#because they're going thru so much shit but they do it together

[viosjaan]

i don't think you want anything to do with me anymore so i can just vent the texts i want to send to you here

#i am sorry #truly genuinely #ive been trying to justify it to myself that we weren't technically together and you said go kiss other people ill still be here meet your #needs in the way you want #but i think it was #yesterday #this guy flirted with me and i flirted back but then suddenly this wave of disgust and self loathing hit me #like what am i even doing #how could i have done that #you were sitting there thinking we're okay you thought we were still together and im just in a bad mood going thru one of those depressive #episodes you were so understanding when you shouldn't have been because if i say im in love with you i should be there for you every step #of the way. #but you go through so much shit alone and im never there for you or atleast not there for you a lot of times and then i blame you for #liking your bestfriends more like it's so stupid obviously love should be reliable stable #and we were something na. we were everything except the label #i should have told you the moment i started feeling empty and dissatisfied again #but just. this isn't an excuse but like i didn't want to hurt you by bringing up this same fight for the one thousandth time #we agreed that you're not in the position to give more and i agreed to be okay with it and i really was. #but i can't help myself i want to give you everything i hate that feeling that i need to be less love less WANT less. mujhse nahi ho pata #i wasn't lying or pretending to be okay with it i was TRYING my best to be okay with it because i love you and this was the only way to #not lose you forever #now i just want to move on fr and be just friends with you. i can't lose you as a person but i don't know how to make this up to you #i am physically incapable of being in this situationship i want a relationship or a friendship i can't with this in between #which is what i told you in jan. i remember my chest actually feeling heavy with fear bc i was so scared of hurting you and getting hurt #again. jokes on me my worst fears came true all the progress we made by taking space is lost #i don't know if you really deleted my playlist. i tried to listen to more songs from it but they're so. lovely. talking about epic grand #love. which we have. but it's like waving a candy in front of a kid and snatching it away it hurts too much to have all the feelings and #none of the relationship. now that ive talked to some people in the romantic sense i get it #you were my best love my most perfect love there are no flaws there's nothing anyone else can do that can be equal or more to what you did #but idk it isn't meant to be maybe there's no future

[frozen-waters]

𝓗𝓮𝓵𝓵𝓸 𝓫𝓻𝓸 ❤️

Can i get uuuuhhhhhhhhhh

Eagle flies and paytah hc?

Thank you 𝓫𝓻𝓸 ❤️

yes!!!!!!!!!!! (all of these are modern)

Eagle Flies and Paytah hcs

• they both go “uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh” before they order at a drive thru or on the phone

• Paytah leaves his empty coffee cups in Eagle Flies car and he doesn't find them until his dad is in the car with him and asks about all the empty coffee cups on the floor of the backseat

• they cannot be on facetime together past ten p.m. because Paytah is passing out and on Eagle Flies side it sounds like he's at a Nascar race or something every single time

• they get way too into board-games

• they cannot cook like. actual food for each other. if they're eating together it either has to be fast food, something they ordered, or something you put in the microwave

• they constantly ghost each other and then go back to talking nonstop for a week

• do not ever let them study together nothing will get done

• when they were in high school they spent so much money on gas station snacks/food when they had sleepovers and they made themselves sick multiple times

• there are never any leftovers between the two of them

• constantly kicking each other under tables

• they fall asleep across from each other on the couch a lot

• can't ever decide on what to watch together. but they often either end up just watching Adult Swim or some weird show they're never able to find again no matter how hard they try

• Paytah threw an apple way too hard at Eagle Flies one time and almost broke his nose

• Paytah wears basketball shorts in the winter and Eagle Flies hates it

• Paytah is just a tiny bit lactose intolerant and Eagle Flies “warns” him not to shit himself whenever he eats something with dairy in it

• sat on the bus together everyday but in high school it evolved to them sitting in separate seats (in front of/behind) and one of them would turn around to talk to the other

• their pictures of each other are never nice they’re always super candid or blurry

• they play sooooooooo much Super Smash Bros and Mario Kart

• if Paytah is walking faster than Eagle Flies he’ll pull him back by the hood on his hoodie

• will plan weekend trips like. one day before the trip actually happens

#rdr2 #eagle flies #eagle flies headcanons #paytah rdr2

[borzoilover69]

(tampers with the gas) dirkjake for the shipping bingo

as you can see my thoughts on them are varied and i can write entire essays. a gas leak made my obsession with them hit an entire level i didnt know was possible. They're everything and nothing to me and i dislike most of fanon abt it and i hate this ship but also i have never cared this much about a ship in general for the doors it could open into messy straight relationship type bullshit with they give me the mic. I find myself often looking thru the tag just to see what people say on it because either theyre completely annoying and wrong or relatively right it really depends.

WARNING: THE FOLLOWING SECTION CONTAINS EXTENSIVE RAMBLING ON A TOPIC NOT MANY PEOPLE ARE INTERESTED IN:

i will both simultaneously defend this ship with my fucking life but also i will take any chance to shoot those two fuckers dead i genuinely wish jake english and dirk strider ill they are teens with attachment issues and i think the demonisation of it w/o looking at it as just a relationship that sort of is messy sucks and i think fanon should leave them the fuck alone. if given the chance i would kill both of them simply so i wouldnt have to see them at all but also i wish there were more meta writers for dirkjake bcus i find it so hard to find people that extrapolate at length abt it because its so wild to me the guilt and the feelings and the way they tear and grate at each other is so interesting to me.

every relationship is worse with them anyone that gets caught in the crossfires and tries to sort it out is basically doomed because whats probably going to happen is that dirk and jake are going to gang up to either a.) try to use the person as a weapon against the other or gang up to hurt this mfer theyre essentially doomed but in like a way that everyone is partying and those two are stuck together with awkward air.

im. not going to check over this ramble im just going to keep going. i have so much shit to say.

i hate the villainisation of dirk i hate the villainisation of jake they both suck in the way that teens and most young adults will theyre both at fault i hate the "jake never felt anything towards dirk because hes aro" yes he fucking did aro people can still feel levels of attraction and its very fucking obvious how tied up in each other they are and there are like a million and one reasons i could name it if you gave me a day and 15 pages of text.

