#bc i get that thats very much a reality but also… we deserve to see the good things in the world tok

[golbrocklovely]

i saw someone on twitter seriously have a go bc snc were focusing more on their social life than their professional life. like what? thats insane. they’ve worked 24/7 for the last 10 years. they deserve to enjoy themselves for a while.

and i have to laugh. people saying theyre going to stop watching snc and laugh as their careers fumble? babes, if they depended solely on yt views for income they’d be uploading far more frequently. besides, they have 12 million followers and easily bag a million views on a video in the first 24 hours. a few dozen fans boycotting them is not going to make even an ounce of difference. but hey, if it makes you feel better, all power to you. (“you” being those fans ofc). not to mention they have investments and other business endeavours outside of youtube. your online hissy fit will do jack shit. (again, “you/your” being those fans)

:)

i think that's the thing i find so funny about this fandom. first off almost 99% of the drama is started by twitter. or at the very least they're the loudest at all times. they also think a lot of us feel the same way as them just bc it's an echo chamber over there. so when they all start calling snc out on something or think that that everyone feels the same way, they feel like they are making an impact by saying they'll leave or stop supporting if snc don't meet their demands.

and babes, if you really aren't enjoying your time here, you can go. it's fine. no one is holding a gun to your head and telling you to stay. but don't expect snc to do everything you want them to do. it's just not gonna happen.

sometimes i don't get this fandom. bc look, when i was here back in 2020/21, i got some of the backlash that the boys were facing. i understood parts of it, for sure. but there was a lot, and i do mean a lot, of extra shit that went on that made it much worse. and that side of the fandom… they cried wolf too many times. you don't get to do that repeatedly and then think that snc are gonna stick around to actually hear what you gotta say.

and especially rn, what exactly are ppl pissed off about?? bc look, you wanna say you miss when they were posting a lot more, sure. i get that. i miss them posting more often too. but you gotta also realize maybe WHY they aren't posting so much. and blaming their new gfs isn't one of those reasons.

they have explained that they basically had little to no personal life at one point, that all they were doing is working. that they didn't get to spend time with their friends or gfs bc they were working so much. sam, the man that never addresses drama, is asking fans to cool it. he full on said that he was miserable a year or so ago bc of all the stress he was under. and then colby, the man that doesn't cry ever, had a full on break down in 2022. and didn't even admit it until midway thru 2023. he doesn't read comments anymore bc they get so bad sometimes. or how about that colby even stated that he didn't even want to tell this fandom that he had cancer bc he knew how everyone would react if he went bald………. what does that tell you???? that we aren't trustworthy. that snc feel the need to pull back bc we are all toxic.

at what point do we turn the mirror on ourselves and realize hey, maybe i've taken things too far??

and reality is, a LOT of this only popped up once they both got gfs. a lot of fans say those two aren't to blame or they're not upset or they don't actually want to date snc, but at the end of the day them finding someone to love was the straw that broke the camels back. and you gotta sit back and wonder why does seeing snc happy make me upset and want to leave?? (if someone reading this is one of those fans)

bc rn, i'm more into snc than i have been in a while. i want to see them happy and healthy and enjoying life. sure, colby being in his feels (or sam even) was a fun time, sure. i love me some balcony tweets. but at the end of the day, i don't want him jaded and unable to find love again. why the fuck would i wish that on someone i love dearly??? same with sam. sure. i can joke about kat and how i want her new song to tear him a new one, but i still want him to be happy. i want him to be able to move on from his relationship with her. and that's not a cut at her. no one should be stuck feeling like shit. take it from the person that has been like that for years and still really is in one way or another: i wouldn't wish heartache on my worst enemy. so why would i do that to someone i say i care about??

but back to your ask lol

yeah, the twitter fandom thinks it's all high and mighty but it lost that spark by 2022. their words mean nothing, snc have pulled back bc that side of the fandom sucks (but also bc they want a break), and now they are facing the consequences of their actions and don't like it. womp womp. there's still almost 12 million of us babes. a couple 100 of you leaving ain't gonna do shit.

#ask #personal #sam and colby #sam golbach #colby brock

[charmedreincarnation]

Does improving sc changes our desires ?/

What if we dont want that. For ex I like certain kind of men , uk my type. But I also feel that getting my sc perfect might make me not like them.as much. Also I have heard healing childhood trauma affects these (?). But the thing is I ENJOY these things obviously coz I like them😅 and I dont want to lose interest in them uk what I mean.

Similarly there are more things related to my hobbies I fear the same.

My Confusion: to combat these anxious thoughts I say "I will always like so and so and always enjoy". But then I also notice some contradiction come up with things like "am I robbing myself or something by giving myself these and not something extraordinary" or "am I wrongly forcing myself to like these" when I know very well I am not or "what if I change in future but by saying affs like these I keep myself from experiencing something else" and tbh I dont even want to experience that something else. Or the most sensible one yet something I dont want idk why "if I even start liking something else I will enjoy it just like I enjoy what I do now".

So am I really doing something wrong for making me like these forever?! Even if thats what I want FOR NOW.

2. Another Very important question I have.

We know about the law and ANYTHING is possible. So manifesting simple things feel mediocre. Uk what I mean. Its like I am WASTING my power. Its like I see people here waking up in villas, shifting realities, going back in time and wjat not. And here I am wanting to lead a lovrly and happy "human" life. And being mediocre. So I feel this "guilt" of "wasting" my power. I dont know how much of it made sense to you. But I would love your opinion here!!

Does improving sc change our desires ?/

Not unless you want it to. You already answered your own question by stating anything is possible, so why would keeping your own desires be impossible

As for the second part I am very confused. Don’t compare what you want to what other people want. Unless you’re planning to live for other people and be in their shadows.. you definitely need to work on your self concept love 💗. Not trying to be rude but you’re even doubting that your desires that you have intrinsically are minuscule when they’re literally your desires. There’s no way to measure what desires are big or small, your desires are important and great because they’re your desires. It doesn’t matter if you use manifestation to manifest 10 dollars or 10 billion they’re all on the same level of equivalency. If they make you happy i don’t get what the debate is. I’m not sure is you don’t think you deserve it or what, but find your issue, reflect, and try to get over that boulder bc it will definitely help you on your journey :)!

#void state #law of assumption #manifesting #manifesation #law of attraction #reality shifting #self concept #shiftblr

[planetsolaris]

knocks on ur door politely. ocs?

hoo boy here we go (they all have pun names ace attorney style btw)

The Main Three (affectionate nickname)

Tomas B Nebula(he/him) is the main character, or at least i try for him to be the main character. the truth is everyone steals everyone's thunder. anyway. tomas is a caring fish alien with a dad complex

no ok for real; tomas used to be a famous thief, who stole valuables and "information" and sold them to dubious people. by the beginning of the story he's left that life behind, or is trying to at least. tomas is very kind and honestly just has a heart of gold. he's devoted to his friends and to helping people, even if really bad anxiety gets in the way

he's also italian and from an alien species thats just the luca sea monsters but plus water bending

Laura Anne Dromeda(she/her), scientist, film enthusiast, meta jokes get out of jail free card, tomas' best friend and responsibility.

she's just. a chaotic little gremlin (emphasis on the little) with absolutely no self preservation instincts and seems to be babysitted by tomas at all times. seems. in reality they babysit each other but thats a whole other thing

ironically, as of now at least, she's the only person in the cast with a real job. (she's an astrophysicist)

despite her cynical and chaotic personality, she cares and loves tomas deeply, which she shows through not-so-gentle bullying. she's eccentric and passionate about film and science, will Absolutely lecture you for hours on end if given the chance

shes also argentinian because she deserves to be cool <3

Daniel Fénix (he/him) (the one on the right), every cast needs a himbo amaright. a very. anxious himbo. (thats two ocs with anxiety. its almost like. its almost like the author wants to tell us something)

daniel is just. just a sweetheart of a man. a real giant teddy bear. he's really sweet, if a little dumb and mostly clueless. he's very hesitant to accept help of others, though, due to a long history of bad people and bad decisions. unfortunately for him tomas and laura will befriend anyone whether they like it or not

daniel is shy as a result, he reads like it's the only thing he knows how to do. he owns piles and piles of books (he really likes the old ones too. picture of dorian grey gay people books)

he's half british half argentinian (again) because i want to spite the English

still main characters, but separate from the main three in a weird way dont question it

Apollo and Artemis Vi Shon (he/they and she/they respectively) (she sometimes uses bug/bugs but very very rarely)

the twins my beloveds. ive already talked about them in a separate post (see oc tag bellow) but for the sake of completing this post:

their nicknames (and essentially what everybody calls them) are mantis and beetle in that order. the nicknames were given by beetle because her special interest is bugs and shes just a Weird Girl(affectionate) like that

mantis is cold, closed off, barely ever smiles (beetle SWEARS she saw them laugh once) he essentially talks like miles edgeworth but with a shorter temper and more prone to screaming at people. yet, he treats everyone with almost mocking respect

he loves his sister very very much even if he doesn't show it that much, when you compare it to how he treats everybody fucking else its really obvious

beetle, on the other hand, is the complete 180 of their brother. she's a bundle of sunshine and loves to LOVE and her friends and just. everything. she's a therapist and has autistic girl swag <3

beetle is the type of person to pick up a live tarantula with her hands (and gloves bc they dont want to hurt her Friend) and SHOVE it into her friend's face screaming "LOOK AT HIM"

mantis and beetle have a. relationship. they have a lot of story and issues between them but at the end of the day they love each other a lot

GOD THIS ENDED UP BEING SO LONG IM SORRY CONGRATS TO WHOEVER READ THIS WHOLE THING

#fran bamm ocs

[artificialqueens]

Thats Not Me (Inti/Arantxa) - Winter

a/n: this came about bc of a mix of love for drag race espana and the representation on that season, my love for arantxa and inti and my own experiences with dysphoria, TW for description of body issues, body and gender dysphoria. also sorry if it gets confusing, I use she/they pronouns for arantxa and they/them for inti :)

I hope people enjoy this, it's pretty personal to be posting something like this but hopefully it can be enjoyed :)

thanks to mina for betaing, couldn't do it without you :)

ao3 link

Inti stared ahead blankly, not sure what they were seeing anymore.

That wasn’t them, that couldn’t be them, absolutely nothing felt right. This body — it wasn’t theirs, it hurt to see. Things faded around them, the corners of their vision growing blurry and faded. The room felt like a black hole, sucking them deeper into torment at what they felt. It was uncomfortably constant, seeing that sent an otherwise good day into pure hell.

They wanted nothing more than to shed this prison, it felt like a punishment for something that they couldn’t help. How could one’s body be so wrong, nothing felt right it all was too much to cope with—

“Inti?” That angelic voice rang through the clouds, pulling them from the desperate depths, giving them the air they needed to survive. Arantxa looked worried, prodding their side trying to get any sign of life.

They breathed in, trying to steady themselves. It wouldn’t take much to veer her off the questions Inti could feel coming. Sometimes they envied their partner, so carefree most of the time, happy with their body and not craving to change it to feel like themself.

“Who is this?” They spoke shakily, staring back into the mirror at the person before them. They couldn’t recognise them as hard as they looked. Nothing felt right. Everything was overwhelming, plunging, sinking deeper into this burning dread.

“It doesn’t feel like you?” Arantxa questioned softly, hands slowly moving to rub their back. Inti blinked back at her, trying to sort through her thoughts.

How did she always know exactly what the problem was? It was as if they lived the same experience. They definitely dealt with similar things, but the smaller blonde just seemed to know what was happening without the torture of trying to verbalise it.

Inti could only nod, letting themself fall into the supportive grip of the one they loved. In their arms, they felt like they were floating though now it was mixed with the torment of reality.

