#bit of an overstep rn i’m sorry !

[skzxlevanter]

stray kids reaction with a shy and quiet s/o

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warnings: petnames, besides that overall fluff, a bit possessive and suggestive if you squint, but not really

found this in my drafts so i decided to complete this cute little drabble :) I’m sorry that there’s not a lot of content coming rn, but i’m still preparing for two remaining finals so i just don’t have the mental capacity and time,,hope you guys understand :/

besides that, enjoy the drabble and feel free to check out other things from my blog :D

bang chan:

oh well he would be so flustered when you get flustered and the two of you would just be a flushing mess most of the time

he really tries everything to not make you uncomfortable, also ordering for you at places and he would be more than patient with you, not wanting to overwhelm you in any way, also being a 100% protective of you

but at the same time he’d try to make things with you that make you come of your shell a bit, things that you usually wouldn’t do, but still not overstepping any boundaries, always letting you know that he‘s here for you

and like i said, he kinda likes it when you get all shy and blushy, sometimes making you blush on purpose and teasing you endlessly for it <3

lee minho

even tho he’d seem quite confident at first, i honestly think that he could be a little set back by the fact that you barely showed affection, but when he figures out that you’re just shy he takes it to his full advance

he does not miss a chance to flutter you when he can by giving you intense glares, or locking you between the wall and him in traditional k-drama style just to see your reaction, but never going overboard because hurting you or making you uncomfortable would actually break his heart

still, he loves it so much when you start to blush and ramble all kind of things when you’re stunned, breaking out into his signature bunny-like smile once he can‘t hold back anymore

and like chan, he would be super patient with you, giving you the space you need until your comfortable around him, not minding at all

seo changbin:

i can see him throwing around endless jokes just to see you getting all shy

he’ll also flex his muscles right in front of you just to see your signature blush

but besides that, even tho he doesn’t really want to admit this, the fact that you’re shy makes him kinda shy too so it might be a bit awkward at first

but the more you open up to each other, the more comfortable you get around each other and the more confident the two of you get

will definitely gently hold your hand anytime ( if you’re okay with it) and loves the time he spends with you nevertheless

hwang hyunjin

he probably wouldn’t quite know how to handle it at first, leading to a lot of awkward laughs

but over time, he’ll grow used to it and takes his time to get to know you as good as he can, letting you get comfortable around him, inviting you to various activities with him like drawing, galleries, random walks, etc…

that is when he’ll start to give you lots of heartfelt compliments, showing how much he appreciates you and helping you to get more confident in your own skin

overall he’ll be so gentle and loving at all times, aware to not hurt your feelings, but still trying to help you grow in the best way possible

han jisung

at first so.many.awkward.silences.

han is still an introvert at heart, so at first he’d don’t know what to do, a lot of doubts about himself rising up, buy when he realizes that it is just how you are, he’ll step up and warm up rather quickly

he’ll start talking non-stop over things he likes, asking you lots of questions while he’s at it to include you too

tries to make you laugh all the time, secretly loves how cute you look when you’re shy and get that little blush on your cheeks

but be ready to fight over who has to order or call people because that is something you’d both despise

lee felix

he’d be so gentle with you. seriously. he would act like you’re about to break any second

he’d immediately notice when you’re uncomfortable, not shying away from speaking up for you when you are and is just constantly making sure you’re okay

“everything alright, love?” // “anything on your mind, you look like something is off?” // “should i speak to them for you?”

in conclusion he will not let anyone make you uncomfortable, including himself, so he always watches your reactions and makes sure to never overstep your boundaries ever <3

kim seungmin

he can be such a menace,, exactly knowing how to push your buttons and thoroughly enjoying when you get all shy and will never stop teasing you

he also loves to take your shyness to his advantage, knowing you love to bury your flushed face in his neck and cuddle into him in embarrassment, so he basically can get affection without actually having to ask for it ;)

but like the others,, he’ll never hurt you, he knows when to stop and won’t do anything you’re not comfortable with

being at public places will also contain a lot of teasing, especially when it comes to ordering something, but in the end he’ll order for you and get you everything you want because he’s a sucker for you

yang jeongin

probably starts to giggle every time you visibly get shy over something, causing him to blush a bit himself

with him there always be a very fine line between him teasing and pushing you a bit out of your comfort zone and him getting shy too,,,but that actually makes it more easy for you to get comfortable, seeing that he can get all blushy and all over the place too

the relationship would therefore be pretty balanced, the two of you respecting each other’s boundaries but also growing together too, maybe even setting small challenges to achieve from time to time to get a bit more confident

but in the end, dates would mostly end up in quiet places or just at home, where the two of you are all in private and comfortable without a soul (be aware of incidents with the other boys tho) interrupting you

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#skz #skz fanfic #skz scenarios #stray kids #stray kids fanfic #stray kids fluff #skz reaction #skzfanfic #skz fluff #kpop #kpop fanfic #skz drabble #skz reactions

[astr0exe]

hiiii!!!!!! i love your writing and i’m kinda new so sorry if i overstep any boundaries 😭 but wondering if maybe perv stepdad/dbf price with daddy kink and light puppy play? (collars,leash stuff like that but please no stuff ab eating out of a bowl or smth like that)only if your comfortable!!!! i am so so so so sorry if it’s too specific! have a good day/night!

hey this is stuck in my brain rn sooo pervy stepdad Price wit transmasc reader

TW : Age gap (Price is over 40 reader is 21) , Pervy-stepdad Price, Puppy play (collar, leash, ears, tail) , slight possible non-con due to coercion, trans masc reader, praise, tiny bit rough, daddy kink, filth. pure filth

sorry if this isnt fully want you wanted but i git carried away !!

no proof read, 726 words

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Pervy-stepdad Price with a stepson who just came home from university, freshly turned 21 coming home to see his mum and step-dad.. not realising what it does to Price, he has to try hide his bulge when ever you speak to him and look at him with your wide eyes and cute little smile.

Pervy-stepdad Price who owns a collar and leash and just NEEDS to see them on you. You who owns puppy ears and a tail buttplug… Oh when Price realised you were into the same stuff he was.. he had to lock himself in the ensuite and jerk his cock until his wrist hurt and cheeks were flushed bright red even with the cold water beating down on him.

Pervy-Stepdad Price who, when your mums away on a business trip, confronts you about the tail and ears he found. Manipulating you, telling you that if you don’t do what he asks (suck his fat dick) he will tell your mum about your.. disgusting kink.. Obviously with that threat hanging in the air you do it, you get on your knees infront of your stepdad, a man over double your age and you lick and suck his cock till he is groaning and grabbing your hair in a tight fist to shove his dick down your wet throat.

Pervy-Stepdad Price who notices how your thighs rub together unconsciously when he places the ears on your head, making you whine in embarrassment but you dont protest cause you know your just a silly puppy keening for Prices attention:(

Pervy-Stepdad Price with fingers of pure bliss, they are just thick enough to hit all the spots you need, your moans and whimpers mixing with the almost squelching noises coming from your soaked pussy. If anything his words make you more wet “come’re puppy, yeah.. grind on my fingers like a helpless bitch in heat.. good boy..” he would growl in your ear lowly, his other hand moving down to his hard cock which is bobbing against his lower stomach, so perfect.

Pervy-Stepdad Price with you, his little puppy, laying on the couch, your legs stretched wide for him, his tongue dipping in and out of your dripping cunt. He decides now is the time to put your adorable tail on.. He gets fully between your legs, and slides his fingers into your pussy, before removing them, ignoring your whine of protest and slowly working 2 fingers into your extremity tight arse “Shit.. lovie your little arse is so fucking tight..” he cant decide if he wants to eat out both your holes today but decides against it, getting the buttplug situated.

Pervy-Stepdad Price who bites at your neck like a rabid animal, he just needs everyone to know who you belong to. Him. Your stepdad. Your daddy, and you know it as well dont you? moaning quietly “daddy.. fuck i need you..” and his resolve snaps.

Pervy-Stepdad Price with a cock above average size by both length and girth, you just know he will stretch your little hole so much:( When he finally loses all his patience and slides himself into your little cunt he nearly cums straight away like some god damn teenager. Your hole is so so tight with the added pressure in your arse from the buttplug, he reaches for the collar and leash, fastening the collar around your neck, your skin contrasting the pretty light blue of the collar

Pervy-Stepdad Price who praises you to no end, his words mixed with the deep almost mean thrust of his hips making you sob and moan loudly “Such a good boy.. Daddy’s good puppy.. fuck yeah.. you can take it pup.. fucking take it…” Ugh his groans down your ear as he fists the leash making your airway slightly restricted and your back arch.

You, the little puppy, who BEGS for your daddy to breed you, to get you full and pregnant and well.. Price can’t resist he ruts into you wildly his finger rubbing and jerking your little dick until you clench around him so much he thinks hes going to cum himself, his pace faltering as he nears “shittt puppy.. gonna cum in you.. get you to have my kids yeah?”

#cod x reader #x trans male reader #cod x male reader #cod smut #x transmasc reader #captain price smut #captain john price #cod fanfic #cod price #cas speaks

[liminal-space-lesbian]

BG3 Ladies cuddling headcanons

Thank you guys so much for 200 followers (even tho I’m literally never active 💀) I’m currently obsessed with Baldurs Gate so if y’all have some headcanon requests or blurbs or whatever send them over. I won’t commit to writing entire fics bc I’m writing exclusively on mobile rn 😀 but I wanna do a little something

These are mostly self indulgent sorry guys🤧

Karlach:

The second she gets her engine fixed it’s nonstop cuddles. Whenever you’re not traveling or fighting some absolute cultists, Karlach wants you in her lap. Or vice versa, she won’t complain.

