#best case scenario with that is me just passing out lmao

[delulujuls]

gifted | cl16

hi! i couldn't help myself so here is something with a bit of festive spirit. also i can't believe that is only a week left til christmas lmao

anyway, enjoy this one as well!

summary: y/n decided to finally reveal her feelings, a lot of miscommunication in the house of ferrari, fav red duo being completely chaotic (and all of that with christmas songs playing in the background)

warnings: none, its kinda fluffy at the end tho

pairing: charles leclerc x fem!ferraridriver

Even though there was only a week left until Christmas, the festive atmosphere was practically unnoticeable due to the amount of work still involved.

Although the season was over and most of the sporting events had passed, the work was still piling up and had no plans to end.

Y/N sat in the chill room, waiting for two interviews she was scheduled to have later that day. She had been at Ferrari's headquarters since the morning, recording materials for social media. Of course she was accompanied by Charles, who was currently lost somewhere.

At that moment it was to her advantage, as she was lying on the couch and browsing the Internet, looking for a Christmas gift for him. Which, by the way, was quite a challenge.

Y/N and Charles became teammates three years ago. Three years were enough for the couple to find a common language and, apart from working together, became friends. Even though they knew each other well, the issue of gifts always remained problematic. What's worse, the girl's love language was giving gifts and surprises, so she always tried to give the best gifts for various occasions. Charles, however, was a tough guy to please.

She sighed, closing another tab in her browser. Time was running out and she still had no specific gift or even an idea of what specific direction she could go. Especially since this year her task was much more difficult, because for several weeks Y/N had a problem with looking at Charles only as a friend. At the beginning, everyone is in denial that no, he's just a friend, there's nothing in common between us and nothing more serious will ever happen, but when you spend so much time together and the bond is so strong and emotional, it's hard not to fall head over heels in love.

Which in Y/N's case just happened.

The problem, however, was that the girl had absolutely no idea how to admit her feelings to her friend. So she decided that this year's Christmas gift would be perfect and meaningful enough for Charles to connect the dots and understand that the girl's feelings were beyond their friendship. At least this was the scenario Y/N had hoped for.

"You look like you just ran the race of the century"

Charles said, which brought his friend out of her thoughts. He held two cups of coffee in his hands, he gave one of them to the girl and plopped down next to her on the sofa.

"I think I need your help."

Y/N said and looked at him as her last resort, which he actually was.

"Something happened?"

He asked and his expression immediately became worried.

"What Christmas present would you be happy about?"

Charles frowned at her direct question.

"Are you asking what you should buy me for Christmas?"

"No, what should I buy for you, but what would a guy around your age with similar interests generally be happy with?"

It was obvious that the contacts in Leclerc's brain were working like crazy, but despite this, they were unable to understand the given command.

"I like someone and I would like to show it to him with a gift. And since I have no idea, I'm asking you for advice"

She explained, trying to sound very convincing. Of course she lied like hell but she assumed that it was darkest under the street lamp and if she played it right, Charles wouldn't guess anything and would also give her a great gift idea.

Leclerc, hearing her words, only nodded and took a sip of his coffee. It was obvious that he was thinking hard and really wanted to help her with the answer.

"Maybe a leather belt, a wallet?"

Y/N frowned.

"Would you be happy with a belt or a leather wallet?"

"I don't, but I'm trying to give you some ideas. I would be happy with a new tennis racket, mine is currently being repaired and I don't know if it's time for a new one."

"A tennis racket?"

Charles nodded, but then changed the subject completely.

"By the way, firstly, why I don't know anything about the fact that you like someone, secondly, why I didn't receive any photo for analysis and thirdly, if you want to show your feelings through a gift, then I think you should do something with your own hand. Or at least show that it means a lot to you"

Y/N analyzed his words carefully. The racket idea wasn't a bad idea, especially since she could have gone a step further and, in addition to the racket, bought them a stay on the court together. Charles tried many times to convince her to play with him, but Y/N had no idea how to play tennis and in her eyes, making a fool of herself on the first date was a bad idea to impress her love interest.

"You actually helped me, you know?"

The girl said and smiled at him. Charles probably helped her more than he expected.

"That's great because you could help me too."

He replied, glancing at her. Y/Ns stomach dropped to her throat, but she decided to act unfazed. In a second of inattention, everything could go to hell.

"Do you also need some gift inspiration?"

"Yes, and I have exactly the same problem as you."

Charles sighed and drank his coffee.

"Some time ago I met a girl. We met a few times and it seems to be nice between us. I would like to give her a gift so that she can see that I care."

"You didn't mention anything about dating anyone."

Y/N said, trying to adopt as neutral a tone as possible. However, her heart was pounding like crazy and she had no idea whether Charles was following her tactics and was actually asking her what she would like to get, whether he had actually met someone and would like to reveal his feelings soon.

"Neither do you, so we're even."

He replied and laughed.

The girl shifted on the couch, feeling her stomach hurt from nerves. She was about to continue talking to him when someone entered the room and informed her that everything for her interview was ready.

Y/N apologized to him and stood up, saying that they would come back to this conversation. However, she sincerely hoped that today was her last day at the headquarters and that she would not have to come here until the new year, which would mean that she would not have to be in Charles' company.

To be honest, she felt idiotic. What if Charles is actually dating someone? What an idiot she would look like if she admitted her feelings.

When she finished all her duties at the company, she returned to the hotel without a word. She spent the rest of the evening on social media searching for any photos or mentions of whether Charles Leclerc was currently dating anyone.

The lack of any information did not help her at all. His words kept drilling a hole in her head, causing all the pre-Christmas cheer to evaporate from her like a burst balloon.

Maybe she was in a bad mood, but at least she had the idea of a Christmas surprise off her mind. She also hoped that Charles' new friend would give him some great gift, for fuck's sake.

The girl threw the phone into the pillows and fell onto the bed, staring at the ceiling. The thoughts swirling in her head were interrupted by the sound of an incoming message. The notification "new message from: lord perceval" appeared on the screen

"You still haven't helped me with the gift."

"If you want to show your feelings through a gift, I think you should make something with your own hands. Or at least show that it means a lot to you."

She replied, quoting exactly what he had recommended to her a few hours earlier.

She locked her phone again and stuffed it under her pillow. Y/N hoped that by the time they met again, she would have gotten over her feelings and Charles would be her teammate again. And the teammate only.

The next day, the girl returned to Monaco, spending preparations for Christmas alone. This year she happened to be spending the holidays alone. Did it bother her much? Not particularly.

She decided to spend this time in peace and quiet. She kept her phone on airplane mode most of the time and she also avoided social media. Did she have any specific goal for this? The only goal was to avoid Charles, both direct contact with him and any mention of him.

On Christmas Eve morning, she went in search of a Christmas tree, which she bought, brought it herself and even installed it in the corner of the living room, wanting to prove her independence at all costs. Although it was all pricked by fresh, sharp needles, the tree still looked beautiful. While she was in the process of decorating it, she heard a knock on the door. She flinched almost so much that she almost dropped the bauble from her hands.

She hung it on a branch and went to open it. How surprised she was when standing in front of her was none other than Charles himself.

"Hey. Something happened that you are here?"

The girl asked, glancing at him.

"I guess so, since I haven't had any contact with you for several days."

"I've been busy. You know, Christmas and all that craziness."

Charles looked at her worriedly, trying to read the truth on her face that he felt like she was hiding from him.

"Everything's all right?"

Y/N just nodded.

"I'm just busy. I guess you are too, so run away to your place. You're probably planning a big family Christmas Eve."

"Can I go in?"

The girl sighed, knowing full well that she wouldn't get rid of him anytime soon. She walked deeper into the apartment, leaving the door open for him. She went to the Christmas tree and took another ornament out of the box and hung it on the tree.

Charles followed her without a word. There was silence inside and the only sign heralding Christmas Eve afternoon was the Christmas tree standing in the corner, which she was decorating in silence. There was no indication that Y/N would be expecting guests in a few hours, so he was surprised that if she was to catch a plane back to her hometown today, she should have been getting ready to leave long ago.

"How are you spending Christmas?"

He spoke after a moment, walking up to her. Without thinking, he took the bauble out of the box and carefully hung it as well on the Christmas tree.

"Here"

"When are the guests coming? I don't want to disturb you."

He laughed quietly, trying to lighten the atmosphere that seemed extremely thick to him. However, when he glanced at his friend, she was straightening the decorations on the tree with a sad expression on her face.

"Why did you come anyway?"

"What do you mean?"

Charles asked, frowning.

"From what you said, you have another girl you should be interested in."

The Monegasque was silent for a moment, having no idea what she was talking about. However, when he connected the dots, he understood what she meant.

"Are you the one who's jealous?"

Charles asked and he couldn't hide his smile. But she was absolutely not in a mood for jokes.

"I'm not jealous, I'm just stating a fact"

"As I see, your entire attention has been completely taken over by your love interest, because since the last time I saw you, you have only replied to me four times."

The girl remained silent, gritting her teeth. She felt like an idiot again.

"Talk to me Y\N, please"

Charles touched her arm, trying to get her attention. He was afraid that something bad was happening between them and he couldn't imagine losing his friend.

"I have nothing to tell you, Charles."

"Nothing, absolutely nothing?"

He asked, looking at her. When she shook her head, he let go of her arm and snorted.

"Wow, your new boyfriend material totally took you away from me."

"There's no new boyfriend material!"

Y/N exploded, no longer able to stand the stupidity that she herself allowed to come to fruition.

"There isn't any and there won't be any, at least not when you are there, damn it!"

"What do you mean?"

Leclerc frowned.

"I like you, idiot! I like you, a lot!"

Y/N felt tears in her eyes and a blush on her cheeks. She was angry with herself for not being able to stand it and gave vent to her emotions, she was sad knowing that she would face some rejection and she was ashamed that despite everything she gave in and confessed her feelings to him.

Charles smiled when he saw the person standing in front of him. Currently in a messy bun, with eyes full of tears, in red Christmas pajamas. And he wasn't smiling because he was amused by her feelings, not at all. He smiled with happiness, because he felt exactly the same.

He stepped closer to her and took her face in his hands, wiping her wet cheeks with his thumbs.

"You couldn't have told me that straight?"

"How could I tell you that I like you, we are friends!"

She said, breaking down into another wave of tears. Seeing his smile made her feel even worse.

"Do you find it so funny? I knew it, I knew perfectly well that it would be like this!"

Y/N wanted to break away from him, but he held her tightly. He leaned down and pressed his lips to hers, wanting her to finally calm down.

It worked magically, because the girl froze when she felt his lips on her. He pulled away from her after a moment and stroked her face with his thumbs.

"I like you too, crazy."

"Really?"

"Of course I do. Except I guess we had the exact same fears about revealing our feelings."

"But you said you were dating someone."

Y/N looked at him confused.

"I wanted to spite you. I was a little stung when you said you liked someone."

"I only asked because I wanted to know directly what you would be happy about. I wanted to give you a nice gift from which you could conclude that I like you."

Charles laughed and pulled her to him, hugging her tightly.

The girl squeezed her eyes shut and hugged him, breathing heavily.

"I'm sorry, it was totally stupid"

"For Christmas we should buy each other textbooks for successful communication"

Charles laughed, rubbing her back.

"Doesn't change the fact that you're probably busy today."

Y/N replied, pulling away from him and wiping the remaining tears from her face.

"Say hello to your family from me and wish them a Merry Christmas"

"You will be able to do it yourself. I invite you to join us"

He replied, handing her the last bauble from the box.

The girl looked at him uncertainly.

"I can't, Charles. I can't come empty-handed."

"I think your presence will be the best gift for everyone."

Y/N still wasn't convinced. However, he smiled reassuringly.

"Trust me"

She nodded and took the bauble from him, hanging it on the tree.

He hugged her and kissed her hair.

"Don't feel bad, from all this confusion I didn't manage to prepare any gift either. I didn't want to be a rival for your love interest."

He said and laughed quietly.

Y/N huffed and snuggled into him again.

Standing in each other's arms, they both couldn't believe that after such turmoil they finally managed to talk about their feelings. In an extremely twisted way, fortunately with a positive result. For both of them it was definitely the best gift in the world and the upcoming Christmas Eve evening looked really promising too.