It always came back to this, the lingering pain of existence. The promise it would get better feeling fleeting the more they saw of this tainted world.

They had a light, someone to cling to. It hurt, but she was always there, ready to support and loving no matter how they felt. Sometimes Inti wondered how the world could create someone as pure as Arantxa, she rarely seemed phased by any of life’s challenges, going along with things as they came and always smiling, even at their worst moments.

They’d asked before, how she stayed so bright in the painful depths Inti walked. She just shrugged, claiming to just not take things seriously, enjoying who she was without more to it.

There was a pang of jealousy, that someone could look at themselves and just accept it, no flaws hurting them, just going along with how they are and not feel detached and pained by their physical form. But just as they envied the blonde, they valued her even more. Having a force so very full of love right beside you, it was magical. She was etherial to their pained eyes, a creature that someone blessed the world she lived in while deserving so much more than it was capable of giving her.

That was their motivation during the darkest of times, wanting to give her a fraction of what she deserved. Hold her gently and be the one to kiss her goodnight, it kept them hanging on.

  “I love you.” Her voice barely above a whisper, Arantxa ran a hand through Inti’s hair before pressing a kiss to their forehead.

They could only let out a small hum, though their angel could still comprehend it.

Arantxa let Inti stay in her arms as long as they needed, knowing how much it hurt to feel this way. No one deserved to suffer this way, it hurt their heart to see someone they treasured so deeply in such pain. She felt powerless against it sometimes but resolved to stay by their side, offering whatever she could to help her beloved partner just as they had helped her figure out the complexities of identity.

Inti moved their head, facing the mirror once again with a sullen expression.

“This doesn’t feel right, where do I even start?”

Arantxa looked thoughtful for a second before her eyes lit up, at the best of times that was a sign to be wary but she looked so sure of herself that Inti couldn’t help but follow her lead and she grabbed their hand and pulled them into their room.

She sat them on the bed, away from the view of any reflections, and rushed to open a drawer, pulling out something with an accomplished huff as she puffed her chest out.

“We can get rid of it for now, though don’t sleep with it on, we can figure something else out for tonight.” Arantxa handed the binder to Inti, helping them through the right arm straps to compress their chest.

“Make sure you pull them up, so you don’t damage your chest.” She chimed as they just about got the binder on, Inti nodded, glancing down at their chest with a pained look.

Arantxa slowly moved her hands, making her actions clear as day if they needed to be stopped. She tilted Inti’s head up, kissing them to distract from her readjusting their breasts into a safer position.

“Does this look better?” She asked, watching as inti looked over themselves in the mirror, eyes scanning every inch of their body for all minor details

“That’s me.” They nodded, relief flooding through them at not having to see the cause of this panic. It wasn’t a permanent solution, but when the lights went out they could cope, especially with someone with them every step of the way always ready to help and shower them with love no matter how they felt about their body.

#rpdr fanfiction #drag race espana #es1 #inti #arantxa castilla la mancha #arantxa x inti #hurt/comfort #angst #winter #tw gender dysphoria #concrit welcome #submission

[caswlw]

fic recs bc u guys are incredibly depressing

so i’ve been seeing some fic rec posts going around and some of my dear mutuals are posting about fics i simply do not have the mental capacity to read </3 so instead i decided to make my own list of fics i reread consistently when im looking for that good spn serotonin :) ok to rb 😌

the whole damn roadhouse knows - oh my god,, this fic is the Peak of 2013/2014 destiel fics with the roadhouse gang and everyone just working together.  it’s got a bet, shenanigans, and overall is a really good time i recommend it So Hard it hurts.  very surprised its not more popular honestly.  66k and 18 chapters

4 times they nearly kissed, 1 time they nearly didn't - soft au where cas moves to lawrence and dean owns a cafe.  jack and claire are cas’s twins and its just a fluffy fic where dean and cas go on dates a bunch :) honestly So Soft and its kinda a magic au where cas and the kids are just witches and honestly what more could u want there??  10k and 6 chapters

my three dads - a season 13 sort of rewrite picking up after 13x03.  so much here!  widower arc feels, claire being a larger part of the narrative, making jack and dean’s relationship make more sense, and dean finding a daughter he had 16 years ago on some random hunt with claire!  i’m a sucker for kid fic so i love this one and it feels really organic for the kind of fic it is,, total recommend.  68k and 20 chapters

the six hearts of dean winchester - holy shit this one is my everything.  it’s based on the promo for 14x10 and basically explores sam and cas going to find six shards of dean’s heart that he’s hiding so they can get rid of michael and save dean.  god this one is so good i don’t want to spoil it but it’s a fast read and u will love it!  or money back guaranteed.   9k oneshot

kinda like family, kinda like love - ok so this one is pretty popular but for good reason!!!!!!! this fic is so good and its got friends to marriage of convenience to actual lovers and obvs the marriage is bc of adoption bc im a sucker for kid fic lol.. it also has big angel family and the mess that’s the winchester family AND saileen bc this was made in 2018 god bless.  122k and 35 chapters

caught somewhere in time - ok so ik i said i don’t love fics where it’s setting deancas in the past... but this is a canonverse fic where they get sent into the past accidentally and then stay there for a while building a life while they realize they aren’t coming back to reality any time soon.  so so good i love it a lot (also no war! wow can you believe that!)  29k and 7 chapters

literally anything by GatesKeeper - iykyk this writer is chefs kiss so good!!  i love some good sam knows and supportive sam and oblivious deancas.. amongst everything else they write.  20 total works (and all of them are destiel)

grace and pirouette - both are finale fix its ive already read at least three times and i just. misha was right when he said fic writers could do it better !!!!! grace is a script based fic that’s just. so much better than the finale,, and pirouette is a claire saves the day type finale fix it that we also deserved!  5k and 6k oneshots, respectively 

r/supernatural - new fic thats good for shits and giggles when everything else is too sad to read! lots of canon related references :) very dean and i think thats cool :))) 3k oneshot

youtuber dean married teacher cas - a classic youtuber/teacher series of fics that’s just so damn heartwarming.  also has sam and bobby and claire!!! very cute and an au that isn’t depressing :D how about that!  12 works and 38k, ongoing

i also am a sucker for stanford era dean and destiel fics, and sam knows type fics so if you want a list of those i can try and scrounge one up :) anyway lmk if u read/have read any of these bc i would loveeee to talk about it akshjkafdh

#spn #fic recs #anyway tho can u tell what i like reading lmao #i just wanted to balance out all the war fics and sex fics im seeing bc thats not exactly my cup of tea lol #and this is for grace and donvex asking for it 😌 y’all are some real ones

[exclamaquest]

I'm going to say right off the bat that I am not actually too heated about this, I just thought it might be interesting to talk about if you're willing. If this is getting on your nerves just say so and I will never ask you about your Tsumugi take again. After all we are in the end just strangers chatting about a game :) ( I am so sorry to flood your inbox but now I'm committed to this so. Ignore the others if you want to! Also this is old news but I couldn't send for a few days so here I go.)

I would like to point out that Tsumugi, in canon, shares similarities with Hifumi (fiction>reality & fandom active). They were both played off as just weebs, except for Tsumugi's masterminding. Canonically, Hifumi would be as likely to be a gross creepy fan as Tsumugi- but obviously, thats dumb as shit and he deserves better. The thing im having difficulty understanding is why you would disregard canon's nonsense when it concerns Hifumi, but emphasize that aspect in your perception of Tsumugi.

If the masterminding is what villifies her, I could bring up Junko again or point to the ambiguity of the mm role- between V3's convoluted 'none of it was real!' and your clear apathy towards strict canon (which i totally support), I do not see a reason you wouldnt apply similar logic to that you used on the other characters I mentioned to Tsumugi instead of writing her off as a gross fujoshi or whatever. Im not trying to make you like her, but it seems unfair to reduce her to the worst possible traits she could have when you have expanded on and humanized so many other dr characters. (ugh i had to split the last paragraph into 2. im so sorry about that)

response under the cut bc this sucker got LONGGGGG

first off no need to apologize! i love discussion & dialogue and you bring up some good points! it's true i haven't talked about her in a very positive light on my blog, and that i've reduced her publicly. i HAVE done a lot of thinking about her and i agree that like.. i haven't expressed it on my blog as much as i have in private GKDSKGDS and mainly that's because like...i just don't think she's interesting. yes, she's complicated like any other dr character but she just...doesn't interest me. like, hifumi interests me because of the fanon him vs the canon him and how they differ rather strikingly.

however for tsumugi like...i can't really see a disconnect other than some people making her Only Evil and Only Ever Evil when in reality she's...very much being hurt by danganronpa too and she doesn't really grasp the full consequences of her own actions bc of it being normalized etc in the world she grew up in + her fandom-y lens, and you're right, it's a LOT like how Hifumi sees things through his lens of his special interest but also. he had moments where you saw through that shit to his genuine self. tsumugi...doesn't get that.

which i understand is partially because of her whole ough im so plain schtick but also like. they do manage to make some background characters interesting! like rantaro! you don't learn a lot about him and he dies really quickly but he's still compelling and you WANT to learn more about him. tsumugi is just...painfully uninteresting.

and honestly? i think she was a shit mastermind choice. again i realize im a hypocrite coming from a standpoint of liking junko, but i really dont think she makes a good mastermind. which i know is part of the point of her being the mastermind in the first place, but much like a LOT of v3's overarching themes, it falls flat. it really feels there's no real compelling reason for her to enact this other than she likes danganronpa etc etc etc and that she's got Fandom Brainrot (like a lot of the fans). idk.

and on the junko point--even without me changing her for personal interest, junko was ALREADY an interesting character. That foundation is necessary. If i find tsumugi boring, i cant ever expand upon her because it will always be boring to me, yknow?

and like again like...i DO try to see her as a fleshed out human--and i have tried to flesh her out. she's just...still uninteresting to me. and im sorry if it seemed like i hadnt, i just dont really tend to talk in depth about the characters that i find uninteresting

to sum it up sorry if my jokes seemed like my genuine interpretation of her character /gen, i have thought about her at length and i really just kinda don't like her for a whole lot of reasons but also me being petty GKDSKGDS i do appreciate the essay tho it's given me some stuff 2 think about & feel free 2 talk to me at any time i love writing shit like this even when it takes an assload of time.

#theo.ask #anon #danganalysis #dr #tsumugi shirogane

[synthmusic91]

thoughts? kjfhlkjdfh asking bc i rb'd the original post from u a bit ago because i agreed w/ original poster but i just saw this rb of it and wanted to know what u thought. ciaran(.)tumblr(.)com /post/652413157345820673/there-is-a-genre-of-posts-thats-obsessed-with-the

well first of all i hope this isn't a bait ask. this reply really doesn't deserve the time and effort i put into refuting it, but there was a point in time when i was emotionally confused by these..."arguments", so whoever u are, anon, i hope this is helpful. i also recommend some distance - literally, "go outside and touch grass", which is a lot more difficult than it sounds, but it needs to be done. anyway, here's my "analysis":

for context, here's what the post in question said:

and the tags:

at a high level, we can see that what ciaran is saying doesn't really respond to what OP was talking about. for this reason, i'm not going to bring in much of what OP said, because it's uncontested in this context, and look at ciaran's reply. i'll try to break this up...

EDIT: i had a long-ass response here, but then i realized it was dumb because the source material is dumb. i cut out most of it, but here are the highlights.