Loves loves LOVES when you play with her hair. She just wants to be petted <3

She usually likes to be the big spoon, or just wrap you up in her arms entirely because she loves the feeling of holding you against her chest. However, if she had a bad day or after a particularly rough fight she will climb into your arms and tuck her head into your chest. You’d best rub her back and tell her how much you love her, bc my girl needs a little TLC every now and then.

I’d say Karlach likes to be face to face when cuddling, because she gets the most attention that way. Also best position for kisses!! She loves leaving kisses all over your face, especially your forehead. She loves getting kisses too, she’s constantly giving you puppy dog eyes and asking for kisses throughout the day.

Verdict: Karlach is a lover girl (we knew this)

Shadowheart:

Shadowheart is a bit reserved when it comes to cuddling. She loves it, don’t get me wrong, but she also values personal space a lot. She usually settles for resting a hand on your thigh, or holding hands even. She’ll lean against you while sitting next to you, and even rest her head on your shoulder.

When you’re alone in her tent she will climb in your lap and talk about whatever topic has her currently intrigued. She loves being pampered, honestly. I mean, she’s Gods favorite princess, how can she not?

She usually likes to be receiving attention like kisses and hugs, even back rubs and other forms of affection like that. She does give back though, she’s just more hesitant because she is honestly a bit shy! She can flirt all she wants but when she has real feelings she gets a bit nervous. She doesn’t want to violate a boundary or overstep!! Also she worries about being annoying.

Her favorite cuddle position is when you lay on your back and let her cuddle into your side, resting her head on your chest. She enjoys the freedom it gives her, she is the one in charge of how much contact there is. She also likes being able to drape her arm and her leg over your body :3

Overall Shadowheart is not a huge cuddler, but at the end of the day she likes to curl up with her lover as much as anyone else <3

Lae’zel:

Hates cuddling. Any affection, actually. She thinks it’s disgusting and weak!

However….

When you two are alone she may or may not lean against you. And hold your hand. And maybe even rest her head on your shoulder. And climb in your lap. And…

Okay maybe she doesn’t hate affection that much.

She had honestly never experienced tenderness in such a way before meeting you. She detested it at first, because it felt almost too good to be true! It seemed like a trick of sorts even. A strategy for her to let down her guard so you could strike.

But… you never did. And Lae’zel reluctantly warmed up to the idea.

Her favorite position is surprisingly enough, little spoon! She likes the feeling of you wrapping your arms around her, it makes her feel safe. She’ll say it’s because you are behind her to protect her from sneak attacks, but honestly she’s just a sucker for a good hug.

She will NEVER be caught DEAD cuddling by your companions though. Cuddling is strictly behind closed doors. The best you’ll get is a handhold or a quick kiss.

Ultimately, Lae’zel is secretly a bit of a softie. I SAID IT!! She is very hesitant with affection because she is ultimately distrusting, and gentleness in general is foreign to her. After she warms up to it though, you bet she is climbing in bed and instantly tugging your arm over her waist. She would rather die than let anyone else know that though, especially Shadowheart.

Dame Aylin:

Omg hot lesbian demigod with wings?? You know the cuddles are insane.

Alyin is a lovergirl, you can’t change my mind. She wants to be in your personal space 24/7 and LOVES having a hand on you in some way all the time. She particularly enjoys having her arm wrapped possessively around your waist. Loves kissing you randomly all the time too. A century of being trapped in shadow fell will make a girl pretty touch starved.

She loves to be the big spoon, but she also enjoys lying on her back and having you just lay completely on top of her. She wants as much physical contact as possible. She loves rubbing your back or playing with your hair, and just kissing every inch of exposed skin she can reach.

She also enjoys having you sit on her lap. She’s constantly pulling you down onto her lap so she can wrap her arms around your waist and rest her chin on your shoulder. She doesn’t care who sees either, she’s happy to show off her love for you.

Isobel:

Isobel is such a love, omg. She’s unbearably sweet, she loves cupping your face in her hands and kissing you impossibly gently. She also loved just giving you random hugs throughout the day. Holding hands!! She just loves being near you.

She likes sleeping on her back, so she’ll let you cuddle into her side. She also adores playing with your hair as you fall asleep. It lulls you to sleep, and also helps her wind down after a long day. She also enjoys the way you trace patterns on her stomach as you two talk before bed, she cherishes how loved it makes her feel.

She’s not exactly shy about her affections, but she doesn’t enjoy the feeling of other people watching you share a moment. Those moments are private and sacred to her, so she tends to keep the affection light when people are around. Maybe just handholding and quick kisses.

When you’re alone though? This girl is showering you with all the affection you can handle.

A/n

Yes I know Aylins wings are technically just her armor but for the sake of the plot PRETEND THATS NOT TRUE !!

#bg3 #bg3 headcanons #bg3 lae'zel #bg3 shadowheart #bg3 karlach #bg3 dame aylin #bg3 isobel #karlach x reader #shadowheart x reader #lae’zel x reader #dame aylin x reader #dame aylin #aylin x reader #isobel x reader #isobel thorm #Isobel Thorm x reader #bg3 fluff #cuddles #bg3 fluff headcanons

[frogserotonin]

overthinker- lars pinfield x reader

a/n: short one bc im still in a slump rn many sorries. also sorry lawl this fic is so disconjointed and i’m really unhappy with it but whatever 😭 warnings: nothin proper i don’t think, most ooc lars to ever ooc, unedited; tell me if i've spelt smth wrong 😁

“Would you want to go out to get some lunch together on our break?” Your fingertips bounce off of the sides of your legs as you try to remain composed. You're so high-strung right now, you almost expect him to laugh in your face. Nerves and the effects of having slept a fitful two hours last night override your usually rational brain and you feel the need to just run away without receiving an answer bloom in your chest.

“I thought you usually brought lunch? If you forgot to bring some you can have some of mine, if you want.” Lars doesn’t even look up from what he’s working on, just adjusts his glasses and uses a vague jut of his elbow to point to his locker, where you know his bag is. Your heart simultaneously drops and stutters. 

“Oh, it’s okay, I just felt like going out to eat, thank you though.” You try to make your words seem more upbeat than you feel, unsure of whether or not to take his words as a rejection.

“Oh. Okay then.” It must be your imagination, but his words hold a hint of disappointment. You open your mouth again, then close it, and silence re-envelopes the room. Turning, you make your way to your desk and begin to work away, dejection slumping your shoulders forward and making time drag on. When eventually the lunch break arrives, you grab your bag and rush your way out of the lab.

A squeak of shoes on the concrete floor behind you almost has you looking back, but your brain is so addled you almost believe you’ve made it up.

Like a fool, you don't talk to him when you come back, or when you leave, the time you spend alone and in silence building up an anxiety in the back of your mind. The idea that he's all too aware of your feelings, and is made uncomfortable by them and your advances overtakes you completely. That night, you stay awake, tossing and turning, over analysing every interaction you've ever had with him, trying to make sure you've not overstepped and made a complete and utter fool of yourself.

In the morning, you consider it a miracle you leave the house at all, with how tired you are. The thought of calling in sick crosses your mind, but by the time you get up your body automatically locks itself into its usual routine, and you mindlessly get dressed and make your way to the Ghostbusters facilities. Through your drowsiness, the realisation that you’re at your desk and doing absolutely nothing sets in and you jolt. 

“Good morning.” If he didn’t sound so concerned, Lars would sound thoroughly amused. “You alright? Look a bit…off.” Your face flares, and you go to stand up, only to stumble and almost fall on your face. Hands out, you stabilise yourself, and then face him.

“Yeah. Morning.” You can only hope that he backs off, because his concern seems too genuine for your feelings to not expand exponentially the more he stands before you looking like he cares. “M’feeling just peachy, you?.” Belatedly, you realise your words are clearly not convincing because he doesn’t move an inch, simply studying you. He then sighs and shakes his head, chuckling a little bit, just softly under his breath, taking a couple steps closer to you. 

“When’s the last time you slept?” His voice is too gentle, too un-Lars-like, that you’re almost convinced you actually did fall asleep last night, and now you’re dreaming. You open your mouth to respond, but find yourself nodding off as you do so, the last thing you process before fully passing out is the feeling of arms around your chest and shoulders. 

When you come to, you sit up quickly, and slowly become aware of what had happened. Muttering cursing to yourself under your breath, you take in your surroundings, finding yourself slung over the small couch situated in the room reserved for taking time off from work briefly. Hurriedly, you rush out of the room towards where you assume Lars is working, apology already on the tip of your tongue. You approach him quickly and loudly, a fact that can be gathered from his head immediately snapping up when you enter the room. He starts to speak, no doubt to rattle off reasons why you were irresponsible and stupid for coming to work while being aware you weren’t at your fullest capacity, but you cut him off.

“God, I’m so sorry. That was humiliating, and I’m so, so sorry that it happened, it won’t happen again.” You bow your head, refusing to look him in the eye, but quickly look up again when you hear him laugh. 

“It’s fine, really, you just scared me a little bit.” His smile is small, but sincere and you remember fully the reason you were in the predicament in the first place. “Are you feeling better now?” 

You probably look a bit crazy with how vigorously you nod, but you barely care anymore. 

“Yes, thank you so much, really, I’m sorry that it happened.” He laughs again, and it sounds like heaven.

“You don’t need to thank me or apologise,” Lars’ eyes sparkle a bit behind his glasses when he properly smiles, and you can feel warmth rush to your face. He hesitates, like he’s calculating his words, then gently says “I-uh. I care for you a lot, it really meant nothing for me to make sure you were okay.”