i hope they both kill each other the idea of them being happy together is endearing but i dont want that for them most times unless im feeling especially sappy the fandom sort of ruined dirkjake for me heres my big old fuckyou to OD anyways heres a few song lyrics that make me think of them

They would literally be the subject of so much fucking talk in publications because theyre never over not even close theyre stuck together theyre going to be doing this dance for fucking years and either end up as the strangest but happiest freaks in some janked up mansion with a million different things that the normal person would think is fucking weird and strange and unnerving but which they think is completely normal or theyre just going to end up killing each other and nobody is going to be safe in the crossfire theyre going to key each others cars and send pipe bombs and poke at every single hole and flaw in the others facade blah blah blah.

people who just focus on the good parts of dirk and jake dont get it people who focus on the flaws only dont get it i think there should be more discussion but also the idea of being exposed to someone who doesnt get it is hell for me ive read their pesterlogs like so many fucking times and ive written extensively abt their selves and what flaws they have and i could prolly kick the shit out of them anyways mic drop im done.

#dirkjake #borzoi meta #borzoi talks #homestuck meta #dirk strider #jake english #homestuck #hom3stuck #i literally fucking hate this ship but its also one of the ones i take so serioussly thats why i hate it ive loved it so much i can hate it

[stars-and-magic-swords]

Jwcc for the fandom ask thing!

Thank you for the ask Shadow! Camp Cretaceous deserves all the love and attention, fingers crossed that we see the gang in chaos theory (darius and ben already confirmed let's goooo!!!!)

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most): damn this is tough. It's really, extremely close between yaz and darius, but I'll have to go with yaz (why are 90% of all my favourite characters emotionally repressed?) But yeah she's super cool and strong and her character and development are super interesting and together with sammy they're just cuteness incarnate

scrunkly (my "baby", character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped): darius my baby dino nerd i will never let anyone hurt you (i want to turn him into a plushie and squeeze the life out of him). Also poor dude was going thru this shit at age twelve wtf get him some therapy

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/ underappreciated fave): I really don't see very much love for sammy, sure it's not like people dislike her or anything, but i feel like her character often gets glossed over (is that even an expression that exists?)

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won't shut up about it for a week): dave and roxie (it's two but who cares) honestly I have so much respect for them, they did their very best regarding the circumstances and i will not let anyone say anything negative about them

poor little meow meow ("problematic"/ unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave): hmmmm kenji?? He has some pretty good wet cat vibes in the latest seasons. yes I know there's also early ben but I don't know, maybe because I watched them a long time ago??? I know the fandom adores ben and I love him too but I can't really relate

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason): it seems like a habit of mine, to always torment my favourite characters the most. yeah it's between darius and yaz again, what can you do. there's just so many good and creative ways to hurt them, and they're already traumatised so they basically do half the setup on their own

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell): wait are we saying send them to hell "affectionately" or literally? Anyway I'm gonna go literally because I cannot decide and I'll of course go with kenji's dad. like, what the fuck is wrong with this man

Just realised I didn't mention brooklyn at all, sorry girl please I love you too 😭😭

#jwcc #camp retaceous #jurassic world camp cretaceous

[sugar-omi]

i HAVE TO SHARE THISW SOMEONE!!! picture this . marching band cove . ghegegrgrrgrgrrbrbrbnnnn. i’m on colorguard and i think he would march mello or trumpet 🎺🎺🎺🎺🎺🎺🎺🎺🎺 EEEEE i’m sorry for gushin

omg idk anything about marching band or instruments

i literally played violin once in 3rd grade and i havent touched one since

ANYWAY YES YES YES AND ALSO YOU REMINDED ME ABT WHAT I WAS THINKING OF EARLIER (eta: okay this... became a bit more nsfw at the end than I intended but it's just implied and I can't be bothered to move this to a separate post since I'm on my phone rn but I think I need to write a full fic on this.

ANYWAY IF U WANNA SKIP THRU THIS GO AHEAD BC I RAMBLED WAY TOO MUCH N IM SORRY I TOTALLY TOOK OVER UR RAMBLE <///3 TYSM FOR GUSHING TO ME <33333 cove playong a instrument of any kind would be so asffdfhjlhq AND HE'DBE A BIT SASSY N HE JUST KNOWS HES THE SHIT... PLS...)

okay imagine band au and lets say youre the main singer, and cove is on bass/electric guitar or smth

and a lot of your songs start to become about cove. about being in love with him. about thinking about having him in your bed. about his eyes and how he makes you feel like you're drowning bc you love him so much.

and sometimes you lean into him during a song, doing a little dance step with him and the audience can see how much you yearn for each other.

OR EVEN BETTER IN MY OPINION

you are a backup singer or play an instrument as well, and cove is still on bass/electric guitar and while the main singer is doing the songs, you and cove are in the back giving heart eyes to each other and if you're not on drums or doing the keyboard (or playing any other instrument that requires sitting, idk) then you two lean into each other, maybe doing a little spin or smth and just as all over each other as you can be while performing.

and the pap have a FIELD DAY with it

so does your fans!!!!

and no matter what your position in the band is, there are thousands of photos and articles of you two leaving a restaurant together, or laughing over food and drink from thru the windows

or they see you wearing cove's jacket or shirt...

cove leaving your house early in the morning, or in interviews you two are giving heart eyes and even better if one or both of you is giving bedroom eyes to the other (they love asking if you two are dating or fucking)

if you don't mind having a laugh over confusing the paparazzi and even do it yourself. cove will shrug or smirk and go "wouldn't you like to know." and he'll put a arm around you and lead you away from all the reporters.

(implied sex under the cut👍👍👍👍🫶)

imagine getting drunk and kissing each other. you're so lost in the music blasting in the club and the taste of each others lips, and when cove's tongue slips into your mouth you can't even think abt if there's the flash of cameras because the flashing club lights help add to your daze when cove pulls away, grinning about how much he loves you and when you say you love him too, you find yourself in your managers car.

they're complaining about how much you've drank, but they drop you off at cove's house and speed off so they can go pick up the rest of your members, hoping they haven't gotten as drunk as you two in the time they've been gone.

you don't pay attention to any of it, walking on shaky feet to cove's front door and he's more busy kissing your neck than finding his keys so you push him up against the door and take his keys from his back pocket, stumbling through the door when you finally get it open with much struggle.

and you crash onto his bed, cove grinning drunkily up at you, his big hands felt like they were burning your skin and it's all such a blur of lips, tongue, loud moaning, and "I love you"'s

when you wake up its because of your manager blowing up your phones, and when cove fumbles for your phone that's ringing on the floor beside the bed, he answers w a groggy "hello..?"

