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not tired | jjk
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title: not tired
pairing: jungkook x female reader
rating/genre: fluff and smut, established relationship au
summary: jungkook helps you sleep on a stressful night.
warnings: anxiety (pretty detailed description of an anxiety attack so pls read carefully), a lot of praising, oral (f. receiving), jungkook is really really sweet.
wordcount: 2.1k
note: okay hiii this is the first story i write here, pls be nice !! also english is not my first language so please excuse any grammar error. i hope you like the story !!!! <3
this is ridiculous. you've been studying all day non-stop even though jungkook got mad at you for not resting and yet you're feeling as awake as ever. you can see it's already 3am on the digital clock on the nightstand and you don't feel not even a little bit of tiredness in your body.
you can hear jungkook's soft snores against your neck, his arm lazily thrown over your waist and his leg tangled with yours. he's obviously sleeping, he fell asleep almost as soon as you both got into bed, but it's been like 5 hours and you're still staring at the dark ceiling not knowing what to do to be able to fall asleep.
it's not the first time you have trouble falling asleep, but usually you didn't have any problem when jungkook was not working outside the city and could be with you. you know it's because of the stress you've been going through these past few weeks over your finals, you can literally feel the tension in your body, you can't relax because tomorrow you have the last exam of your last year of college.
oh my god, the last exam is tomorrow and you can't sleep. you'll need to feel awake tomorrow for everything to go well and you can't seem to rest. you're gonna fail, the exam is gonna go terribly because you can't sleep.
you suddenly start feeling out of breath, you need air. you need to breathe. walking towards the window seems like the best option now so, as much as you love having your boyfriend curled up to your side, you need to push him away. you start to do it as gently as you can, pulling his arm away from your body as your own arms start to shake with the anxiety building up in your body.
but he notices. his body twitches and he's suddenly opening his eyes, tilting his head a little to look at you.
god, you woke him up. he was resting for tomorrow. he also has a busy schedule tomorrow, that's why you both went to bed early tonight. now his sleep has been interrupted because of you. it's your fault.
you can literally feel your throat closing up, you can't take in any air. you can't breath and your whole body starts to feel numb.
"baby?" jungkook rasps, moving to stand on one elbow so he can see you better through the dark. the little light coming from the window lets you see his worried expression. "baby are you okay?" his eyes are barely open. he must be so tired.
your mouth opens for you to try and tell him you can't breath but your voice doesn't come out. you can't talk and you're starting to feel dizzy with the struggle of trying to breathe. the best you can do is reach for his arm with your hand.
you can see the realization in his face. it's just like a switch turns on inside his brain. jungkook quickly sits up and holds you by your arms to sit you up on the bed right in front of him.
"hey, look at me baby." his voice is calm but you can feel how he's trying is best not to freak out because he knows that's the last thing he should do when you're having an anxiety attack. "breathe with me, okay?" his hands are placed on your arms, softly caressing your skin. "just like how i do it." he takes in a big breath, his shoulders lifting up a little to emphasize the action.
you do your best to follow him but a sob escapes your throat when you can't take a breath because you're hiperventilating.
"slowly baby, you don't need to rush it." jungkook says as soon as he sees you struggling and you nod, closing your eyes for two seconds before looking at him again. "breathe with me." he takes another breath again and exhales, you start to follow, little by little. "so good baby, you're doing so good." he nods with a smile that already makes you feel so much better than breathing. "i'm here, okay? look at me and breathe." he takes a big breath again and you follow, your lungs starting to feel better and your body relaxing again.
when you close your eyes you can feel tears that you didn't even know you had rolling down your cheeks, but jungkook's fingers are quickly wiping them away.
"are you feeling better?" he asks and gives you as much time as you need to steady your breathing before opening your eyes and looking at him again. you nod but it's not enough for him. "words."
"yes." you finally say and he smiles, sighing in relief. "thank you.. so much, really."
"what happened?" he mutters and you suddenly feel so bad because he truly looks tired.
"i- i couldn't sleep, and i have to rest before the exam tomorrow, i'm gonna fail and-" as soon as you start rambling jungkook grabs you by your arms again and shakes you a little.
"baby breathe, okay?" his voice is so soft. you nod and take a few more deep breaths before speaking again, slowly this time.
"i've been trying to sleep for hours but i can't, i can't relax and i need to rest for tomorrow.."
"why didn't you wake me up before?" he pouts a little and you lower your face in embarrassment.
"because i didn't want to bother you, you shouldn't be awake right now." you mutter.
"hey, no no no.. don't worry about me." jungkook quickly replies and slides his hands down your arms to hold your hands. "what can i do for you to get sleepy?" he asks and you shrug.
