#bc this has me mad as fucking hell

[welcometogrouchland]

[ID: a digital drawing of characters from the owl house based on the song "up the wolves" by the mountain goats. At the top of the drawing there's a rectangular panel showing Camila and Eda. Camila looks out at the boiling isles at night with her bat. Eda mirrors her pose, with her arm covered in feathers. Shadows form to look like the collectors face, covering Eda's eyes and parts of Camila. Beneath this panel is a star with King and the Collector inside of it, holding hands and spinning midair. Beneath this is the archway portal from thanks to them, which is glowing, and at the bottom of the image is the hexsquad lined up in their designs from for the future, lit by the portal light and looking determinedly into the distance. The lyrics that span the image are "our mother has been absent/ever since we founded Rome/but there's gonna be a party when the wolf comes home". The background is black. End ID]

I knew I couldn't say goodbye to this show without redrawing one of my favorite old pieces, this lyric comic based on Up The Wolves by the mountain goats. I made it pre-ttt and was honestly really vindicated by all the wolf imagery that ep, lmao

#the owl house #toh #toh spoilers #watching and dreaming #luz noceda #hunter toh #willow park #amity blight #gus porter #eda clawthorne #king clawthorne #the collector toh #camila noceda #I REALLY DID DRAW 9 CHARACTERS FOR THIS DIDN'T I #hate this fucking show and the way it has constantly inspired me to push my own artistic boundaries. mad as hell about that #i don't have time for a full-on tag ramble rn but just know that i am so fucking sad about this show ending and fighting with myself #bc it feels like it'd be so much easier to like. shut my love for it off??? in order to not feel as bad about it ending #I've had a year or so with it (barely tho) surely this can satisfy me #but that's just. straight up not true and makes me feel bad in a whole different way #it is weird!! it's weird that this show I've watched 5 times over is ending and i might never get anything else from it #but I'm not gonna let that sour the show or fandom as a whole for me?? if that makes sense #i love this show top to bottom front to back. not bc it's perfect but bc it sees me and i love it for that #also it's really funny and beautiful and well written and. just. AUGHDHDJDJ!!!!!!! I'M NORMAL!!! #okay i have to go shower now #I'm going to gently leave this with you guys. i put a lot into her. do with it as you will #that's all #i love you 💖

[no1ryomafan]

So I finished mazinkaiser awhile ago after months of procrastination on it and for one reason or another I’m not gonna give my solid thoughts on it but there is one specific thing I wanna point out, not as a critique but more so a confusion. That being: I find it weird how Mazinkaiser isn’t the turning point for Mazinger where they finally go “hey the robot is sentient” because it’s not yet near the end literally EVERYONE talks to Venus A as if shes actually a person:

I’m not saying this as a criticism for the reason of my already biased to vaguely sentient robots-because as much as I prefer this angle with mecha, I understand not every and all mecha can approach this because sometimes the robot is JUST a narrative tool and not a character, which is fine-however I’m confused with Mazinger of all things didn’t take this approach when there’s already so much emphasis on Mazinger being tied to gods. I mean, apart from the fact the robots are based off Greek Mythology and there is a constant message of “will it become God or Devil” which feels like it warrants this enough, it would start to make sense if the robot grew sentient because Mazinkaiser is treated as the ULTIMATE Mazinger. (And where have we heard a case where the “ultimate” form of a robot starts to be the one that displays more self awareness *cough* GETTAH🗿)

Especially also within this ova- it seems to do stuff on its own accord to PROTECT Koji, like going on auto pilot as he’s knocked out and somehow keeping him safe from being burned alive in magma, but I cannot tell if this IS a indicator Mazinkaiser is actually sentient or if it’s just all auto pilot. Oh and it’s a more minor thing but also just- the human poses Kaiser and Venus take during the beach episode… I cannot tell if that’s something they wanted or if their pilots just posed them comfortably because lines seem to blur with the robots just being treated as the extensive of the pilots. (Venus is literally based off of Sayakas appearance after all)

It’s just weird Nagai never went this route and just stuck to metaphorical stuff, when it feels like SOMETHING he would do given the nature of his stories and yet the only fully sentient Mazinger media I know is Zero. Of course I still have such a limited window on Mazinger so if this is me actually being wrong please feel free to correct me, but I still will never not find it weird Mazinkaiser lacks this aspect asides from maybe vague allusions to it that may or may not be implying it. Maybe if I ever rewatch it or find more Mazinkaiser content specifically I’ll be able to piece things together a bit more.

