#because i dont wanna make myself sick of it

[todayisafridaynight]

no ones ever gonna understand how much i love daigo doin this stupid shit after dissolving the tojo

#snap chats #is this a gaiden spoiler. its been like five months catch up you nerds #ANYWAYYYYY NOO I LOVE HIM ....... this whole bit is like four seconds long but i love it so much #i just reminded myself i should probably make gaiden/y8 videos for daigo.. i'll make it a JP/ENG comp or somethn.. one day #not soon tho like its barely anything since he's not in those games Long At All but still. im lazy 💀 #excuse me while i gush about daigo for twenty minutes now because hehee HE'S SO CUTE I CAN'T GET OVER IT #this is literally the middle aged equivalent of going yippee like YOU CAN TELL HE'S SO RELIEVED IT'S SO CUTE #got the energy of a student with crippling anxiety after they somehow get through giving a presentation without throwing up #AND his lil smile ......... thank you gaiden you made me wanna eat drywall with daigo's sad puppy dog eyes about kiryu #and then immediately made up for it a minute later #sorry i keep scrolling up to look at him and i love him so much. what if i threw up #i dont like using babygirl lightly but this is actually the most Babygirl frame of him ever ive decided #thats my boy .... i love my boy so much ..... he's so cute ... come so far in life congratulations king ..... ily ... #him lookin up at the sky for a minute just to breathe i know he thankin god for the fact he somehow isnt dead yet #im gonna ignore the fact all of this was for naught so i dont bash my head against a wall anyway stan daigo #im gonna be sick i love him so much #if i redraw this later shut up. i love him... #this is why i try not to look at cutscenes anymore cause when i do i feel my brain being put in a microwave and start to melt #its not my fault i love my guys so much .... ok bye i have work to do .... #and then when i finish that work i can go back to loving my guys YAAAAAY !!!!!!!

[chalkeater]

YESS self indulgent art with no context

Featuring @kristalpepsi

#deltarune #susie deltarune #deltarune susie #kris dreemurr #kris #kris t #myself #susart #ok on twitter there no context but ill give context on tumblr #so like. kris in our system. When they get REALLY excited (any form of joy like excitement or lots of laughter) #they give the body a COLD #like we get the sniffles and start sniffling for SOME reason #WE DONT KNOW WHY THIS HAPPENS and its JUST WITH THEM and its been going on for years #it happens when theyre fronting but it also happens when theyre cocon or just nearby or somewhere around or near front #so like i will be vibing and being normal and then i start getting a COLD. OUT OF NOWHERE. And it gives away that Kris is nearby or sneaking #around. Like we have no idea why yhis happens bug if we start getting a cold theres a 99% chance its literally Kris #which also means they cant hide LOL they gotta keep calm or else it gives them away #sometimes its annoying though because i wanna laugh without feeling like i got sick #but it does mean we make jokes like YOU MAKE ME ILL /gen BAHAHAHAHA

[rox-of-iu]

war and hate on planet earth

stg i was living in a world where i was sure MQF peak seniority was left ambiguous and then i got a wake-up call when i picked up the book to reread a bit 😔😔😔🤡 (i know it was prolly mentioned somewhere before this scene as well but this is where i picked it up and got smacked at so thats the only reason why i picked this part)

idk i guess i just had my eyes conveniently closed each time before hdksfh

also @ anyone thats gonna notice that i will still put qc peak as 4th even after seeing the evidence umm no you didnt mind your damn business

#🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡 #i am blind and i cant read apparently #or ig i cant read what i dont wanna see it would seem jhdskfhkds #mqf king how could they do this to you hjdhfks #8th at best????? #ohhhh you put your doctor peak so low broken bones for cang qiong broken bones for one thousand years #i mean 8 is my favourite number but i will not stand for this #anyway in my defense i did check the wiki before to make sure i was not making fool of myself and it just betrayed me ig jshkd #because when talking about Wan Jian the y say and i quote: #'Though its precise rank is unspecified it ranks below Qiong Ding and Qing Jing and above An Ding Peak' #so like yea sure cool they are going off of the way they address each other ok got it #but they dont say anythingggggggggg liek that about qian cao OUGH so i thought ok sick it wasnt mentioned smile #non #targeted attack at me specifically obviously #hkjdhsdkfhsdk #now i look like a fool that cant read but i have decided to die on this hill

