#better 4 the environment

[icewindandboringhorror]

... how am I meant to get any sort of restful sleep when it's like 85F indoors in my bedroom at NIGHT .. hhhhhhhhhhhhhh

#why the next poll adventure and everything else has taken so long lol.. I straight up have just not done anything #the past few days... staring down my todo list and sweating hopelessly #AT LEAST it;s relatively low humidity. the highest it's been up to is maybe 65%. but is usually around 50 or 40ish #There is one small window air conditioner in a roomate's room that can KIND OF be shared by nailing a sheet up to block off the hallway #with the rooms in it so the cool air goes into the other bedrooms but doesnt flow out into the kitchen or etc but #wjhen it's the time of day that the sun is directly hitting the window & it's like 102F outside even that doesnt help much. to cool 3 rooms #and I always feel like we're going to explode the air conditioner or something running it too much with direct heat on it. sometimes it #smells like hot plastic or whatever ghj.. so it's mostly just.. block off all windows with 5 layers of blankets and cardboard #starting at 10am (meaning.. no indoor light for days basically.. no natural lighting.. time passes weird. hard to determine time of day). #throw water on the bed every night so you sleep in wet sheets and keep your clothes and hair wet at all times. ice. cold drinks. keep a #little fan running pointed directly at you nearly 24/7 even when sleeping with a fan blowing air on you makes your eyes and throat painfull #dry. etc. etc.. and i KNOW people have it worse in plenty of places blah blah. i am just complaining on my little blog that is about me lol #I think the biggest thing about lack of adequate/central air conditioning for me is just the LACK of productivity!!! I am working on games! #and novels!! and so many other crafts. costumes! sculptures!!! things I want to do!!! we all have a limited amount of time on this planet a #nd I have so many goals!! To lose basically 4-5 days straight or producivity - when if I had been able to temperature #control my environment better I could have easily gotten more done because I wouldn't be laying around nuseous and too hot #and sick to do anything all day etc. -- is like.... GRRRRRR... it just feels so senseless.. i could have USEd that time... #Every CEO who has contributed to global warming owes me 1million doallrs to fund my art projects and make up for all the time #I've lost on them due to their stupid bullshit.. also they should be stoned to death in a public square. but redistribute the money FIRST #to everyone on the planet. but especially people who have been affected by floods. fires. etc. etc. #poor people who have limited choice in housing and access to air conditioning. homeless people in cooling centers. people with disabillitie #and health issues that are worse in the heat so the entire future just seems increasingly terrifying for them. etc. etc. #ANYWAY.... eughhhgh.... It can cool down SLIGHTLY at night but the past few nights I have been sleeping in an 81 degree room and I wake up #and first thing in the morning its like 82 by then and I'm so nauseous and nasty feeling... just so so tired of it.. I NEED SNOW #literally not even joking.. snow would heal me. .. oughffff... #AND i got the new nasty stinky poo poo pee pee tumblr dashboard update lol.. e v i l

[splendidcyan]

Mecha companions and radioactive monsters clash in a solarpunk post-apocalyptic world. Is all that is different also harmful to humans?

STRANGE LANDS: A Journey Through A Rebuilt Earth was nearly all of last semester's illustration class, and by far the biggest project I've ever done. I'm only realizing now that it's only been put in my portfolio, not on my socials. I learned a ton and a half from this so I think it's important to post! As I'm about to enter my final semester of illustration classes at university, I think it's really fun to post my progress on social media, even if it means seeing SO many things I could have done better omg (nobody pay attention to the fact that I called the main mecha Lancelot-13 AND Lancelot-14 ggbgbgb)

I've been revisiting Nitara and Lancelot-14 so I wanted to show you all the original before I finish the remix, haha! I really love them and I can't believe I haven't shown anyone on socials them yet lol. The point of this project was to build a world, not so much a story. We designed characters, NPCs, environments, and some props, and had regular check-ins before our final "booklet" we turned in, which is what you see here. I've since gone back and painted out a few more things that were only WIPs here (time crunch wahoo), which I'll upload later. But for now, enjoy my babies from spring this year!