"i don't know." your voice breaks and you try to play it off since your head is down and jungkook wouldn't be able to see the tears in your eyes. but he knows.
"come here." he lets go of your hands to open his arms.
a little smile appears on your face and you move to straddle his lap and wrap your arms around his neck while he wraps his around your body, keeping you close.
"you're stressed, aren't you?" he mutters and you swallow, closing your eyes and trying not to start crying. "i know.. it's okay baby, you're doing so good." one of his hands starts rubbing your back up and down. "close your eyes."
"they're closed." your voice comes out shaky so he hugs you even tighter.
"do you want me to sing to you?" he says and leaves a sweet kiss on your neck.
"mhm." you nod.
"okay." you can hear his smile on his face and slowly starts to rock back and forth to calm you down.
as soon as he starts singing you can recognize the song. it's one of the songs he wrote for you a while ago. he sounds really tired but you find it impressing how he can still sound so good. his hands keep rubbing your back slowly, actually calming you down.
but by the time he finishes the song you're still awake.
"baby?" he whispers.
"still awake." you mutter and hear him sigh. "koo, you should sleep." your hand goes to his hair, tangling your fingers with it.
"not until you fall asleep." he hums and you chuckle a little.
"you almost fell asleep three times singing.
"i'm okay." the boy insists and you roll your eyes. "c'mon, lay down." he flips you two around to lay you down on the bed.
"what are you-" the words die on your throat when he suddenly puts his lips on yours.
he kisses you really slowly and your whole body relaxes once again, your legs going to wrap around his waist but he quickly pushes them down again, which earns a whine in protest from you.
"stay still." jungkook whispers as his kisses start going down to your neck.
"koo." a little moan escapes your mouth when he sucks a hickey on your neck.
"pretty." he mutters and goes up to your ear. "can i make you feel good, baby?" you shiver when you feel his breath against your ear. "just with my mouth, you only need to lay there." the little bite in your earlobe makes it for you.
you nod and immediately buck your hips up, making jungkook giggle. he helps you getting rid of your pajama shorts along with your panties and lifts your shirt just enough to place little kisses all over your stomach as he positions himself between your legs.
"so pretty.." he repeats and you put your hand on his hair, pushing it away from his face to be able to look at him while he bends one of your legs a little and puts it over his shoulder, starting to leave kisses on your inner thigh too. "close your eyes baby."
with a sigh you let your head fall back on the pillow and close your eyes.
"breathe, okay?" jungkook reminds you again before leaving another kiss on your inner thigh and you hum in response, taking a deep breath and letting it go.
although your breath hitches when you feel his fingers teasing your entrance, only when he starts running them through your folds you notice how embarrassingly wet you are.
"koo please." you whimper and hear a little chuckle from him.
"shhh.. stay quiet." the order only makes you feel hotter.
but you're definitely not quiet when you feel his tongue on you. a loud moan slips through your lips and you tug at his hair unvoluntarily.
"so sweet.." he hums and you tug even harder, but he wraps his hand around your wrist and squeezes. "relax baby." he says and gives your folds a wet kiss.
"sorry.." you whimper as you relax your hand.
"it's okay, you're so good for me."
the praise makes you melt and you let your body fall limp on the bed, trying not to twitch everytime he gives a suck to your clit.
he's slow, really slow to show you that he's doing this so you can relax. your body feelss numb by this point. he knows what he's doing, he knows better than anyone else how sleepy you get after an orgasm.
each time you moan he also hums in response, making the vibrations push you closer to the edge, and each time you buck your hips up he pushes them against the mattress again.
"koo.." a whine escapes your lips when you feel a finger prodding your entrance as his tongue circles your clit.
"can i?"
he said only mouth before but you can't say no when his finger starts being swallowed inside you so you just hum with a nod, whining when he easily slips another finger. you know you're still stretched from the morning before. yes, jungkook likes morning sex.
"fuck..." you sigh when he starts slowly moving his fingers in and out. "mhh.. so good.
the chuckle he lets out makes you clench around his fingers, he takes the opportunity to curl them inside and you cry out his name as your legs twitch from the pleasure.
"there?" he asks as he curls his fingers the same way again, the tips brushing against your sweet spot.
"yes." you moan and bite your lip to try to hide embarrasing sounds.
"like that, baby?" he keeps moving his fingers in the perfect way and gives your clit a little suck right after asking.
"koo.. fuck." your back arches inevitably and your hand tugs at his hair again. "don't stop... please..."
he doesn't stop, he keeps doing exactly what you need and soon after you're clenching around his fingers with a loud moan and trembling legs.
"so good." jungkook praises as he lets you ride your orgasm on his fingers and kisses your clit one last time. "such a good girl."