#f1 imagines #f1 one shot #f1 #formula 1 #f1 oneshots #f1 imagine #charles leclerc #charles leclerc x reader #cl16 #charles leclerc fluff #charles leclerc oneshot #charles leclerc imagine

[bronx-bomber87]

We’re at the S1 finale. Hard to believe. Thank you all for staying on this journey with me it’s been super rewarding. When I started didn't expected the support I got. Also been fun to fill the hiatus with this since we're all waiting for S6. Not sure when this strike will end. So fun to rewatch the series this way. Rewatching s1 with analytical eyes and knowing where they are now has been eye opening. I’ve seen a lot of people writing about how writers said Chenford wasn’t meant to happen this early on. Idk that’s true with the incredible foundation that has been laid in s1.

The beautiful base that continues to solidly with each ep. Especially this finale. I think the finale is when if you hadn’t been shipping them before you were after this ep. I was all in day one I just knew it would be a slow burn before we got there. Also Eric and Melissa are amazing together. Drew me in right away. Their chemistry is unparalleled. Can’t deny that. Like I said in my first review I started watching for Nathan and Eric. Never knowing the beautiful ship I was gonna get along the way. Anyways off to the finale we go :)

1x20 freefall

It’s the week of their big test. It decides whether or not they get to continue on in the FTO program. You can get a score as low as an 80 and pass. To the T.O.’s that’s a fail. Tim tells a Lucy if she gets anything less than a 93 it’s an insult to him LOL Lucy doesn’t even let it phase her how far we’ve come. She continues on asking what he’s going to do with all his free time when she passes?

Tim is confused at first then realizes she’s talking about her daily evals. She suggests a book club haha Tim as far as he’s come is still Tim in T.O. mode around others. Gotta keep up the hard ass act. Tells her ‘Whether I evaluate you daily or weekly. I will continue to judge you every minute.’ haha damn Tim way to shut down her playful banter lmao

First call of the day for our lovely duo is at a psychic shop. Silent alarm has been tripped. Guy is going after this psychic because she ‘saw’ he killed his wife and is losing it on her. It was a fluke she figured it out and she says as much haha Afterwards she brazenly hits on Tim and he has no idea how to handle it.

His embarrassed face is everything. He wasn’t expecting that at all. It’s like he doesn’t know he is gorgeous ass man. The way he looks back at Lucy is priceless. Like please help me baha Lucy is enjoying it immensely. Her face says it all I’m dying. She isn’t helping him out of this one. He awkwardly walks away from the psychic it’s too damn funny. Tim Bradford left speechless. What world we live in haha

After a light start to their day it comes to serious halt. There’s a deadly virus and possible outbreak they all have to prevent. This came from the dead body Nolan and Bishop found earlier at the bus station. He was tied into the terrorist threat. This postpones their test naturally. Lucy and Tim are tasked with talking to one of the citizens that took same bus as this guy.

As they’re rolling up to this guys house Lucy says she thought the test was going to be the most stressful part of her day. Tim tells her best case scenario it’s tomorrows problem. Lucy makes a nervous joke 'What’s worst case scenario? Never mind don’t answer that' haha Oh Lucy the most stressful part of your day starts now.

The gentleman thinks they’re there to bring back his luggage. Tim enters the bedroom without Lucy. They tell Pete they are there just to interview him. He pulls out the bag he grabbed by mistake and shows Tim the ‘weird science equipment ‘inside. That he cut his finger on it looking for an address. Tim’s red flags are immediately up when he says this. Lucy can instantly tell something is up but Tim tells her to stay at bay. First instinct is always to protect her. Tim see’s the guys cut finger and alarm bells are going off for him. Lucy calls it in while she waits outside the bedroom for Tim.

The guy then coughs up blood on Tim. He freezes and looks the most panicked I've ever seen him. I LOVE how Eric can express so much with just a look. He's such a good actor I can not. After he collects himself a bit he hears Lucy coming to check on him and shuts the door instantly. Despite Lucy yelling ‘No!’ When he does.

Tim refuses to let her be around whatever this is even a second. Creating an immediate barrier to keep Lucy safe. He locks the door to keep her out there. Pete starts to freak out. Tim tells Pete that his partner has called an ambulance for them. Makes me happy while he’s trying to keep this guy calm he calls Lucy his ‘partner’ not his rookie but his partner. It’s the little things ❤️ Lucy is panicking like crazy on the other side of this door. She wants to be let in to help him. It’s killing her they’re separated right now.

Lucy is begging him to leave that guy in there and join her outside. Tim being the honorable man he is refuses to. Tells her they need to keep this as contained as possible. Lucy is panic stricken and wants to help him but is trapped outside. Tim is doing his best to keep her calm. The words he says I think are for them both. He just had blood spewed onto him. Tim is being as calm as one could be in that type of situation.

He’s the one in danger and his first thought is to put Lucy at ease. To try and keep her calm. To 'keep her head in the game' If she could see his face as he says these things...She would see how very not fine he is. The most rattled we’ve seen him the entire season. This moment and honestly this entire episode is definitely another huge crack in his wall with her. Letting that Lucy light seep in just a little bit more.

The CDC finally arrive and they set up a quarantine zone much to Lucy's dismay. She’s on the edge and wants to get Tim out of there ASAP. Can’t stand the idea of him sitting in there for an hour or more while they wait for the vaccine. Dr. Morgan asks him if she can put him to work while he’s in there. Tim says yes. Lucy tells him to please be careful while he’s in there. Such a worried wifey.

Tim uses his body cam to help them see inside the bag more. They figure out how they’re going to spread it through a mist fan. As Tim continues to search the bag they see Pete lifting a chair. Lucy freaks out and yells for Tim to watch out. All they see is him getting knocked out. Lucy is losing her mind outside not knowing what’s happening in that room. The absolute terror in her voice. My heart. How helpless she feels on the other side of that door.

Tim wakes up inches from the blood stain on the carpet rolling toward him. He’s able to get away from it and tases Pete. After that Tim gets him locked to the bed frame. All the while Lucy is losing it outside. Desperate to hear from him. Calling out his name multiple times. Begs Tim to answer her. She is out of her mind with worry. If she was allowed to break that door down she would.

Tim finally responds to Lucy tells her that he’s ok. She asks him if he’s really is. Because she knows him and how he tries to put a strong facade for her sake. Tim attempts to make a joke about it. His voice cracking a bit with worry. Trying to make jokes about this but his armor has been cracked. This a deflection right now more than anything else. His vulnerability coming out of him with her whether he likes it or not.

He can't hide anything from her and and Lucy picks up on his worry quickly. Knows he's attempting to mask how he is really feeling right now. She can hear it in his voice. From there she turns into ultra worried wife mode. She demands they get that damn vaccine here right now. She is losing her patience while he’s trapped in that room without her. Love me some assertive/worried Lucy.

I can't imagine what he is going through all by himself in that room. Poor Tim has to sit there and watch this guy die right in front of him. Can't help the man just has to sit there and watch him die. The look on his face ugh. The utter terror on his face. Lucy is already freaking out if she could see him…she would break down that damn door virus or not and drag him out of there.

Next begins the iconic wall separation scene. As I said earlier if you weren't shipping them before you sure as hell were after this moment. Lucy tells him she just checked with Dr Morgan. That the vaccine is minutes away. Tim instantly knows this is a lie to comfort him. Its here we see a chunk of his wall break off and hit the ground as he compliments her. Naturally she’s going to rib him about it (because she can't actually process when he does compliment her) but it's also to keep his head clear. Just like he's done for her so many times before.

The role reversal is so evident in this scene. Lucy is doing what he normally does for her. Trying to keep him calm by making jokes. Keeping it light. The smile on his face when she ask for it to be in writing is too precious. He needs Lucy and all her sunshine ways right now. He's holding onto to every word she is saying. She comforting/calming him just by being there for him.

This is such a huge moment of vulnerability for Tim. The biggest one of the entire season really. That bond they’ve built up to this point is result of that. Lucy tells him its going be ok that she truly believes that. Tim is so defeated at this point. He doesn't take much stock in her words. Eric and Melissa crush this scene. To have this good of a dynamic with a door between them. My goodness they're amazing. Like I said earlier Eric is incredible with how he conveys what he's feeling with a look. This scene has it in spades. Look at this poor man's face down below. Makes me wanna cry.

You can see his normal resolve is dissolving rapidly. Which is why Lucy is there to keep it intact. Tim looks like he’s on the verge of tears while she’s trying to comfort him. Lucy is trying to be his rock. Its why I think he is spilling his guts to her. He trusts her with his thoughts/feelings. Tim is being the most vulnerable he's ever been with her right now. Telling her everything. That if he ends up showing symptoms he’s not going to allow himself to die that way.

Gotta love Lucy trying to pick up the pieces and keep him together. Being as optimistic as she can while he is hopeless. For him to share such a dark thought is huge. That he would rather kill himself than die like that. He is emotionally exposing himself to her right now. In a way I’m sure he hasn’t since Isabel. This is a massive step for him entrusting her with his thoughts and emotions. Because right now Tim thinks this is it for him. If he's going out he wants to make sure she knows his plans.

Lucy is very aware what he is saying but is trying to talk him out if it. Desperately trying to keep his head level. She finally lets out a tear she's been holding the whole scene. He's considering killing himself and she can't do a damn thing about it. The stress of the situation finally getting to her when she sheds that tear. This is an iconic moment for them. Tim being so openly vulnerable with her and Lucy being there to receive it best way she can. Gah it’s all so good. This scene 'hurts so good' as they say. This moment is a milestone for them and their relationship. Where they go from just TO/Rookie to friends.

The vaccine finally arrives and Lucy tries to follow the doctor in. Dr. Morgan won’t let her since she is not protected. You can tell its killing her to have to stay back. That look they share between them when Dr. Morgan is checking him out. Phew lord. She says he dodged a bullet. The looks in this scene are so telling. These two have a masters in silent communication. That look of worry/panic on her face. She wants to run up and hug him. That clearly isn’t in the cards. So she just intently watches him. Lucy doesn’t take her eyes off him the entire time.

The way he stares back at her and lets her know it’s ok. I’m ok. Even the small smirk towards the end. They just went through something very emotional and intense together. Tim says so much with just a look for her. Yeah he dodged bullet and he did so because of Lucy. She didn't leave his side for a second. He recognizes this and conveys it in a look. Such an intimate moment for them with no words. God I love them.

Before this episode ends Let’s take a moment to enjoy Tim Bradford in a tight white T-shirt shall we? Mmm. Yum. The rest join Lucy and Tim at Pete's house. Having returned from taking down the other culprits. They’re all making jokes now that they know he’s ok. Saying how he’ll refuse to take the ambulance or wheelchair haha

As they’re making their jokes Tim walks to said ambulance. As he does he looks light headed and collapses. All jokes stop and they rush around him. Lucy being the first they hold her back. Thus ends s1 with a cliffhanger.

I think I watched this finale a disgusting amount of times haha I was so eager for s2 and more of Tim/Lucy. To see what happens to Tim in the premiere and all that.

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Side notes-Non chenford moments

Did love the Wopez in this ep they’re very cute. That’s about it haha very focused on the chenford goodies for this ep.

We made it through s1 woo amazing. Thank you all for the support I was given through our entire season. Your likes/comments/reblogs inspire me to do more. I shall see you all in s2 :)

#Caitlin rewatches The Rookie #chenford #chenford hiatus #summer rewatch #waiting on s6 #s1 #1x20 Freefall #the rookie #tim x lucy #tim bradford #lucy chen #lucy x tim #eric winter #melissa o'neil #otp: doing my job #tim bradford x lucy chen

[mobius-m-mobius]

Keep rotating a theoretical fic in my mind where our Mobius ends up with the two kids to raise, and introduces Loki to them. However. This is one of the universes where Loki attacked New York, and the boys very quickly realize who he is. They are understandably disconcerted by this (although they trust Mobius too much to be genuinely frightened because this is a very angst!lite fic in my head), and while they are soon awed/delighted/amused by Loki, they decide to keep up the act for a bit, on the Thor-ish child's side because he wants to make sure his Dad's not being overly nice and innocent and putting himself in danger, and the Loki-ish child for initially the same reason; however he very quickly decides Loki's alright but keeps egging his brother on because he thinks making the grownups sweat is very funny. And oh boy is it working. Loki is sweating bullets, puling out all the stops, has never been so desperate for approval as he is from these two small children because how long will Mobius keep around someone who scares his kids?? Mobius is having a less bad time on the whole; he can tell his kids aren't horribly frightened (even if he can't seem to make Loki believe he's not just trying to calm him when he says so), but he sure is on edge. Keeps coming up with new elaborate strategies to facilitate at least baseline civility from his kids towards Loki (he struggles to quiet the nagging fear that if it goes on too long Loki might decide the unpleasantness of engaging with this central part of Mobius' life just isn't worth it). Thinks maybe it'd be best if they give the kids a bit of distance to adjust *cue Loki materializing in the room with a gaming console that won't be out for another month and worryingly realistic wooden swords and three new kid-friendly magic routines and would the kids like to meet his brother's buddy Hogun who can train them with those sw—" Most importantly, Mobius has got to put a stop to this because he's pretty sure that whatever it started as this has developed into his children's scheme to manipulate a god into making them the proud owners of a sailboat and a horse. And it's working.

