#being is already draining

[horse-head-farms]

au where hypno is a demon!

the human xb summons him not to sell his soul but with a business deal, see, demonic deals work that its a soul in exchange for whatever you want, not necessarily your own soul, but a soul. hypno cannot interact with people except his summoner, but xb can run a business where he asks for “harmless” IOUs from people, getting them to sign a piece of paper which is actually a contract for possession of your soul. since xb is a regular human, it would mean nothing, but with hypno’s help it’s magically binding and they enter a mutually beneficial deal where hypno gets a ridiculous amount of souls and xb is given what he wants by hypno.

their partnership starts off solely as a business one, but as time goes on, they grow closer and also begin to care about the business that was just supposed to be a front for them to gain souls, and once xb gets the power and wealth he originally wanted, they focus their efforts on growing Horsehead Farms as a company. they advertise themselves as a “safer” alternative than dealing directly with demons, giving people whatever they want in exchange for an IOU - not a real soul (it is their real soul, but they don’t tell them that). they manage to become a major competitor to all of hell. since it has a human head of the company, people assume it is more trustworthy. xb and hypno engage in all sorts of evil capitalistic ventures

eventually hypno gets kicked out of hell, a feat no-one thought possible, for ruining every other demons’ livelihood, and is reincarnated into a regular human. xb is investigated by officials due to the scammy and dangerous nature of Horsehead Farms, and in an epic car chase where xb tries to escape, he crashes and dies. for all the human lives he’s ruined by stealing souls, he is sent to hell and becomes a demon. they find eachother, and seeing how there’s still one human and one demon overall, they see no reason to not start their business again

#got the idea from that fanon swap thing going around. but demon hypno also kinda makes sense #feels weird drawing human xb… where your fins at bro #i imagine this is an urban fantasy setting. modern life but magic and deals are a well known phenomenon #keralis is xb’s sexy secretary i think #idk yet what the consequences are of stealing peoples souls but my current thought process is it either: drains their creativity and makes #them fatigued. or it means they don’t get an afterlife as their soul is already being used by the demon #hermitcraft #hhf #hermitcraft au #hermitblr #hypnotizd #xbcrafted #hermitcraft fanart

[xieliancore]

kaveh redraw from the latest official art!

#kaveh #kaveh fanart #genshin #genshin impavt #genshin fanart #genshin impact fanart #help me my job is draining the life out of me #i dont have time to draw #im exhausted already i hate being an adult help #my art

[moeblob]

I'm so close...... NY!Hrid is at +9. One more and I can drop the game.... I just love him so much and this alt is so happy and I need it for him...

#fe heroes #hrid #man i was looking back at my hrid art and i wanted to reblog some of it but then im like #mm nah most of my followers have seen it i wont force it upon them again #but i really do love hrid so uh here im so close to being done but i have to grind orbs #because my luck is abysmal right now as i glare at the red he shares with his sister #as i stare at the singular reds that drain my orbs just a bit faster than multiple reds #i mean GRANTED im at least GETTING reds but still #wild to me that i pulled a ny unit on his banner as a four star special after pulling her on her rerun banner #like i didnt already have her .... and it wasnt a red #so at least my pity wasnt broken by it but still wild that i pulled a ny rerun hero on a ny rerun banner that wasnt hers #i think i actually traded a couple of ny!gunns for feathers previously bc i keep pulling her instead of hrid #this alt is so much fun and i love it for him he deserves it ! since is doesnt want to acknowledge him otherwise #i say as i stare at last years summer banner casually name dropping him to say #wow sure is a shame hrid isnt here with us - maybe he will be next year #let hrid have nice things 2024 challenge

