew you had a much bigger problem now.

„What do you think you are doing, (Y/N)?!? “ She shouted at you as she approached you to grab your head with her flame paw. „Are you kidding me? What kind of useless wimp are you? Being not able to fight those brats? Even worse! You almost died! You are lucky that I have already been looking for you and know where to find you. I know your magic is not made for attacking. But this?!? I know you better! I know you can do better. Your stamina and defence are excellent! But why? Why are you running away? are you running away? Do you want me to beat your ass? “

Her voice trembled. Not only because of anger. Also of disappointment.

„I... I don't know... They totally have frightened me. I couldn’t do anything...“, you whispered looking away. „I still don't know what the heck is going on.“

„That's not the point here. The next time shit like this happens, you and I will be talking eye to eye about your abilities as a so called proud lioness of our squad."

You swallow this announcement. And the feeling of losing Mereoleona's sympathy spreads through you.

"I don't know if this is good or bad... but it hurts somehow.

--> Loosing -5 sympathy of Mereoleona and go to chapter 6A. Yes... no chapter 5 for you...

4B:

„No. It's not an option to give up or surrender! Not only I’m a Magic-Knight. After all, I'm part of the proudest squad - the crimson lions. If I escape, Mereoleona would kill me with her own bare hands“, you said to yourself to spur yourself on and clenched your hands into fists. Getting mentally ready to fight. „I still have no Idea what's going on but I am not the punching bag of some came along teenagers. Maybe Leo's, but that’s another story...“

As the three were again about to attack you, you felt the rush of adrenalin in your veins. Your mana increased and you commanded it to condense around your body. Something Mereoleona has thought you in the hell of the volcano, to improve your defense. „ Diamond-skin Armor “, you whispered as you activated the spell, raising your hands in defence. Another thing you have copied from her.

The next attack of wind magic couldn't hurt you. Not even leave a scratch. He flinched back and looked at his friends with disbelief and a little concern before he flashed a provocative grin. "Do you really think you can stand up to us? There are three of us - and you are alone.”

"Yes..." you made sure to sound convincing. "Even if I don't want to fight. But you see, you can't hurt me anymore. It's useless to hit me. Let me go - I didn't see anything. I don't know what's going on. We can just pretend that nothing ever happened.”

But they only laughed at you. "Are you really that stupid? As if we would believe you. You'll probably run back to the Order for reinforcements. We're sorry, but we won't let you get out of here."

„Fine“, you wispered, trying to suppress your worries. With No other options left you summoned your shiny gemstones to attack.

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But does your Magic hit?

Roll a dice (1D6) and find out

Result 2 or lower --> 4B-1

Result 3 or higher --> 4B-2

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4B-1

As you fired your shiny gems, you noticed that something was wrong. „Damn it. I couldn’t concentrate enough. “ The stones were lurching in the air and your opponents easily dodged them. But not the girl; She was apparently hit.

"Good - one less to fight," you thought to yourself, feeling a little relieved, and took a deep breath. But the next moment you felt something on your ankle. „What? A creeping plant?” You tried to shake it off, but the plant was too fast and way too strong. Within moments, it had wounded itself up your leg. From there it slowly but surely made its way up your body.

„Where is this thing coming from all of a sudden? I need to get it off. Before -“

In the very same moment you were pulled to the ground by the liana. As you tried to get up again, you noticed the girl, you thought you knocked out just moments ago. She was still lying on the ground, but not unconscious. This was her magic... You can tell by the grimoire, overgrown with the very same vines, floated in front of her.

„Damn... I can't move.” Along with the plant, fear was now creeping up inside you. More, as you noticed a strange smell in the air. Sweetish, but very intrusive. An irrepressible tiredness overcame you from one moment to the next. „Where is this coming from? Huh? Flowers? “ Only now did you notice that beautiful flowers had bloomed all over the liana. Beautiful, like large black orchids with a long pistil that gives off this strong, sweet scent. You knew immediately what would happen now; „When I fall asleep, that's it.“ The feeling in your body was slowly fading away. Your eyes fall closed and mentally you have already finished with your life when you hear her voice.