(it makes your manager madder but you don't know that)

he puts it on speaker, just letting them yell about the pictures the pap published from last night.. and like the assholes yall are you go to the camera app, settling yourself in cove's lap and he pulls the sheets up to cove your lower halves, the sheet caught between his arm and your exposed (and thoroughly marked) back, cove giving the camera a hooded look as he hides his smile in your shoulder..

your manager starts yapping about something, you weren't paying attention, trying to shush each others giggles as you move around to take another picture, this time with your hands tangled in cove's hair and giving him a kiss (if you can even call it that since you're both smiling too much)

and as your manager finally stops ranting...

"you might wanna check my insta." and you hang up before they can start yelling again <3

#olba #cove holden #our life: beginnings & always #cove holden x reader

[bluudpop]

was looking thru ur art earlier and I think its so funny that while you have trans manlet gil, i headcanon trans manlet roderich. they r simply mlm (manlet4manlet)

yes...................... good.......... trans manlet headcanon gang............. hehehehehehehehehehehe rubs hands together evilly >:)

also finally fun opportunity to talk about this because we do need more trans manlet bitches up here right?

watch me go on a fucjing tangent are u ready

first off with trans manlet gilbert: im projecting bros. but also?? i just find it super fucking funny. gilbert, with his personality, would absolutely HATE being shorter than other people AND not being cis, so i'm putting him through the torture chambers with this one - but i also think he'd be an absolute menace about it, y'know??

another thing is, i just like making every variation of prussia a tiny little shit in my brain (julia, teutonic order, nekotalia, etc.)

now i want to talk about trans manlet roderich because this one's interesting - i love this idea but i think gilbert would be transphobic about it which, in my brain, is funny as fuck (not condoning transphobia, this is for the sole purpose of how they mix like oil and water sometimes) because also in my silly little mind, this is caused by gilbert having internalised homo/transphobia........... and seeing how pruaus is like giving either of us crack, how the fuck would pruaus happen here???? enemies to mf lovers baby!!!!! along woth internalised homo/transphobia, i think gil would do this to try getting over any feelings he has for roderich which yeah. awful coping mechanism, GREAT GOING M8 👏👏👏

here r my thoughts but gil fucks off:

it makes sense. like rod is the kind of guy youll see and think, "oh, maybe? is he?" or, you'd just get confused about his gender (which im gonna be real actually slaps, its so funny when they're like "oh shit is that a dude or a girl.......... o_o"). but i also feel like he'd face so much transphobia which could explain why he wouldn't go outside often (evident by his lack of direction & introversion, imo. unless it was stated somewhere but shut up im braining) and probably wont until after he fully transitions which, fair enough.

anyways thats my spiel on the trans manlets

tl;dr im a sadist

#reminder that im also transmasc to anyone else reading this #i feel like i havent said enough #but i dont want this to be TOO long #hetalia #aph prussia #hws prussia #gilbert beilschmidt #aph austria #hws austria #roderich edelstein #pruaus #asks #slay button

[chocolatespyro]

Me learning to not give people the benefit of the doubt when they've been given the benefit of the doubt about 50 times already

(III 15 edition. Spoilers under the cut if you still haven't seen it somehow.)

EDIT: Took out the part about them not mentioning her disability since Bot does say that they wouldn't want Cabby to forget iirc, also about them not thinking kids would understand disability since I wasn't happy with those points and I feel they were inaccurate or somewhat off-topic. That's pretty much it though.

The more I think abt it the more I can see how the Bot apology sucks lmaoooo

Dunno if this was a point made on Twitter (I've heard there's been discontent there? I dont have Twitter tho but I'd LOVE to hear more from other Cabby fans abt what's going on there. u can leave comments on this post if u want or u can just rb and do it thru tags.)

Anyways, to my main points: Bot just says they're sorry for... forcing Cabby to get permission to use her files?

What about them lying to Cabby? I don't believe they ever really apologized for that. OR TOLD HER THAT THEY LIED??

Bot also doesn't really apologize for the other main points people were upset for I think?

I don't think bot ever really takes full accountability for judging Cabby either. No one does really. Like... at least an

"I'm sorry. I really screwed up, and so did a lot of the other contestants. We were too harsh and judgmental towards you for no reason, and our insecurities shouldn't have gotten in the way of you being able to remember. This was supposed to be a fun and welcoming environment and vacation... but it became a nightmare for you instead. I know this won't make up for all the damage done, but I hope this file is useful to you."

(maybe reworded some to fit Bot's personality better, but the apology shouldn't have just been this quick one-off moment taken to the side like in canon.)

To kinda add to the above, I also think it would've been nice if Bot fully noticed and acknowledged HOW other people haven't been treating Cabby very kindly too by giving examples of where nobody stood up for her. Lifering was a great supportive person in the episode, but Bot was there for some of the shit that was pulled against Cabby, ESPECIALLY in episode 7. I so wish that that was acknowledged here. And the fact that Test Tube went directly behind Cabby's back to do that. Where does Bot think Test Tube got those files from?

There's also the fact that Test Tube never approaches to apologize for judging Cabby for no reason. Like she just stares at Cabby and Bot hugging for a few seconds after Bot apologizes that's it. And she... doesn't accuse Cabby. That's the barest fucking minimum she could've done.

Also... the "inaccurate depictions" thing wasn't even true outside of Baseball's file... and that was a bunch of contrived bs. Like Suitcase literally had this whole thing where she stood up to Nickel and I guess... Cabby glossed over that somehow??? I can't suspend my disbelief this much sorry all. Idk where the "Manipulated by Balloon" shit came from. Correct me if I'm wrong bcus I haven't seen season 2.