#lars pinfield #lars pinfield x reader #ghostbusters frozen empire

[moonflowerchanniesgirl]

Things I Would say to Stray Kids at a Fansign (Hyungline +Hyunjin)

I don’t think I’ll ever get to go to a stray kids fansign but these are some things I would say to them at this moment. I got too emotional so it’s just Hyungline and hyunjin for now. Warning: I feel like a lot of these are cheesy and emotional but I’m in that kinda mood rn.

CHAN

Hi Chan, how are you? This is going might be a bit cheesy and I apologize for that. I think you’ve done so well and you are still doing so well. You’re not perfect and you’re never going to be perfect at least not in the way that the voice in your head tells you to be. Maybe I’m overstepping but I want you to know that no one can be perfect and no one can be you either. You are amazing even with the flaws that you see in yourself. We don’t love perfection but we love you and will continue to love all the different aspects of what makes you… you. It’s okay to be imperfect and it’s okay to make mistakes and fail but you don’t have to shoulder everything yourself because no matter what we will be by your side. I know there’s only so much that we can do for you as fans but I just hope that you won’t have a hard time by yourself and you can take care of yourself. Make mistakes, continue to grow, eat well, try and sleep well and I hope that you will be happy and healthy more than anything else. I love you.

LEE KNOW

Hi Lee Know, how are you? I hope you don’t mind if I immediately say something serious? I have a lot of anxiety and am usually scared of interacting with people but I’m not scared of interacting with you. There’s a kindness and warmth in you that I know people like to joke isn’t there but I see it clearly. When I watch videos of Lee Know talking to stays I just get filled with so much happiness. There’s a shine in your eyes that shows how much you care about stays and how much you care about the members. I find your singing voice super soothing and Limbo is such a good song I really look forward to more from you. Please also keep sending videos of Soonie, Doongie, and Dori. I really love watching your vlogs, I love watching the world through your eyes and thank you for sharing that with Stays. Love you!

CHANGBIN

Hi Binnie! Is it okay for me to call you Binnie hehe? I laugh the loudest when you make a joke. You really have managed to cheer me up on days that are rough. You’ve brought me so much joy. Sorry I Love You is one of my favorite Stray Kids songs. The words you wrote touch me deeply and I wish we had time to just sit and talk about love and life. I wish I was more like you, more steadfast in beliefs, more about to joke around about myself, more able to be there for others. I often see you taking care of others but I hope you take care of yourself as well. Our Binnie really is the cutest member and honestly don’t worry about abs. We love you just as much with or without abs because you are so much more than just some muscles. Your personality shines so brightly even in comparison to the gleam of your arm muscles. Love you Binnie!

HYUNJIN

Hi Hyunjin! How have you been lately? I know you’re super busy with a lot of fashion stuff and I hope you’re getting enough rest. I feel like with every fashion event you’ve gone to you have completely taken the spotlight! To be honest in everything you do I feel like you take the spotlight. I know part of that is your natural charisma but part of it is how much effort and hard work you put into it. I love each art piece that you share because I love seeing the world through your artistic eyes. I really look forward to you having a fashion line collab in the future because the jacket you painted in the music video was just so awesome. Every part of you is just so amazing and so lovely. Please take care of yourself~ love you~

#Skz #stray kids imagine #stray kids #moonflower writings #skz fanfic #skz fanfiction #stray kids fanfic

[bigolgay]

hello love! how’s your day been going? i hope you’re doing alright and you’ve found some time to relax despite your busy day! sorry for only answering now, but i haven’t been feeling so well today :/

very boring lecture indeed, this dude can not string one coherent sentence together, makes it very hard to listen to him…

hehe you’re so easily flustered, that’s so cute :) sadly i didn’t dream of anything last night, although i was trying very hard to think of something before falling asleep! hmm still not too sure about it, i’ve done the mock exams and it’s really not looking good…but you’re right: i still have some time left and i have a few tries on each exam, so hopefully it’s gonna work out for me! you’re very sweet, thank you for saying that!

i don’t know, i just have a feeling ;) also i hardly ever hate someone’s voice, there are maybe 5 people in the world whose voices i physically can’t listen to haha :) and how could you sound like a dumbass?? i think that’s impossible :) hahaha i mean you could do that, but only if you can breathe fine through your nose, i don’t want you to suffocate! don’t worry, they do show interest in what i have to say, it’s just that sometimes they’re a bit…annoyed maybe? (i think i’m lacking english vocabulary rn to find a better word haha) but i think it’s fine, it’s not like they’re super dismissive or something! well, you said some things that made me think differently about a few situations i’ve been in, so thank you for that, i like hearing about things from a different perspective! :)

isn’t that wonderful ;) i better don’t start imagining anything or we’re gonna have to have the whole passing out conversation allll over again ;) well, sadly my brain doesn’t tell me that too often, but it’s fine! awww that makes me so happy!! i love that it feels easy for you, i’m trying my best out here hehe :))

i think you’re on to something there, keep digging and you’ll find out for sure i guess haha :) did you really? or are you just making this up so i’ll tell you that you looked sexy running from a giraffe? ;) but if that did happen…i mean that changes everything right? i can’t deny it ;)

well done to you!! i did eat and drink enough yesterday, wasn’t really feeling it today but i promise i’ll eat something later :) how did you sleep? i hope you’ve slept enough that you felt ready for today! :)

Hello! Finally getting a chance to reply!

As you know… busy days🤣but they’ve been quite good. How are you feeling darling? Are you feeling any better today than when you sent this? And how was your day yesterday?

Oh… I know exactly what you mean🤦how can anyone be expected to follow what someone’s lecturing when… the lecturer seems like they don’t even know what they’re saying? Nuts.

I don’t think you fully comprehend how much I love when I get called cute🫣I don’t think I’m that easily flustered? I just melt when very sweet people be nice to me, then I get all flustered. That’s okay my dear, I appreciate you trying to dream nice things of me though🤭. Okay, but mock exams always seemed so much harder than the actual exam to me. Did they give you your mock exam back to you? Also, and please tell me to shut up if I’m overstepping, maybe if you feel like you’re worried or struggling you could talk to your teachers/lecturers/whatever or something? Tell them you’re a bit worried and maybe they can give you some guidance and advice? I haven’t gone to uni and only did a levels in college, so I don’t know how different it is though. Also… talking to teachers and telling them you have worry’s is always terrifying🤣so I understand if you simply don’t feel comfortable doing that. Well, I hate to be the one to break this to you… but your feeling is incorrect🤣okay… you’re right, I dunno how I can sound like a dumbass… unless I say something dumb, then I sound like a dumbass of epic proportions. Hmm, see I’m not sure I like that, I’m glad they show interest in what you say, but anything even remotely close to annoyed?? Absolutely not. There are a few scenarios I can think of where maybe I’d be annoyed by someone talking, but they all involve them either being a dick or talking about certain topics in inappropriate settings/situations, and they aren’t applicable to you sweetheart. Oh, I’m glad then! And you’re more than welcome😘

Hmm I suppose we would… also it might start looking like we’ve got a condition that makes us very prone to fainting episodes… so yes, no imagining anything like that for you🤣😉hmm then I will just have to continue telling you so to make up for your brain not doing so. Hehe cutie, you’re fun to talk to and you’re endlessly lovely, so talking to you is always a delight😌

Well… they did happen, but maybe I only told you so you’ll tell me that I looked sexy running from the giraffe (okay… but for just a second, imagine how confusing this sentence is without context😭🤣). Oh hell yeah, dream me is so smooth and sexy, enjoy😉🤣

I really hope you’re feeling better today, and that you did in fact eat something later (day you sent this). Sleep recently has been dog shit ngl, but I’m determined to get an earlier one tonight. What about you? ❤️

#sorry once again for this taking so long #thank you again for being so patient with me❤️ #very appreciated #a sweetheart has stumbled into my asks!

[kashimos-hajime]

NO BECAUSE I WAS JUST ABT TO TURN MY PHONE OFF AND HEAD TO BED UNTIL I SAW THAT U UPDATED AND AAA INSTANTLY UNRUINED MY DAY THANK YOU

OKAY OKAY so i love how there was still a moment of soft fluffy comfort despite the unresolved angsty(is that the right word) mess geto and yn have going on rn coz despite the whole sort of but not rly intentionally pushing each other away thing they are doing, they would still go out of their way to be there for each other instead of committing to the bit. am i reading too much into this? probably. is this bare minimum? most likely </3 but geto ‘regurgitates his food out at the thought o commitment’ suguru and yn ‘physically and mentally mortified to form connections’ ln, both certifiably traumatised, could have easily taken the easy way out and dipped and ykw they deserve brownie points for that. also toge is so real for that i just know he gave geto the biggest stink eye the next time he saw him after that text 💀 AND LOOK WHEN I SAW THE UPDATE WAS TITLED ITADORI MY DUMB ASS LITERALLY WENT ‘aw maybe we are gonna see yn and yuji become fast friends and it’ll be rly cute’ BUT THEN I FORGOT THAT SUKUNA IS LITERALLY JUST SLEAZY YUJI AND 🫠 normalize blaming sukuna for everything. also props to maki for pushing aside the absolute disgust that comes with texting fic!gojo for yn’s wellbeing if it were me i would’ve started puking blood the moment i pulled up his contact.

thank you for another incredible update (as usual). i find it admirable that despite the truckload of stuff you had going on that you still made time for an update. and not to overstep but while ur regular updates are greatly appreciated, i think i (and many more) would not mind if you needed to slow down or take a break :) also i’m sorry i didn’t realise how long this gotten but oh well hehe i hope you have nothing but the world’s best naps after this!

every time i see an ask from you i get the happiest lightest feeling one can get from reading anything. you unruined my day as much as i have unruined yours so thank you <3

yes!! who cares about reading too much into it!! because THEY SURE AS HELL AREN’T FR like i think even though they have their own conflicting feelings (that the other doesn't know about or even remembers 😭) that they still prioritize their friendship even though they're not aware of how important it is to them :( they have a very deep sense of care for each other that drives them both a bit intensely especially because of how unused to that feeling they are, too 😭 getou being upset as soon as he saw yns tweet (to the point where he publicized it 🙄) and reaching out, yn letting him in and letting him help her cheer up. toge most definitely was rolling his eyes, but he had to bc maki wasn't there.