Anon thank you for giving me enough life to get through the upcoming day 😂💖

Honestly even though it's not something I see Mobius wanting in series I'm obsessed from a fic perspective with the thought of him stepping in to take care of the kids perhaps after Don gets taken by the TVA after his nexus event?? Then because he's always been smitten by minor facts like Loki taking over a major US city he doesn't really consider the impact that's had back on the timeline while it's always in the back of Loki's mind, so when it comes time to make introductions Loki assumes any nervousness or hesitation is because of his reputation when in reality Mobius is just worried they'll be upset he's been clearly dating this entire time and didn't say anything 😅

Cue Mobius being pleased the cautious greetings and wide eyed stares being passed back and forth are pretty much the best case scenario here while the kids instantly enter the exact situation you described of cautiously then much, much more boldly testing exactly how dedicated Loki is to their dad, first out of concern then just to push the boundaries of how much cool stuff they can get after realizing how amazing Loki is and how much they like spending time with someone who gets the need for chaos lmao.

(Cue Mobius not being so pleased when the house starts magically expanding like a Tardis to fit increasingly large and at times alarming sentient objects that were definitely not there when he made breakfast and no one's convincing him otherwise but who would want life any other way 🤣)

#this is so so GOOD thank you again for such an amazing ask!!! #all this time we're waiting for them to come back they're co-parenting in cleveland and everything's grand i just know it #i'm not even a kid person myself but lokius at pta meetings and stuff is revitalizing me like nothing i could've dreamed of 😂 #will definitely be living in the amazing scenario you created all day and would love to know if the fic ever becomes reality #or about any other ideas you'd love to share!! tysm for sharing and am sending all the love your way to have an amazing day 💖 #ask

[aesteraceae]

Strawberries

Tags under the cut!

Tags: Chan/fem!reader, sub Chan (who's surprised?), blood play, masochism, vampires, overstimulation, multiple orgasms, like SLIGHTLY dubious consent due to aphrodisiac venom & under-negotiation but it's really fine, ownership

Summary: In which Chan becomes a blood slave. That's really it.

This wasn't exactly how Chan expected this night to go, but he's not at all complaining.

Taglist: @sunnyville36 @snow-pegasus

Inspired by this thing I wrote a little while ago bc I was horny about Chan's neck lmao

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He sits at a bar, his red bracelet on full display as he nurses a glass of something brown and smoky.

The club is dim, low jazzy music playing in the background of hundreds of conversations. It may seem like any normal club, but that couldn't be farther from the truth.

Because most of the conversations happening in the room were different versions of, "Can I feed from you tonight?" And "Your place or mine?"

Vampires.

Chan could pick them out of a crowd easily now, their silky hair, piercing eyes, immaculate posture. Compared to the humans, they stuck out like sore thumbs, only blending in enough to fool the untrained eye.

Then again, maybe chan's opinion was biased. After all, most people who come here haven't been a blood donor since they were 18.

It started by accident, really.

Chan was a curious teenager, too curious for his own good, so when he heard pained noises from an alleyway he went to investigate.

He found a vampire, short and sallow, looking starved as they moaned in the far corner.

Ever the helper, he offered to call an ambulance, something, but they kept saying no. Chan put it together pretty quickly; despite their emaciated look they still had the intense eyes of a vampire, poised for hunting.

His decision to crane his neck to the side and say "Drink from me." was mainly fueled by his exhaustion, but even tired beyond belief he wasn't an idiot. He'd learned about vampires like everyone else did, he's seen them in classes, worked with them, all of it.

So he knows he'll be fine, that worst case scenario he'll pass out in the alley and at the time that didn't seem like a bad deal.

Predictably enough, that's exactly what happened. The vampire, a boy Chan later found out was named Felix, drank their fill and panicked upon seeing that it knocked Chan out cold.

They carried him to their home and let him rest there, and from then on Chan was hooked.

He missed out on some of the high by falling asleep, but even days later he felt rejuvenated, energized, even giddy off of the feeling. He researched and found that it was from the venom vampires inject in their meals— it often had high-inducing effects in humans, though the specifics differed widely from vampire to vampire.

Felix's particular venom was like a triple shot of espresso, pumped directly into his veins.

Even now, 8 years later, with Felix as his best friend, he still asks to be fed from when he has a particularly long night ahead of him.

Felix introduced him to this club a few years back, encouraging him to make more friends, and though it took some getting used to Chan quickly became a regular.

Today, though, he's not really feeling it.

Usually he gets a little buzzed just from the energy of the place, the eyes he knows are following his every move, but not today.

Today, all of his attention is on you.

You're chatting with the bartender a few seats away, hair up in an intricate style and eyes rimmed with dark eyeliner, making them look even sharper, if it was possible.

The bartender is another vampire, but Chan wouldn't be surprised if he tried to take you home after his shift. You're leaning across the bar, cleavage showing beautifully and almost spilling out of the wine red dress covering them.

Chan is interested. He's so beyond interested, borderline infatuated, and he literally swoons when you flash your fangs at the man, perfectly white and long.

Chan loved longer fangs, he could always feel the sting for longer and that meant a longer high.

"I'm here to find something to eat, but sadly I haven't had much catch my eye."

The bartender makes a sympathetic noise and hands you another glass of whiskey, which you down in just a few swallows.

Chan's head actually swims with how hot the sight is, and he figures he should probably say something before he passes out.

"Unfortunate odds, really. Not a single person in here interests you?"

Chan flinches when your eyes, so intense and dark, settle on him, but your low laugh is enough to ease the embarrassment.

"Hmm... Now that I get a good look at you, I think I've changed my mind."

You slide down to the seat beside him and the bartender gives Chan a dirty look, but he's too preoccupied with your eyes to notice.

He's left bereft, though, when you close them.

"Sorry, I don't want to seduce you too quickly."

And sure enough, the melty feeling in chan's chest is gone, or at least dimmed.

"Oh. Is that a normal thing?"

You shrug. "It's just a me thing, I think. Seduction, lust, the works. It's why it's so difficult to find food these days, I try not to make people too attached but that's hard when your venom is based on binding people to you with sex."

If Chan didn't think he'd look like a complete idiot, he'd wave his hand in the air like an overeager 1st grader.

"Well, that's not a problem for everyone. Certainly not one for me."

Your eyes open, slow, and Chan lets out a breath as the heat settles over him again, warm and disorienting.

"Is that so?"

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Chan adopted a policy to never go to someone else's house for these little visits a long time ago, after a few cose calls that ended with Felix essentially putting him on house arrest.

Luckily you're fine with it, and Felix is rarely ever home at night.

Chan is shaking too hard to get the key in the lock, so you smoothly guide it out of his hands and open the door for him.

It's a tiny gesture, but it makes Chan's insides burn up.

"So... Should we... Um... Get started? Maybe?"

You laugh at him, somehow both mocking and fond, like watching a pet run into a wall.

"How about this, honey? You just sit down and get comfortable, and I take what I need."

Chan's nodding before he even recognizes the words, climbing onto the bed and settling against the pillows.

"Such a pretty thing. I bet your blood tastes lovely."

You climb on top of him, pressing featherlight kisses to his neck and cheeks.

"I've been told- ah- it tastes like fruit."

"Oh really?" You nip at his neck, that same familiar spot vampires always know how to find, not breaking the skin but making Chan wish you would.

"Please," he whispers, back already arching. It's heady, the energy in the room, your eyes pressing past his skin and into his very soul, dragging out his arousal like warm taffy.

"How can I say no when you beg so pretty?"

Chan barely gets a breath before you're digging your fangs into him, and he blacks out for a second.

It's always a lot, the mixture of pain and pleasure, but this is unlike anything Chan has ever experienced.

If your gaze made him hot, your bite turned him into molten lava, burning through his bloodstream and leaving nothing but pleasure in it's wake.

It feels like an orgasm, but drawn out and aching, until Chan can't help but scream.

When you finally pull away, pearly white fangs now stained red, the predatory look in your eyes is enough to make Chan actually cum, shouting and bucking up against nothing.

He starts to thrash, overwhelmed with the intensity of the venom. It's thick, he can feel it sliding through his veins and it's maddening, replacing all his coherent thoughts with "yes yes yes fuck me fuck me now please".

"Strawberries." You hiss, words slurring a bit, sharp nails reaching down to hold his thighs still.

"I'm going to fuck you up." You whisper, ripping straight through chan's jeans and boxers.

Chan's exposed, and in any other situation he'd be embarrassed but all he can focus on is the steady heat of the venom, travelling across his shoulders and chest.

"Please," He sobs, shaking, already overstimulated and you've barely even touched him.

"Shh, I'll take care of you."

Your voice is deeper, predatory, like knives gliding across Chan's skin, and he can't help but arch up into the sound.

You don't get to do much more than touch the tip of his cock before Chan's cumming again, legs scrambling for purchase on the bed and breath hiccuping.

He's sobbing, but his hips are pressing up into your hand, desperate for more stimulation.

Chan can't breathe, can't think, can't cum without your touch, without your eyes all over him, both violent and loving at the same time.

You stare up at him as you take his cock into your mouth, fangs scraping across the sides, and Chan actually blacks out for a bit.

When he comes to, you're toying with his ass, pressing a finger in and out, resting your head on your palm as if you were just watching TV, instead of pulling Chan apart like taffy.

"I can't," Chan sobs, because he can feel his vision getting spotty. How long has it been? It didn't feel like long at all, but all Chan's perceptions have been zeroed into you. His only metric of time is the pulsing of your bite, and Chan honestly doesn't want to pay attention to anything else.

"You can, baby. Just one more."

You slide in another finger and Chan cums, ripping a hole in the sheets and yowling, definitely waking up his neighbors, but you smile at him, pleased, and Chan physically can't bring himself to care about anyone other than you.

You pull away from him, just staring down at his spent body, and Chan only catches a few words before he's drifting asleep.

"You're all mine, now."

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When Chan wakes up, he's still in your arms.

The room is airy and smells like citrus, and normally Chan would get up by now but he can't think of a good reason to, not when you're kissing his jaw like that.

"Good morning, pet."

Chan shudders at the pet name and memories of last night flood in, heat and need and infatuation.

"Good morning."

He stretches out across the bed and smiles over at you, reaching up to trace the swollen bite mark.

"How does it feel to be claimed, little one?"

Chan leans over and presses his lips to yours, slotting his body right up against you and settling in.

"Perfect."

#dahlia writes #stray kids #bang chan #skz chan #sub!skz #skz chan x reader #stray kids smut #writing #sub!chan #sub chan

[multi-kpop-fanfics]

The drink is on me (I want your body on me too)

pairing: bartender!Chan x fem!reader

genre: fluff, suggestive, angst if you squint hard enough

warnings: strangers to lovers(?), alcohol consumption (just for the fun, nobody is tipsy), implications of sexual activities

summary: you find yourself in a bar during New Year's Eve, single as fuck. But would you look at that, the hot bartender in front of you is single too.

Author's note: I don't know how this exactly manifested but here we are lmao. A big thank you to @flowerwonu and @bitchlessdino for giving me the necessary push to not drop this idea😩 with possibly a part two​

Your eyes scan the space around you, noticing the awkwardly hanging garlands, colorful lights and the semi-drunk people dancing around, mindlessly waiting for the countdown to begin.

And you're sitting on the barstool, your finger dancing around the edge of your glass, the blood moon cocktail resting in it.

Not a very slayful main protagonist moment of you, to be honest.

"Cheers to me, I guess", you sigh and raise your glass in the air, downing the alcoholic remnants in one go, setting the now empty glass down on the marble counter.

"For a New Year's eve party, you don't look very happy and jolly".

The source of the voice attracts your attention and you raise your head, your eyes widening at the very much pleasant sight in front of you.

You can only see the torso of the bartender, but the white collared shirt, along with the straps around his shoulders and the undone bowtie is enough to show that he's broad as fuck.

And don't even start about his face, God.

"Um, hello? Do I reach you?", he speaks again and you shake your head lightly, snapping yourself out of whatever trance you were put in.

