#bc i think im falling in love already

[animentality]

I know hunger games is good, I just can't put myself through a sad dark dystopian world where things are sad and dark and suck and everyone hates each other and everyone dies.

Like I could watch the news...

#the hunger games #thg #its why ive avoided the books too #like im sure katniss is a grim faced survivor who also happens to be super hot and sexy #but i dont know man #i know government is bad #you are correct #i agree with you already bestie #dont see what else i can learn from hunger games other than heres how we should revolt but wont bc people will only see thg as fiction #with not practical application irl #plus i cant watch two straight people fall in love #sorry #i believe when people say its good #i just dont think itd make me feel anything personally #i already know who dies anyway #its not the sexy love interest #its the non character

[frecklystars]

GOD!!!!! 😭😭💓💗💖💓💓💞💞💕💟💝💘💝💝💞💗💘💝💟💓💗💞💕💟💝💘💓💖💓💕💕

#I LOVE HIM SO MUCH HE MAKES ME SO SO SO HAPPY 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 #love notes #💕♬♪ ♡ I fall more in love with you every day (Blue) Valentine - ̗̀💙💌🍦 ̖́- #love that every Ryan character has just become another bf to make me feel safe and loved #I have come so far from where I was one year ago #i love that i can self ship with this guy and im like YES he loves me he protects me he would never hurt me #its hard to feel that way 24/7 but i feel that way at least half of the time now #and thats all that matters is that im getting better even if its fluctuating and messy. i AM getting better #because i know one year ago today i would not have been able to self ship with any characters whatsoever #Dean isn't even a villain or a serial killer or whatever he's just some dude. just some guy in a jacket. #but back then i just could not for the life of me feel safe with anyone bc the abuse was so fresh #and just. thank god i am at a point where i can ship with some characters now. even when it's so goddamn HARD #its at least HAPPENING. y'know. like. i am healing even if it's so fucking SLOW going #the fact that i can look at this 5 second scene and feel a burst of love in my heart #and think to myself 'yeah yeah he loves me so much he'd hold me through my nightmares too' #that's. huge. compared to a year ago where i just. could not. #it hasn't even been a year since i cut my abuser from my life yet and im already making little progress #even if it's. so. minuscule. there is progress happening just bc of the passing of time #and the fact that Barbie came into my life exactly when it was supposed to and Ryan's been in all these movies i can focus on #it all worked out like the stars were aligned perfectly for me to meet these F/Os and for them to heal me #i don't think that's coincidence or accident or anything. i think that's some... universal or spiritual thing #like something out there is looking out for me even if it's just the galaxy itself #these characters were meant for me and i was planned to meet them and for them to heal me #slowly one day at a time. ANYWAY. WAHHH. HUGGING AND KISSING DEAN PEREIRA MY SILLY BOYFRIEND

[coollyinterferes]

"Back by unpopular demand:"

"Us!"

#[*trips and falls to the ground like that one pepe frog meme but dramatically explodes into a million pieces instead* hi hi] #[i'll start by apologizing and thanking y'all for your patience bc wheew its been almost 2 months since my last post holy shittt] #[mental health along with intrusive thoughts and stuff have been absolute ass and still are right now] #[not gonna go into much detail bc i'm dealing with tons of bad stuff and negativity but yeah] #[at this point i aint even going to say 'im back!' bc everytime i do some even more terrible shit happens irl so naw] #[i also can't promise thread replies today bc i already know i'll likely not be able to finish any] #[but i will try to at least start working on some of them ;v;] #[other than that please feel free to send in stuff if you wish!] #[i haven't been around in so long that i feel completely rusty and out of the loop rn] #[but i think i'll start with the few asks i was unable to get to last time] #[if you guys who sent them see this: i'm sorry for the super looooong wait and thank you so much for your patience!!! <3] #[hope everyone's having a lovely day/night!!! <3] #;ic #(? #;ooc #(?? #[the world will never truly know *x files music plays*]