#visual development #concept art #my art #strange lands #illustration #character design #world design #environment design #worldbuilding #sci fi #solar punk #solarpunk #post apocalyptic #I see... SO MUCH i could have done better . wow #but deadlines and other classes and work had me on a time crunch #and the question is do i revisit this or do i go on to new things? #anyway i am revisiting it but in a more casual sense for now #if anyone from my deviantart days remembers Evolution Alpha this was a very similar project #except for the fact that I was not doing it without guidance and also there's since been 4 years of growth in both the human and artistic s #senses #i need to see if i cant find my old evo alpha stuff for comparisons sake #but this project was like euphoria to me #this is what i want to do for the rest of my life #help create worlds and explore designs and foster stories #i hope tumblr doesnt cut off all these tags hahaha

[moonfromearth]

🌈 Happy Pride, everyone! 🏳️‍🌈

A (very late) post to celebrate Pride Month featuring one of my favorite groups of characters! I still have a lot of work to do on them, though, but eventually they'll have their own story 😅

I hope that everyone is having a great month! Whether you're out or still figure things out I hope that you enjoy all the love going around.

#finally decided to post these #better late than never right? #😅 #i was at the mall the other day and i was so happy because #there were so many groups of people dressed up #in rainbows and all kinds of just fun pride stuff #and i was wearing my rainbow glasses and #even though i'm not really out yet #it still felt super sweet to see everyone be so happy #anyway yeah inspirational moment of the week #that was long sorry i just haven't stopped thinking about it #i've never seen so much pride in june irl it was amazing for me #especially since i was raised in a very straight environment #i love it so much #sims 4 #ts4 #sims 4 screenshots #ts4 screenshots #sims 4 pride #ts4 pride #jayda #desmond lackey #gregory thorpe #elyse dillard

[junkie-virus]

(muttering) i dont want to die i just need to go outside i dont want to die i just need to go outside i dont want to die i just need to go outside i dont want to die i just need to go outsi

#ro rambles #think im going stir crazy but also maybe its the sleep deprivation. #i am sleeping in 2-4 hour intervals #usually on the lesser side #i only get the 4-6 hour-ers when its day out. #this of course means i do not eat much #also a horrid contributer. #this is fine #ill start going out again when my group therapy starts up again #which is facilitated by a lady who said vaguely transphobic shit to me #she didnt habe mal intent but also that means i have to educate a cis person against my will #a WHITE cis oerson at that #ohhhh i experience a million little agonies #im too scared to go walk outside but i think maybe at this point i should just try #on the brighter side im going to my aunts friday and usually i sleep better there #have actual bed as well #nicer environment

[gengarpng]

I realized I don't actually know that much about amore, so tell me about him! Is he from raccoon city? Do he and Leon meet during re2? What does he do after re2? (Apologies if I've asked any of these questions before, I am forgetful)

Under cut bc it started getting kinda long lol

He's actually from a lil farm town a couple hours away from raccoon city! His fam primarily does goat farming (selling the milk, making soaps and other such things) with some chickens nd some fruit trees type stuff on the side. He moved to raccoon city when he was about 20? Before the Incident, he would take trips home to help out. Most of his time during res2 would be worrying abt his fam bc he'd prob have a tough time trying to contact any of them. (I have so much backstory lore on backburner for this mf lol)

Admittedly ive been focused more on. Au stuff rather than in canon stuff but. My original idea was to have them meet during Res2, w Amore being one of the lingering survivors at the station that Leon runs into but understandably it'd be kinda hard to worm him in, so I've still gotta feel some stuff out (like wtf he does during the part where ur playing as Ada lol)

Unforch I haven't put much thought into what he does after r2 yet, I thought abt having him going back to his fams farm, even if only for a bit, to make sure his fam is okay and all that.

I'll hopefully be doing a full playthru soon so I can actually start figuring out timelines and stuff and how to wedge this guy in better.

#part of me wants to make him an agent alongside leon part of me wants to put him in a lab environment to help out there. #maybe something agricultural? who knows! i gotta actually play these facking games lol #a moron posting #thank u for letting me ramble ;w; #hopefully once i replay 2 and actually for real play 4 i can get a better idea of what to do with him