"there is a genre of posts that’s obsessed with the notion that fandom is something much larger, more prevalent, and more able to affect the way media is processed and consumed, than it actually is in reality."

so, as we can all see on tiktok and, indeed, on the electronic lore olympus billboard that takes up a side of a literal skyscraper, fandom is no longer the niche thing that "fandom olds" make it out to be. also, we can't ignore how many (white) fandom players go on and work in the industry (cassandra clare, whoever wrote 50 shades, man idk much of anything so there's probably many more). so this comment is sort of myopic. and since this is what characterizes the rest of the reply, well...it's not great.

also don't look up lore olympus; it's basically a dd/////lg fanfic that happens to be one of the most popular series on the line webtoon app, which is rated for teens...and for $1 to the creator's patreon, you can view not sfw p*dophilic art, so. also obviously i didnt do that; there was a video essay about this. i can't find it though

"ironically but understandably, these posts are made by people who are so terminally fandom-poisoned that they ascribe phenomenal power to it, and think of it as some great evil that must be defeated (by making posts on tumblr, which is obviously a very influential thing to do)"

"fandom-poisoned" is such a nebulous term, especially since it appears to mean "has had some really significant, (in this context) bad experiences with fandom." this is, first of all, a huge assumption to make about a stranger, and second, not the own they think it is. i'm just going to link this post, and hopefully you can see how it relates.

anyway, the "making posts on tumblr is meaningless" is um...interesting, seeing as off the top of my head i can think of two very influential tumblr blogs that talk about really important issues, Gradient Lair and Red Light Politics. I don't know as much about Red Light Politics, but Gradient Lair is frequently cited by academics (not getting into academia nonsense now but... -_-). also, they sound more pissed that the original post did gain traction, but whatever. this paragraph doesn't really make sense, but nothing here does, because i wasn't given much to work with.

"...and then because these people have basically no imagination and unfailingly pick on others for their own faults, they project their own experiences on everyone they perceive as being more ‘in fandom’ than them,"

jesus christ. i'm going not say anything about the tone of this because i put too much effort into this for some rando to call me a cyberbully.

i think what they're thinking about is how there appear to be some "fandom critical" people who try to, holistically, "ruin everyone's good time" by "stirring up drama" about popular fandom artists/writers/whoever else idk. oftentimes these people will also make jokes about fandom whatever, seemingly picking on random people's interests.

however, if you look at the long history of fandom racism, fandom's normalization of p*dophilia, and even general fandom harassment, and then you look at fandom's visceral, unwarranted reaction to criticism regarding these things, you can quickly see that disillusionment towards fandom is entirely reasonable. as for the joking, well...this an oversimplification but not everyone needs to like what you like. it sounds like they just need to get over themself.

and go “You, a 27 year old queer blogger who is into [tv show/anime/movie] an embarrassing amount, are now going to be the face of Capitalism” with no self-reflection or critical thought given to how fucking cringe it is-"

so, i'm regretting putting so much effort into this because this is so fucking long and i have to analyze this nonsense...it feels like i'm back in my feminist thought class. nightmarish. but anyway, this seems to deal with- [CUT FOR LENGTH. nothing important was missed].

EDIT 2: actually here's a summary of what I had. it deserves better than to be a response to this nonsense, but first it detailed how this took 1. the op's post and 2. a comment that we don't even know if op agreed with and misinterpreted that, and threw quite a fit about this- and i hate to say this because this term is misused so often by redditors, but- strawman.

I then went on to discuss how, for example, PoC can uphold systems of white supremacy. while obviously no person of color is going to be the "face" of white supremacy, the discussion still needs to be had, especially within that group. similarly, while fandom constituents may not be the face of capitalism, there needs to be a discussion, within fandom, on how they support and are defined by capitalist (and other) systems.

it was really too good of a point to be making for this trash reply. I could go say more, but I'm still trying to stay on topic, unlike ciaran.

"to act like random people on the internet, end users with no influence over corporate decisions, are the ones personally responsible for the fact that late-stage capitalism has destroyed popular art and culture in an increasingly sordid attempt to make money."

we've been over the "no influence" bit - because in fact fans do have influence, especially since media creators are literally fans, etc etc. i'm tired of people acting like they have no power and using that as an excuse to support and perpetuate harmful, easily avoidable behavior.

also, to act like the nebulous system of late-stage capitalism is the only cause of bad media is ludicrous. first of all, someone has to make these so-called "corporate decisions", and the people making artistic decisions are, again, overwhelmingly members of "fandom." this comment is really trying to keep marvel trash and lore olympus-esque nonsense in the same atomic, indivisible category lest someone catches a whiff of nuance.

"the above post is a great example of this phenomenon because op admits freely that they only think fandom is destroying media because they have been spending more time in fandom and thus have an over-inflated sense of its importance in greater culture. posting your own Ls indeed."

i'm so tired. this person literally has 120 works on ao3 like...who is spending more time in fandom.

and the tags:

#i assure you that fandom has no bearing on my actual real life #and if it does on yours. then that is your problem #it's also a very funny problem to

now this is just egregiously tone deaf. you do not need to do more than a cursory google search to find a bottomless well of examples of fandom harassment, threats, doxxing, and violence, much of which is racially motivated. you can see why it would be bad to make fun of this. 

also the way that “fandom has no bearing on their actual real life“...120 fanfics on ao3. 120.

conclusion:

the reply clearly misinterprets of op's point, and as such, does not refute it. they responded to another issue altogether, which is that of the sanctity of their ~coping mechanism~ or whatever it is. their argument in this respect was, in my opinion, delusional and pathetic, especially given that they wrote it on someone else's unrelated post.

FINAL NOTE: i cut out lots of this because the reply went in so many different directions, so some stuff might not make sense. let me know if you have any questions.

#answered #anonymous #fandom #long post #q slur #s

[thechampagnelovers]

thoughts on each 1d member? not about the music, but about how you see them and how you feel about them

nony, this is an amazing question.

i wanna start by saying they’re all very talented musicians and the nicest people in the music industry and they all deserve good things in life. this is my personal opinion on how i see them portrayed by social media/general public/the fandom.

I’m gonna start with Zayn. I think he’s madly talented (maybe a little bit more so than the rest of the boys) but he’s inevitably gonna drag all his past with him forever (not only because he left yk, but the fact that he’s the only no-white person out of ot5 has already condemned him, bc the music industry is racist :) ) and that must unmotivate him so much. also the fact that he was so overworked in 1d that he literally can’t be on stage again just infuriates me so much, if anyone has to sue s*mon is zayn. he deserves so much better, but i hope he’s happy and i hope he knows we love him and we’ll follow him to the end of the world. I want to hear him sing about love, about his baby, about his art and his cute little farm. i want to see him happy. 

Liam: everyone is so quick to dismiss Liam and his feelings. He always shows himself very happy and his managment always tries to sell him on the sex appeal side and it’s so easy to miss whats really underneath all that. Liam has faced mental health problems that led him to substance abuses. he was a father at only 23. none of you know how YOUNG that is to be a father. he has battled his problems and has found a healthy way out of them and that takes so much ENERGY and it’s so painful to do. recovering is so hard, and not everyone makes it. Liam has been through a lot and people don’t realise it (but that’s because we don’t hold the same standards to all of them oops)

Harry......... I respect him a lot, because he said “fuck it, im gonna do what i want, sing what i want, dress like i want and im not gonna hear anything you have to say about it” and he took that approach because EVERYONE has an opinion on him and ughhhhh that must be so annoying tbh. ngl tho, the fact that he’s so distanced with his fans doesnt sit right with me, but i have a feeling it’s because of how toxic many of them are (im talking about stalkers and crazy het harries here) so i get it, although it makes me a little sad for the good fans. In many regards i feel like post-1D zayn and harry are very similar but the only difference is that harry is white lol, and that is why they’re treated so differently by everyone (and probably the reason Z is mad at him because he knows thats true)

Louis: remember what i said about not holding the same standards for all the 1d boys? Louis is what I meant. When everyone is so quick to dismiss liam’s story and trauma, on the other hand the only thing people seem to talk about louis is about his family and what he went through. we all love louis but i cant help but feel like many people (and many stans) feel pity for him, and louis would HATE that. Louis is the strongest person i’ve seen and a clear example of not letting fame get in your head, and all his life experiences (even before he became famous) made him that way. I feel like people struggle to see Louis without another lense that’s not “poor boy, he’s been thought a lot” when in fact we are more than our experiences and our losses. i feel especially drawn to him bc we both come from very similar families and both our families have gone through similar experiences, and that’s why it infuriates me when people can’t see beyond it. 

lastly, Niall. it’s no surprise niall is my fav and i’ll try my best to be as objective as i can. that being said, niall is truly, out of all of 1D, who has made it almost intact. what i mean is, niall has managed to make a name for himself as an artist without dragging with him all the dramas and bullshit from the past. and you know how did that happen? he didnt have dramas from the past, BECAUSE HE WAS THE MOST UNDERRATED 1D MEMBER. From day 1 they made niall feel out of place and like he wasnt enough, he was pushed down in every way possible. all the boys always felt protective of niall because he always got the worst part and was made fun of. if you’re not a niall stan you might not know this but niall was planning on releasing “this town” on SOUNDCLOUD. MILLIONAIRE NIALL HORAN, A BOY WHO WON THOUSANDS OF AWARDS AND SOLD OUT THOUSANDS OF ARENAS WORLDWIDE WAS GONNA RELEASE HIS MUSIC ON SOUNDCLOUD LIKE HE WAS A UNKNOWN RAPPER. that itself has to show you how much they did dirty to him and how they fucked with his confidence. his solo career is amazing and stands out from the rest of 1d because it really was built from almost ground zero, because no one thought he could do it, not even himself. the same way i say i relate a lot to louis in a family perspective, i relate a lot with niall from a personality perspective. niall has a lot of confidence in himself but it was crushed down for the longest time, and now -as an adult- he’s recovering it, he’s learning to trust himself and trust his music. outsiders might think niall is over confident when in reality people like him (people like me) are really insecure underneath all our jokes, we fake it till we make it. i just love him a lot. 

ask me my thoughts on anything

#this was a ride nony #i almost cried with louis and niall at the end lol #ask #personal

[before-whatgod]

How I Would Fix the MCU Movies (in chrono order)

Black Widow is mentioned but there are no spoilers! also this is super long sorry lol

CA:TFA

--More time with the howling commandos- instead of a montage with their battles with sit with them and feel their struggles. we feel not only capt’s grief but everyone on the team when bucky ‘dies’. idk would have loved to see more of a band of bothers bond 

Captain Marvel 

--I saw/read somewhere that her story could have work really well with a similar structure as CA:TFA and i agree. they were so concerned with making carol look powerful that they forgot to give her the fiery/badass personality we were promised. there was too much telling not enough showing 

Iron Man 

--Literally Nothing. Perfect. Great Intro to the series. 