"Y-Yeah, I'm good", you stutter, "Just...weird thoughts". "Weird thoughts or did the cocktail hit you right in the head?", he jokes, cleaning a glass with a towel. "There's two scenarios: One, that your cocktail isn't of good quality and two, that your bartending skills aren't the best", you retort and the man scoffs, letting out a low laugh.

"Or three, your alcohol tolerance is childishly low", he looks straight in your eyes, "But you don't seem to feel dizzy, so I guess it's not the case", he adds, setting the glass down and the towel, "So, what's the real reason?".

"I broke up two weeks ago", you start talking, "I had no intention of getting here today, some of my friends dragged me because according to them, I 'needed an outlet' after what happened", you keep talking, all while the bartender's hands are busy mixing another cocktail.

"Are you even listening to me?", you ask him, but he doesn't reply - he just puts another blood moon cocktail in front of you, a grin plastered on his face.

"Conversations like those need two things to continue: alcohol and a faithful listener", he leans over the counter, rolled up sleeves revealing his toned forearms, "and I can give you both", he grins, making your stern facade break into a grin as well.

You reach for your purse to fish out a couple of bucks to pay for the drink, but his hand softly rests on your wrist to stop you. "The drink is on me, beautiful", "Is that what you tell to all the single girls you're serving?", "Only the ones who look like they could murder people on the spot during a New Year's eve party", he adds and the both of you share a hearty laugh, lightening the atmosphere.

He pours himself a drink, carefully listening to your story, some details similar to his own case, although he has been single for a longer time than you. The moments pass in a blur, far more interesting and....fun than you thought they would be - maybe this party isn’t as terrible as you made it out in your head.

“The countdown is starting!”, you hear the dj yell through the microphone and people start swarming towards the deck, getting ready for the big moment, the end of the year and the beginning of the new one nearing close.

Ten.

“Aren’t you going to join them?”, he asks, “Nah, too many people gathered in one spot”, you laugh.

Nine.

“Besides....”

Eight.

“I’m having more fun here with you”.

Seven.

“Hmm, is that so”, he leans over the counter, eyes studying your face.

Six. Five. Four.

“Are you having second thoughts?”, you raise your eyebrow teasingly and he smirks.

Three. Two. One.

As soon as the crowd screams “Happy New Year!”, his lips are on yours, slowly moving against each other, his hand cupping your cheek. Your eyes shoot up in surprise, but the butterflies dancing in your stomach and the fast beating of your heart coax you into enjoying the moment, blocking out any other source of sound from your environment.

The bartender pulls away, taking into your flustered state as you sit frozen on the bar stool.

“You-”, “Too soon?”, “Y-You literally kissed a stranger”, you stutter. 

“Chan. My name is Chan”, the bartender finally introduces himself, “Your turn now”.

“I’m Y/N”, you reply, “Pretty name for a pretty girl”, he grins. “It’s not the only pretty thing about me”, you smirk and Chan raises his eyebrow playfully, his finger playing with his bottom lip.

“Is that an invitation?”, “Depends on whether you have to work all night”, “I get off in fifteen”, “Your house or mine?”, “I’d say the hotel across the street because both of us have had a drink”, “But I’m not drunk!”, “I don’t wanna risk it either way. Plus, they serve nice breakfast there”, “How would you know that, Chan?”, “A friend of mine works in the reception, he’ll give us a wonderful room”.

You take a few seconds to consider Chan’s proposal, but to be completely honest, you were sure about him since he bought you that second cocktail.

“Hope you’ll live up to your words, mister hot-shit bartender”.

#svthub #dino fluff #dino suggestive #chan fluff #chan suggestive #svt dino #lee chan #svt fluff #svt suggestive #seventeen fluff #seventeen suggestive #seventeen

[krysmcscience]

Get ready for Amogus Spam!!!

Characters belong to @crinklytinfoil - I just came up with the designs and outfits~ All appearance details are taken directly from either the fics themselves (which, as always, approach with caution and MIND THE TAGS) or the comments sections of said fics, though I have also relentlessly poked Crinkle IRL for additional details, such as each character's name and individual fashion sense...or lack thereof (Finnegan) XD

(If you want to read the fics, keep in mind that you will need to be signed in to an Ao3 account first! And again - MIND THE TAGS! Shit gets dark FAST.)

The Skeld bois! The fucked up crew that started it all~ Only like five actual decent human beings on this crew, and all but one of them fukken DIED, lmao. (Congrats on surviving, Devon, you used to be Kind Of An Asshole but you got better. XD) Clark is such an Obvious Dad - it's why he had to die first, he was the only thing keeping shit together, True Facts, sorry you had to find out this way. <:/ Adam is so Fishing, I bet he fantasizes about having a trout boyfriend girlfriend in his spare time. :) Brown is Babby (stabby-babby), but we all knew that already. And then there's wannabe High Class Fuckboi Purple and his emo "boyfriend", yaaaay, can't wait to find out how Purple dies or anything like that, noooo... All that aside, White's outfit makes me want to die inside, why would anyone want to mix hippie and ouji lolita aesthetics??? White, please, no, even your fashion sense is torturous! D:>

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Corpatch babbies! Everyone on this crew is certified Babby. (Yes, even you, Skylar. Sorry I had to separate you from Pink in the final image, it was too wide and I hated it, please I'm sorry, put the wrench away-) Love that I got to mostly copy-pasta Devon, made my life so much easier after the artistic nightmare that was Stacy's outfit. Fun Fact: That dress is one of over a hundred jellyfish-themed lolita dresses I've designed! This one has a box jellyfish on it, along with other pretty deadly sea creatures, and is called 'Killer Cuties'~ Wilhelm gets to have some matchies with his platonic girlfriend as a treat, also (Fun Fact: he absolutely wears those novelty glasses to Serious Events). Skye's outfit upsets me personally but it's not as bad as fucking Finnegan's so they get a pass. Pink is, of course, The Best One, and let it be known that the little leaf pin is a reference to Bay~

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Doncaster folks! Such a long image...I blame Vance. Because I always blame things on Vance for some reason. It's just fun, okay? And also I'm bitter about how long it took to draw his damn Bobblehead mech. Him and Aurora both took what felt like a million years to finish, so now Vance has given me additional Drawing Wires trauma, and Aurora somehow seems Too Expensive for me to afford looking at her. Obviously the best part of all of this was everyone's favorite polycule of Brown, Green, and Red (I dare you to suggest they are not Precious), but I also enjoyed trying to come up with an outfit for Umber that screamed 'I think I'm the main character'. XD (If anyone can guess what's supposed to be on Black's shirt, meanwhile, they get a Gold Star!)

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And, as a bonus, a goofy scribble comic of the Doncaster AU, which I threw at Crinkle after initially requesting (read: attempting to commission) a What If Scenario where Brown never got brought along with White to the Corpatch, and so never met Pink, thus ensuring Brown remained Terrified of impostors. Because my brain wouldn't stop going hog wild over the concept for some reason. 8|

Finally, a WIP of the Parmenides bastards- uh, I mean, Totally Normal Crew of Fine Individuals who are Not At All Terrible. (Apologies to Danni, Marek, and Ashley for getting mixed up in all this, y'all deserved better.) Bet no one was expecting Johnny to be a certified Gamer Catboi, huh? But I bet everyone was expecting Kyle to look like a Born Republican, and possibly Mitch McConnell's estranged half-brother - cuz that's just how the guy is. So Delightful. Also I was totally not salty about having to look at Purple's stupid smug face again while modifying the copypasta of it, No Sir, why would that ever be the case? He's just so great and not the most hateable character ever or anything. (eyerolling intensifies) In other news, Kage's head is way too small and it's driving me crazy but I'll have to fix it later for the finished full-body chibi+bust piece and I'm D Y I N G. Anyway, no icon spoilers for this one - the fic itself is meant to make the readers wonder who the impostors are, so I'm not going to reveal anything on that front.

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THAT IS ALL

#art #among us #not my characters #my designs tho #i did my best and i have learned new things #like that older people are Hard To Draw XD #i am working on original stuff too i swear #original stuff that is heavily inspired by among us - true - but original stuff nonetheless

[alienssstufff]

(rambling brick of text inbound) Zombie apocalypse anon back again! Just wanna say first off that was the nicest answer I could've asked for lmao. I totally agree that in general the flaws in the genre are a case of missed potential and shallow writing; in fact that can apply to most mainstream dystopian stories imo. (TLOU and many Miyazaki films are strong exceptions to this rule ofc)

For me, the biggest draw of the dystopia/apocalypse genre has always been the human aspect---how humans as *individuals* cope with the worst-case scenarios, how they work together to survive, how they thrive in spite of their situation. Too many stories paint an incredibly pessimistic picture of the apocalypse, for example assuming that people would turn on each other and lose their collective moral compass. I think the opposite is true personally, and more stories should be about the indomitable human spirit (or whatever lol)

Having said that---you also make a great point about the more scientific/worldbuilding potential in zombie (and similar) apocalypses. From a writer's pov, it's so fun to think about HOW these things work and building the scariest possible monster/disease/etc xD And it makes the story so much more immersive!!! I'm glad you brought up the Rat King from tlou2 because holyyyy buckets that thing scared the heck out of me but in the *best* way lmao.

Also thanks for the movie/anime recs! Always hunting for more quality content like this :D

I'm glad you had fun with my question :3 Next time pls get some sleep tho haha /lh

[and rambling wall of text be upon yee] YES YESSS!!! Good apocalypse (&dystopia stories) so freaking difficult to find I usually don’t indulge in them as much cuz of it -w- exceptions that it’s synopsis is unique enough or the thing is written just too good to pass up

I totally agree with you with humanity being the genre’s biggest draw-in, honestly surprised how little of it is in mainstream. And that’s such an interesting take on the apocalypse - bringing out the strongest qualities in people and strengthening the bonds between others even in the worst of situations ,,, I like that :] I’ll keep that in mind when I write. and to vouch more for Gakkou Gurashi without spoiling anything it does a good job being an example of it done right(?)

--Admittedly tho the negative aspect of humanity is also my draw to apocalypse scenarios, seeing how messed up something so despairing can change a person for survival but at the same time too much of it or it written in the wrong way can get jarring very quickly. I like how the weight of one’s principles and emotional baggage extremifies (?) when going into the apocalypse and how it could greatly influence their actions and motives later down the line -  good or bad. Survival and all that..

And likewise! Zombie Apocalypse Anon I trust your judgement and open to media recs from you too :]c

I had so much fun with your question I love talking about stuff like this :3

#ask stufff #stufff rambles #IM SO SORRY APOCALYPSE ANON THIS TOOK SO LONG >< this ask has been in my drafts I wanted to give a proper well thought response uu #also update: by the time ur reading this i fixed my glasses (AND am writing this at a normal time of day)

[dragongirlafro]

so pokémon day is less than a month away! i originally wasn't gonna do any predictions but i got an idea for a potential game concept that's taken over my brain. before that tho lemme just cover all my bases

best case scenario: no game release this year!!! let these devs fucking rest!!!!! (it's not gonna happen 😞)

most likely scenario imho: beat for beat rerun of late 2021/early 22. faithful gen 5 remake by ILCA even tho no one on the planet wants that, while game freak does another experimental open world title set in the same region. because as much as fans like to think TPC listens to them, they'll listen to the tune of 15 million BDSP copies sold first LMAO

what pokemon fans want to happen: B&W remakes developed in-house by game freak and also a Legends style Unova prequel AND ALSO johto games. most unlikely outcome (i'm not discounting the possibility of a johto remake/rerelease but the more I think about it the harder it gets for me to see them doing one anytime soon)

idea that i just got last night that i kind of want now: Legends Unova dual release. one game set in the distant past, the other in the distant future. fits perfectly with both Black and White's original motifs and continuing ScarVio's main themes. the games would have completely different pokédexes, characters, locations and even perhaps different plotlines that branch out more than any other game since like, gen 3. trading between versions would still work yadda yadda yadda you get the picture i'm not the dev here. only downside to this would be, seeing as it would be the biggest difference in pokémon versions to date, there'd be more of an argument for having to buy both versions to experience the other sides of the story (which, in all fairness, is really just more incentive for game freak to pull a move like this lol)

ok i spent more time on this than i was expecting ajdjjssjs uhhh long story short i think the ILCA remake is disappointingly inevitable but i would be hyped if my personal pipe dream came to pass (albeit a bit more scared for my wallet than usual😭)

#vi posts #sorry johto fans for pushing that game idea under the rug a lil sajdjsjsj.... i know it's the 25th anniversary so I GUESS there's a chance #truthfully johto is one of my least favorite regions and i really don't see how they could make any changes to it that would satisfy me #aside from like. expand the pokédex by 500% to include hoenn to paldea mons lmfaooo