"koo..." you try to catch your breath and reach out to him with your hand. "come here." you beg and he's quickly hovering on top of you again.
"how are you feeling baby?" he asks and gives you a sweet kiss. you don't care that he tastes like you, you lick his lower lip.
"mhh... tired." you giggle against his lips and he smiles.
"good."
"i feel a little sticky, though." you mutter, making him chuckle.
"wait a second," he gives your lips a last peck. "i'll be back." he gets up from the bed and quickly walks out of the room.
but you don't remember him coming back. you've already fallen asleep.
A/N: aaaaaahhhh i hope u liked this little story !!! feel free to tell me your thoughts, it would be nice to see a little feedback, it would help me get motivated to keep writing <3 thank u so much for reading. have a nice day 💕
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joonmon · 1 month
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Day 26 w yoongi's favourite hobby, sleeping😴😆
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honey-boyyoongi · 2 months
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Oh, baby!
Reader x Yoongi | Part 60//?
Summary ➪ Min Yoongi, is a simple man. He likes his coffee black and iced, he enjoys his job, and he loves his baby girl. But what happens when the new neighbor, quite literally, drops into his life?
Warnings ➪ any typos are mine; angst lol; some cursing; talk of physical assault; mentions of toxic parent/child relationship??; if your name is crossed out it’s because I couldn’t tag you;
A/n: hey besties, this year I’m hoping to write more so please look forward to that. Feedback is appreciated and if you’d like to be added to the tag list please let me know.
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jungcam · 2 months
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jungkook
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jimin
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taehyung
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yoongi
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jhope
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namjoon
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oneofthemillionarmy · 2 months
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Jungkook is the type of boyfriend who would let you design one of his tattoos.
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dirtybtssnaps · 9 months
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joonie, i love our height difference so much ! you tower over me so well but can you maybe hold me while you fuck me tonight? princess wants to be in your strong arms while you pound her
Genre: Establish Relationship, Smut, Question/Roleplay
Pairing: Dominant Bts Kim Namjoon (Rm) and Submissive Female Reader
“You think you’re the only one who loves our height difference, it’s so cute when I’m standing right up against you and I see how tiny you are compared to me and how easily I can just tower over you and dominate you. You don’t have to hide it, I’ve been thinking about picking you, pressing you up against the wall and just pounding your pretty pussy….You’re not busy tonight right moonlight? You wanna stay with me tonight?.” He asked as he gently grabbed your hand and pressed it up against his bulge.
-Kim Namjoon (Rm)
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samoankpoper21 · 5 months
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Seven - Jungkook
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A/N *Hey y'all I've been meaning to post this ages ago but I was suffering severe writers block and my work schedule has been kind of hectic T-T this is my second(?) smut and I know it needs more work so bear with me 😅😅
Word count: 868
**MDNI**
Weight of the world on your shoulders
This week in particular was long and rough. Your supervisors were constantly breathing down your neck asking whether you were done with your projects, the engineering team asking if you could spare them a slice of your time to help them with their projects all while trying to juggle and maintain your own deadlines.
You got home, sighed, and slipped off your heels. You needed Jungkook. As if the universe heard you, Jungkook sauntered into the room looking half as spent as you. He too had a rough week of promotions, filming, and interviews for his new song Seven. You both locked eyes and within seconds your lips were crashing against one another, teeth gnashing. The carnal need to be one escalated.
I take my hands and trace your lines
He pinned you against the wall, one of his hands cuffing your wrists, one of your legs wrapping around his waist trying to bring him as close as you could. "Kookie please. I need you now." Without breaking the kiss, he led you to the couch where you were grateful of the fact that you chose to wear a skirt today. You quickly straddled him, both your hands quickly going to work removing his and your shirt. He reached behind and unclasped your bra, kneading and sucking your breasts causing you to gasp. You brought the full weight of your hips down grinding against his erection causing him to release an animalistic growl, biting down on your neck leaving his mark. He wasn't the only one that was going to get away with marking you; you quickly swiped your tongue on his neck, bit down, and started sucking causing him to gasp. You began to make a trail down to his collarbone while maintaining the constant grinding of your hips. He pushed his needy hips upward, thrusting in time with you. His hands found purchase in your hair and he firmly pulled your head back, your love mark assault coming to a halt. "Stop teasing me Y/N-(y)ah." You smirked trying to gain control but who were you kidding, you both needed this. You got off of him to quickly remove your skirt and panties, he removing his sweatpants and boxers. His hardened member sprung free of its constraints, precum leaking out of the tip. You licked your lips and saunter over to him, straddling him once more.