Iron Man 2 

--again really solid movie i wish the villains were a bit more developed by tbh this is my fav iron man movie 

The Incredible Hulk 

--babes i dont even remember this movie its super cool they keep rossi around from it tho. hes literally the only thing the mcu kept from this monstrosity i would keep a similar plot structure but with mark ruffalo and a better script and tbh a better evrything. cannot tell you where to start with this jesus   

Thor 

--would have liked to see of the personality thor has later on in the timeline line- but it is interesting to think maybe he developed his humor and friendliness from his time on earth, idk this movie was kinda dull? i mean everything is dull compared to ragnarok and better compared to the dark world so idk how to fix that- maybe less of chris’s weird screaming- definitely less of chris’s screaming 

The Avengers 

--honestly love this movie-great set up to the team dynamics wouldn’t change anything. i love the nostalgia i get from watching this  

Iron Man 3 

--another movie i dont really remember but? this is the one with the bunny right? i feel like after iron man 1 the quality of tony’s enemies has gone down hill but i could watch rdj do anything so overall good experience 

Thor: The Dark World  

--besties what even happened in this movie like, jane babes what are we doing. loki is as amazing as ever tho. but like ‘oh no lokis dead again whatever are we going to do’ i would simply through the whole thing away- keeping jane going to asgard, loki being dramatic, and the relationships of the asgardian gang we get to see. also the reality stone thats pretty important 

CA:TWA 

--I. Love. This. Movie. my fav in the whole timeline. can you tell im a capt girl? literally the best wow won’t change a thing 

Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 1

--so! much! fun! i love their family dynamics and tbh i love peter quill (we all did until pratt was a dick but) 

Guardians Vol. 2 

--I wasn’t obsessed with this movie but I cant quite figure out how i would change it- it was visually beautiful and emotionally beautiful but idk something felt off until the very end 

Age of Ultron 

--hot take- i really like this movie. i like how it completely changes the direction of the series and makes the mcu feel so real, like the friend ship seen- i would have like more clint so his character arc in endgame would have been impactful i dont hate the farm family but man i sure dont love them jesus but yea i love the dialogue and the only thing i would really change is clint’s involve meant. also helen cho deserved to have a bigger part in the mcu 

Ant-Man 

--super fun! i feel like this movie is great the way it is- a familiar super hero movie when the series was starting to get pretty dense with the lore wont change anything 

CA:CW 

--i read somewhere this movie was originally going to be steve and sam and the rest of the squad finding bucky and i was robbed. over time the mcu starting telling us how great steve and buckys relationship was instead of showing us. like men can show each other affection marvel that is a thing that happens but tbh i loved this movie- i would change a lot but i still really enjoyed it 

Spiderman: Homecoming 

--its so cute i love it but I miss andrew garfields peter- he felt more like the comics but besties i love this movie and tom i would just change how ton is characterized to be more comic actuate but also maybe not idk 

Doctor Strange

-- tilda swinton owns my heart and sole. but imma be honest i saw this in theaters 3 weeks after a horrid concussion and i remember none of it and thinking about it makes me sick (love head trauma) so imma just leave it how it is 

Black Panther 

--nothing. its art. 

Black Widow

--I’m writing this around an hour after I watched the movie and tbh I dont know how I feel about it. I dont love it yet but im not quite sure why yet- its most likely the pacing it felt a little rushed to me but idk yet ill be able to gather all my thoughts in a later post prolly 

Thor: Ragnarok 

-- to think i can even dream to improve on anything taika waititi is putting bad karma into the universe. that man is a genius. you can feel just how comfortable everyone is in their characters which makes for a great performance

Ant-Man and the Wasp 

--the breather we all needed after iw but i dont think anyone really loved it- no idea how to fix it but yknow it was just bland 

Avengers: Infinity War 

--I loved it. I loved it so much. obviously there are some bad things here and there but i would not change a thing 

Avengers: Endgame 

--I hated it. I hated it so much. obviously there are some good things here and there but i would not keep a thing. 

(I have in fact written an essay about said topic bc i felt so passionate about it i did not know what else to do)

Spiderman: Far From Home 

--I dont know something was off for me with this one- again I think it was a pacign issues but I am not sure how I would change it 

I might do the tv shows in another post- but if i do those i want to include the netfilx marvel tv shows as well as the agent carter and agents of shield series(es?) 

anyway thank you for reading all of this if you did!

#ca:tfa #captain marvel #iron man #iron man 2 #the incrediable hulk #thor #the avengers #iron man 3 #thor: the dark world #CA:TWS #guardians vol. 1 #guardians vol. 2 #age of ultron #antman #CA: CIVIL WAR #spiderman homecoming #doctor strange #black panther #black widow #thor ragnorak #antman and the wasp #iw #endgame #far from home #marvel is now my hyperfixation again #so get ready #this will all i talk about for the next month

[steponmepinkjun]

I NEVER FINISHED MY STORY OMG. ok so i left off at being too proud to tell my friend she was right and kpop fucked hard. the difference between u and me is that i’m too good of a liar. too good. i kept up the “i hate kpop it’s cringe” facade for ALMOST TWO WHOLE YEARS, I SHIT YOU NOT. why? bc my dumb ass, extra ass, dramatic ass self thought “ok if i’m gonna have to deal with the embarrassment of admitting i’m wrong, i better do it in such an extra ass way it’ll knock ur socks off so hard that YOULL be the one embarrassed not me.” the original plan was to learn the entire choreography to bts dope, bc it’s the song that she told me to listen to and inevitably the song that got me into them, but later switched to bts fire bc i saw too many of those “choreo matches w any song” videos, and then her birthday party came up. and here’s the real kicker. her birthday is April Motherfuckin Fools. so it would be So Perfect for me to reveal my kpopism as a birthday present And a april fools prank in one. so i was Set on the Reveal being on april 1st, but the day rolls around and god that choreo is so fucking hard and i am Not a dancer. never have been. so i abandon that and go ykno what… i’ll do it Next Year. BC MY BITCHASS WAS LIKE NO THE MOMENT IS TOO PERFECT TO DO IT ON A NORMAL ASS DAY ITS GONNA BE ON APRIL FOOLS ON HER GODDAMN BIRTHDAY OR NOT AT ALL. a year rolls by, i’ve told most of our friends except her and they’re all in on it, i’d made so many subtle kpop references to her without her realising they were fully intentional and had too many scares where she almost figured me out but i lied my way out of it, and i’d given up on showing off with choreography bc i couldn’t make that shit look good. i’m not a dancer. i am, however, a rapper, and a damn good one, so i inhaled the agust d mixtape and decided i’d just rap the eminem of kpop’s anthem at her face. in korean. and change the lyrics at the end (if u haven’t listened to agust d, the bridge repeats “i’m sorry” a lot) to “i’m sorry i kept this from u for so long” and “i’m sorry i actually ult got7 not bts” (this was like the april after skz debuted ok i was holding onto got7 for dear life knowing full well skz we’re going to convert me smh) and the best part? she never saw it coming. her official present was a cd with a bunch of kpop on it but she thought it was just a personalised mixtape for her so i told her to play the first song out loud and she knew the song Instantly. it has a long intro so she was like “i guess u did listen when i recommended u this song!! i knew you’d like it since u like rap so much!!” and then i started rapping and i shit u not. she started SCREAMING. like the initial reaction was her jaw dropping and then instinctively covering her mouth but when i kept going and she realised i wasn’t fucking around she just fucking screamed like a banshee. at the end during the sorry bit i threw off my jacket to reveal a got7 shirt on the inside and she fell off her chair and started rolling around on the floor. needless to say it was every bit as satisfying as i thought it’d be LMAOOOO afterwards her ass was like “I CANT BELIEVE U HID THIS FROM ME FOR OVER A YEAR” and when i tried to explain my ego couldn’t take the “i told u so” she was like “you know i wouldn’t have made fun of you for it right? i would just be glad you’re not hating on my boys anymore” so basically i’m a big dramatic fool and she was always too good for me.

don’t mind the weird spaces here my ipad is being all fucky wucky w me rn. damn sad to hear ur sideblog experience didn’t go so well, i’d have shown u the cool side of the fandom if i knew 😤😤 leading u thru the cursed halls of kpop stan tumblr like a sketchy tour guide that’s actually 3 small raccoons stacked on top of each other like a trench coat, like “over here we have the fanfic writers that honestly need to publish a book, over here we have the gif makers that are responsible for my entire camera roll, if we take a quick swerve past the death threat anons and the twt fanwar screenshots - mind ur feet bub the 14 year olds were tryna make a grab for ur ankles - ah here’s the holy grail of shitposts, you might be here for hours, to the right we have the weird aussie side of the fandom that projects our childhoods onto chanlix but also all the members as we decide what their life in australia would’ve been like, and down there is a secret trapdoor to the blogs w endless random headcanons that will make you laugh, cry or blush depending on if the author woke up and decided to choose violence today. enjoy your Stay!” but then again i’m not so active on tumblr anymore (ngl you’ve become the highlight of my tumblr experience these days, interaction wise,) so maybe all my Local Hotspots are inactive now. i know a bunch of them are, it’s sad. “i don’t fw stan twitter for the same reason i don’t hang out in meth dens” oop. guess i’m a meth addict. no but i get u i rly do, it’s a hellhole out there, but the fact that things get shared and spread a lot easier than on tumblr and how short most things have to be (therefor keeping up w my adhd attention span without having to resort to the mental torture that is tiktok, with the added bonus of not always needing headphones.) that i just. couldn’t leave if i tried. maybe i should try being active on tumblr again but it’s a dying site in comparison.

“their music doesn’t consistently hit for me as much as skz” i’m sorry we can’t be friends anymore. what. what. you don’t dramama ramama ramama hey? you don’t feel a little jealousyyyyyy, naega anin? you don’t shoot out, shoot out, shoot out, or aremdaeun love killa love killa? you can’t be your hero du du du du du du du du du dududu? u disappoint me. literally like everyone i know who likes skz music likes mx music like it’s a rite of Passage. they’re kindred spirits, monsta x music is like skz’s music’s cool but mildly heterosexual older brother. neither of them know what a bad song is it runs in the family. and both their music runs in my VEINS. whenever i describe my music taste they’re always the first two that come to mind, skz being my number 1 bc they are my best boys but mx bc of the Flavour. pls listen to the entire the code album then get back to me 😤🙌 ok but fr ur so right they are 7 of the finest men i ever seen (yes i say 7 bc i’m including wonho cause he deserved better and i’ll die on my ot7 bullshit.) like don’t get me started on them either LOL i LITERALLY downloaded that one insta video of changkyun working out his back n arm muscles w his tattoo showing bc i needed that shit saved for Science. they could do Anything w me like frfr. yes vixx is the bdsm contract group i’m telling ya they wildin. or at least they were. it��s been years since their last comeback idk what they’re doing anymore tbh. and yeah that makes sense, savouring the hyperfixation i feel it, but also i’m so attached to skz that i never let it die. like i hyperfixate on other things and other groups but i will Always go back to skz cause they’re my homeboys. hell, they’re my home. being a predebut stay i’ve spent more time w skz than most of my actual family members at this point. but that’s just me you do u boo xx just know that if ur anything like me ur never letting go once skz it’s been my longest lasting fixation cause they hit like Nothing Else Do. ik i’ve already said that but i cannot stress it enough. they’re really special. i’m gonna stop here before i get all sappy and emotional bc i really love those boys so fucking much and i don’t drop the L bomb often. SIDE NOTE I WOULD LIKE TO SEE UR LIST OF GROUPS RANKED BY THORSt. i need to judge ur Taste. and omg cat&dog is such a guilty pleasure song bc the lyrics make me cringe so much bc while pet play can be fun they be doing it in more of an “i’m an innocent soft dogboy uwu” kinda way that just Does Not Sit Right with me. it comes back to the objectifying of asians that asians themselves don’t help in industries like these and maybe i’m looking too far into it when rly it is just wholesome n cute or maybe they are into some pet play shit idk idc i will bop to the song regardless but i will not acknowledge the lyrics nope.