HELPPP NOT THE SUKUNA COMMENT!@!#N!LK#N no bc tbh you really CAN BLAME EVERYTHING ON HIM!!! he hasn't even shown up yet and you can blame him i swear :) and yes!! maki would literally walk through fire for yn bc of their friendship throughout high school. they've been through thick and thin together and even though maki comes off a bit harsh and y/n a bit frustrating, they love each other regardless.

thank you for your kind words! you're not overstepping dw :) i try to keep a healthy mindset about updating (i'm pretty fine with setting boundaries over the internet and stepping away when i need to) but i really wanted to give you guys the next update! i think my life should settle down over the next few weeks so they should resume at a semi-normal pace. sleep well!

#h answers #anon #ask: sorry i love you #i slept so much before i updated and now im off to watch some anime before bed #thank u sm for all the kindness uve given me

[iwadori]

Haikyu boys when they make you insecure PT 1 (Kenma,Kuroo)

Part 1 Part 2  Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6.

Word Count:3k 

genre: angst, fluff

masterlist

Kenma:

You and Kenma have been in a long distance relationship for a while.

Both of you stream, Kenma doing it seriously for his job and you just playing it for fun,

Sometimes you stream together of course but because of your difference in audiences and games you don’t do it all the time

“Bye guys! Hope you enjoyed todays stream” You wave off to the camera and shut off your PC taking a few sips of water.

Kenma: Hey.. nice stream today Y/N are you going to watch mine?

Y/N: Of course I will 

Kenma: Ok talk to you later

Y/N: okayy <3

Kenma is what inspired you to stream, he also taught you all the ins and outs of streaming making sure you were set and ready. Your gaming style was very relaxed and friendly as you obviously weren’t streaming as a career just for fun and to make friends with your online viewers. The games you played were usually: minecraft, COD, Sims 4, Roblox, Animal crossing and *Insert your favourite game here* the way I literally named all the games I play 

You wait for Kenmas stream to start, kind of excited as you’ve always loved seeing your boyfriend in his ‘element’ when it comes to playing to games. As your boyfriends stream starts you see he’s already chosen what game he is playing today which is to your surprise Call of duty, since that was the game you were playing earlier.

As he gets into the stream you are entertained, as always since Kenma was being his usual self laughing at his own deadpan jokes and interacting with his viewers. He is currently waiting for his capture the flag game to start so as he waits he decides to read some comments in the chat.

You’re used to the usual ‘Kenma where is Y/N I miss your usual streams together’ or ‘kenma please RAIL me’ which always makes you laugh. You were also used to the common hate comments Kenma and You both got on your streams but you were definitely not ready for this..

@ Ihatewomanandiamadick : Hey Kenma did you see your girls stream today she is so dog shit at COD lmaoooo jhdfkjdrhdrr

“Well hello ihatewomenandiamadick” started Kenma “but yes I did see Y/N stream and obviously she is not the best at games and I would definitely NOT ask her to team with me for any serious gaming competitions ... but she’s fun to watch I guess” as he finished speaking about you his game loaded up so he focused his attention on that the words he just spoke going to the back of his mind as they end up at the forefront of yours.

You obviously knew you were no match for Kenma’s gaming expertise but you didn’t expect him to publicly agree with a hate comment let alone add more of his imput on you. Did he really think that about you? ‘She’s fun to watch I guess’ did he not even enjoy your streams that much?

You wanted to distract yourself, and you definitely couldn’t do that watching him so you close off of his stream and get in your bed deciding to watch your favourite show. 

Waking up at 6pm after your sad nap, you see that Kenma has left some messages to you,

Kenma: hey did you watch my stream?

Kenma: do you want to facetime later and play some minecraft..?

Kenma: y/n r u ok??

Y/N: oh hey cnt play minecraft w you rn not really in the mood..

Kenma: oh ok..

Time passed since then a month to be exact and you basically dropped off of the face of the earth, you weren’t in the mood to do anything let alone game and stream, which was a constant reminder of your boyfriend (something you didn’t want at the time.) 

You felt embarrassed over all the things he said about you and all the things you now think he thinks about you and the way you play. Maybe he thinks even worse things about you, beyond just how you game? What if he doesn’t even genuinely like you...or he has someone else...it does make sense, you do both live miles and miles away from eachother AND he’s a big streamer you see the amount of girls in his comments.

You shake your head to erase your protruding thoughts coming in your mind, but it doesn’t really help. You and Kenma haven’t spoken much over this month he tried to constantly reach out to you at first but you assume he got bored over your constant, repetitive dry texts. So you were almost content with you and Kenma not even being in a relationship anymore.

However on Kenma’s side, he was beyond worried about you. Since you haven’t been streaming or barely responded to his texts he thought something happened to you, but he didn’t want to be seen as ‘overstepping boundaries’ if there was nothing wrong at all with you and you simply were just ‘not in the mood.’ 

So here he is, in Kuroo’s apartment trying to get him to help him out on finding out what is wrong with you.

“So kenma can you remember what happened the day when Y/N went ‘ghost’“ asked Kuroo in a mock detective voice

“Y/N didn’t go ‘ghost’ Kuro, and take this seriously” said Kenma “I’m worried bout her”

“Okay fine, but for real what’s the last thing you remember before she started acting all weird.” 

“Umm I think it was around a month ago I did my saturday stream and I think she was on it but she didn’t leave her usual nice comments throughout”

“Ohh that was the stream when you sai-” Kuroo said before pausing his words as the memory of what Kenma said about you on his stream came in his mind, as even Kuroo thought it was a tad bit harsh for Kenma to say all those things “I think I know why Y/N has been so distant kiddo”

“What why?” Asked Kenma

Kuroo pulls out his phone and brings up the clip off what Kenma said and Kenma’s face cringes ‘did he really say all those things about you’ he thinks. 

“Shit.. I didn’t know I said all of that” he said quietly “how do I make it up to her?”

“There’s only one thing you can really do Kenma” said kuroo

You are woken up out of your sleep by a knock on the door. Getting out your bed like a zombie, you trudge to your front door only surprised by what you see. There in his 5′6 glory stood your ‘boyfriend’ Kenma with a controller and a kitten teddy in his hand. You were very tempted to shut the door in his face and get back to your dreamless sleep but you waited on him to speak.

“Hi Y/N” he said quietly “wanna play some minecraft...?”

“Why so you can ridicule me on how shit I am?” You ask bitterly ready to shut the door on him

“No! No not all” he said stopping you from shutting the door entering your place “Y/N i’m really sorry on what I said, I wasn’t thinking AT ALL... I love watching your streams and I think you’re great at playing games...I was just being a dick,”

You take a deep breath before tears pool in your eyes “what you said really hurt me kenma..” you say “ I know people say shitty things on the internet all the time... it’s the internet. But I wasn’t expecting you to agree with the hater and say even more shitty things on top of that.. I don’t think I want to even stream anymore”

Upon hearing that, Kenma’s mouth parts open with shock ‘you dont want to stream anymore’ were his comments that bad? Now he feel even worse as he should and is now more determined to make things right. 

He impulsively drags your arm into your game room, catching your surprise ‘what is he up too?’ you think. He stops for a second seeing your usual pristine gaming set up, collected up with dust. 

“What are you do-” you start 

“Just wait!” He says, as he rushes away turning on all your stuff and logging onto his twitch account as he sees the views go up he starts to speak

 “Hi guys, its me kodzuken and today I’m here on stream with my beautiful girlfriend and today I want to say..” he turns to you “Y/N im so sorry for the horrible things I said to you that day... I was just being a dick and I’m sorry I really am.”

You look at the chat and you see some confusion and some people recalling his words from last month. “It’s fine Kenma, I forgive you” you say giving him a hug”

“Okay Y/N, so what do you say... wanna beat my ass at bed wars?” He says with a smirk 

“When have I ever loss?” you return his smirk

Of course you did beat his ass as bed wars for rounds on rounds never losing proving yourself to actually be a good gamer girl. You enjoyed your time with Kenma, forgetting what he said before about you and moving on. 

Eventually, you guys moved in together and streamed together all the time and yes you still do play for fun but you’ve gotten way better at COD (some may say better then Kenma) but who is better didn’t matter to any of you, as long as you got to play together that’s all you both cared about.

Kuroo:

Kuroo and you have been together since you were in your first year of high school 

You met as friends first when you got him to tutor you in chemistry ( a subject you still aren’t that good at.)

Now you have your upcoming entrance exams for university in a month so your school has you doing mock exams in preparation for them.

20%

You look down at your chemistry paper that your teacher just handed you. 20%. You’re surprised, very surprised since out of all your subjects (that you go 90+% on) you studied on the chemistry test the hardest ensuring Testurou, that you didn’t need his help at all. But I guess it turns out, you did.

This failing mock grade put a blunder on your day, you didn’t interact with anyone and didn’t want to see your boyfriend so you skipped your usual routine of meeting him on the rooftop and went to the library instead ‘might aswell start early on your studying’ you thought.

As you were going over your chemistry topics, you hear an ‘ahem’ next to you and you turn your head only to find your boyfriend and his friends next to you. Kuroo with his usual goofy smile on his face. 

“Hey kitten where were you at lunch?” he asked 

“Needed to go to the library, Chemistry is kicking my ass” you mumbled 

“Oya” he said as he noticed your chemistry test laying under your textbook “20%, well damn Y/N I knew you were stupid, but I didn’t know you were that stupid” he laughed doing his stupid usual hyena-like laugh.