The only reason why it was inaccurate with Bot is because Cabby thought Bot was Bow, something Cabby IMMEDIATELY corrected herself on. Bot coulda just... reminded Cabby that it wasn't her fault because she didn't know Bot and Bow were two different objects and told Cabby to just... start a new file like others said??? So that shit didn't make sense.

The apology just... kinda feels shallow. Cabby didn't do anything wrong here. She's beaten herself up over this shit. It just hurts to watch.

Bot only really apologized for a single thing and we don't get any acknowledgement towards the lying or the mistreatment or Cabby destroying Bow's file as some sort of garbage symbolism attempt.

Bot's apology was kinda supposed to tie everything together and top everything off nicely in a better and at least slightly more satisfying way than whatever the fuck 14 did, but it just... doesn't. It barely acknowledges the issues. They don't really show how seriously they screwed up with Cabby.

I wanna believe that AE has the best intentions here, but they're on very thin ice in my eyes. If they screw up any next steps with Cabby and/or never address Cabby's issues with Test Tube ever again, I think I'm done having any kind of faith in AE. Even Cabby winning wouldn't save it.

Yeah sorry this got really depressing, this situation is just sad

#ii neg #bot neg #test tube neg

[slushglow]

leosagi coming of age au blurb

Yuichi shrugs, and there's something distant in the way his eyes rove across the horizon; something blank and empty and a little scary, the way he won't look in Leo’s direction.

It reminds Leonardo of those months before Yuichi was hospitalized, when his best friend would look through him instead of at him, and it makes his guts churn with guilt.

He didn't recognize it the first time around. He's not making the same mistake again.

“Fuck, I'm sorry,” He tries to amend, scooting closer on the bench, hands hovering but not touching as he tries to gauge if his touch would even be welcome at all, “You don't have to answer that. That was really shitty of me. I–”

A hand wraps around one of his own suddenly, interrupting him into silence. He looks up to find Yuichi’s gaze already on him, steady and clear and there.

“Leo, it's okay.” Yuichi murmurs. His voice is as raspy as always, but it's gone soft around the edges, and the tilt of his mouth is kind, if a little uneasy. His fingers curl around Leo’s, warm and tender, and he squeezes once before gently slipping away, hand retreating to his own lap.

Leo feels the absence like a missing limb, almost, the crisp fall air a million times colder than usual. He swallows past the relief stuck in his throat as he settles his own hands back into his lap, resisting the urge to rub his palms together incessantly, nerves writhing in his chest like worms.

Silence prevails, for just a moment.

Leonardo tries not to feel like he's going to crawl out of his skin, lungs rattling between his ribs with every breath. He almost wants to ask if it really is okay, because from where he's sitting, Yuichi seems like he's spiraling all the same.

He doesn't remember there ever being this weight between their silences, cloying and choking them both with all the things left unsaid.

And it physically feels like there's a hole punching through his chest; the thought that something as simple as time apart has made them so unfamiliar with each other.

okay since more than three whole people liked my last post i will publish the blurb HAHAHHA if enough people r interested i might actually publish the whole thing somewhere but for now it's my brainchild and it's actually pretty heavy in terms of stuff it covers . basically it's a high school au where mutants and humans coexist so the boys r still turtles and usagi is still a rabbit etc etc but they're all just trying to get thru shit and high school is stressful and there's mental health issues and what not . it's leo focused tho but everyone has a big role, like his brothers and their family dynamics and splinter and their dynamics and yuichi and leo being bffs, etc etc . also should make it clear that this is my version of usagi still !! emo usagi peak 😎

it'll be from leo's perspective unless i feel like being crazy and giving yuichi or another character an interlude or something. the entire fic would only span about 4-5 chapters probably but my chapters r usually REALLY long . i used to write for other fandoms and my chapters were hitting 10-12k easy but i stopped publishing and deleted everything bc i was cringe and not free HAHAHAHA

tbh i've already got it all pretty lined out and know where i want it to go it's just the process of getting there and filling stuff up in the middle OUGGHHHH . i luv writing tho it's so much easier than art !!! writing is life on easy mode fr !! waiting for my art process to do the same 🤨🤨

UHHHH anyway very sorry for rambling again everyone feel free to ask questions about the au if u want even tho i have given u bare bones info and absolutely no context for this scene BAHAHAHA

#rottmnt #tmnt #leosagi #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #save rottmnt #save rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #save rise of the tmnt #teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #angst #angst with a happy ending #writing #blurb #emo usagi

[paso-liati]

What if Crowley isn’t actually a demon? (Or really more like, what if it doesn’t mean anything to be a demon - or an angel come to that - if you just stop being a company man. and just. be you)?

There is a line in the book about Crowley doing a long dive into a lake of boiling sulfur, as if he remembers Lucifer and the guys and the process of Damnation from guilt by association or whatever. But maybe it’s half memory, half guesswork. And idk if that’s still canon in TV version. If so, then he’s a demon (for whatever that’s worth) and maybe breaks this meta. or, maaaaybe not.

Anyway, we know angels can lie, like it’s physically possible for a lie to escape their mouth holes (Az, not that infrequently). We know angels can be sinister (The Metatron), callous (all the archangels except maaaybe Saraqael - I sense there may be hope for them from how they were acting when the metatron showed up). And we know demons can feel love and speak truth (Beez w Gabe, and Hastur was p fuckin blisting mad about Ligur’s eradication, so maybe it IS a funny old world where demons trust each other. And just don’t admit it).

Angels and demons are practically the same thing or at least some of them. A distinction without (much more than) aesthetic difference.

Angels and demons cooperate. Michael brings holy water to Hell. Eric (?) the disposable demon brings hellfire to Heaven. Crowley hot foots it in a church like someone barefoot on hot asphalt. But he and Eric walked thru heaven just fine. Crowley plays in Heaven like he owns the fuckin place. Is Heaven itself not consecrated ground?? Michael also walked thru hell no problems.

Aziraphale and Crowley fucking soul-slid past or through each other to switch corporations.

No problem. No exploding. Like changing clothes. Almost like the ethereal beings sliding past or through one another aren’t actually meaningfully different. I mean, maybe it's just them, but when Beez and Gabe faded away together, I don't get the impression it as separate unlinked entities. They just. shed their corporations and went of ethereally. togoether

More similarities: Demons and Angels all have magic and it’s p similar.