YOURE RIGHT THO SKZ’S OPENNESS IS IN FACT, A BIG DEAL, i’ll grab them for u if u want but i found these twt threads of skz supporting the lgbt community and i just felt a special kind of happiness man like sure the delusional part of me likes going “haha they’re gay” bc my brain likes to imagine them as my polycule of mlm boyfriends bc sometimes thats what gives me the serotonin to get me thru the day ok don’t judge but also bc it’s nice knowing that yes i’ll never know them personally, but at least i can support them knowing they’d respect my gender identity and my pronouns, they’d respect who i choose to love, and that’s already more than the general public can say so shit, it is special! it’s special that they don’t treat being cishet like the norm - they constantly remove gender from their songs and speech entirely, they don’t assume all stays are female anymore, we don’t talk abt the babygirls incident cause we got babystays in the end outta that ok, and it’s just. so refreshing and important to me bc i can’t get that anywhere else!! like my semi ults are the boyz and while i love them very much and there’s no way all 11 of them are straight i refuse, i do get just a little bit sad whenever they she/her their fandom by default and call them their girlfriends n shit even tho i do still identify as a girl, i’m also genderfluid/nonbinary/transmasc, and i have a very love/hate relationship w my womanhood and rarely use she/her pronouns, cause it’s like, do you not see me? see us? the ones who aren’t cishet women? i mean i know kevin does bc he congratulated a fan who came out as nb but it’s just not the same as the openness we get w skz. like how do i trust cishets i could be supporting them as a queer person when in reality they’d call me a slur. what would i know, behind the screen? so it’s so good that skz go the extra mile to make it a safe space for everyone. this is already long enough i will reply to the second half of that ask in another message… tomorrow cause it’s 1am and i’m tired gn -felix bi anon

I'mma have to start putting these under a readmore so that i don't absolutely make everything who is still following me for some reason go totally fucking insane 😂

NDJDHWJJAHFNAKBSJSBFBHHDBDNAJD YOU HAVE NO IDEA THE FACES I WAS MAKING READING THIS, I WAS FUCKING CACKLING AND GASPING EVERY OTHER SENTENCE SO HARD THAT I SCARED THE CATS NDJWHSHSB the fact that you went "oh you want me to get into kpop? Give me a hot minute, and I'll give you a whole ass private concert for free" biduehsjdbd biiiiiiiiiiitch you're a fucking ICON, I stg I could NEVER 😂 (and not just because I couldn't find a tune if you gave me a printed set of Google maps directions and that I embody the steriotype that white people can't dance, like my sister kept sensing me tiktoks of the whole "dance like a white girl" trend going lmfao look it's you and eventually I was like "sis please this trend has me feeling like being white is a disability and these mothafuckers are being ableist 😭 also I could NEVER be that on beat so yall ain't even doin it right 😭😭😭😭"). Tbh if I told one of my friends (lol what friends, i got jokes) to get into Skz and they showed up at my bday and performed the entirety of I Got It I would simply shower them in money and go "aight everyone else go home, you are no longer needed, you are being laid off, your position has been eliminated, we're downsizing, the company is moving up and you're moving out, you are not qualified for this role any longer, best of luck with future endeavors" 😊

I think part of the reason I can't deal w Twitter is the exact reason I refuse to leave tumblr, in that I've been on tumblr since 2006 and twt since 2008, and tumblr literally has not changed at all, not even a little, whereas going from the early days of twt where there were no corporate sponsorships or ads and you had to manually copy and paste someone's tweet and @ them to retweet it, to how it is now, like 90% ads and showing me shit from the timelines of people I don't even fuckin follow n whatnot, it's just not enjoyable. Idk how anyone finds anything on twt, it confuses and frustrates me because I am old and have not adapted well to technology changing 😂 But arguably, the skz fanbase doesn't want me on skztwt anyways so like it works for both of us lmfaooo. I am old and cringey, and also still think of twt as stream of consciousness whereas tumblr is your teenage bedroom where you can decorate the walls with anything that interests you. I do really love the nonsensical kpoptwt shitposts tho fhshsbdjjss like it is a very specific flavor of mental instability that I enjoy immensely 😂 OH and also I initially misread part of that and thought you were saying you actually irl do meth and I was like 😳 WHAT DO I SAY TO THAT. HOW DO I HANDLE THIS. Like how do I express like "I wasn't being judgy of people who use substances cause I've been there but I was just being insensitive 😳" And then went back and reread it and was like WHEW, IM JUST AN ILLITERATE FOOL 😂😂😂😂 ejeywhdhrhjwbfbdjshdhdhd I spent like an hour bwign like "IS THE REASON WE GET ALONG BECAUSE THEY'RE ON METH???? WHAT DO I DO WITH THIS INFORMATION??????" hrhehshe I am literally a fuckin idiot it's fine

It's not that I don't fw them, it's more like... Okay so like there is no situation in which I am going to skip a skz song if it comes on shuffle. You will not ever catch me NOT in the mood to listen to Sunshine, if God's Menu comes on we are THROWIN the meager amount of booty meat I got hither and thither, I could be in the happiest mood of my life but if Ex comes on I will stop to SOB. And I'm not like that with most music, so mx just falls into the category of "there is a time and place." Idk why but it just doesn't forcibly grab hold of my heart and ass the way skz always does. I really don't WANT my skz fixation to ever end, but I know that eventually it'll stop giving me dopamine bevause my brain is my worst fucking enemy 🙃 like my arcana fixation is to date the longest running hyperfixation I've ever had, going on almost three years, and I used to not be able to spend every single second of every day thinking about Asra, but now... I just feel nothing when I look at arcana stuff. As you can probz tell by the fact that I hardly post arcana anymore 😂 So I know that eventually all my happiness will end, it always does, I can never stay just as obsessed with something as I was for long. I CANT SHARE THE LIST BECAUSE I DONT *HAVE* TASTE YET 😭 I'm basically just compiling a list of any group someone tells me I should look into, ranked by how strong the kitty purred upon googling pics of them 😂 My mom read my ass to FILTH over txt lmfao she was like "they're not that adorable. Maybe your standard for adorableness has gone down with You Know Who still on hiatus 🤔" bfjwhdhd like MOMMAAAAA THE LIBRARY IS CLOSED 😂 she attacks me any time I even hint at stanning other groups, she is a skz purist and stans skz only, unofficial Momma Stay of All Stays keeping me in check lmfao.

I feel like skz really do follow thru on their promise that they're a safe space for stays, it's nice to see that they hold space for anyone and everyone in their fanbase and do it in a really simple and elegant way, I feel. Like they never make it seem like "okay here are the fans and here are the token weirdos that were only recognizing to make a buck off of them" the way a lot of artists make it feel like 😑 like they don't go out of their way to act like it's some revolutionary act to do the bare minimum of not shitting on certain parts of the fandom, if that makes sense. They feel very "yeah, of course we love all our stays, this is a welcoming space for literally anyone, that's how it should be, that should be normal," instead of like "Hi fans we love you 😊 and special shoutout to you ell gee bee tee folk, make sure to buy my rainbow merch after the show!!!" you know? Like, they're the friends who would never make you feel weird or different for some shit, the friends that take the attention off you if something they know ur sensitive about comes up, instead of weirdly snapping at whoever brought the unfomfy thing up which ruins the mood and makes you feel tiwce as bad, yk? They just give off this vibe that they, and the space they create with their music, is just a genuine and chill place to be and hang out and relax and bond. I feel like they'd be the friend group that is so goofy and sweet and silly and accepting and lovely and always makes you feel loved and excited to be alive 🥺 They are all good noodles 🥺🥺🥺

#felix-bi-anon #asksteppie

[kimnjss]

for part 22 !! this is long im srry ahfduhdfu

“Now laying in his lap felt like a crime. As if you were stood in self-checkout, constantly glancing over your shoulder as you scanned an expensive pair of shoes as one of those 79 cent candy bars.”

said it a couple of times, i’ll say it again. the way you write is SOOOO SOOOO good. we can feel so much and see so much which are prolly like ,,,, the most important things in writing ?? also, poor y/n. POOR POOR Y/N . she cares so so so much for miju like bruh their friendship rlly b toxic like this huh :--(

“But you can’t shake the look on Miju’s face you conjured, watching the two of you with that pouty frown of hers, arms crossed over her chest.”

the fact that this whole girl bestie crush issue is sooooo shallow but bec miju has so much issues (she needs help), y/n finds the need to constantly feel guilty ??????????? i so so so feel bad. not @ me being a miju apologist before yIKES cant believe she made our girl try to drop out of ballet ????? fucking dumbass bitch im gonna slap her so strong

“As if he’d let it go. As if he’d pick up on the slightest abnormality in your mood and just let it slip. Let you drive yourself mad with your racing thoughts and not let him in, not let him take on some of the weight. As if.”

so this is where i started crying !!! i think it’s like the nature of people to just ,,,,, idk ask when they feel something’s wrong but they dont really care enough to actually CHECK up on you ??? if that makes sense ??? i’ve had my fair share of people doing this. they’d ask but then get sidetracked and forget you were someone to worry for. this is probably why this y/n and this jimin might be my favorite. they feel so real, the emotions are so raw. i’m rlly glad our girl has jimin by her side now. he’s exactly what she needs. not just as a lover but ,,,,, as a person. yknow ??? like someone to just ground her whenever she’s so high up her mind. someone to be with her as in WITH her. i love love love that.

“No idea what’s wrong with you, but safely relieved that it’s not him. That he could help you work through whatever it is.”

i hope u know my standards for ppl is so so so high bc of ur au-s i SWEAR to god where r the fellas like this huh ???? hUUUUH ?????

“’I don’t know… I just… keep thinking about Miju.’ Jimin lets out a scoff, rolling his eyes in a really exaggerated way.”

jimin, u, me, same

“You’re really thinking about a girl while I got my hand on your ass? Is there something I should know?”

I LOVE HIM SM PLSSSS *INSERT CRYING EMOJI IM USING LAPTOP SO* I LOVE HIM I LOVE THE HUMOR I LOVE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

“His face softens at the sound of your words, becoming serious for you.”

i nominate loy! jimin for best boyfriend PERIOD if he doesnt win, RIGGED

“That’s a terrible idea.” The door slams behind the new voice, your body instantly lunging from Jimin’s lap to the vacant space behind him”

like everyone else, i tot this was miju too HAUFHDIUHFUDHUF

and then we came to the part where jimin was having his crisis bc he wants The Sex but our baby is just not having it. i actually really like the way you portrayed it. whenever he’ll talk about wanting to fuck, he’d always say but he understands and he respects. that’s reality baby. he’s a man of honor but obv he has his ~hormones~ and i cANT STRESS ENOUGH how much i love you for writing that !!!!! they jus feel real ok like . how do u even do this ???? HOW IS YOUR MIND CAPABLE OF WRITING THINGS LIKE THIS YOU TALENTED TALENTED BABY

  // ok now that i just reread it, i jus found out that they talked abt the ballet thing in this chap LMAOOOOO i thought it was when they were in the dance room ajidjfijoifjafiodj //

“Can’t wait to fast forward past all this shit. Feel like I haven’t seen you smile in a while.”

cried to this too. like ,,, cried VERY HARD. i turned my phone off AHAHHAHAHA this is pAINFUL . y/n’s going through so much and i jus feel feel feel so bad (also hits close to home) . i feel like im always gon think of this line now whenever i feel a small inconvenience afiudhuihdui . CANT WAIT TO FAST FORWARD PAST ALL THIS SHIT . WANNA SEE MYSELF SMILE AGAIN

“Surprised that he even cared about the difference, but he did.”

when i read this, yes, i cried HARDER . we all need a loy jimin in our lives huh ?? . he's just ,,,, It. like It . jimin loy best boy !!!! also @ yn. DESERVE !! youve always been the older sis, the good good friend, with jimin, u can rest bby. u can lay low, u can do whatever u want :--( u deserve it

“Did you just call me your girlfriend?”

