#bc everytime someone on here is like

[unicyclingdogs]

sky and wars!!! :)

#linked universe #lu fanart #lu sky #lu warriors #uni art :) #my art style is literally always changing but it is what it is and i like how this came out so we’re chilling #the rendering on this was so satisfying like looking at what it looked like after flat colors vs now is crazy #guys i turn 20 tomorrow that’s so scary 😭 like being 19 vs 20 is a big jump bc im not gonna be a teen anymore… im gonna be old!!!! #like ik 20 isn’t that old in the grand scheme of things but still!!!!! #I cant process it like saying I’m in my twenties is WEIRD‼️‼️‼️ that’s something someone with their life together says not me 😭😭😭😭 #everytime I post art here i feel like i always have an unrelated crisis going on in the tags #it’s a tradition at this point

[halcified]

i Knowww mp100 has stuff thats more difficult to watch in later seasons (cough. shou and his dad during all of the world domination arc, mogamiland, etc) but the episode that continues to be the most Ruthlessly Brutal to me will aaaalways be episode 5 with mob and teru. theres something unparalleled in seeing a character who is widely beloved and contrasting it with their first appearance and just how Violent it is

i think we all downplay just how cruel teru was which is understandable but the rest of the violence in this show feels fantastical, at least a little, due to the nature of esp but its especially cruel and real watching a (onesided) fight between two fourteen year olds. theyre in middle school! theyre fourteen! its fucked up and horrifying and gruelling-- this is the episode that raises the stakes. the one that says, in a world full of spirits and psychics, how fucked would it be if a kid tried to kill with their bare hands

#mp100 #mob psycho 100 #text #mp100 meta #sorta but like this episode from terus pov makes me insaaaane #heres a boy who is entrenched in violence. now what if there was someone who decided to be kind #not to mention the genre subversion here is sooo good #this is where the show takes a Sharp Turn from potentional Fun Psychic Fights! and nosedives straight into 'Hey thats horrifying actually?' #so so so good like actually #plus everytime i show someone this episode i start stimming bc! my boy!! my boy is here!! #and they look at me like ive lost my fucking mind . because im stimming while teru beats the shit out of mob

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#i dropped my no good very bad class 😘 #i mean it wasnt bad. i liked what i was learning abt but i was spending way too much time on it when i should b doing research #so Hurrah for being sensible #i still feel like a learned things about how to read papers from my short time there and i also learned how to give myself sleep paralysis #so that's fun. all i have to do is work on something stressful in the middle of the night and then try to go back to sleep lol #its always lights coming on when theres supposed to b no one but me here and invisible hands touching me and pulling me around #so thats fun. still feel like garbage tho #i feel like a quitter >:-[ and i have an exam looming that im not ready for #and everytime i talk to someone whos all abt teaching i feel like a horrible teacher #bc im like the worst at positive feedback. im all functional responses and instead of being like: how can i do better to help im sitting #there like what if i just collapsed right here and perished. what then? then i woudlnt have to deal with teaching lol #ugh. im still tried #unrelated

[lifeismarvelous]

words cannot express how important this is: REBLOGS > LIKES

I cannot STRESS enough how absolutely crucial reblogs are to all creators, it helps us be SEEN it helps our work ACTUALLY SPREAD AROUND it LETS MORE AND MORE PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT THE STUFF WE MAKE Likes are nice because it lets us know you’ve seen our work and enjoyed it, but reblogs are MUCH more powerful because it lets us know you really want to support us by sharing our work around and telling others about us and the stuff we make. ESPECIALLY when someone works so hard on something and they get really excited to post it and show others, only for it to get very few reblogs. It discourages the creator if their work doesn’t get enough attention. We put in a lot of love, hard work, effort, and dedication into everything we make and it would really mean so much to us if you reblog more and let us been seen! Support your favorite creator today!!

#sincerely #a person who's been making art and music covers for years #back in high school i'd compare myself to other artists and kept feeling bad abt my own art skills #and i'd get sad if my stuff didn't get so many reblogs here on tumblr #bc everytime i saw someone's art post and it has much more notes than mine i felt like my own work was just bad #i would also post some of my music stuff here too but that never got as much attention as my art did #so now i just never post music stuff here

[thetriangletattoo]

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#the video of louis throwing the bodyguard's hat into the crowd fills me with the wrath of god everytime in comes across my dash #as someone who cares very deeply about their personal belongings i would be so mad at him #i have this yellow hat and it's like my favourite ever and to think of it being tossed like that? #idk makes me think about when my teacher used to go around the classroom while teaching #and picked my pencil case and smashed it on the table to make a point #and i was like wtf NO there are pencils in there i treat my pencils in a very specific way and if you smash that i can just throw it away #bc at that point every time I'll sharpen them the tip will just fall off #im straight up venting here bc every time someone treats somebody else's stuff without a single care in the world it just enrages me lmao #and yeah this is not about louis at all that video just awakens this in me

[minglana]

every time i have to interact on any social media (thats not this stupid website) i cry and shake like a wet, scared dog btw

#by interact i mean reply to someone or comment somewhere #a few weeks ago i interacted on twitter w someone and that was enough for me for like.... forever #everytime i have to make a reddit post (usually asking for help on r/firefox) or comment (today is the first time ive ever replied) #i cry and shake bc it is NOT my territory. i have accounts on those things to observe those ppl from a distance honestly #on twitter and reddit i am a spectator in the zoo. on here i am one of the clowns #xarraire

[hannie-dul-set]

always shocked to see 16 year olds on here until i remember.....i also started writing here......when i was 16........