[munamania]

ok im a really chill and normal person and i get over things and am well adjusted but take a walk with me here. just give me my time to complain when im not in the absolute fucking trenches. and yes i believe i suffered more than those in trench warfare. it was literally a lesbian situationship with a bistraight girl come on. just. magenta choppy shag with the roots coming in. camo cargo pants black t shirt with red lettering and striped long sleeve (sign someone likes music. confirmed). lip ring big black stud earrings and nails. red docs. i think lesbians should be allowed to kill one dyke baiter in their lifetime idc

#and now we're gonna get into some quiet parts and youre just gonna let me have this #i. am so sick. first of all it was kinda funny how people ik ended up sorta surrounding her. felt good. but like we've shared a space #together since everything. i can like be in her presence it's seriously fine. that said. i do sometimes miss her #i say this after going through the really hating her guts period bc of her evil evil evil ways. and feeling like she's lame as hell bc she #s. but i mean it's me talking i have my problems too. i Hate the way we always so naturally act in sync. and i hate that we've both picked #each others' brains for hours so it's like. i knew you once and now we can't even look each other in the eye and that just really sucks #and i feel like. not that i strictly believe in these things. but we were sort of twin flames. i largely suffered for like. basically #falling in love w her. and i know i didn't leave as much of a mark. but i still hope it sucked a little for her #and i'll admit i think it'd be some sort of miracle if we could ever talk civilly. unfortunately we work in two ways #literally behaving in Ways and borderline fucking or not speaking. so. here we are #and i already humiliatingly tried to extend an olive branch this summer so im not gonna be fucking stupid. yk #but GOD how annoying. i did talk to situationship today and we were relatively normal so at least that's not deathly awkward #it's still. definitely um. stiff. but not terrible #i need to get to the club. pretend theres a cig emoji im on desktop rn #sorry for this. #film girl saga

[theguardianace]

i have this whole aroace wxs fic saga like completely planned out with various themes and experiences of being aroace and the different ways each of them would view their own identity but also i cannot for the life of me figure out the plot of any of the stories.

#minus rui ive already finished and posted that. #but emu being so secure in her identity but everyone (her family?) being really aphobic to her bc how could someone like EMU not fall in lo #(but they learn and come to accept her even if they don't really understand) #and tsukasa confidently identifying as bisexual because he doesn't really think gender has anything to do with liking someone #but then being confronted with the fact he's never actually had a crush and what he confused for attraction was admiration instead #but that bi label is something he really does value and he does think both guys and girls are nice looking even without being attracted to #so bi aroace tsukasa KING #and nene who was like “why is everyone being so weird about sex and romance im the only normal person here” #but then realizing “wait people aren't choosing to fall in love like this is a real thing that happens” and being like “ok well not me” #no internalized aphobia or anything just straight to acceptance #yeah. all these ideas. too bad i can't write.

[girlwithfish]

googling how do you know you love someone

#i don't think im there yet but im wondering if this guy actually loves me lol or if he just says it fast #idk #maybe i shouldnt question other ppls feelings and decisions like that #its sweet he thinks that ig. scary too #hes respectful that i feel its too soon but we talk abt love in general #i asked him what love is to him n stuff #he said he feels his energy goes up and gets replenished when hes with me #but he definitely is hinting at it or tells me he feels it justwont say it bc hek nows im not comfortable w it yet #and i think its understood im not there yet and wouldnt say it back but i feel its weird unspoken thing if one person says it and the other #doesnf #but maybe love isnt saying it just to hear it back #idk im like idek what love is to me anymore #i get nervous and dont know what to say even when he asks me like what my favorite snacks are #i like him a whole lot though #already miss him and wish i was asleep at his place #i turn into a lazy cat when im at his place tho i just fall asleep and or laze about. i hope its not annoging #but he tells me a lot he likes wjen i sleep at his place so :3

[fourteenthz]

Here's him for reference !! If u have seen critical role campaign two NO YOU HAVENT (might change to wild magic btw not sure)