AFHUDSHFJKAHDFJKSHAJKDHFJKAHFKJDSHFJ THERE WE HAVE IT FOLKS BYE

“No.” There’s an exaggerated roll of his eyes. “I’ve only been referring you like that in my head for the past month for fun,”

im having so much fun imagining a jimin in my life FOAHDSIFHIDSHOIFHIO ihy sm for making me realize how dry my love life is CAN I PLS LIVE IN THIS UNIVERSE N TRY TO FIT MYSELF IN BETWEEN THESE TWO AJAJAJAJA (no i wont yn deserves this but whatever mom i wANT HIM)

“I want you to be my girlfriend. So that I can be your boyfriend. And we can be boyfriend and girlfriend to each other, together.”

look at them go :--( cringey babies idk theyre so so so so so so so so nd i cant stress enough SO SO SO SO ADORABLE

“Go ahead. I’ll protect you.”

IM FUCKING SCREAMINGAHDHUFDHUSHIUHAFUIHDSFUI I LOVE HIM OKAY MUM I LOVE HIM CAN I PLS HAVE HIM WHERE DO I FIND (but also, IVE BEEN SAYING IT but like thank thank thank thank fuck they found each other. though y/n has kook, jimin is jus different ,,, i mean obv right but yes im just so so so so glad. y/n doesnt need to always be strong and dependent now. she can just be her and jimin loves that. SIGN ME UP UHUH UHUH

and then we have this whole talk with the moon and y/n quoting him back. i think loy yn and jimin best couple ????? I WILL FRAME THE WHOLE MOON TALK OKAY BYE ,,,,,,,, but fr thats so wholesome and i feel so honored i get to read this FOR FREE. it’s just soooo *insert that aww-ing emoji the one w big eyes* . i love them so much im willing to risk it ALL. theyre so so so so amazing. YOURE AMAZING. i LOVE IT.

#ask; less of you ✨ #jimin sm au #asks; kez 🍯 #submission

[truthbehindthemysteries]

~I Will Always Catch You~

A/N” One shot fic request: Fainting in Enobaria’s arms.

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People knew very well not to underestimate Enobaria for how much a beautiful mysterious danger she was. - After all, she had not only a reputation for how she was the victor of the 62nd Hunger Games but the fact that she had f a n g s – teeth filed sharp enough to resemble deadly incisors. Anyone who got to close would see how intelligent, blunt, dangerous, fierce she was. No one knew she had a heart of gold deep down. No one knew she could be soft, gentle and vulnerable. Except you. Everyone loses a piece of themselves to these vile games that prey on the lives of young children , forcing them to fight to the death until one one them remains standing, bathed in riches that others could only dream of. All at the mercy of a capitol who punishes them for others long ago committed.

You and Enobaria were in a close relationship. Growing up in District 2 { one of the wealthy districts who are close to the Capitol in wealth, loyalty, etc. }, You two had been best friends whose mothers were best friends, father's worked together. You two went to the same school and could go to each other about anything. Well that was of course after the fact that she stood up to a bully for you. You had something happen to you that gave you an injury that needed time to heal, someone had made fun of you and wouldn't seem to stop. Enobaria being … well, herself? Formed a fist and landed a punch so strong to the boy's jaw that he had to have surgery to get his jaw back in place. A dangerous serious process that if went wrong, he would never be able to use his mouth again and have to be fed through a tube.

Not long after that, sexualities were questioned and accepted but you two are together, happily in love, each other's rock when the other wants and needs even if they might not realize it. Anyway, it was the morning of the day where You, her and the other victors of previous games would find out the next tributes for each district for this years Quarter Quell. Now remember when I said that these Games take a piece of someone. It isn't something you can get past after all, just a young child thrown into dangerous situations and made to fight, hurt, k I l l other scared ones like you, hardened into little soldiers by ones older using you for their own greed, for their own e n t e r t a I n m e n t. Ones meant to love and care for you, protect you and keep you safe. Lets just say that you like anyone else had developed PTSD and panic attacks. There you and Enobaria were, sitting on a luxurious couch of a house you two shared together. Soon enough, President Coriolanus Snow himself showed up on the screen and started to speak,

“Ladies and Gentleman, this is the time in which we will begin the 75th Hunger Games, where specially, we'd also have the Quarter Quell.” Anywhere around, people had their eyes glued to the screen, you and Enobaria among others who watched with bated breath, not out of excitement like some might by unease, a want to get this over with and try to live life the best possible in p e a c e. As if that could ever be completely achieved in the world in which they lived in. Amongst the cheering, President Snow continued,

“It was written in the charter of the games that every twenty-five years, there will be a Quarter Quell. Now on this , the 75th anniversary of our defeat of the rebellion, we celebrate the third Quarter Quell.” A drop in your stomach seemed to happen as you started into those eyes shown on the screen, you had a bad feeling about this. Not that you didn't seem to have them at times and always turn out to be right but those cold eyes as they addressed the nation, seemed to stare into the souls of everyone he made suffer. What you heard next was enough for you to intake a breath, rushing to your head resorting in a dizziness that had you fearing the idea of standing. You just might collapse, others would cry and unleash anger.

“As a reminder, that even the s t r o n g e s t cannot overcome the power of the Capitol. On this, the third Quarter Quell game, the male and female tributes are to be reaped from the existing pool of Victors in each district.”

You could barely focus on Enobaria's hand tightening in yours as she arched upward to look into Snow's slow smirking face with a look so murderous one would shiver and fear for their life. Feeling the beginning of a panic attack, you felt the pain as it got harder and harder to breathe. It came out in pants as you tried to calm it, slipping your hand from your girlfriend as it clutched at your chest. Moving forward on your knee's , you fell to the ground in front of the couch, your hands at your fall. Your body felt numb as you tried to catch your breath, panic inside your body like the rapid fluttering of a hummingbird's wings.

Immediately you heard Enobaria yell your name then you felt her arms encircling you as she helped you the best she could to get you back to reality, to her where it was s a f e. “Y/N!”, came her serious worried voice. A strangled choked up noise seemed to happen, not even realizing it was your own tears spilling down your cheeks, voice not able to form the words they so badly wanted to express. Eyes blurry with wetness, you felt her cup your cheek, “Y/N, sweetheart, look at me please. Come on, show me those beautiful eyes.”, she began to slowly and gently speak. You looked up weakly at her as she wiped the tears from your eyes, seeing love for you in hers despite the anger she was feeling, the murderous anger that was barely contained. You really were her anchor bc she would put it aside so long as you were safe, happy and alright.

“How could- I thought that we- that's not su-”, you tried to speak but you would choke up, cough and tear, your voice would crack. She rubbed at your shoulders, shaking her head from you trying to speak more. If you continued to get out of control with your breathing, your heart would only race faster. You were weak and dizzy enough, she didn't want to see you pass out bc if you did, that wouldn't be anything good. You were relatively good with taking your anti-depressants but bc of the ptsd that you had experienced from your own games – you often had nights where you woke up screaming, where you would flinch at any beginning of violence, anything that reminded you of all that you went through like anyone else and you would be inconsolable. The only ones who could manage to bring you out of it IF NOT Enobaria were any of your family still around.

“i will not let anything happen to you, I promise you. You know I have always stood by that. Try not to think on it now and just lean on me baby, im here and I am never going to leave you. Breathe with me.. come on , that's it.. in and out.” and she started to do it with you as your hands remained comfortingly and gently on you as you kept your eyes on her, intaking a breath and releasing it after holding it for a little bit, getting air back into your lungs. Making your body go back into a stable state, you and her stayed like that for what seemed forever but may have only been a half hour, hour? When it seemed like things could be okay at least for the moment, you felt her arms around your waist, her hands clasping at your hands tightly “Come on, lets stand okay, lemme get us some water.”

You nodded, afraid to speak, any moment you felt like you could cry. Not just from anger, so much anger it could rival your girlfriend but unlike her, you didn't have fangs that could sink into another's throat with enough strength to rip it out, causing the unfortunate person to choke on their own blood and die. Maybe thats what Snow deserved. You felt your hands balling into fists at the mere thought of how someone could be so heartless, without remorse or pity. It made you sick to your stomach and you had enough of those kind of feelings what with having panic attacks. Hoping the water would help as it sometimes did and should, you kept your mouth shut, not wanting to spill any contents in your stomach onto your clothes and the floor as Enobaria helped you stand.

Still feeling slightly dizzy, you almost wondered if you should say something but you urged that you dealt with this before, feeling weak and dizzy. You only ever fainted if it got really bad and always someone was there. The only times that someone wasnt was a rare occasion but any unlucky person who came upon you with dark intentions would regret it, you were so protected. A darling of District 2. As you made to follow her into the kitchen, everything went black as you fell. Unconscious to the scream as Enobaria immediately caught your fainting body in her arms, worry on her face as she gently tried to shake you awake but only receiving no answer from you.

Not wanting to immediately jump to conclusions, she held you protectively in her arms as she went about the process of getting you medical help, refusing to leave your side. For those who suggested, one glint of her fangs in the light was enough for them to hold their tongue lest they want it ripped out. While they did the work to help you, she in a corner not to far from you , paced back and forth, w a I t I n g until she saw your beautiful eyes again. When you finally did flutter your eyes open, it was after the doctor's left you both to have some privacy, telling Enobaria that the reason you had fainted was not only from a possible slip up in taking medication, dehydration and stress, they advised you get plenty of water, rest, stay active in the medications and do anything relaxing to get rid of the stress. Maybe start talking to someone, it could help get the stress off your shoulders, as they say.

Once the door closed behind them, your { e/c } eyes seemed to flutter open, your lips parting to crack , “en..” you coughed, “enobaria?” She immediately rushed to your side, sitting down beside you and taking one of your hand in both of hers. “How are you feeling? “ she ended up scoffing, “Stupid question..” she looks at you, “i'm right here.” You smiled weakly, memories of what happened flashing before your eyes and tears started to well up. Immediately sensing the change in your, she cupped your face, 'Keep calm for me babygirl, im right here. Whatever happens, it's you and me always right? As we promised.”

Your heart raced but you forced it to slow, to even out and calm yourself down. You slowly nodded, clenching your throat as you swallowed, “Forever.”, you muttered softly, lovingly, with no hesitation. “Scoot over.”, she muttered as she stood, moving to remove the blanket a little from you. You weakly tried to move, an adorable frown forming on your face as you looked up at her, “Won't they sa-” She shook her head as she lied down beside you, gently pulling you into her arms so you could cuddle into her, the blanket over both of you now, “Just them try and stop me from holding the woman I love.”, You felt butterflies in your stomach, she was always so good to you – what did you do to deserve someone like her, Enobaria, the fierce badass everyone was scared to come into contact with but realize there was another side to her. A good side so worthy of the truest of loves, something you two found together. Like a home. She caresses your face, making you look at her, as if you wouldn't choose to willingly anyway,”

“Wherever you go, I will follow if you wish and anytime you fall, I will always catch you.”

You nodded, closing your eyes as you felt her arms encircle you more, holding you against her chest and your two’s legs entangling together under the blanket. Resting your head against her chest, you and her breathed together, your eyes closing shut once more and hers following suit not long after you. At some point you would be discharged to be able to go home but until then? You would find peace in the arms of the woman you loved. Everything would figure itself out one way or another. One day Snow would realize the wrongs for which he has done and pay for them accordingly. Taking one day at a time, you would make sure that you would be okay, that the ones you loved would be okay.

You would always say that you never deserved someone as fierce and dangerous as Enobaria who was sweet and romantic and cuddly deep down but truth was maybe it was the other way around with her feeling she didnt deserve you. Sometimes people didnt even approach her for the reputation she had but you weren’t like the others, You didn’t treat her like she was a monster to hold at arms length for fear of being ripped apart. You broke down all her walls and made her f e e l. She could never thank you for that, having someone as angelic as you but every rose has it’s thorns and she knew that together, you two could accomplish anything. Not just the best but the worst of times.