They look different but how much of that reflects True Form we never see. And anyway, they mostly all look funny to a human. They're basically cosplaying humans without really knowing what "humans" are. When you get a corporation, it's prob like trying to pick the shirt you like best when you've never actually. seen. a real shirt?

It’s like a different style of looking funny for angels and for demons but it’s like if you’re an angel you kit is beige. (Except notice the notable clothes-horse Gabriel always preferred grey and I think didn’t have any visible gold scars (from the war? Idk)). Demons go for darker hues in their kit but it’s all very teamish and I swear it feels like they just get traded and don’t get a choice of contract.

More more similarities: Every last one of them is an old soldier and it seems like when the conflict is arch-demon v arch-angel they try to xmas truce that shit and sing kumbaya as fast as they fucking can. Demon v demon or angel v angel over personal beef seems to be the conflicts they’re actually resolved to put some sweat into. Even doing armageddon just seemed like something to do because it was on the roster.

So, what if Crowley was mind wiped, exiled to hell with a change of his external presentation of clothes (wings + ability to shape shift) and… not really much else, and told he’s a demon. He’d prob believe it and adopt the stereotypical presentation the way Jim adopted a mild-mannered assistant shop-keeper aesthetic or the way Beez changed their face. Except for Gabriel being vain af, it doesn't seem like any of them are overly attached to how they look (to us). In fact I don't even think they recognise each other by that. Crowley makes himself look all sorts of ways and Aziraphale recognises him immediately. Az haunts a human woman and Crowley just knows it's him.

More, more, more suggestions of similarities; Muriel doesn't even seem to know Crowley is a demon until the archangels tell them (the line is something like, "that explains the grumpiness"). Muriel must have known Crowley was some kind of not-human, but just... nothing screamed "here there be demons."

SO:

I wonder, are some demons in hell actually just exiled, amnesiac angels who woke up there and were handed some kind facsimile/stereotype of an identity to kind of do something with somehow, and the job of apparently more or less just milling around the office looking busy?

I mean c’mon, is Eric really demonic? All the little fucker does is ask A Lot of annoying (but not entirely worthless) questions. Same for Beez’s concerned, loquacious adjutant who gets threatened with torture. Furfur’s great villainy seems to be ambition. Shax's as well, unless incompetence is a high sin

So anyway, I keep wondering if they're actually fundamentally different, or if they've just been kept in these rigid structures and conditioned to think they're different, and build up this whole mythos of being hereditary enemies and all that, and really they just live on different floors of the same building, and have different tastes in music

One thing against my theory is it seemed like the arch-angels in S1 could smell Crowley having been in the shop. Maybe? But then they seemed to maybe believe (with a heavy dose of suspicion) Az when he said it just a certain author's set of books (Archer maybe?)

#still feral #good omens #good omens meta #good omens 2 #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers #probably #I can't remember which books Az deflects with #and I can't pull up the show rn #I only have mobile internet until Tuesday #and Vodafone is def something Crowley messed with #bc it is sloooooooowww #sorry this is so long #call me paso loquatious #my meta

[bunkernine]

PLEASE speak abt the parents Beryl Tristan and Esperanza 🙏 🙏 🙏

Ok outside of firmly believing that those parents HAVE to be legacies (esperanza ESPECIALLY or at least she saw thru the mist) I'm just gonna blab about an AU that makes me laugh. The way I spent 30 mins writing this instead of my finals...

Quick run down: the three of them were friends, tristan and beryl as childhood friends actually, and then they accidentally kill a man (monster)

Beryl:

Grew up poor in a small town, "trailer trash", extremely critical alcoholic mother. Dad left when she was a kid. Had an older brother who left as soon as he could and never calls

Enjoyed watching movies and tv to imagine a better life she can live in

Nerdy as hell in school, wore the biggest glasses in the world. Had a huge crush on tristan for YEARS, especially when he got hot in high school, but liked him before too

Esperanza

Has the sight, can see thru the mist and it scares the shit out of her. Part of why Rosa thinks Leo is fucking devilspawn cuz Esperanza thought she was seeing demons. She moved around a lot growing up because of that fear, but also Hazel's curse

Kinda a rebellious punk, wildchild younger sibling. Her and Rosa are CONSTANTLY fighting

She moves into Tristan and Beryl's town in high school, after her mom died.

There's a satyr and demigod in her class. She doesnt think too much of it. Her teacher is weird....

Tristan

Kinda geeky, has 5 siblings but never talks about them too much. Was always a very sweet and quiet kid. Childhood friends with beryl, also poor too

Super into Ezperanza because she's different. Even when she's weird and mumbling about being chased she's still sooo cool compared to the town they're in.

Okay so now that they're in high school... I think this would be the early 80s 🙂 they essentially are together in a rag tag group, lost trio style, until they see a demigod getting attacked. Tristan hits the monster with his car. The 3 of them are HORRIFIED because they killed a man, but Esperanza keeps talking about monsters and explains it. The demigod's satyr is fucking young Hedge 💀 he's shit at his job so he just tells them about demigods and stuff.

Beryl is slowly ENAMORED by this. Starts drinking from this event but she is DELIGHTED by the idea of a new better world out there. Ezperanza feels like SHIT! She thinks this is all her fault and she's cursed. Tristan is going CRAZY, racked with grief. He is not doing well at ALL!!!!

Anyway they go to college with this in California together, mostly out of being closer but also fear of this secret (dead body) weighing on them. A few more monster and minor god encounters. Eventually, Hedge has to mist-wipe Tristan's memories because hes going crazy, which causes Hedge's issue with the Council of satyr elders or whatever. Idk its in the books lol. But this causes them all to separate and go their separate ways when Tristan can't remember the other two.

