#basically jus. putting it simply intrusive thoughts keep screaming abt wanting to cut at my cheeks an. hate it here

[betaamity]

hi sorry gonna ramble and ig kinda vent abt intrusive thoughts in the tags cause uhhh need some outlet and wanna give fair warning that nobody needs to read it!!

warnings are in tags before it for blacklists an stuff

#you put the spike in my heart #self harm // #i jus. post it cause the cool way my thought process works is jus. feelin better when i know im not internalizing it and the only one aware #if that makes sense? #anyways uhhhh vent time #ive been s/h clean for abt. a year now? but i jus. somebody pointed out before that when you see new ways others harm themselves yes you #can be and are worried for them but also when you are feeling self destructive as well your brain. sees it as a challenge #like a way that you also need to harm yourself and even though ive been clean for a while the thoughts are still there #and the urge is absolutely there too #basically jus. putting it simply intrusive thoughts keep screaming abt wanting to cut at my cheeks an. hate it here #i know in my right mind i wont act on it but i hate to say it gets. tempting when its all you hear as loud as possible constantly