„Calidus Brachium!“

You felt the heat of Mereoleonas aana and her attack. Felt how the tendrils burned down to ashes. But most of all, you felt safe. With just one attack, she was able to save you and knock out all three of them. You looked up at her in relief.

„Are you okay? “ Mereoleona turned around with worry in her blue eyes.

"Something like that," you muttered, trying to get up when she reached out to help you up.

"Really? " she asked to make sure and touched your arms and your shoulders to check you carefully.

„You saved me. So, it's okay“, you tried to smile. „Thanks for your help, Cap-“ You saw her face and shake your head. „No, thank you, Mereoleona...“

„Don't worry“, she sighed. „It was also a sort of my mistake. I could tell from your mana how nervous I made you earlier... You are a Overthinker. I only can imagine how much you were affected by my actions and words earlier...“

„Wait? What did she just say? “ You didn't really know if you could trust your ears, but by then she had already changed the subject.

„I know you for over five years now, (Y/N). I know how strong your magic can become. Your stamina and defense are outstanding! Even my brother told me about your strength and the power you released during your first mission years ago.“

„Huh?“

„Don't huh me,“ she said angrily and snapped at your forehead. „ You need more confidence in yourself, (Y/N). Being nervous is no excuse for a bad fight after all.I wish I could, but I'm not always by your side.“

You blushed as she made that kind of confession and couldn't even look at her as you felt something warm around your shoulders.

„You are cold, right?“ Mereoleona had put her cloak around you. Knowing how easily you start freezing. Your face turned even more red, if this was possible. You can't stand it, when she takes care of you. When she shows you her soft and caring side.

--> 4c

4B-2

Despite your doubts and tension you were able to command your gemstone attack properly. You knew a hit of your attack wouldn’t be a big deal, neither hurt anyone badly. But it was a sign; they cannot do what they want with you.

Your attack hit the three of them. The girl and the wind mage were only grazed, but the third, who was lurking in the shadows, took a heavy hit.

„Shit“, the girl shouted. „Tim barely stands any Attack. Why didn’t you back him up? “ She looked at her friend with a dark glace in her eyes. He tried to justify himself. Told her, he was in a rush because of the magic-knight, they suddenly encountered. But she did not seem to calm down. Was upset becouse of her friend.

„Maybe they really try to hide something. But what is so special to them?“, you asked yourself and made a decision. „As I am already part of this stupid plot, I could try to figure this out...“

While the other two started an argument, you tried to sneak past them to reach their little hide beneath the bushes. Next to the unconscious young men you found some bottles of alcohol, but also a little bag. It was heavy and sounded like there was something metallic inside. As you were about to open it, you felt something on your leg. Winding quickly upwards. Before you could realize what happened, a liana had grabbed you ankle and only moments later your whole foot and body. You draped the bag back on the floor, as you couldn’t hold it any longer.

You realized the girl was responsible for this. Showing her grimoire and pressing her palms to the ground.

The plants couldn't hurt you, because of your skin-armour, but you couldn't free yourself either. The wind mage approached you again, grapping the pouch angrily.

„Shit...", he mumbled. Looking nervous to his friend on the ground and then to you.“Who do you think you are? It's not polite to look in other people's things or hurt them like that. Didn't your mummy teach you any manners?”

"It's your own fault," you told him, trying to suppress the tremor in your voice. „You attacked me first. And what’s inside the bag anyway? I sounded like something valuable. The little glimpse I could catch, showed something shiny... like Gemstones. Are you three little thieves or something like this?” You knew exactly what you were doing. You provoked him to get answers. Hopefully... „Maybe I can make them talk that way.“

But the plan did not work. You felt the rage in the mana of the wind mage. Felt his power increase and that he was going for another attack.

„Warding winds - reverse," he murmured, and the strong gust of wind in which he had first wrapped himself now captures you. Escape was impossible because of the tendrills. The little whirlwind tightened around you, trying to hurt you. And with fear in your eyes, you noticed the first scratches on your armour.

"Oh no... can I withstand this attack much longer?"

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Can your defence withstand the attack?