[thespiral]

👾👾👾

triple decker comin right up

FRESNO: Golden Age of Leather + Everything Louder Than Everything Else

WOOOOOOOO a good twofer. let's get into it baby i love these two. these are all a lot more. scatterbrained cus i took a lunch break but like. i got. insights. into it.

using google cus the genius page was vandalized but!

the Nature of Hell on Wheels, something about sealing your fate as an 80s forever, how Hellmouth is essentially running out of time to bring back this sort of Fated golden age of raiding from a time he has actually never experienced and is just chasing ghosts.

this specific scenario makes me think of the legion war machine finally catching up the 80s and Hellmouth prefers to die and take everyone with him. except for one.

just the sort of ritualism and exclusivity of their own little fringe group leading to the death of them all sans Fresno, that Hellmouth prefers to go down as an 80 but bars Fresno from that sort of escape. you know. their best years have passed them by and they're going to be this, forever, so

and in reaction to incoming danger it just becomes this sort of last blast, last Raid and last battle, where all of these guys essentially fight to the death out in the desert and. well, Fresno is a young one, little guy, even. they don't know anything about it. they don't know anything about this golden age other than to bring it back and it'll be wonderful and the others were there [presumably], so fed like a ton of lies and then excluded when their use ran out. lmao

because i love love love my little band shoutouts i also call Hell on Wheels the red and the black because. hehe, blue oyster cult. but i just like imagine this sort of wild catharsis release for them, even if they were "invited" to the celebration, they'll be the outcast of it all. a reverse revenant, if you will.

in my head it comes down to like this sorta duel with blindfolds and just a giant free for all where all their hurt and anger and aggression distills down to this one giant free for all. andddd.

circumstances shift, this isn't fresno's time yet and even though they made a bow they're the only one without their blindfold on maybe. they want to go down valiantly. but. it leaves them alone, the others leave, and in their own beliefs, depart to greatness, and leave Fresno in the sun with their only evidence of them existing being. themself

could you imagine going to what is p much a ritual suicide and even being excluded from that. insane.

everything louder than everything else in comparison is more of a. rebellious one, even though Fresno is a very very contradicting person, i think there's still that grain of them being very rebellious but not in the way people Like. their rebellion is more care-oriented before that got squished down and you know being outside the System that. is ironically also outside the system

i think hellmouth definitely thinks they're a "wasted youth" since they spent their time trying to be flexible than just live and die in their assigned Hole

music baby! music is just soooo vital to Fresno i think. and just the idea of finding this venue of freedom in being louder than everything else, louder than the influences they have, and they aren't bound of power or health or glory or wealth, they are uncontrollable, and to some, dangerous

i think a lot about the fact that Fresno spent their developing years in the wings of an extremist movement that left them like, pretty stunted in emotional. everything and THEN thrown into prison for almost a decade. like yeah. some would think they are a case of arrested development

honestly. with how everyone they have have a different metric of "wise and productive" they would want to have a "wasted" youth, they don't want to be a heir or another warrior or whatever, if that's what being productive is, then wasted they will be

ANDDDD final whammy. a relationship one. smiles

VAF: Big Love - Fleetwood Mac

unironically "oh i'll build you a kingdom in that house on the hill" has spun like fifty billion things in my brain when i heard it. but something about like looking OUT for love, not for it, love as a dangerous tool and the words being honeyed promises. ough. ough

i like the idea of falling in his own trap a little bit. smile

Fresno course. the bitter resolution. i wake up only to fall, only to be tricked. it's such a brief song but it's so good.

#zakryah #fresno #vaf #hi jack

[kradogsrats]

Lissa leaving is so “a doll’s house” coded to me, like i think lissa leaving her family in order to become her own person is a very ✨thematically ✨ interesting move in a story that is so focused on sacrifice (ESPECIALLY FOR WOMEN)

lmao daaaaaang everyone coming at me with classy media references I'm not familiar with this weekend... *one SparkNotes visit later* yeah I can see it

I've considered a lot of possibilities for the circumstances of Lissa leaving, and kind of favor one over the other depending on my mood, but like... I think the real things that people are generally reacting to negatively are a) why did she go so far that she completely disappeared from her children's life, and b) why did she leave them behind (with Viren, father of the year: literally never)?

Which is just... we know that Viren was once a loving father, at least as far as Callum was able to see. Does his observation necessarily mean a ton? Maybe not. But I don't think Lissa would have left Soren and Claudia behind if she knew how Viren would become. She wasn't leaving because she thought he was a danger to the children, though I don't think the two of them were likely treating each other very well at the end—she had probably, by that point, experienced some of his petty and vindictive streak, at least.

But I think a lot is wrapped up in why she goes all the way to Del Bar. Now, technically I don't think it says anywhere that Lissa herself is from Del Bar and therefore a foreigner in Katolis, but we kind of all operate on that assumption, and even if she was native to Katolis a lot of this would still apply. She's going through a somewhat-acrimonious separation from a man who is a) a powerful mage, and b) literally the king's best friend. She's not a citizen of Katolis, assuming such a thing grants any privileges at all, but even if it doesn't... there's an imbalance of power there that is not in her favor. I mean, say she wants to take Soren and Claudia, and Viren won't let her. Or Viren says he'll let her, then changes his mind and sends guards to her house saying she's kidnapped them. What's she going to do, throw herself on Harrow's mercy? Harrow, Viren's lifelong best friend? I mean, don't tell me you think this setting has a fully fleshed-out impartial family court system. She may never feel safe or free in Katolis again. Like, with Viren's level of power, he could make her life absolute hell if he wanted to.

And then, like I said... he's a powerful mage. It's not clear even to us as viewers exactly what Viren did to save Soren that was so awful, much less whether Lissa is aware of it, but if she is? He's literally capable of making her disappear. And if it's something even Harrow would find reprehensible? Well, best case scenario is they have a kind of Ozai/Ursa standoff where she has the power to utterly destroy her, while she has the insurance of information that could ruin him, and the solution is "leave the country, or I'll kill you... also I'm keeping the kids, never contact them again."

(I'll roll my eyes a little if it's that, because... way to repeat yourselves, guys. I get that Claudia is your second chance at getting Azula right, but sheesh.)

And like... maybe there's an AU in there where Lissa picks up her kids and makes a run for the border (which, I will note, the land border between Katolis and Del Bar is small, meaning easily to shut down and search everyone passing through, and sea ports for going by way of Evenere even more so) and Viren loses his entire goddamn mind. IDEK.

Or, I mean, maybe she's just horrible. There are plenty of absolute shit-ass parents who abandon their children for no real reason out there. I'm just less interested in that than I am in decent people who did everything they could only for it to never be enough.

#lissa #au where lissa flees to the OTHER border and winds up raising soren and claudia in the hollow wood with the chill elves #/smacks hand NO BAD STOP NO MORE AUS #... anyway yeah i'm not very well read bc part of my gifted kid burnout was 'i'm never reading anything more advanced than YA again'

[linaselandbasil]

Genetic analysis of Valka, oc of @lunii12

Valka is the child of Valkyon and "Erika", except "Erika" has blue eyes. She is tall as heck, has- you know what heres the drawing i made today I'm not doing more work than I need to.

Fuck, I actually need to list the traits though.

Valka:

Amber eyes-Dominant

medium skin-Codominant

brown hair-dominant

tall-dominant

Valkyon:

Amber eyes-Dominant over blue, recessive under brown

medium skin-Codominant

silver hair-read this lmao

tall-dominant

"Erika":

blue eyes-recessive

light skin-recessive

brown hair-dominant

short-recessive

So, if Valkyon, renown feral whore and "Erika", woman the size of a womens pocket did the nasty, their offspring would be as seen below. Valkyon is top row, "Erika" is left column.

I made this thing on ms paint without a mouse, if I hear one fucking word, ONE SYLLABLE of complaint, I'm jumping off a cliff and I'm taking whoever it was with me Dugovics Titus style.

Eye colour:

Amber-A/Blue-a

Valkyon has a blue eye allele. I know this because Lance has blue eyes and that means that their father had to have at least one to pass onto them. That makes it so that every child of him and Tia has at least one blue eye allele and at most one amber eye allele.

The children of "Erika" and Valkyon have the same eye genetics as Valkyon's parents: Mother aa, Father Aa. How adorable. There is a 50% chance for amber eyes and 50% for blue.

I could go on a tangent about how Valkyon can technically have green eyes but I'm not going to, because i already have.

If I do go in a rant about the green eyes he deserves (GREEN IS THE BEST COLOUR AND HES A GOOD MAN WHO DESERVES THE BEST OF EVERYTHING) I would come to the conclusion that the offspring have 25% chance of having grey eyes, 25% chance of having blue eyes, 25% chance of having green eyes and 25% chance of having amber eyes.

In all scenarios it is possible for Valka to have amber eyes, good job councilor Lunii.

Skin: very very simplified

dark-A/light-a

The offspring would have a 50% chance of being tan and 50% chance of being pale. This is not an accurate portrayal of how skintone genetics actually work, there's like 10 different genes that all work together to determine skintone and I'm not going to pretend I know anything about it.

Good job Lunii, Valka could indeed have tan skin just like her absent father.

Hair: it says haj because that's how you say hair in hungarian and i can't just say no to saving myself the effort of not writing a letter.

brown-A2 or A/Silver-A1/blond-a. On the second one silver is a

If silver hair is dominant: 25% of offspring has silver hair, 25% has ashen brown hair, 25% has blond hair and 25% has chestnut brown hair. I gave a blond allele to both parents in this case.

If silver hair is recessive and the mother is a homozyigote: All offsprings have brown hair.

I guess good job Lunii, this checks out too.

Height:

I don't even know where to begin with this one. I did some research into it but any data i would need to understand it better is behind a paywall. All I can say for certain is that tall is dominant and short is recessive.

I have concluded that Tia is short, so she has two pairs of the short allele and therefore her offspring each have at least one short allele. Valkyon's father was described as tall, so he could have had a recessive short gene, but it was overwritten by his dominant tall genes.

If Valkyon was a homozygote, his offspring with "Erika" would have a 100% chance of being tall.

If Valkyon was a heterozygote, his offspring with "Erika" would have a 50% chance of being tall and a 50% chance of being short.

Potential height is determined by genetics, but actual height is the result of good nutrition during development.

I guess good job Lunii, i can't disprove that Valka can actually be nearly 2 meters tall.

That's about it! Hope everyone had fun reading it!

@dragons-nest-black-dragon would you look at that, another genetic analysis to give to the Russians! Yes I'm still working on the dragon dimorphism one.

@losyashkakus, my other Russian. I summon you as well.