Ouch well that hurt. You slightly flinched at his words, “Really your name, you didn’t know the molecular formula for ethanol, that’s first year work” he said continuing to laugh “I’m pretty sure that’s one of the first things I tutored you on when we first met” 

His overbearing laughter was not good for you, you were already having a bad day and yes you do know your not that good at chemistry but you didn’t need your chemistry-enthusiast boyfriend to make fun of you for failing. Kenma and Yaku stood there awkwardly obviously aware of how bad Kuroo is making you feel but they didn’t really know how to stop his friend in the moment.Whilst he’s still dying of laughter you decide to pack up your stuff and leave the library.

You managed to get your Chemistry tutor to let you retake your mock paper in a week so that means, extra hard studying with no distractions you definitely can’t fail again. Since studying on your own was definitely not a good option, and you couldn’t go to Kuroo (especially after he ridiculed you) you decided to ask the second smartest person you know to tutor you.

Y/N: Hey Yaku! Can I ask you a favour?

Yaku: Hi Y/N what do you need??

Y/N: I have my chemistry retake next week, and as you know from your loud-loud friend I failed my recent test so can you tutor me?? 

Y/N: Pleaseeee

Yaku: Ok Y/N why can’t you ask Kuroo you know that he’d be more than happy to help

Y/N: Yakuu pleasee just help me out 

So there you was, nearly a week done with your study sessions with Yaku and you’re feeling way more confident than before. 

“Y/N what is the functional group of a Carboxylic Acid” Yaku asked

“umm... COO?” 

“Great! that’s correct Y/N” he praises i dont actually know if it’s correct or not

You then hear a knock at Yaku’s front door and hear his mum let the person in, Kuroo then enters Yaku’s bedroom with shock plastered on his face surprised to see you here.

“Y/N...hey?” he says confused “what are you doing here?”

“Oh Mori-chan is just helping me with chemistry for my retake tommorow” you say nochalantly internally smiling at the twinge in Kuroo’s face at the purposeful use of Yaku’s first name.

“So why didn’t you ask me to help you know I’m a chemistry whiz” he asks

“Maybe I’m too stupid to be taught under your tutelage” you mumble “since I seem to forget whatever you teach me, even when it’s 3 years ago... but ok”

“Y/N I-” he starts 

“Oh save it Kuroo, I have studying to do” you say cutting him off

“But I-” he tries

“So Mori-chan COOH is the function group of ethyl ethonate right?” you ask ignoring your boyfriend who is now at a lost for words

“ummm yeah it is” says yaku who is clearly feeling heavily awkward at the tension in his bedroom.

Kuroo leaves and you and yaku finish off the studying for the night, you did feel a little bad for being a bit mean to Kuroo but it’s karma for him being a dick to you. 

You wake up the next day ready for your exam which was first thing in the morning, before you hand in your phone you see a message from Kuroo,

Kuroo: I know you’re still mad at me, but I think you’re going to do so well on this test. You’re not stupid at all, you’re really smart and I love you < 3 

Kuroo: Good luck Y/N

You don’t respond to the message but smile at the sincerity of it and thankful for the boost of confidence it gave you before you start your exam.

Finishing the exam with a smile, you were confident you did well as everything you and Yaku went over was on the paper and you’re almost certain you atleast got more than 75%. You have to wait an hour before your teacher can give you your results, so in the meantime you might aswell reconcile with Kuroo.

When you exit the classroom, standing there was Kuroo who seemed to have been waiting for you for the whole duration of the exam.

“So how was it?” Kuroo asked, apprenhensive as he assumed you would just ignore him like you did at Yaku’s house.

“It was fine, I think it went alright..” you say

“Kuroo”

“Y/N”

You say simultaneously, he pauses for a second to let you speak “I’m sorry I was being so stand offish when we were at Yaku’s I just wanted you to see I could do it on my own, and when you called me stupid I really took that to heart since you and I both know that Chemistry wasn’t ever my best subject” 

“I’m sorry too, I didn’t mean to make you feel bad, and since it was only a practice test I didn’t think you’d take it to heart but I am sorry I know you aren’t stupid.”

Before you got to say anything else, your Chemistry teacher exited the room with your chemistry paper in hand. Kuroo grabbed your hand anticipating your nerves and gave it a gentle squeeze.

“Miss L/N” said your teacher “Well done on your chemistry test” he turned your test around to sure a perfect 100%. Both you and Kuroo gasped, you were elated to say the least you wanted to jump up and down in excitement but a PERFECT 100%.

“I’d also like to add that you have now got the top chemistry score in the school beating the previous title holder Kuroo Testurou” said your teacher, this made Kuroo open his mouth even wider in surprise nearly making you giggle at his response. 

Your teacher took his leave, leaving you and Kuroo in the hallway “ I guess i’m the chemistry whizz now “ you say wiggling your eyebrows just as Kuroo did to you before at Yaku’s this made him chuckle as he came to put his arm around you.

“Y/N don’t get ahead of yourself now, you may have won this battle but I will win the war” he said smiling

In the final exam, you continue your winning streak also getting a near 100% and still beating Kuroo which didn’t matter to either of you, now you’re just like him cracking chemistry puns and jokes all the time which none of your friends appreciated but atleast Kuroo found them SODIUM funny.

AN: Please kill me for the last line of Kuroos, I didn’t really like Kuroo’s since it was a bit self indulgent with my hate for chemistry but what do you guys think?

#haikyu x reader #haikyuu x reader comfort #haikyuu fluff #haikyu scenarios #haikyu headcanons #kenma angst #kenma fluff #kenma x you #kozume kenma #kenma scenario #kenma headcanons #kuroo x reader #kuroo imagine #kuroo scenarios #kuroo fluff #kuroo angst #kuroo tetsuro x reader #signedwithanE😌

[mossyythoughts]

hi again!! tysm for doing my request(the yanfei one), i loved it! if it isn't much trouble, could i request yanfei with a reader who doesn't show negative emotions and one day she just finds them having a mental breakdown and how does she comfort her,please? have a lovely and take care<33

Sunshine is More Important

but rain isn’t all too bad, i suppose.

w/ Yanfei!

Hurt/Comfort

Teyvat College! au

CW/Info: Mental Breakdown, Physical touch, Overall mental health topics, food mentions, I’ve also never experienced having a mental breakdown- but I have had a loved one have one so it might be a bit like… overall and i’m sorry :(

How did she find you?

She was probably just dropping by to say hi, maybe invite you out to eat if you were feeling up to it

When she knocked though, she got increasingly concerned when she heard sobbing

She didn’t barge in, it’s more like she hastily made her way to your room and peeked her head inside the door

She instantly was very worried for your state of well being, rushing to your side to see if you’re alright

Comfort

She generally would just hold you very close

Despite your protests because you might get your tears on her outfit, or that you’re a mess right now

She just wants to show you the warmth that you always show her

(She ofc would also leave you alone if you really really insisted, but she’s not easily convinced)

So she hugs you close, allowing you to continue crying or to ground yourself

I’m gonna be completely honest, she’s not used to doing things like this so she may be a tad bit stiff

She doesn’t know if she’s being overbearing, or if she is overstepping, so she just waits for you to let it out.

Or, after your sobs turn into sniffles she might hesitantly ask if you were willing to talk about it.

But! She is used to listening, so if you want someone to listen to your troubles, Yanfei is your girl!

If you’re somewhere that’s not very comfortable, will subtly guide you to like a chair or anywhere else

After listening…

She’s not sure if you wanted to rant or if you wanted her to name a few solutions so she just outright asks

If you need solutions, she’ll tell you some ways to ease you into showing more negative emotions

She’ll reassure you that negative emotions are still emotions

Whatever emotions you’re feeling are valid, and if you really need to, you can talk to her at any time!

No matter if you believe it’s big or small, it’s big enough to bother you! She wants to ease your state of mind even if it’s just you ranting for about 2 minutes.

If you just want her to listen to you rant, she’ll comfort you afterwards, offering words of support

She wants you to know that if you’re struggling you can always come to her, because she wants to be there for you just like you have been there for her.

Afterwards :)

She’ll probably hug you for a moment and ask in a very sincere tone if you’re alright

Depending on your answer, she’ll either comfort you some more or get you some water and maybe make you some food

She wants to make it clear that you can depend on her

It won’t be anything too heavy, she doesn’t wanna make you overwhelmed !!

Just a little snack to not only get your strength back, but also show that she cares

She’ll probably not know what to do afterwards to be honest

Might stand there awkwardly for a moment before asking if you would like to get some fresh air !!

Overall

Very concerned, but not too overbearing despite her thinking she is

Her hugs are very warm, considering her pyro vision

If you did get tears/snot on her outfit, won’t bring it up or be upset about it, she doesn’t really care all that much !! Your well-being is more important than a single shirt

a/n

I LOVE YANFEI

i also love yanfei requests stan yanfei or else 🤬🤬🤬🤬

ANYWAYS IM LIKE SOOKOEJDJSJXJ HYPERFIXATED ON THE SONIC MOVIES RN LIKE I JUST WATCHED THE 2ND MOVIE AND I IMMEDIATELY CHANGED MY TWITTER PROFILE TO KNUCKLES AND MY SISTER CHANGED HERS TO TAILS (it honestly should be the other way around because i’m younger and i definitely love tails more than my sister but whatever 😒😒😒😒)

also i love these requests ty for sending them 😭😭 i normally only really do venti and other characters i have (and use) but since these yanfei requests are coming in i put my klee build on her and YANFEI IS HITTING NUMBERS AND I LOVE HER ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

ty for requesting again I LOVE YOUR REQUESTS YOU HAVE SUCH GOOD IDEAS ❤️❤️

wow that was long whoopsies 😭😭

have a wonderful day readers !!