[keirientez]

band au rahhhhhhhhhhh

#i wanted to draw the other guardians too but this would be a good start #ok so #tsuna starts his band. yamamoto bass and gokudera keys and tsuna suprisingly drummer and also lead vocal. reborn appears out of nowhere- #being “youre not your full potential so i will drain you till youre like a fish in a dehydrator until you become the best out there.” #thats about it #but i just like how drumming singers are like extremely good music people because drumming is already hard. and singing too??? #absolutely insane i might say. tsuna would do this (bc reborn told him so) #he does not want to be the best but reborn exists in the paro for a reason #reborn is like maybe a famous musician who faked his death then did whatever he wanted to do while he was “alive”. then he got tsuna as his #apprentice and so so. oh yeah also whiplash (the movie) reference bc holy shit its so good. for me at least. and reborn would make tsuna go #that kind of crazy. like training until drenched in sweat from morning to night or whenever hes available. bc he knows he has potential #he just need someone to push him beyond his expected limit #btw 8059 implied #gokudera joined the band first bc yeah then comes yamamoto for fun as he had to rest from playing baseball a bit too enthusiastic #gokudera hated him so much for like being dumb??? (the goofy ah laugh) but then the two dated even before reborn made a move on tsuna #its very funny but they work it out #i was also thinking if the band ever do solos or do something not as the whole band 8059 will have their own album. itll be great #for genre im not sure?? lets just say alt rock electrojazz???? #no idea but maybe ill make a playlist. maybe #sawada tsunayoshi #reborn #yamamoto takeshi #gokudera hayato #8059 #r27

[amazinlei]

Look man, if Bowser stole a magic artifact of unlimited power, wrote a love ballad of how we’re going to rule together, AND wrote his own vows when he offers the star as basically an engagement ring? 

RIP to princess peach I guess but I’m different. 

#I TOLD YA'LL I WASN'T GOING TO BE NORMAL WHEN THIS MOVIE CAME OUT #GOD and the fact that they used bowser's odyssey wedding tux in the wedding scene too!!! I WANTED TO SCREAMMMM <3 #forgive me father for I have simped #literally came home and chatted about the movie to my parents ate easter dinner and than dreamed of bowser setting me up for a piano session #I had a practice electronic keyboard in school I love I bet Bowser is also pretty talented an ax too! #I mean LOOK AT HIS CLAWS THEY'RE ALREADY GOOD GUITAR PICKS #anyway uh putting the simp card into my wallet registry #mario movie was a blast! #they did my boy luigi so good even though dude had the WORST luck #though the bad lands just makes me REALLY want a luigi's mansion movie #I HC that Luigi and Mario both kinda have dog phobias on top of trauma from losing each other in the warp pipe #and the trouble they went through with getting to his brother as a prisoner and luigi on the other hand being physically tortured #and mentally drained with that downer of a luma X'D I loved that little butt #ALSO PEACH MY FUCKING BELOVED!!! #Lei stop being silly #Bowser #fictional other #Luigi #Princess Peach #Mario #Super Mario Bros Movie

[adhdandcomics]

adding to my tags because i’ve been thinkin a lot about the post i just reblogged and have more thoughts:

i’ll be real, the more i saw ‘hey adhd influencers are so annoying’ the more i worried that i was unconsciously contributing to the spreading reputation of adhd folks as annoying and over-pathologizing every symptom they experience

and then i realized. i am not a goddam influencer or life coach or representative. obviously i have some obligation as someone who cares about myself and the people that like my comics to not spread harmful ideology or blatant misinformation but i never intended myself to be a “’increase your productivity!!’ blog OR a ‘if you have XYZ you have adhd!’ blog. and i do this for fun, and originally started this blog bc i had a lot of internalized shame and self loathing about my adhd and thought if i could make it funny i might have less of that. let’s get real! and it worked!

i’ve obviously done this kind of thing— (hey these symptoms might be adhd!) a lot before in my life & on this blog, but there’s more to it than trying to be an “influencer” or whatever. a term that didn’t even exist when i started this blog!

i felt very isolated trying to find out if i had any mental problems & what have you originally because of large advice (etc) blogs with staunchly anti self Dx views at the time

so i overcorrected when i DID get dxed and tried to validate everyone who was like me. and of course. not the best course of action always for the ol mental health. tried to be the source of positivity and jokes that i didn’t see because the online adhd presence was near non-existent.

