#because the dog 'might want to go out'

[elytrafemme]

i think i played sims 4 with my sister for six hours straight today?

#vixella + james turner's sale promo post convinced me #$33 dollars down the drain BUT it was for the two packs i'd most likely use anyway #we made ace attorney characters partly to captivate my sister's attention and also because it's funny as fuck #though i do have OCs in mind... yes it's 1:30 AM but i might just like... #write some more OCs. and watch more vixella :) i love her content sm #i also kind of wanted to figure out what sims traits my irl friends would have because i think it's funny #but i can't tell if that's the sort of thing i need to debrief them about #or to like never mention because who the fuck cares #ultimately i truly do not think any of them would give a shit but you know #(btw we got romantic garden stuff (free); city living ($16); and seasons ($16) + base game (free)) #both city living & seasons would ordinarily be $30-40 so... #we also want to circle back to grab cats & dogs (~$30-40; $16 on this sale but it's only 24 hr) #but i thought that city living was more strategic at the moment #+ i would in the long run LOVE to have growing together or parenthood... and parenthood runs cheaper in general... #but i already have spent a lot of money this semester :/ #mostly because Ooh Purchase Euphoria! and also because my college is located somewhere which. sigh. #has FAR higher prices than where i currently live #in a way that is truly horrifying but i do in fact go to college and need to get groceries somehow #so it's more of a desensitization thing because that does still need to occur #so like $33 dollars is very reasonable is my point

[gregoftom]

awful, just awful

#succession #tomgreg #biting my pillow like that dog meme #where do i even begin with this TOM IS LIKE A SCHOOLBOY WITH GREG ITS ACTUALLY INSANE #he reverts to like 20 years younger from his emotional swings to his obvious crush #and his EXPRESSIONS THROUGHOUT THIS SCENE BY TALOS MY STOMACH IS IN MY ASS. MATTHEW!!!!! #his hurt at the thought that greg might somehow be trying to blackmail him again to just sadness because of greg's fear of going to jail #his downcast eyes as he says ''yeah'' SHUT the up #like yeah maybe he's reflecting on his own hurt and pain at the fact that he's going to jail and shiv handed him another rejection #just before. or maybe. he doesn't like hearing greg suffer like this. i mean. from what i know about later #that tom is fully prepared to go to jail and ''throw it all out for love'' or whatever tf for greg's sake #it's just. it's plausible is all i'll say. it's very plausible when we think about that future scene. #idk i just think that people refuse to hear when anyone would say tom is absolutely GASPING to love somebody. like yeah he's got issues #but who tf is well adjusted in this economy LMAOOO even in these rich fucks' worlds nobody is #so i know. i'm not stupid i know he can be nasty. but so can all of them. GREG WAS PREPARED TO SUE GREENPEACE AJDLAKDAD #i mean idk if he will. but my point is if tom wasn't like that he wouldn't be such a good character imo. if he was just a straight up #asshole. who would care if something bad happened to him? i wouldn't. something that makes him so compelling to me #is that he can be SO WRATHFUL AND MANIACAL #but he can be so. so fucking soft and vulnerable at the same time. and matthew plays him so organically i just wanna fuckin WEEP #and then GREG here. he wasn't even thinking about using a connection of any way to get ahead he just wants to be saved. he's still early 20s #i believe anyway. and tom has taken care of him. looked after him #protected him. he always listens to him. he's learned that tom is there for him so ofc he's gonna plead for help but like. not directly #''just asking for advice'' = i'm fucking terrified how do i make it stop help me #hoe but keep it fashion #SORRY GOD I KEEP DOING NOVELS IN THE TAGS BUT GODDDDDD THIS IS SO MUCH evyerhting is sos oafujfdmwkqfd #ok i'm stopping now but anyway. they're important to me. sorry. sorry bye

[pawsitivevibe]

I dunno why everyone says they hate grooming and hand stripping dogs. I find it so soothing. I would probably go for hours if Arthur didn't let me know he was done with it.