#eldarya #valkyon #valka #genetics #i an a man of science #eldarya erika #eldarya oc #genetic analysis

[prideraiised]

RULES FOR MOBILE

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[unproduciblesmackdown]

thanks to doing a few rounds of akinator for winston billions at like 5am last night & the 80th question in one round being abt if your character is in love with someone, i turned to look at the camera like “no,” b/c idk whatever News winston knows of in the finale ep involves rian & while he could be keeping a more personal reaction to himself certainly, we aren’t informed about it, and it’s also a case of like, the material really not trying to touch on him Still crushing on her, such as that he may not actually be doing so, & such as that [who knows why they put that in in the first place if it didn’t matter at all] 

but like also then just moving back an episode at a time it’s like well episode eleven sure he doesn’t need to have like courtlily pledged himself to rian but it’s pretty bold to just hop up & go get laid w/a stranger b/c while your would’ve been Crush is drawing other ppl’s attention by singing, you’re looking elsewhere like oh hello =) & that goes for episode ten as well like really Something like here we are at this party & everyone desires rian carnally, Except winston apparently does not lmao, that point would’ve made a world of sense if they Had actually been the ones peacing out to find some narrative consistency, but ig like the hell with that, it’s nihilism no narrative times, in fact rian gets to stop being A Character X’D but anyways folks lol like winston’s really just like “hi gamers, remember how we were talking about my interest lately” (& everyone goes “die” about it like sorry guy) when it might otherwise be prime time to try to stick to rian or at least have a moment like the 5x05 soiree & make a vague pass about something. but it’s taylor’s turn for that, for some reason, why is what all they have happen after 6x08 even like, Conducive to their dynamic resolving to a better place much less apparently required for it lmfao; is this particular step of it just about taylor’s sort of own limitations in navigating their own life lol like happiness?? well i can only maybe get that through dating someone & i can only get That through work, maybe time to see if any positive feelings towards rian could be romantic interest, that’s my best shot....wherein at this point maybe winston sure can’t be hanging off of rian’s arm this evening b/c he has to be out of the way so Taylor & Rian Time can take precedence, which is possibly true re: the next two episodes / the last two episodes of the season lol, is he standing w/trading floor guys in the finale b/c they’re besties now or b/c rian needs to be separate b/c it’s more Taylor & Rian time, not goofing around ft winston’s involvement. But it can also be true that he’s more established as buddies w/tuk at least. like how yeah he may be pushed out of the way all three eps but he may also be more Over rian, bopping up at the party like what’s up? wanting me to die? oh okay bye. then next episode he’s arms out, going off & hooking up w/someone, still sitting & talking w/rian but she takes the opportunity to insult him & there’s no effort to remind us of the quant duo in the finale, just whatever taylor & rian have going on (being the only members of tmc) like both watsonian & doylean exclusion of winston lol

but also taking it back to episode four like, that felt to me like the clearest instance of like “btw remember winston Likes her” but even then it was like “Or Maybe he does simply really wanna hang out & be friends” and that could be the case lol like they sure are tantalizingly close to friendship for much of all this, and they Do go hang out outside of work due to connecting over a Personal Interest as would sorta be the case in this scenario of like “why don’t you take me camping & i’ll bring my honed spatial algorithm” like i’m not about to say he can’t have been that enthused about anticipating forming a genuine friendship, why wouldn’t he be, & it can be both that & a bit of [also remnants of a crush] motivation....and i mean not like we Know what all they got up to while doing media analysis together in ep ten like. yeah feasible that analysis is all they really got up to, could well be intensive, but it also seems feasible you know, there were interludes about other things, anyone have a meal together and/or unrelated conversation? anyone kiss or hook up? it’s a Hilarious(tm) aspect of like, all winston’s dynamics that there’s never any Real resolution like, even now it’s like well i guess riawin’s not truly completely certainly a non factor / possibility at this juncture, but that’s thanks to the fact that you know, characters aren’t regarding him as serious or important, we never get material wherein say, anyone has a real conversation with him that we get to see, or with anyone else About him, or say, their thoughts / feelings on their own relationship / dynamic with him, so in that way it remains this more Ambiguous Zone where you can fill in blanks / What If about what’s unexplored b/c like, sorry, if i was supposed to automatically sense & accept some Factual Premise that winston is a romantic / sexual nonentity & even too much of a joke to have a friend? first of all i did not, second of all you’re the ones telling us he has crushes & exes & is now just going off getting laid cuz he felt like it & is maybe already regular friends with tuk, so what do you want

but anyways you go “even episode burn rate may not Necessarily have been about winston having a crush vs him being aware of this Quant Duo emphasis that’s Been in place & wanting to get Hanging Out / more personal connection out of it” and really that’s like, the main instance all season of anything plausibly abt winston still having a crush on rian. episode one Introduces Them like remember the quant duo?? they’re a duo. remember how we made sure to have winston show up silently in the finale for a few shots of rian standing right beside him? like yes what of it. and then they go well who knows, but here’s episode two, little quant duo moment again. ep three, Really quant duo moments. ep four, this Maybe [remember winston has a crush] thing that might also just be about him trying to explore / extend this duoship Somehow that’s more ambiguous at least. ep five, god, quant duo, ep six, sure leans on the like “why’s rian want to trip him & take his lunch” thing but also we end on her smiling at him / looking to him like “[all this], am i right??” like. ep seven dear god the quant duo. even ep eight like hey they’re standing together, and then aproposly winston just kind of inexplicably vanishes and the ep becomes this combo of taylor & philip and taylor & rian (subset: rian & wags, apparently) material. and then frankly ep nine kind of counts too because it’s Something that for both quants this is the one episode they simply don’t show up for some reason. ok. then obviously the last quarter of the season moves focus to all that and the quant duo material becomes rian ditching winston after hanging w/him all episode, rian insulting winston, winston going :\ about waving through a window at whatever rian and taylor are up to, like genuinely probably his guess is about as good as anyone’s.

it’s also Something Or Other that “rian pwns winston” is a lot more explicit & repeated this season than “is this material based on winston particularly having a crush vs just liking rian more generally / hoping they’re friends?” like ep one she pwns him out of nowhere, prince jumps in too for no reason when he’s supposed to be trying to ingratiate himself to everyone And this is the sole exception we see to that. ep two, why’s she have to go “oh you cannot really surf ever” like why shouldn’t he. ep three, we get winston directly commenting on their dynamic, that rian has and does hurt him & he thinks she’s doing it on purpose (why wouldn’t he, & seems that she is, tf else is going on. and/or else she’s just really unconcerned abt the effect of [hurting him] even if that’s not her main motivation), oh but also people see them as a duo & they’re also operating as one / completely amicable sometimes, such as like 7 sec out from rian pwning him & him going “stop trying to hurt me” & her completely ignoring that. ep four, that she pwns him again but also kind of lets up on it b/c he thought she’d responded positively actually. ep five, for some reason there needs to be an aside from rian about how winston’s not like the vlogger guy or his followers, who aren’t like posited as Respected Parties by anyone anyways, but the only consistency here is foregone conclusion disdain for winston i guess. ep six like he can’t get his phone back lol it’s more indirect like, it’s a Practical Matter for rian & she’s not very concerned about him beyond that, & kind of like “oh right you have your own perspective here, forgot about that smh whatever though” like, not the friendliest, but then suddenly episode seven is like remarkably same wavelength same page Utterly Amicable where go figure, the only particular instance of disdain / dismissiveness towards winston comes from taylor, ep eight no disdain, ep nine they’re both gone, but ep ten & eleven both with giving him shit out of nowhere & for no reason when he’s trying to like, have a conversation, but apparently oh speedrunning personal bonding with taylor with conversations and hugs in there lol like well. discouraging perhaps b/c why wouldn’t it be.....like i totalled up what i’d consider to be like discrete instances of positive (amicable) vs negative (the dislike/disdain realm) moments from rian directed at winston & surprisingly it came out even by my interpretation & count, but it also is like....that shit isn’t weighted lol, distinct instances of rian directing a smile at winston vs going out of her way and verbally insulting him, the smiles have counterparts of shooting him more negative Looks but the verbal insults do not have counterparts of her like complimenting him or hyping him up or anything, so feels a bit uneven still. yet oh also she’s hung out with him outside work for personal reasons, yet oh also she’ll then turn on that shared interest to insult him And the interest he has in it like, violence on an nd wavelength there, that Sharedness of the interest as a point of connection, and for what. taylor’s making a seemingly not not romantic move here that rian rejects but is Still more personally interested in taylor than ever in other ways & sees them as like romantically desirable in theory, & apparently she’s also looking to get some but oops only in the [she’s not operating like She Is A Character Known To Us rather than “yep, this is someone who is a woman, could’ve been fan fave jean anne”] realm, but personal friendly connection with winston???? waste of time, hurt him for it, he doesn’t seem to be making a pass but apparently the abstract Potential of other ppl’s romantic &/or sexual capacities out here is something so motivating & relevant in general otherwise

where’d i even start this post. yeah like going “so where’d winston’s crush on rian end” and maybe it didn’t even make it into this season but really even the duoship was cruising along until ep ten demands rian partly be [Any Woman] suddenly & some Personal Something for taylor which kind of makes sense but idk why it’s not still more of the mentor / mentee business, was this the only way it could progress?? seems like a particularly shaky premise and like, So specific lmao. if that’s the only way to connect to rian Or taylor no wonder winston’s getting nowhere. haha no but really he’s up against the impossible situation where everyone else has negatively judged him & it’s all about the foregone conclusion of [everything about you sucks] (And punishing him for it / treating him worse than any particular individual does other people, certainly) that precludes connection and he can’t just unilaterally put in enough effort in the right ways so that he can create a good relationship b/w him and anyone else, but it Is all unilateral so far as we’ve seen....the tl;dr is like “why’d they do all that then” re: winston textually Liking rian at least in s5 there, but also truly it’s “why’d they do all that then” re: all the obvious emphasis & establishing of rian & winston As A Duo. would hardly be surprising if winston Was shifting more to actively pursuing friendship with tuk, who he interacts with & is interacted with as a friend, and to passively giving up on much of anything with rian, who has to like him at all in some way/s, but where their interactions are mostly on her terms & where she’ll give him shit spontaneously seemingly for her own entertainment, or because he’s like, responded to her / answered a question / provided info / talked abt something relevant to/of interest to them both / agreed with her, & who knows if she’s banked on his Liking her as a reason she’ll never have to like, consciously wonder abt whether she can hurt him enough he won’t be an amicable party towards her / someone she Can talk to at any time, apparently she doesn’t think about consequences (except that also she does, so whatever) & idk doesn’t seem to feel confident in knowing herself or what she wants or what she’s doing so it’s also just feasible idk she doesn’t know what she’s doing with this relationship / isn’t putting a world of Care And Consideration into it, we’ve hardly had a chance to see if winston hanging w/tuk rather than rian or rian & taylor is a pattern that’s been Shifted to rather than that he needed to be out of the way in Serious Finale Zone times & can now go back to mostly being around rian & being as game to talk to her in earnest at any time, seems utterly plausible b/c winston Has to, & Has, put up with anything forever b/c otherwise if the way ppl treated him like, lastingly affected him, he’d lose his panache & personality, or rather, stop expressing it around anyone here. and so far billions hasn’t really let winston have an arc, 5x05 through 5x07 looked the most like one but then after the hiatus it’s like, rian’s desk stuff is gone, her [trademark bi haircut] is grown out, the seeming Hurtling Towards Something just kind of flew out of frame b/c now it’s time to enter into the Rian & Taylor Serious Arc world & never look back......i said tl;dr before but Now tl;dr like what was making it clear winston has a crush about, was it an explanation for him getting over the rivalry immediately. but getting over it so what, they can be friends?? because what is That for, if they don’t get to do that either really, rather winston is determinedly amicable towards her up till now where Maybe he hangs out with tuk when possible as his new default, we can’t know, maybe he’s still just down to suffer forever b/c he does apparently have to do that, taylor hasn’t really given him anything since 5x05 (except the Back Pat the full season later) & he’ll still wear his tmc tee in ep one & doesn’t individually bring up any grievances w/them all season, even if we don’t know whether he’s less hyped about them at the end of the season at all, seems as matter of fact as ever like yep he’s taylor’s quant & he’s here for them, but, is he especially enthused abt anything here....yes, in 6x05, but nothing came of it. will anything come of Quant Duoship overall or was it just something else for rian to do before becoming taylor’s other bestie or something and only employee, will anything come of winston and tuk getting along completely successfully, will anything come of winston material and the fact that he’s actually a person any of these other characters could connect with. tl;dr winston

#pondering your billions fave is a full time job....''will any of this ever result in anything'' continual refrain #dynamics go all over the place in billions but they never really get started w/winston #when other people are friends it's not about one person seeing the other as primarily a joke #rian's only had thorough exchanges with winston offscreen.... #if wags or taylor happens to wander onto your crisis go ahead and have a conversation that matters #winston's clearly seeking out conversations casual or otherwise all the time & what of it. he couldn't have anything to say #even when in ep ten it's bookended like rian ''ugh idc abt your interest'' then ''ugh idc abt your interest like yes i'm also interested in #the same Interest but i do not care abt Your interest'' & all their apparent thorough enthused discussions are unseen like oh ok #no idea what to make of the Duoship. has it been a joke. is it even relevant to rian or will being something to taylor be her full time job #like it is lmao but not like they weren't already doing that. and who can even guess abt winston and tuk #possible that even if they're not both punched harder as ''the punching bags are hanging out together'' in universe that like #just the handling by the material is like ah it's silly inconsequential jokes time with the joke guys #not like that apparently can't encompass ''winston earnestly hypes tuk up & everyone loves it & then he goes & gets some'' i'll take it #if billions has never thought / been willing to give winston arcs idk why start now #winston billions #i'll still be strung along hoping for it because if nothing else winston earnestly hopes for xyz so i'm hopign for it too lol #this character sure is [recurring] at all b/c of the Execution Of The Writing vs what was written in the first place.... #potentially where plenty of the [winston is autistic] and [winston has genuine feelings] resides. lol. give him an arc ffs...

