#bc im still super nervous

[tomaturtles]

I feel it's common for people to feel they're bothering/embarrassing creators by interacting with their older works? So I thought it'd be interesting to see where other creatives (artists, fic writers, edit makers, anything goes) stand on the matter! Feel free to elaborate on your thoughts or give examples :)

(The timeframe of what counts as an old work is up to you. Could be one year, 10 years, anything depending on for how long you've been posting your works online)

#toma talks #toma polls #art stuff #i love it personally :) its nice #can be slightly embarrassing if im not super proud of it gjfh but it's fun to see my older stuff being enjoyed on occasion #i Hope i covered enough ground with the options #mostly curious bc even though i enjoy it as an artist when i'm the one looking at ppl's works i get a little nervous about #interacting with older stuff at times if the op's still around and posting other stuff/for a completely different fandom and whatnot #which may be silly but does make me wonder

[doodlboy]

Did some figure studies 4 my current favorite fusions

#rhodochrosite & aventurine [<-i might change that 1 actually idk] #anyway im trying 2 give them different body shapes #like ro is built like the fuckin..kelp juice bottle from spongebob #mostly bc i wanted to exaggerate their features & kinda play in2 the drag inspo a bit without going like..c*l*rts level of proportions #i wanna do more exaggerated style stuff but i also don't want 2 cross that line & sometimes i get nervous that it'll be taken that way #& i really dont want my art 2 be perceived like that- anyway #ro is a round hourglass w little to no like- visible muscle except 4 in their arms a bit #avent is top heavy with thinner legs #its hard 2 tell bc of the angle i drew them at but the general idea was spoon shaped #they still have muscle its just lean and not like- super visibly buff. idk like a gymnast build #bc they combine mams being able 2 sprint laps around every1 with els fucked up joints/ability to basically contort themself so gymnast fits #anyway #wip art #figure study #kinda #i used 3 dif refs for avent bc of their arms #traditional art #obey me gem au #om gem au #obey me #rhodochrosite #aventurine #elliot rambles #elliot doodles

[fatcowboys]

my PA for ajovy got denied (booo) but the reason it did was bc a neurologist needed to prescribe it which i already had an apt set up for and gad yesterday (yay!) and the appointment went really well and i like the provider a LOT of migraine management (YAY!!!) so now i am once again waiting for an ajovy PA to be approved lmao

#nervous abt needles but jax offered to help plus ajovy has auto injectors so we are going for it #but i really liked the provider she was good and very easy to talk to and stuff!! and am excited to work w her and try things #also got a referral to their sleep clinic bc my sleep is still Bad and also sleep is a big trigger for me #so im hopeful to see what i can figure out/learn from that #this is the year of blue getting health shit figured out lmak gonna get my tonsils removed etc etc lets Go #she also said i could be a candidate for botox if that seemed interesting but i like how like. open ended she was w things #like she gave me a lot of good info but also everything was my call #she also was good when looking at my mri and explained why she isnt concerned abt ms based on mri and symptoms #and in a way where i actually agree lol like. esp bc i get so anxious i can just latch on to something #but she took the time to answer my questions and explain and show what theyd see if it was ms vs my brain lesions from migraines #and Yeah! i was super stressed and like gad cleared my whole afternoon in case it was a bad time #but it wasnt! im v happy w my new neurologist! #wild to have TWO whole doctors on my care team who i like and trust???? as a fat person??? wow #(trust is w a grain of salt lol i dint entirely trust any doctor But)

[potatobugz]

hi dear mutuals + followers. n. new hyperfixation. i think. please do not blow me up with missiles and rockets☹️

#rambles #so. uh. um #s. south park drawing. can i post it. can i post art #i started watching it out of curiosity bc my friends like it and i enjoyed it and #i think the hyperfixation was inevitable bc i was planning on watching the whole thing. theres like ten billion episodes #and i am capable of consuming media like. normally #its funny bc when i was younger i used to have a grudge against this show like i rlly didnt like it and look at me now #anywho sorry if iam being cringe and or lame #im not trying to be like 'oh woe is me i am now being shunned because i watched a tv show some ppl didnt like' i #just have anxiety :( bad anxiety :(( #p.s. obvs ppl are entitled to their opinion also #long story short; i am afraid. #ILL STILL POST OTHER ART TOO THOUGH )$;($- OFC #theres room in my brain for many things except long term memories i guess #:( :( :( :( #ANYWAYS LAST BUT NOT LEAST sorry for putting this whole ramble in the tags ii couldnt rmable in the main post #bc for some reason i cant talk like this in the main post bc i get too nervous but i guess im fine in the tags? #sorry thats worded super weirdly. i hope u know what i mean #really truly i am like a frightened baby dear ready to take off at the slightest hint of movement #*deer