#I wanna say we probably go 30 minutes max usually? For maintenance grooming #When he goes to his breeder to get full groomed he's on the table for like 3 hours #I kinda think having a Poodle could be fun one day for the fun haircuts I could do #I'm not that brave with actually clipping BUT I would be if it wasn't a show dog lol #Like I do love clipping off Haley's feathers. Which I do now because she's an old lady who does not need that excessive hair #Haley gets really really floofy ... makes me wonder what her parents' coats were like. I'm thinking the Sheltie genes are probably why #My mom wants me to try shaving Leia down. Haha. We'll see about that. She is so so wiggly and hyper. Her #groomer has a special way with her #Leia's groomer is a hardcore flyball trainer/competitor so she is used to insane dogs lol #I think it's funny that she grooms all the floofy suburban pet dogs in the neighbourhood while she personally owns Mals and BorderWhippets #ANYWAY I think dog grooming would be a great career for me if I can get the chronic pain under control #I want to at least become an Expert ECS groomer over the next decade lol #Grooming could maybe be a side gig one day if I can get good enough and figure out how to get training #I'm legit considering the idea that the best job situation for me might end up being multiple 'side gigs'

[kelev9]

I have three breeders I'm very interested in getting a puppy from. I'm gonna try contacting them in the next couple of weeks to ask some questions and get to know more about them as breeders 😌

#two terv breeders and one white swiss shepherd breeder #one of the terv breeders and the white swiss shep breeder are in my state so that makes things VERY convenient #i will say i love a white swiss shep because they are like a gsd but i prefer their shape #not thrilled about them being all white since my wardrobe is exclusively black so we'll see! #also a dog show in the next couple weeks that i might see about going too..... #hard part about being jewish in the usa is that fucking everything is scheduled during shabbat and that includes dog stuff #which makes me SO SAD #me'ira barks #i really want the terv breeder in my state to work out for me SO PLEASE KEEP YOUR FINGERS CROSSED FOR ME THANK YOU

[you-have-made-a-fatal-error]

need to shell out for a new laptop before the end of the year - for a lot of reasons but mainly bc support ending for win8.1 makes fixing the current beast rather pointless :/ (and. admittedly. there is a lot to fix. she's old and she has suffered.)

but my current beastie is from the last gen of laptops with a disc drive and the thought of using an external/usb disc drive is enough to make me cry tears of blood

#really though it is time to upgrade #and i hate to say it because she /runs/ fine it's all hardware issues w parts that can absolutely be replaced #but if i can't use it to run the programs i need then shelling out the money for those parts would ultimately be a waste #but also the fact that this machine that runs fine is no longer worth fixing bc some google-based bullshit just won't support win8.1 anymor #is ALSO a fucking waste & a pile of planned obsolescence bullshit! and i hate it! #but uh. even though she runs fine and she totally does. she does need. uh. #new keyboard (only 1/3 of keys work; currently use usb keyboard) #new trackpad ribbon cable (trackpad does not currently work; using external usb mouse) #new power button and connecting ribbon cable (turning it on involves opening it up and causing an intentional short-circuit every time.) #(a problem largely solved by simply never turning her completely off- except she also needs) #a new battery (current battery does not charge at all; machine needs to be constantly plugged in or it shuts down immediately) #...ok i might be the 'this is fine' dog about this #but i am still upset! that i will no longer have a disc drive inside my damn laptop. #that's the disc drive's natural habitat; that's where it should be; it's weird and offputting to have it connected via usb! #ack. why do tech companies fuck everything up. #and that's without getting into the way new devices offer less harddrive space so people will use the fucking cloud or whatever??? #yeah sorry no i'm not using your goddamn data mining corporate off-site storage i want to keep my shit on my own goddamn machine #go to actual hell if you're trying to sell me a pc with less than at least 500GB of storage i swear to fuck #...in essence you could say the whole process is leaving me rather grumpy