[borahaejenn]

🥰Dear Bangtan and ARMY,🥰

    I came back sick but just with a cold. Lol But I feel okay about it. I have been in bed for two days and I love the rest I didn’t think I needed it until I let myself be mindful under the covers and it was just so warm and comfortable lol But, I was able to get back up and shower today 👍 This week has been just me resting up, watching films and shows,  and eating soup to my heart's content.🤤 I can’t taste it but I can feel it. I love noodles!!! Lmaooo I hope y’all are doing well.  Please do your best to keep warm. Hehe  

  I talk about it in the videos a bit and posts lol but I binged all of the show called RICHES and it is so good. I hope they get a second season because that cliffhanger about the sixth child had me wanting to know more but I knew there was something going on with Maureen lmao she seemed to know a little too much and she was very eager to dip as soon as Nina was coming in lol She knew Nina was about to find out. Lol I was kind of laughing at how Claudia was expecting her son Gus to take over the company lmaoo when homie was partying and using up his dad's money instead of actually being invested in the company when Nina and Simon have far more experience in business and beauty. Like, make it make sense. They out here fighting for shares of the company when there will be no company if she let her kids run it just because of pettiness. Lol With their lack of skills and leadership, trust, that company will not withstand a year. Nina literally saved them and more.lol I said what I said. I also saw FIRST WIVES CLUB and I love it. I am in season 3 and almost finished with it. I saw the differences in character stories over time and I dig it. It made me realize this one thing I wish people would do before they marry: 1. You can love someone so much but make that prenup. It is one of the most adult and responsible things to do. It should not offend someone if you want to make one. It will make things easier even if you choose to divorce and even if kids are involved. And if you are in for the long run, then you won’t need to put it in action, but MAKE ONE  just in case and make sure both parties are okay with every corner of it.  You are marrying someone for them and if it bothers you that someone wants to be careful with their money then you should rethink your “love.” If someone worked hard for what they got now they are entitled to being careful with it. They worked for it. Lol It is not that someone doesn’t trust you but about respect for each other’s things and it can get messy legally if this does not get talked about ahead of time.  Are you okay with splitting it? Maybe not? Those are questions that need to be assessed. Whatever people choose to do is up to them but have it written down and with consent have it legalized so you have it on deck lol We all have to be adults and speak up. Lol The scenarios in the show just had me baffled about these things. I was sad at how Hazel is a Grammy award-winning artist who had a lot of money in the bag but had it all taken from her ex-husband illegally and she had no idea that her penthouse was not hers to keep because she never read the prenup her husband did and didn’t have a lawyer of her own to check it out for her. She got it back but through other means lol  I was just wondering why she never asked her friend Ari back then to do a run-through of her prenup. Lol She was studying law and became a lawyer. 😂 And 2. Make a will and make it legal lol I feel like a lot of people don’t make proper wills and it becomes an issue especially if they have a lot of money and didn’t have it written out what should be done with it after they pass away. Not just in the shows but from real-life experiences with my parents and my grandparents passing it gets so messy when you have a lot of kids and family and they are just fighting for land, assets, and the whole cake with no written words of what belongs to who if that was ever the case. Lol I have seen cases of people doing the most to get money and I am just like dude I am good I am happy making my own bacon. What is not meant for me is not meant for me. Period. I ain’t chasing it and fighting for it if all that comes out of me is pure vanity at its worst. My grandpa's words haunt me to this day lol he always said that you should not take what does not belong to you. He was very serious about it. Lol I have seen him be stern and I found out he was a Virgo like my grandma and it made so much sense. Imagine two Virgos as grandparents married under one roof lol 😂 I loved the hell out of them. They took care of me so well. Lol But,  my grandpa was serious about lying and being unjust.  Lmao My dad was scolded by him many times and he lives to tell the tales. I only ever heard him in his words and tone and I knew not to play with him but he loved it when I woke him up from his naps. Lol Sweet but stern was his way. But, I told my parents that it is up to them what they want to do but I encouraged them to have it legalized and written down because my parents are old school and they aren’t of the era of prenups and wills being legal lol so I explained to them and they got a will done a couple of years back.

    I also saw these two films called EAT DRINK MAN WOMAN and TORTILLA SOUP.🤤 let me say it was FOOOOOOD EVERYWHERE!! I was in heaven while laying down in my bed lol I forgot I was sick. I felt that the steam coming out from the food in the films was just jumping over to me and my nose cleared up. Lmaoo I wish someone could make a Korean Version of those films because it is about bringing in different cultural backgrounds and food but with the essence of family and matriarchy.  I would love to see all the different Korean dishes put into one film like with those two films. It would be beautiful. It reminded me of the film I saw back then as a kid called Soul Food. I loved that film as well. The films are like a mix of slice of life with food and what it means to families in different cultural backgrounds. I thought of the K-Drama I watched when I got more into dramas and it is LET’S EAT. I watched all three seasons and the food was just a plus. It brought the different characters together in each episode and I loved learning about different noodles and food styles in Korea. There was one episode where they brought up Mexican food in a Korean restaurant and I was just salivating. Lol 😂 Food really brings the essence of family and unity, but also shout out to all the moms, sisters, grandmothers, and daughters out there. You do so much for your family and I have to take a moment to say I appreciate you. I was reminded of my grandma from my father’s side who is no longer here on this Earth physically. My mom talked to me about how she was someone who had all my aunts and uncles at her house for dinner no matter what back in her house in Mexico. She wanted her kids to have a meal even if they came late to her table. She was traditional about dinners. The films reminded me of her. My mom does that these days lol. When she cooks it is a different energy than before and she tries to make something for everyone no matter what it is. I feel like she rubbed that on me now because I don’t like to sit down until everyone got a plate and is seated. Lol But, it is nice to cook for a lot of people. It is lively. Lol There was this scene in EAT DRINK MAN WOMAN where the father, Chu, said something along the lines of how he enjoys cooking best when he has all the ingredients laid out in front of him before he starts cutting and I feel that. 😭I have to have everything in front of me before starting lol I can’t go back and forth unless it is for me to multitask and watch the stove as I cut the other ingredients lol I have this flow and it's messy at times but it feels so good.

  I also wanted to bring up this quote from Hazel Rachelle in the First Wives Club show because I felt it. It was at the end of the first season and she said this: “Getting older doesn’t mean your voice becomes irrelevant. It just means you have more stories to tell.” I thought of Bangtan and ARMY in mind because I think everyone fears getting older, fleeting relevance, and the future but nah. Our getting older will only mean that when we come back together, we will be able to voice and speak our stories even more. Our voice does not end because people leave and some people forget or some choose to not listen. They end when we choose to stop speaking and telling our stories. We keep going, we keep it tight,  and we keep telling our stories. Someone even one person will listen. 💜

   Yoongi I saw episode 2 of SUCHWITA. I feel like I get my daily dose of wisdom and light laughter with your show and I enjoy how you put your guest on the spot with rather simple but hearty questions that they probably were not asked before. Let’s go:

-Yoongi, I love how considerate you are. You brought up early on that if you have a guest who doesn’t or can’t drink alcohol, you would bring tea out instead. I felt seen lol. I feel like a lot of non-drinkers don’t get that consideration a lot and you respect it. I love you. Thank you for watching out for us all in the non-alcoholic club. You are a real one. Mad respect. 🙌😭And I really love rose tea, guava leaf tea, and on occasion kava. Lol Rose tea is the MVP for mixing with peach tea, green tea, and even masala chai with vanilla and I loveeeeeeee it. But alone it is just delightful I LOVE rose tea! Ahhhh! I had it a while ago with peach tea and iced and I loved it. Guava leaf tea is lovely for stomach issues and if you have the runs or had some food that didn’t suit your tummy I suggest making it to help your stomach, but alone I like it because when you drink it hot it tastes nice. My grandma from my mom's side made it for me back in Mexico when I was a kid and she got the leaves like pure leaves and it was sweet and light. KAVA, lol. It is not for everyone and depends on how it is made because I only ever had it from my friend Kavita and she is Fijian Indian and she prides herself on her culture and I respect it. She asked me so many times to try out Kava and I did and I was hooked. She made it and gave it to me hot out of the stove and it was delightful and calming. Lol. I enjoy Kava. Y’all should have seen my friend's face the first time she made it for me lol she thought I would not like it but she was not aware that my food palette was a little more expanded beyond just Hispanic food lol I love when people introduce me to foods and drinks they enjoy and I love to taste it.

-I was enjoying learning about white wine. I love how it was stated that white wine is like that friend with expensive taste. Lol White wine may not be expensive but it sure is boujee. Lol Nice point. 😌👌I drank white wine once and it was alright but not my cup of tea. It is a little more stubborn in taste until you do take a couple more sips and then it trusts you enough to let you feel it more. Lol I had it once when I was 19.

-Shin Dong Yeob is delightful. He has a way of explaining what he means through storytelling. I was grasping different points he was voicing out and it was like a fresh take on life. I loved that he was honest and spoke about his first time drinking back in middle school when his dad took him to watch the TERMINATOR and later to drink his first cup at a galbi restaurant. I was laughing when he said this to his dad lol:”I like you a lot,  mister! You’re my favorite!” Lol It reminded me of my first time having beer and wine behind my parent's backs lol. I was in fourth grade and I was invited to a party with school friends and this chick had no parental advisory but some people drank and that was the first time I saw a close classmate throw up in the bathroom it was wild lol I didn’t sip anything then until freshmen year of high school. I had a Corona and it was strong to me back then lol but I could imagine eating pizza with it. I have not had it ever after that one time. Then I had my first sip of dry red wine with my friend Ana. Lol it was fun times. I could not finish it and she offered to drink and she took it in. We actually ate pizza with it.  Lol I didn’t think I have tolerance for it but nah it was just the taste lol. I had a whole cup of wine with my friend Kavita near my senior year of high school and I was good and ready for another cup. I remember Kavita asking if I was alright every few minutes but I was alright. Lol I found out I don’t get drunk easily. I need at least 3 to 4 cups. Lmao I think that is the standard anyways but anytime I drank in front of my veteran drinking friends they thought I was a lightweight. Lmao I ain’t. But I don’t drink anymore. My parents to this day never knew any of this. Hahaha You know something they don’t. I will say that anytime I drank I had some of the best sleep, especially with the wine. Lol. No lie.

-The health checkups lol y’all are funny with doctors.😂 Yoongi lol you really asked your doctor what they did after work and tried to use that as evidence for your point that you can’t stop drinking.😂NICE. Using reverse psychology to prove a point. Lol Shin Dong Yeob saying he fell in love with wine because the doctor allowed him to after he had to stop drinking soju is funny as hell. Like. What’s the point? Lol. He was right, you have to listen to the doctor's orders. Lol I was laughing when Shin Dong Yeob was talking about working out but his doctor said that he shouldn’t work out the day after drinking and he has not been able to workout at all ever since. Lmaooo But, after seeing from my own family’s experience it is imperative that you are careful with alcohol.  It can go south really fast with your liver if not careful. Lol This is just a disclaimer from your Jenn and all alcohol restrictions should be based on your own health conditions. Hehe

-“I feel so comfortable.” It is nice to hear that from someone who has been on tv for a long time making others laugh and feel comfort from that. I’m glad he felt that. I think that is what Suchwita is all about as well. Shin Dong Yeob spoke for all of us when also speaking about you, Yoongi. You make us all feel comfortable one way or another and the fact that he said that says a lot. He was your guest but you made an atmosphere where he could speak freely. That’s lovely. 🥰

-The BTS CREW with this thought [It’s not thrilling is it’s safe] explains what Shin Dong Yeob was explaining with humor and comedy. I think with bringing up uncomfortable topics it is the thrill of what will this person say.  How will they say it? Will it be controversial? But Shin Dong Yeob kind of hooks people in with that punch line but then brings it back enough to keep jumping on that rope but not falling or going so high that he hits the electric lines. It is like what he says at the end about not having to be hard or making fun of others to be truly funny. I like that he brought that up. Because comedy here is different and very hardcore with making fun of others, I think that a good comedian should be able to make a joke and make others laugh without having to drag anybody into the joke. When you can create laughter organically without having to pick on someone that is pure humor. I use to watch a lot of Comedy Centrals Roasts and it was insane lol don’t watch it if you are not into one person being made fun of for a whole hour with very crude and explicit jokes lol I am slightly cynical in nature so I enjoyed it because I related to the jokes with myself from time to time. I almost did my 21st birthday as a roast against me because I just wanted to see what people had to say about me lol I had comebacks ready. LIKE Y’ALL I WAS READY. LMAO But, I didn’t do it.Lol It is on my bucket list. Haha Point is, humor looks like that over here but that is not the only humor there is. I really enjoy dark humor and that sometimes looks really sarcastic and very critical at times lol but requires me to be open and just let it go. But I do enjoy when people make jokes based on their life experiences and turn them into something relatable and it is funny because it is relatable. 😂 you hit that thrilling feeling of getting another perspective from the same alike situation but it hits that middle line where it’s okay because it happens to all of us. So, it’s like you laugh at the joke because you get a chance to laugh at yourself as well because you thought the same thing or did the same thing. Lol I love that feeling. I think that comedy is about bringing out things that no one wants to bring out in the open but with that middle line there that comforts people and allows them to laugh at themselves in the process.