[000png]

will zero finally go back to school... stay tuned and find out

#not to keep using this blog as a diary but ANYWAYS #so got confirmation i'm basically in the middle exit phase so my last day will probably be in mid-december #which is actually really good timing all things considered #so i can either plan to get a new job at the beginning of the new year OR think about going back to school #starting during spring is kind of awkward so unless I find a really good situation i'd probably go for fall of 2024 #tuition is obviously something i have to think hard about since i'm also balancing a mortgage... but the benefit of me doing nothing but #work my ass off for the last 4 years is that i do have the money saved. like unless i go to a super prestigious school i can most likely #afford it on my own. ofc the question is am i willing to spend it all for a degree that might not even be of any benefit to me. who knows #i also don't even know what i'd go back for. it wouldn't be pure CS but probably something adjacent or bio-related #another reason I want to go back to school is honestly for social reasons. networking and finding new friends #i'm not the most outgoing person but in an academic environment i was infinitely better at socializing than I am now lmao #and sharing classes with folks will definitely help. i'd definitely pick up TAing again as well if possible #i also talked with my manager a bit about this and he was also like yeah at your age and situation now is actually a really good time #anyways. we shall see #0.txt

[robinsnest2111]

everyone is riding the mtl hype train (so happy for all of you my friends!!!) while I, a European, went to bed early to be well-rested for a job interview/trial workday and missed most of the fun lmao

this kinda feels like the mgsv hype all over again (eyes lose focus while Gloria by Laura Branigan plays in the distance) sure do hope I'll get a chance to legally watch the movie once it comes out and not wait several months until I can join the hype...

#anyway. gonna try and listen to the new album/previews while getting ready for work today!!!!! #i actually forced myself to sleep for more than 3-4 hours. still tired but better than the last couple days for sure #also gonna try and paint my nails shiny black after over 10 years of not doing that lol #i hope i can keep my long nails/wear nail polish on the job... there is selling food and drinks but no direct preparation so???? #oh look at me tag rambling again #i'm so anxious actually lol new environment new people first time using my preferred name n pronouns in a professional setting

[oblisker]

i find it hard to believe that people are constantly debating if a traumatized child who is, being a child, very easily influenced and is not responsible for barely any actions in the genocide route is evil (some rambling in the tags)

#chara undertale #chara #undertale #utdt #CHARA DEFENDER 4 LIFE!! #i love how ppl get mad at them for hating humans #like 1. it’s very clear that they were in some way traumatized by local people??? #2. children can be dramatic and … determined…. lol. #my mom would tell me if i didn’t eat so and so i couldn’t eat anything else so little me just #. didn’t eat anything for a day and a half and she had to realize #oh . this kid’s serious #children r not only petty with trivial things but with serious stuff? #we act irrationally #we see a goal and don’t see the flaws that come with it #chara’s behavior with asriel seemed to be a direct response from trauma #it was familial teasing gone too far at best psychological manipulation at worst #i think that they had a primarily good relationship but chara treated asriel unfairly because of the environment they were raised in #kids can be manipulative to other children if they aren’t taught better OR are taught to do just that by impressions they get from adults

[tyltos]

Ok Blizzard. Let's have a little chat, you and me. Let's talk about Diablo 4. It's a pretty game Blizzard. Credit where credit is due. You made it pretty. But goddamn it Blizzard, why? Why would you make your textures so pretty, and then NOT LET ME SEE THEM???

#why would you make your environments so dark i cant see where the fuck I'm going if i have a light on in my living room #why would you make your colors so desaturated that they wash out important details when i turn up the brightness on the game? #why would painstakingly build intricate environments and models and then zoom out so far that i cant see the details you so lovingly crafted #the details are there. You're making my video card render them. when i zoom in they are just as sharp as if it was a first person game #why are you shooting yourself in the foot here blizzard? you know better. #tyltos rants #diablo 4

[divinecreation]

Ok I'm just now realizing that the moon changed signs when Mello was born so depending on where and what time it was he could either have a Gemini moon or a Cancer moon hmmm much to think about