[weenhands]

they should make revisiting the past into a part time job

#not really #i think i keep making myself sick by thinking about everything that happened #and i know its sad and heartbreaking everyday to realize that i couldnt save it #because i know better. but there are better things in my future and in my present #and i think i wanna just stop this small period of hurting myself w stuff from my past and just. focus forward .... #bc this doesnt feel right anymore like i dont live here i live. In the present 🙏 ok whatever goodmorning

[brightokyolights]

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#i hate how motherfucking weak i can be sysgsnjdsbdjsy #i keep telling myself. no more Typical BookTok romance books #stop reading stuff because you saw a tiktok listing tropes or a concept #and here i am yet a fucking gain getting reeled it #when i have so many books i ACTUALLY WANT TO READ in my tbr #oh whale 😏😏😏😏 #btw just wanna say that im semi joking here #like i am sick an tired of reading the most terrible and basic stories hence why i try to avoid certaim types of books #but also im just here yo have a fucking laff so i dont actually care too much #just wanted to make a silly wee post dhdhdh #le text post

[cosmic-cd]

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#cosmo rambles #deleting later #im really sad. #i promise i wont make more posts like this #i lost my cat ive had for 16 years today. im going between misery and feeling nothing and i dont know what to do with myself #i dont wanna be alone with my thoughts but i cant even bring myself to do anything. this is a terrible feeling #i miss her. it was necessary but i miss her. i miss her so much. #i didnt even say goodbye because i couldnt bear to see her #i know its ok to cry but ive cried so much i couldnt sleep because i was dehydrated #what do i do now. is this just going to be how its going to be until i can cope? #im sorry to anyone whos reading this. this is really heavy #animal death #tw: animal death #tw animal death #im going to be ok i promise #but this is really hard. even if i knew it was coming and itd had to happen eventually. she was really sick #we did literally everything we could and more even when we couldnt afford it #on one hand i feel relieved on the other hand i didnt want to lose her #im not coping with this well at all #i dont know if ill ever cope with it well at all. i havent lost a pet in so long

[batqueers]

mmgnngdfnm

#sudden feelings of being Bad and Terrible and horrid and unloveable at 9pm on a tuesday #m heart is beating sofast i need to hide away ive been hiding for the last half hour #im sick im sick im sick im horrible i cant keep a promise im not a good person im not even a person #i want to hold myself and cry but i cant even cry and its so hot im so sweaty and uncomfortable and i wanna cry even more #im sorry im sorry i dont even need to be sharing this #i dont want to die but i dont eant to Be Here and hotlines do shit my therapist appreciate him but he cant do shit if i dont make the effor #t to help myself and i dont becuase im lazy just like my parents always tell me i am and my room is a mess and i havent finished things i #sai d i woulf and i stink because of fucking the weather and testosterone and im immeture and #i cant seem to Grow Up and im fucking dangerous fuck fuck fuck #sorry. sorry sorry sorry #-🦇 #obscurus.txt

[hayakawapartner]

what if i wrote the most self indulgent most nasty smut fic ever. what then

#op #i am. considering it #been thinking abt catboy aki in heat all needy idk idk #its nasty because of the images i need to include so i can indulge myself #like hear me out #cumplay. belly bulge. multiple creampies. marathon sex. light breeding/marking. lots and lots of cum. #do you SEE THE VISION!!!!!!! #DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW SICK I AM IN THE HEAD OVER THIS #AAAGDHAAHAGAGAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #it will be afab gn reader insert btw. no gendered language no mention of chests but reader will have a pussy #like i said its self indulgent this is meant for me but ik some of yall wld like this too so #sharing is caring #if i finish this ill post it on here #and mayyyybe on ao3 but id need to make it an anonymous fic bc i dont wanna stick this on my main ao3

[lisa-l0vely]