-“So I… I’ve received a lot of love and was acknowledged at a young age and compared to my peers I’ve also made money. At one point it all seemed obvious where I stop feeling appreciation, doesn’t stay true to my roots. But I don’t recognize that I’ve lost myself to fame. ‘Isn’t this obvious?’ So even I thought I was talented in other fields rather than running it. It wasn’t just that but other things. That’s when I realized I was granted everything…Because the moment I look at someone I can see what they’re good at. But I can’t see their flaws. So now, what I’m best at just looking at what I’m good at. Something I can do without getting hurt and be happy while doing it is the shows I’ve been doing all this time. Despite working every day, I’m not stressed. I’m so happy to just work and I’m thankful to meet all these people… I never thought about the amount but after realizing it, I was really happy and healthy mentally as well.”  I love that Shin Dong Yeob answered your question about what helped him over the past 31 years with this answer. The idea of gratitude and focusing on what he could control and work with within himself is just beautifully said. I love the idea of being thankful and expressing that gratitude vocally each day and working with your own skills instead of going against them and feeling resentment towards what you don’t have. I think he gave a message we all can take to heart. Stop seeking what you can’t control and what others have. Just start and try to be grateful and learn to be in love with the process of broadening what was given to you and what you know you are good at and watch it grow. The answer is always in what you can do and what you already have it is just how you see it and give it value. I love that flaws part because it showed how much the homie looks at people with possibilities and although he knows everyone has flaws, he says everyone has something they are good at. Because he sees that in himself he applies that to his outlook on life and people. I like that. I dig it. Yes. 👍

-“If you realized that, that’s happiness. Be thankful for everything. One day, I looked at myself in the mirror. As time passes and we get older when I’m not the same person as before… you can’t go against time. That’s how history has been made. Once you accept and age beautifully there’s nothing happier than that.” The homie Shin Dong Yeob spills straight soju. Lol this right here. 🙌I love how he was encouraging you to keep making music even until your hair turns gray. He was like Yoongi that is happiness. You found it by accepting what you know you are wanting to do until the end. Being thankful for the past is also forgiving it and accepting it and being able to move on from it to keep growing and I love that sentiment.

-BTS CREW I SEE Y’ALL WITH THIS lol [We sometimes forget the obvious] and [Time passes and we change] 👌Y’all just add to the points in the episode and it’s like free therapy. I love it. Lol I love you.💕

-“I don’t know an end. I’ve never thought that way but I wish you didn’t. I don’t want you to declare retirement. Even if you wanna keep doing music, there may be a time you can’t…if you’re able to…until the end. Just being together. Just being with the fans is enough.” Shin Dong Yeob thank you for saying this to Yoongi. 😭🙏 I think he needed to hear that from someone he greatly respects and admires. Like ahhhhh this is nice. I really wish he wouldn’t think that either. He is bountiful of many things and I hope he can see that within himself someday.  I wish to also add: Yoongi you are not some destination you are a whole journey, baby. You don’t have an end. Your music and lyrics will be here to always touch someone, comfort someone, and remind them that it’s okay. You are living in your music as well. There is no end. We are not claiming it, honey. We are bountiful and we live in the pieces we create and leave in the hearts of others. 💜

-The New Kids On The Block cruise had me laughing because I almost went to the Paramore cruise back in 2014 lol they called theirs PARAHOY! I didn’t get to go but I was looking at updates and it was sick lol I remember seeing the members playing basketball with fans and Hayley Williams surprising people on the cruise ship who stayed onboard with toilet paper lol while everyone went down to the island to have fun. Lol  Those cruise trips look like fun but it depends on which fans ago and the vibe of everyone going. If you have chill people going then it hits differently. Lol I say this because when you go on trips with people you need a vibe for it to go peachy. Lol I would love to go on a cruise with Bangtan and ARMY but for your safety, I would not recommend it at the moment. I worry about safety above all else I am being honest here. Lol.

-lmaooo Yoongi I talked about how you once said that not having a dream is okay in my letter last week and the growth came out lol you talked about how even having one dream is important even if its small in this episode. Lol the tables have turned. But, it’s nice. I see what you were getting at. But It was nice to witness that change. I think people should not be pressured to have specific dreams at a young age but having goals and dreams is not bad. I think once you get to a certain age you can find what it is you truly want. This is the energy you gave with what you said especially since back then you spoke a lot in terms of the youth but now being older it changed a bit. I feel it because being in our late 20s the thought hits differently. In the youth, I think it is highly pressured and it sure messed me up back then but that’s because I also let others influence me. I need to hold my own accountability as well. I just hope the youth can find their own way and voice and not feel useless or purposeless because they can’t find that specific thing yet. I know some people are like I knew I wanted to be a doctor or sing when I was 4 years old and yeah that can be possible however you may want to do different things as well as you grow up and so this is for those who also never got that spark at 4yrs old or even in the prime of adolescence. I wish to tell the youth and this is scientific but your brain is not fully developed until you reached the age of 25 so between 0-24 it is natural for you to want to do many different things and explore. Lol Don’t stress about feeling purposeless. You are in years of deep exploration and mistakes and growth. You ain’t 25 yet. I tell this to my 22-Year-old brother as well.  Lol. Your brain is still developing. I don’t expect you to know what you like or want and it be permanent. Lol 😂 you probably went to college and graduated on something that doesn’t make you happy and it is okay. You just learned something. Move into what you feel and try it with all you got. give yourself some credit for venturing out into different things. I am 28 I know because I was 18, 19, 22, and 24 before. Lol. It’s not that you will know by age 25 but that things may feel more stable at that age and that stableness can lead you or lean you toward the path you really are seeking. I got this quote from Joel Osteen lol homie spill facts and remember this: “You can’t rely on what got you to where you are to keep you where you are.” Things will look differently a lot of the time. Nothing ever will stay stagnant. Look towards things working out differently each time and be grateful for that journey and ride. If you follow the flow you may just land where the sparks will finally fly for you. This can apply to everyone hehe 💪Fighting!

-“The biggest strength fans get from music is the moment they listen to it…but the one thing that could give you a journey through time might be brief but can take you on a time machine, only music can do that.” Dang!! Shin Dong Yeob is back at it with the facts lol. I really love his points. I still remember when Bangtan hit me the most in 2015. That was the time when I was slowly getting out of my depressive state and I felt a little alive again. That whole era really did something to ARMY and I felt some type of way about it and I can’t ever forget it.  HOLD ME TIGHT still feels like that warm hug I always needed. I love that track still to this day and yeah it takes me back into a time machine each time. I still remember blasting Silver Spoon so much that my brother was asking who y’all were I played it in the summer so much for our road trip to LA back in 2016 that it takes me back to that time lol Music really can do that. ✨

-“I’m a bit timid.” Yoongi 😭😭 my heart I will do my best to not make you feel that way lol please don’t be timid lol 😂 You are a sweetheart. Ahhh I want to be super soft now. Lol 😭 I hope I don’t make you feel timid lol you can judge me all you want I won’t argue back 😂 I am a clown lol but a lively one. Haha Thank you for admitting that I have not seen someone be open about that. I’m confrontational but I learned to be soft and tamed about it. Lol I don’t get up in people’s faces I like to talk to them privately out of respect.

-Jin I just want to say that I don't think you all don’t make me uncomfortable. I love that y’all are not in your right mind half the time because I feel less ostracized from society. Bangtan and ARMY share one brain cell sometimes and it is funny when it shows. Not just in humor, but also in skill, art, creativity, thought process, life, and random banter.  I ain’t always in my right mind either with things I may do or say but it is me and y’all are my people because of that. It's not a fandom or fan thing it's a human connection and as Joonie would say an INYEON thing. We think alike and we live alike and we feel at home from time to time. I think that liveliness in people is proof of their willingness to live and give life to others and you all have that liveliness. I don't think it is ever bad to have it. They do say that when people find themselves uncomfortable it isn't always on the person doing something it is the fact that whatever that person did awakens something in that a person. They possibly have been repressing something within themselves and they don't like to admit it. Some people don't have that liveliness y'all do and if they make you feel like they are uncomfortable, trust that it ain't yall, it is them and their mindset. They have to figure it out, especially since you all ain't hurting no one.

-This last point Shin Dong Yeob said hits close to home and I have so much respect for him for saying this like it is not something you hear adults admit or accept and I AGREE 100%: “I wanna say something important.  You need to have the courage even to apologize to a little kid. Even between parents and their child. The parent needs to have courage to apologize to their child. Apologizing isn’t embarrassing. In the past, dad and moms were young and didn’t know anything. If their child was hurt by what they said, once they know it, they need to be able to say they’re sorry for causing so much pain. They need to say it. Then their hearts will open up.” This is something that I had to learn and work through with my parents for a long time and I feel many people can relate to this. I found out that is also the reason why I found it hard in the past to apologize and realize what I did and why and to see how I hurt someone. If you can’t even apologize to a little kid how do you expect to apologize to the adults around you, properly? Ego and pride play a lot I think. But this is also figurative to people you don’t realize you hurt as well as our own selves. If you can’t apologize to yourself and all the things you have hurt yourself with,  how do you expect to forgive others including yourself for all the pain and hurt you felt? There is a little child inside of us that still needs to hear that apology and if we choose to ignore them we will still keep that hurt until we do. The homie Shin Dong Yeob said GOLD HERE. ✨This is a highlight. And no it is not embarrassing to apologize and admit we hurt someone. As people, we need to realize that we are really capable of hurting people even with any little thing and we have to be kind and understanding when someone speaks about it because they are also healing from something. What we mean or do may mean something to someone else and we just have to be open to conversation and different perspectives even the ones of the youth. When you fear apologizing you fear also facing the parts of yourself you don’t want to come to light because you have to admit defeat and surrender but that is where the healing can begin, in the surrender. 😇

  I hope Shin Dong Yeob’s dream of his own show with stand-up comedy and acting can come true. ✨🙏 I think he has the right heart and passion for it. His words and actions speak for that highly. I love that he admitted that he apologized to his manager because of the way he spoke to him that one time. And he was very human about it. Props to him because most people like to blame and avoid accountability. He is setting an example and that’s what’s up. I hope his manager also knows that he deserves to be apologized to even though he may think not because of his position. No matter where you are or whatever line of work someone does, everyone deserves respect. It’s about not abusing your power wherever we all hold it the most and honoring and being grateful for those helping us navigate that power. Honor your people by giving them respect. Thank you for also working hard with Shin Dong Yeob in the second episode Yoongi. I loved it. 🔥 Fighting, SUCHWITA, SUCHWITA!!!!💪🎶

    Before I go, hehe I know I am posting this a couple of hours before VIBE comes out lol LA VIBRA!!! Ahhhhh💪🔥🔥🔥 FIGHTING JIMINIE AND TAEYANG!✨ I will do my best to listen well. 🎶 I pre-saved already lol 😂 I shall go now and do my Thursday errands and wait for it to drop. 😈 LET’S GET IT. I am still coughing but I feel better enough to do some errands lol Please take care, everyone. Make sure you eat deliciously! 🤤 stay warm. 😳For some of y’all it’s already Friday lol enjoy it! Haha bye bye!!! 💜I purple you. 💜And Taehyung what were you laughing at? lmaooo I’ll just laugh hysterically too. Makes no sense but aight let’s go.🙂 lol I bet an ARMY made a theory by now but I have not checked it out yet haha so now we are here laughing awkwardly with purpose. Haha 😆

With love,

Your Jennifer 🌼✌️🐰🌼

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you best still be wearing your masks :)))

#in my state the vaccinated people get to de mask themselves #personally i call bullshit #private businesses don't have to roll back the mask policy #though #the vaguely local Walmart is keeping it and i think most stores are as well #anywho i might actually die if i have to get the vaccine #that will be panic attack central #best case scenario with that is me just passing out lmao #bc that will happen #knowing how it made my mom feel scared the absolute shit outta me #vaccine mention #needle mention #needle tw #yeah i think i need to stop thinking about it im lightheaded