#yanfei headcanons #yanfei fluff #yanfei hurt/comfort #yanfei gi #gi yanfei #genshin impact yanfei #yanfei x y/n #yanfei x you #yanfei x reader #yanfei genshin impact #yanfei #platonic or romantic #implied ?? romantic but that’s iffy lmao

[woogyu]

3. “Would you just shut up and kiss me already?”

26. “No, like..its just, i cant believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.”

Drabble Prompts; fluff | angst | funny // Requests; OPEN

notes; student!chan x student!reader, this is just pure fluff, i know a lot of people are doing exams rn so. Thank you so much for requesting 

wc; 1386

You knew when Chan asked you to come over and “study” that minimal studying would end up getting done. It’s just, you thought his attention span would last longer than 5 minutes.

“come onnnnnn y/n, let’s take a break” Chan whined, curled up on the couch next to you, his books now on the floor forgotten. You sighed and glanced away from your calculus notes to see him giving you pathetic puppy dog eyes.

“I’ve barely been here for 5 minutes” you said flatly, itching to get back to reviewing your notes. Your calculus exam was tomorrow, and you were not all that confident in how you were going to perform. You could almost see the gears turning in his head, trying to figure out the best approach to get you to give in.

“Let’s just grab a quick snack! You always study better after you’ve eaten” he said brightly, already moving your notes away from you and setting them on the small coffee table. The thing about Chan is that he knew you well, he knew you too well. It came from the years the two of you had spent together, countless nights watching movies and playing video games. Most of the time Chan knew you better than you knew yourself. He knew that you couldn’t say no to him. What he didn’t know was the reason why you couldn’t say no to him. He didn’t know about the way your heart sped up when he pulled you into his lap, or how you fell asleep at night thinking about him. Chan is your best friend in the entire world, and he had no idea you were hopelessly in love with him.

“I’m setting a timer for 30 minutes” you grumbled, letting him pull you to your feet and following him into the kitchen. You preferred coming over to his place, it was always quieter, and he made sure to keep your favourite snacks stocked up. You pulled yourself up, so you were sitting on the edge of the counter as he rummaged around in the fridge and cabinets.

“Ice cream or popcorn?” he asked, turning as he held up the two options. You smiled a little, he chose both of your favourites instead of his own. You pointed to the ice cream in his right hand, watching him smile back at you. You always thought you would get over this little ‘crush’ but that never happened. Your feelings for Chan were only growing as time went on. The worst part of it all was that you had no idea how he felt. He always bordered the line between friend and lover, never fully committing to one side or the other.

Lost in your thoughts you didn’t notice Chan handing you the bowl with ice cream in it, your hands reaching up too late to grasp it. You watched as it slipped through your fingers, pouring ice cream down the front of your shirt and falling to the ground with a crash. It took you a second to register what had happened, your eyes widening as a blush fell over your cheeks.

“I’m so sorry Chan” you groaned, looking down at the shattered bowl on the ground. You slid off the counter and began to pick up some of the broken pieces before he stopped you.

“Be careful, I’ll get that. Here you must be freezing, I’ll grab something you can change into” he said, giving you a reassuring smile before darting off to his room. He was back no more than a second later and handed you one of his hoodies. “It’s clean, I promise” Chan said with a soft chuckle, grabbing a damp cloth and began to clean up the mess.

“Thank you” you mumbled for the hoodie, cheeks burning as you quickly walked to the bathroom. Sliding out of your sticky shirt, you laid it on the sink as you quickly wiped off the remaining residue using a washcloth. After you were satisfied that you weren’t going to ruin Chan’s hoodie, you slid it over your head. The smell of Chan’s cologne hit you, your eyes closing as you took a deep breath. This was one of those moments that blurred the line between best friends and something more. It was moments like these that made you long for something, anything more.

When you walked back into the kitchen Chan had already finished cleaning everything up and was popping some popcorn for the two of you. “Feel better? I figured ice cream was off-“he stopped short when he turned away from the microwave and toward you. Your eyebrows furrowed together in confusion; he was looking at you with an expression you couldn’t quite figure out.

“What?” you asked, looking down to see if you had something on you that would warrant him looking you up and down like that. He seemed to consider something for a moment before swallowing and moving toward you. “Is there something on my face?” you asked, confused as you reached up to rub your forehead. You stepped back as he walked toward you, heart-rate picking up. You stopped only when your back hit the kitchen cabinets, watching him as he closed the distance between the two of you. When there were only inches separating your bodies he finally realized what he was doing and inhaled sharply.

“I-“ he started, pausing and closing his eyes for a second. “I’m not used to seeing you wearing my stuff” he said finally, opening his eyes to look down at you. You frowned a little bit, “I can go quickly rinse and dry my shirt and change back into that if you want” you said, confused as to what he was getting at.

He seemed caught off guard by your comment, his cheeks slowly reddening “No, like..its just, I can’t believe you’re actually wearing my clothes.”, he finally said. You watched as his eyes slowly slid over you, blushing as you started to understand. He must have realized what he had said, as his eyes snapped up to yours almost alarmed and looking for any sign of discomfort.

“I’ve thought about telling you this about a hundred times, and this was never how I wanted to do it. I wanted to take you out on a picnic or to an amusement park or something. Buy you dinner and win you a stuffed animal from one of those carnival games. There are so many things that I want to do with you, y/n… but not as friends” he said, his words panicked and rushed. “I want to be able to hold your hand whenever I want and cuddle with you. Take you out on dates, and let you steal my sweaters” he said with a chuckle. “I want to be your best friend, but also so so much more” he breathed, looking down at you with a serious expression so you knew he wasn’t joking.

You were positive that your heart was no longer beating, were you actually hearing these words come out of his mouth or was this some weird hallucination. Your mouth parted slowly as you tried to figure out what to say, how to articulate all the pent-up feelings you had for him. When you didn’t say anything, he panicked a little bit, thinking he overstepped a line. “Only if you want to be of course! I mean we can still stay best friends, I’m never gonna stop being your friend or anything. I just have had feelings for you for a long time and…” he said, flustered as he moved to step away from you.

Before he could step back you reached out and grabbed a fistful of his shirt, looking up at him with a soft smile. “Would you just shut up and kiss me already?” you said with a nervous chuckle. He froze, looking down at you to see if you were joking or not. When he saw that you were serious, that all the feelings he had built up were echoed in your eyes he beamed.

“With pleasure” he said before fully closing the distance between the two of you and pressing his lips to yours. All of the daydreams and fantasies you had about this moment were nothing when compared to the real thing.

#lee chan fanfic #lee chan imagines #seventeen fluff #seventeen imagines #seventeen scenarios #lee chan #lee chan fluff #lee chan scenario #seventeen drabbles #seventeen drabble game #svt drabbles #seventeen imagine #svt drabble #seventeen drabble #seventeen chan fanfic #svt drabble game #svt #svt chan

[ray-ray-writings]

I'm puncHING THE AIR RN ALL YOUR IMAGINES ARE SO AMAZING!!!! PleASE I imagined Bad and Skeppy lowkey competing over "which of us is Sapnap's partners favorite dad" -🍉

🍉!!!!! Thank you so much, that means a lot to meeeeeeeeeee!

But this idea is just so *chef’s kiss*

Like I think it would start one day when you come over to hang out with Sapnap, but he’s not awake yet so you go to the kitchen and find Bad there making breakfast. “Hello Bad,” you greet a little shyly, because even though they think you’re a part of the family, you’re still just a bit shy around them. Bad whips around with a huge grin on his face, “Hey kiddo! It’s so good to see you! Our lazy s/o’s are still asleep so I decided to make breakfast for the four of us.” Bad tells you as you move further into the kitchen. “Oh! That’s really sweet…. Can I help?” You ask, again shyly because you really don’t want to overstep but you really want to help. Bad’s heart melts at the thought of you actually wanting to help him in the kitchen. “Of course you can sweetheart, come here,” he chimes, motioning you forward to stand by his side. An excited grin falls on your face as you step forward and begin to help Bad cook. The two of you have an absolute blast cooking together. You make jokes as you flip pancakes and cut up fruit. You two are laughing so loudly that you wake up the sleeping boys. Sapnap and Skeppy both come out of their rooms very confused and exchange confused looks before heading down to the kitchen. When they get there, their hearts melt at the sight. You’re trying to flip a pancake and Bad is watching you with an extremely proud look on his face. “I did it!” You squeal in excitement as you successfully flip the pancake. “Yes you did! I’m so proud of you.” You can’t help it, you just wrap your arms around Bad in a really tight hug in your excitement. He’s a little shocked, but he hugs you back just as tight. After you let go of the hug, you catch a glimpse of your boyfriend standing in the kitchen. “Bubs!” You cheer and bounce toward him, pulling him in a huge hug and giving him a kiss on the cheek. “Hey baby… What are you doing here?” Sapnap asks, still a little confused and groggy. You let out a laugh, “We had plans today… Did you forget again?” And Sapnap can only nod, his face flushing with embarrassment, “Sorry” You let out a soft coo and press a quick kiss to his lips, “That’s okay bubs. If you don’t want to hang today, I’ll just annoy your father’s all day. I’m sure they would love to hang out with me.” You turn toward Skeppy as he and Bad chuckle at the interaction. Skeppy steps forward and pulls you into a little hug as a greeting, “yeah bud. We’d love to steal your s/o for the day,” Skeppy teases his son, giving him a small wink. Sapnap lets out a small whine and shakes his head, “No!! Just because I forgot doesn’t mean I don’t want to!” He pouts causing the three of you to laugh one more. Sapnap grumbles and pulls you from his father’s arms and sits you down at the table and sits next to you, although he pulls his chair so close to you, that he’s practically on your lap. 