So depressed I can't fucking move

#i can't #i just cant #henceforth i am unable to can #depression #hw #homework #please I can't will myself to do shit rn #and i hate it #its the cycle of #cant move #get depressed #cant move cuz depressed #and it just repeats #anyways shoutout to scp 2521 #dont wanna actually use the 2521 tag cuz i dojt wanna clog it up #shout out to him because hes been my comfort character these last few days #so thats nice #ive also been sick these last few days #so that doesnt make my mood any better #yayyy #i am suffering #tw negative #tw self hate #ig? #idfk anymore sorry if i didjt tag smthng #sorry for this break in attitude i just had to say it even if its to the void

[yellowhearther0]

girls when they are trying their best but their best isnt good enough 😔😔

#sagittarius.txt #negative #stopped gaming and the horrors have returned #im just so fuciing pissed off. at the circumstances. in general #bc im stuck sittubg here with these shit ass feelings that no one can jack about until im either old enough to do something about it or #like. idek. #bc itsblike i cant say shit to my parents bc they wont take me seriously and lird knows i dont trust any of the adults at my fucking school #and im not going to make the handful of peiple i CAN talk to more worried about me when they already have atuff going on and they cant do #anything abt what im dealing with #but i dont even WANT to go to anyone because i dont wanna get mad at people when they tell me things i alreadybknow because i KNOW theyre #tryijg to help and they cant do much and its liek GRAH #im justvin such a shit plce bc i want to reach out but i have to do it of my own violition or else i'll just fucking shut down #im like a scared dog. in a cage. and he'll come to u if u just leave him be and let him do his own thing #but like. if im the svared little dog than everyone else is the big scary human who i slowly inch closer to and then suddenly the stick out #their hand right as im near them and then i run right back to where i was before and then we're back at square 1. does this make sense #and its litwrally no ones fault but my own #i just never know how to tell what other people are thinking so i think i project how i feel about myself onto what i thibk others rhing of #me and so i go into every potentially vulnerable conversation with my guard drawn high because im just expecting people to get sick of me #always complaining but never actually trying to better myself #idk man #im normal #i peomise

[sudokuplayer]

#one of my mom's friends is getting her husband (who is a psychiatrist) to get me a certificate so i dont have to go to vote #cause it's mandatory and i'm agoraphobic but haven't been to the doc since march 🥴👍🏼 #but like it's very obvious why 🤨 it terrifies me❗❗❗❗❗❗❗ #anyway if i dont vote i have to pay and it's not like an insane amount of money but i'm jobless and a loser so my plan was killing myself🫣 #and i know my mom and siblings would pay but it's so humiliatinggggg #it's also so humiliating that she told that friend about me i feel sick cause she was my brother's teacher #and my brother is so nice and brilliant and talented and well liked by everyone. and my sister is pretty and makes a lot of money #like i wanna die when i imagine my mom telling her friend about me the middle child who is the world's loserest girl 🫠 #like obviously she talks about me and my mess with her friends 🙄 even tho i always tell her to act like im dead #but now im CERTAIN she does talk about me 🤮 #... the other day she was on the phone with another friend and i heard the friend asked about my siblings and then about me and she asked #''does she eat with you or in her room?'' #🥴 it made me so sickk i dont know why #btw she asked that because my mom was telling her about dinner like what she was cooking and stuff #ok anyway i hope that thing works cause ive been so miserable since i found out the vote thing was mandatory 🤮 #and i'm sure it's illegal what the friendcs husband will do 🫣 so i'm scared #but like i have been diagnosed by two different docs 😭 and ive been on meds and i stop taking them all the time cause im paranoid but yea #the only lie is the fact that he hasn't been involved in my flop treatment.. #and that vote thingy is not like elections. it's another thing and it is important and all but 🫣 i just couldn't care less right now ❗

[qt-kt]

I'm not even joking nothing makes me want to fully drop a hobby faster than someone else telling me "oh you should sell that" when I share what I've made