Roll another dice! (again 1D6)

Result 4 or lower --> 4B-2a

Result 5 or higher --> 4B-2b

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4B-2a:

As his attack hit you, you felt your gem-armour cracking. You felt the cold breeze sharp against your skin. How it cut deeper than before. You tried to take it. But you used up too much mana and energy in the panic of the sudden attack. „Shit... I can't free myself. And the wind is cutting deeper and deeper. I need to do something. Maybe a counterattack...?“

Being tangled up in the Liana and caught in rotating, razor-sharp gusts of wind, you tried to go for another attack. But as your grimoire turned the pages and your shiny gemstones appeared, the exhaustion took the upper hand. You ran out of mana. Both, your gemstone attack and the diamond-armour disappeared within a blink of an eye.

The next second, your scream of pain echoed down the narrow, overgrown alley...As you were about to pass out, the feeling of warm mana appeared behind you. Strong and hot mana, increasing rage. The other moment you heard her scream.

„Calidus Brachium!“

You noticed Mereoleona behind you, helping you out a little hesitantly. But within seconds she has defeated the remaining attackers.

„Are you okay? “ Mereoleona turned around with worry in her blue eyes.

„Sort of“, you mumbled and were about to get up when she reached out to help you.

„Really?“ She asked to make sure. Touching your Arms in shoulders to check on you carefully.

„You saved me. So it's okay“, you tried to smile. „Thanks for your help, Cap-“ You saw her face and shake your head. „No. Thank you, Mereo...“

„Don't worry“, she sighed. „It was also a sort of my mistake. I could tell from your mana how nervous I made you earlier... You are a sort of Overthinker. I only can imagine how much you were affected by my actions and words...”

„Wait? What did she just say?“ You didn't really know if you could trust your ears, but by then she had already changed the subject.

„But your fight was not bad after all, (Y/N). I know that your magic is not for attack, it is for defence.Besides, your stamina is normally outstanding. Even my brother told me enthusiastically of your strength and the power you unleashed on your first mission years ago. Concentrate on your strengths to find a strategy that blanks out your weaknesses. One day... you will show me the power within you.”

Taken completely by surprise, you just smiled and let out a "yes".

“But… your attacks are bungling despite all this.“

You nodded quietly, when she brought you back down to earth again, still a little disappointed that Mereoleona had to save you. As you let out a deep sigh, because of this fact, you felt something warm around your shoulders.

„Huh?“ You looked up questioningly.

„You felt a bit chilly. I know how quickly you start freezing and I don't want you to catch a cold. So, take my cloak.“

„Thank you“, you wispered and turned red. You can't stand it, when she takes care of you. When she shows you her soft and caring side.

--> 4c

4b-2b:

You were able to maintain your armour. The attack couldn't harm you. Your stamina and defence are stronger than most of Magic-Knights. But you are much weaker in attacking. You sensed that this fight was going to be a battle of attrition; you had enough to do with keeping your guard up.

“Shit... Is there nothing I can do? Something like...“

Fuegoleon came to your mind. And with him, memories of your first mission together over seven years ago. A memory you cherished like a treasure…

After a lot of failures, within only two years – whenever you went on missions, your or some of your comrades got hurt – nobody wanted to attempt another mission together with you. Only Fuegoleon didn’t mind being teamed up with you. Your last chance you to prove your worth of being a Magic-Knight. No wonder you were nervous as hell. Your job was at stake. Your source of income including shelter. But Fuegoleon, back than just an ordinary Knight, just like you, was in good spirits.

“Don’t worry, (Y/N). We will finish this mission in no time. After all it’s just a little cave, we have to scout. Nothing to worry about.”

"Are you sure? I'm sure I can turn this into a life-threatening mission too.” But the warm smile he gave you in return was more than enough to motivate you.

In no time, the two of you were done. He was impressed with how conscientious you were with your work and wrote down a lot of information about the dungeon, even a floor plan. And you can't help but feel safe around Fuegoleon. Your initial nervousness was blown away and you could focus on your job.

