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britneyshakespeare · 6 years

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i fell asleep before i could answer these bc i’m a sleepy baby. whoops. but asks aren’t milk they don’t go bad if you leave em out overnight so here we go

blush; what was your stuffed animal as a child?

I had many. In fact I still buy a lot of stuffed animals. But the most important was a stuffed turtle I got when I was 9. It’s kind of a sob story but I was in and out of the hospital constantly from late 2008-early 2009, and my first visit while I was lying weak from a procedure in the emergency room, my mom went down to the gift shop (it was Children’s Hospital Boston, which if you’ve never been there–and I hope to God you haven’t–it’s huge.) and picked me up a few toys that evening. One was a stuffed turtle I named Shelley (i’d like to say it’s for percy but obviously i was not that cultured when i was in fourth grade). I brought her to every subsequent emergency room trip, including when I got sick again in middle school, and AGAIN a few years ago. I’m not gonna take a picture but she’s lying on my bed w me right now. Yep. Shelley’s the one.

cute; what did you get on your last birthday?

Lol I was in rehab at the time actually. I didn’t talk much while I was there (social anxiety makes it like that) but one girl who overheard that it was my birthday asked me “are you gonna go home and do something special?” and I was like “idk maybe my mom got a cake or something.”

No I haven’t taken my birthday that seriously in years. It’s just kind of another day for me. I think that last time I did anything was back when I was a little prodigy recluse (I was sick again and out of school at the time) when I turned thirteen, I had lunch with my twin sister (whose birthday it obviously also was) and our best friend. When I turned sweet sixteen it was the first day of spring break and I stayed in my house and ate a bag of white chocolate on my bed because I had gotten my heart properly broken for the first time. And this year I received a lot of lovely messages. That was it.

kitty; what’s your favorite time of the day?

It depends on my sleep schedule. I like staying up late and being by myself (as long as it’s not forced staying awake by insomnia) and waking up early and being by myself.

love; what is your favorite season and why?

I know it’s sad but I never gave a damn about the weather. I don’t like any of them. I find winter the best because everything’s dead and no one expects me to go outside for fun.

prince; how would you describe your handwriting?

Just… messy. My fourth grade teacher preferred my cursive handwriting to my print (because my print was messy and my cursive was restrained and pain-stakingly practiced) and she used to just make me, in particular write everything in cursive while everyone else could write in print. So because of that I started drifting towards more cursive-style connecting my letters even when I was writing in print. And now it’s like… I don’t even know if I have the right to say I write in print ever? Almost every letter is connected, but it’s not proper cursive. And I know proper cursive. Sometimes I switch to it for just a word if it’s easier. I haven’t written “of” in print since I was like thirteen. When I was ten I was going through this really intense “I need to make myself girlier so people will like me” phase and in between buying like 20 tubes of lip smacker and shopping at justice, and convincing myself that if I just combed my hair instead of brushing it it would look all straight like my best friend’s and Jane Asher’s, I tried for a few months to write in that stereotypical “girly handwriting” that’s very blocky and straight. Yeah. It naturally shifted back into its course. I wish I could take pictures of my own handwriting for my poetry blog because I think it would look very Personal but the problem is it’s just so illegible what’s the point.

rainbow; what was the last line of the last book you read?

The last book I finished was either rereading Lady Windermere’s Fan for the thousandth time, or the Tempest for the first. I can’t remember because I’m always reading more than one book at a time. Of the Tempest is this lovely monologue (linking it to Marianne Faithfull’s reading from the end of her 1995 album A Secret Life because she’s lovely and actually does a great version of it, but my rant about how the songs from the Tempest are performed now to be “modern” will wait for another day).Of the Fan, it is Lady Windermere exclaiming “Ah! You’re marrying a very good woman.”

smitten; do you collect anything?

Anything of mine that might be called a “collection” is really more a result of happenstance than purpose. My CD collection is mostly old stuff I’m meaning to sell by now, my DVD collection is mostly movies I’d watch w my sister, and comics are really only a thing I collect because that’s… just how you read comics. I have a bunch of old diaries from 2008-2015 and I don’t plan on parting w those, I guess they could count as a collection. Or all my poetry notebooks from over the years. But again, that’s just how ya write.

snuggle; what is your favourite candy?

I like chocolate of almost any kind. Cotton candy is also really good.

sparkle; do you wear jewelry?

Naah I have ADHD. When I was in my earlier teen years I always wanted to be one of those cool pop punk kids who wore like 10 bracelets all the time but 1) money, nah, and 2) I can’t stand to wear anything nonessential, that just, dangles there. I’ll get distracted. I can’t even wear long sleeve shirts wo rolling them up, without being conscious of it, no matter how much I try.

sunshine; do you prefer for things to be practical or aesthetically pleasing?