#alright alright ill admit (i say as if that wasnt the goals): #he has like STRONG caleb vibes. so fire coded but I do think his alignment is just a mesh of caleb and essek tbh ??? #HAVE NOT watched the 2 campaign btw so I might be saying stuff wrong... but I just am obsessed with the idea of caleb I have in my tiny min #so there's that. his gardian is between purple tiefling and a drown.... dont look at me. my bg3 durge my rules. #but right lets go to the romance like I narrowed down btw i pretty much have an idea of character for the other ones #and I also want these the most. MOSTLY gale tho and this SUCKS bc I'm pretty sure durge and gale don't match AT ALL #i could make him worse vs i don't think the game allows me to make him THAT MUCH WORSE and for the playthrough I'm planning #im just scared he will break up with me at some point LOL on the other side I think Shadowheart SPEC justiciar!shd is a good choice #i want to take her parents home this playthrough as well so like... it might be nice to see them... yeah. #minthara is just there bc I will have her in my party this time !! idk shit abt her so who knows i might fall in love #karlach is there for the same reason as gale. I'm fixated on her platonic love and how absolutely well written it is. i want to see how #it goes with the romance. but also I'm scared she will just break up with me at some point for manipulating ppl and all that... #i kinda want a durge that's not EVIL but he's like going from “i want the best for me” to “i want the best for us” #nd this involves them being their “best” version aka the fucked up versions :) ascended astarion/justiciar Shadowheart/god of the weave gal #etc etc. so yeah that. if anyone that knows how the romances really go and want to give me some tips I'm open for them 👉👈 #on the other hand... i have a backup character for gale already... she's competing with halsin on big half elfs in the camp :D so yeah #like ik I prefer the idea of “huge elf girl monk” x gale more than durge x gale... but also i get giggly thinking abt wizard x sorcerer SO #YOU KNOW... THERE'S THAT. my monk girl IS stunning tho I'll show yall her someday !! I'm still unsure abt alignment and personality tho #which isn't the case for my durg NOR the one I started playing already... she's a chaotic good halfling and I adore her. #she's kinda of the mom of the group but also not ?? fun aunt maybe !! bc she flirts with everybody that isn't her tadpole gang and is jusf #so fun... sorry if all my references ate critical role related but think vax before raven queen happened. that's her. #she's a ranger btw and i genuinely CANOT wait to start romancing halsin with her. NO ONE TALK ABT SIZE DIFFERENCE I'll not hear #I already care them so much. haven't even met the big guy in this playthrough and yet i can see the hcs so lively. #halsin didn't go back to the forest in my first playthrough like I heard that could happen ??? so I'm excited to see WHAT'S GOING ON THERE #until then... I'll let yall know how the romance will go.... get ready for screenshots tyty #but this was DEFINITELY NOT ABT HER OH GOD I'm just procrastinating the bad endings ill get with my durge... help... anyway. #let it be known that if gotarsh was a romance option that wouldn't be a question. alas HE ISN'T so pls help me pick pls ty #knowing how the companions end I THINK I have preference for minthara (not sure ill ever play with her again) and shadowheart #(same for her and justiciar) theres that. I CAN be convinced to play god!gale more but i also can be convinced of anything with him SOO #kelly plays bg3

[tiercel]

Tumblr talking about making its site the same algorithmic slop pile as every other social media bc the users migrating here are too soft brained to curate their own feeds

#You dont understand tumblr is the only site that im able to use bc its not algorithmic slop #I can barely use youtube anymore bc i will get trapped in the vortex of shorts and suggested videos #I like tumblr bc unlike instagram twitter etc it allows you to create your own feed rather than force feeding you random posts #But lately it HAS been doing that & staff just released a statement basically amounting to ''new users are too confused so we're gonna pad #everything out'' corpspeak for ''we need to make the twitter refugees feel more at home by copying their dogshit falling apart site'' #Tbh i actually enjoy tumblr as a much more niche site i think that by making other ppl realize its just a regular ass blogging site theyre #gonna clog it all up more than it already is. Not like it isnt already crammed to the gills with reactionary assholes #Like the reasons i stopped going to twitter was A. stupid bullshit like locking me out 4 no phone number and B. people driving me insane #I do NOT need the people that would trigger my mental illness on a nightly basis coming here to spread their spores #Namely the dramabrained weirdos looking for problems in everything and reactionaries that already exist here but will proliferate #Tumblr ALREADY isnt doing jackshit about t€rves or fash why the fuck would they do anything about a massive influx of them #Sorry i needed to bitch a little. Love this site but also hate the web3.0 philosophy of dumbing everything down #When are we crawling back into the primordial sea we came from (neocities and forums) #emf