[cynocardia]

(images described in alt text)

the light in the tunnel has been privatized

#literally so glad i get to do this #putting them all together : - ) #sid and morgan and sasha and marie literally were never supposed to be like each other but when i realized they were now i'm leaning into #it so #i haven't posted any story lore on here ever i didn't ever think i would #mainly because originally i was writing this #but now i've decided to just tell it in whatever way i can #so i'm going to do a lot of different things #even though i'd prefer to only illustrate it i absolutely would not be able to do a webcomic #and i'm struggling with the comics i do have sketched #but i really want to get it out now #in whatever way i can #..... sid and mr ferrier might be the same height that's funny #furry art #anthro #original character #dogs #artists on tumblr

[unusualshrimp]

hm i do not like how my brain works

#just came up with something horrible. ok so i was on wikipedia reading about mimicry in animals #and how animal A tries to look like animal B‚ and it can be of 2 types. either it wants to fool other animal B members #or it wants to fool a third animal C. like how some butterflies try to look like the monarch butterfly #so that birds that don't eat the monarch won't touch them either #and what struck me is like. the animal being fooled is really the only one that matters here. #monarch butterflies can tell who's who but they don't matter because its the *BIRDS* that need to be deceived #i can look at a wasp shaped flower and immediately go ''oh nice try. you are a flower'' but that doesn't matter because THE WASP IS FOOLED! #so now im. thinking. if there is a creature trying to mimic humans. then we're really all it needs to convince #like. it might be GLARINGLY obvious to your dog or cat or fuck‚ even your houseplants. and they might even try to tell you but they can't #so like. idk mb mosquitoes won't sit on them & gut bacteria won't grow in their gut & they never get lice & dogs don't try to please them #but that won't be noticeable because really all that matters is that they pass to humans. dna tests turn out fine they seem ok in autopsies #say yay! now i have to unplug my phone from the charger to sit with my back to the wall but. at least i have story ideas #um. #unreality

[encrucijada]

i think it really is time to accept i have creative burnout.

#i always get moods where none of what i'm writing interests me but it usually goes away after a while #but this time it's been happening in shorter lengths of time... so think i must face the truth... #god it just Sucks when writing is all you like to do but you can't bring yourself to do it #i don't want to Not write but it's not good for me to force myself to do it #i'm also so tired all the time which does not help. #this has been going on since camp nano when i tried snd failed to write that i'll never fall asleep au #words just... aren't working for me... everything i write reads stiff #i keep stopping before i even properly start things because i Know i'm just gonna drop it anyways #something is gonna make me drop it. i'm like a dog that's been trained to expect disappointment #i just.... want my brain to pick something and commit. for once. #also yes literally worst timing to open commissions lmao. i might close them. write the one i got and... sort myself out #pia.txt

[tealeavesandthorns]

//Don't know if I'm on the verge of a meltdown or a shutdown.

Having the longest rant in the tags and will delete later. Need to grab another CBD

#;out of teaandplants #;tbd #//fucking families man #my mum is ALWAYS late to everything #everything #and so is the rest of my family #like they just don't seem to think about anyone else or how shit might affect like uhm I dunno timings #and they KNOW I'm autistic and they KNOW my other half is away and they KNOW I'm going to have to sort the dog #make sure he's tired and stuff and will behave in his crate before I go out #it's ALWAYS the freaking same and it always upsets me and frustrates me #it wouldn't be so bad if they let me know earlier #but apparently fuck that #turns out knowing what the f*ck is wrong with you and why changes in plans make you want to rip your own skin off doesn't actually freaking #help anything #this is the second time today #first the dog walker let me know LAST MINUTE they were cancelling 'swap it til tomorrow instead' throwing my day off and they're another on #who's always late #and apparently all this is my fault #and I bring it on myself because #I'm so good at masking everyone just thinks I'm this friendly affable mess they can mess around and I'll never get mad #because I'm masking to accomodate everyone but myself and it's so frustrating #people could tell me in advance but they leave it until the last minute #god I'm so annoyed #and frustrated #and I'm tired #and it's too warm and there's too much going on sensorily inside and outside for me to just chill #I'm getting another cbd #sorry #I needed to get it out