Beryl drops out of college, and gets scouted as she is waitressing. Has her big break, goes onto TV and gets famous. She begins to forget some of the little things about how much the demigod world is HORRIBLE. Once, she meets up with Esperanza and they stumble into a minor god, which makes her remember how much she wants to be in that world. She meets Zeus at a party :) and thinks he's charming and powerful, just different. It reminds her of the monster experience. She fucks that man obviously. Desire for something different to her shit life. She is CRAZY!!! 🩷

Esperanza goes to New Rome Uni because i luv that place idk if they allow mortals but she will!!!!! Because she goes to that fake school, no mortals really take her degree seriously which is why it was harder for her to get a job. Never taken seriously. She heads back to Texas eventually. She know he's Hepaestus when he approaches her at a library, doesn't like the idea of getting involved with that god stuff. Still falls in love. When her great grandfather falls ill (Sammy) she demands hepaestus to stay with her. He doesn't obviously, but he promises to come back, if not for her than for Leo. He has to. He doesn't.

Tristan doesn't go to college, he just works at like, fucking Hollister or Abercrombie because he's hot now. He meets Aphrodite a few times but she's busy and he doesnt give in. Eventually they meet at the beach surfing and she's like "I've been trying to get your attention for a while now"... She doesn't tell him she's a goddess but Tristan kinda has a familiar feeling. He's forgotten what it was but she just feels different. When piper grows up, aphrodite sends little gifts to "her favorite heartthrob" and he just gives it to Piper.

......

Anyway it was just putting little seeds together + being crazy. Beryl and Esperanza sometimes still talked. They met once when they were pregnant and talked about their kids playing together. Esperanza, seeing theu the mist, had an idea that Beryl was fucking a god, but its not like she has high standing either. Beryl and Tristan bumped into each other with their acting careers, but Tristan doesnt really remember Beryl the way he should. Esperanza and Tristan have some kind of twisted relationship I fear of will they, wont they with Beryls jealousy 🙄 such it is. Naturally the same with Beryl and Esperanza 🙏

#esperanza valdez #tristan mclean #beryl grace

[wawawawawawawawawawawawawa]

Working on a fic rn that is killing me, I GOTTA talk about it. Imagine ftm Izaya being asked by Shinra and Celty to be their surrogate bc their options are limited and they assume he wouldn't be able to get attached to the baby bc of his aspd and general disposition (unfair assumption on their part) Izaya only agrees bc he can't stand the idea of disappointing Shinra and proceeds to go through the mental anguish of dysmorphia and carrying a baby that's not even his that he wants to love so much

i. man. ive been presenting this ask to my friends all day because this is such a good fucking idea. this is perhaps the best drr fic of all time by my personal ranking (which also happens to be the correct ranking) and i thought id give you a couple fun little bits of informed mation that could possibly help you with this fic :) one of them is surrogacy related the other is aspd related

SO!!! the first thing i did was show my fiance and i said, well, izaya could keep the baby if he wanted, surrogacy laws are in his favor. but then i thought..... are they? because i was basing that off surrogacy laws in the us..... so i googled it!

surrogacy in japan is um, Extremely Controversial! first off, surrogates do have legal guardianship of the baby, the parents who want the baby have to go thru a formal adoption process, and if it goes to court, courts would most likely side with the surrogate.

BUT!!!!!! the welfare of the child is explicitly stated to be the first and foremost concern. at the end of the day, a married couple could very well win over a single man, especially a single man with antisocial personality disorder, if his diagnosis is on record anywhere. (of course this is all dependent on whether or not izaya GOES to court, and if celty can keep her helmet on and pose as a mute human woman)

either way, this all but confirms that shinra would be izaya's obgyn. imagine at every checkup, shinra is cooing over how well his baby is doing, completely oblivious to how upset izaya is <3 did u know that if you're trans and you get pregnant, you have to stop taking your hrt? too much testosterone can cause miscarriages- very high levels of natural T is actually why i'm infertile </3 so that can be a little extra angst for izaya~ <3

NEXT! THING!!

let me introduce u to the concept of aspd exceptions <3

it's..... kind of like the aspd version of a pwbpd's favorite person? kind of? not really

it's like. sometimes, for one person, the aspd will not be aspding. they're... literally the exception to how your symptoms work. things like empathy and yeah even remorse will work within like, normal operating levels. it's kind of weird tbh and kind of distressing? like, since you're not used to these emotions being there, especially with how strong they are, you have no way to cope with them. it sucks major ass and while it can being people closer together, it also sucks major ass. like.... if you never felt remorse before, suddenly feeling remorse over something you commonly do just because you did it to one Specific Person, leaves you with this very strong, very bad emotion, that you have no way to cope with!

and its not just remorse too, things like empathy fire off at full cylinders, so like... if ur used to just using cognitive empathy and logicing out things, imagine how much itd suck to suddenly be ass blasted by Functioning Normally Affective Empathy

anyway there's this one lady on tiktok who has aspd, and she talks about aspd symptoms a lot. she has a young child, and that child is her exception

get what i'm getting at here? ;) imagine izaya going thru all this then, while already distressed, dysphoric, and hormonal, shit like EMPATHY and strong STRONG emotional ties started kicking in wrt his baby and now he has to deal with extremely strong emotions he is not used to!

(and in case ur wondering, yes i do have exceptions, but who it exactly IS changes from time to time and the feeling ebbs away over time too so sometimes i don't have one)

anyway!!! i love this fic already. PLEASE dm me i need to go absolute ham over this with you. please. please . i can introduce u to my friends so thats like. 3 friends for the price of one

please tell me this ends happily i do not think i would be able to handle it if it did not. please. i am crying and begging and pissing . please.