“Great job”, he praised. “Seeing you like this, makes it hard to believe you're supposed to be the troublemaker. You are doing great here, (Y/N).”

“Thanks, Fuegoleon“, you answered blushing. Knowing it was because of him – he calmed you down. “I hope it stays that way.”

“Don’t worry. We are done here. It’s a small cave and because of your great work“, he pointed with his head to your notes, on which you have also drawn the surroundings in detail. "Your resignation should be off the table. So let's go home.”

“Yeah”, you said smiling and followed him, as loose stone moves beneath your feet. You suspected something bad and swallowed first. Then you turned around slowly. One of the stone walls had opened up and behind it was a treasure chamber. But with it, the guardian of this dungeon also appeared – a snake-like monster, but much bigger. Surprised by the sudden appearance of the monster, you literally freezed. The snake came closer and was about to bite you, as Fuegoleon jumped in front of you, to save you. He suppressed a loud scream, as the monster bit him. But you tearful cry echoed through the cave, when he collapsed shortly afterwards. He was bleeding badly and you were unsure if he had been poisoned as well.

“I am so sorry”, you cried. “You got hurt because of me. It would have been easy to leave me behind. It would have been better for you and all of the other squat-members.”

“Don’t be stupid”, he contradicts you with a quiet yet strong voice. “You know – we are a team. We help each other out. So please – don’t say things like this ever again. You are a valuable member of our squat, (Y/N). “

These simple words of appreciation had done something with you. Not only Fuegoleon saved you, he also believed in you. You didn’t want to disappoint him…

You didn't remember clearly what happened, after the snake approaches you two. But you managed to save Fuegoleon, after first dragging him into the situation. Also he spoke highly of you to the leader of the Order back at this time. Told him that even though he was injured, you saved him and cleared the dungeon yourself. Convinced him that this wouldn't have been possible without your clumsiness.

“Even though he is asleep now, I will not disappoint him and lose this stupid fight. I won’t run away or give in!” You felt the mana within you. Felt how you gained more control over it and your grimoire appeared. It turned to a page, you thought you could never access again....

The next moment, crystals shot up and your guard became both; defence and attack. Like back then.

The moment you broke through the vines, you also hit the wind mage and threw him a few meters away from you with your attack.

„Oh dear” You jumped back in fear and now sat there on the ground. Like a cross between an armadillo and a hedgehog with crystal spikes.

„Are... Are you okay?“ You asked unsure.

No answer.

„Oh no, oh shit... I...I killed him. No... I killed two man. What have I done?“

In the same moment you wanted to start running in panic-circles, you felt something shattering your crystals.

„Are you kidding me? Asking the Person who attacked you, if they are okay...“

„Mereo?!?“

“Yes. You can be happy I came. Can you tell me what’s going on here, (Y/N)? Why are you fighting these pipes?”

“I don't know”, you answered and shake your head. Being still confused. “I was on my way home and they felt interrupted by my presence alone. But as far as I could understand, they were trying to hide something. But I couldn't figure out what..."

“No”, somebody shouted. It was the wind mage, who struggled to get back to his feet. “She is lying. Or why else would she be roaming around here? She must have followed us after we…” Startled, he covered his mouth. He had already said too much.

Mereoleona turned around and grabed at him with her flame paw. “Come on. Tell me all your outrages. Why are you hurting her? What is so special to you? Tell me, or otherwise I’ll kill the three of you.”

As the young man saw Mereoleonas gaze, he literally trembled. His body started shaking and he bit his lips. You knew that he, too, could sense her terrifying aura. Only seconds later he confessed everything. He and his friends have robbed a famous shop for magical artefacts and jewellery. “Please. Don’t kill us…. We will bring it back.“ Since Mereo had grabbed him, the young wind mage had clearly become a bit of a wimp. He started crying. He told you that he and his friends live in poverty and have little brothers and sisters to look after. "Besides, my grandmother is sick..."

“Tell somebody else your heartbreaking story”, Mereo let him go, but sent him away flying. Throw him away like a piece of trash.

"You better grab your friends and run as fast as you can," she advised him in a tone that even frightened you.