#warning: medical #warning: panic attacks #enobaria #the hunger games #hunger games #soft fluff #angsty sadness #one shot fic requests

[fairycosmos]

When i look in the mirror i don't see a pretty girl, i just see a young girl, and that's what people like and love, that i'm young. I can't help but think that when i, inevitably, get old, people aren't going to like me anymore, and what's more worrisome, i wont love me anymore bc i just come to believe that if im not beautiful(and that means young) im not worthy of people liking me or even loving me. And it's horrible, and i know its false, but i know that its true to some extent too.

:(( i think a lot of people can relate to that, especially other women. our worth is so often defined (in the eyes of others) by our youth and how conventionally beautiful we are perceived as. it’s a very empty way to view a person - to reduce them to such a natural and inconsequential part of their existence. overcoming the confidence issues and the complexes this sort of treatment gives us is often a life long task. it’s alright if it takes a lot of time and effort for you to grow into a level of self certainty that doesn’t depend on the opinions of those around you because you’ve been taught for so long that everything does. i think it’s important to begin with examining why you only feel you can love yourself if others like you - especially if they’re judging you in such a narrow way. you can see logically that their standards are baseless and nonsensical. and if they only value you for your looks, they’re not deserving of everything that you are anyway. there are so many people in this world who will like you for your heart, it’s not asking for too much or impossible to find. even if it seems like it is right now. i know it’s a LOT easier said than done, but i really believe that breaking out of this mind set and healing can happen even AS you’re processing hurt/anger/confusion + whatever else you need to feel. it’s alright to be upset. i dont blame you for the simple fact that it hurts. but just because you’re frustrated that ppl are so (for lack of a better phrase) brain washed by sexist ideals, doesn’t mean you can’t start questioning them and drawing strength from within rather from outside sources. there are a lot of women who talk about getting older as if it’s a very freeing thing. whether or not society is ‘happy’ about it, we grow and we defy everything that they expect us to be and at that point living is a radical act. but we go on anyway, we’re loved anyway, we enjoy the world anyway. because at that point we have learned enough about ourselves and about other people to know that there’s no wrong way to exist. because at that point, it just doesn’t fucking matter. you’re not going to feel the same way about your future as you do right now, once you’re actually living it, you know? the romanticisiation of youth is one of the worlds biggest lies. they just want us to keep chasing something we can never have. plus it’s a symptom of p*dophile culture, but thats a whole other conversation. in reality, we spend more time being middle aged than we ever spend being young - and even then we’re still learning new things, we’re still beautiful beings (beautiful by many definitions) - the world doesn’t end at 30. ultimately, growing up means finding more confidence in our words, actions and experiences rather than in superficial factors that are beyond our control. we’re able to do that because we can refer back to times when our character mattered more than our appearance. maybe right now, you’re just too young to see that like i am. perspective and hindsight will give you so much. and again, the world imposes this self hatred on us from birth, so of course it’s going to impact you. it may be a presence for a long time in the back of your head. but you don’t have to buy into it and you don’t have to view yourself through such a critical lens. if you catch yourself doing so, question where it’s coming from and whether or not it has any actual truth to it. can you trust the narrative enough to live your life by it? try to think about the people in your life, and what you treasure about them. i’m sure it goes way beyond how nice they are to look at or how old they are. anyone with common sense will treat you the same way. ‘worth’ really isn’t something that has to be earned, or something that you can lose with time. you were born with it, and you’ll die with it. but you don’t have to beg anyone else to understand that. if they don’t, it’s because their perception is fundamentally flawed and extremely shallow, so they’re the ones losing at the end of the day. it’s THEIR issue. and it’s not fair that you have to deal with it, not at all. but i really do believe in our own self growth showing us the solutions to our current worries. ppl are fucking mean and disgusting a lot of the time, but if they prove that they’re only around you cause you’re young or pretty, then that’s where you get to draw the line and distance yourself from that toxicity. which is a skill that takes some practice, setting your own boundaries, but very possible nonetheless. anyway so sorry this got long, i really hope you’re able to see that you’re so much more than your practicalities, and that as the years go by, you’ll realize it more and more. ALSO i got your other message and i’m 🥺🥺 literally blushing so much, you’re absolutely the sweetest. i’m honoured to be a comforting presence. i know how hard things are right now, but you’re really not alone. thank you so much for taking my words on board and for caring about my thoughts. take care of yourself and let me know if you ever need a friend ! ily 💖

#luciadelaluna #this is just my op in ee on brw its just my thoughts im not saying im definitely right gjfdlfz

[themountainsays]

It's clear Anna and Elsa have loved each other since ALWAYS, because they grew up together (partially), and I've seen a lot of fics develop their romantic relationship from that point, their feelings evolving towards that direction.

But i wonder, if they didn't know each other, what would they find attractive about the other? What would first attract them to each other? What would make them love each other? Because non-familial love is always conditional (as all healthy non-familial love is), so there must be a reason for them to love each other. Shared experience and the gradual development of a bond is a great answer but I'm thinking more about the particular personality traits, for lack of a better word, that make them want to spend time together or even like each other at all.

I can very easily see why someone would be attracted to Anna because ngl she's pretty much my type. Funny, energetic, idealistic, a heart full of love and kindness and courage. Not afraid to get dirty or engage in risky physically activity. I think what I admire the most about her was her willingness to do the right thing, no matter how painful. Watching her try to destroy her own home simply because it was the correct thing to do sent chills down my spine because thats exactly what I admire in a comrade. Someone willing to sacrifice individual happiness for the good of the community.

(Oof getting pretty lefty latina on main let's go back to frozen)

But for Elsa? I mean, most of her character development revolves around her powers and the trauma related to them. It's reached a point where it's impossible to tell where the powers end and Elsa begins. I do think this is intentional and it's not a bad writing decision, even I personally would rather explore who she is as a person and a human being in a way that doesn't revolve entirely around her powers and trauma.

I remember making a post about it? You can read it here and it's basically about how Elsa deserves better than becoming a norse godess: she deserves to he a normal woman among normal people. It makes more sense in the post go read it

So that's what i'm gonna try to do! As you can see no structure no essay only unorganized thoughts posted in tumbrl dot com for everyone to disagree with

I mean from canon we Uuuh well this is going to sound like a no brainer but Elsa is a very careful person. With other people not with herself lmao but you can see in every scene with how much care she treats others. This is usually physical care, because she was raised to believe emotions didn't matter and physical safety was the most important thing, and this is why she repeately ends up hurting people's feelings, all in an attempt to keep then physically safe (rejecting Anna at the party TWICE, both events clearly hurting both. Sending Anna away on the canoe (NOT A KAYAK), which again is painful for both sisters). But if you look at the bigger picture you can observe there's much more than that. From the beginning she spoils her little sister and takes care of her as kids, and through Frozen Fever she cranks up the spoiling to eleven, because she actually loves to see Anna happy. It's very painful for Elsa to reject her. You can see it at the party and during the canoe scene. Actually she loves to see EVERYONE happy. At the end of Frozen i, during OFA and at the beginning of frozen ii she spends time with her people literally making toys for children like fucking Santa Claus, creating an ice skating rink in her own backyard and organizing a fest for everyone to eat for fucking free (two fests, actually. maybe three? Can't remember) i mean what kind of queen does this?? She's way too nice. Even when people are trying to kill her her first reaction is to beg them to stay away so she won't hurt them. She makes it clear she's hiding in the mountains not because she's scared of being hurt (WHICH IS WHAT GRAND PABBIE PREDICTED WOULD HAPPEN). She's hiding because she doesn't want to cause harm. She's trying to fucking protect the people who want to kill her. In frozen ii her first reaction to seeing the tiny dragon is trapped is to offer him a hand and play with him because she's just that nice. She later cuddles a baby reindeer. Oh and in FF she's being mom friend on main by mothering kristoff and olaf as well. Remember she bought him a new sledge and invented a whole new job for him when she could do it herself with her magic? Now she's wiping the paint from his face. You know, like a mom. She even does it in thay gross mom way, licking her thumb and smearing the saliva all over ew ew my mom did that every time i got food on my face its gross. I wonder how kristoff didn't get a cold too that shit's contagious. Anyways, conclussion: while i think her desire to protect people was exacerbated by her trauma, i do think she always had it on her. She likes making people happy. She makes fucking toys for children is she a queen or a toy factory. She likes to spoil everyone around her. And I think this is partially because she wants people to like her. You can see how much it hurts her when people think badly of her ("you only know how to shut people out"). Later, seeing her people scared of her is what makes her run away. Hans telling her not to be the monster everyone thinks she is is what stops her and snaps her back into reality. No one likes to be disliked, but I think Elsa is particularly sensitive to this. And you can see her at her happiest in two different situations:

When she's being loved and cherished by her people (with Anna by her side)

And when she's free and in the wild.

Which leads me to my second point: Elsa is a horse girl

Ok but apart from being a horse girl you can see she... really enjoys being outside, and being free, and exploring the unknown. I'm thinking about LIG, SY and in part yeah ITU. She seems to actually enjoy physical activity like running and probably also hiking? Being away from society seems to be very stimulating for her which, first of all same. If i could live in a glacier i would i completely understand her choice because that's every girl's dream: live in the ice AND study history all day. What else could you possibly want? This is actually when she's at her highest energy. Being introverted doesn't mean you have low energy it doesn't mean jack shit which is why I think I can safely say Elsa is a kinda high energy person actually. Particularly when she's happy (hello??? Frozen Fever??), and what seems to bring the most excitement to her is to be outdoors and in nature. You know like a horse girl. She sings and dances and she's a huge dork who likes to play in the snow and ride horses and sleep on moving sledges and cuddle smelly baby reindeer and climb mountains. It does take her a bit to come out of her shell tho. You can see how stiff she is during the charades scene. But by the end of Frozen i she's dancing with her sister in the ice, surrounded by the entire kingdom.

Shes highly sensitive too. Like I mean this is a no brainer. And her lack of emotional intelligence doesn't help. But if you focus more on how strongly she feels and less on how little control she has over her emotions in frozen i at least you can appreciate how kind her heart is. Did i mention she makes toys for random kids like santa claus? But seriously, she doesn't have a mean spirited bone in her body. Apart from making Anna dance with the duke of weaselton (Oooh mischevious little shit). She's ALWAYS feeling things and VERY STRONGLY. ALL THE TIME. Its like she doesn't have a neutral mode. She's either crying of happiness and dancing like a hippie or having a mental breakdown. I can only imagine she experiences love, wonder, tenderness, care, excitement, indignation, surprise, grief... all so intensely. Her view of the world must be through a filter of constant emotion. When everything elicits such a strong reaction in her heart, she must experience the world in a very special way.

She's also an architecture nerd. She made a whole ice castle by herself in like a minute. Which means she's also a math nerd. She likes geography and physics. This is canon. She built a castle by herself.

She also giggles when awkward or nervous or maybe embarassed (but not scared) (sources, FF, that scene when kai startles her and she freezes her own hands).

Now i'm thinking about about a very famous architect visiting Arendelle and the mighty legendary ice queen giggling like a little girl and fiddling with her hands as she's organizing the welcome and making sure everything is PERFECT because she's going to meet someone she admires. See? Can you picture that scene? Yeah that has more personality than some of her scenes in f2

Oh right and she's also a hardcore perfectionist. She has high standards for herself and she gets frustrated and dissapointed if she can't meet them. Observe how she doesn't hold anyone but herself to these standards. Just look at the first scene in FF, how much pressure she puts in herself to make the PERFECT CAKE DECORATION but she's more accepting of Kristoff and Olaf's imperfections.