#meg text #mazinkaiser #mecha rambles #also before any asks I have also seen SKL and let me tell ya despite how off the rails it already is it makes Kaiser even WEIRDER #SKL!Kaiser is like- supposed to metaphorically be fucking satan and your telling me that robot ISN’T sentient? #the manga straight up implies it drives its pilots INSANE which just proves Kaido and Magami are that off their rockers to handle it #oh and just the fact Kaiser pops out the ground for them whenever… that’s either a very specific auto pilot or its sentient #granted the fact I know mazinkaiser originated from SRW from it being “born from getter rays” does not make my ordeal any less conflicting #obviously they retcon that out but like- #your gonna have a mazinger be born from a getter- SHIN GETTER no less and NOT be sentient? #and again I’m not even mad it’s not the getter approach bc not all mecha’s need to become cosmic horrors (even if it be sexy ngl I mean) #but it’s weird go fucking nagai never once considered in his crazy ass mecha already to make his robot LITERALLY sentient #and there being consequences for that on top of all the dangers Koji has to face being in this damn robot #again maybe I’m just a idiot and some of this is true bc I’m not the most knowledgeable on mazinger aside from the basics and it’s impact #but sure as hell never seen anyone mention this and I doubt it’s just a factor of “it’s niche” when it’s fucking mazinger

[crazy-fruit]

How broken can a system be? Why does my flatmate, with one parent being a vice-dean at a university and really not needing the money get a scholarship for one year with monthly payments. But I got declined. Despite doing volunteer work and being a first in academia. But hey my grade is 0.4 worse than hers.

#fuuuuuuuuuuuuck I am so mad #jojo rambles #I know she is in a super privildge positon and not everyone has that type of parents in academia but fucking hell #the amount of support for academic challenges she gets from that one parent is insane #and honestly I am a tiny bit mad at her as well #bc she just tried to sell it to me as “well I just applied and didn't think I'd get it and now I kinda feel bad” #WELL GUESS YOU MIGHT JUST TOOK THE CHANCE FROM SOMEBODY TO GET MONEY WHO ACTUALLY NEEDS IT BUT HEY YOU CAN WRITE ON YOUR CV THAT YOU GOT #THAT SCHOLARSHIP WHAT A NICE BONUS TO ALL THE SHIT FUCK OF NICE THINGS YOU ALREADY HAVE FOR THAT ANYWAYS #and I am not even speaking about myself - I am still in the lucky position of my parents having the finacial option to support me #was ist das für ein kaputtes Dreckssystem? #ich check aber auch wirklich nicht warum sie sich dann überhaupt beworben hat #das ist so dumm #und sie hat auch noch n Nachrrückplatz bekommen #jeden verfickten Kackscheiß kann sie mit dem Elternteil abklären ganz zu schweigen von der Asche die in der Familie vorhanden ist #aber mir sagen dass sie n schlechtes Gewissen hat - sie weiß ganz genau dass ich gerade von meinen Ersparnissen aus der Sommerarbei lebe

[crowyobroyo]

I like horror and gore and gross scary weird stuff but at the same time I can't even handle it anyway </3 would I let my partner drink my blood vampire style? absolutely. did I pass out when I pricked my finger and squeezed out a few drops? yes.

#i love meat but sometimes i can't even stand to eat it anyway?? #like sometimes fuckin chicken is? like fuckin icks me for whatever reason. can't even finish a breast #i don't often enjoy meat on the rarer side even #spooky stories and ahit work on me i get freaked out #graphic descriptions and even sometimes just mentions of like gore or just smth specific internal body thing make me feel weird or even - #-queasy a lot of the time #I've tried leg of lamb before and it relatively consistently straight up makes me gag? #eating smth like heart feels weird too #i scare easily irl. multiple times someone has walked by me in broad daylight and said hi and it made me jump just bc i was looking away #i like? have some sort of mental barrier preventing me from even being violent or breaking things? even when I'm mad and want to? #yeah theoretically i could punch a hole in the wall but even if i really want to i dont think i could #90% sure i wouldn't even like bruise my knuckles or anything #like idk man i wanna be more of a freak but I'm like too fucking normal as default #like dude! this fucking sucks! let me be normal about even slightly abnormal things please! what fuck! #crow talking #horror #werewolf #blood #vampire #fuckin hell man

[time-like-tears-in-rain]

"he followed you home through the time vortex!"