The four of you sit down to breakfast and have a great meal. Bad compliments the food and basically gives you all the credit, even though he definitely did almost all of the work. So after breakfast, you and Sapnap go up to his room while Bad and Skeppy clean up. “So what was that about this morning?” Skeppy asks, as he and his husband wash dishes. He won’t admit it but he’s a little jealous because he really wants you to like him the best and it seems that his plan is failing. Bad only gives a half shrug, “They asked if they could help me cook and I couldn’t refuse… I really think they like me” Bad states casually. Skeppy lets out a little huff and washes the plate a little more aggressively. “What?” “Nothing” “No it’s something… Are you jealous that Y/N and I cooked this morning?” And Skeppy lets out an exasperated sigh because, yes. “I just want them to like me the most.” Skeppy admits, handing Bad a dish. Bad lets out a laugh as he rinses and dries, “Sorry to break it to you babe, but I think they like me more.” Skeppy only playfully glares at him, “We’ll see about that” 

For the next few weeks, the two dads keep trying to one up each other to get you to like them more. Skeppy asks you if you want to help him get materials and you two come back and you’re laughing your head off and when you go separate ways, you give Skeppy a big hug and he kisses your forehead. Bad sees this and pouts the rest of the night. Skeppy only chuckles and kisses Bad, “Sorry babe. I think I’m overtaking your spot”. A few days after that, Bad hands you something that you had been talking about getting for a while but couldn’t find the time or money to buy it. “Bad!” You freak out as you examine the item, “What? I can’t accept this!” You say as you try to push it back in his hand. Bad only smiles and shakes his head, “Yes you can kiddo. I got it for you, I don’t have any use for it. It’s yours.” And tears prick in your eyes and you wrap him in a huge hug and cry into his shoulder. “Thank you so much” Bad kisses your temple and winks at Skeppy over your shoulder, “No problem kiddo.” And Skeppy is fuming and planning what to do next. 

All throughout this time, you’re oblivious to what’s happening, you’re just happy that your boyfriend’s fathers like you. Sapnap on the other hand is less oblivious, but he also doesn’t say anything to you about it. He does however make sure that it doesn’t go too far and makes sure that home life is still balanced. Sapnap does like to tease his fathers by saying things like “Y/N told me today that they needed a new pickaxe” and watches in amusement as the two fight over who gets to craft a new one for you and give it to you. He asked you once if you had a favorite and you looked at him like he was crazy, “Absolutely not! I love your father’s equally and so much. I could never pick a favorite” Sapnap keeps that to himself though. It would just be so cute and so funny, especially if you had no idea about the competition.

#mcyt #mcyt imagine #mcyt drabble #ray responds #sapnap #sapnap imagine #sapnap drabble #badboyhalo #skeppy #badboyhalo drabble #skeppy drabble #ray loves sapnap a lot #🍉 anon #anon #asks

[carewyncromwell]

I’m hiding from my hair curler-wielding friend rn so have another question for Eddie, can I call him Eddie or is that like overstepping btw?

Do you have any crazy fan stories? Like do people recognize you on the street and go aHHHH?

[Ed's expression is mild and wryly smiling, but there is a slight coolness to his eyes.]

Ed: "Ed. Not Eddie."

[Only one person calls him "Eddie." @cursebreakerfarrier

Despite this, he grins a bit more broadly and amusedly.]

Ed: "As for crazy fan stories..."

[Tries to hold in a low, chuckling laugh -- nope. Can't manage it.]

Ed: "...Okay, um...disclaimer first, most of our fans are lovely people, just...just lovely."

[Biting back more amusement.]

Ed: "But sure, there are fans who are a bit more passionate than others."

If you mean completely off their rocker.

Ed: "We all have people recognize us in public now and again, and usually fans are cool about it..."

If by usually you mean "occasionally."

Ed: "...but other times, yeah, it soon ends up devolving into people taking pictures of us and whoever we're with and trying to dissect why we're meeting, whether it's for work, whether we're dating...don't get me wrong, Rita Skeeter, we here at Spellb🔮und love you as much as the next person -- "

And just about everyone can't stand you.

Ed: " -- but my love life really isn't that dramatic."

Also stop asking questions about my relationship with Regulus, you nosy little rat.

Ed: "I'd say Tony tends to get recognized the most. He's the youngest of us, and I think fan polls put him as the most popular member of the group too. I wouldn't be completely surprised -- his voice is hella good. And he does have that boyish charm about him that makes all the girls swoon."

He's just lucky he's such a total virgin that he naively plays into that image.

[This thought makes Ed chuckle a bit more despite himself.]

Ed: "As for me, I can usually stay under the radar..."

Thank God for brimmed caps.

Ed: "...But I have had more than one eager fan try to propose to me, right out of the blue."

And grope me. Ugh. That one teenage fan who decided to try to grab at my arse knowing I was talking to a reporter and being photographed and so I had to be on my best behavior and not say anything...Merlin, I might not be afraid to play up the sex appeal, but that doesn't mean I want you touching me. Especially when you are a minor and I am so obviously not -- you really think I'd be into that? Eugh...

Ed: "I mean, I'm touched by the enthusiasm, really...but I reckon all of our fans deserve a true happily-ever-after, where they get someone who can sweep them off their feet, romance them, make them feel special."

And sorry, you're not getting it from me, if you're the type to want to date me just based on my good looks, mate. I don't do one-off flings.

#ed rosier #ask ed #roleplaying #chess thornton #regulus black #rita skeeter

[jamesdeerest]

Hi can I request a clingy and soft Sirius and I don’t know maybe a little bit influenced by ivy from Taylor Swift sorry if is almost not information 🥲

dreamland [sirius black x reader]

a/n: thank u for the request!! to be honest, this is the first time i’ve listened to taylor’s new album, but i love this song. i decided to base it more off the vibe of the song than specific lyrics, but i hope you like it!!

warnings: emotional cheating, language

word count: just under 700

A squeeze of your hand broke you out of your thoughts. Your eyes flashed up to your husband’s, giving him a reassuring smile as he looked questioningly at you, leaning over to whisper in your ear. “You okay?”

You nodded, your gaze flitting back to Sirius’ grey eyes, his lips turned up in a mischievous smirk. Almost angry at his self-confidence, you turned back to your husband, whispering in his ear. Grinning, he swept you onto the dancefloor, pulling you around in an elegant waltz as the skirt of your dress spun and lifted, angelically.

As you caught Sirius’ eyes on a spin, you felt sickly satisfied at the absence of a smirk. He had retreated into himself with your indirect rejection, and, satisfied that he would not overstep, you allowed yourself to focus on your husband, even as Sirius was a constant in the back of your mind.

After you had danced for what felt like hours, your feet sore and cheeks strained from smiling, you excused yourself from the ballroom, drinking in the fresh air on a balcony. Staring up at the midnight sky, a clearing of a throat interrupted your peace, and Sirius rested his arms on the railing next to you, eyes fixed upon your form.

“Why do you push me away like this, Y/N?”

You sighed, head falling, before turning to him. “You know why, Sirius.”

“You don’t love him.” Sirius said, somewhere between a question and an accusation.

“I never pretended that I did.” you said sharply. He tilted his head at you, almost sizing you up. You sighed again. “I can’t, Sirius. I’m married, whether I like it or not. He’s... he’s good to me.”

“Good to you, is he?” Sirius scoffed, shaking his head.

“Yes. Good to me. He is a good husband, and you’re not making it very easy for me to be a good wife right now.”

Sirius’ head snapped towards you. “Oh don’t act like you’re innocent here, angel. We both know you can’t keep away from me.”

Your palm connected to his cheek with a resounding slap, watching with a grim satisfaction as his eyes widened with shock. “We’re not at Hogwarts anymore, Sirius. I’m not yours, and it’s time you realised that.”

He took a step closer to you, tentatively. “I’m not the only one who needs to realise that, angel.” Giving you time to protest, he softly pressed his lips to yours, relishing as you melted into him, before pushing him away from you, breathing heavily.

“Stop, Sirius. Just stop. You and I both know we can’t be anything more. Why do you keep trying?” you hissed, fighting a wave of tears.

Sirius’ gaze hardened. “Why do you keep pretending?”

You groaned, running a hand over your face. “Because I have to, Sirius! Why can’t you get that?! I’m trying so hard here, to be good to him, to be good for him, and you-and you... we can’t, Sirius. We were only a dream. You know you’re my weakness, we both know that. But we can’t.”

You looked up to Sirius, taken aback by the pain in his eyes. He grasped your hands, almost pleadingly. “You could. You could run away with me, leave all of this bullshit behind. We could go anywhere, just you and me.”

You looked down at your hands, how they fit together, before looking up at him, your eyes swimming. “Anywhere?”

Sirius smiled softly, releasing a hand to cup your cheek. “Anywhere, angel. Just say the word and I’m yours.”

You breathed deeply, shakily.

“Yeah.”

Sirius stroked your cheek with his thumb, smile growing. “Yeah?”

You sniffled, smiling. “Yeah. I just want to be with you, Sirius.”

Sirius grinned, pressing his lips to yours again, before holding your hands tightly. “You ready?”

You raised an eyebrow, confused. “Ready? Ready for what-”

The two of you disappeared in a flash, the echoes of your shriek and Sirius’ laughter the only thing that remained. Sure, Sirius was your weakness. Maybe that was a good thing.

hp taglist: @blackpinkdolan@hoewkeye@shadylittlewonder@sassy-specter@i-am-eating-rn@knowledgeisthebomb@imsoft-barnes@siriusly-a-gryffindor-chaser

#sirius black x reader #sirius black fanfiction #jamesdeerest writes

[livingforthewhump]

⭐️Ask game! Tell me about one or more of your OCs! Send this to five people, anonymous or not, if you want.⭐️

:DD sorry it took me a bit to get to this! (Also hi!! I’m sorry you’re struggling rn. Hopefully tomorrow will be better!)