and anyway. i make a lot of fun of myself & the way m brain works in my comics obviously but it is not my obligation to... how do you say.... not be annoying online.

because if folks interpret MY little jokes as a strict guide to diagnosis. that’s on them, really, not me. i also believe “making adhd your entire personality” is a non-issue. so what if people find out they have it and get over excited with identifying as adhd. saying this as someone who DID do it. criticism of this gives the same vibes as people being annoyed that young queers make “being queer” their whole personality. im very obviously more than a guy with adhd, and id reckon other adhd comic artists are too. (im friends with a lot of them!) it’s fine to post about it online.

anyway. i just don’t take myself too seriously and i’m a comic artist for myself first! and you know what, i’ve been considered annoying my entire life. what do i care if a few more folks think i’m annoying. neurotypical or not

#i think the article did have some good points especially on the capitalism and marketing angle but i oft think it did venture into #being mad at individual folks who post jokes about adhd. which is literally fine thats what an opinion piece is for lol #i am just very tired of people pretending that a lot of reaction to online adhders is not in itself just an extension of the ableism #we already were facing #'adhd people are so annoying everyone does this youre pathologizing everything' ok and how exactly are you helping. #i hesitate to throw my hat in with hating on adhd tiktok because i am simply not on tiktok and have no way to back up my thoughts #that they may be annoying and oversimplifying a complex disorder on the 'drains your attention span' website. #and i think perhaps the value of each adhd resource varies widely depending on who made it and what theyre even posting. #sometimes its a joke made by a person with adhd. sometimes its sourced and cited research. sometimes its someone discussing their personal #experiences in depth. sometimes its someone talking completely out of their ass. sometimes its THINLY veiled ableism. #its up to the individual to research and determine the value of the memes and resources you seek #anyway. perhaps these points are tough to clarify on sites like insta and twitter. bless. #text #adhd #im punk now #oh and yeah i also agree lots of folks do not talk about the unsavory parts of adhd but rather the funnies and the sillies. but that is #once again a larger capitalism and marketing and ableism problem #r we not talking about them because we are actively trying to infantalize this disorder or is it because we collectively experience a lot #of internalized ableism and hesitate to talk about our worst symptoms for fear of the backlash #weve always gotten about them 🤔🤔🤔 #much to consider #if youve read this far sorry for tangent number 56 about this. but also start being more unapologetic about your disorders. fuck it! #<3

[amaraudermind]

Something something Bruce love Gotham because it's his home, jason loves Gotham because it's in his soul, Duke loves Gotham because it's his family, Steph loves Gotham on purpose

#the void screams #duke thomas #bruce wayne #jason todd #stephanie brown #each member of the batfam having a complicated relationship with gotham is something that can be so personal- #but yeah bruce loves gotham because this is where his family has always lived. leaving would mean leaving them behind. #he loves gotham because it's the only home he's ever known #i don't know what fucked up tether there is between gotham and jason. compells me though. #even when he leaves he can't stay away along. gotham's in his head. in his soul. it's where he's alive and it's where his life is drained #the people of gotham are duke's family and he wants to protect them the way they've always tried to protect him #the city is the people and duke knows these people. he's one of them. he's seen what they go through to survive because #he goes through it too. he loves gotham because it's his whole world. his family. and he'll protect that family #until he dies. #steph though? steph grew up here and hated it. hated the city. resented the people. resented the heroes. #and still every fibre of her being goes into loving this city. into hoping for it. #on purpose. she's going to love this city on purpose. even when it hurts. even when she'd rather die. #even when the whole CITY turns against her. time and again. because she's already decided. #she's going to love gotham. even if gotham never loves her back. #don't mind me i am just rambling nonsensically. i am right though by the way. it doesn't make sense but it's Correct

[prayingfordemise]

lmaoo I love being useless. Everything is fucking unless. What’s the point of being here at all.