I wouldn’t say many of my habits are either practical or aesthetically pleasing. I’m a mess and not just one to look at. I guess it depends on what you mean by “practical” because of course I want things to be not-completely-useless but I do have an appreciation of aesthetics. Not that I practice a lot in real life though that’s expensive.

♡ cute asks ♡

#thank ya much nancy ily and i hope youre doing well #pavlovers #dianswered

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fairielust · 6 years

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monday + tuesday

sjfafgd it’s been a while since i last updated, not that we care lmao rip(TM)

but yesterday was my school’s open night (aka where we try and persuade potential students to join our school lol) and myself and two other friends stayed back to work on art and promote the art department lol. it was kinda boring until one of them had to go to the library to print something and i immediately volunteered to join her bc the japanese department is in the library and i wanted to see wisteria lmao

and i popped in and even said hi to the exchange student who was at the entrance dressed in kimono (way to promote japanese @ wisteria) and i just,, wisteria’s face literally lit up when she saw me and she greeted me w ‘konbanwa’ (aka good evening) and i just,, wowowow i can’t believe she was happy to see me !!!!! as usual, the place looked great even tho she plays the same slideshow w photos from the 2015 study tour (which means i’m in it how embarrassing); she also forgot to ask us for work samples lmao what a dork.

at one point she stood closer to me and my heart melted i’m surprised parents didn’t see how gay(TM) this looked

and i was laughing too bc she greeted every potential student by bowing and speaking in japanese and every student looked so afraid bc they didn’t know what she was saying and i’m telling wisteria,, ‘miss you’re so awkward they’re afraid of you lololol’ and she’s like ‘well i’m not introducing you to them bc you’re just as awkward’ and i pretended to be offended and rolled my eyes @ her lol. afterwards i told her she should pop down to art bc i’m doing art and she’s like ‘well i’m stuck here’ (of course she is smh) and with that i said goodbye and left bc we had to go back to art before my teacher killed us lol.

later in the night my other friend had to go down to print and i happily tagged along bc it was my laptop she was using and she was on the point of tears bc she was so stressed bc our library printers are shit and i had to fix her formatting for her but as i waited for the things to print i popped back into the japanese room ~ and wisteria saw me and pointed at my knees and said in japanese that my skirt was short so i was forced to roll my skirt down in front of the parents and confused students lmAo what a role model i am. we basically teased each other some more until i had to go help my friend again.

but yeah, nothing else happened. i saw selene bc english is also in the library and she looked so good i wished i went up to say hi dammit,,,

anyway ! today ! while my friend and i were lining up for english wisteria was behind us and she stopped to speak w us,, rather,, speak to me and attack me for my uniform agAIn. and i protested by saying our year co-ordinator gave up telling me off for my school socks (i have a doctor’s certificate saying i’m allergic to the school socks lol) so really i’m allowed to wear them lol. I also argued that there are girls worse than me and she fought back saying ‘yeah, well not in my class !!’ hnnGHjhgh why am i so affected by her teasing me !!!! fuck !!!!! (at this point we can tell that i’m in love with my japanese teacher when i shouldn’t be dammit)

after english i had japanese and my friend was still talking to our teacher so i left, which meant i was the first to walk in japanese and wisteria greeting me once more. i had an art presentation next period so at this point i’m a nervous wreck and japanese is the only class i can freely express my troubles so i’m telling miss that i hate art (‘what ???? you love art !!!’) and that i’m so scared bc she knows i hate speaking and i just,,,, uGh

so she makes us all do the wonder woman pose and i’m just an anxious mess walking up and down and jumping bc lol fuCK ME I HATE SPEAKING but uh yeah that’s fun

then she makes us sit at separate desks and do a reading comprehension task which is cool bc i’m good at that lol. and then she gives us a map of japan and tells us to label the cities and we’re all like ‘miSS WE DOn’t knoW ANYTHING’ and we could tell she was thinking ‘wow my yr12 jpn class are hopeless @ geography lmao damn’

finally we went up to the board to check our answers but the angelus comes on and so we have to stop and pray and bc i don’t pray i usually stare off into space but today i noticed a particular tab that said ‘track your order’ for dominos pizza. and after the angelus i asked her, ‘miss, why are you ordering pizza’ and she’s like ‘i knEW YOU’D LOOK AT THAT SMH’ ahahahahHAHa i’m so offended she didn’t buy pizza for us rip

and so yeah that’s all the exciting stuff that’s happened i’m gonna go study for english or something now lol toodles

#musings #tc #tcc #teacher crush #teacher crush community

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