#its show and tell not show and sell #maybe im drawing/crocheting/making things for the love of crafting and i dont want to taint the intrinsic value i attain #through the sheer joy of creation #for the stress and burden of creation for the sake of monetization #and FUCK maybe im making things for my damn self and my friends because i want to share love #maybe i wanna make myself a treat for ME!!! #like maybe if i get the urge I'll set up a shop or do some commissions but that is not my end goal for trying to hone a craft #and that shouldnt be what people jump to when i spend hours on something that brings me joy #like jesus fuck i get into hobbies for the love of it! for the joy and the accomplishment and the community #i am not and never have been here to just get money and im FUCKING SICK OF IT MAN #i am fully vaguing my whole family rn btw this has nothing to do with anything anyone on here has said or anything #im just tired of trying new things and immediately being told by everyone surrounding me i should open an etsy shop #also have they even CONSIDERED how much extra energy it would take to sell shit?? id have to go to the post office and do all sorts of shit #w the downtime i barely have already bc i work fulltime w a long ass commute and im in school and doing side projects like! no thanks #ugh #negative #kaite's adventures

[publicuniversalenemy]

i have never known peace like this and i am bored

#i no longer find Purchasing Items entertaining and i am SO fucking happy about that #because in so many ways #to finally be sick of Acquire Objects is to win #fuck you capitalism fuck you consumerism etc #but also now that i dont spend time thinking abt buying things #what do i do #that was all i had to distract myself from the world coming apart at the seams #i dont have the energy to do other shit is the problem #part of why it HAS been my go-to is becuase its fucking easy and low-energy #so what else can i do now that i dont want to do that #but also dont have enough spoons to do other things #this makes it sound like im in a bad mood or something and im actually not #im just kinda. thinking about it. yk? #wanna work on my sweetys jacket but i CAANT cuz what i have left to do is intensive and also im too worried about them to focus on it #and thats the OTHER THING #i miss my sweety so much and am so fucking worried about them etc #that it is undoubtedly affecting my energy levels and sleep and such #and i cant DO ANYTHING ABT IT #fuck!!!! situations!!!!! #whatever the fuck

[our-inspire-verse]

Vent.

Its. Not been a great night. I was healed. I was. And a little while ago, i reversed that, and now again and i am. Trying so hard to feel better now. Its over, right? I stopped. I stopped... past tense. Maybe i started again too. Maybe again the night felt terrible, and worse and bad. And maybe it wont even matter, because does it really? And maybe ill feel better and scars will fade and my old scabs will close, finally. After being away from the bugs. Finally. But the cortisol will still flow. And ill remember tonight. And the other night. And when i was 12 and 17 and 19 and 21 and 23. Maybe it cant get better right now. Maybe i cant get better. Maybe ill keep going back to trauma, and ill do this night again. Ill pick back up the push pin. Again. AgAin.

#im actually fucking sick of myself #kinda sick of this wish people would decide they're done with me faster. #bc no wayyyy the people im around actually dont wanna cut me off bc im negative and toxic and anti recovery #everything they said. bc do i respect boundaries? i have been told i dont. which is what matte4s #not what i think. not my intention. what matters is all the shit I've brought onto people i loved #and ruined. #system babbles #im just legit not. a good person #idk man i wont spend time arguing. im literally disgusting and cruel and selfish #im hateful and impatient and mean. im so FUCKING mean like literally i need to fucking actually be stopped #because no what is actually wrong with me #ohhh my misophonia makes me want to attack my bestie bc she can't. breathe quietly?? hey man like actually fuck you she has a disability. #i literally cant fucking stand this about myself like ohhhh oh you're suffering so much ohhh poor bitch!!! shes the one that cant BREATHE an #d i sit there and ahake from rage. #vent #do not rb #inthrum

[isildheir]

Honestly, my abuser saying Louis was just as bad as Lestat or basically implying they hate how people write Lestat off as more abusive than he is or that Louis was just as abusive was a red flag I should've put a lot more stock into.