[plantaffinity]

It's possible to love both dogs and cats,

It's possible to understand the behavior of both dogs and cats at the same time

It's possible to be good with both animals at the same time

#I get these feelings when people declare theyre a cat or dog person #and theyre so proud to not understand cat behavior or not understand dog behavior #its literally not that hard to understand both behaviors at the same time #Idk I never needed to learn these things #I knew my cat was playing with me when it ripped into my hands #And I loved playing with her like that I didn't care about the scratches #I knew cats didn't wag their tails to show they're happy they don't even wag them in the same fashion as dogs #How can someone even think that dog wag and cat wag looks the same it looks nothing alike #I never thought my cat was plotting evil deeds when sitting still and squinting her eyes #like sure maybe I didn't know the whole story but sitting and squinting is just cute? its not scary #Idk it's not very hard to see when an animal wants to be interacted with or not #cats are just more prone to being allowed to say hi to guests despite their dislike of guests #no one would allow a reactive dog to sit by the dinner table on a chair next to a guest who wants to pet it #Cats are more prone to going up to people to say hi despite not wanting to be touched #that's the only complicated thing about cats because you can stretch your hand out for them to sniff and they will sniff you and then swat #That's the only time I can think of when cats can be confusing #a dog would never be in that situation because humans wouldn't allow you to get that close to a dog that might bite #but other than that I just don't find that it's hard to respect any animals boundaries neither dog or cat

[theflyingfeeling]

For some reason I was thinking about BC’s Fuck marry kill and how everyone else joked around but Joel was all serious about his ”I’d fuck Olli because he’s the most handsome” -answer 😭 like yes we been knew you’re sexually attracted to him (him filming him half naked doing yoga and all that) but. really?? 😭

(and for legal reasons this is a joke)

Joeeeeeellll your bisexuality is showing agaaiiinn 🙄

I mean, I'm convinced the whole fucking band is sexually attracted to Olli (who's completely oblivious to it and think the others are just messing with him) because who woudn't be, honestly?

Tommi commenting how Olli always looks good?

Niko saying Olli is the most handsome in the band?

Joonas having a whole-ass sexual awakening watching Olli paint a broccoli shamrock on his chest? (Yes, I may have stared at a gif of this for unreasonably long yesterday)

To conlcude, they all a little gay for Olli 💕

#we're ALL gay for olli aren't we 🥰 #although in joonas' defence he's a little gay for everyone #(also i don't just randomly stare at BC gifs in my freetime! i was looking for another picture and just came across that lol #hence i have a vivid image of it imprinted on my brain currently) #but WHERE is my yoga instructor!olli and beginner yoga trainee!joel fic?? #he enrolled for the beginner yoga class because his therapist and his mom and porko thought it might be good for him #(he's not quite as positive and porko would literally walk him to the yoga studio to drop him off like a child at day-care) #joonas is friends with olli of course so he just passes joel to him and leaves for his porko business #abandoning joel before he can do or say anything #(joel thought they were going for a record shop haul and now he knows how dogs must feel #when their owner tells them they're going to the park but really they're going to the vet) #joel understands his loved ones only want the best for him but he's not sure how a bit of strecthing is going to help him 🙄 #in fact stretching is the LAST thing he wants to be doing when he sees how thight the instructor's yoga pants are 😳 #so he spents the whole 30 minutes not knowing where to look 🙈 #(mostly he looks at the instructor's face because it's so devastatingly cute 😩) #and then the instructor pulls out a basket of wolly socks for the trainees to put on for the final relaxation #(well actually just for joel because apparently everyone else knew to bring their own. this is somehow porko's fault) #so joel nearly cries as he lays on the yoga mattress listening to olli's calm voice bc 1) he's actually feeling a little better already #and 2) he might have fallen in love a tiny bit 😭💞 #...okay i may need to write this myself actually #if y'all up for reading it? anyone at all?? 👉👈 #joelxolli #answered asks #anon asks

