Andrew isn’t heartless, I think we all know it by now but I’m going to say it again.
Andrew isn’t heartless, Andrew is hurt. Andrew has been breaking apart since he was seven years old, and he’s been shown time and time again that feelings won’t change a thing. When he said ‘please’ and it did nothing. When he saw bruises and tears from Aaron but she’s my mother and she loves me and it’s okay Andrew, it’s okay it doesn’t even hurt. When those men found his cousin, his caring and soft cousin, and they hurt him. They hurt him and Aaron’s pleading did nothing but Andrew’s fists sure as hell did.
Andrew isn’t heartless, but he’s almost convinced himself that he is. Twelve years of hiding it all has dulled things, his meds blanketing them where his feigned indifference doesn’t.
And then.
And then he sees a boy with dark hair and a darker past. And there’s a flicker, a little push under the apathy that swaddles his mind.
And another push when he meets eyes the blue of a glacier.
Another when the rabbit becomes the wolf for the world to see.
Another. Another. Another.
And he feels the slab of concrete he’s laid over his emotions start to crack, feels the little fissures as they spread with every new secret he learns about this boy who is so much more than he thought.
And he chalks it up to the medicine, the little pills that change his world so drastically.
But the meds are long gone and there’s still a boy, now with hair like a flame, and he still feels the pushing and cracking and crumbling.
Only it goes so much faster with the medicine gone.
A shove when the boy threw himself in the line of fire for Andrew’s sake.
A deep fissure when his phone rings because the boy chose not to run.
A million bits of debris falling with every kiss, but no he doesn’t want this, he can’t feel this because that means he has to feel everything else but he can’t bring himself to stop, he thinks maybe making himself stop when they both want it might actually kill him.
Cracks and pushes and blue blue blue eyes and letting go of a promise and then-
And then a dirty duffle bag full of equipment, an abandoned phone with a message saying 0, and the slab of concrete crumbles all at once like was never even there.
And Andrew feels it all, feels his heart shatter which should be impossible because he thought it was in enough tiny shards already but there it is and he might not be able to survive it and Neil is gone Neil is gone Neil is gonegonegonegone
And maybe this is what grief feels like, because Andrew didn’t know this boy a year ago but now the thought of being without him is more than he can possibly bear and-
A phone call, and suddenly Neil’s three hours away.
Two hours.
One.
And they’re in the same city but the distance is still too far.
Fifty feet.
Ten.
Five.
One.
And- there.
Andrew isn’t heartless. Andrew isn’t heartless, because his heart is a boy with fiery hair and a personality to match. His heart is a pair of eyes like ice chips that saw through it all, saw down to the very core of Andrew and didn’t flinch. His heart is Neil Abram Josten, and maybe that’s not entirely true but Neil helped him find it again.
Andrew isn’t heartless. He’s not even close.
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The Imaginary Tree explained
The Imaginary Tree is the essence of omnipresent existence, the cosmic structure that gave birth to the many worlds in the Hoyoverse. Time flows in its trunk and branches into infinite worlds, & each of its branches is a form of civilization & each of its buds is the Past & Present.
The 'Time' in the Imaginary Tree is very different from the 'Real World' on a Conceptual Level and has different Law of Cause & Effect.
Time flows in the trunk of the Imaginary Tree. This means the Imaginary Tree is the root that gave birth to the Primitive Concept of Time and is considered the beginning and end itself.
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Here Nagamitsu gives a simple analogy about the Imaginary Tree. A server that holds all game data, has all kinds of mechanism tools to generate and create. And according to herself, there are Countless Worlds in the server and Nagamitsu is one of the characters in that game world.
According to Nagamitsu, the data that's already stored on the server cannot be changed. As for the server itself, she said there is no limit. The game server called Imaginary Tree can use its saved files at any time to generate new Parallel Universes. Just like servers in online games, universes can be opened, closed or even merged.
Nagamitsu Conversation
Imaginary Space
Imaginary Space is a space in-between real numbers & real space, where Honkai entities and Herrschers powers to defy physics directly come from, it's also the cause of supernatural influences that leak from the imaginary space into reality, causing honkai ranged activity across the world.