#u don't understand everytime i see someone liking/rbing my shit from 4-2yrs ago i viscerally cringe #i want to delete those works so bad but im also sentimental so i cannot 😭😭 #crazy ive been tumblr's bitch for five years (even longer bcs prior to kpop i also posted shit on here for a diff fandom) crazy crazy crazy. #and if i didn't get suddenly possessed by a writing demon over the summer earlier this year. i wouldn't have returned HAHAHAHAHAH. #wild.

[dreamcast-official]

ugh.

#eli.txt #I KEEP FORGETTING MY EX HAS A PARTNER AND I GET SO MISERABLE ABT IT EVERYTIME I AM REMINDED. #idk. goes back to how disposable i probably am. in general. but to them especially #bc damn losing me meant absolutely nothing huh. nothing in your life changed other than not having to deal with me anymore. #nothing changed and yet me being gone made it all better huh. #idk what i expected but idk ive always been kinda disposable to most ppl i just. idk i hoped a relationship wouldve been different #like. damn! leaving me changed nothing! it just made your life better! i can fucking tell! #things always turn out this way is the thing lol everytime someone gets rid of me its like their life immediately gets better #AGFHGHGH this sucks i kinda wanna be mad at them but im NOT #IM MAD AT MYSELF FOR NOT BEING MAD AT THEM WHICH IS FUCKING STUPID BUT LIKE. GOD THEY NEVER DID ANYTHING TO HARM ME #AND THAT MAKES IT SO HARD FOR ME TO FEEL NEGATIVELY TOWARDS THEM #EVEN THOUGH IM REALLY HURT BC THEYRE NOT. DOING ANYTHING. TOWARDS ME. IM HURT BC IM A FUCKING BABY THAT CANT GET OVER ANYTHING EVER #this sucks so much i fucking hate it here do you know how upsetting this is. they didnt even fucking DO anything which makes it WORSE #bc WHY am i upset they didnt even DO anything #im just like a fucking infant is what i am

[incendiorum-arch]

#◜❝ 𝙾𝙾𝙲 𝚃𝙱𝙳. ⟩⟩ find resurrection in the flames. ❞◞ #holding them each in one fist & shaking them like a squeaky toy #I need to write more....... about both of them......... #esp bc azzy. and io. and um. um. #you know. 💀. #someone has to win here #anyway everytime I look at them I'm like ily both.......... and ur both so fucked up #does anyone know that borzoi and wolf comic? #the parody of you one? #bc it always makes me think of azzy and io

[poignardeparlebeau]

i only use my preferred name with chosen friends and online so of course i go by my given name at work but there's a dude named alex here and everytime someone says alex i have to fight not to respond

#it's so weird bc in my mind alex is my name but my given name is also my name but only for my family so it's so weird #really wanted to go by alex here but it wasn't really possible #everytime alex (the dude) comes by i try not to turn my head everytime someone says alex #i think this is making me realise how much i actually want to be called alex #but i also want to keep my given name in some capacity #it's not a deadname to me it's more like the nickname my family has for me it's a name so full of love it feels wrong to discard it #i have a lot of complicated feelings abt this and it gets even more complicated as i grow up and start having official documents in my name #job diary #talks

[giverofempathy]

mannn i'm so sick of living with abusive people literally LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEE

#salisha speaks #normally asked my father to get me something out of the shed and he got so mad lmaooo fucking loser #and im sick of his shit so i was like why are u acting like this when i normally ask u a question and he didnt even know what to say #he gets mad at literally everything im so tired of it 🙄🙄🙄🙄 #he also said he was gonna help me put up picture frames literally two weeks ago and he hasnt done it yet #and everytime i mention it he gets annoyed and says “later” but it never happens #and im too scared to do it myself bc the things i need for it are his and when he notices that someone has touched his stuff #without his knowing he of course gets mad and i dont want that #so idk what to do now im just stuck with a pile of picture frames on my floor because my piece of shit asshole father #doesnt help me put them up 🙄🙄 #hate it here sm #abuse tw

[sukugo]

one of the sexiest things about tumblr, even more so than follower counts not being public, is that your own follower count is not visible to you unless you open the side panel

#like in ig or twt the first thing u see when u open ur profile is ur followers #which makes it so much easier to notice any changes to it whether up or down #having u be so much more attentive to it too #and that. is not nice #at all #here if someone follows/unfollows it's really nothing bc u're not really aware of it in such a huge way bc there's no huge humber displayed #that u're constantly looking at #whereas in other places ur're gonna be aware of it whether u want to or not #f.txt #tumblr #yeah i love it here #oh but omg i think the absolute WORST thing i've seen #is on twitter there's some people who have smth with their account #where it tweets everytime they get unfollowed/blocked or smth #and shit. that's. so so harmful it's fucked up