[silphilis]

i hate knowing why i do things thats so fucked. i have medical brainrot and its still not enough to erase the comprehensive collection of data i have on why ive done and felt everything that i have done and felt for my whole life. ruins the fun of it. buzzkill. cockblock. etcetera. shawties that cant even fuck up their own life in peace because they are painfully aware of why they want to act up and how to fix it. fuck you

#stupid silly interweb posts . last post related . #me outwardly : i dont follow up or chase people because im being normal and chill abt the fuck of it all #me internally immediately after : this is because last time you did repeatedly remind someone every time u had plans because they ditched u #for someone else every single time u did not and when u reminded them they did in fact. forget again and then when u expressed ur feelings #about it they chewed you out for not being upset constructively enough. after this u never saw them again #alternatively there was That Other Event . for this reason u are afraid to ever express excessive pursuance of anyone because they might #actually just not care about you at all and u will end up knitting sweaters and driving 100 miles to see someone who would not even help u #off the floor if they were right next to u . u are also afraid the extent of your ability to care for someone is something that is not #possible for you to experience in return and are choosing to in response refuse your natural instinct to be really nice to everyone and #remember their favorite color to spend 6 months knitting them the most perfect sweater they have ever beheld . u actually never cared if #they gave u anything back u just want like . basic decency . it would be enough if we could just sit together again . anyways fuck this . #im going to start barking and howling like a bad dog just to say i can do something wrong even when i know that it is

[teabookgremlin]

got a little personal thing to get out bc i don’t feel like talking about it with people in my real life right not

so i’ve mentioned before on here that i’m currently working with a service dog in training for an organization via a club at my school. the dog i’m working with, justice, has fairly strong anxiety around new people but other than that has been doing amazingly in her training. i’ve had her for about 2 months now and have loved it, it’s hard but it’s a really rewarding experience. today i got a text from one of the professional trainers in the organization that, due to justice’s anxiety, they are looking at placing her with someone else for a while to see if it’s a phase or not. now i fully get that a college campus is an overwhelming place for a dog and that if it is a just an anxious phase this is a rough place to work through it. i also obviously want what’s best for her and her training, that is the priority, that is the commitment i made when signing up to be a puppy raiser. it’s just hard to feel like i did something wrong or that i failed her in some way. i know that this being considered is just due to justice and her issues and my environment maybe not being the best place for her. i’m just really struggling with the possibility of her leaving me so much earlier than expected. it’s also hard because i am finally finding a community here at college in my fellow puppy raisers and i (somewhat selfishly) don’t want to lose that by no longer having a dog i’m working with. i meet with a professional trainer on thursday to discuss and figure out if justice will be placed with someone else and i’m so so so nervous. the hardest part is that i truly think she would be better off being placed somewhere else. i just wish i could acknowledge that without feeling like i did something wrong. because i know that i have done the best that i possibly can with this dog. it also doesn’t help that one of the dogs in the college program recently got moved due to her raiser being irresponsible so i’m also scared of people thinking that a similar thing is happening with me. i hope we can figure out what’s best for justice and i hope that whatever it is allows her to overcome her anxiety and eventually have a career because i think she’d be an amazing service animal. i just wish it wasn’t so hard.