#i have been actively headcanoning him as being a scorpio rising with his cancer moon in the 8th house because that just makes sense!! #being naturally emotional and expressive but being in an environment where its discouraged growing up #and so you grow to learn that no one wants to see your emotions and youre better off repressing them and then u just become an adult #with emotional dysregulation who refuses to cry or be vulnerable around others and puts up a tough guy persona? #thats so moon in the 8th house! and thats so mello!! #and also his mars would be in the first house and just yeah!! #but for him to have both a scorpio rising and a cancer moon he would have had to be born in the US... #because to have that ascendant hed have to be born very early in the morning and at that point in europe the moon just. was still in gemini #but if he was born 3-4 am in like California then the moon was in cancer at that point #... i cant say i hc him as being born in the US or having a gemini moon 😶 i can always choose a dif rising sign... #or maybe im like literally entirely fucking WRONG lmfao #you know what no one cares except for me. its not real. mello can be born in europe and still have a cancer moon & scorpio rising #death note #mello #mihael keehl #astrology #desperately tryna hc all the dn characters rising signs and struggling bc im trying so hard to take the house placements into consideration #and also because im literally not an astrologer. #whatever. whatever. its not that serious #if theres anyone out there who has opinions on mellos possible rising sign or moon sign i would love to talk #this is the part where i say my disclaimer about how i dont like modern astrology i mostly just study traditional so your understandings #of astrology and certain signs and placements and planets might completely differ from mine but again like. its not that serious lmao #but i could def see him with other rising signs like idk a leo rising would put his cancer moon in the 12H which is just as unfortunate #idk whatever who cares lol #my post

[chqnified]

Lmaooo watching other cheer teams have beef on tiktok and twitter with the team i was in is lowkey hilarious. I'm entertained. And also glad I'm out, because I'd be scared to wear that uniform and be jumped on by the 20 teams that have beef.

#tiktok randomly had a cheer tt on my fyp. which like random. also convinced tt is stalking me. bc I've never watched cheer vids there #and it was a pov you never won nationals in 15 years and you lose on your last year too. the team are crying and you can hear the winners #being announced. so happens to be my old team. someone commented: pov you're against THAT team. #and that's shade. but honestly rightly so. i remember our coach being so mad about everyone hating on them lmaoo #because what they'd do is put level 5 athletes in a level 1 team. i was level 4 and i got put in level 1. #because there's no rule against it. but it also means. if you are a proper level 1 team. you have no chance you know? #that's like getting a uni maths graduate to go against a secondary school kid in a maths competition.... #we were shown tweets too back when i was in the team. or like you'd literally get hated on in the corridor at competition too. #oh the joys #cheer was a much nicer environment go back 10 years ago. It's just insanely commercialised now a days. to the point nothing matters #except for the money #oh and may i add. this specific tt had half a million likes. yeah. #i love this drama. and it's even better when you've had 13 years of insider knowledge of that team help

[tkbrokkoli]

wanted to write smth abt top surgery ⬇️

#not fandom related #personal log stardate #trans stuff #ok so ive been wanting top surgery longer than ive wanted to go on T. my chest makes me the most dysphoric and if it wasnt so hard to acces #top surgery i wouldve gotten it long ago lol #so the hardest for me is the many steps that are involved. finding and contacting a surgeon. getting there for a 1st appointment #for the sugery for getting the stitches out. getting Surgery in general and its risks. staying at a hospital which is not my #Routine environment. possible pain itching restriction in movement complications. the results might no be as expected #just a lot of steps involved that require me to step out of my comfort zone and stay out of it for a longer time as well. #but what are a few weeks of discomfort compared to a chesticle free rest of my life right. so i def Want it #but. there are like 3 decent top surgeons that have a lot of experience in my country that i know of. id have to travel at least 4 hrs #or longer and ive never driven my car for that long and im too scared to take the train/bus by myself and i dont think i could make myself #do it. like. if it didnt involve all that other scary stuff i might manage to try taking a train by myself. but just the train. nothing els #i just cant tackle several things that are difficult and uncomfortable at the same time. #ive read that a few ppl have gotten top surgery in the city i live #ive taken the bus and tram here. no problem. this would be perfect #only problem is there are almost no reviews on those surgeons. there seem to be at least 2 thatve done top surgery. idk who the 'main' #surgeon is. ive seen like 4 result pictures that ppl have posted. ive talked to 1 person whose currently 3 mo post-op but said they #might get a revision done if the results wont look better in a few months. the surgeons themselves dont mention top surgery on their websit #one mentions doing surgery for gynecomastia so this is probably the one ill contact first #basically there is barely any information available. if it comes down the surgeons might not even have done many top surgeries #so my results might not look good. i dont necessarily need it to be perfect. i just want my chest flat. i dont plan on being shirtless #except for doctors appointments and sex if ill ever have any. its unlikely ill go swimming in public and there i would probably wear a #rash guard anyway to protect myself from the uv rays. so my priority is a chest that looks flat underneath clothes. and if it looks like #shit i can get a revision if i want to . i think im gonna contact the surgeons here and prepare a list of questions for the appointment #i feel like i can take these steps. but i cant take them w the far-away surgeons. im gonna talk to my therapist abt this as well. maybe the #have some information on the surgeons here. i also contacted the local queer organization but i havent heard back yet :/

[rossithepixie]

The way i need to lay down at the same time of day basically everyday is as annoying to me as it is predictable.