It's the way that we can ride It's the way that we can ride
You slowly sunk down onto his member gasping, reveling at how he filled you up. He bit down on your shoulder, his hands gripping your waist. You began to move your hips up in a circular motion, slamming down causing him to dig his nails deeper into your skin. You hissed at the pain but this was nothing in comparison to the pleasure that was slowly budding. Jungkook watched your breasts bouncing up and down, lowering his head as he caught one of your nipples in his mouth. He ran his tongue up and down, flicking the erect nipple, sucking; your grinding slowing down, mouth agape, your hands tangled in his hair. He slapped your ass hard and demanded, "Don't stop riding me." Your lower lip was caught between your teeth, your pussy squeezing his dick oh so good. You loved when he demanded you to don't stop. You brought your knees up, planting your feet on either side of him, lifted up and slammed back down onto him. You kept at that tantalizing pace, Jungkook's hisses and moans of approval turning you on even more, the sound of skin slapping skin echoing throughout the room.
You wrap around me and you give me life
Your hips slammed down sloppily, Jungkook sensing that you were reaching your high. He looked up to see your eyes closed, face flushed, you clawing at his chest, breasts bouncing. He brought you to his chest and began thrusting into you. "Ah!" you screamed out. Jungkook began fucking into you, your moans echoing throughout the room. "Fuck this pussy is good." he hissed.
"Fuuucck Kookie, I'm close." He slid out of you causing you to whimper at the loss of contact. "Kooookiieee."
"Turn around." you excitedly got up, turned so that your chest was flush against the couch, shaking your ass in the process. Wasting no time, Jungkook slid into you causing you to gasp, your mouth in the shape of an "o". He gripped your hips and began slamming into you with an ungodly pace, you throwing your ass back in pace with his thrusts. He stilled your hips and went deep. "Ohmygod ohmygod ohmygod that's deep." Kookie repeated that action, your thoughts and words incoherent. He circled his hips and slammed into you once more. "Fu-fuuuck Kookie I'm cumming! Aahh!" your eyes shut tightly and you squirted all over the couch. Jungkook fucked you through your orgasm, his thrusts becoming inconsistent. You threw your ass back and said, "Cum for me Kookie." with that simple sentence, Jungkook gripped your hips and released ropes after ropes of his seed into you.
That's why night after night I'll be fucking you right
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holdontokpop · 2 years
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BTS reaction to you walking into the room in sexy lingerie
Anon said: pls pls bts reaction to you wearing sexy underwear, lingerie!!
Jungkook: You leave him speechless *gif*
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Jimin: His eyes would look at you from head to toe, admiring your beauty *gif*
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Taehyung: "Come here, baby." he speaks softly, wrapping his arms around your waist, pulling you in close.
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Rap Monster: "Come closer, babygirl..." *gif speaks for itself*
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J-Hope: *gif*
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Suga: "What are we gonna do with that.... Let me take it off"
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Jin: *can't wait to make love to you*
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bangtansmauyeondan · 2 years
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AUTUMN LEAVES MASTERLIST - Fall 2022 Collaboration
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Main Banner: Justine • bangtansmauyeondan. Fic Banners: Dani • persphonesorchid
Contributors: @hamsterclaw @taestefully-in-luv @madbutgloriouspond @persphonesorchid @blog-name-idk @btsstan12 and myself! 🥰
We are ready to warm you up through this sweater weather, when the smell of roasted marshmallows and pumpkin spice waft through the air, with heartwarming stories to carry you through the season!
Warnings are more specified on each writer's blog posts.
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Pairing: non-idol! Namjoon X fem! reader Genre: strangers to lovers, fluff, crack (a little?) Warnings: none Rating: pg-13 WC: 8k+ Summary: The time when the wind changes and you can feel poetry in the air is autumn. Autumn is also called fall. This time, maybe literally for Namjoon as he falls for the girl with her nose buried in a book. He navigates his small crush on her with crimson cheeks, crunch of leaves and the changing winds.
FALL LIKE MOONDROPS by @madbutgloriouspond - September 24, 2022
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Pairing: Jimin x F!Reader Genre: Friends to Lovers, Angst, Fluff, Smut Warnings: 18+, smut, car sex, mentions of wonderwall, ​an insane amount of pining, additional tags to be added Summary: University's over and the rest of Jimin's life is about to start but there's one more thing he needs before he's ready to embrace whatever future awaits him.
BERLIN by @hamsterclaw - October 1, 2022
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Pairing: Hoseok x F!Reader Genre: Espionage AU, smut, mild angst Warnings: 18+, sex, swearing, mentions of injury Summary: Hoseok and you tried to make it work but you can't... Yet you can't be without each other either.