#literally fuck off #dw rewatch #i KNOW THEY NEEDED TO WRITE ROSE OUT BUT THERE'S NOOOOO REASON SHE HAD TO STAY GONE. #fuck just say she can regenerate new face done #retcon a bit so jack can too #it would be funny #if we're running on vibes then why the hell not #truly just!!! #we could have rose running around in the background someplace not even in every episode maybe she has some Important Thing #to do with earth Torchwood as an excuse but the Doctor (any of them) can randomly #be like ''yeah you should see my Rose'' ''your girlfriend? your wife?'' ''MY ROSE!'' #bc hey he (or she!) has someone! there would be no more romantic drama around! #I will die on that hill #60 years and the Doctor only really loved two women? give us another ten then before introducing any more romantic drama I'm begging I hate #doctor/companion romances soooooo much #more companion/companion!!!!! HOW ABOUT VILLAIN/COMPANION!!!!!! #just keep the doc out of it thank you #Rose is my exception I'm mad that she is because truly my hill is ''no romance on the silly scifi show'' but she won me over

[wtfcl0ud]

i wish i was making this up for shits and giggles but i went to an anti bullying campaign with the kid who was like bullying/abusing me at the time mostly bc i didnt want to be in a relationship with them and we got uh like pins n those bracelets etc n every time i see them i remember the bad things n it's just funny ahah myb i shld get rid of them

#it's one of the last? only things tht like triggers those memories #my head has forgotten it mostly #interacting w/ her affectionate does not really make me think of it either #but those stuff do #that was such a day lol sigh #i had made the 'abuser' a gift lmao ouch #then later when we got back to school god shit happened #i ran away n hid in the library oof it was sigh damn #yolo amirite #i wasnt blame free #well i mean idk tht's what she said #god why am i crying #i mean i nvr hit her or threw things at her or purposefully tried to manipulate her n emotionally abuse her #so at least i dont hv tht on my conscience #i said smth mean publicly as a retort n i felt so guilty after it i cried lmao #anytime i told her no not tht she listened but she wld get mad at me for it anyways #i wld go make up bc i was scared sigh #damn tht was fucking hell but we were 17 n things like tht happen when ur 17 n she wsnt malicious #she was just being hurt herself #she said tht bc i was new i wld just use them for what i needed #which even tho not my intention i guess held some truth based on my actions #but it was like tf u want me to do idek where the bathrooms in the school are or the rules n all tht shit #im not asking bc i want to use you for info im asking bc i need to kno n u 'befriended' me #sorry im socially awkward n struggle at making friends tht doesnt mean im using u lmao sigh #i genuinely hope she's ok tho n doing better sigh #cloud nonsense #ignore me

[daincrediblegg]

I hate it when I accidentally hit submit on the course eval for one of the classes I was most looking forward to critiquing for improvement when I had barely written anything 🙃

#SHE NEEDED TO KNOW THAT THE LAST ASSIGNMENT SHOULD BE EITHER THE VIDEO ESSAY OR THE ESSAY PROPER NOT BOTH IT'S TOO MUCH FUCKING SHIT TO DO #I NEED HER TO KNOW NOT HAVING SET DATES FOR ASSIGNMENTS AND A REGULAR FLOW KINDA FUCKING SUCKED #BUT NO. JUST BULLSHITTING FROM ME #GOD DAMNIT ALL TO HELL #it's been a long day and my group has literally written the worst AV script for this thing in all of christendom that I NOW HAVE TO EDIT #because I cannot fucking stand how badly written it is I literally can't. I've had to deal with that shit too often lately #please god give me a break. #at least my production professor seems to have really REALLY liked my doc as it was when I turned it in last week and liked meeting my dad #the other day. and gave me books on victorian photography #at least. she like me. at least. we vibe. #miyazaki prof needed to be taken down a peg though and I AM SO MAD THAT I MISSED THE OPPORTUNITY TO DO THAT BC THEY MADE THE SUBMIT BUTTON #LOOK LIKE THE NEXT BUTTON AND GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR #anyway gonna go see the boy and the heron tomorrow night by my fuckin self as a consolation prize for this stupid fucking week and having t #deal with the most stupid shit imaginable. #can't wait. gonna go out and have a proper meal by myself and everything.