#depressing life #depressing shit #i want to diiieeee #i want to disappear #tw depressing thoughts #sorry for being depressing #tw depressing stuff #end it already #tw sui ideation #suic1de #mentally tired #mentally fucked #mentally exhausted #mental exhaustion #mentally drained #im losing it #i’m done

[connorcosmics]

reuploads from my old acc! ⭐

#adventure time #simon petrikov #betty grof #adventure time fanart #T4T #← my art tag #silly billies just being sillyyy #im rlly glad to have a fresh start #things in my personal life has been AWFUL + already feeling drained and not wanting to draw in the first place #but!! things are getting better #and im v happy to make a new acc n start again #fionna and cake #fionna and cake fanart #conman posting ⭐

[running-in-the-dark]

had one very short interaction with my mother-in-law and once again I think I won't get through living here until the end of March :)

#she drives me insane #she asked something. I answered. she goes 'okAaaAayyyy?' in the most irritating tone ever. #like what is wrong with you. what. #she's so fucking irritating. truly the most joyless serious bitter person I have ever met (and I have met my mother so...... that's saying #something) #it's just. man social interaction is already so difficult but she just. makes EVERYTHING weird. #literally dude all I said was that yes everything's great with me and the cats 👍 how ELSE was I supposed to respond to that?? #I know I'm overthinking it and being a horrible ungrateful little bitch but god I just can't stand her #I don't CARE what they do for us I still just don't like them 😭 yes I know I'm the worst 😭 #my husband had to promise me that I won't have to see them more than twice a year once we move. I just. they drain every last bit of life #and joy and happiness out of everything #drives me insane #anyway I'm done being an asshole for now #been trying to take a tumblr break but where else would I complain about this. #personal

[citrine-elephant]

stressed the fuck out nonverbal dilf leon: what is your opinion?

#thinking about claire and leon friendship #where she recognizes he's in a Mood TM and overwhelmingly doesn't want to talk #so she sorta becomes his voice for a little bit until the mood passes #leon already has communication difficulties lol why wouldn't the trauma worsen that #you know when you *can* talk but it's such a mentally draining task that you gotta find other ways? #working in a loud place when in that mood :(( #if line of sight was clear i just gave thumbs up or head nods lol #ugh... no promises but i have the urge to write or sketch a little claire and leon thing where she's the protective big sis instead #instead of leon being protective big bro #uhhh chreon but claire is just sister-in-law so it works #idk i know they had a bit of chemistry in re2r but i feel them more as besties/found family #see: infinite darkness where leon does the thing to keep claire safe and she asks why he treats her like a kid :( #to keep a tag rant short: had to read someone explaining that part cuz it felt very weird for leon to not give her that thing

[championofapocrypha]

I've been thinking about this for a hot min and I think it's kinda weird Skyrim has a reputation for being dirty?? Like yeah the people can look a little dingy but it's usually those who are outside working hard.

But I think outside of that they'd probably be pretty clean?? Horkers are available in excess like do you think there wouldn't be a portion of their fats being used to make soap by the truckload?? Skyrim would have so much horker soap like come on

#thoughts that make you google 'traditional soap making' at 12:30 am bc youre doubting your own soap knowledge #troll fat is an alchemical ingredient too but tbh horker fat should be too bc theyre easy to hunt and are fucking Everywhere #plus we already see lavender being used as a sort of perfume being on bedsides and stuff #tumblrs favorite greasy rat men are still greasy tho. they just choose to be that way #skyrim #the elder scrolls #tesblr #musings #i know sload soap was a thing in morrowind but there are no sloads in skyrim and that drains your fucking personality #also arent sloads like... people??? use the horkers theyre right there

[mejomonster]