PICK OF THE PATCH by @taestefully-in-luv - October 8, 2022
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Pairing: Taehyung x female reader Genre: fluff, angst, smut, enemies to lovers Rating: M Warnings: swearing, some alcohol consumption, sad oc, feeling lost, feelings of regret, Taehyung is kinda an asshole (for reasons🥺), terminal illness, character death, crying. smut warnings: oral (fem and male rec), protected sex (more smut warnings on actual fic) Summary: You’re a struggling artist with a strong desire to escape so when your mother suddenly calls and asks you to return home to replace her in this years Harvest Festival dance, you never said yes faster. However, she informs you that you’ll be working with another dancer, Kim Taehyung and upon meeting, you decide you do not like him…but right when you think you could grow up and move past it, Taehyung makes it clear that he does not like you either.
AUBURN SKIES by @persphonesorchid - October 15, 2022
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Pairing: Yoongi x Reader Genre: Best friend's sister au, crack (sort of? I'm not funny lmao) Warnings: 18+, smut (exact smut warnings will be included in the post once it's up and ready to go!) Summary: "Autumn is a season that shows us that change can be beautiful" - Everyone knows that if your best friend has a little sister, she's off limits. Yoongi knows this. There's no way he could tell Namjoon that once upon a time you kissed him, drunk in his living room after a break up. So much time's passed since then, too much time to bring it up now, but Yoongi still thinks about it, he's still a little hopeful. Now you're here at the lake house because Namjoon brought you and you clearly have something you want to say to Yoongi. Namjoon's gonna kill him.
(RIGHT) HOOK, LINE, AND SINKER by @blog-name-idk - October 22, 2022
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Pairing: Jeon Jungkook x Fem Reader Genre: College!AU, Fluff, Humor, Smut Word Count: 12,353 Warnings: Smut, Swearing, Vmin being menaces as always Summary: Haunted houses are the opposite of your idea of a good time. But then you punch out a hot zombie who falls for you the same instant his ass hits the ground, and well… maybe they aren't always so bad.
PROMISE by @bangtansmauyeondan - October 29, 2022
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Pairing: Seokjin × Fem Reader Genre: established relationship au, angst, fluff Rating: 18+, M Warnings: swearing, smut, jealousy, insecurity, feeling of neglect, alcohol consumption Summary: When you and Seokjin no longer dream of the same dream, and no longer look at the world the same way, you start recalling the promise you made to each other three years ago in front of the altar. Is it a promise that holds true for eternity, or is it a promise that’s meant to be broken?
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onthestreetwithyou · 8 months
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silscintilla · 2 years
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hellooo! Can someone please help me find this fic pls🥺 It’s a Btsxreader fic where the boys are different supernatural creatures in a cluster and the reader is a newly turned vampire (she’s only been a vampire for a year). Jin is a vampire, yoongi is a demon I think, jhope is a gumiho, namjoon is a dragon, jimin is a fae of sorts, tae is a mountain spirit that turns into a tiger and jungkook is the only human left in their cluster, but the reader had to turn him otherwise he would’ve died. He ended up at the readers doorstep almost dead bc hunters attacked him and wanted info on Jin bc he’s a powerful vampire. Jungkook works at Jin’s library, that’s where he meets the reader, she comes, stays in the corner reading and leaves at closing time and they sort of develop a connection of sorts and he calls her library noona around the boys since he doesn’t know her name. I can’t remember the name of the story or the authors name and I’ve been looking for it all day but haven’t had any luck. I can remember more about it, but have tried looking for it everywhere and found nothing🥲😔 Pleaseeeee can someone help me🥹
P.S. Author of this story, if you read this, please don’t tell me you deleted it and that’s why I can’t find it???!?!
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gggukniverse · 7 months
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cool with you | jjk
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title: cool with you
pairing: jungkook x trans male!reader
genre: hurt/comfort, fluff, established relationship au
summary: the dysphoria hits you as you're getting ready to go out with your friends but jungkook is there to make you feel better.
warnings: a little breakdown because of dysphoria, mentions of a gender-affirming surgery, jungkook calls you love because i'm a SLUT for that petname.
wordcount: 2.7k
note: hey 👀 so... i'm aware that there's not a lot of male!reader and trans male!reader content here so i wanted to try and write a cute little drabble for people who might want to read this type of content. i hope you like it a lot !!!
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"can i borrow one of your shirts?" you ask loud enough for jungkook to hear from the bathroom after having no luck finding a nice shirt in your side of the closet.
"of course you can," jungkook replies with his voice a little muffled and you turn to the open bathroom door, he's brushing his teeth. "you don't even have to ask." he adds.