#i am now up again after having to lay down through peek bright hours #i swear my sensitivity to brightness got way worse after living in a sunnier environment for 4 years and just being forced to deal with it #like i thought moving back to one of cloudiest states would fix it #but nope #i mean it’s better in the sense that i do cope more easily and i’m not sick for days at a time but i’m still more reactive if that makes #any sense #really there’s nothing that can be done for it either belive me i’ve looked into #the best i can do is dark glasses and avoiding peak bright hours #again sorry you guys are probably tired of hearing me gripe about this #(is this why i like gojo’s need to wear dark glasses or need to cover his eyes all the time so much?) #probably

[ellie-the-character]

“I would cast any of you as a lead” YOU PROMISE???? BOSS YOU PROMISE?????

#I WIN!!!!!!! I WIN I WIN I WIN!!!!!!!!!!!! #genuinely like I spent 4 years working my ass off to hear that in high school and I never did (for good reason I sucked) #and now I’ve only been working with my boss/vocal teacher for like four months not counting the summer show (5 if you count it) #and he’s genuinely said some of the nicest things about me I’ve ever heard #like when I auditioned for the secret garden he said that he was glad to see my name on the audition list #and when I was picking up my script he mentioned that he was surprised to see my casting as Scott in Dreamland because he’d always seen me #as a more serious actor!!!!!!!! like #and he saw the musicals and choir concerts that I was in in high school #and I was NOT a good singer even though I really thought I was #and like even though I wasn’t the best singer and I was always in the ensemble #he still saw my potential and cast me in secret garden and took me on as a student and like wanted me involved in the company #like genuinely I’m so grateful for him he’s such a great mentor for me #like this is a company that really respects me as an actor and it’s been a really great learning environment for me #like not to sound cocky or anything but even in just the few months that I’ve been in vocal lessons my voice is SO MUCH BETTER #I’m learning how to belt and it’s so wonderful and fun

[desertskiespodcast]

I tried to write a novel. Not once. Not twice. But about 12 times. Here's how that would play out: 1. I sit down and knock out 10 pages 2. I share it with someone 3. They say "It's goooood" like it's not good 4. I ask for critical feedback 5. They say, "Well....the plot just moves so quickly. So much happens in the first few pages it doesn't feel natural." So I'd write more drafts. I'd try to stretch out the story. I would add dialogue that I tried to make interesting but thought was boring. I would try including environment and character descriptions that felt unnecessary, (why not just let people imagine what they want?) Anyways, I gave up trying to write because in my mind, I wasn't a fiction writer. Maybe I could write a phonebook or something. But then I made a fiction podcast, and I waited for the same feedback about the fast moving plot, but guess what??? Podcasts aren't novels. The thing that made my novels suck became one of the things that made Desert Skies work. I've received some criticism since the show started, but one thing I don't receive regular complaints about is being overly-descriptive or longwinded. In fact, the opposite. It moves fast enough that it keeps peoples attention. I always felt I had a knack for telling stories but spent years beating myself up because I couldn't put those stories into novel form. The problem wasn't me. The problem was the tool I was trying to use. All that to say: If, in your innermost parts you may know that you're a storyteller but you just can't write a book, don't give up right away. You can always do things to get better and there's a lot of good resources. But if you do that for a while and novel writing just isn't your thing, try making a podcast, or creating a comic, or a poem, or a play, or a tv script. You might know you're an artist but suck at painting. Try making a glass mosaic, or miniatures, or try charcoal portraits, or embroider or collage. You might know you're a singer, but opera just isn't working out. Why not yodel? I could keep listing out examples, but the point is this. Trust your intuitions when it comes to your creative abilities, but don't inhibit yourself by becoming dogmatic about which medium you can use to express that creativity. Don't be afraid to try something new. Don't be afraid to make something new. You might just find the art form that fits the gift you knew you always had, and what it is might surprise you

#audio drama #writing #desert skies #science fiction #fantasy

[magicbeansprout]

Diana’s birthday was yesterday.