"Yes... yes..." he said quickly. Within seconds, he had grabbed his two buddies and disappeared into the night.

“Is it really okay to let them go?” Unsure you looked at Mereoleona.

"They can be happy I let them go, after they tried to kill you for no reason. Stupid bunch."

You were about to contradict her when she asked what else you were going to do about it. "Writing reports?" Inquiringly, she raises an eyebrow.

"Maybe," you said quietly as you felt something warm around your shoulders.

"Don't worry. I will take care of it." Mereo had thrown her cloak over you. As you looked up in surprise, a proud smile appeared on her lips. “You fought well, (Y/N). My brother told me long ago about this attack of yours. I am impressed that you have managed to reinstate it after such a long time. Even more so that I was allowed to be there.”

"Thanks," you murmured, blushing a little. "Also for your cape. It is nice and warm."

"I know how quickly you get chilly." You blushed even more when you saw her caring face.

"Let's fight together again soon. But for now - let's go home."

You have clearly noticed that Mereo has a crush on you. “I am not sure if I should be happy or not…?”

--> Gaining +5 sympathy of Mereoleona --> next chapter

„But can you tell me what’s wrong, (Y/N)? Why did those three attack you all of a sudden?“

While you stood there blushingly, Mereoleona made her way to the hideout between the bushes. "Did you do something that made them angry with you?"

"Me? No," you said startled. "Or at least I don't know what. I was on my way home and they felt interrupted by my presence alone. But as far as I could understand, they were trying to hide something. But I couldn't figure out what..."

But Mereoleona seemed to have found the reason for this pointless fight; the bag the three of them were trying to protect. Curious to see what was inside, you approached her.

"What a surprise," she grinned. "I was looking for you, but found the idiots who stole the special artifacts..."

„What? “ Instead of solving your questions, another one opened up. But Mereoleona explained it to you; While she was searching for you, she stumbled upon the information that an expensive magic artifact shop had been robbed. „ I know this shop because my mother used to buy special things there from time to time. Especially jewellery, like pendtants and brooches."

„Wait...wait. Wait...“ It took you a while to progress this new information. „You tell me, these half breads had stolen this stuff and you just let them go?“ On the one side you were impressed. Mereoleona doesn’t seem so, but she took her unwilling job seriously after all.

„They can be happy I let them go, after they hurt you for no reason. I could have killed them...“

„She is the same as always....", you thought to youself, smiling awkwardly.

„Come on, let's head home. I have enough to do for now...“ She clarified and turned to leave. You followed her, yet complained about her methods, as she stopped - you ran into her - and asked you, what you want to do about this. „Writing Reports?“

„Maybe?!

„Don't worry”, she said, strocking through your hair. I'll take care of it...“

--> next chapter

to be continued in chapter 5... or 6 - based on your decisions

#creative wrting #black clover #fuegoleon vermillion #mereoleona vermillion #x reader #i dont know what i am doing #x fem!reader #brain shit

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amunyan · 10 months

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Love me, not him! (3/7)

When I was younger I really liked those stories and games where you could choose your own path. So I tried it here, because I could never really decide who is better of the two...

(But my art is worst – so don’t expect photos or something like this…🥴😅)

I'm still trying my best to write in proper English... I hope you still like it... And maybe I should post this stuff somewhere else... It got way to long 🫣😅🤨

„How could Mereoleona be so mean to me? Why does she want me to forget Fuegoleon?“ You asked yourself. Literally; you were staring at your own reflection in the little stream, beneath the bridge you stood on. It got dark meanwhile and the moonlight glittered in the water.

But no matter how long you stared at yourself, you couldn't find an answer to your question.

***A: Maybe I should just ask her what’s wrong. ***

***B: Anyway... Let’s pretend today never happened and head home. ***

***C: * sigh * It's late.... I shouldn't worry her. I better get back before she starts looking for me. **

“Yeah – to make things clear would be the best option”, you nodded to yourself. You wanted to know what’s going on between the two of you. Or at least; why she did what she did.