"okay, thanks babe." you blow him a kiss and he winks at you before moving back to the sink.
you quickly find a nice oversized soft pink shirt with a darker pink drawing on it. you don't waste any time, taking your shirt off immediately and put his on, walking towards the mirror to check the look. it's a cute look, jungkook's shirt looks good with your baggy light blue jeans with wide pockets.
but you hate it. you like the fit but you hate how it looks on you. and it is all because of the same thing as always, your chest. your stupid chest that always ruins everything. you can see the curve on your shirt from your boobs even with your binder on and you fucking hate it. you hate it so much that when you look up to see the reflection of your face in the mirror you can notice how miserable you look all of the sudden.
it's not always like this. usually, you just suck it up because there's nothing you can do about it for now, but sometimes the dysphoria hits too much and it feels like you're drowning in all of your insecurities.
"ah, isn't that shirt cool?" jungkook speaks behind you and you turn around to look at him. his smile completely fades away as soon as he sees you. "what happened?" he asks, his wide eyes suddenly filled with worry.
you're so lucky to have jungkook, just one look at you and he already knows something is up. he always knows.
"i... i don't..." the worst thing is that you feel embarrassed to say it out loud.
jungkook has been your boyfriend for over two years. you met him when you had just started transitioning and he always supported you, right from the start. you know he will always be there to listen to your worries and insecurities because he loves you, so you shouldn't be embarrassed about things like this. but even after everything, it is still difficult.
you turn back to the mirror and take another look at yourself, slightly turning to check your profile. your shoulders drop and you sigh in disappointment when you can clearly see your stupid chest through the shirt.
"love." jungkook speaks with that gentle and careful tone, like he's thinking about what he could say to comfort you because of course he knows what's wrong. but he doesn't really say anything, he just walks up to you and wraps his arms around your waist from behind, resting his chin on your shoulder and looking at you through the mirror.
"what?" you avoid his eyes as yours go down to your chest, then to his arms wrapped around you. he has strong arms and they make your body look so small when he holds you like this. you kinda wish you were also big and strong like him, the only thing that's keeping you from having another dysphoria breakdown over not being bigger is how nice it feels to be held by him.
"you look really cool." your boyfriend says as he looks up and down your body but you can only sigh.
"i look stupid." you say.
"you don't." he lifts his head from your shoulder to instead nuzzle against your neck, leaving a sweet little kiss on it.
"i do," you insist and jungkook's breath hits your neck from how he sighs. "i don't even know why you..." you shut your mouth before finishing the sentence because it would hurt too much to say it but jungkook looks up from your neck with a frown and rests his chin on your shoulder again, never breaking the backhug.
"why i what?" he asks curiously, his eyes narrowed as they look straight into yours through the mirror.
"i don't- i don't know why you like me." the knot in your throat almost doesn't let you finish the sentence but you somehow do.
"what?" jungkook frowns, he looks at you like you've said the craziest thing he's ever heard. "literally what the hell are you talking about?" he actually sounds mad and you flinch a little at the tone of his voice but he instantly turns you around to face him and he cups your cheeks with his hands. "can you please tell me why you think that?"
"it's not that i think you don't like me," you clarify, suddenly feeling even smaller. "but i don't know... you like boys, and i don't look like a boy. it feels like i'm not... manly enough." you mutter, your voice so quiet with embarrassment that you're sure jungkook wouldn't have heard you if he wasn't so close to you.
"are you a boy?" jungkook asks simply.
"jungkook-"
"are you?"
"yes."
"then why are you saying those things?" he brushes your cheeks with his thumbs. "i could not care less about what's under your clothes and if you look more or less manly, whatever the hell that means."
"but i care," you say and immediately look down when your voice breaks and the first tear rolls down your cheek. you can hear jungkook sigh, not an annoyed sigh but a defeated sigh, you know this is not easy for him either and you can't blame him. "i'm so tired." you put your hands over your face as you start crying and jungkook wraps his arms around you, pulling you closer to him in a warm hug.
"it's okay, love, i'm here." he rubs your back as you wrap your arms around his waist and bury your head on his chest, not having half a mind to feel bad for wetting his shirt with your tears.
"i just want to feel good with myself, it's all i've wanted for years, but it's so hard." you sob against his chest.
"i know it is." jungkook hums and holds your head to his chest with one of his hands, slowly brushing your hair to try and calm you down a little.
"i go out and strangers refer to me as a girl, i look in the mirror and i don't see a boy, my body sucks... i fucking hate it." you're full on sobbing now. you're crying like a baby and jungkook is so gentle with you, he holds you until your sobs have turned into little whimpers and a little headache is starting to bother you. that's what you hate about crying, the headache after.
"look at me, y/n." jungkook speaks softly, as if not to disturb you.
you look up at him and he quickly brings his hands to your face, cupping your cheeks gently and starting to wipe your tears away. "i'm sorry." you sniff and he frowns.