#wasks #PLEEEEAASSEEEEE I NEED TO GO HAM OVER THIAS #if u wrote this id draw fanart id fucking bookbind it #handbound fucking bookbinding with a custom cover drawn by yours truly #fucking physical release complete with merch package

[kafus]

oh hey ive been meaning to ask is there an easy or preferred way to get into kamitsubaki lore esp for vwp. ive tried to skim the website like 3 separate times & only picked up the very very basics

ok so the problem with kamitsubaki lore is that literally like Most of it that is direct and not just implied thru music videos/twitter posts happened in a fuckign ARG that is... kind of lost media kind of not. the kamitsubaki city ARG took place on a website where players were given new... riddles and tasks called Qs every day for the month of october in 2021 and that website is now inaccessible but people i know archived and translated all the content they could so it's still viewable in some fashion. a couple of my friends practically singlehandedly edit the kamitsubaki fandom wiki and you can find all the "story fragments" (cutscenes from the ARG with direct story) translated here (oh and there's also lost media from before the ARG from kaf's old fanbox page that is now inactive/lost media... i have all of the images from that but they aren't all typeset yet so i'd have to get back to you on that one. it's dubious whether all that stuff is still canon anyways, a lot of it seemed conceptual before kamicity was properly outlined. one day i'll compile all this shit somewhere for everyone to have easy access since the wiki is kinda eh for it)

when you said "skim the website" i assume you're talking about the website for the narrative TTRPG stuff? perhaps? sorry kamitsubaki has websites all over the place it's kind of a disaster. i can't give too much information on this one honestly, my japanese isn't good enough and i'm a little bit behind, but afaik other than the tutorial after you sign up which walks you through a scenario with one of the girls as TTRPG practice, the rest is just... TTRPG stuff. like you making up stories with other players within the setting and whatnot. you'd have to browse through it. (eventually there's going to be some sort of small video game related to all of this. exciting. who knows when that'll happen)

there is also some stuff to do with the cr/ypto project that's loosely correlated with kamitsubaki city i guess but not really you can ignore that. and i would ignore it. i do

otherwise it's kind of like vocaloid song series where the VWP music videos contain hints to lore/metaphorically show what's happening. occasionally art is posted to the hashtag # STORY_VWP on twitter too which contains art correlated with the actual story of kamicity.

if you want my basic breakdown and understanding, tldr the girls r summoned from elsewhere by a mysterious organization called the Restoration Foundation to use magic singing powers to restore life to a city, but the city is doomed to end in apocalypse from fishlike creatures called Tessaracters every single time and they're like. in a time loop with varying amounts of memory retrieval trying to save kamitsubaki city and go home. there seems to be a lot of significance with what clothes the girls are wearing in different media and etc etc

Sorry i'm sleepy and this is probably too long and also a mess. the reason it's a mess though is because VWP lore is a mess and that's part of the fun for me. if you have more specific questions about specific parts i probably can help with an answer though! i'm not as into it as some other people but the lore is still fun to theorize on and i like seeing symbolism in the music videos.

this isn't even touching on like. how there's the kaf membership manga canon which is just an official comic where vwp is in high school together. or otogibanashi which was a series of... spoken skits? that kaf put on at her concerts for a while and has yet to be concluded and is a completely different universe from the rest of the vwp lore. Truly an enigma

by the way look at this video of one of my fandom friends posting a shitpost gif we made into the japanese kamicity ARG discord chat during a livestream. we made kaf laugh. the joke is that parrot was so annoying you don't want to know. i am so proud of this communityjsfdksdf

#asks #red-dyed-sarumane #sorry again for the mess omg #kiki was here #this may not have helped at all LOL

[yuukei-yikes]

Would to hear more about the process behind Shintaro trying to be a dad. Does he go to parenting classes with Ayano and take notes or does he just kind of wing it and cry

i actually think he's not trying to be a dad bc OK listen. i have a very detailed sitcom slash romcom way this goes i hope ur ready for my Delusion

when ayano starts her process with adopting this kid it's pretty out of nowhere and cuz she gets attached to a kid matilda style its not that she's like omg im ready to be a mom it just kinda happens. so she's not super prepared and adopting is yknow A Process SO. according to me myself and i shintaro sells some of his melodies as commercial jingles LOLLLLL and makes a shit ton of money out of it so he starts helping ayano financially thru this process cuz he has THE MONEY🔥🔥🔥 she's his friend and this is important to her!!!!!

by then they're already close friends again and all bc also in this context they've broken up🔥🔥🔥 but like 6 years ago or something so i wouldn't say this is when they're bonding or catching feelings again. they already did hehe... they're already close again by then and able to be like damn our relationship when we were 18 was a disaster lol what were we thinking.

anyways so shintaro's used to the kid bc he spends a lot of time with him and ayano. i should name the kid but i HAVENT so for now its The Kid. soooo its not like shintaro needs to take notes or anything because he is already familiar with ayano and her kid and the dynamic and viceversa so. its pretty much natural. he doesnt need lessons or anything, he knows the kid and he's slowly bonding with ayano normally as a couple theyre not immediately married living together raising the kid. nah. he's just mom's boyfriend at first definitely

shintaro and ayano are very self aware of it and ayano's like im not asking u to parent my kid but im also not gonna choose you over him and shintaro's like yes ma'am. but also he inevitably kind of parents him just from staying over and helping ayano around and etc etc. it's just gradual hehe...

around the time shinaya are first dating and shintaros just the guy that comes over the kid is still not calling ayano mom so its like. sometimes a family is me, the lady thats nice to me and some guy who pays our groceries for some reason. i think itd be funny if the kid starts calling ayano mom. but keeps calling shintaro just shintaro FOREVER even after shintaro moves in and after he marries ayano and like he's properly his dad but he's still JUST shintaro

i definitely need to come up with a name for this little guy. he will get 2 more siblings his age ayano and shintaro adopt when they are indeed married and properly adopting together and then a baby sister. by the way. if you even care.

erm... im normal i promise. do you enjoy my sitcom/romcom situation

#ask tag #kagekids #headcanons #shinaya

[jennyandvastraflint]

Xena Reactions S2Ep20.

A river?

FISHING :D

"Don't talk to your breakfast"

Abfhdhdd Xena is such a lil shit

HUAH A MAN. EW. Damn if I pulled that to land...

The horde?

Oh SHIT dead men

Mmmmmm... Sensing more really racist villains...

Oh she damaged the boat

Oh Xena's fought them before

She is going thru it with her bad memories...

Gabrielle has a really cute hairstyle rn, the lil braids 🥰

"Things are going to get worse, especially with what I'll have to do to get us out of here" 👀

THAT'S VERY. UM. BRUTAL...

"They're calling for Athena"

"No we got you now. We're keeping you."

A RAINBOW 🌈 Oh you mean the waterfall. Obviously there's a waterfall

Yeah this is just one lot with weapons murdering the other lot with weapons... Really shitty overall and it would be better if everyone sat down and talked. But isn't that the case with so much

*dramatically dies* K bye then

Oh he's a fucking bullyyy

"You can't reason with dead men" Hmmm

Bet it's not a god? Bet it's just something small?