I was very tempted to use this to talk about ocs who haven’t been introduced in the Paladin series yet, but I decided in favor of my Bad Caretaker OCs

Tobias- he’s very Soft. He loves to paint and cries very easily (usually over books and poetry, but Isaac likes to find out what else). He expresses himself through art, and hates being in the center of attention. He believes deeply in the inherent beauty and goodness of the world, and sometimes holding onto that hope causes him more pain than anything. He became friends with Isaac in school, and whenever Isaac would overstep his bounds he was too nice to leave, which spiraled into what their relationship is today. He was introduced to the rest of the team through Isaac, and unfortunately they’re too oblivious and he’s too scared to ask for help.

Michael- he does his best. He really does. He was introduced to Isaac through Jacob, and instantly got bad vibes from how overly-friendly he was. Nobody has that clean of a background, either. But, Jacob and Levi really seem to trust him, and since Jacob is the team leader it’s not really his place to make big accusations. He’s the team’s researcher and coordinator, and is always drowning in work, not to mention Not Good with emotions, so why shouldn’t he give Isaac an opportunity to gain his trust whenever Tobias breaks down? Sure, it makes him feel oddly guilty, but everyone else trusts Isaac, and his instincts aren’t usually right… so it’s probably nothing. Hobbies include reading, book collecting, pretending to work while actually watching Tobias paint- or, uh, just the first two haha :) The thing about Tobias is, Michael doesn’t understand him. Michael likes to understand things, but he likes things he can’t understand a little bit more (at least in this case). If only not understanding weren’t so confusing.

Isaac- he’s a two-faced demon. To everyone he knows, he’s charismatic and helpful, a shoulder to lean on, the most reliable fighter around. He has dozens of friends and is there for all of them. He can always make people laugh and is really good at board games. But to the one person who knows him, he’s a living nightmare. He delights in suffering and even more so in the comfort that comes after. He’s a little too good with knives, and has a smile that burns heaven with its flames. And he’s so convincing that he never did anything wrong at all.

Jacob- he’s the team leader. He’s very cheerful and kind and is sometimes a bit blinded by his emotions. Isaac was there for him when he most needed someone, when he was without friends or a place to stay. He’s indebted to him now, and he’s sure that Isaac wouldn’t do anything bad. Jacobs a complete audiophile and LOVES collecting rare vinyls to play on one of his many record players. He also loves to garden and watch Winnie the Pooh.

Levi- he’s a loner. He’s the team’s spy, who they send on solo missions. He’s very smart and resourceful and very good at fighting, but he believes his best quality is his sarcasm. That being said, he is fiercely protective of his team. Jacob and Michael were his first friends, and he would burn the world for them. Isaac was someone who really got past his defenses, who he felt comfortable enough around to really open up to. And Tobias he hasn’t really spent much time with, but since he’s Isaac’s oldest friend, he’s loyal to him too.

#my ocs #bad caretaker series #bea <3

[pumpkinspice-prouvaire]

When he comes out, Enjolras has stepped outside and is leaning on the lamppost opposite the door, smoking a cigarette. Trying to ignore the wink his manager gives him, because eugh, Feuilly opens the front door of the cafe to join his soulmate.

“So, hi,” he says, a little limply.

Enjolras jolts, as though he hadn’t just watched Feuilly emerge from the cafe. “Uh, hey. Feuilly, I’m assuming?” When Feuilly nods, he stands up a little straighter. “It’s nice to meet you.” He actually holds out the hand that isn’t clutching the cigarette like a lifeline for Feuilly to shake, which he appreciates, even if it is a little bizarre for a first meeting between soulmates. Feuilly’s seen enough public displays of affection to know it’s unusual.

Feuilly takes his hand, which is warm and soft and delicate, and waits for the lightning bolt, the moment where it will all make sense . It doesn’t come.

“You smoke?” he asks, before he can stop himself.

Enjolras nods, taking a drag, angling his head so the smoke blows away from Feuilly. “It’s a nervous habit.” He raises an eyebrow coolly. “Is that a problem?”

“Not at all. I used to do it too.” he replies quickly. He doesn’t add that he quit because smoking is also an expensive habit, and Feuilly can’t afford any of those.

Enjolras huffs a small laugh as he stubs the cigarette out on the nearby bin. “Well, maybe you can help me quit then,” he says, and Feuilly nods, but can’t bring himself to speak, because it’s as good a sign as any; Enjolras wants to know him, wants to be his soulmate. The way Feuilly is supposed to want to, but doesn’t.

“So, uhm,” Feuilly rubs self-consciously at the back of his neck, “I know I was meant to have the rest of the day off to, like, get to know you or whatever, but I actually have some things to do, and my shoes are full of milk, so-”

Something that looks suspiciously like relief flits across Enjolras’ face, but he schools it into a neutral expression, before saying, “Yeah, that’s totally fine. I’ve got to get back to campaigning anyway.”

“So, uh, I guess. Yeah,” God, Feuilly hasn’t struggled so much with words since he first started learning French, “I suppose I should ask you on- On like, a date, or something?”

Strangely, Enjolras’ eyes flash with what looks vaguely like panic, but then he gives a strained looking smile and says, “Yes, I suppose...You should.”

They exchange numbers, make plans for Feuilly’s next day off, and exchange an awkward goodbye, complete with terrible half-handshake half-hug. Feuilly walks towards his metro station, but before heading down the stairs he glances back to the cafe.

Enjolras is still standing in front of it, but he has a hand in front of his face, pinching the bridge of his nose, looking very much like he just received the worst news in the world.

Feuilly decides not to think about it too much.

(From There Goes the Fear)

ah my two favourite aroace bois. First of all, I just wanted to get across that they are like, so fucking nervous to meet each other lol. They're both legitimately terrified but trying not to show it, because they literally have no interest in having a soulmate, but as far as they know at this point there's no one else like them in the world- Both of them think they could face a lot of backlash, and perhaps even put themselves in danger, if it came out how they really felt. So they both grit their teeth and decide to bear it. Which is kinda sad :((

Really for this part I just wanted to exaggerate the differences between what they were told soulmates were supposed to act like, and how they actually conduct themselves. This is their first interaction, and it's stiff and it's awkward because they're both lying through their teeth the whole time. Feuilly senses that there's something weird about the way Enjolras is acting, he just can't put his finger on what it is (yet)

Also, the bit about the lightening bolt was Feuilly's own internalised ace/arophobia, the whole idea of "oh I will experience all these feelings some day, but I just haven't met the right person yet!!!" I'm not a member of the aro/ace community (and on that note please tell me if I overstep or get something wrong), but I imagine this is something y'all must hear a lot. Feuilly heard it a lot too, and a lot of his hopes were riding on this being the case, and he's kind of disappointed when nothing happens. He thought meeting your soulmate was supposed to be this big dramatic event, and instead it was just two people standing outside a cafe at 7am. Go figure.

sorry I'm super tired rn so this is very no thoughts head empty

#answered #dvd commentary #PLS talk to me about my soulmate au i love it dearly #long post

[nicistrying]

I'm starting to wonder why I even bother to worry about a lot of things rn. I texted my manager an hour ago when I woke up to explain what we got done last night in case no one had said, because I thought that he was at work today and I didn't want him to be sitting wondering what did and didn't get done. I thought I was being helpful but he's just fucking left me on read after we worked our asses off all night??? Like okay he might not be at work today but would it kill him to just say that? I'm having a bit of a battle with myself in my head bc on one hand my anxious brain is freaking out like omg he probably hates me after this weekend bc Friday I was just mega anxious and feeling really down and I just kept apologising and I was working really slowly bc I felt so shit and that was the best I could do, Saturday I went in specifically to apologise for being so annoying and awful to be around and we all laughed about it bc he had told everyone I would probably do exactly that but he seemed.. not very willing to actually say everything was okay no matter how many times I asked (which I know is my problem and not his but he knows me and knows I just need explicit reassurance that he does not hate me and is not pissed at me and idk he didn't seem sincere but that's more than likely just my anxiety talking. And then I just texted him today and maybe I was overstepping bc it's not really my responsibility to tell him what got done, I was just there to work the shift and maybe he thinks I'm trying to be a kiss-ass bc he mentioned the promotion which I'm not, I just thought it might be helpful to update him. But then the other half of my brain is like wtf why is he being such a dick, why am I busting my ass for this man like yeah he's really really lovely most of the time and this changeover has been so stressful and I get that but he's kind of taking it out on his staff which isn't like him so then I worry like is he okay is he more stressed than he lets on and then I get back to my anxious brain of 'oh no I'm adding more unnecessary stress by being anxious myself and annoying him with my need for reaasurance which he does not owe me'. BUT then like. He's at work with me in the morning so I can literally say to him tomorrow 'sorry if you weren't at work yesterday and I hope I didn't overstep, I just didn't know if it might be helpful for me to let you know what we got done. Are you alright and what can I do today that would be helpful' and everything will be okay and I do know that, so I just need to relax and enjoy my day off today, but damn I'm finding it difficult lmao.

apologies for the long rant, I'm mostly posting this bc I ran out of space in my written journal but I want to document my thought process and that i am actually considering the more logical side of the situation that he's probably just not at work and also trying to enjoy a day off, hence not replying to texts about work. Go me for acknowledging that 👍🏻

#i sound like a crazy person #but im proud of myself for challenging the dumb anxiety conclusions my brain likes to jump to #go me for considering more realistic explanations #progress #recovery #anxiety #mental health #personal #work