"why are you sorry, love?" jungkook leans down and leaves a kiss on your forehead that makes you feel a little giddy even in your current state.
"i don't know," you force a chuckle. "for crying over something so stupid."
"it's not stupid," he shakes his head. "it's something that is upsetting you, that's never something stupid."
"i love you." you say and feel a little better when he smiles.
"i love you too," jungkook gives your lips a little kiss. "and you look fucking cool with this fit." he adds.
"i don't," you insist and ignore the way he rolls his eyes to turn around again and look in the mirror. "i'll wear a big hoodie or something, anything that covers this." you point towards your chest in frustration.
"it's really hot outside, if you wear a hoodie you're gonna melt into the ground." jungkook says and sits on the edge of your bed, not taking his eyes off of you.
"i don't care," you say. "those are the types of things you have to endure, but you wouldn't understand," you turn around to gesture at him with your hand. "you already have that flat chest, you have nothing to worry about."
"don't hate the player." he puts his hands up and you can't help but chuckle a little.
"stupid..." you mumble as you go back to look for some other clothes in the closet.
"also, not to brag but i might have more boobs than you." jungkook jokes and you throw your head back in laughter. you appreciate that he knows how to make you laugh in moments like this.
"yeah, if you don't stop going to the gym." you say, going through his clothes.
"you want me to stop going to the gym?" he asks and you turn around to look at him. jungkook is looking at you with a dangerous smirk and a cocked eyebrow.
"careful," you warn him and he breaks in a laugh. "you know i don't want you to stop going." you walk towards him until you're standing between his spread legs.
"i know," jungkook hums as you run your hand through his soft hair. he puts his hands on your thighs as to keep you in place, his fingers playing with the side pockets of your jeans. "you love using my chest as a pillow, of course i would know." he says, making you laugh.
"they are really squishy." you bring your free hand to his chest and poke one of his pecs, making him squirm away from you.
"stop!" he giggles, grabbing your wrist to pull it away. he ends up intertwining your fingers together.
"you use my chest as a pillow too." you say as you keep playing with his hair with your other hand.
"should i not?" he asks, voice a bit softer now as he gives your hand he's holding a little squeeze. you know he's still careful around certain topics sometimes.
"you can, it's okay." you shrug with a little smile because you find him so cute.
"okay." he nods and suddenly lets go of your hand to wrap his arms around your middle and pull you closer, his head pressed to your stomach.
"will you... will you miss my boobs when i don't have them anymore?" you ask quietly. both of your hands are on his hair now, playing with the soft strands between your fingers.
"huh?" he hums.
"i mean, i know you like them..." you trail off but he doesn't say anything so you keep talking. "i wonder if you would prefer me with boobs."
jungkook pulls away just enough to look up at you. "what are you talking about?"
"i don't know."
"love, i just told you i don't give a shit what's under your clothes," he says. "i fell in love with you, not with your boobs, you know."
a little smile grows on your face. "i fell in love with your boobs, actually." you tease him and he chuckles a little.
"okay, but seriously," jungkook continues. "i'll like you just the same when you have a flat chest. i'll like you even more because i know you're gonna be a lot happier."
"so you don't care that i'm not gonna have boobs anymore?"
"even if i cared, who gives a fuck what i think about it?" he frowns. "you're the one who decides what you want to do with your body."
"i know." you nod.
"so please, don't let those ugly thoughts cloud that pretty head, okay?" he says as he slips his hands under your (his) shirt and places them on your waist, just leaving them there like he needs that skin to skin contact. "in my eyes you're fucking gorgeous now and you'll be fucking gorgeous after."
you can't help but smile and bend down a little to kiss him, your hands slipping down from his hair to his cheeks.
"i love you." you say after breaking the kiss.
"i love you more," he smiles and gives you another kiss. "you're so handsome, love."
"okay, enough with the praises," you giggle as you stand up straight again. "i know you enough to know where this is going and i don't wanna be late."
"it's not my fault you're horny all the time," he pouts and you gasp, letting your jaw drop dramatically. "you know it's true, so don't even try to act offended."
"i hate you." you sigh and turn around to walk back to the closet.
"you don't." he says and you can hear the smile in his voice.
you take jungkook's shirt off your body and grab one of his favorite hoodies, putting it on and walking to the mirror. you check your profile and sigh in relief at how the thick material doesn't let your chest pop out as much as the shirt, but you're still a little disappointed.
"you know i've been promoted at work, soon we will-"
"jungkook, stop." you cut him off, already knowing where this is going.
"soon we will afford the mastectomy." he says either way and you sigh, turning to him.
"you're not gonna pay for it, jungkook." you try to sound as serious as you can because you know how stubborn he is. you actually know he's not gonna listen either way because you've talked about this so many times before so you don't really know why you keep trying.