[saint-gerard-of-arc]

😬

[rant in the tags]

#witchy.txt #i am THIS close to just fucking delete the cursed motley crue images blog #I swear to god. I swear to god if I see one more person blow my notes the fuck up with likes I'm gonna burn the place to the ground #they're not even reblogs!!! what are you gonna do. save those pics for later??? i-- #UGH #this isn't instagram you fuckers. you absolute fuckers #you absolute clowns #sorry I just. I don't know I'm frustrated okay? it used to be fun but now it's the third time TODAY that ppl would spam like the blog #the only reason why I keep that shit up is to read the tags of pppl rbing the pics bc y'all are so much funnier than me #but when someone just spam likes it boils my piss #and really makes me question if it's still worth it #I'm questioning if it's worth the anxiety everytime I see this wall of notifications of nothingness #ugh-- okay I'll fuck off now sorry for the rant #maybe if I get anxiety for notifications I really should either take a break or just delete the blog huh #but on the other hand. I feel like the cursed blog has so much more to offer #(eventually when I get up my ass and actually update it with more pics) #like I'm on a mission here and it's not over yet #ugh whatever y'know. just whatever #I'm just shouting in the void here so who cares

[vellz2]

Posted the tiger quackity invitation on Twitter and im already dying of embarrassment, I feel so much better posting here on tumblr 😭. Only tried it for today, may delete it mater

#Funny how I instantly came here to cry about it LMAOO #I've been on this app for a few months and don't interact that much out of embarrassment (lol) but I really like u guys yall r cool #Everytime i see a like or see that someone reblogged something I made I get so happy :( #Even if it's a few ppl #I appreciate it a lot #I'm rambling for no reason bcs I'm anxious as hell rn lmao

[rubysparx]

Hm

#don’t wanna see the like #this thing is so wlw core and this thing is so mlm core #like I get we’re all making fun of that shit I get it’s a joke #but I’m saying the jokes only funny for a about 60 seconds and then I remember #that a SOLID chunk of users on this site don’t understand it’s a joke #they look at that shit and say like omg so tru and MEAN IT #they do not see the irony and I don’t wanna feed them #that’s my thoughts brother #but also yk maybe I’m just more aware of it bc like #I’m in both ur little boxes as a girlboy and everytime I think of people being unable to fathom someone might be a girl and a boy #it makes me upset #like hey dude I’m right here #we’re actually everywhere fun fact #I’m not gendercore or whatever the fuck your just said to me #I’m eating chips in my room core what do you want

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#ay ay ay. my head feels like its stuffed completely full of cotton. bulging at the seems #its just that wrung out ive been crying too much feel. i just had to do a bunch of application stuff yesterday night #and there were way too many tears so i work up out of focus with salt in my eyelashes. so i wasnt that productive despite the fact i really #need to b rn. and i met with my boss for our weekly meeting and its just so many things i have to do #like theres this procedure for some new equipment we have and im testing it out but like she wants to see it in action and im like treading #close to dangerously unstable so the chances i burst into tears in public is quite high which is why i hide in my apartment and only go to #the lab when no ones there. but no im prob gonna have to go in Thursday and have to go drive like and hr away next week so we can hopefully #have all the equipment we need for another project thats gonna kill me. plus we got contacted by a group we were gonna work with last year #who wanna work with us again. which is objectively good like itll look real good on a cv to b involved and like even non science ppl would #prob find it cool. but i csnt feel any of that bc i dont kno how im gonna be able to go back and forth contacting the other lab group i #have to work with in order to do everything. which its like itll b fine #ive done it before. 2 of the 3 things i have done before so itll be fine. it just doesn't feel like it #it feels like im dissolving into pieces and everythings spinning too fast. theres a film between myself and everything else so i cant touch #anything and it cant touch me. #and its weird bc i know that burning myself out is what got me here but i still cant detatch myself from the soul crushing guilt of not #making every second productive. its disorienting bc my brain will b like: u should just stay here over break and get stuff done #and like no. thats objectively the worst thing i could possibly do. i just feel like a wet glob of paper towels. ive already committed #myself to only 13 days being gone. only have to trudge through like 21 days 1st. how? no idea #like im sure itll b fine but somethings gotta give before my brain implodes beyond repair. if were not there already #ay everytime my boss says something nice abt me to someone it just feels like a knife in the gut. like shes not lying but i just feel like #ive fallen so far that shes talking abt a past verson of me and it makes me sad. like idk how obvious it is but im sure i have terrible #vibes irl lol like the sort of pained twisted up little smiles u make when u dont wanna lie but u dont wanna b honest ay #itll b fine. i can feel the floorboards giving way so somethings close to giving just have to see where and in what form the metaphor #actulizes. hopefully it does so quickly bc im bored and tired of living like this. and i dont really wanna go home and explode into tears #like a child and have my parents deal with me. which they would bc theyre great. i just dont wanna worry them sigh... #unrelated #i should sleep bc i gotta get up and burn my brain out being a scribe tomorrow morning. at least i get to hang out with someone cool