I would like. To be in mutual love

#rant #yeah... #........................................................................................................................................... #look its like this. im chronically ill. i know its not totally up to me i cant go out 1-3 times a week trying ro meet ppl. i know i #cant even eat some days my tummy too upset. cant work some days cant even sit up. can barely keep up witj friends i already have #and i know the being drained wont get better. i might be this sick forever. and i know im prioritizing my own art over #meetjng strangers. thats a choice. i know its my own fault im lonely. i also just. i wanna build a relationship #that long term where u meet and become friends then best friends then fall in love and hey if ur lucky marry ur best friend #and i know that wont come from forcing myself on dates w ppl i dont like. i know no ones ever liked me before #i know i havent felt attraction in years anyway. i miss having a crush. but i suppose itd be sad anyway. to crush and not be liked back #to feel ill need to wait another 5 years for another rare crush. i dont believe in fate i dont think. so i might not ever #kiss someoje i like. i might not get lucky and hold a crushs hand. spend months or years with someone like that #i just. i hate so much romance isnt like skills. i cant just date 1x a week until i run into love #i cant even find 1 person a month to crush on let alone ask out. cause the feelings are luck too #luck of who u run into even if u go tl events. even wuen i had 10k tinder matches the only date #the only person who respjded. was someone with a gf who didnt have much in common with me and me not mucj w them and it #was just not enough click to even make a friend #god it makes me sad. id like to kiss someone special. hold their hand. hear em talk hours #i have friends and love em but i dont wanna kiss a friend. i just dont feel romancy very much.

[daylighteclipsed]

anyone else feel like the whole world is this 👌 close to completely snapping

#it feels like a rubber band is being pulled farther and farther #and it’s going to snap soon #like people are just rapidly reaching their limit #specifically the working class #France is already rioting #like we’re all just so fucking fed up with all the elites around the globe #america especially feels like we’re one jenga block away from #i can’t say war bc realistically we would be mowed down but um #quitting the game i guess #it’s all a game and we’re this close to flipping the board #I’m sick to my stomach I’m furious I’m exhausted #we’re all so tired and drained and hear all these horrible things every day and have to go to work like nothings happening #why are we going to work why are we playing this game i don’t wanna play anymore !!!!! #I’m just. I’m so hurt and frustrated and feel the grief of millions of people I’m in tears #this is not sustainable life doesn’t have to be this way it shouldn’t be this way #it feels so hopeless i hate it i hate it so much i am living on spite alone #god damn you elites i will go down swinging

[ciderjacks]

being an artist means everyone suggesting u go into an art career or art school and being smart means saying Hell No every time

#sorry this is like partially a joke but also not really #ive grown up around enough professional artists to say that i absolutely do not want to go into art as a profession though and actually #i kind of discourage it for others too #its not a very stable career and also if art is your passion then you should really really reconsider #because art school and especially art career can drain that love and passion right out of you #im not trying to fearmonger or crush anyone’s dreams or anything i think that an art career can be really fulfilling for some people #but i also think a lot of younger or self taught artists will want to have a career in art because it’s something #theyre already passionate about and it seems like an easy choice #to just do what you like to earn money #and that sounds great but being a professional artist will turn “doing what i love because i love doing it” to #“doing what i love because i have to do it” and that can really quickly turn into “doing what i used to love but now resent bc i have to ea #i once started drawing only kind of because i felt like i had to for fandom reasons and that killed my enjoyment of art for like. #5 whole months. i had to retrain myself to be passionate about art. #so for me an art career is the absolute last thing i want to do

[newt-and-salamander]

Newt Appreciation Month, Day 12: Favourite Interview about Newt

So I really didn't know what to post because I rarely spend much time on YouTube and I couldn't remember anything especially sticking out to me, except for silly promotion videos. :D

But then I saw @afrenchaugurey sharing a screenshot of a post by loversagainstallodds and I think I will do the same now because I don't know what else to post, but I don't want to skip another day. :)

Sorry for the low effort, I will do better another day. :)

#forgive me for skipping a few days #i will try to catch up but this week was exhausting and I'm feeling drained and it's already almost monday again #or i might be getting sick again but i think I'm just in my vicious circle of being stressed and then not taking time to have proper meals #yes I'm working on that i know it isn't healthy #buuuut i scrolled through all the FB posts i had saved on Instagram and remembered Eddie Redmayne is indeed a very handsome man #fantastic beasts #newt scamander #newt appreciation month #interview #day 12