Sjdjdbs her just scaring the guy

Maybe stop calling them "things" and "it"

Uh oh. Is this Xena falling back into old patterns....

Oh yeah Gabrielle is SHOCKED

Gabrielle doing the healing and taking care of the wounded

Oop. Yeah Xena fell into these patterns VEEEERY easily...

"If they can do that, they can carry a weapon" AAAAH 😭

Gabrielle hates this side of Xena... There'll be some tension after this, yeeesh

Oh they have archers

OH FUCK I HATE THAT.

GABRIELLE I'M WITH YOU :( NOOOO

Xena is drunk on the nostalgia rushing in. But it'll cost her so much with Gabrielle. Gabrielle can't do this. And neither can I.

"I don't care! So long as this man still breathes, he's in my-... care" 😭😭😭

"What is going on with you?" AAAH

"You're scaring me" SHFHDHD T_T

HAVE YOU EVEN TRIED EXACTLY. FFS.

Gabrielle will try, won't she

Smoke bombs?

"WHERE'S XENA"

Yuck the redfacing...

XENA.

"the animal" FUCK OFF!?

"Gabrielle go outside" "No."

"Don't do this. It's murder."

"SO I CAN BE A MURDERER TOO?" Oh she's bringing out the big guns

XENAAAA YOU'RE SCARING ME

"What part of this don't you understand?" "You."

I DON'T LIKEYYYY :(((

"It's not a god. The dying men just want water"

"That's the price isn't it, losing your humanity"

XENA. DON'T BE LIKE THAT. OMFGGGG

Gabrielle is the best babygirl I love her

YES AND IF YOU WOULD'VE JUST LISTENED. TALKED. OMFG

Gabrielle just declared a truce by providing an act of kindness in this horrible bloodshed

"Looks like you've got your battle to the death"

XENA'S HUMANITY IS FIGHTING BACK BECAUSE OF GABRIELLE

Please don't fuck this up...

You could've just tried to communicate earlier :)

Xena going soft watching Gabrielle take care of the wounded

"You understand hatred but you've never given into it. You don't know how much I love- that."

XENA HELPING

"But we'll walk down that road together" 🏳️‍🌈

Xena don't you dare kill him.

Oop. Yeah I'm still uncomfortable with that racism. Very yikes.

"It won't be warriors, it'll be someone like you"

#v watches xena #An episode of YIKES that aged horribly wtf was this racism #xena and gabrielle #xena warrior princess #xena

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i have small hope for macden because i feel like sunny writers room brains would go Wouldn’t it be funny if two of the characters who sucked absolute ass and have had terrible times of strain were actually healthier in a romantic relationship than the other people they hang out with… but i also believe they think it’s not as funny as fucking it up sooo bad, if they ever made it canon. this is the plight of A Sunny Loser

yeah i mean again i still think that since they went thru the trouble of bringing back the Cat In The Wall metaphor from Break Up in s15 and having Dennis' arc echo a lot of the same beats as Mac's storylines in HOHC, MFHP, Mac Day, etc. makes me think there's something being set up here... Which isn't even mentioning the more obvious Brokeback refs including Den breaking his fuckin back on a mountain at the very end and caring a little too much about a tattoo on Mac's body that he wouldn't be seein unless he's already seeing/planning on seeing Mac's upper thigh on a regular basis it's.. just... if they don't do shit in s16 i'll be fuckin confused. but i feel like the girls have said that since Foreverrrr so idk! I do agree i think rcg are def scared of botching the storyline cuz again if they didn't care about botching it they would've done something with it already, and they nearly did botch it with DDL.. and I remember while they were writing s15 last year Rob mentioned his desire but how difficult it was to specifically bring a gay man into the writer's room so I feel like part of the feet dragging is coming from a place of good intention since Rob has a whole 'i gotta do right by the gays' thing lmao. but that being said I feel like they have written Mac/Den well already, so they just need to have a little faith in themselves LOL. If they're just afraid of failure the whole time it'll come thru in the writing n it won't be good. They gotta have some confidence in what they're writing and that itself has a lot of pull.

I personally think that they should just go for it because it'd be a way to freshen up the dynamics (esp if they are really gonna keep going for a few more seasons or possibly indefinitely) while still keeping it consistent. A lot of people seem to think that Mac/Den getting together would 'ruin the show' or forsake the formula... But I feel like both the s14/s15 finales had a very 'fuck our original formula' subtext to 'em anyway. And also I personally miss Macden's dynamic being like it was in Manhunters/Frank's Pretty Woman/Dines Out... Eps like that show that just bc MacDen are happy together doesn't make them better people so it'd still fit with Sunny's overall 'this is a show about bad people' motto. And I think it wouldn't be THAT different if they were overtly out and in a relationship cuz they have been written to have romantic subtext n sexual tension right along anyway. It's just been a matter of rcg going back and forth on whether to have the characters themselves realize that and embrace it or not. Cuz we see even in eps like 'Jumper' and 'Big Mo' that rcg have concluded that always just playing it safe and sticking to the formula or "the algorithm" is less satisfying than writing to what feels more satisfying in a story. I believe MFHP was kinda a major turning point for them and also worked as a sorta "dry run" for how a MacDen storyline might play with audiences.

But again, who knows! It seems like they're having fun in the writer's room so far at least, and so we'll have to wait n see what that means for MacDen's stryline if anything when we get there LOLLLL.

#i rlly love this show as a whole so I'm not basing my desire to watch off of this one storyline #but it IS a storyline ive come to rlly care abt cuz it resonates w me #again i didnt come to Sunny for macden like that wasn't even one of my expectations for watching the show #but once i saw it i rlly cared n so i do want em to handle it carefully n do it right #and macden has a strong foundation so i believe they can do the storyline well #im not even talking abt like rcg have to do it well 'for gay rights' or whatever the fuck thats not what im worried abt tbh LOL #im just ... i want em to do right by the characters n their relationship cuz i just CARE abt the bastards #again we'll just hav to wait n seeeeee #macden