[cptnbeefheart]

work has been WAY less dreadful lately and i feel like im finally connecting with my coworkers because im not as shy & ive gotten more comfortable there and feel more adult in general but idk i think im just feeling down or something because i just cried about not being able to find a clean bowl in this stupid house i haven’t eaten since lunch and theres nothing here that i want/ wont make my stomach hurty except soup and thats going to be so unsatisfying its so dumb but i AM dreading work tmrw we have a meeting which always makes me insane anxious i hate being trapped in a room and having to sit there and not be visibly anxious have to appear cool calm collected but not trying to throw up at the same time like im gonna be anxious all day which means i wont eat much because im afraid of puking and then ill feel worse because im hungrys im going to rip my skin off AHHHHHH!!!! <- thats me screaming

#i know its just my period coming sighhhhh its about to get so much worse i get lreally depressed like a week before it gets real bad #i can feel if creeping 🤨🤨 nothing is making me feel happy or fulfilled 🤨🤨 seasons are changing this doesnt help 🤨🤨 AHHHHH!!!! #(me screaming again ) #being open about myself at work instead of trying to put on a worksona has me feeling like early middle school maggie im not sure why #or if fhats bad or good .. #also meeting is at the end of the day so in my mind theres a timer from when the day starts and once it goes past a certain point i cant #eat bc that means ill have a full tummy in the meeting and that in combo w being super anxious (anxiety causes me stomach issues and also #theres a fear of puking that is perhaps not rational) but i get so nervous about the meeting when i still have time that i dont feel hungry #or im like Nah timers lying Its already too late to eat. and then i feel like crap bexause im hungry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[candiednova]

first af minigame art i did this season ! [IMAGE ID: digital art of a human and a dragon form of the human with dramatic purple lighting coming from below. the human form is crouched down with their arms crossed, holding knives on either side. they are wearing a black and purple hooded cape, shorts, tall boots and a mask covering their face. they have blonde hair and a fluffy black tail. the dragon form is like a shadow behind them, its wings partially folded. it is mainly black with a fluffy purple main, eyes, inner wings and fire coming from its ears. END ID]

#novart #img id #image id #i always get so nervous with claiming in minigames bc i want to 1 have an idea and 2 need to have that idea in the few minutes/seconds #i have to claim srthrthrhjsj #im super glad i got this one is what im sayin ! it was alot of fun to do and im still proud of it ! #tried doing something a lil new with the shaded (that being i did lighting first also lighting coming from underneath) #and im pretty happy with it !

[silverislander]

fully intended and foreseen consequence of coping better with my anxiety is that this blog will at some point inevitably become More Cringe and that point is SO close on the horizon. if you get mad at me for posting things i like on my blog that is for me you clearly have more issues than i do for worrying abt that possibility for hours on end

#its tumblr were all cringe here. fucking grow up or leave genuinely #also i literally tag everything im into + trigger tags too. block tags or just unfollow me theres no hard feelings i prommy #anyway. ive been falling back into creepypasta which ive mentioned before i was super into as a teen! fun stuff #i love that the fandom is still alive and doing fun new stuff :') theres such good art out there!! and character interpretations!!!! #and ive also gotten really into league lore over the past few months actually. the arcane fixation has morphed #basically it went 'this character looks cool whats their deal. whats this region like. oh another neat character lets look into that' #and then suddenly i know too much™️ bc hyperfixations for me are about gathering information and stories like a raccoon #i have FEELINGS about it. post probably incoming soon abt that #and BRIAR!! shes a little gremlin i kind of love her already #levi.txt #will i delete this in the morning? lets see #but for real tho. im doing really good lately. things arent perfect but i feel like a person for once #i can talk to strangers without acting like a trapped prey animal! it turns out im fucking funny actually! people like my jokes #im SLEEPING again. regularly. that was an issue for nearly a year and im doing ok again (not perfect but hey! ~8hrs!!) #i can just. sit around in public now and not feel like im on a hidden camera show where everyone is judging the way i breathe #slowly switching from self deprecation 'i want to die' jokes to 'im literally gods favourite prince and the hottest bitch alive' #i still get really nervous but it doesnt feel like a personal flaw and it doesnt feel insurmountable anymore #so yeah naturally thats going to come with (hopefully) a lot less shame around things that i like #just asking kindly that people are normal abt it. this is me thriving i guess

[josephslittledeputy]

would love to be writing or posting stuff for wip wednesdays but sadly the c*d brainrot has an iron fist on me ://