[nomaishuttle]

every day i think I would love 2 watch a cute video of a little chihuahua. and then i see ppl purposefully stressing their dog out and laughing and filming when the dog is visibly afraid or aggressive. and it makes me so mad i see red

#funny #stoppp putting them in situations STOP IT !!! #fucking videos where ppl r like Lol took my dog to the walmart and she ws freaking out 😂 YA DUDE. #bc dogs have very sensitive hearing and sens of smell. and walmart has a lot of things to look at #of course the dog is gonna be freaking out it isnt fucking funny... #and these r th same ppl who will go without training gheir chihuahua bc its when chihuahuas r aggressive #and then th chihuahua attacks them for whatever reason and th dog ends up dead or in th pound. bc dumbfuck owners think its funny to stress #out their dogs for funny internet videos. IT Mkes me so mad #theres like. 2 groups of ppl with seemingly opposite views on chihuahuas and theyre both evil #and its rh cunts who call them rats and talk abt how they hate rhem and want to run them over which. legitimately kys #you dont have ro want a chihuahua but what the fuck is wrong with tou. that you see somebody talking abt their dog and you talk abt how #youd love to harm it. i think you should burn kn hell 4ever ok? #and the other ppl r ppl who 'love' chihuahuas. and then mistreat rhem bc its funny when theyre scared or stressed. sigh #chihuahuas should never be in any situation ever chihuahua job is snuggle in blankets. frolick. snuggle on couch.. eat food.. frolick again #thats IT !!! #animal abuse #a2t #SRY. got heated i love chihuahuas

[trans-li-ling]

I think we should give Zora a gun and whatever happens to the Shadow Decree happens

#dislyte #Listen I'm going to be honest. I like a lot of shadow Decree characters. But also. #Given the chance I would kill them off in story because of how much I hate them. #Mainly the fact a good chunk of them are like. Okay with child murder? Like hello #The union 100% deserves criticism (hi Luo Yan the cop who got fired bc he thought the law was beneath him what's up w u being here) and #Tiye's story is. Whoooo boy. The union definitely has An Interest In Branding #But again. Orphanage burning was A Thing That Happened #And ofc there's the meta view of like... What are the bad guys ideals? Are they only evil bc they're extreme? And I try 2 keep that in mind #But like the Shadow Decree is kinda... Just full of selfish people. Ofc some ppl are more sympathetic but all of them Are Selfish #Honestly Bonnie is like the only one who stands out to me as like... Yeah the union failed her community and she's rightfully mad #Most of the others lost like. One person either to the union or just thought the shadow Decree would let them get revenge and #It's a case by case thing like some of them probably feel like they have nowhere else to go and that's understandable but the initial #Actions they took were selfish and I feel like dislyte puts too much into making the characters surface level sympathetic (Ophelia) rather #Than grappling with if they view themselves as good people or if they're disappointed in themselves or if they don't care #(forgot to say earlier Jiang Jiuli n Jiang Man r valid in hatred though like the union directly fucked them over and it's understandable #That they fucking hate them so like it's more grey) #(also this is why like... Nicole n Cecilia r some of my faves they don't give a shit they just wanna fuck stuff up and I can respect that) #And Catherine is actually well done because she's full of hatred and even if she has soft moments shes just. Mean as hell! #LYNN I love Lynn but girl you know about the orphanage burning right???? Right??????? #Anyway how well known is the burning of the union? Iirc it was both the HQ and the Orphanage so do ppl only know abt the HQ or both or???? #Anyway the union is flawed but trying unaffiliated espers are similar and the shadow Decree is 90% people who are selfish and toxic and #Really fucking annoying. I fucking hate Ophelia so much you have no idea I want to throw bricks at her. #Anyways Zora is the best character and deserves free therapy and a lifetime supply or tiramisu and a gun #JASPER TRIED TO FUCK W THE UNION WITHOUT JOINING YHE CHILD MURDER ORGINIZATION