„After all she is the only one who knows about my feelings for her brother. So why would she want to drive a wedge between us? She even promised me to help me out and support us.“

But being remembered of this fact – you still regret how talkative you were in this night - one thing came to another and both your motivation and confidence melted down like a snowman in summer.

„I... I can't. She only knows about this because I failed badly back then, when I want to confess my feelings for Fuegoleon...“

Your heart was beating fast in your chest. Your hands were shaking, even worse than your voice.

You did it. You confessed your long-held feelings for Fuegoleon. Maybe it was not the best moment to do so. Neither the best place for a confession. But you couldn’t hold back in the moment he came to your aid.

Being bright red you looked up at him. As you met his eyes he was looking at you with a friendly smile, like always. „Oh, I am sorry, (Y/N). What did you just say? Your voice was so quiet, I couldn’t understand you.“

From all the possible outcomes, this was the worst. The world around you shattered by his words .You started feeling a lump in the throat. Felt how your chest tightens up. You couldn’t breathe and your body starts to tremble. A fight against the upcoming tears got started. Doomed from the moment he approaches you to hand you the book you asked for. The book you couldn’t reach at the top of the bookshelf.

„Could you please repeat what you just said?“

No. Impossible. Your mind went empty at the moment he asked you for the first time to repeat yourself. The needed courage to repeat your confession was extinguished. Got used up for the first confession.

The awkward silence got worse as you felt the glances of the other people, the other members of the order. Glances, sharp enough as they could pierce someone.

You bit your lips and went back a few steps to hopefully escape this Situation. Not minding your steps. As a result, you stepped over your own feet and fall on your bum.

„(Y/N)?! Are you okay?” With worry in his eyes, Fuegoleon came closer. He reached out his hand to help you up.

But you couldn’t even look at him. Tears started filling your eyes and without another look at him, you fled headlong from the library. Never wanting to see him again...

„But we saw each other again. I even become one of his closest confidantes. Even if we never talked about this event again.

Being honest with yourself; It was not the brightest idea to confess in such a situation. At this place, in front of other people. “At that time it was something romantic for me. But even Mereoleona laughed at me.”

Later, when everyone was looking for you, she was the one who found you. You couldn't help but tell her what had happened. “I still don’t know why I told her everything. But she wanted to help us. But it never really happened.” You sighed deeply and scratched your head. “Damn it. This – my poor communication skills – could maybe be a problem. Maybe I also got her wrong on this day and she never wanted to help me at all. Talking again about this could it even make worse...“

After another deep breath you decided to head back. It’s not worth worrying about it. At least; not out here in the cold of night. It would work better in a warm bed as a sleeping aid. Nevertheless a clarifying conversation with Mereoleona would be necessary. You would just have to prepare thoroughly.

As you went back, you noticed the short way to the city gate was besieged by three half-breads – looking at you with grim look. An uneasy feeling grips you. You wanted to shake it of, when you felt a sharp pain in your cheek. Before you even realized what happened you find yourself in a fight against those three teenagers...

You took in a deep breath before you pushed yourself away from the wooden railing of the little bridge, to head back, from your little hideaway outside the Capital-City, to the HQ of your Order. You felt like you were in a small forest as you walked along a small, dark path lined with trees and bushes. As you made your way home, you noticed three people around the age of teenagers. You couldn't say why, but a strange feeling came over you as you made eye contact with one of the three, who was lying on the ground. You quickly tried to hide something as soon as they noticed the emblem on your cloak. At first it seemed suspicious to you. But you didn’t have the time or the nerves to worry about this. Especially not the nerves.

„Come on, (Y/N). Mind your own business. They do nothing illegal or something like that. Maybe they hide some alcohol or something like this. It's not worth the worry.“

You turned your face away, looking at the ground. But an uneasy feeling grips you. You wanted to shake it of, when you felt a sharp pain in your cheek. Before you even realized what happened you find yourself in a fight against those three teenagers...

As you were about turn around, old memories of the night you got to know her, caught up to you.