#The guy was Empathizing with a capital E. #God hold me back cuz I LAUGH at them. Abuser all weh u..abused me..cuz...u called me stupid and annoying when I wouldn't let u leave me #after ur 30239929292th attempt #Youre abusive cuz...u made me feel so unloved when you kept trying to leave me! :'((( #LMAOAOOA yeah if thats abuse then slap my ass and call me sally cuz ill always try to leave you #You fuckin insane psychopath. constantly putting damn words in my mouth and telling ME what i ACTUALLY mean #you dont care about anything i have to say. you need to be the one slighted to justify why you feel so offended 24/7. #dude u wanna be a fucking victim so bad then fuckin be my guest u fuckin miserable sick sad sack of absolute dog shit #always calling me a liar and putting me on the podium to state my case infinite times till you hammered me into gaslighting myself #to support your interpretation. go to hell. #you are chronically miserable for a reason. and you will NEVER find reprieve in that. EVER. just as you deserve. #YOU made me start therapy because of the CONSTANT confusion and emotional trauma i endured with you. #YOU made me cry all the time at work. #YOU gave me chest pains and difficulty breathing. just seeing YOUR DAMN NAME on my phone gave me panic attacks #YOU did so much FUCKED UP SHIT to me and you NEVER ACCEPTED ANY REALITY BUT ME HURTING YOU ON PURPOSE #you literally tell me 24/7 i dont care about you and i would drop THOUSANDS of dollars on you #AND FUCKIN WATCH UR SHOWS 3 TIMES IN A ROW #AND CALL AND TEXT U EVERY NIGHT. SIT AND HELP YOU PREP FOR JOB INTERVIEWS. #I DREW UR DAMN OC SO OFTEN HE PRACTICALLY BECAME MY MOST DRAWN CHARACTER #I DID SO MUCH TO SHOW U I CARED. BE IT GIFTS. MONEY. BE IT TIME. BE IT HELPING IN #UR VTUBING CAREER U WANTED TO START. #BE IT SPENDING NIGHTS SOMETIMES TILL 6AM JUST MAKING SURE YOU'RE OKAY. #I JUST. DID. SO. FUCKING. MUCH. IT WAS NEVER ENOUGH FOR YOU. I HOPE YOU DIE. SUFFER. BURN IN HELL. #I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU. I WILL NEVER STOP HATING YOU. #I GAVE YOU SO MUCH. I WAS HAPPY TO TOO. WHAT A FOOL I WAS. NOTHING I DID WAS EVER ENOUGH. YOU ALWAYS HAD TO FUCKIN COMPARE #OR GET JEALOUS WHEN I SPENT ONE SECOND WITH ANYONE ELSE #U NEEDED TO GRILL ME FOR EVERYTHING #ASK WHO I WAS WITH #NEEDED TO KNOW WHAT I WAS DOING JUST IN CASE IT WAS SOMEONE YOU DIDNT LIKE #UR FUCKIN ABSURD. UR INSANE. ROT IN HELL. FUCKIN GET TORN APART DOWN THERE. I HOPE YOU SUFFER. I WANT TO WATCH. I WILL LAUGH.

[tittysuckersworld]

vent thingy

#im so sick of everything- is it so wrong that i just want someone to directly ask me shit? #or like directly ask what i might want and let me have any agency???? this month i just keep consistently having others constantly making #choises and decisions for me when i can do that myself! i just want to actually have a fucking say in anything! fuck #like i know friends care for me and brother cares for me but fuck if i just want them to actually ask what i want?????? #thats all i want. thats it. i want them to actually just fucking ask insted of assuming and choosing for me. #i hate hate just everyone constantly trying to choose stuff for me on whats my best interest #i dont want to be pressured to not go to collage one year and then be pressured to go the next #i dont wanna have random things i dont even like gotten for me because people think i might like them #i just dont want anything! is that wrong? i just want to be treated like my own person and asked things! #if you wanna do smth for me ask! i will try to fucking find something! i just want to be a part of it if its for me! i dont want fucking #suprizes i hate suprizes i like when things are actually asked and planned when everyone fucking consents im sick of all of this #i dont even want the yogurt pretzles anymore even just thinking of them makes me want to hurl now cause i didnt! get! any! say!!!! #and fuck i just dont want any food! i dont want any in the house! i dont care i dont care if i starve at this point i dont fucking care any #more i cant keep fucking doing this i cant both bend over backwards to try and comfort others and be under this fucking much #fuck i havent even been able to tell my partner becaude theres been too much happening in his life- and i dont want it to worry or dote over #me i dont want anyone doing any worrying for me anymore its god #i dont know i feel bad for being ungrateful but im not in a mental state for this stuff #i just want to have a say in anything. anything at all that could actually affect me in a way bigger than the smallest shit