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[beamarieluther]

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Somewhere when you don't see me,

My smile drops a hundred and eighty degrees,

My forehead knots and I sigh loudly,

There is more to me than what you usually see.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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[cahlia-flower]

Sometimes, before I go to sleep, I just think I want to continue sleeping until all my problems get solved. I don't like confronting problems, be in the middle of problems, be the source or the receiving end of problems, and especially solving problems.

Because I'd rather have none at all.

I hate the fact that problems and trials are the reason people evolve, because they go through tough shit and I JUST DON'T WANT TO DEAL WITH ANYTHING RIGHT NOW YKNOW. I'm just so fucking tired I just...

I just. I'm not in a good place. Especially my head. I'm seeing some ideation in my mind's eye and they tend to be clear cut in the ending.

I tend to rant with words online because I can't in real life. Which. Because.

Because of simple shit that I don't want to even deal with because of the emotional upheaval this endeavor will cause me and other parties involved as well as my current state of financial stability and reliability as a fucking person.

Like. How to deal. How to adult. How to continue to keep adulting reliably.

How.

Haha. I'm being vague as fuck but man.

Even though others have it worse or if others say my problems are small as fuck, well. I'm having a hard time with it. It's not your problem. It's mine. You just have a different problem you're having trouble with that I'm not.

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[beamarieluther]

Devours

I wear fatigue like a cloak

I taste bitterness across my tongue

I breathe suffocatingly

I speak words robotically.

The day tears me

The people devour me

The road tires me

The despair consumes me.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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[beamarieluther]

down this road

Walking down this old town road,

as dark skies broad,

with no town in sight,

no town alight,

hollow hearts and heavy steps,

eyes that had been dry but wept.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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picture prompt by poeticmellifluous with judge danielleholian_ on Instagram

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[beamarieluther]

Prompt: Looming

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The shadow hovered and loomed,

Distorted wisps of gloom,

The figure behind the fog grew,

A ghostly hand with a pale hue,

A past wraith haunted what was due,

Cold fear settled which was nothing new.

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For the 24hr challenge in poeticmellifluous on IG.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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[beamarieluther]

Right now, my heart is lodged in my throat, as it beats erratically out of fear and shame.

I will it to stop, but it is in vain.

Countless of times my lips are abused, from the bites uncontrollably done from keeping this composed ruse.

My eyes tear and the flow never stops.

This screaming fest in my thoughts that continues to drop.

Help, cries my mind pitifully, Someone, my mind screeches desperately.

It doesn't help that my mind turns against me, and pleads for sleep that never really comes peacefully.

In the midnight I wake alone, temptation to end my suffering was too strong for me to atone.

I want to hurt, to scratch and bleed, to end this graceless tango of life and greed.

Someone please give me reprieve, someone give me to receive.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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[beamarieluther]

What makes you walk forward in life?

When you're down and bruised, what makes you go on, even though you just don't want to move anymore?

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[beamarieluther]

a dream spark

I dream alone in the dark

of rainbows and warmth

I long for the spark

that will fill my heart.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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[beamarieluther]

Picture Prompt by poeticmellifluous on IG

My entry

Under the sun's warmth by the lake,

On a picnic blanket with two wine glasses,

Our hands entwine so sweetly,

And we fit ever so perfectly.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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[beamarieluther]

Venting

It was seeing a bridge getting burnt,

Falling into the ravine nary a grunt,

An emotionless facade a front,

The pain was sharp as it was blunt.

Grim as a fucking grave,

Emotions destroying everything in a wave,

Emptied, dried and nothing more to pave,

Wrung and dry with nothing more to save.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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[beamarieluther]

my life in music

Music is in my every beat, my every laugh, my every sob, in my every step of the way. It's my medium for life in melodic notes. It is my outlet, my expression I can't live without.

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For World Music Day Writing Contest by unpublished_drafts and tale_pals in Instagram.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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[beamarieluther]

I'm in a bad place right now.

You?

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[beamarieluther]

Title: Thy mind is thy enemy

Waking up to dawn's light

The world is half-asleep in the night,

They flicker and sputter with all their might,

But in the end nothing goes right.

The ticking grates ears,

Insensitive to those that hear,

Hands lift to cover in fear,

The world had never been so clear.

Tongue heavy and body of lead,

Eyes with no more tears to shed,

No hunger pangs to be fed,

Just numbness and no words to be said.

Spiraling downwards to an end,

Mind dark with no way to fend,

With no help was ever lend,

There was no way to ever mend.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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[beamarieluther]

the block

Staring at the screen filled with words

My mind blank and empty

As if floating with the clouds

And gone with the wind.

I stare and stare some more

My hands were still, hovering above the keyboard

As if paralyzed.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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[beamarieluther]

midnight madness

Madness some say

comes at midnight

where sleep eludes your mind

as it endlessly whirs.

Some say it was the nightmares

that make everything silently deafening

as you lay awake

with only nightlamps for company.

Some say it was paranoia

where every shadow was a ghost

heart beating ever faster

heart ever lonelier than the last.

All were right and all were wrong

since does it even matter

where it starts

but there is one thing for sure.

Madness is always there

it is patient

it is waiting

for midnight to devour your thoughts.

©Bea Marie Luther

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[beamarieluther]

monochrome world

In this four corner world,

only I exist

with my bed

with my laptop

and my silence

with my my thoughts and

fictional people for company

life was monotonous

life was safe

life was in dull comfort everyday.

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©Bea Marie Luther

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