„It's like back then; When I wanted to confess my feelings to Fuegoleon. But I couldn’t find the courage to speak up again after he didn’t hear me...“

You remembered running away from him, never wanting to see him again and flee to this very same spot; the little river outside the city. A place you found by chance, but you felt safe there. “Probably because people rarely stray there...” you thought to yourself with a little smile on your lips. “But sometimes… they do. At least back then when I first met her…”

It got dark when you stopped running and found yourself at a little river, close to the walls of the capital city. But with all the trees and bushes it seemed like a little forest. A place you had not known until then. No one was around, so you could cry to yourself for a few hours. Giving yourself bad names for being such an idiot and stupid enough to think he would like you back as much as you like him. You also toyed with the idea of running away. Like a little child, and never ever come back. The only thing holding you back was that you were freezing in the upcoming night. And your stomach - who told you, you were hungry...

So, with no warm blankets and no hunting skills, you made your way back to the HQ when someone approached you; a young lady, perhaps a few years older than you. She walked directly towards you, and you noticed the similarities to Fuegoleon. But it was when she began to speak that you connected the dots; “This is Mereoleona Vermillion, Fuegoleons older sister”, you realized. “Send help… If she really is the kind of barbarian that she is said to be by everyone…”

“Hey!? What do you think you’re doing? Everybody is already looking for you, especially my little brother.”

Uncertain whether she really meant you, you first looked behind you - no, there was really no one else around - as you pointed uncertainly at yourself.

“Yes, of course you!” She almost shouted at you and crossed her arms in front of her chest. “So, tell me what’s wrong? Why did you run away?”

„No... nothing“, you stuttered, wanting to pass her. „I...I... Already wanted... wanted to go home. So... everything is-“

You couldn’t even pretend that everything was fine. A flaming paw came at you..

„Don't lie to me, little girl. I can Tell from your mana that nothing is alright...“

You both were starring at each other for a while. Mereoleona in a strict and unyielding way. You gave in as you couldn’t handle the shaking of your body. It was not only the fear, but also the icy wind that played its part.

So you told her about your rejection by Fuegoleon. Your problem with your quiet voice and your leak in both; self-confidence and the courage to speak up again. She listened carefully to your story, but couldn't help herself and started to laugh as you told her more details.

„You did what? Asking for a book as an excuse and confess your love for him so quietly that He couldn’t hear you?“

„ Don't laugh at me. It's already embarrassing without you. And it wasn’t exactly an excuse. It was to… “ you didn’t know how to explain yourself. “It was not planned to confess my feelings. All right?“

Mereoleona stopped laughing and put an arm around you in reconciliation. A broad, meaningful grin appeared on her lips. „Feelings for my dorky little brother? That’s sweet. He doesn't even know how to spell love, nor would he notice it if it jumped in his face.“

You swallowed. Felt a lump in your throat and everything inside you tightened at her words.

Your nose began to itch as tears filled your eyes. You tried to suppress those feelings but couldn’t help. The first tear run down your face, over your nose and dripped to the ground.

„Oh... You mean it this seriously...“ Mereoleona started understanding and a soft but bitter sweet smile came to her lips. „Let me help you a little bit”, she whispered, pulling you into a warm embrace and wiping away the tears...

„Since Back then, since her promise to help me and Fuegoleon, nothing really happened. It is that we have become a kind of close friends? And… her brother always seemed to be fine with this development…”

You sighed deeply before you straightening up again from your lumpy pose over the bridge railing and looking up at the starry sky. “What if… what if he really doesn’t feel anything for me? But… what if Mereoleona is the one having feelings? If she does all this because she has feelings for…?”You paused. The thought you had just grasped for the first time seemed so absurd and stupid that you have to let it sink in first. But after a few seconds you started laughing. „Oh dear, what am I thinking? I am definitely not her type. I am way too weak and shy. Better don’t tell her this. She will get mad with me. After all, she really is a bit of the barbarian everyone thinks she is. But talking about getting mad - I should head home now.”

As you went back, you noticed the short way to the city gate was besieged by three half-breads – looking at you with grim look.

An uneasy feeling grips you. You wanted to shake it of, when you felt a sharp pain in your cheek. Before you even realized what happened you find yourself in a fight against those three teenagers...

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