#and i cant even write anything for it currently bc im still ironing out details GRRR #when will life cease to be agonizing! #to top it off i got a doc appointment coming up that im super nervous about bc i have to convince my doctor to take me seriously :((( #and we ALL know how that is... #tbd #personal

[noxtivagus]

the 1975 hdlfkahdfklasdd

#🌙.rambles #i really want to go to their concert here so bad n apollo n i were fine w gen ad but #first day is mostly sold out na n then 2nd day the cheapest one is just yeah n #it's weird rn our statuses in discord were abt the concert n now for like quite a while w some friends #i don't know how to say it help #i am Really bad with asking others for stuff. unless they actually genuinely rlly want to do something for me then i'll #really be. super shy about it. i can give so easily but receiving is so much more difficult #it's nice talking w my friends like this again tho since we don't super talk much but #realizing i am unintentionally funny fr one of my friends ended up asking what 'otp' is bcs our convo went to like earning money n #taking comms for writing LMFAO SO #'one totalitarian pair' i said 😭 & then 'one-time password bcs [k-pop idol my friend wanted a fic with] is the key to [friend's] heart' #THAT WAS FUNNY HFLASDJAFSLKDF NT HEN OTHER STUFF TOO N #i just really want to go. listening to their music n watching stuff on yt or wtvr has rlly touched me honestly #I RLLY WANT TO GO ARGHHH....... #but the timing is 🥹 WE STILL HAVE SCHOOL ON THE 4th n then #our parents wldn't allow us to go ofc w/o an adult but if it'll be w the 1975 that'll be so funny yk 💀 #N THEN THE SEATS LEFT..... IM NERVOUS IT'LL RUN OUT #rush against time n #aaaaaa ;;;;; #none of our friends listen to the 1975 so that's also like. lacking in interest thing idk #IM JUST RLLY NOT SURE AT ALL W ALL THIS BUT I WANT TO GO SO #nah we'll find a way n wtvr the outcome i'll be satisfied with it yk? #oh the thing is tho if we do go my phone camera is broken oh no r ppl allowed to bring cameras or smth or idk #BUT NAH FOCUS ON WHATS IN FRONT OF ME FIRST #YEAH.

[altruistic-meme]

somebody PLEASE be my impulse control before i go out and buy another cat.

#like i plan to get another cat. i do. but i wanted to waot at least a MONTH in the new apartment first #but also i think jj is just very lonely bc i spend most of the day either sleeping or at work :( #and the apartment is smaller than the house we lived in before #so like.... i wanna get another cat so hes not so lonely #but im also super nervous about making yet another change for him ??? #like hes already been moved and is dealing with that........ #like. ultimately i think ill be okay with habing another cat bc im very used to it #ive always had more than 1 cat. grabted i didnt pay for them then bc i still lived with my parents #but i can handle 2 cats. #but i just dont want tonfurther stress him ;;; but i ALSO dont want to have him end up being so super lonely #bc i cant be hoke and awake ALL the time #home #anyway istg im like 20min from going out and buying a cat. #i may. i might. i wpuld probably need to stoo by the office and talk to the apartment management first tho since itll increase rent #............ ugh #maybe i can hold off until the start of next month so that way we dont have to worry about me paying any more this month???? #GOSH the struggle tho #ive only been moved out for like a week ;;; #shh ac

[ronoexiste]

i have a job interview today and i haven’t felt this level of anxiety in a while.

#im pretty sure it will be horrible bc im way too nervous #and that’s fine bc i have 4 more interviews but like #im still super anxious #txt

[yukinyaminyato]

i'm yet again feeling lowkey bad abt how little attention i pay to ppl who don't interest me bc tonight some girl enthusiasticly greeted me & started chatting and i was just nodding along and wondering who the hell she was 😶 clearly she knew me but i couldn't remember her :/

#this is not the first time this has happened...... ppl remember me from somewhere and im just like❓ #apparently ppl will remember u if u have a distinctive makeup style. (well my past two looks at events have been v costumey but still) #bc like there were a couple of ppl who were like 'oh youre so good at makeup!! your daily makeup is always so nice too' 🥺 aww #one girl even asked me if i could teach her how to do her makeup LMAO. i rlly wanted to continue that convo but it got interrupted :< #anyways tonight was rlly nice. even tho the party ended rlly early imo. and most ppl left super early too wtf!! #there was couple of ppl i would have wanted to talk w/ more and get to know but whatever #i did have a v nice & long conversation w/ one exchange student :-) yay look at me being social and forming connections #anyways rlly chill vibes tonight & comfortable environment. it's not often that i can slide into convos w/ strangers and not feel nervous #my posts