Kinda delving into headcanon territory but remember that comic with Anna separating all the blue M&Ms bc she knows those are Elsa's favorite so she can eat them all in front of her as revenge for shutting her out, and Elsa is having a philosophical breakdown at 8 in her room and Anna angrily eating all the blue M&Ms snaps her back into reality? Yep that's her. Elsa thinks too much. But she gets stuck in her ideas and doesn't end up doing anything unless she's pushed to it. Compare to Anna, who might be less thoughtful but more active, coming up with plans and solutions on the spot (not all of which are good but at least they're SOMETHING) while Elsa philosophizes too much and ends up doing nothing. But the scene that made me think of this was when, after her parents tell her the story of the magic forest, Anna goes "that was EPIC" while Elsa looks down and very quietly she asks what happened to the forest and Ahtohallan yep that's bc she thinks too much and also she's an enneagram 6

Speaking of which if i had to type i think her tritype would be... 6w7, 1w2, 5w4? In that order. Yep she's a 6w7 like Rapunzel. I thought about typying her as a 6w5 but i think her 5 wing comes out the most when she's repressing herself and hiding and concealing and not feeling and all that shit. When she's free and happy she's acting much more like a 7. Whoever said Anna is a 6 and Elsa is a 4 can get out of my blog bc Anna is clearly a 2. Probably. I think. No 6 would throw a snowball at marshmallow. I do think it's somewhere in her tritype considering frozen ii tho. Too much enneagram bullshit. To the conclussion:

Conclussion: these are some of the reasons why someone (including Anna) could fall in love with Elsa. In the movie Anna loves Elsa bc she's her sister but if her love was conditional, like most healthy love is, i think these could be the reasons why she would love her, platonically or romantically. Basically she's too nice, was probably be the kindest and most sensitive queen ever, and she's a nerd, and she's a horse girl, and she giggles when nervous (v important). And also she's a perfectionist.

#don't mind me i'm just rambling and thinking about my fic over here #maybe half of thse are headcanons maybe not who knows definitely not me #i wrote this at uuuuh 6 am but like at night bc i didnt sleep #frozen #elsa #character analysis if you squint

[biioshocker]

you may not like getaway that much but i do and i greatly appreciate your posts abt him. Like yeah he's a terrible rat bastard but the answer to that is typically not 'torture them, remove their ability to think and then just leave them alone in the dark indefinitely' like that's not What You Do and to ignore all the wonky shit at play in how he was treated exclusively because he's a backstabbing fuck and it's nice to hate him is??? A little bit????? Fucked???

i’m glad you appreciated them!! i wrote out a post on why i think we, as readers, ignore that what rodimus did to getaway but tbh its super long so i shoved it under the read more and pulled the tl;dr:

my main argument is this: rodimus is in a position of power that only megatron can rival and its easy to forget that fact as the reader because of how jovial and friendly he is. but in forgetting his authority over everyone else on the ship and what that implies, we tend to assume that SOMEONE would have told him ‘No’ if what he did to getaway was actually bad. which then in turn translates to: “if no one told him he shouldn’t then it must not have been that bad.” but the fact of the matter is that no one can tell him ‘No’ because he is their boss and there is an inherent power imbalance there. probably the majority of the LL crew had a problem with what happened to getaway (thus the mutiny), but given what rodimus just did to him, and the fact he bases his punishments on his personal opinion of you, everyone is too afraid to speak up.

if your interested in my long explanation that kinda meanders... well.. here ya go.

tbh i think a big part of the reason people gloss over getaway’s punishment is bc we don’t really want to acknowledge that rodimus and his squadimus has done some messed up things. or genuinely cruel things. like don’t get me wrong i ADORE rodimus but the boy plays favorites. and that would mostly be okay (and maybe a bit of a dickish move) if it weren’t for the fact that he is the authority figure on the ship.

one of the things i love about rodimus is that he is very friendly and playful with the crew. he gets up to ridiculous antics all the time and is easy to laugh at and with so it makes it easy for the reader to forget that, at the end of the day, everyone answers to him. his orders are followed because they have to be. he is The Boss. and tbf he typically seems to take the responsibility of his leadership seriously, but sometimes he uses that power to his advantage in not-so-noble ways that inevitably have negative effects on others. whether he intends to use his authority in this way or not is sort of case-by-case imo.

rewind decking his ass in lost light was a Big Deal bc yes he DID deserve it but also bc that was an extremely bold move on rewind’s part. that is his boss. the head hancho. the Prime. rewind could have gotten in real trouble if rodimus didn’t catch guilt for his actions. but as the reader, we see it as a sorta funny and more light thing due entirely to the fact that rodimus interacts with his crew as though he were their friend. this type of interaction seems to put them on level footing, but that is Not the case

rodimus is an authority figure and sometimes his feelings for a situation/person cloud his judgement. and that is dangerous for others because he wields so much power. rodimus is not a bad person imo, but he may genuinely be oblivious to the fact that others can’t really disobey him

as the reader,we tend to think that anyone can just say no if theyre unhappy with something roddy does, and sometimes the main crew does! but thats not the case for everyone and that’s probably why we didn’t see a mutiny coming. bc the perception is that this is a frat ship and everyone on it is friends and there to have a good time but in reality... all of them are his subordinates.

people friendly with their bosses but we aren’t friends with them bc there is an inherent power imbalance that sets them away from us. and i think that’s a lot of the crew is keenly aware of this in the way that maybe the rodsquad isn’t.

its hard enough to approach your boss with complaints, imagine having to do so with the knowledge of what what roddy did to getaway? and knowing his punishments are based in his personal opinion of you rather than set system of judgement? i wouldn’t speak out against him either.

#i LOVE RODIMUS #this is a DISCLAIMER #but these are my thoughts #thank you for coming to my tedtalk #outlier-roddy pls... im sorry in advance if you see this post #tf #red--thedragon

[incubae-fics]

Take This Low [AU!Uzaeris]

Pairing: One Sided AU!Erik x Female!Reader, AU!Sam x Female!Reader [[3rd person]] ((bc it’s easy to write love for him bc i fuckin love him asdfgb))

Warnings: Angst, sexual themes, insinuations of sex, etc

A/N: I’m still alive, i still love Sam n I still kinda write

“ I sɪɴᴋ ɪɴᴛᴏ ᴍʏsᴇʟғ..”

Erik sinks back into his work chair, breathing out slowly, finally allowing his mind to slip. His shirt was wrinkled, his clothes smelled strongly of a mixture of his own cologne and the perfume of some stranger. Another empty night of trying to cope with his own well deserved ailment. 

Years of using and tossing away the women in his world has finally come to bite him in the ass, painfully so. How cruel his fate is- how cruel he’s been, to love her this much, or to at least feel as though he does. He was only just learning that love was an emotion they could feel. It was supposed to be this beautiful thing- but only when it’s mutual. Only when your love hasn’t fallen so deeply for your brother- a brother that is your complete opposite.

He’d rather it have been James. Someone he could attempt to compare himself to- so he could feel like he had a shot and simply missed due to his own stupidity in the first meeting he had with her. Not his opposite, someone he could never hope to be.

It was only fair. Sam had been through so much in their life in the Demon World. Erik managed to skirt by, only getting punished a small handful of times for things he caused by his own pettiness. He had his fill of gorgeous women with greedy hands and minds. Groping and grabbing and whispering- promising to feed him well but somehow leaving him empty, even as he drank up all the energy they had to offer.

So much happened in a blur, and suddenly he was met with a human who was stunning not in appearance but in actions. Spoke up when she had to, refused to take their shit- someone he didn’t have the pleasure of knowing in the demon world. 

Erik never expected all this. Sam was the meanest of them all, with James coming in at a close second. He wants to question what she sees in him, but he also doesn’t.

The first person to like him as a person and he just falls entirely- does he love her because she treats him like an actual person and not a handsome face? Or does he actually love her?

He’s not sure, he just knows it’s painful. It’s hard to hide his swirling thoughts at home- hard to stop wishing it was her he ended up lying in bed with. Wishing she touched him so sweetly- spoke to him so soft with those warm eyes. He craved her in a way he’d never craved anyone in his life thus far. He wondered what it might be like to be touched intimately with warming and comforting love- not pure cold lust.

What might it be like to hold her hand? To be the reason why she was laughing so hard she could barely breathe. To have her give him those soft doe eyes. How might it feel to lay his head in her lap and have her run her fingers through his hair? Would she visit him at work? Peck his cheek and bring him some coffee?

Had he been different- had he not been how he was, would it be him? Would you have grown fond of him?

The questions threaten to spill out whenever he sees her with his brother. He aches to be the one she gives her affections to- but he also burns at the thought of how his brother would feel. Sam adores her with everything he has. His entire heart is in her hands, and she cherishes it beautifully- he should be ecstatic. Should be able to move on- after all he is the one who got them there. Pushing her to him night after night- listening to her ache over her feelings, questioning if she was right for him while he internally screamed that she was perfect.

“I think you suit him fine.”, he’d said, despite wanting to gush that anyone would be lucky to have her.

She ducks her head bashfully, sending his heart galloping, “Ha..you think so?”

“Sure.”, he hums, taking a sip of his drink, “Just give him a bit, he’s not too great with his words.”

Erik hates how he thought of ways to sabotage- ways he could have swept her away and kept her to himself. Hates how close he was to just... being selfish in a way thats so horrifically wrong. He despises how he thinks of her constantly while at work. Creating dresses and outfits he think would look lovely on her- only to sell them to clients, ecstatic with their orders. Maybe if he parts with enough of them, he can part with her.

Maybe if he fills his aching thoughts with the pretty models he meets with- he won’t feel anymore.

They call to him- moan his name and grasp at his shoulders- they attempt to hold onto him. Keep him with them in their bed in the dead of night- they cling and claw. 

They still wake up to empty beds- he still walks away, sinking lower and lower into himself.

He hasn’t been home in a month- he’s not sure if he’s worse or better. He can’t tell if he’s cured himself of this affliction- if he numbed enough.

“I love you..”

He hears the sweet whispers in what little dreams he ever has, waking to bitter reality soon after.

Is this love? Is this obsession? Is this even healthy or okay? Will he be okay?

“Erik, darling~ I’m back.”, a sickly sweet voice rings out into the silence.

He hates how he mentally caves into himself. How fake he sounds- “Oh, lovely. I do miss seeing you.” Liar-

“Ooh, flattery? That will get you very far..” Ugh-

“I do so hope so.”, he smiles, though it doesn’t reach his eyes- not that it’s ever noticed.

“Oh come on, admit I’m your favorite- your one and only and we can have lots more fun..”, she purrs, hands already unbuttoning his shirt.

Erik chuckles bitterly, remaining silent and she takes it as some sort of yes. Some type of confirmation, though it’s far from it. He’s numb to her cold touch- he barely recalls her name. He just feels.. disgusting- slimy. He realizes then that.. no matter what he could do differently when meeting her- when meeting you, you still would not love him. He’s just some used toy.

Some pretty used car. Everyone has had a ride- there’s nothing special about him, nothing charming. He has graffiti on the inside and small tears in his pleather. His tires have no tread- he is an accident waiting to happen, and you were just dodging the danger, while hoping to maybe help by being on the outside.

That must be it. right?

Anything is better than you just  not liking him that way- any reason is better than none-

“Oh, Erik..” Stop stop- you’re not her- no one is her-

He never did learn how to stop, and he’s not sure if he ever will..

“Iɴ ᴍʏ ᴍɪɴᴅ, ᴇɴᴅʟᴇss sᴇᴀ. Cᴀʟʟɪɴɢ ғʀᴏᴍ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴏᴛᴛᴏᴍ ʙᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴏɴ’ᴛ ʜᴇᴀʀ ᴍᴇ..”

#seduce me #seduce me otome #erik incubus #erik incubus x reader #Uzaeris #uzaeris x reader #Seduceme #erik seduce me #sam seduce me #ari writes