"i'm not gonna pay for it, i'm just gonna help." jungkook replies easily with a shrug of his shoulders.
"this is my thing, i have to pay for it myself." you insist.
"love, you know you can't afford it."
"that's why i'm saving up."
"and that's also why i'm saving up too, because i wanna help you pay it." jungkook says.
"jungkook."
"if we save up together this will be over sooner, do you know that?"
you go quiet.
"it breaks my heart to see you like this, to see you so frustrated because you want something and you can't have it." jungkook stands up and walks slowly towards you. "just let me help you. i want to do this with you." he takes one of your hands in his and you lower your head to look at them. your hands look so small in his, but that's also something you kinda like.
"i don't want you to waste money on me." you mutter.
"i'm not gonna waste that money," jungkook says. "thanks to that money i'm gonna see you happier and more confident than ever, i can't fucking wait to spend that money on it."
you exhale through your nose and lift your head up again to look at him. "you're too sweet."
"i know." he sighs dramatically, making you laugh again.
"i love you."
"i love you too," jungkook whispers before kissing you again. "my pretty boy."
"stop..." you warn him and he chuckles.
"c'mon, go get ready." he gives your ass a little slap.
"do you think i look good like this?" you step back a little to let him see the look.
"you look great," jungkook says. "i love it when you wear my clothes."
"i love wearing your clothes," you smile wide and grab your phone from the nightstand. "i should get going."
"mh, okay." he nods as he walks out of the bedroom, you follow him.
"don't wait for me, i'll probably be out until late." you tell him and jungkook hums.
"okay, tell eunji happy birthday for me." he says and walks to the couch, grabbing the remote from the coffee table before sitting down.
"i will." you say while he starts looking for something to watch on the tv. your gaze goes down to your body, fixing the hoodie a little.
"love," jungkook calls you and you look up, he's already looking at you. "you look so good." he says.
"do i really?"
"yes," he nods. "so good that if you don't leave now i won't be able to let you go."
you throw your head back as you laugh. "okay."
"have fun, keep me updated if anything happens." he tells you and you just hum.
"love you!" you say as you disappear down the corridor towards the door.
"love you more, handsome!"
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A/N: i hope you liked this little fic !!! as a non binary person with craaaaaazy dysphoria this one has an important place in my heart, all of us live through these things in different ways but i hope you enjoyed this story. thank u for reading <3 let me know if you would like to read more about this couple in the future 👀
(also, i'm still working on the part two for basic needs so hang in there !! it's coming)
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joonmon · 2 months
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Day 1
Bonus:
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And I welcome y'all to a new month with a new idol💜
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honey-boyyoongi · 8 months
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Oh, baby!
Reader x Yoongi | Part 58//?
Summary ➪ Min Yoongi, is a simple man. He likes his coffee black and iced, he enjoys his job, and he loves his baby girl. But what happens when the new neighbor, quite literally, drops into his life?
Warnings ➪ any typos are mine; angst lol; some cursing; talk of postpartum depression; gaslighting??; toxic relationship??; if post you’re name is crossed out it’s because I couldn’t tag you;
A/n: heyyyy~~~~~ sorry for disappearing. Some things are going on right now, and y’all I’m stressed. Anywho~~ as always feedback is appreciated and if you would like to be added
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httpjungkookcom · 2 years
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spider-man jungkook x childhood best friend (angst), done!!
college classmate / bestie jungkook x reader who doesn’t know who he is idol related (smut, pinning),
art model jungkook x artist reader who desperately needs a muse for her class assignment (dumb roommate teasing, smut)???
please vote!!
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fluffyydumplings · 2 years
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Cafe Solace (Teaser)
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Pairings: vocal!line x bunny hybrid!reader / cafe!owners x homeless!reader
Genre: hybrid!au / divided!world / angst / a sprinkle of fluff
Summary: Running away when home didn’t shelter you as it should have, slowly but surely they fizzled out your unwavering disbelief in compassion. And soon enough did your fast-beating heart calm into an unyielding surge of serenity. But the tide of the ocean rises and falls, and when the place you’ve ran away to starts blurring away into the place you’ve ran away from.. You crash and fall, just like the ocean’s tide.. Even if they wrap you up in their arms, trying to desperately keep you warm from the sky’s tears. The moon will forever be stronger, and you will forever fall..
A/N: Happy Birthday to the best best friend I will ever have @hobateas.. Although I am unable to finish this fic in time for your birthday, I wanted to show you what I have done so far.. And how this beautiful story that is yours is slowly building its way up to completion.. I will message you privately further on.. But, I hope you know how much I appreciate you :]
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