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Honkai originally belongs to the Imaginary Space, and when a collapse occurs, the Honkai Energy and Honkai Beast leaks out from the Imaginary Space to the Real Space, and the increase in energy causes catastrophic damage such as Honkai Eruption.
It is due to the nature of Honkai in Imaginary Space that the laws of physics in Real Space fail to follow, which is why the supernatural powers of the high-level Honkai Beasts and the Herrschers are able to defy the laws of physics.
It is due to the nature of Honkai in Imaginary Space that the laws of physics in Real Space fail to follow, which is why the supernatural powers of the high-level Honkai Beasts and the Herrschers are able to defy the laws of physics.
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Imaginary Space
Firstly, an explanation on what an Imaginary Space is.
If this four dimensional space (space + time) is seen as a single "World Bubble", then all the space outside of this sphere would be Imaginary Space. Imaginary Spaces can exist in infinte amounts.
As the capability of Sirin is to connect the bond between spaces of real and imaginary numbers, she reflects what exists within the space of imaginary numbers into that of real numbers, in that manner transforming them into tangible objects. That is also why Judah was easily pierced by a Subspace Lance, as it was an intangible object prior to the transformation into a Subspace Lance, and as such could not interfere with objects existing within the space of real numbers. It is only as Sirin uses it that it acquires the various properties of tangible objects. As such Theresa is heavily harmed, as in that moment the Subspace Lance was completely reflected as a tangible, existing object.
Also, Imaginary Space is a place The Rule above all other existing Rules & the place where essence and roots were formed. Backed up again by Otto: Imaginary Space is "The place of the root of the universe, the place where the laws meet" the beginning of the place where the Universe was born & where the law met. The Imaginary Numbers framework / Space cannot be conceptualized by human logic or defined by physics.
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More detailed explanation about Imaginary Space according to Durandal.
Durandal also says something about Transcending Reality. Is this a metaphorical sentence? No, we can back it up in the Pre-Revelation story where Otto managed to save Kallen by creating a new reality/Posiblites in one of the stems in the Imaginary Tree.
That is to say… In order to reshape the world five hundred years ago, you must transcend reality, become part of the imaginary space, and become a "slave" of the imaginary tree…
In that miraculous moment, I was able to bring the power beyond reality from the "Tree of Imaginary Numbers" to the "Wedge of the World".
Conclusion
Suppose there is a room and in that space there is a large tree along with a vast ocean that has no end / endless.
We call this room = Imaginary Space
The tree we call = Tree of Life / Imaginary Tree
The oceans we call = Sea Of Quanta are oceans that contain dead Multiverse / Fallen worlds.
Imaginary Space encompasses a higher dimensional structure "Imaginary Tree & Sea of Quanta", this is enough to prove that Imaginary Space is also the same" as a "Higher Dimensional Object" where one of the criteria for obtaining a "Higher Dimensional Structure" is by the higher dimensional way is in the form of a large extra dimensional space that encompasses the lower plane and so on, simply put the Higher Dimensional Space exists as a hyperspace in the sense that it is a larger extradimensional space, and encompasses a lower dimensional framework.
For IMG Tree & SoQ, simply put The Imaginary Tree houses the Multiverses that are still alive (Living Worlds) / time is still running, Sea of Quanta Accommodates dead Multiverses (Fallen worlds) the time there has stopped, the world there has been cut off from history, the events there will also continue to repeat "/ stuck in an endless loop.
Imaginary Space does not fit into the "true nothing" criteria, from the context mentioned by Durandal only leads to "Empty Space" and nothing more, and the name alone can be a clue as to why Imaginary "Space". Which means Space still exists there.
Extra Notes
Each leaf containing an uncountable infinite number of 11-D universes.
The Quantum Sea is described as an 11-dimensional "ether bathtub" which is defined by Manifolds and Euclidian Geometry, and sits above the mathematical framework of fourth dimensional space.
The difference between a higher dimension and a lower one is compared to the difference between a reader and a novel
I'll follow thos up later with another Cosmology post on the Sea of Quanta too.
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