#anyway yeah #i’ll probably update with the results of the meeting bc no matter the outcome i probably will be emotional about it #but yeah i just wish the best for this wonderful sweet little dog #and i hope that if she does get a new placement that i can get another dog to work with soon #because i do love this #like if i decide not to go to vet school someday i could see myself going into dog training/service dog work #and i really wanna keep working with this dog #but i understand if that’s not best for her #idk its hard #and if she does get a new placement it will be very bittersweet for me #bc working with her is hard bc of her anxiety #and part of me would love to work with a less anxious dog #but i’ve already invested 2 months into her training so it’s hard to know i might not work with her through the rest #anyway like i said if things don’t work out with her hopefully i can get a new dog placed with me in a few months #bc this is something i want to be doing for at least the whole time i’m in college if not for more of my life #personal #rambles #also if anyone is fine with me ranting about this in dms i’d like that (i will include pictures of the girl as thanks for listening) #and yeah i just don’t wanna talk to people in my real life who also know and care about her #until i know the plan for sure #bc i don’t wanna upset any of my friends/family for nothing

[bi-panic-at-the-disco]

shotgunning a tube of strawberry mentos right now

#disco speaks! #if you even care #i forgot how much of a problem I have with these #THEY HAVE A GOOD CRUNCH AND A GOOD CHEW OKAY LEAVE ME ALONE #i also took both of my medications for the first time in a while (I have to make an appt before my Dr will refill it (eye roll)) #and spent two or three hours on tiktok learning about marine animals so my attention span is both very short and needs to be entertained #like a toddler who is teething except the mentos are my teething rings and I’m down to three left and I show no sign of stopping #which is a bit concerning considering there has to be like 12 or 15 a pack and so it’s been less than ten minutes #since I started consuming them. can’t go outside cause it’s cold as fuck and snowy and bad water texture bleghh #and bad anxiety feeling about doing my responsibilities and actually figuring out when to go on a date with my bf #we are now down to two strawberry mentos I repeat we are down to two strawberry mentos this is not a joke #awww my dog looks so baby right now #so anyway I think that my adhd medicine is making me focus but since I immediately started focusing on something that shortens my attention #span then I am mimicking that and I haven’t eaten anything today besides candy because I don’t want to make things because textures #and temperatures UGHHH #and I don’t want to put on gaming streams like usual because then I will not do anything else #and like I want to work on my nutcracker au piece but UGHH art school has made me so used to traditional art that #now digital art feels wrong and bad textures and it’s not the same and art feels bad but I like art??? i don’t know I don’t know #i need to chaos or like general stimulation but then I get too overstimulated and overwhelmed #i might need an anxiety medication cause uhhh well fuck my dudes I have both adhd and anxiety and it’s fucking me up a bit

[universalsatan]

the mexican urge to adopt people…

#at the landing (the queer space on campus) i met this mexican girl right #where we first went out together because she wanted to try having a cigar here so i offered to bring her to the nearby cigar shop where i #get my pipe tobacco and i went full ranchero too. transmasc and transfemme swag #but yeah so not only is she trans but i found out that she came up here from chihuahua (the north) and it sounds like it was. Very dangerous #to live there. and not only that but her family is definitely not accepting of her #and apparently she’s been here for just under a year? because her visa got delayed so she couldnt start until winter semester #and my dad. my friend couldnt make it to his bday. but it sounds like my dad just wanted to have a big party again. one we havent had since #the rest of the family had to go back down to mexico like a decade ago #so i invited my friend because i remembered how much she had said she missed mexico and :’) #she was SUPER anxious at first #kinda on her phone. and she had even texted me her hesitancy like if people were transphobic #and im like girl i am super trans too dw. if they make it a problem ill become THEIR problem (+ my fam is accepting) #and oh my god she loved the food so much because it reminded her of home. and her and my dad had a whole conversation about their nativefood #and when she realized we were singing my dad las mañanitas first. she sung the loudest 😭😭😭 #i was already saying how i want her over for xmas so we can do our cracked version of posadas and make tamales #and at some point introduce her to my padrinos (which might be delayed because i forget more conservative people exist LMAO but her story is #right up my madrina’s alley) and because my madrina has two dogs and she grew up w dogs #mexican culture has a lot to do with family #and apparently she hadnt really met anyone mexican in her entire almost year here before me #so yeah. the mexican urge to adopt #personal