[haxxy]

done dating boys who go uwahh, i need to date a girl who goes tch

#haxxy stop #this is mostly a joke #but also a bit of a statement abt how exhausting certain things have been to me #i feel like some of my past relationships have been difficult bc i'm expected to play some sort of protector or tough role #(i'm sure a lotttt of that is self imposed) #which is something my anxiety firmly does not allow + results in me being super hesitant about doing anything at all #bc im so nervous about having my intentions misread (or purposefully skewed to demonize me. hello lingering trauma) #idk it's like my brain tells me ''you need to protect someone from stuff including yourself''. what bullshit righ? #i cant see myself seeking out a relationship anytime soon esp since im still figuring out shit abt myself rn #but if im going to be with someone i feel like i need to be able to lean on them for support too #instead of just feeling like i need to clam up and not talk abt shit + play some sort of role #idk i just want to be in a relationship with someone who actually knows me as a person #if youve read all of these tags so sorry. ive just been ruminating on these thoughts since my breakup last month

[discountwives]

im p sure someone on insta was making fun of me for shipping w/ spe.ncer like god youre so annoying why are you so rude ab me literally enjoying myself and coping i dont even know you, you weirdos 🗿

#me: i feel uncomfortable sharing fos #person 1: i ship w/ him looool #*blocks person 1* #person 2 (whos not even following me): i also ship w/ sp.encer #*blocks 2nd person* #realizes they have matching icons. and the time the 2nd message was sent shortly after i blocked the 1st person #knowing i feel uncomfortable. still telling me this. and probably talking to someone else ab it and making them send sumn OR #its just a backup/2nd account like whats the point #i wasnt feeling bad until i realize they were matching bc they mightve been talking ab me/making fun of me behind my back #n that makes me super nervous #sorry im not active on here im just #whateverhshdhd #jude jests 🃏

[goblinbugthing]

yall ever just see someone who you think is really cool and immediately, for the next 4 months, begin daydreaming nonstop about them following you back

hah. could never be me.

(^liar)

#text #buggi’s rambles #not to vaguepost or whatever but yk #and i know the person who im talking abt is NEVER gonna see this but i just wanna say to them. or like. the wall. #every time i see the art you post i think about how much i wish i could reblog it and tag it w/ ‘besties doodles’ #i have been thinking nonstop about how FUCKiNg much i want to be your friend but im too nervous to fuckig #reach out and like. actually ask to be your friend #but i really really want to be your friend #but i feel like it would be really weird or whatever the word is to like. dm you or smth and just be like #’hi i think youre super cool and awesome and i wanna be your friend’ #like thats just seems strange. or like. abnormal?? creepy???? idfk what the word is #but still i want to be your friend bc you’re really cool and your art is so so cool and we like the same stuff #uh. to a degree. we like The Beugs and you KINDA got me into cotl #but like!!!!! im so scared to reach out and ASK bc i dont wanna be weird #also fear of rejection n shit. yknow. The Illness #oops i rambled 💀 ok anyway #back to artist hell i go

[be-good-to-bugs]

yay my first day went really well!!

#the bin #im excited. i like it much more than my old job already. much less boring. theres much less people working and its in a small space but #i like that. feels more friendly and makes me less nervous. and me being super tiny works bc im much less in the way than i could be #person i met definitely thought i was still a minor cause she asked if i was in school still. everyone thinks this #probably a lil different bc im gonna be working here full time during school hours. #im wearing my hair up in a bun. i never do that!! but my hair is too long so i gotta wear it up so i dont dip it in peoples coffee #i think im gonna start wearing it up like this more often bc its so out of the way! my autism loves it bc its not pulling weird with weight #my hsir is long enough that getting it in the bun isnt too hard but not so long that the bun is huge #im like.. actually looking forward to tomorrow #not at all like my last job also. theres like 3 people MAYBE 4 on shift at a time unlike my last job which would have 30 ppl #well. i made coffee today. it was kinda fun. i also burned my fingers on the steamer so many times oh my god #i enjoyed this way more than my first day at my last job. also this was my FIRST day and i already made a bunch of coffee #at my last job i spent 3 days just watching videos and reading. bad. bad way to start #i dont even know anything yet and ur throing me into walls of text. much prefer this #i do wish he woulda walked me through making the different coffees a bit more instead of quizzing me and having me check the sheet #but it was busy so it makes sense. once there was a lul there was another person who was super nice and walked me through stuff #and i remember that stuff better. i think ill like tnis so much more than my old job. lik3 so much more. #also maybe ill try some new kinds of coffee. like a latte. ive never even had one but ive made 12 today #also its not starbucks. i would rather die than work at starbucks it seems like a nightmare