[dbphantom]

fuck it im watching the (other) mermaid magical girl show

<- obsessed with magical boys and girls and merpeople

#no the OTHER other mermaid magical girl show #wait ok i just looked it up on crunchyroll holy shit there's SO MANY i didn't realize this was like fi/nal fan/tasy there's so many... #not all of them have mermaids tho. wadda hell #cruddy rambles #i know this is because as a trans dude i intentionally removed myself from feminine stuff out of fear of being perceived as a girl as a kid #you know ye olde 'i HATE pink stop FORCING pink on me' -> 'actually pink is such a nice color now that im not being forced into it' #so now that i know myself im exploring it like ''hey this stuff actually slaps AND i get to be a dude 'despite' liking it'' #i can have my cake and eat it too and if you're mad about it then die mad about it bc im not changing for anyone anymore #rahhhhh rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh #and im gonna watch it while beating the fuck outta people in skyrim. very much looking forward to it actually. #update: #so i didn't realize this entire show is gonna be about putting on make-up ;-; #episode 1 was uhhhhhhhh. well... they REALLY like lipstick. im happy for them don't get me wrong but this is not for me LOL #makeup gave me serious self image issues sooo i do not feel good watching this even if the message is just 'wear it and be confident' #which like. i probably could've guessed from the name? but tbh i thought it was like... magical girl 'make-up' not LITERAL makeup #happy for everyone who likes it tho! mermaids are awesome and the characters seem great i am just getting ick-ed by the focus makeup has

[flintbian]

Me: 0 Gender: 3 just this week

#once again i didnt think i cared until i showed my few work outfits and APPARENTLY I AINT FEMININE ENOUGH AND I WANT TO SCREAM #literally i was excited and feeling very good about it until someone commented and i saw red #once again i had no idea i felt strongly about this at all but then again ive never had people comment negatively before #this year ive been dressing more how i want and experimenting but i was hanging around queer ppl so got positive feedback #then my mother comes in and makes me see red fists clenched stomach in knots hours later #maybe it's not even about how i present (and i dont need to open my damn buttons why do i need to be showing cleavage fuck you) #(yes im wearing more masc clothing but it's still women's fuck off) #maybe it was just the policing that did it but i feel rotten now #it took me SIX BLOODY HOURS to find even two shirts i liked and i was feeling them but no im presenting Wrong some fucking how #i guess for school i was dressed appropriately enough but i dress like my dad ive realized #and this has all been surprisingly frustrating i thought i didn't care but you start policing me and saying im not in x box and i go mad #besides that when ive been experimenting this year again it's only been queer ppl or clare and she loves the looks #and ive been getting piercings and figuring out if there may be a way after all to get tats #but you show a Model Citizen your work outfits and you're Wrong somehow as if it matters #like everything was a problem 'why are you wearing essentially men's styles why does it have a collar why is it buttoned up' #even the material was a factor like bc the shirt is more flowy that made it better as opposed to polo or cotton or whatever material #LIKE WE'RE ASSIGNING GENDER TO FABRICS NOW?!! I DIDNT EVEN LOOK AT THE BLOODY FABRIC THE HELL?? #hannah loved the outfits but they understand of course #tomboy is fine apparently as long as you grow out of it but if it stays? wrong and literally fuck off why does it matter?? #excuse me i dont even have any cleavage to show why are the buttons so damn important #again didnt think i had strong feelings about myself but apparently i do #how is it my father is more accepting than??? #and for years i didnt get to experiment with clothing hell i was trying to find stuff i could wear with nerve pain #i dont think im trans like that's not it i just hate boxes and having to conform to some stupid standard we made up and being policed #bc im apparently not feminine enough or whatever #and what's weird is years ago i wanted to be considered pretty but that's completely gone now as ive been finding myself and style #currently rocking the androg look but some people dont fucking like that and ive been dealing with this for like only two weeks #and it's maddening already #anyways both out of wanting to and spite im going to cut even more of my hair off soon and lean harder into this #p