[o-ceti]

<- king of not thinking through the implications of my color palettes until it’s already finished and too late

#had to do an illustration about abortion and how it’s legal in fewer and fewer states and like #i have it so a person is like climbing over this treacherous rock bridge but my stupid dramatic lighting loving ass put like #a bright warm light coming from below and the rest is very dark and cool teal ish tones #and now im looking at it like… have i just implied that she’s going to fall into hell/damnation if she gets an abortion 😵‍💫😬 #like.. i don’t think so bc 1. it’s not like red devil lighting it’s more orangey yellow #and 2. the bridge is crumbling bc states where it’s illegal are falling off so I’m hoping it implies the opposite if anything #like as in being unable to get an abortion is akin to hell rather than You’re Going To Hell If You Do #i can’t stop overthinking it and i also can’t keep changing it bc ive spent too long on it already lol #i just don’t want it to be misconstrued…

[lucifer-kane]

The hugs in the epilogue were so very heartwarming (especially the convo with Shadowheart I love her sm) but not enough bc I didn't get to at least kiss the character I was romancing, Astarion :((

#bg3 #love everything though it was very cute and i got emotional. i love that you could hug ppl #lucian the ex durge is so so sooooooo happy these days bc of everything these ppl did for him #and honestly i think im gonna do a thing of him and gale getting together post game. still with astarion tho! #but when lucian goes to guest lecture to gale's students i think they spend a lot of time together #they were already super close but now it's just More. he's falling for the man deeply

[yamikawaii]

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MINE AND ONLY MINE

Sincerely, 🤍🤍 Yoomtah 🤍🤍

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[torchiiko]

Not to be a hater but i feel like sometimes ppl ship things for no reason. like yeah ppl can do whatever they want & if it makes them happy it shouldnt matter & disregard canon or whatever, But also as someone who worries abt making characters ooc & wants to build on canon moreso than outright change it, it annoys me a bit when ppl dont particularly take into account how characters might actually feel abt each other for the sake of making a ship work

its just kinda confusing seeing like every character in a work being shipped with each other. what do they even like abt each other. is that enough to progress to romance. would they even work in a relationship. like ik you think the ship is cute but whats your reasoning

#maybe i just dont get it bc im not that into canon x canon unless its. canon. or close enough that it could be #like wrightworth isnt canon but you can very easily argue that the way they talk to each other has romantic undertones #theyre both actively growing & changing & they can work together to make a relationship work (<- has only beat the trilogy) #with smth like selfshipping youre already changing canon to put yourself in so you might as well have your fav fall in love with you yknow #& thinking abt stuff like if youd actually be compatible only hurts you. its self indulgent & you deserve to be loved by your f/o #idk i just get annoyed seeing characters i personally dont think would work constantly being shipped together :/ #torch chatter #me when i complain

[bylertruther]

thinking about how lonnie only ever cared about will when he died and that was just to profit off of his death + will giving a girl he doesn't know his toy truck just because she's crying and he thinks she needs it more even if he knows joyce can't buy him another one + one of the very first things will did upon waking up in the hospital was ask if jonathan was okay + will telling them to close the gate in season two even though he's part of the hivemind and that would've killed him, too + will breaking his own heart by confessing his feelings and giving mike the painting he's spent so long on but saying that all of it came from el thus sacrificing his own wants and self to again help others + how that same selflessness and self-sacrificing nature of his is going to undoubtedly rear its head in season five again because he's at the center of it all and it all goes back to him and vecna is a creature that feeds off of n fans the flames of pain and guilt... feelin very scared n anxious in this chili's tonight over this actually 😳

#he is NOT going to die obviously clearly we know this they're not killing kids #BUT. #i'm just saying.... i don't think it would be crazy for him to feel guilty and like maybe this wouldn't have happened if... #well... u kno.. :( #he would never give up bc that's literally his whole thing that he's a fighter and a survivor #but. he does love his friends and his family. and he has been willing to die if it meant saving them before so like. yanno. #BUT IT WON'T HAPPEN I'M JUST SAYING THE ANGST IS LIKELY GOING TO BE THERE #AND THEN OFC EVERYONE IS GOING TO BE LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY WILLIAM SHUT UP SIT DOWN AND GO TO TIME OUT #and then we'll get some good n scrumptious hurt/comfort ok no one stone me i'm knocking on wood ok i Kno #just imagine will proposing that and everyone immediately says NO and mike especially gets pissed #because he's SICK and TIRED of fucking losing will every single time he thinks he's got him back #and god dammit he's already seen what life is like without will there he's not going to do it again he's NOT #don't go where i can't follow + crazy together + it was the best thing i've ever done + it's hawkins it's not the same without you #versus closegate + el commissioned it + she needs you and she always will #mike who is clutching onto will for dear life unwilling to let him go and will who is all too willing to #walk through the gates of hell if it means saving everyone he's ever loved and putting them out of their misery #but of course there's a better plan and letting will die is like killing a puppy it's like taking a sledgehammer to the foundation of #everything yanno. without heart we'd all fall apart n u can't beat the darkness without the light #anyway. can u tell i'm procrastinating editing my fic rn n thats why im writing epic poems in these tags <3 #mine

[caruliaa]

might watch the first puss in boots for funzies but do i need to. like from what iv heard abt it ik kittys backstory and that there is some gal+izzy shit going on with puss and kitty and i think thats all i need to know

#by gal+izzy shit i mean the trope of like. being sent to like. betray someone but then falling in love w them #actually the tropes fucks so severly i might wnat to see it actually happen in the movie #the thing is. iv heard its mid from some ppl and a few people says its pretty good #and i think bc mid has become like. the worst insult ever i thought that meant it was bad but im sure its like. #okay or kinda fun at least. idk im sure its like #not a great film but some moments wld b worth watching it for yk #i have art hw to that ill do tmrw and watch it in the background then. you guys better hold me to that btw 👍🏽👍🏽👍🏽 #flappy rambles #or ill watch a tinkerbell film maybe. idk #but i gotta get on tht hw its already wednesday for me technically. fucking gross omg

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#okAy so i'm not going to finish writing it i lack the skill n talent but i Must get this out there it's haunting me #i know rpf freaks some ppl out in which case why are u following me i literally made this blog bc i wrote so much goddamn rpf #but anyways. fair warning in advance. n i will delete this once i stop being insane blah blah blah #but god. just obsessed with piarlesteban ideas rn. with charles watching all the alpine stuff we're seeing trickling out now and like #the bittersweet feeling that comes with watching someone you love succeed at the cost of them potentially moving on without you #at least when pierre and esteban weren't talking it wasn't a constant reminder that Technically he's not pierre's oldest friend on the grid #that while he Technically thinks he knows pierre best. he wasnt one of those kids from normandy #is it jealousy? is it fear? is it something else? #after all if he called pierre 'pierrot' on main and started posting tiktoks with how important their friendship is #it would be smth f1 reposts and takes everywhere and makes a situation out of. but esteban can do it naturally. #him not wanting pierre and esteban to fall out again because truly he Does love them both albeit in very different ways because they *did* #all grow up together. but then if they do. he doesn't have to worry about if pierre starts to hesitate more when he's asked who he's #closest to. who his best friend is. doesn't have to worry #plus. plus plus. add in the context of it mirroring /pierre/ feeling like he got left behind while charles #blazed trails in his top team and pierre went back to his junior team who try as they might could never give him that wdc #sorry ive just been listening to smile like you mean it on repeat. and like #and someone is playing a game in the house i grew up in. and someone will drive her around on the same streets that i did #i CAN and i WILL make this about them #esp because im already deep in copium #YO the fact i can edit tags now. fucking SEXY!

[scary-monsters]

thanks to all that time i spent on the train i had way too much time to self reflect for literally no reason!!!! anyway maybe im actually just demisexual and that’s the one label i should use from now on

#feel so trapped by my lesbian identity sometimes .. feels like a block i put on myself bc i have so much trauma related to men #the likelihood that i could fall in love with one is so low i think #idk man this shit is so confusing for me.. I’ve had Real Feelings for like 3 people max #and only been in complete love Once #none of them men #im keeping this on the downlow bc im already so insecure abt this part of myself #im not entirely convinced that I’m capable of a real relationship but who knows #I got broken up Really badly by my last one